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1 Dear Sakura
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2 by Amazoness Duo and G.P.
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3 amazonessduo@hotmail.com
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4 pearsong1954@yahoo.com
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5
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6 Dear Sakura-chan,
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7 You don’t have to be in any rush to get back to me. I’m always
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8 happy to receive any letters from you, but don’t worry about how long
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9 it takes. I understand how busy Sakura-chan’s life must be with
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10 starting all over in China and with a new husband and family. So
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11 please don’t worry yourself, Sakura-chan. And if you ever need to
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12 call me, please don’t hesitate. I would always love to hear your
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13 voice again and if you need someone to talk to about anything, you
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14 know you can always trust me. I can pay the bill for any calls you
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15 make as well. It would be worth it just to hear you. I don’t think
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16 anything you ever talk
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17 about is silly. Sakura-chan’s mind moves around a lot like a
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18 meandering ocean breeze, moving through all sorts of wonderful
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19 thoughts. I’ve always found whatever you want to talk about
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20 fascinating because I love just being able to talk with you, to be
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21 able to hear your thoughts and feelings on things. Some of my fondest
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22 memories are of when we were together, talking about the most trivial
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23 of things, without a care in the world. You looked so free. I wished
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24 I could be that free. That you could teach me to soar. But it was
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25 enough to watch you. I hope that freedom of a gentle breeze never
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26 leaves you, Sakura-chan.
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27 I’m very happy that Sakura-chan liked all of the things I’ve sent.
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28 I was hoping you would. I have an idea or two for the doll’s hair
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29 that I’m working into the design so that hopefully little girls will
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30 be able to play with her hair the way they want to more. I always
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31 enjoyed trying out new hairstyles myself, so I want to keep that with
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32 the doll. She still needs a name, but we don’t need to worry about
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33 that yet. I’m thinking something like Hanako. ‘Flower Child’. That
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34 would be pretty. She does look a lot like you, but you were always
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35 the girl I sketched when I was making my designs. You were just so
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36 pretty. So I think
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37 she looks cute, sharing some of your features. Maybe she can even be
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38 a magical girl. I’ll send you one of the first dolls we produce for
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39 all of the inspiration you have always given me. And it meant so much
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40 to me to hear that you liked the cassette I sent you. I haven’t sung
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41 to anyone but myself in so long that I wasn’t sure how it would come
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42 out. I’m so very sorry that it made you cry, but I’m glad that it
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43 managed to touch you. Maybe I shouldn’t have added that last song
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44 after all. It was pretty sad. I know what you mean about thinking
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45 things would
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46 always stay the way they were, Sakura-chan. I always knew that you
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47 would leave me someday, but I hadn’t expected it so soon. I guess it
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48 took me by surprise. I knew we’d have to part ways one day, but I
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49 always wanted it to be tomorrow, never today. Sometimes it’s hard for
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50 me to remember that you aren’t the same little girl that I first met.
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51 You’re still the same vibrant, loving soul, but you’ve grown up. And
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52 I’m so proud of you. You’re starting your own family now, starting a
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53 new life in China with the one you love. I hope all of your dreams
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54 come true. But sometimes I can’t help but look out at the stars at
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55 night and think that the heavens are crying, missing Sakura-chan as
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56 much as I
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57 do.
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58 That’s great that the recipes worked out so well for Sakura-chan!
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59 You can do such wonderful things when you put your mind to it. I knew
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60 it would turn out perfectly for you. It really did look delicious. It
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61 got me thinking about if you had anymore trouble cooking because I
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62 know you can’t just use the same recipes over and over again. So I
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63 went and got my camcorder out from the attic and decided to put
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64 together a few more recipes for Sakura-chan. What you said about me
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65 by your side sent a trill through my heart. We have a very good chef
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66 so I had her teach me some more recipes. I went through the entire
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67 recipe on video and taped myself making the successful dishes. I’ll
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68 try to send more when
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69 I have more time to cook. I really hope they help. I thought it
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70 would be a good job for my old camcorder. It isn’t capturing images
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71 of the most beautiful object I could find for it, but I can still
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72 send you these videotapes with me in them. Hopefully they’ll help
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73 with your cooking. And so you won’t forget me. I’m glad that Ieran-
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74 sama still thinks of me fondly. I think she understood some things I
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75 was dealing with when we were in Hong Kong.
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76 Thank you for sending more pictures! I think it was a good idea for
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77 you to get a camera. With all that’s going on in your life, it needs
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78 to be taken down for posterity. And since I can’t do that anymore,
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79 Sakura-chan can. I would love to see any pictures you take, no matter
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80 what they’re of. It makes me smile to see what’s going on with my
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81 favorite magical girl and her new life in China. I think that you
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82 would make a very good photographer. I’m going to start making a
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83 picture album to put by my old videotape collection once I have
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84 enough photos. Mother used to have a camera when she was younger and
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85 she took many beautiful pictures with it. I know that if Sakura-chan
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86 keeps practicing, she'll take many beautiful pictures herself.
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87 I tried watching the videotape of your wedding when I got off of
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88 work a few days ago. Touya took some wonderful shots of you. You
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89 looked so stunning in your wedding dress. I had a hard time seeing
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90 you through the tears at the time. I was just so happy that Sakura-
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91 chan was finally getting married. It was really a beautiful wedding.
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92 I still haven’t made it to the end. I got a little busy and haven’t
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93 quite reached past where I left. I’ll try to again soon. Maybe I’ll
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94 have more free time after I finish the designs for the doll. No,
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95 please don’t worry
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96 about me Sakura-chan. I’m just fine. I just started feeling a pain
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97 in my chest near the end of it, but I don’t think it’s anything to
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98 worry about. I’ve been healthy and there’s nothing for you to worry
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99 about. It went away after I fell asleep back at home for the most
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100 part. Just please don’t worry. I know it’s nothing to see a doctor
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101 about. And that is the truth. I promise that I’ll take good care of
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102 myself, Sakura-chan. For you.
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103 Your bouquet is very important to me. Whenever I hold it, I see you
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104 right before the wedding, when I was helping you into your wedding
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105 dress. I see that happy smile and the bright glow in your emerald
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106 eyes and I know that you’ll be just fine. That you’re finally happy.
