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     1.4 +Dear Sakura
     1.5 +by Amazoness Duo and G.P.
     1.6 +amazonessduo@hotmail.com
     1.7 +pearsong1954@yahoo.com
     1.8 +
     1.9 +Dear Sakura-chan,
    1.10 +	You don’t have to be in any rush to get back to me. I’m always
    1.11 +happy to receive any letters from you, but don’t worry about how long
    1.12 +it takes. I understand how busy Sakura-chan’s life must be with
    1.13 +starting all over in China and with a new husband and family. So
    1.14 +please don’t worry yourself, Sakura-chan. And if you ever need to
    1.15 +call me, please don’t hesitate. I would always love to hear your
    1.16 +voice again and if you need someone to talk to about anything, you
    1.17 +know you can always trust me. I can pay the bill for any calls you
    1.18 +make as well. It would be worth it just to hear you. I don’t think
    1.19 +anything you ever talk 
    1.20 +about is silly. Sakura-chan’s mind moves around a lot like a
    1.21 +meandering ocean breeze, moving through all sorts of wonderful
    1.22 +thoughts. I’ve always found whatever you want to talk about
    1.23 +fascinating because I love just being able to talk with you, to be
    1.24 +able to hear your thoughts and feelings on things. Some of my fondest
    1.25 +memories are of when we were together, talking about the most trivial
    1.26 +of things, without a care in the world. You looked so free. I wished
    1.27 +I could be that free. That you could teach me to soar. But it was
    1.28 +enough to watch you. I hope that freedom of a gentle breeze never
    1.29 +leaves you, Sakura-chan.
    1.30 +	I’m very happy that Sakura-chan liked all of the things I’ve sent.
    1.31 +I was hoping you would. I have an idea or two for the doll’s hair
    1.32 +that I’m working into the design so that hopefully little girls will
    1.33 +be able to play with her hair the way they want to more. I always
    1.34 +enjoyed trying out new hairstyles myself, so I want to keep that with
    1.35 +the doll. She still needs a name, but we don’t need to worry about
    1.36 +that yet. I’m thinking something like Hanako. ‘Flower Child’. That
    1.37 +would be pretty. She does look a lot like you, but you were always
    1.38 +the girl I sketched when I was making my designs. You were just so
    1.39 +pretty. So I think 
    1.40 +she looks cute, sharing some of your features. Maybe she can even be
    1.41 +a magical girl. I’ll send you one of the first dolls we produce for
    1.42 +all of the inspiration you have always given me. And it meant so much
    1.43 +to me to hear that you liked the cassette I sent you. I haven’t sung
    1.44 +to anyone but myself in so long that I wasn’t sure how it would come
    1.45 +out. I’m so very sorry that it made you cry, but I’m glad that it
    1.46 +managed to touch you. Maybe I shouldn’t have added that last song
    1.47 +after all. It was pretty sad. I know what you mean about thinking
    1.48 +things would 
    1.49 +always stay the way they were, Sakura-chan. I always knew that you
    1.50 +would leave me someday, but I hadn’t expected it so soon. I guess it
    1.51 +took me by surprise. I knew we’d have to part ways one day, but I
    1.52 +always wanted it to be tomorrow, never today. Sometimes it’s hard for
    1.53 +me to remember that you aren’t the same little girl that I first met.
    1.54 +You’re still the same vibrant, loving soul, but you’ve grown up. And
    1.55 +I’m so proud of you. You’re starting your own family now, starting a
    1.56 +new life in China with the one you love. I hope all of your dreams
    1.57 +come true. But sometimes I can’t help but look out at the stars at
    1.58 +night and think that the heavens are crying, missing Sakura-chan as
    1.59 +much as I 
    1.60 +do.
    1.61 +	That’s great that the recipes worked out so well for Sakura-chan!
    1.62 +You can do such wonderful things when you put your mind to it. I knew
    1.63 +it would turn out perfectly for you. It really did look delicious. It
    1.64 +got me thinking about if you had anymore trouble cooking because I
    1.65 +know you can’t just use the same recipes over and over again. So I
    1.66 +went and got my camcorder out from the attic and decided to put
    1.67 +together a few more recipes for Sakura-chan. What you said about me
    1.68 +by your side sent a trill through my heart. We have a very good chef
    1.69 +so I had her teach me some more recipes. I went through the entire
    1.70 +recipe on video and taped myself making the successful dishes. I’ll
    1.71 +try to send more when 
    1.72 +I have more time to cook. I really hope they help. I thought it
    1.73 +would be a good job for my old camcorder. It isn’t capturing images
    1.74 +of the most beautiful object I could find for it, but I can still
    1.75 +send you these videotapes with me in them. Hopefully they’ll help
    1.76 +with your cooking. And so you won’t forget me. I’m glad that Ieran-
    1.77 +sama still thinks of me fondly. I think she understood some things I
    1.78 +was dealing with when we were in Hong Kong.
    1.79 +	Thank you for sending more pictures! I think it was a good idea for
    1.80 +you to get a camera. With all that’s going on in your life, it needs
    1.81 +to be taken down for posterity. And since I can’t do that anymore,
    1.82 +Sakura-chan can. I would love to see any pictures you take, no matter
    1.83 +what they’re of. It makes me smile to see what’s going on with my
    1.84 +favorite magical girl and her new life in China. I think that you
    1.85 +would make a very good photographer. I’m going to start making a
    1.86 +picture album to put by my old videotape collection once I have 
    1.87 +enough photos. Mother used to have a camera when she was younger and
    1.88 +she took many beautiful pictures with it. I know that if Sakura-chan
    1.89 +keeps practicing, she'll take many beautiful pictures herself.
    1.90 +	I tried watching the videotape of your wedding when I got off of
    1.91 +work a few days ago. Touya took some wonderful shots of you. You
    1.92 +looked so stunning in your wedding dress. I had a hard time seeing
    1.93 +you through the tears at the time. I was just so happy that Sakura-
    1.94 +chan was finally getting married. It was really a beautiful wedding.
    1.95 +I still haven’t made it to the end. I got a little busy and haven’t
    1.96 +quite reached past where I left. I’ll try to again soon. Maybe I’ll
    1.97 +have more free time after I finish the designs for the doll. No,
    1.98 +please don’t worry 
    1.99 +about me Sakura-chan. I’m just fine. I just started feeling a pain
   1.100 +in my chest near the end of it, but I don’t think it’s anything to
   1.101 +worry about. I’ve been healthy and there’s nothing for you to worry
   1.102 +about. It went away after I fell asleep back at home for the most
   1.103 +part. Just please don’t worry. I know it’s nothing to see a doctor
   1.104 +about. And that is the truth. I promise that I’ll take good care of
   1.105 +myself, Sakura-chan. For you. 
   1.106 +	Your bouquet is very important to me. Whenever I hold it, I see you
   1.107 +right before the wedding, when I was helping you into your wedding
   1.108 +dress. I see that happy smile and the bright glow in your emerald
   1.109 +eyes and I know that you’ll be just fine. That you’re finally happy.
