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rlm@2 1 "I'll have to say I love you in a song"
rlm@2 2 by Sara Jaye
rlm@2 3 SaraJNES@aol.com
rlm@2 4
rlm@2 5 Wow, who'd have thought my first ever CCS fic would be a songfic? :P But
rlm@2 6 that's what it is. In honor of Valentine's Day, I decided to make my writing
rlm@2 7 debut with a short, sweet little songfic. It's a Sakura/Tomoyo story *ducks
rlm@2 8 flames from Sakura/Syaoran fans*, and it's mostly from Tomoyo's point of
rlm@2 9 view. Well, the song is at least, until the last few lines. After that, it
rlm@2 10 switches to Sakura's. Parts from Tomoyo's point of view are encased in
rlm@2 11 {}'s.
rlm@2 12 I used the song "I'll have to say I love you in a song", by Jim Croce.
rlm@2 13 Sorry if it's such an obscure one. ^^; I just thought it fit rather well.
rlm@2 14 All lyrics are encased in *'s.
rlm@2 15 I've never really seen CCS before, and only know a little about the
rlm@2 16 manga. So I'm not sure of the time period the storyline covers. In this
rlm@2 17 story, Sakura and Tomoyo are 13, but Syaoran and Sakura are (supposedly)
rlm@2 18 falling for one another. So if I got any timeline or story elements wrong,
rlm@2 19 please let me know.
rlm@2 20 Anyways, I think that's enough for the author's notes, ne? :P Now, on
rlm@2 21 with the story! ^_^
rlm@2 22
rlm@2 23
rlm@2 24 [Disclaimers: CCS, Sakura, Tomoyo, and Syaoran are not mine, the belong to
rlm@2 25 CLAMP. This story is for entertainment purposes, so please don't sue me.
rlm@2 26 "I'll have to say I love you in a song" is the property of the late, great
rlm@2 27 Jim Croce.
rlm@2 28 This is a yuri fanfiction, meaning love between 2 girls. If you are either
rlm@2 29 (a) homophobic and offended/bothered by this kind of thing or (b) a
rlm@2 30 Sakura/Syaoran fan, I suggest you leave now, as you will definitely not like
rlm@2 31 this. If you read this and are outraged/disturbed/etc, please do not blame
rlm@2 32 me. :P But if none of the above apply to you, enjoy! ^_^]
rlm@2 33
rlm@2 34 ~
rlm@2 35
rlm@2 36 *Well, I know it's kind of late,
rlm@2 37 I hope I didn't wake you.*
rlm@2 38
rlm@2 39 {I hate to call this late. I know you're probably asleep and would hate
rlm@2 40 to disturb you or anyone else in the house. So if I did, gomen nasai.}
rlm@2 41
rlm@2 42 *But what I got to say can't wait,
rlm@2 43 I know you'd understand.*
rlm@2 44
rlm@2 45 {I just really needed to tell you this. It's been driving me crazy for
rlm@2 46 the longest time and if I put it off any longer, it's sure to kill me. But
rlm@2 47 you'll probably understand. You've always been so sweet...among many other
rlm@2 48 things.}
rlm@2 49
rlm@2 50 *Every time I tried to tell you
rlm@2 51 The words just came out wrong.*
rlm@2 52
rlm@2 53 {I've tried to say this to you several times, but no matter how hard I
rlm@2 54 tried, the words always got caught in my throat. And when I did manage to say
rlm@2 55 something, it always came out wrong, like "I love that color on you", or
rlm@2 56 "You're very important to me". Even if those things are true...they're not
rlm@2 57 what I wanted to say.}
rlm@2 58
rlm@2 59 *So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
rlm@2 60
rlm@2 61 {What I'm trying to say, and what I've been trying to say for all this
rlm@2 62 time is...I love you, Sakura-chan. I always have, and I always will.}
rlm@2 63
rlm@2 64 *Yeah, I know it's kind of strange,
rlm@2 65 But every time I'm near you,
rlm@2 66 I just run out of things to say.*
rlm@2 67
rlm@2 68 {It's so strange. I'm usually so cheerful and talkative around people,
rlm@2 69 and you've always been the shy one. Yet every time we're together, this shy,
rlm@2 70 awkward feeling comes over me and I get so...tongue-tied. I don't know what
rlm@2 71 to say...}
rlm@2 72
rlm@2 73 *I know you'd understand.*
rlm@2 74
rlm@2 75 {So you'll probably understand what I'm saying...or at least I hope.}
rlm@2 76
rlm@2 77 *Every time I tried to tell you
rlm@2 78 The words just came out wrong.
rlm@2 79 So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
rlm@2 80
rlm@2 81 {People always say that it's better to confess something like this in
rlm@2 82 person. But since I obviously can't do that, I've got to tell you over the
rlm@2 83 phone. In this message. I just hope nobody else hears this before you do,
rlm@2 84 Sakura.}
rlm@2 85
rlm@2 86 *(Guitar solo)*
rlm@2 87
rlm@2 88 {I can't believe it's come down to this, though...having to tell you my
rlm@2 89 true feelings in an answering machine message. Were the little messages I've
rlm@2 90 been sending for awhile not getting through? If that's the case...I'm not
rlm@2 91 surprised. I love you more than life itself, and I hate to say anything
rlm@2 92 negative about you...but you can be so dense sometimes, Sakura-chan. I know
rlm@2 93 you've got other important things to worry about, but still...*sigh* Maybe
rlm@2 94 it's my fault...maybe I'm being too subtle.