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107 It’s kind of strange. That’s what I’ve worked my whole life for, to
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108 see you happy. Now that you’re finally married off and that’s
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109 accomplished, I don’t know what to do anymore. Silly, isn’t it? I’ll
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110 need to come up with a new plan, I guess. But now I don’t have to
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111 worry because Li-kun is taking good care of you.
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112 I’m so glad that you remembered! Hai, that was the eraser you gave
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113 me the first day we met. I was so lonely and nervous about
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114 everything. I was never any good at making friends and the classroom
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115 seemed so big with all of those faces I didn’t know. But then this
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116 really sweet girl sitting next to me offered me her eraser when I
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117 needed one. When I looked at her, at you, it all seemed okay. I
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118 didn’t feel so lonely anymore. You’ve always had that affect on me.
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119 So that
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120 eraser has been very important to me, my very first memento of
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121 Sakura-chan.
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122 My spirits sing to know that you’ve been thinking about me a lot
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123 lately. You’re always close to my thoughts. So I’m happy to know
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124 that I’ve been in yours as well. But please don’t let it make you
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125 sad. I’ll always be your friend and you should be smiling a lot now
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126 in your new life. You have a lot to be happy about. It makes me happy
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127 to know that you are. So the next time you think of me, please smile
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128 knowing that your old friend wants only the best for you. I would
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129 love to watch you dancing. I think it would be a very beautiful thing
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130 to witness. It reminds me of watching you dance with the Flower Card.
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131 Yes, mother is a very good dancer. She doesn’t dance very often
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132 because she says that ‘her dance card is already filled’. She said
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133 she’s waiting for a specific dance with the wind. But she did teach
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134 me to dance a bit when I was younger. It can be fun with the right
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135 partner, I’m sure. So I’m sure Sakura-chan must have a lot of fun
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136 when she does dance.
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137 Poor Sakura-chan! I’m so sorry that you think Ieran-sama doesn’t
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138 like you. I’m sure that isn’t true. She may seem like she does, but
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139 she seems like she’s always like that. Just try to look past the
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140 strict exterior. She probably is still a little angry about the
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141 wedding, what with Li-kun being engaged to Meiling-chan, but she’ll
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142 have to realize what a good wife Sakura-chan is soon enough. Your
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143 warm heart will melt whatever resistance she has before long. It
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144 always does. Remember, Li-kun didn’t like you much to begin with
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145 either, but now he’s your husband! So you can touch anyone’s heart in
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146 enough time. I know you touched mine. I wish I was there, too, Sakura-
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147 chan. But it’s probably
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148 better that I’m not. I’m certain Li-kun would get tired of me after
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149 I kept videotaping your married life. But you can always talk to me
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150 about anything, even if I am an ocean away. I’m always here for you
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151 when you need me.
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152 That’s very sweet that Naoko-chan’s doing so well. I should really
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153 go see how she and Nakuru-san are doing sometime. They sure do make
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154 an interesting couple, don’t they? That sounds just like the type of
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155 place Naoko-chan would want to live. I wonder how she convinced
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156 Nakuru-san it was a good idea. It’s great to hear that the two of
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157 them are so happy. Love has a way of surpassing so much. It really is
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158 a strong thing. It seems everyone’s finding their special someone
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159 these days. I bet Kero-chan’s next.
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160 Please don’t mind the parts of this letter that used to be wet. I
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161 spilled some droplets of water on it on accident and tried my best to
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162 dry it. Thank you for being so concerned about my love life, Sakura-
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163 chan. You’ve always been such a wonderful friend. Mother found me
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164 reading this part of your letter and after we talked for a while, she
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165 said that there was one person I reminded her of. She said that your
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166 mother acted the same way sometimes. That’s strange, isn’t it? But I
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167 guess it’s the way mother raised me. Nadeshiko-san was very important
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168 to her. I’m glad you think I should tell my special someone, but I
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169 don’t think I can anymore. I thought I had all the time in the
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170 world, but as time went on I started thinking it would be better for
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171 them if I didn’t say anything. So I changed my mind about telling
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172 them a long time ago and have kept it to myself. Sakura-chan, what if
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173 the person I love already had someone? If they’re happy now, I
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174 wouldn’t want to ruin that. I’m happy as long as they are. Yes, I
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175 think maybe they don’t love me. But I’ve accepted that. So as long as
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176 they can be happy, that’s enough for me. I don’t think they’d be any
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177 happier knowing about my feelings. They’re much better kept deep
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178 inside, where I can hold them close to my heart. They can’t do any
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179 harm that way and I can still love them from afar. If you were the
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180 man I loved, Sakura-chan, I would love to lie in your arms and fall
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181 asleep knowing that you would be with
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182 me in the morning. And I would love to tell you how much I love you.
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183 But I couldn’t. Because your love belongs to another. So I hope that
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184 makes this easier to understand, even if it is a rather strange
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185 analogy. I would love to tell my special someone how much I love
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186 them, to finally be able to let that love escape the bonds I’ve
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187 created for it, but I can’t. So I’ll just be happy for them. And
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188 that’s enough for me. It brings a smile to my lips when I know that
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189 they’re smiling because it means they’re truly happy. That’s much
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190 more important
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191 than having them know my feelings. I would love to have you come
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192 back to Japan and take pictures of my wedding, but I don’t need one.
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193 I’ll be fine without. Thank you, Sakura-chan.
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194 Please take care of yourself! I hope everything goes well for you.
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195 Please take many, many more pictures! I need more for my scrapbook.
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196 Tell everyone that I said hello. And please do get some rest. You
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197 really need it. I miss you, too, Sakura-chan. I hope I can hear from
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198 you soon. Try to have some fun soon with the Sakura Cards!
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199
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200
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201 To the best prince in the fourth grade,
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202 From Daidouji Tomoyo
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208 Dear Tomoyo-chan,
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209
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210 It was so wonderful to hear your voice again! Talking on the phone
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211 was a good idea, and looking forward to our regular Sunday calls is a
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212 real treat. There is so much to talk about each week, and even when
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213 there isn't I just love to hear you. It's funny, because I had never
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214 realized how beautiful your voice is. Not your singing, because I
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215 already knew that was wonderful, but just your voice. When I talk to
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216 you, I feel so at ease, so happy and content. For all those years, I
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217 didn't really know how important it was for me just to listen to you.