   1.110 +It’s kind of strange. That’s what I’ve worked my whole life for, to
   1.111 +see you happy. Now that you’re finally married off and that’s
   1.112 +accomplished, I don’t know what to do anymore. Silly, isn’t it? I’ll
   1.113 +need to come up with a new plan, I guess. But now I don’t have to
   1.114 +worry because Li-kun is taking good care of you.
   1.115 +	I’m so glad that you remembered! Hai, that was the eraser you gave
   1.116 +me the first day we met. I was so lonely and nervous about
   1.117 +everything. I was never any good at making friends and the classroom
   1.118 +seemed so big with all of those faces I didn’t know. But then this
   1.119 +really sweet girl sitting next to me offered me her eraser when I
   1.120 +needed one. When I looked at her, at you, it all seemed okay. I
   1.121 +didn’t feel so lonely anymore. You’ve always had that affect on me.
   1.122 +So that 
   1.123 +eraser has been very important to me, my very first memento of
   1.124 +Sakura-chan.
   1.125 +	My spirits sing to know that you’ve been thinking about me a lot 
   1.126 +lately. You’re always close to my thoughts. So I’m happy to know
   1.127 +that I’ve been in yours as well. But please don’t let it make you
   1.128 +sad. I’ll always be your friend and you should be smiling a lot now
   1.129 +in your new life. You have a lot to be happy about. It makes me happy
   1.130 +to know that you are. So the next time you think of me, please smile
   1.131 +knowing that your old friend wants only the best for you. I would
   1.132 +love to watch you dancing. I think it would be a very beautiful thing
   1.133 +to witness. It reminds me of watching you dance with the Flower Card.
   1.134 +Yes, mother is a very good dancer. She doesn’t dance very often
   1.135 +because she says that ‘her dance card is already filled’. She said
   1.136 +she’s waiting for a specific dance with the wind. But she did teach
   1.137 +me to dance a bit when I was younger. It can be fun with the right
   1.138 +partner, I’m sure. So I’m sure Sakura-chan must have a lot of fun
   1.139 +when she does dance. 
   1.140 +	Poor Sakura-chan! I’m so sorry that you think Ieran-sama doesn’t
   1.141 +like you. I’m sure that isn’t true. She may seem like she does, but
   1.142 +she seems like she’s always like that. Just try to look past the
   1.143 +strict exterior. She probably is still a little angry about the
   1.144 +wedding, what with Li-kun being engaged to Meiling-chan, but she’ll
   1.145 +have to realize what a good wife Sakura-chan is soon enough. Your
   1.146 +warm heart will melt whatever resistance she has before long. It
   1.147 +always does. Remember, Li-kun didn’t like you much to begin with
   1.148 +either, but now he’s your husband! So you can touch anyone’s heart in
   1.149 +enough time. I know you touched mine. I wish I was there, too, Sakura-
   1.150 +chan. But it’s probably 
   1.151 +better that I’m not. I’m certain Li-kun would get tired of me after
   1.152 +I kept videotaping your married life. But you can always talk to me
   1.153 +about anything, even if I am an ocean away. I’m always here for you
   1.154 +when you need me. 
   1.155 +	That’s very sweet that Naoko-chan’s doing so well. I should really
   1.156 +go see how she and Nakuru-san are doing sometime. They sure do make
   1.157 +an interesting couple, don’t they? That sounds just like the type of
   1.158 +place Naoko-chan would want to live. I wonder how she convinced
   1.159 +Nakuru-san it was a good idea. It’s great to hear that the two of
   1.160 +them are so happy. Love has a way of surpassing so much. It really is
   1.161 +a strong thing. It seems everyone’s finding their special someone
   1.162 +these days. I bet Kero-chan’s next. 
   1.163 +	Please don’t mind the parts of this letter that used to be wet. I
   1.164 +spilled some droplets of water on it on accident and tried my best to
   1.165 +dry it. Thank you for being so concerned about my love life, Sakura-
   1.166 +chan. You’ve always been such a wonderful friend. Mother found me
   1.167 +reading this part of your letter and after we talked for a while, she
   1.168 +said that there was one person I reminded her of. She said that your
   1.169 +mother acted the same way sometimes. That’s strange, isn’t it? But I
   1.170 +guess it’s the way mother raised me. Nadeshiko-san was very important
   1.171 +to her. I’m glad you think I should tell my special someone, but I 
   1.172 +don’t think I can anymore. I thought I had all the time in the
   1.173 +world, but as time went on I started thinking it would be better for
   1.174 +them if I didn’t say anything. So I changed my mind about telling
   1.175 +them a long time ago and have kept it to myself. Sakura-chan, what if
   1.176 +the person I love already had someone? If they’re happy now, I
   1.177 +wouldn’t want to ruin that. I’m happy as long as they are. Yes, I
   1.178 +think maybe they don’t love me. But I’ve accepted that. So as long as
   1.179 +they can be happy, that’s enough for me. I don’t think they’d be any
   1.180 +happier knowing about my feelings. They’re much better kept deep
   1.181 +inside, where I can hold them close to my heart. They can’t do any
   1.182 +harm that way and I can still love them from afar. If you were the
   1.183 +man I loved, Sakura-chan, I would love to lie in your arms and fall
   1.184 +asleep knowing that you would be with 
   1.185 +me in the morning. And I would love to tell you how much I love you.
   1.186 +But I couldn’t. Because your love belongs to another. So I hope that
   1.187 +makes this easier to understand, even if it is a rather strange
   1.188 +analogy. I would love to tell my special someone how much I love
   1.189 +them, to finally be able to let that love escape the bonds I’ve
   1.190 +created for it, but I can’t. So I’ll just be happy for them. And
   1.191 +that’s enough for me. It brings a smile to my lips when I know that
   1.192 +they’re smiling because it means they’re truly happy. That’s much
   1.193 +more important 
   1.194 +than having them know my feelings. I would love to have you come
   1.195 +back to Japan and take pictures of my wedding, but I don’t need one.
   1.196 +I’ll be fine without. Thank you, Sakura-chan.
   1.197 +	Please take care of yourself! I hope everything goes well for you.
   1.198 +Please take many, many more pictures! I need more for my scrapbook.
   1.199 +Tell everyone that I said hello. And please do get some rest. You
   1.200 +really need it. I miss you, too, Sakura-chan. I hope I can hear from
   1.201 +you soon. Try to have some fun soon with the Sakura Cards!
   1.202 +
   1.203 +
   1.204 +To the best prince in the fourth grade,
   1.205 +From Daidouji Tomoyo
   1.206 +	
   1.207 +
   1.208 +
   1.209 +
   1.210 +
   1.211 +Dear Tomoyo-chan,
   1.212 +
   1.213 +It was so wonderful to hear your voice again! Talking on the phone
   1.214 +was a good idea, and looking forward to our regular Sunday calls is a
   1.215 +real treat. There is so much to talk about each week, and even when
   1.216 +there isn't I just love to hear you. It's funny, because I had never
   1.217 +realized how beautiful your voice is. Not your singing, because I
   1.218 +already knew that was wonderful, but just your voice. When I talk to
   1.219 +you, I feel so at ease, so happy and content. For all those years, I
   1.220 +didn't really know how important it was for me just to listen to you.
