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     1.4 +a story of 
     1.5 +
     1.6 +Tomoyo's Love
     1.7 +
     1.8 +by that that walrusy guy you all know and love[tehwalrus@gmail.com]
     1.9 +
    1.10 +It started off with a dove and the expression that it made on the face of 
    1.11 +Tomoyo's love. Sakura smiled brightly as she watched the bird with happiness 
    1.12 +plain writ upon her cheeks, a picturesque moment Tomoyo would cherish for 
    1.13 +weeks. And yet there was sadness there, not in Sakura's but Tomoyo's own. Both 
    1.14 +the girls have grown from the small children you have known, but as far as 
    1.15 +Time's wings have flown they have done naught to heal pains in hearts depths 
    1.16 +unknown.
    1.17 +
    1.18 +The day is black and white in Tomoyo's eyes, with a spray of pink surprise, a 
    1.19 +feeling of love she feared was all lies, but if Sakura knew, if she would only 
    1.20 +realize... but where would Tomoyo then be? In Sakura's arms or thrown out the 
    1.21 +door? Nay, such insecurity she needs must ignore, she must play it safe with 
    1.22 +her love, hide, cage it safely inside so Sakura could not see accidentally. And 
    1.23 +that was hard. Sakura brought it welling forth with a single word or look, even 
    1.24 +the most simple sight. And thus Tomoyo swayed back and forth, heaving sighs of 
    1.25 +delight or sitting silently in Sakura's light, fearing she might put it out and 
    1.26 +be alone in the night... her heart, the site of many a battle, her Reasoning a 
    1.27 +stalwart knight to push back the overwhelming tide of uncertainties and doubts 
    1.28 +that comes blazing forth to try and open the cage's door, to make certain she 
    1.29 +could hide her love no more, to push her feelings to the fore, for good or ill, 
    1.30 +and then wait and see if her heart was beating still or dashed upon the cold 
    1.31 +hard floor.
    1.32 +
    1.33 +To put a word of her loving forth... it is more than Tomoyo's life is worth. To 
    1.34 +say those simple words, a task more monumental than all else for she must fight 
    1.35 +herself and Tomoyo did not even know which side of the battle she cheered.
    1.36 +
    1.37 +"Tomoyo-chan? Are you okay? You haven't said much since we've come, and it was 
    1.38 +your idea to watch the birds in the park."
    1.39 +
    1.40 +She had invited Sakura here indeed, for she knew she must soon decide, step 
    1.41 +over that great divide, she must choose the winning side. For she had not 
    1.42 +forever, that hope had died, she must either take to Sakura's side or be 
    1.43 +roughly shoved aside and be left behind. Syaoran Li and a few like him chased 
    1.44 +after Sakura's magic, and while the mess it made of thier lives was tragic 
    1.45 +[poor Meilin, to have told and been given such a shoulder cold, though I'm sure 
    1.46 +she still expects to be the one beside him when they are old] and while they 
    1.47 +were better than the new crowd who wished only to have the beauty who broke the 
    1.48 +mold, none sought her heart to cherish and hold, so perhaps it is a must for 
    1.49 +Tomoyo to be bold and do just that, to keep it warm from cold, to love forever, 
    1.50 +Sakura close to hold...
    1.51 +
    1.52 +Sakura was one who loved foremost, and she gave it to all unknowning and 
    1.53 +misunderstanding, misrepresenting her emotions to those most dear to her, 
    1.54 +strength as fear, respect as love... How could Tomoyo know where she stands? 
    1.55 +And so.
    1.56 +
    1.57 +"Sakura-chan... I love you."
    1.58 +
    1.59 +And so the dove, in it's simple flight unfolds the complexities of love. But of 
    1.60 +course it is not finished yet, not the end but not even the start, Sakura's 
    1.61 +understanding does not fly straight as the dart. So the waiting is even more 
    1.62 +painful for the one most heavily involved as what she had resolved turned out 
    1.63 +not so easily solved.
    1.64 +
    1.65 +"Of course Tomoyo-chan, I love you too. You're my best friend."
    1.66 +
    1.67 +A shake of the head... Tomoyo despairs at how this will end.
    1.68 +
    1.69 +"I love you Sakura. I fall asleep thinking of you, spend the night dreaming of 
    1.70 +you and wake, eager to go and see you. I meet you and I am lost in you, I 
    1.71 +follow you, the wonderful girl Sakura, for the day until I must dreadfully part 
    1.72 +with you for another night, to dream of you again. I love you."
    1.73 +
    1.74 +Sakura was not stupid, her sight merely didn't detect certain things, those 
    1.75 +lines of string that connect people to each other. But to have them spelt out 
    1.76 +was to have them revealed, and a haze from her sight was peeled. Tomoyo's 
    1.77 +eccentricity was removed... it was a love, intense and burning inside the pale 
    1.78 +girl. She had hoisted that love as a sail and let it unfurl, that even Sakura 
    1.79 +might see it.
    1.80 +
    1.81 +Sakura searched for a sail of her own, examining things she had left alone, 
    1.82 +never truly dwelling on these thoughts. And yet, just as Tomoyo had explained 
    1.83 +she had thoughts the same of her friend.
    1.84 +
    1.85 +"Is this love? Tomoyo-chan... I feel the same for you. You are the anchor of my 
    1.86 +life, the thing that it centers around. I see a beautiful bird, and I think 'I 
    1.87 +wish Tomoyo was here to see this with me' or a hundred similar things..."
    1.88 +
    1.89 +And so Sakura told herself true to Tomoyo, fighting back all those insecurities 
    1.90 +and letting the love shine through. And yet Sakura was unsure and did not 
    1.91 +understand what she thought, or what was thought of her... was that love? She 
    1.92 +didn't know, she never knew... Tomoyo always helps her though, with such 
    1.93 +things, and Tomoyo is here, saying this is love.
    1.94 +
    1.95 +They lived, mostly happy much of the time, for a while, together, their spirits 
    1.96 +mingled for ever and ever.
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