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218 But being apart made me realize how lucky I was when we were
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219 together. So now I treasure every second with you.
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220
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221 Still, there are some things I don't feel comfortable talking about
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222 on the phone. Some things are better written, I think, so I decided
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223 to start writing letters again. I hope you don't mind, because I know
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224 Tomoyo-chan is very busy with her work. If you don't have time to
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225 reply, please don't worry about it. Just writting to you is pleasure
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226 enough. Oh, and I insist on paying for half the calls. You work very
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227 hard, too, and I would not feel right if you paid for them all. I
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228 think from now on, I should pay when I call, and you should pay when
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229 you call, and we can take turns calling. Does that sound all right?
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230 At least we won't do like last week, where we were each calling and
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231 calling at the same time, and kept getting busy signals!
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232
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233 I am drinking English Breakfast tea just now. I bought it while
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234 shopping in the city last Saturday. Did you know that Hong Kong was
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235 once a colony of Great Britain? There are many funny little English
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236 things here. I am sure Eriol-kun would feel right at home. Ieran-sama
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237 says that tea is an art. This surprised me. I know back home there is
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238 the tea ceremony, which is an art, but I never thought that just tea
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239 was an art by itself. It's funny, though, because I remember when we
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240 were looking for the Jump card at the Twin Bells Shoppe. Do you
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241 remember? The Lady told me afterwards that you were talking about tea
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242 before she feinted. She said you were the most knowledgeable girl
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243 about tea that she had ever met. So I guess you knew all along.
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244 Anyway, I asked Ieran-sama if she could show me some of the things
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245 she knows about tea. She looked quite surprised, and then told me she
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246 might as well, since the family would have to drink what I brewed,
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247 and it might as well be done right. I have learned many things from
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248 her, and am very grateful. You would be surprised at how much better
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249 my tea is now! Even if Ieran-sama does not like me, she does seem to
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250 like my tea, which is a start.
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252 She now asks me to prepare tea for her, which she never did before.
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253 The first time I made it, I was very nervous. She drank the tea with
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254 a frown, and looked at me with a very scary look. She said if I did
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255 not do better, then I would have something to be nervous about. So
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256 the next time, I pretended Tomoyo-chan was with me, and that we both
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257 brewed tea together. That was such a help, because whenever things
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258 were hard and you were with me, I always felt confident that
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259 everything would be all right. So thank you for helping, Tomoyo-chan!
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260
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261 And speaking of help in the kitchen, please keep sending me your
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262 wonderful videos. I know your video camera must be very happy to be
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263 with you again. It must have been sad and lonely up in the attic. I
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264 have made almost all the recipes you have sent me, as you can see
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265 from some of the pictures of the family dinners I have prepared
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266 (Look, even Ieran-sama is smiling in one of them!). But sometimes I
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267 just like to watch Tomoyo-chan on the videos. You always filmed me,
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268 and almost never yourself. But you look sooooo cute in your apron,
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269 with your beautiful hair in braids, bustling about the kitchen,
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270 patiently explaining each recipe in your sweet, gentle voice,
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271 hanyaaaan!
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272
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273 I had to stop writting. It is hard to write when you are blushing.
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274 Anyway, thank you, and any videos you send are very appreciated in
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275 many ways.
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276
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277 Tomoyo-chan, may I tell you about a dream I have had? I have had
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278 this dream twice now, and talked about it with Kero-chan. He says he
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279 does not understand it, but that it sounds important. In the dream I
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280 am back in Japan, and it is night. It is chilly and windy, and I am
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281 starriing off into the distance trying to see something. Finally, off
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282 in the distance, I can make out Tokyo Tower. That is when I wake up.
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283 Kero chan says that is why it is an important dream, because of Tokyo
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284 Tower, which was in so many of my dreams when I was still capturing
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285 the Cards. I remember the one dream I had about Yue that was revealed
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286 to me little by little over many nights. It was a prophetic dream,
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287 about his judgement. So, maybe this funny dream is like that, and it
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288 will be more clear later.
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289
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290 Did you know that Yue is a Chinese word? It means "moon". I have
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291 been doing pretty well with my Chinese lessons. Syaoran-chan's
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292 sisters help me a lot, though they giggle at my accent. I offered to
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293 teach them Japanese, but only Fanren-san was interested. She says she
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294 would like to go to Japan someday, so we have a little lesson every
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295 week. In fact, my Chinese has gotten good enough so that I now have a
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296 job! This is how I can afford to pay for the phone calls, by the way.
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297 I will start next week as a Physical Education teacher at the Fung
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298 Kai Liu Yun Sum Memorial Primary School. Fortunately, I do not need
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299 to know much Chinese for the position, though I had to learn 12 new
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300 characters for the school name. The Principal of the school saw me
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301 when I was practicing my gymnastics in the courtyard. She called me
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302 over and we talked. It turns out she knows Japanese, but rarely has a
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303 chance to practice with the language. So, I will be giving lessons to
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304 her, too. Syaoran-chan was not very happy with the idea, but I
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305 promised I would still be able to do my housework as well as
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306 teaching. I'll bet you never thought your friend would be a sensei! I
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307 know I never did. I am very nervous, but will try my best.
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308
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309 I never quite know where to put bad news in a letter, so I guess it
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310 will go here. Syaoran-chan and I had our first fight last Tuesday. It
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311 was my fault, because he was tired and said things he did not mean. I
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312 got very angry, and I guess I yelled at him. He even slept in the
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313 living room, he was so mad. I couldn't sleep at all. But in the
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314 morning I apologized, and so did he, so things are OK now. I guess
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315 sometimes these things happen with loving couples, although when I
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316 told Oniichan about this, he said he never remembered Mother and
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317 Father fighting like that. I was sort of mad too because I don't see
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318 him all that often. That is very selfish, because he has to work
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319 hard, and I know he would rather be with me if he could. But
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320 sometimes I feel lonely, even when he is around. It's odd, because I
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321 never felt like that before. Lonely, I mean. But then, I was always
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322 around so many friends and family, and especially you, Tomoyo-chan. I
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323 really miss you so very much. It feels like something isn't quite
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324 right, somehow. I am so happy in my new life, though, and I shouldn't
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325 feel like that. Maybe I am just a little homesick at times.