   1.221 +But being apart made me realize how lucky I was when we were
   1.222 +together. So now I treasure every second with you. 
   1.223 +
   1.224 +Still, there are some things I don't feel comfortable talking about
   1.225 +on the phone. Some things are better written, I think, so I decided
   1.226 +to start writing letters again. I hope you don't mind, because I know
   1.227 +Tomoyo-chan is very busy with her work. If you don't have time to
   1.228 +reply, please don't worry about it. Just writting to you is pleasure
   1.229 +enough. Oh, and I insist on paying for half the calls. You work very
   1.230 +hard, too, and I would not feel right if you paid for them all. I
   1.231 +think from now on, I should pay when I call, and you should pay when
   1.232 +you call, and we can take turns calling. Does that sound all right?
   1.233 +At least we won't do like last week, where we were each calling and
   1.234 +calling at the same time, and kept getting busy signals!
   1.235 +
   1.236 +I am drinking English Breakfast tea just now. I bought it while
   1.237 +shopping in the city last Saturday. Did you know that Hong Kong was
   1.238 +once a colony of Great Britain? There are many funny little English
   1.239 +things here. I am sure Eriol-kun would feel right at home. Ieran-sama
   1.240 +says that tea is an art. This surprised me. I know back home there is
   1.241 +the tea ceremony, which is an art, but I never thought that just tea
   1.242 +was an art by itself. It's funny, though, because I remember when we
   1.243 +were looking for the Jump card at the Twin Bells Shoppe. Do you
   1.244 +remember? The Lady told me afterwards that you were talking about tea
   1.245 +before she feinted. She said you were the most knowledgeable girl
   1.246 +about tea that she had ever met. So I guess you knew all along.
   1.247 +Anyway, I asked Ieran-sama if she could show me some of the things
   1.248 +she knows about tea. She looked quite surprised, and then told me she
   1.249 +might as well, since the family would have to drink what I brewed,
   1.250 +and it might as well be done right. I have learned many things from
   1.251 +her, and am very grateful. You would be surprised at how much better
   1.252 +my tea is now! Even if Ieran-sama does not like me, she does seem to
   1.253 +like my tea, which is a start. 
   1.254 +
   1.255 +She now asks me to prepare tea for her, which she never did before.
   1.256 +The first time I made it, I was very nervous. She drank the tea with
   1.257 +a frown, and looked at me with a very scary look. She said if I did
   1.258 +not do better, then I would have something to be nervous about. So
   1.259 +the next time, I pretended Tomoyo-chan was with me, and that we both
   1.260 +brewed tea together. That was such a help, because whenever things
   1.261 +were hard and you were with me, I always felt confident that
   1.262 +everything would be all right. So thank you for helping, Tomoyo-chan! 
   1.263 +
   1.264 +And speaking of help in the kitchen, please keep sending me your
   1.265 +wonderful videos. I know your video camera must be very happy to be
   1.266 +with you again. It must have been sad and lonely up in the attic. I
   1.267 +have made almost all the recipes you have sent me, as you can see
   1.268 +from some of the pictures of the family dinners I have prepared
   1.269 +(Look, even Ieran-sama is smiling in one of them!). But sometimes I
   1.270 +just like to watch Tomoyo-chan on the videos. You always filmed me,
   1.271 +and almost never yourself. But you look sooooo cute in your apron,
   1.272 +with your beautiful hair in braids, bustling about the kitchen,
   1.273 +patiently explaining each recipe in your sweet, gentle voice,
   1.274 +hanyaaaan! 
   1.275 +
   1.276 +I had to stop writting. It is hard to write when you are blushing.
   1.277 +Anyway, thank you, and any videos you send are very appreciated in
   1.278 +many ways. 
   1.279 +
   1.280 +Tomoyo-chan, may I tell you about a dream I have had? I have had
   1.281 +this dream twice now, and  talked about it with Kero-chan. He says he
   1.282 +does not understand it, but that it sounds important. In the dream I
   1.283 +am back in Japan, and it is night. It is chilly and windy, and I am
   1.284 +starriing off into the distance trying to see something. Finally, off
   1.285 +in the distance, I can make out Tokyo Tower. That is when  I wake up.
   1.286 +Kero chan says that is why it is an important dream, because of Tokyo
   1.287 +Tower, which was in so many of my dreams when I was still capturing
   1.288 +the Cards. I remember the one dream I had about Yue that was revealed
   1.289 +to me little by little over many nights. It was a prophetic dream,
   1.290 +about his judgement. So, maybe this funny dream is like that, and it
   1.291 +will be more clear later.
   1.292 +
   1.293 +Did you know that Yue is a Chinese word? It means "moon". I have
   1.294 +been doing pretty well with my Chinese lessons. Syaoran-chan's
   1.295 +sisters help me a lot, though they giggle at my accent. I offered to
   1.296 +teach them Japanese, but only Fanren-san was interested. She says she
   1.297 +would like to go to Japan someday, so we have a little lesson every
   1.298 +week. In fact, my Chinese has gotten good enough so that I now have a
   1.299 +job! This is how I can afford to pay for the phone calls, by the way.
   1.300 +I will start next week as a Physical Education teacher at the Fung
   1.301 +Kai Liu Yun Sum Memorial Primary School. Fortunately, I do not need
   1.302 +to know much Chinese for the position, though I had to learn 12 new
   1.303 +characters for the school name. The Principal of the school saw me
   1.304 +when I was practicing my gymnastics in the courtyard. She called me
   1.305 +over and we talked. It turns out she knows Japanese, but rarely has a
   1.306 +chance to practice with the language. So, I will be giving lessons to
   1.307 +her, too. Syaoran-chan was not very happy with the idea, but I
   1.308 +promised I would still be able to do my housework as well as
   1.309 +teaching. I'll bet you never thought your friend would be a sensei! I
   1.310 +know I never did. I am very nervous, but will try my best.
   1.311 +
   1.312 +I never quite know where to put bad news in a letter, so I guess it
   1.313 +will go here. Syaoran-chan and I had our first fight last Tuesday. It
   1.314 +was my fault, because he was tired and said things he did not mean. I
   1.315 +got very angry, and I guess I yelled at him. He even slept in the
   1.316 +living room, he was so mad. I couldn't sleep at all. But in the
   1.317 +morning I apologized, and so did he, so things are OK now. I guess
   1.318 +sometimes these things happen with loving couples, although when I
   1.319 +told Oniichan about this, he said he never remembered Mother and
   1.320 +Father fighting like that. I was sort of mad too because I don't see
   1.321 +him all that often. That is very selfish, because he has to work
   1.322 +hard, and I know he would rather be with me if he could. But
   1.323 +sometimes I feel lonely, even when he is around. It's odd, because I
   1.324 +never felt like that before. Lonely, I mean. But then, I was always
   1.325 +around so many friends and family, and especially you, Tomoyo-chan. I
   1.326 +really miss you so very much. It feels like something isn't quite
   1.327 +right, somehow. I am so happy in my new life, though, and I shouldn't
   1.328 +feel like that. Maybe I am just a little homesick at times.
