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1 a story of | |
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3 Tomoyo's Love | |
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5 by that that walrusy guy you all know and love[tehwalrus@gmail.com] | |
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7 It started off with a dove and the expression that it made on the face of | |
8 Tomoyo's love. Sakura smiled brightly as she watched the bird with happiness | |
9 plain writ upon her cheeks, a picturesque moment Tomoyo would cherish for | |
10 weeks. And yet there was sadness there, not in Sakura's but Tomoyo's own. Both | |
11 the girls have grown from the small children you have known, but as far as | |
12 Time's wings have flown they have done naught to heal pains in hearts depths | |
13 unknown. | |
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15 The day is black and white in Tomoyo's eyes, with a spray of pink surprise, a | |
16 feeling of love she feared was all lies, but if Sakura knew, if she would only | |
17 realize... but where would Tomoyo then be? In Sakura's arms or thrown out the | |
18 door? Nay, such insecurity she needs must ignore, she must play it safe with | |
19 her love, hide, cage it safely inside so Sakura could not see accidentally. And | |
20 that was hard. Sakura brought it welling forth with a single word or look, even | |
21 the most simple sight. And thus Tomoyo swayed back and forth, heaving sighs of | |
22 delight or sitting silently in Sakura's light, fearing she might put it out and | |
23 be alone in the night... her heart, the site of many a battle, her Reasoning a | |
24 stalwart knight to push back the overwhelming tide of uncertainties and doubts | |
25 that comes blazing forth to try and open the cage's door, to make certain she | |
26 could hide her love no more, to push her feelings to the fore, for good or ill, | |
27 and then wait and see if her heart was beating still or dashed upon the cold | |
28 hard floor. | |
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30 To put a word of her loving forth... it is more than Tomoyo's life is worth. To | |
31 say those simple words, a task more monumental than all else for she must fight | |
32 herself and Tomoyo did not even know which side of the battle she cheered. | |
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34 "Tomoyo-chan? Are you okay? You haven't said much since we've come, and it was | |
35 your idea to watch the birds in the park." | |
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37 She had invited Sakura here indeed, for she knew she must soon decide, step | |
38 over that great divide, she must choose the winning side. For she had not | |
39 forever, that hope had died, she must either take to Sakura's side or be | |
40 roughly shoved aside and be left behind. Syaoran Li and a few like him chased | |
41 after Sakura's magic, and while the mess it made of thier lives was tragic | |
42 [poor Meilin, to have told and been given such a shoulder cold, though I'm sure | |
43 she still expects to be the one beside him when they are old] and while they | |
44 were better than the new crowd who wished only to have the beauty who broke the | |
45 mold, none sought her heart to cherish and hold, so perhaps it is a must for | |
46 Tomoyo to be bold and do just that, to keep it warm from cold, to love forever, | |
47 Sakura close to hold... | |
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49 Sakura was one who loved foremost, and she gave it to all unknowning and | |
50 misunderstanding, misrepresenting her emotions to those most dear to her, | |
51 strength as fear, respect as love... How could Tomoyo know where she stands? | |
52 And so. | |
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54 "Sakura-chan... I love you." | |
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56 And so the dove, in it's simple flight unfolds the complexities of love. But of | |
57 course it is not finished yet, not the end but not even the start, Sakura's | |
58 understanding does not fly straight as the dart. So the waiting is even more | |
59 painful for the one most heavily involved as what she had resolved turned out | |
60 not so easily solved. | |
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62 "Of course Tomoyo-chan, I love you too. You're my best friend." | |
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64 A shake of the head... Tomoyo despairs at how this will end. | |
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66 "I love you Sakura. I fall asleep thinking of you, spend the night dreaming of | |
67 you and wake, eager to go and see you. I meet you and I am lost in you, I | |
68 follow you, the wonderful girl Sakura, for the day until I must dreadfully part | |
69 with you for another night, to dream of you again. I love you." | |
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71 Sakura was not stupid, her sight merely didn't detect certain things, those | |
72 lines of string that connect people to each other. But to have them spelt out | |
73 was to have them revealed, and a haze from her sight was peeled. Tomoyo's | |
74 eccentricity was removed... it was a love, intense and burning inside the pale | |
75 girl. She had hoisted that love as a sail and let it unfurl, that even Sakura | |
76 might see it. | |
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78 Sakura searched for a sail of her own, examining things she had left alone, | |
79 never truly dwelling on these thoughts. And yet, just as Tomoyo had explained | |
80 she had thoughts the same of her friend. | |
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82 "Is this love? Tomoyo-chan... I feel the same for you. You are the anchor of my | |
83 life, the thing that it centers around. I see a beautiful bird, and I think 'I | |
84 wish Tomoyo was here to see this with me' or a hundred similar things..." | |
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86 And so Sakura told herself true to Tomoyo, fighting back all those insecurities | |
87 and letting the love shine through. And yet Sakura was unsure and did not | |
88 understand what she thought, or what was thought of her... was that love? She | |
89 didn't know, she never knew... Tomoyo always helps her though, with such | |
90 things, and Tomoyo is here, saying this is love. | |
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92 They lived, mostly happy much of the time, for a while, together, their spirits | |
93 mingled for ever and ever. |