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326
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327 That is the end of the bad news. Oh, I did have another dream. It
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328 was very weird, and I almost don't want to tell you about it. You
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329 were in the dream, and so was I, sort of. You were Tomoyo-chan, of
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330 course, but I was the boy that you love, and never told. But in this
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331 dream, you did tell me, when we were very young. We had grown up
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332 together, and were on a date at Tokyo Tower. Tomoyo-chan, you were -
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333 so- beautiful! You wore a flowing, white and lavendar chiffon dress,
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334 and your hair was bedecked in purple ribbons. You had a snow-white
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335 gardenia corsage that filled my dream with the sweetest scent. I was
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336 so very nervous in the dream, because, well, because I was going to
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337 ask you to marry me. Because you were so kind and gentle I was able
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338 to stammer out the words and offer you a golden ring. Your amythyst
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339 eyes filled with tears, and I was very afraid of your answer. But
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340 then you said yes, and my heart sang. We embraced and hugged, and
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341 danced together under the pale moonlight. You were so happy, and I
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342 have never been happier to see you like that.
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343
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344 I am sorry if you cannot let him know of your love. It makes me very
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345 sad to think about this. I was so unhappy when Li-kun left for Hong
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346 Kong. If it hadn't been for you, and Yukito-san, and Rika-chan, and
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347 Oniichan, and everybody, I might never have seen him on the bus, and
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348 told him I loved him. It was hard to wait, but I knew he loved me,
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349 and that he knew I loved him. And someday, I knew we would finally be
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350 together. Tomoyo-chan, it makes me cry to think of you, that you
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351 can't even tell your special person of your love. It must be so awful
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352 to have no hope, and you are so brave about it. I wish I had known
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353 back then, and maybe I could have helped you the way you helped me.
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354 You helped me so many times, and I didn't even know you needed help.
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355 I was so stupid about so much. Gomennasai. I don't think I was a very
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356 good friend for you. I feel so ashamed. Gomennasai, Tomoyo-chan. If I
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357 could, I would sacrafice all of my happiness for yours.
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358
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359 Aiyaa, I've gotten tears all over the place and the letters are all
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360 smeary. I know you are happy to have your beloved happy, but it's not
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361 fair that everybody gets their special someone except Tomoyo-chan.
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362 Tomoyo-chan, I promise that you will be all right, that everything
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363 will be all right. I don't know how, but I swear with all my heart
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364 that you will be with your special person.
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365
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366 After your last letter, I talked about you with some of the Cards.
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367 Somehow, I ended up talking with Flower about the place you and your
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368 mother went to dance. Aiyaa! Tomoyo-chan, before I knew it, -we- were
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369 dancing. At first it was a little weird, because we are both girls
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370 and all. But it was so nice, and I felt so wonderful afterwards. She
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371 gave me a beautiful purple and white orchid. For some reason, it
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372 reminded me of you. When I said that, she just smiled, and then we
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373 danced some more. I guess she is always ready for fun things. When
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374 Syaoran chan came home, he was puzzled by the scent, and kept looking
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375 around for the flowers. I was too embarrassed to tell him what
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376 happened.
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377
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378 I'm sorry, my thoughts are wandering here. This always happens when
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379 I'm thinking about Flower. In your wonderful letter you said I am
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380 like a meandering ocean breeze, so I don't feel quite so foolish.
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381 Arigato, Tomoyo chan. Anyway, I will do everything I can to help you
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382 with your special person. I don't know how, but I promise that Tomoyo-
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383 chan will be all right.
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384
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385 I promise.
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386
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387
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388
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389 Your friend forever,
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390
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391 Kinomoto Sakura
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392
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393 PS- I have enclosed some more pictures for your album. It must be a
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394 very beautiful album if you are designing it. There is one of me in
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395 my P.E. coach's uniform. Fanren-san took the picture.
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396
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397 PPS- If it is not too much trouble, could you please send me another
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398 casette tape of your singing? I think I have almsot worn this one out
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399 from playing it so much.
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400
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401 PPSS- I keep forgetting to tell you that Kero-chan sends his love,
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402 and Syaron-chan says hello.
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403
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408
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409 Dear Sakura-chan,
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410 I was thrilled to hear you again on the phone. I’ve been watching
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411 my videos a lot recently, so I’ve still been hearing you, but it was
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412 nice to actually know that you were there and could answer me. I’m
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413 always happy to talk to you and it was as close as I’ve been able to
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414 come in the past few months to actually being there by Sakura-chan’s
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415 side. You’ve always been a very emotional woman, but it’s even more
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416 evident hearing your voice than just the words. But even in your
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417 letters, I can hear your sweet voice. Sakura-chan, I’m very happy
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418 that you like hearing my voice. Sometimes we take the most important
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419 things for granted until it’s too late and we no longer have them.
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420 I’m glad that I took all of the footage of you I did so that I can
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421 still watch you. So even if you’re far away from me, I can still lose
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422 myself in memories of the past. You always were such a cute girl. And
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423 you’ve grown into a very lovely woman. I’m lucky to have been able to
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424 stay by your side for as long as I could. I always knew it would end
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425 one day. So I wanted to capture everything on videotape, a beautiful
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426 record of you that I could always keep close to my heart. So I’m
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427 happy as long as I can curl up and watch your cute adventures all
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428 over again, Sakura-chan. You were always so amazing! No matter what
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429 you were doing, you always captivated me.