   1.329 +
   1.330 +That is the end of the bad news. Oh, I did have another dream. It
   1.331 +was very weird, and I almost don't want to tell you about it. You
   1.332 +were in the dream, and so was I, sort of. You were Tomoyo-chan, of
   1.333 +course, but I was the boy that you love, and never told. But in this
   1.334 +dream, you did tell me, when we were very young. We had grown up
   1.335 +together, and were on a date at Tokyo Tower. Tomoyo-chan, you were -
   1.336 +so- beautiful! You wore a flowing, white and lavendar chiffon dress,
   1.337 +and your hair was bedecked in purple ribbons. You had a snow-white
   1.338 +gardenia corsage that filled my dream with the sweetest scent. I was
   1.339 +so very nervous in the dream, because, well, because I was going to
   1.340 +ask you to marry me. Because you were so kind and gentle I was able
   1.341 +to stammer out the words and offer you a golden ring. Your amythyst
   1.342 +eyes filled with tears, and I was very afraid of your answer. But
   1.343 +then you said yes, and my heart sang.  We embraced and hugged, and
   1.344 +danced together under the pale moonlight. You were so happy, and I
   1.345 +have never been happier to see you like that.
   1.346 +
   1.347 +I am sorry if you cannot let him know of your love. It makes me very
   1.348 +sad to think about this. I was so unhappy when Li-kun left for Hong
   1.349 +Kong. If it hadn't been for you, and Yukito-san, and Rika-chan, and
   1.350 +Oniichan, and everybody, I might never have seen him on the bus, and
   1.351 +told him I loved him. It was hard to wait, but I knew he loved me,
   1.352 +and that he knew I loved him. And someday, I knew we would finally be
   1.353 +together. Tomoyo-chan, it makes me cry to think of you, that you
   1.354 +can't even tell your special person of your love. It must be so awful
   1.355 +to have no hope, and you are so brave about it. I wish I had known
   1.356 +back then, and maybe I could have helped you the way you helped me.
   1.357 +You helped me so many times, and I didn't even know you needed help.
   1.358 +I was so stupid about so much. Gomennasai. I don't think I was a very
   1.359 +good friend for you. I feel so ashamed. Gomennasai, Tomoyo-chan. If I
   1.360 +could, I would sacrafice all of my happiness for yours.
   1.361 +
   1.362 +Aiyaa, I've gotten tears all over the place and the letters are all
   1.363 +smeary. I know you are happy to have your beloved happy, but it's not
   1.364 +fair that everybody gets their special someone except Tomoyo-chan.
   1.365 +Tomoyo-chan, I promise that you will be all right, that everything
   1.366 +will be all right. I don't know how, but I swear with all my heart
   1.367 +that you will be with your special person. 
   1.368 +
   1.369 +After your last letter, I talked about you with some of the Cards.
   1.370 +Somehow, I ended up  talking with Flower about the place you and your
   1.371 +mother went to dance. Aiyaa! Tomoyo-chan, before I knew it, -we- were
   1.372 +dancing. At first it was a little weird, because we are both girls
   1.373 +and all. But it was so nice, and I felt so wonderful afterwards. She
   1.374 +gave me a beautiful purple and white orchid. For some reason, it
   1.375 +reminded me of you. When I said that, she just smiled, and then we
   1.376 +danced some more. I guess she is always ready for fun things. When
   1.377 +Syaoran chan came home, he was puzzled by the scent, and kept looking
   1.378 +around for the flowers. I was too embarrassed to tell him what
   1.379 +happened. 
   1.380 +
   1.381 +I'm sorry, my thoughts are wandering here. This always happens when
   1.382 +I'm thinking about Flower. In your wonderful letter you said I am
   1.383 +like a meandering ocean breeze, so I don't feel quite so foolish.
   1.384 +Arigato, Tomoyo chan. Anyway, I will do everything I can to help you
   1.385 +with your special person. I don't know how, but I promise that Tomoyo-
   1.386 +chan will be all right.
   1.387 +
   1.388 + I promise.
   1.389 +
   1.390 +
   1.391 +
   1.392 +Your friend forever,
   1.393 +
   1.394 +Kinomoto Sakura
   1.395 +
   1.396 +PS- I have enclosed some more pictures for your album. It must be a
   1.397 +very beautiful album if you are designing it. There is one of me in
   1.398 +my P.E. coach's uniform. Fanren-san took the picture. 
   1.399 +
   1.400 +PPS- If it is not too much trouble, could you please send me another
   1.401 +casette tape of your singing? I think I have almsot worn this one out
   1.402 +from playing it so much.
   1.403 +
   1.404 +PPSS- I keep forgetting to tell you that Kero-chan sends his love,
   1.405 +and Syaron-chan says hello.
   1.406 + 
   1.407 +
   1.408 +
   1.409 +
   1.410 +
   1.411 +
   1.412 +Dear Sakura-chan,
   1.413 +	I was thrilled to hear you again on the phone. I’ve been watching
   1.414 +my videos a lot recently, so I’ve still been hearing you, but it was
   1.415 +nice to actually know that you were there and could answer me. I’m
   1.416 +always happy to talk to you and it was as close as I’ve been able to
   1.417 +come in the past few months to actually being there by Sakura-chan’s
   1.418 +side. You’ve always been a very emotional woman, but it’s even more
   1.419 +evident hearing your voice than just the words. But even in your
   1.420 +letters, I can hear your sweet voice. Sakura-chan, I’m very happy 
   1.421 +that you like hearing my voice. Sometimes we take the most important
   1.422 +things for granted until it’s too late and we no longer have them.
   1.423 +I’m glad that I took all of the footage of you I did so that I can
   1.424 +still watch you. So even if you’re far away from me, I can still lose
   1.425 +myself in memories of the past. You always were such a cute girl. And
   1.426 +you’ve grown into a very lovely woman. I’m lucky to have been able to
   1.427 +stay by your side for as long as I could. I always knew it would end 
   1.428 +one day. So I wanted to capture everything on videotape, a beautiful
   1.429 +record of you that I could always keep close to my heart. So I’m
   1.430 +happy as long as I can curl up and watch your cute adventures all
   1.431 +over again, Sakura-chan. You were always so amazing! No matter what
   1.432 +you were doing, you always captivated me. 
   1.433 +	I understand if there are certain things that you would rather not
   1.434 +talk about on the phone. In a way, letters can be more private. You
   1.435 +don’t have to worry about anyone coming in or saying something
   1.436 +confusing when you can’t look them in the eye and explain what you
   1.437 +mean. More letters from you are always a good thing. Work can be
   1.438 +busy, but I like taking your letters with me and reading them when I
   1.439 +have some spare moments. Now that you’re sending new ones again, I’ll
   1.440 +be happy to get back to them all as soon as I can. We can split the
   1.441 +cost of the calls if you want, Sakura-chan. It just makes my heart
   1.442 +swell 
   1.443 +to hear you on the other line, so I would be more than willing to
   1.444 +pay anything for that gift. I will call you this Sunday, then. And
   1.445 +every other Sunday I will wait patiently by my phone for you. That
   1.446 +should keep us from getting too many busy signals. I was so worried
   1.447 +that someone else was using the phone or that something had gone
   1.448 +wrong with the phone lines when I couldn’t get through. It’s easier
   1.449 +to panic now because I won’t be seeing you the next day to see what
   1.450 +happened. But I should have known that it wasn’t anything too
   1.451 +problematic for you. After all, there’s nothing Sakura-chan can’t
   1.452 +handle!
   1.453 +	 One of these days, when I come out and visit you (hopefully 
   1.454 +to help when you're pregnant or with a little one) I would love to
   1.455 +try some of your tea. I’m sure it must be very good by now,
   1.456 +especially after Ieran-sama’s help. And please don’t let her scare
   1.457 +you. It sounds like you’re slowly starting to warm her up to you. She
   1.458 +holds much back so as to remain a figure of authority, but she must
   1.459 +be coming to a slow realization that Sakura-chan really is the
   1.460 +perfect wife for her son. From the sounds of things, she’s already
   1.461 +helped you on the way to making your own tea an art form. Then again,
   1.462 +everything you did always seemed like art to me. Now that you mention
   1.463 +it, I really wish I had  gotten more footage of you capturing the
   1.464 +Jump Card (you were so brave when you faced it’s giant, cute doll
   1.465 +form!), but I’m glad that I could help by distracting Maki-san. I
   1.466 +told her everything I knew about tea and then everything I knew about
   1.467 +videotape. She was a very good listener. I was always happy to help
   1.468 +you. Though I think it surprised you when I took the guard schedule
   1.469 +from the museum when we were looking for the Silent Card. Oh, you
   1.470 +made such a cute thief! I loved capturing 
   1.471 +all of your adventures on videotape, but I was glad when I could
   1.472 +help you, too. But you and Li-kun always made such a good team. He
   1.473 +was a great sidekick to Cardcaptor Sakura. So it fits that you would
   1.474 +go on your happy marriage journey together. But I’m glad that you
   1.475 +still think of me being there with you when you’re nervous. Whenever
   1.476 +you think about that, just know that I am with you because you’re
   1.477 +always in my thoughts. So whatever Sakura-chan’s doing, I’m right
   1.478 +beside her, knowing that she’ll do an excellent job.
   1.479 +	Oh, you must have looked so kawaii when you were blushing! 
   1.480 +Everytime I reread that part of the letter, I could see you blushing
   1.481 +in my mind. You always looked so adorable when I dressed you up in
   1.482 +one of my costumes and you’d blush. Or when you’d blush after I’d say
   1.483 +something about you. Please remember that I was always telling the
   1.484 +truth! I was still happy to bring a blush to your cheeks, though. I
   1.485 +think it helps show that sweet innocence of yours even more. I’ll
   1.486 +have to go find a videotape of you blushing when I’m done now. But
   1.487 +that shouldn’t be too difficult because the costumes did a good job
   1.488 +of bringing that out. I always filmed you because you were the most
   1.489 +beautiful thing I could possibly film. There was no reason for me to
   1.490 +film anything else. But I think my camcorder is still happy to be
   1.491 +back at work because she knows the videos will go to you. My
   1.492 +camcorder and I are both excited that Sakura-chan likes the videos.
   1.493 +I’ll make sure I send more soon. I’ll need to try some more desserts.
   1.494 +Your new family should like that. And I’ll have to try new outfits
   1.495 +and hair styles now that I know Sakura-chan is watching the tapes to
   1.496 +see me. I’m so glad 
   1.497 +that you think I look cute in them. That’s the sweetest compliment I
   1.498 +could possibly have hoped for. Thank you so much, Sakura-chan.
   1.499 +	I’ve been thinking about your prophetic dream since I first read
   1.500 +about it. I’m sorry to say that I can’t think of what it could mean.
   1.501 +But I do think that you should listen carefully to it. I think you’re
   1.502 +right, that with time it will grow clearer. Sakura-chan’s dreams are
   1.503 +very trustworthy. Keep your heart open, but try not to worry too
   1.504 +much. I’m sure that you’ll figure it out when it’s time. Maybe you
   1.505 +and Li-kun have to come back to Japan soon to finish something up
   1.506 +with the Sakura Cards. Then I could videotape Sakura-chan’s older
   1.507 +Cardmistress adventures! But this makes me think of something else
   1.508 +that’s a little strange. The Dream Card gave premonitory dreams,
   1.509 +didn’t it? The dream if gave me before you caught it was filming lots
   1.510 +and lots of Sakura-chan’s. I guess it just meant that I would
   1.511 +continue to videotape you for a long time to come. Which was very
   1.512 +accurate because now I have many videotapes of you in my personal
   1.513 +collection. Hmm... Your dream sounds pretty vague now, but I’m sure
   1.514 +that given time it will make 
   1.515 +full sense to you. You always did make a good prophet. Maybe you
   1.516 +could try to do a Tarot reading with the Sakura Cards to figure out
   1.517 +more of what it meant.
   1.518 + 	Sakura-chan looks so pretty in her P.E. teacher’s uniform! 
   1.519 +The album is coming along gorgeously. I’ve been putting all of the 
   1.520 +pictures you’ve been sending to me in it, from the ones of the 
   1.521 +dinners you make to the ones of you and Li-kun and the family. I’m 
   1.522 +having a lot of fun arranging it. Your students must be very lucky
   1.523 +to have you as their teacher. I know I would have been entranced to
   1.524 +have a teacher like you. It would definitely make me want to try my
   1.525 +hardest. Sakura-chan’s students must be very eager for her. I never
   1.526 +really thought that you would be a sensei, but now that you are, it
   1.527 +sounds perfect for you. Especially of Physical Education. Sakura-chan
   1.528 +was always so athletic. So now it just sounds right that you would
   1.529 +be. I’m glad that your Chinese is coming along so well. It should
   1.530 +help with your students and with Li-kun’s family. You’ll have to
   1.531 +speak to me in it the next time we talk on the phone. And it’s great
   1.532 +that you are 
   1.533 +giving Fanren-san and the Principal Japanese lessons. So Sakura-
   1.534 +chan’s being a very busy sensei indeed! I’m sure that Li-kun will 
   1.535 +find it nice to have you out working so hard with your students. 