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430 I understand if there are certain things that you would rather not
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431 talk about on the phone. In a way, letters can be more private. You
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432 don’t have to worry about anyone coming in or saying something
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433 confusing when you can’t look them in the eye and explain what you
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434 mean. More letters from you are always a good thing. Work can be
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435 busy, but I like taking your letters with me and reading them when I
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436 have some spare moments. Now that you’re sending new ones again, I’ll
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437 be happy to get back to them all as soon as I can. We can split the
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438 cost of the calls if you want, Sakura-chan. It just makes my heart
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439 swell
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440 to hear you on the other line, so I would be more than willing to
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441 pay anything for that gift. I will call you this Sunday, then. And
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442 every other Sunday I will wait patiently by my phone for you. That
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443 should keep us from getting too many busy signals. I was so worried
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444 that someone else was using the phone or that something had gone
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445 wrong with the phone lines when I couldn’t get through. It’s easier
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446 to panic now because I won’t be seeing you the next day to see what
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447 happened. But I should have known that it wasn’t anything too
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448 problematic for you. After all, there’s nothing Sakura-chan can’t
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449 handle!
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450 One of these days, when I come out and visit you (hopefully
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451 to help when you're pregnant or with a little one) I would love to
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452 try some of your tea. I’m sure it must be very good by now,
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453 especially after Ieran-sama’s help. And please don’t let her scare
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454 you. It sounds like you’re slowly starting to warm her up to you. She
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455 holds much back so as to remain a figure of authority, but she must
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456 be coming to a slow realization that Sakura-chan really is the
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457 perfect wife for her son. From the sounds of things, she’s already
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458 helped you on the way to making your own tea an art form. Then again,
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459 everything you did always seemed like art to me. Now that you mention
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460 it, I really wish I had gotten more footage of you capturing the
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461 Jump Card (you were so brave when you faced it’s giant, cute doll
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462 form!), but I’m glad that I could help by distracting Maki-san. I
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463 told her everything I knew about tea and then everything I knew about
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464 videotape. She was a very good listener. I was always happy to help
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465 you. Though I think it surprised you when I took the guard schedule
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466 from the museum when we were looking for the Silent Card. Oh, you
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467 made such a cute thief! I loved capturing
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468 all of your adventures on videotape, but I was glad when I could
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469 help you, too. But you and Li-kun always made such a good team. He
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470 was a great sidekick to Cardcaptor Sakura. So it fits that you would
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471 go on your happy marriage journey together. But I’m glad that you
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472 still think of me being there with you when you’re nervous. Whenever
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473 you think about that, just know that I am with you because you’re
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474 always in my thoughts. So whatever Sakura-chan’s doing, I’m right
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475 beside her, knowing that she’ll do an excellent job.
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476 Oh, you must have looked so kawaii when you were blushing!
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477 Everytime I reread that part of the letter, I could see you blushing
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478 in my mind. You always looked so adorable when I dressed you up in
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479 one of my costumes and you’d blush. Or when you’d blush after I’d say
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480 something about you. Please remember that I was always telling the
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481 truth! I was still happy to bring a blush to your cheeks, though. I
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482 think it helps show that sweet innocence of yours even more. I’ll
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483 have to go find a videotape of you blushing when I’m done now. But
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484 that shouldn’t be too difficult because the costumes did a good job
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485 of bringing that out. I always filmed you because you were the most
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486 beautiful thing I could possibly film. There was no reason for me to
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487 film anything else. But I think my camcorder is still happy to be
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488 back at work because she knows the videos will go to you. My
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489 camcorder and I are both excited that Sakura-chan likes the videos.
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490 I’ll make sure I send more soon. I’ll need to try some more desserts.
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491 Your new family should like that. And I’ll have to try new outfits
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492 and hair styles now that I know Sakura-chan is watching the tapes to
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493 see me. I’m so glad
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494 that you think I look cute in them. That’s the sweetest compliment I
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495 could possibly have hoped for. Thank you so much, Sakura-chan.
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496 I’ve been thinking about your prophetic dream since I first read
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497 about it. I’m sorry to say that I can’t think of what it could mean.
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498 But I do think that you should listen carefully to it. I think you’re
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499 right, that with time it will grow clearer. Sakura-chan’s dreams are
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500 very trustworthy. Keep your heart open, but try not to worry too
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501 much. I’m sure that you’ll figure it out when it’s time. Maybe you
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502 and Li-kun have to come back to Japan soon to finish something up
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503 with the Sakura Cards. Then I could videotape Sakura-chan’s older
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504 Cardmistress adventures! But this makes me think of something else
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505 that’s a little strange. The Dream Card gave premonitory dreams,
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506 didn’t it? The dream if gave me before you caught it was filming lots
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507 and lots of Sakura-chan’s. I guess it just meant that I would
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508 continue to videotape you for a long time to come. Which was very
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509 accurate because now I have many videotapes of you in my personal
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510 collection. Hmm... Your dream sounds pretty vague now, but I’m sure
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511 that given time it will make
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512 full sense to you. You always did make a good prophet. Maybe you
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513 could try to do a Tarot reading with the Sakura Cards to figure out
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514 more of what it meant.
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515 Sakura-chan looks so pretty in her P.E. teacher’s uniform!
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516 The album is coming along gorgeously. I’ve been putting all of the
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517 pictures you’ve been sending to me in it, from the ones of the
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518 dinners you make to the ones of you and Li-kun and the family. I’m
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519 having a lot of fun arranging it. Your students must be very lucky
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520 to have you as their teacher. I know I would have been entranced to
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521 have a teacher like you. It would definitely make me want to try my
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522 hardest. Sakura-chan’s students must be very eager for her. I never
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523 really thought that you would be a sensei, but now that you are, it
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524 sounds perfect for you. Especially of Physical Education. Sakura-chan
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525 was always so athletic. So now it just sounds right that you would
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526 be. I’m glad that your Chinese is coming along so well. It should
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527 help with your students and with Li-kun’s family. You’ll have to
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528 speak to me in it the next time we talk on the phone. And it’s great
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529 that you are
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530 giving Fanren-san and the Principal Japanese lessons. So Sakura-
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531 chan’s being a very busy sensei indeed! I’m sure that Li-kun will
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532 find it nice to have you out working so hard with your students.