   1.536 +	I’m so sorry for you about the fight. That must have been 
   1.537 +horrible for you. I know how easily you can get hurt by things like 
   1.538 +that. I really wish I had been there afterwards to help you. But it 
   1.539 +sounds like it all worked out rather well. Please don’t worry about 
   1.540 +the fight. It depends on who the people are, Sakura-chan. Your 
   1.541 +father is a very calm man and from what my mother told me about 
   1.542 +your mother, Nadeshiko-san was always a caring, gentle person, no 
   1.543 +matter what was going on. So they really wouldn’t get into any 
   1.544 +fights. You are a very emotional girl. Emotions don’t have to be 
   1.545 +logical. Love rarely ever is. So all that matters is how you felt.
   1.546 +And 
   1.547 +Li-kun can be stubborn. So with him working so much and you 
   1.548 +being lonely and homesick, it makes sense that there would be some 
   1.549 +conflict. I’m sure you were both devastated by the argument and 
   1.550 +that you were eager to make up. Sometimes love can be painful, but 
   1.551 +it can also be heavenly. Don’t let the little slips disturb your
   1.552 +little 
   1.553 +slice of heaven. I know it must be difficult with you, out on your 
   1.554 +own in a different country with a completely different family and 
   1.555 +none of your old family or friends around. No one can fault you for 
   1.556 +being homesick, Sakura-chan. If I could pack everyone up and 
   1.557 +move them out there to keep you happy, I would. Then Sakura-
   1.558 +chan wouldn’t have to be lonely anymore. But I’m sure as you 
   1.559 +make new friends and as you get closer to Li-kun’s family, you’ll 
   1.560 +start feeling better. As long as you try your best, everything will 
   1.561 +work out. It feels lonely back here without your lovely presence, 
   1.562 +but I know that my wonderful best friend is living her exciting new 
   1.563 +life on the other side of the ocean, so there’s nothing for me to be 
   1.564 +lonely about.
   1.565 +	Kawaii!!! I’m so happy that you told me about that dream, Sakura-
   1.566 +chan. I can only imagine you with a deep blush, wearing cute boy’s
   1.567 +clothes and holding a ring. You must have been so embarrassed in the
   1.568 +dream to be asking something like that. But if Sakura-chan went
   1.569 +through all that trouble, I would find it very difficult to turn
   1.570 +‘him’ down. That does sound like a strange dream, but it sounds
   1.571 +beautiful, too. To think that anyone would care that much about me,
   1.572 +that things really could have turned out so well. It must have been a
   1.573 +very odd dream for you to have. It must be from you worrying about my
   1.574 +love life so much lately. It would make me so happy to have my True
   1.575 +Love propose to me 
   1.576 +like that. It sounded so romantic, too. Part of me wishes that
   1.577 +things could have worked out that happily with the one I love. But
   1.578 +instead, I’ll just think of your dream fondly as a what might have
   1.579 +been. If Sakura-chan was the boy I loved but never told, I would be a
   1.580 +very lucky girl. Please don’t cry for me, Sakura-chan. It makes me
   1.581 +sad to 
   1.582 +think of you in tears, especially over me. Love can hurt and love 
   1.583 +can be a very lonely feeling, but I would never give up the love in 
   1.584 +my heart even if it meant that I wouldn’t have to worry about any 
   1.585 +of that. My love for them will never change, even if they don’t
   1.586 +know. So I’ll love them from afar, glad to see them during the
   1.587 +happiest years of their life. I’m happy, Sakura-chan. Please don’t
   1.588 +worry about me.
   1.589 +Your happiness means so much to me. I wouldn’t want you to give up
   1.590 +any of it for my sake. Remember, it makes me happy when you are. So
   1.591 +you have to be happy for me. Don’t be ashamed. You were the best
   1.592 +friend that I could ever ask for. You never knew that I needed any
   1.593 +help to begin with and I was always eager to help you when I could.
   1.594 +Besides, I don’t think Fate ever intended for me to have my love, so
   1.595 +there was nothing you could do even had you known. But I accepted
   1.596 +that a long time ago. How can you be sad when the one you love is
   1.597 +happy? If you really, truly love them, then that should be enough. To
   1.598 +know that 
   1.599 +they’re happy in ways you could never make them. When you close your
   1.600 +eyes, you can feel them close to your heart, and your love just grows
   1.601 +knowing what a special person you’ve found. I’m very lucky to have
   1.602 +found my special person, Sakura-chan. It doesn’t matter whether or
   1.603 +not they love me. I’ll always love them regardless, so it doesn’t
   1.604 +change that in the least. Thank you so much for wanting to help me.
   1.605 +You really are a perfect best friend.
   1.606 +	Mother has been a little confused lately, I think. She says she
   1.607 +doesn’t want to see me alone and to end up like her. She’s angry with
   1.608 +my special someone for leaving me alone like this but she cares for
   1.609 +them as well. So I think it’s difficult for her to sort out her
   1.610 +emotions. I’m trying to convince her not to be angry because I’m
   1.611 +happy with how things have turned out, but mother can be a very
   1.612 +stubborn woman. She was, on the other hand, very pleased with the
   1.613 +doll I finished designing. I’ll send the finished designs along with
   1.614 +this. 
   1.615 +Soon enough, the doll itself should be in production. Cutecaptor
   1.616 +Haneko will be the first toy that I was the head of the designs for.
   1.617 +I’m very excited about it. If the sales go well, there may even be an
   1.618 +anime tie in. I guess mother liked the backstory I came up with for
   1.619 +Haneko-chan. I’ll be going to the Toy Fair in a few weeks with the
   1.620 +prototype doll along with mother for the showcasing of many other
   1.621 +Daidouji toys. 
   1.622 +	It seems that Flower has the same preferences as mother. I really
   1.623 +can’t think of anyone who wouldn’t want to dance with Sakura-chan.
   1.624 +That must have been a lot of fun. You really did need something to
   1.625 +relax you after worrying about everything. I can understand why 
   1.626 +you wouldn’t want to tell Li-kun. That might seem a little strange
   1.627 +to him. But I’m glad that you’re still talking to the Sakura Cards.
   1.628 +They all loved you so much. 
   1.629 +	Magic or not, I know that your beautiful spirit will always shine 
   1.630 +through. You made a wonderful magical girl, but that was never what
   1.631 +was 
   1.632 +important to me. It was you. It was seeing the genki, bright girl
   1.633 +that you always were and getting to be close to you. That was always
   1.634 +more important to me than any magic. You spin your own magic, Sakura-
   1.635 +chan. Thank you again, my sweet friend. But you really don’t have to
   1.636 +worry about me. I’ll be fine. I’m sure that everything will always be
   1.637 +all right. It’s your power phrase, after all. So I have to believe
   1.638 +it. Because I believe in you. And I always knew that you’d rescue me.
   1.639 +I will be all right. I am all right. You don’t have to worry. I would
   1.640 +never want to worry you, Sakura-chan. 
   1.641 +	Give Kero-chan another hug for me and please distribute my love 
   1.642 +among everyone and the Cards, but be sure to keep a huge chunk for
   1.643 +yourself. I sent along the cassette you asked for. I tried to put in
   1.644 +some variety to the music so that there should be plenty to listen to
   1.645 +on it. I kept from anything sad this time. I always love singing for
   1.646 +you, Sakura-chan. So I'm very happy to have you as my delayed
   1.647 +audience. 
   1.648 +
   1.649 +
   1.650 +Your friend in Tomoeda,
   1.651 +Daidouji Tomoyo
   1.652 +
   1.653 +
   1.654 +
   1.655 +Dear Tomoyo-chan,
   1.656 +
   1.657 +Things are so hectic here that it is just a pleasure to sit down and
   1.658 +write a letter to my very best friend across the sea. I usually wake
   1.659 +up around 5:00 AM and do some housework before catching the 6:20 bus
   1.660 +for Fung Kai Liu Yun Sum Memorial Primary School. But I woke up
   1.661 +especially early today so I could write to you. I am so glad we are
   1.662 +still in touch with each other, Tomoyo-chan. The thought occurred to
   1.663 +me that because we are not together all the time as we used to be, we
   1.664 +might drift apart somehow. When I thought this, I became very
   1.665 +worried, and gathered together all of my letters from you, and your
   1.666 +videos, and the cassettes of your singing. But if this was all I had
   1.667 +of you, if this was all that was left, I don't know what I would do.
   1.668 +I feel bad asking this, because in a way I left you to come to Hong
   1.669 +Kong. So, I have no right to say this. But Tomoyo-chan, please don't
   1.670 +ever leave me. If I did not have you to talk with, to listen to, and
   1.671 +if I did not think you remembered me, I just don't know how I could
   1.672 +get through even one day. 
   1.673 +
   1.674 +Gomenesai. This is supposed to be a happy letter. There have been
   1.675 +many happy things going on since last I wrote. I have made friends
   1.676 +with a teacher at work, and I told her about you, and how much you
   1.677 +meant to me. She is older than I am, and very smart. Hoeee, she
   1.678 +teaches mathematics, and knows so many things! She told me she once
   1.679 +had a friend like you, when she was growing up. She said she had
   1.680 +fallen in love with that friend, and thought they would always be
   1.681 +together. But after high school, her friend moved away to England.
   1.682 +For a while they wrote letters, and talked on the phone. But
   1.683 +eventually, she says they drifted apart, and even stopped writing.
   1.684 +She was crying. She apologized for being so foolish, and said it felt
   1.685 +odd to still care so much. Tomoyo-chan, I don't want us to ever drift
   1.686 +apart like that. I was so afraid after I talked to her. I thought,
   1.687 +what if there was no Tomoyo-chan in my life? I am so happy here with
   1.688 +my new family in Hong Kong, but if I lost you, I don't think I could
   1.689 +live anymore. 
   1.690 +
   1.691 +Gomenesai. All right, let me tell you about all the happy things
   1.692 +that have been happening. My job is a lot of work, but it is
   1.693 +wonderful! I am the girl's P.E. teacher, and teach 5 classes a day,
   1.694 +one for each grade. Thank you so much for sending the books on P.E.
   1.695 +instruction that I asked for on the phone. They have been a big help.
   1.696 +I never knew there was so much to teaching! So far, I have shown the
   1.697 +students fundamentals of exercise. Next week, we will begin a unit on
   1.698 +gymnastics. "Lessons must be adjusted to the grade level, individual
   1.699 +level of development, and personal level of motivation and perceived
   1.700 +capability". Hoeee, sometimes reading the books makes my head dizzy,
   1.701 +but I am trying my best. At least I am not teaching mathematics! And
   1.702 +I know you said you will pay for the books and the shipping costs,
   1.703 +but I did want to do something in return. So, I sent you a book
   1.704 +entitled, "The Flora of Hong Kong and Surrounding Areas". It is in
   1.705 +English, so I do not know much of what is says. But I thought the
   1.706 +pictures were beautiful, and hope that you like it. I got the idea
   1.707 +from Flower, by the way. She sends her love. She remembers you
   1.708 +fondly, and was wondering if you like to dance, or just to film
   1.709 +dancing? 
   1.710 +
   1.711 +I went shopping in the City after school let out early last Monday.
   1.712 +I bought a tea set, with a little purple teapot and 2 lavender cups.
   1.713 +For some reason, they reminded me very much of you, although the set
   1.714 +is from Great Britain, and of course you are from Japan. Anyway, I
   1.715 +decided to save it for when you came to visit. It will be my special
   1.716 +Tomoyo chan tea set. Maybe after you have finished work on the Haneko
   1.717 +chan doll, you might be able to come and visit? Tomoyo-chan, I would
   1.718 +dearly love to see you again. And we could go shopping together.
   1.719 +There are many wonderful stores here, and now that I am making my own
   1.720 +money to spend, I appreciate the prices!
   1.721 +
   1.722 +I was blushing when I read about me blushing in your letter. Thank
   1.723 +you, Tomoyo-chan. You always made me feel so special with your
   1.724 +unusual costumes, and kind words, and all the little things you have
   1.725 +always done for me. Talking about capturing Jump and Silence brought
   1.726 +back many memories, especially of you. And thank you so very much for
   1.727 +the wonderful videotapes. Kero-chan was very excited at the prospect
   1.728 +of dessert videos. I play them a lot lately, and not just for help in
   1.729 +cooking, though that is very much appreciated. You are so beautiful
   1.730 +that sometimes my heart aches to see you in them. I have a picture of
   1.731 +Mother on the dresser in my room. I'd never really realized how much
   1.732 +the two of you look alike. And from everything Oniichan and Father
   1.733 +have told me, you sound so much like her: sweet, gentle, patient, and
   1.734 +loving. I think Sonomi-sama is very perceptive and wise when she says
   1.735 +you remind her of Mother. If it would not be too much trouble, could
   1.736 +you send me a picture of you? I would like to put in on the dresser,
   1.737 +so I can see you both before I sleep.
   1.738 +
   1.739 +I had that dream again, the one where I can see Tokyo Tower. Last
   1.740 +night, there was more of the dream. I could see a figure on the
   1.741 +Tower, but was not able to make out who it was. Kero-chan will not
   1.742 +say anything about it, because he says only I can understand the
   1.743 +dream's true meaning. He says it may take time for the dream to
   1.744 +ripen, so I must be patient. Thank you for the suggestion about the
   1.745 +Dream Card. I talked with her about it, but she only smiled, and said
   1.746 +it sounded like a very interesting dream. If I did come back to Japan
   1.747 +because of this, then I could see you again. That would be so
   1.748 +wonderful! And I did do a reading with my cards, but not about the
   1.749 +dream. About something more important. It was very exhausting, and I
   1.750 +will tell you about it later in the letter.
   1.751 +
   1.752 +As for the other dream I had, the one with you in it, umm, Tomoyo-
   1.753 +chan, how did you know it was me dressed in boy’s clothes? After you
   1.754 +wrote that, I remembered that in my dream the boy looked like me, and
   1.755 +really was me. I guess that is because I didn’t know who he really
   1.756 +is.  But how did you know that? Anyway, I was very nervous and
   1.757 +embarrassed in the dream, but it was still a beautiful moment.