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533 I’m so sorry for you about the fight. That must have been
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534 horrible for you. I know how easily you can get hurt by things like
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535 that. I really wish I had been there afterwards to help you. But it
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536 sounds like it all worked out rather well. Please don’t worry about
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537 the fight. It depends on who the people are, Sakura-chan. Your
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538 father is a very calm man and from what my mother told me about
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539 your mother, Nadeshiko-san was always a caring, gentle person, no
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540 matter what was going on. So they really wouldn’t get into any
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541 fights. You are a very emotional girl. Emotions don’t have to be
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542 logical. Love rarely ever is. So all that matters is how you felt.
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543 And
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544 Li-kun can be stubborn. So with him working so much and you
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545 being lonely and homesick, it makes sense that there would be some
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546 conflict. I’m sure you were both devastated by the argument and
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547 that you were eager to make up. Sometimes love can be painful, but
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548 it can also be heavenly. Don’t let the little slips disturb your
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549 little
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550 slice of heaven. I know it must be difficult with you, out on your
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551 own in a different country with a completely different family and
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552 none of your old family or friends around. No one can fault you for
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553 being homesick, Sakura-chan. If I could pack everyone up and
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554 move them out there to keep you happy, I would. Then Sakura-
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555 chan wouldn’t have to be lonely anymore. But I’m sure as you
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556 make new friends and as you get closer to Li-kun’s family, you’ll
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557 start feeling better. As long as you try your best, everything will
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558 work out. It feels lonely back here without your lovely presence,
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559 but I know that my wonderful best friend is living her exciting new
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560 life on the other side of the ocean, so there’s nothing for me to be
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561 lonely about.
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562 Kawaii!!! I’m so happy that you told me about that dream, Sakura-
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563 chan. I can only imagine you with a deep blush, wearing cute boy’s
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564 clothes and holding a ring. You must have been so embarrassed in the
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565 dream to be asking something like that. But if Sakura-chan went
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566 through all that trouble, I would find it very difficult to turn
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567 ‘him’ down. That does sound like a strange dream, but it sounds
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568 beautiful, too. To think that anyone would care that much about me,
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569 that things really could have turned out so well. It must have been a
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570 very odd dream for you to have. It must be from you worrying about my
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571 love life so much lately. It would make me so happy to have my True
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572 Love propose to me
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573 like that. It sounded so romantic, too. Part of me wishes that
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574 things could have worked out that happily with the one I love. But
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575 instead, I’ll just think of your dream fondly as a what might have
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576 been. If Sakura-chan was the boy I loved but never told, I would be a
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577 very lucky girl. Please don’t cry for me, Sakura-chan. It makes me
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578 sad to
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579 think of you in tears, especially over me. Love can hurt and love
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580 can be a very lonely feeling, but I would never give up the love in
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581 my heart even if it meant that I wouldn’t have to worry about any
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582 of that. My love for them will never change, even if they don’t
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583 know. So I’ll love them from afar, glad to see them during the
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584 happiest years of their life. I’m happy, Sakura-chan. Please don’t
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585 worry about me.
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586 Your happiness means so much to me. I wouldn’t want you to give up
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587 any of it for my sake. Remember, it makes me happy when you are. So
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588 you have to be happy for me. Don’t be ashamed. You were the best
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589 friend that I could ever ask for. You never knew that I needed any
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590 help to begin with and I was always eager to help you when I could.
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591 Besides, I don’t think Fate ever intended for me to have my love, so
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592 there was nothing you could do even had you known. But I accepted
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593 that a long time ago. How can you be sad when the one you love is
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594 happy? If you really, truly love them, then that should be enough. To
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595 know that
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596 they’re happy in ways you could never make them. When you close your
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597 eyes, you can feel them close to your heart, and your love just grows
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rlm@2
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598 knowing what a special person you’ve found. I’m very lucky to have
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599 found my special person, Sakura-chan. It doesn’t matter whether or
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600 not they love me. I’ll always love them regardless, so it doesn’t
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601 change that in the least. Thank you so much for wanting to help me.
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602 You really are a perfect best friend.
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603 Mother has been a little confused lately, I think. She says she
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604 doesn’t want to see me alone and to end up like her. She’s angry with
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605 my special someone for leaving me alone like this but she cares for
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606 them as well. So I think it’s difficult for her to sort out her
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607 emotions. I’m trying to convince her not to be angry because I’m
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608 happy with how things have turned out, but mother can be a very
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609 stubborn woman. She was, on the other hand, very pleased with the
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610 doll I finished designing. I’ll send the finished designs along with
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611 this.
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612 Soon enough, the doll itself should be in production. Cutecaptor
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613 Haneko will be the first toy that I was the head of the designs for.
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614 I’m very excited about it. If the sales go well, there may even be an
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615 anime tie in. I guess mother liked the backstory I came up with for
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616 Haneko-chan. I’ll be going to the Toy Fair in a few weeks with the
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617 prototype doll along with mother for the showcasing of many other
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618 Daidouji toys.
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rlm@2
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619 It seems that Flower has the same preferences as mother. I really
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620 can’t think of anyone who wouldn’t want to dance with Sakura-chan.
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621 That must have been a lot of fun. You really did need something to
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622 relax you after worrying about everything. I can understand why
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623 you wouldn’t want to tell Li-kun. That might seem a little strange
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624 to him. But I’m glad that you’re still talking to the Sakura Cards.
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625 They all loved you so much.
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626 Magic or not, I know that your beautiful spirit will always shine
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627 through. You made a wonderful magical girl, but that was never what
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628 was
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629 important to me. It was you. It was seeing the genki, bright girl
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630 that you always were and getting to be close to you. That was always
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631 more important to me than any magic. You spin your own magic, Sakura-
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632 chan. Thank you again, my sweet friend. But you really don’t have to
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633 worry about me. I’ll be fine. I’m sure that everything will always be
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634 all right. It’s your power phrase, after all. So I have to believe
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635 it. Because I believe in you. And I always knew that you’d rescue me.
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636 I will be all right. I am all right. You don’t have to worry. I would
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637 never want to worry you, Sakura-chan.
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638 Give Kero-chan another hug for me and please distribute my love
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639 among everyone and the Cards, but be sure to keep a huge chunk for
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640 yourself. I sent along the cassette you asked for. I tried to put in
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641 some variety to the music so that there should be plenty to listen to
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642 on it. I kept from anything sad this time. I always love singing for
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643 you, Sakura-chan. So I'm very happy to have you as my delayed
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644 audience.