   1.758 +Syaoran-chan told me that proposing marriage was the hardest thing he
   1.759 +had ever done, much worse than any of his battles, or even training
   1.760 +with Ieran-sama. I don’t know how boys do it. I guess it is sort of a
   1.761 +test, to offer up your heart to the one you love. You may be
   1.762 +rejected, and that would be terribly painful, but you must offer
   1.763 +yourself as a sacrifice to your beloved. I remember the dream most
   1.764 +vividly. I guess you are right, that I had the dream because I was
   1.765 +worrying so much about you.  And thank you for the kind words about
   1.766 +me as your friend. I know you would never blame me for anything, even
   1.767 +if I was at fault. But I can’t help but feel that somehow I have
   1.768 +failed you, my very best friend. I think your love is such a precious
   1.769 +thing, and am glad it is close to your heart. But I do wish your true
   1.770 +love was with you. I know he would be, if he knew, and he could. 
   1.771 +
   1.772 +Thank you for the kind words on my first fight. You are so wise
   1.773 +about people, and it helped to read your observations about Syaoran-
   1.774 +chan and me. It really was so awful. It felt as if our love was no
   1.775 +longer there, just anger and regret. I am so happy that we made up
   1.776 +the next morning. I never, ever want to fight like that again.
   1.777 +Syaoran-chan is my one, true love, and I should be thankful for him
   1.778 +no matter what happens. But we almost had another fight just two
   1.779 +nights. Syaoran-chan was very late from work, but I missed him so
   1.780 +much that I stayed up until 1 AM, even though I must be up so early
   1.781 +to go to work. He was surprised to see me, and did not seem very
   1.782 +happy.  I asked him how work was, and he mumbled something I could
   1.783 +not understand. I told him I had tried to call, but there was no
   1.784 +answer in his office. He got angry, and accused me of prying. Tomoyo-
   1.785 +chan, I did not mean it like that at all. I just wanted him to know
   1.786 +that I cared about him, and wanted to talk with him. He said he had
   1.787 +gone out with some people in his office for beers. He said that was a
   1.788 +part of his job. I was very hurt, because I felt he cared more for
   1.789 +going out with other people than seeing me. But I did not say
   1.790 +anything because I did not want another fight. Syaoran-chan went to
   1.791 +bed, but I was too upset to sleep, so I called Oniichan. He was
   1.792 +sleeping, but I told him all that had happened, and I guess I cried a
   1.793 +lot. He told me that salarymen have to do this a lot, and not to
   1.794 +worry about it. That made me feel better. 
   1.795 +
   1.796 +So, the next morning, when I served Syaoran-chan his breakfast, I
   1.797 +gave him a note asking if we could talk about something when he got
   1.798 +home that night. I think he was afraid I was still upset about the
   1.799 +night before, but I really wasn’t. Well, not a lot, anyway. So, he
   1.800 +was home very early that night, and we talked about our day, which
   1.801 +was nice. I told him that I was sorry about being angry the night
   1.802 +before, and that Oniichan had told me this was a part of his job, and
   1.803 +I shouldn’t feel hurt. He seemed surprised that Oniichan had said
   1.804 +this, but was happy that everything had been resolved. Then I told
   1.805 +him about the dream with Tokyo Tower. He seemed concerned, and I know
   1.806 +he will do all he can to help. I feel he will somehow protect me, as
   1.807 +he always has. I am so glad that everything turned out well.I really
   1.808 +am lucky to have found my true love. 
   1.809 +
   1.810 +I did a card reading Sunday, after our phone call. I was surprised
   1.811 +at how difficult it was, and how very tired it made me. Tomoyo chan,
   1.812 +please do not be angry with me, but I wanted to know who your special
   1.813 +person is. I knew you would not tell me if I asked, so I asked the
   1.814 +cards instead. I asked them just to give me a hint, since it did not
   1.815 +seem right to ask without your permission. Well, the important cards
   1.816 +that came up were Loop and Illusion. Illusion showed me an image of
   1.817 +myself, and when I added that to Loop, it seemed to me that your
   1.818 +special someone is very close to me. In fact, I am certain that this
   1.819 +is true. So, I have been thinking about all you have said about your
   1.820 +special someone. I think I know who it is.
   1.821 +
   1.822 +This person is very close to me. This person is someone who does not
   1.823 +know that you love them. It must be a very wonderful person for you
   1.824 +to have given your heart to them, for the person that Tomoyo-chan
   1.825 +loves must be very special, indeed. You have known this person a long
   1.826 +time.  You were going to tell them of your love, but hesitated when
   1.827 +they found someone else. Now you are happy for them, and do not wish
   1.828 +to intrude on their happiness. 
   1.829 +
   1.830 +Tomoyo-chan, do you love Oniichan?
   1.831 +
   1.832 +It makes sense to me now that you were blushing the first time you
   1.833 +saw him. And I think that Oniichan also likes you. Remember when I
   1.834 +told you Oniichan was talking about you when Syaoran-chan and I
   1.835 +announced our engagement? Tomoyo-chan, he was saying the most
   1.836 +wonderful things about you. He said you were bright, and sweet, and
   1.837 +caring, and pretty, and would be a wonderful companion for life. I
   1.838 +guess I am sort of dense about these things, and I did not understand
   1.839 +what he was saying. I did not know that he liked you, -like that-.
   1.840 +But you are right, he is very happy with Yukito-san, and I don’t know
   1.841 +what to say or do. Perhaps he likes you, and also Yukito-san? Maybe
   1.842 +you are right that it is best if you keep your love silent. But I am
   1.843 +still sad that I will never get to see you at your wedding.  I wish
   1.844 +there was something I could do. If you would like, I can talk to
   1.845 +Oniichan. Somehow it is too sad that Tomoyo-chan’s precious love must
   1.846 +be kept in the beautiful cage of her heart.
   1.847 +
   1.848 +Tomoyo-chan, I don’t quite know how, but somehow you will be all
   1.849 +right.
   1.850 +
   1.851 +I must run to my bus soon, but I wanted to thank you for the
   1.852 +beautiful songs. I listen to them very often. I think with my next
   1.853 +paycheck I will but a cassette tape player, so I can hear you on the
   1.854 +way to work. When I listen to your voice, I feel that my best friend
   1.855 +will always be with me. Thank you so much Tomoyo chan.
   1.856 +
   1.857 +Love, 
   1.858 +
   1.859 +
   1.860 +Kinomoto Sakura
   1.861 +
   1.862 +PS- Aiyaaa, I am always forgetting to put this in the letter. Kero-
   1.863 +chan sends his love. Oh, and he made me promise to ask for the cake
   1.864 +recipe with the strawberries. I am sorry. Syoaran-chan sends his
   1.865 +regards. 
   1.866 +
   1.867 +PPS- Please give Sonomi-sama my love. I know she wants only the best
   1.868 +for her precious daughter. And I think she is right. I don’t see how
   1.869 +anybody who leaves you could be happy. 
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