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645
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646
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647 Your friend in Tomoeda,
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648 Daidouji Tomoyo
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649
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650
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651
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652 Dear Tomoyo-chan,
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653
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654 Things are so hectic here that it is just a pleasure to sit down and
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655 write a letter to my very best friend across the sea. I usually wake
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656 up around 5:00 AM and do some housework before catching the 6:20 bus
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657 for Fung Kai Liu Yun Sum Memorial Primary School. But I woke up
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658 especially early today so I could write to you. I am so glad we are
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659 still in touch with each other, Tomoyo-chan. The thought occurred to
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660 me that because we are not together all the time as we used to be, we
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661 might drift apart somehow. When I thought this, I became very
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662 worried, and gathered together all of my letters from you, and your
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663 videos, and the cassettes of your singing. But if this was all I had
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664 of you, if this was all that was left, I don't know what I would do.
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665 I feel bad asking this, because in a way I left you to come to Hong
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666 Kong. So, I have no right to say this. But Tomoyo-chan, please don't
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667 ever leave me. If I did not have you to talk with, to listen to, and
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668 if I did not think you remembered me, I just don't know how I could
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669 get through even one day.
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670
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671 Gomenesai. This is supposed to be a happy letter. There have been
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672 many happy things going on since last I wrote. I have made friends
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673 with a teacher at work, and I told her about you, and how much you
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674 meant to me. She is older than I am, and very smart. Hoeee, she
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675 teaches mathematics, and knows so many things! She told me she once
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676 had a friend like you, when she was growing up. She said she had
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677 fallen in love with that friend, and thought they would always be
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678 together. But after high school, her friend moved away to England.
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679 For a while they wrote letters, and talked on the phone. But
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680 eventually, she says they drifted apart, and even stopped writing.
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681 She was crying. She apologized for being so foolish, and said it felt
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682 odd to still care so much. Tomoyo-chan, I don't want us to ever drift
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683 apart like that. I was so afraid after I talked to her. I thought,
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684 what if there was no Tomoyo-chan in my life? I am so happy here with
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685 my new family in Hong Kong, but if I lost you, I don't think I could
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686 live anymore.
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687
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688 Gomenesai. All right, let me tell you about all the happy things
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689 that have been happening. My job is a lot of work, but it is
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690 wonderful! I am the girl's P.E. teacher, and teach 5 classes a day,
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691 one for each grade. Thank you so much for sending the books on P.E.
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692 instruction that I asked for on the phone. They have been a big help.
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rlm@2
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693 I never knew there was so much to teaching! So far, I have shown the
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694 students fundamentals of exercise. Next week, we will begin a unit on
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695 gymnastics. "Lessons must be adjusted to the grade level, individual
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696 level of development, and personal level of motivation and perceived
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697 capability". Hoeee, sometimes reading the books makes my head dizzy,
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698 but I am trying my best. At least I am not teaching mathematics! And
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699 I know you said you will pay for the books and the shipping costs,
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700 but I did want to do something in return. So, I sent you a book
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701 entitled, "The Flora of Hong Kong and Surrounding Areas". It is in
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702 English, so I do not know much of what is says. But I thought the
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703 pictures were beautiful, and hope that you like it. I got the idea
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704 from Flower, by the way. She sends her love. She remembers you
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705 fondly, and was wondering if you like to dance, or just to film
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706 dancing?
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707
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708 I went shopping in the City after school let out early last Monday.
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rlm@2
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709 I bought a tea set, with a little purple teapot and 2 lavender cups.
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rlm@2
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710 For some reason, they reminded me very much of you, although the set
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711 is from Great Britain, and of course you are from Japan. Anyway, I
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712 decided to save it for when you came to visit. It will be my special
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713 Tomoyo chan tea set. Maybe after you have finished work on the Haneko
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714 chan doll, you might be able to come and visit? Tomoyo-chan, I would
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715 dearly love to see you again. And we could go shopping together.
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716 There are many wonderful stores here, and now that I am making my own
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717 money to spend, I appreciate the prices!
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718
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rlm@2
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719 I was blushing when I read about me blushing in your letter. Thank
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720 you, Tomoyo-chan. You always made me feel so special with your
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721 unusual costumes, and kind words, and all the little things you have
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722 always done for me. Talking about capturing Jump and Silence brought
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723 back many memories, especially of you. And thank you so very much for
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724 the wonderful videotapes. Kero-chan was very excited at the prospect
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725 of dessert videos. I play them a lot lately, and not just for help in
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726 cooking, though that is very much appreciated. You are so beautiful
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727 that sometimes my heart aches to see you in them. I have a picture of
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728 Mother on the dresser in my room. I'd never really realized how much
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729 the two of you look alike. And from everything Oniichan and Father
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730 have told me, you sound so much like her: sweet, gentle, patient, and
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731 loving. I think Sonomi-sama is very perceptive and wise when she says
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732 you remind her of Mother. If it would not be too much trouble, could
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733 you send me a picture of you? I would like to put in on the dresser,
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734 so I can see you both before I sleep.
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735
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736 I had that dream again, the one where I can see Tokyo Tower. Last
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737 night, there was more of the dream. I could see a figure on the
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738 Tower, but was not able to make out who it was. Kero-chan will not
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739 say anything about it, because he says only I can understand the
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rlm@2
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740 dream's true meaning. He says it may take time for the dream to
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741 ripen, so I must be patient. Thank you for the suggestion about the
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742 Dream Card. I talked with her about it, but she only smiled, and said
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743 it sounded like a very interesting dream. If I did come back to Japan
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744 because of this, then I could see you again. That would be so
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745 wonderful! And I did do a reading with my cards, but not about the
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746 dream. About something more important. It was very exhausting, and I
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747 will tell you about it later in the letter.
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748
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749 As for the other dream I had, the one with you in it, umm, Tomoyo-
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750 chan, how did you know it was me dressed in boy’s clothes? After you
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751 wrote that, I remembered that in my dream the boy looked like me, and
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752 really was me. I guess that is because I didn’t know who he really
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753 is. But how did you know that? Anyway, I was very nervous and
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754 embarrassed in the dream, but it was still a beautiful moment.
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755 Syaoran-chan told me that proposing marriage was the hardest thing he
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756 had ever done, much worse than any of his battles, or even training
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757 with Ieran-sama. I don’t know how boys do it. I guess it is sort of a
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758 test, to offer up your heart to the one you love. You may be
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759 rejected, and that would be terribly painful, but you must offer
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760 yourself as a sacrifice to your beloved. I remember the dream most
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761 vividly. I guess you are right, that I had the dream because I was
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762 worrying so much about you. And thank you for the kind words about
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763 me as your friend. I know you would never blame me for anything, even
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764 if I was at fault. But I can’t help but feel that somehow I have
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765 failed you, my very best friend. I think your love is such a precious
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766 thing, and am glad it is close to your heart. But I do wish your true
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767 love was with you. I know he would be, if he knew, and he could.
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768
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769 Thank you for the kind words on my first fight. You are so wise
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770 about people, and it helped to read your observations about Syaoran-
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771 chan and me. It really was so awful. It felt as if our love was no
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772 longer there, just anger and regret. I am so happy that we made up
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773 the next morning. I never, ever want to fight like that again.
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774 Syaoran-chan is my one, true love, and I should be thankful for him
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775 no matter what happens. But we almost had another fight just two
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776 nights. Syaoran-chan was very late from work, but I missed him so
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777 much that I stayed up until 1 AM, even though I must be up so early
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778 to go to work. He was surprised to see me, and did not seem very
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779 happy. I asked him how work was, and he mumbled something I could
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780 not understand. I told him I had tried to call, but there was no
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781 answer in his office. He got angry, and accused me of prying. Tomoyo-
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782 chan, I did not mean it like that at all. I just wanted him to know
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783 that I cared about him, and wanted to talk with him. He said he had
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784 gone out with some people in his office for beers. He said that was a
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785 part of his job. I was very hurt, because I felt he cared more for
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786 going out with other people than seeing me. But I did not say
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787 anything because I did not want another fight. Syaoran-chan went to
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788 bed, but I was too upset to sleep, so I called Oniichan. He was
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789 sleeping, but I told him all that had happened, and I guess I cried a
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790 lot. He told me that salarymen have to do this a lot, and not to
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791 worry about it. That made me feel better.
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792
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793 So, the next morning, when I served Syaoran-chan his breakfast, I
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794 gave him a note asking if we could talk about something when he got
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795 home that night. I think he was afraid I was still upset about the
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796 night before, but I really wasn’t. Well, not a lot, anyway. So, he
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797 was home very early that night, and we talked about our day, which
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798 was nice. I told him that I was sorry about being angry the night
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799 before, and that Oniichan had told me this was a part of his job, and
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800 I shouldn’t feel hurt. He seemed surprised that Oniichan had said
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801 this, but was happy that everything had been resolved. Then I told
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802 him about the dream with Tokyo Tower. He seemed concerned, and I know
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803 he will do all he can to help. I feel he will somehow protect me, as
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804 he always has. I am so glad that everything turned out well.I really
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805 am lucky to have found my true love.
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806
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807 I did a card reading Sunday, after our phone call. I was surprised
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808 at how difficult it was, and how very tired it made me. Tomoyo chan,
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809 please do not be angry with me, but I wanted to know who your special
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810 person is. I knew you would not tell me if I asked, so I asked the
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811 cards instead. I asked them just to give me a hint, since it did not
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812 seem right to ask without your permission. Well, the important cards
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813 that came up were Loop and Illusion. Illusion showed me an image of
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814 myself, and when I added that to Loop, it seemed to me that your
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815 special someone is very close to me. In fact, I am certain that this
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816 is true. So, I have been thinking about all you have said about your
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817 special someone. I think I know who it is.
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818
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819 This person is very close to me. This person is someone who does not
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820 know that you love them. It must be a very wonderful person for you
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821 to have given your heart to them, for the person that Tomoyo-chan
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822 loves must be very special, indeed. You have known this person a long
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823 time. You were going to tell them of your love, but hesitated when
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824 they found someone else. Now you are happy for them, and do not wish
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825 to intrude on their happiness.
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826
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827 Tomoyo-chan, do you love Oniichan?
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828
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829 It makes sense to me now that you were blushing the first time you
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830 saw him. And I think that Oniichan also likes you. Remember when I
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831 told you Oniichan was talking about you when Syaoran-chan and I
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832 announced our engagement? Tomoyo-chan, he was saying the most
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833 wonderful things about you. He said you were bright, and sweet, and
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834 caring, and pretty, and would be a wonderful companion for life. I
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835 guess I am sort of dense about these things, and I did not understand
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836 what he was saying. I did not know that he liked you, -like that-.
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837 But you are right, he is very happy with Yukito-san, and I don’t know
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838 what to say or do. Perhaps he likes you, and also Yukito-san? Maybe
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839 you are right that it is best if you keep your love silent. But I am
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840 still sad that I will never get to see you at your wedding. I wish
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841 there was something I could do. If you would like, I can talk to
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842 Oniichan. Somehow it is too sad that Tomoyo-chan’s precious love must
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843 be kept in the beautiful cage of her heart.
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844
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845 Tomoyo-chan, I don’t quite know how, but somehow you will be all
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846 right.
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847
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848 I must run to my bus soon, but I wanted to thank you for the
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849 beautiful songs. I listen to them very often. I think with my next
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850 paycheck I will but a cassette tape player, so I can hear you on the
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851 way to work. When I listen to your voice, I feel that my best friend
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852 will always be with me. Thank you so much Tomoyo chan.
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853
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854 Love,
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855
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856
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857 Kinomoto Sakura
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858
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859 PS- Aiyaaa, I am always forgetting to put this in the letter. Kero-
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860 chan sends his love. Oh, and he made me promise to ask for the cake
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861 recipe with the strawberries. I am sorry. Syoaran-chan sends his
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862 regards.
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863
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864 PPS- Please give Sonomi-sama my love. I know she wants only the best
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865 for her precious daughter. And I think she is right. I don’t see how
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866 anybody who leaves you could be happy. |