rlm@2 95 And the sad thing is...even if you had been able to pick up on the hints,
rlm@2 96 I know you couldn't feel the same way towards me as I feel towards you. I
rlm@2 97 know you already have someone...I know you're slowly falling in love with
rlm@2 98 Syaoran. But that is okay. I want you to be happy above all else, and if he
rlm@2 99 makes you happy, then I hope you 2 get together. I want only the best for
rlm@2 100 you, Sakura-chan. You deserve it.}
rlm@2 101
rlm@2 102 *Every time the time was right,
rlm@2 103 All the words just came out wrong.*
rlm@2 104
rlm@2 105 {*sigh* Even when the moment was just perfect, I always managed to
rlm@2 106 freeze...or he came by...sometimes I feel so frustrated. Why does something
rlm@2 107 that should be as simple as this have to be so hard to say? Why?}
rlm@2 108
rlm@2 109 *So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
rlm@2 110
rlm@2 111 {As long as you get this message, I'll be satisfied. I just hope...you
rlm@2 112 don't feel any differently towards me...}
rlm@2 113
rlm@2 114 *Yeah, I know it's kind of late,
rlm@2 115 I hope I didn't wake you.*
rlm@2 116
rlm@2 117 {Again, if I woke you or your family, gomen nasai. I'll go
rlm@2 118 now...Goodnight, Sakura-chan. Sleep well. *voice breaks a little* I love you.
rlm@2 119 *hangs up*}
rlm@2 120
rlm@2 121 *But there's something that I just got to say.
rlm@2 122 I know you'd understand.*
rlm@2 123
rlm@2 124 I sneak dowstairs to the answering machine. I could've sworn Tomoyo just
rlm@2 125 left me a message...but why? Could I just be imagining things? I walk to the
rlm@2 126 table where the machine rests, and the light is flashing. Someone did leave a
rlm@2 127 message. I press the "Play" button and listen.
rlm@2 128
rlm@2 129 *Every time I tried to tell you
rlm@2 130 The words just came out wrong.
rlm@2 131 So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
rlm@2 132
rlm@2 133 By the time the message is over, I can't even blink. Did I actually hear
rlm@2 134 this? Tomoyo loves me? I must be dreaming...I pinch myself just to be
rlm@2 135 sure...this seems so unreal.
rlm@2 136 "Ow!" I wince. I'm not dreaming. And now I feel guilty, rather stupid,
rlm@2 137 and relieved. She does love me...
rlm@2 138 I can't say that I was wishing the exact same thing the whole time. Until
rlm@2 139 recently, I only thought of her as my best friend. But lately, I'd been
rlm@2 140 noticing her in a different light...for the first time, I'm seeing just how
rlm@2 141 wonderful she really is...how beautiful she looks, especially in the
rlm@2 142 moonlight on a clear, starry night. And just how much she means to me. But
rlm@2 143 I've also had feelings for Syaoran, so I was confused.
rlm@2 144 'Not anymore,' I think. Quietly, I go back up to my room. I slip on my
rlm@2 145 shoes and jacket, then open the window and climb out. For a minute I consider
rlm@2 146 using the power of the Clow cards and flying to her house, but decide not to.
rlm@2 147 It'd be too risky. Shivering, I quickly walk to Tomoyo's house.
rlm@2 148
rlm@2 149 Standing outside, I gaze into her window. It's dark, and the blinds are
rlm@2 150 drawn almost all the way. She's probably asleep...I consider going back and
rlm@2 151 just leaving her a message. 'No,' I tell myself. 'You owe it to both her and
rlm@2 152 yourself to tell her in person.' I sigh, then pick up a tiny pebble and throw
rlm@2 153 it up at her window, hoping not to wake her mother or her bodyguards. As I
rlm@2 154 see her get out of bed and walk to the window, I feel my heart pounding in my
rlm@2 155 chest. 'Please understand, Tomoyo-chan,' I pray.
rlm@2 156 "Sakura-chan?" she yawns, rubbing her eyes and looking very surprised to
rlm@2 157 see me. "Hi...can I talk to you?" I ask shyly. She nods, tossing a rope out
rlm@2 158 the window. I climb up as fast as I can, then practically fall into the room,
rlm@2 159 shivering.
rlm@2 160 "You must be freezing," she says sympathetically, and wraps a blanket
rlm@2 161 around my shoulders. "Thanks," I whisper. She smiles. "No problem," she says,
rlm@2 162 settling down next to me on the bed. The next few minutes are silent.
rlm@2 163 "What did you want to talk to me about?" she asks. I take a deep breath,
rlm@2 164 then look at her. "I got your message." She blushes, and almost looks
rlm@2 165 panicked.
rlm@2 166 "You did?" she nearly cries out. I nod. "I see..." She looks down.
rlm@2 167 "And?"
rlm@2 168 "And...now I understand. And I'm very sorry for not seeing it
rlm@2 169 before...for not picking up on your hints, and for not realizing I felt the
rlm@2 170 same way." She blinks.
rlm@2 171 "You mean...?" I nod. My heart beats faster, and I can barely get the
rlm@2 172 words out. But somehow, I manage.
rlm@2 173 "Aishiteru, Tomoyo-chan," I whispered. For a minute, she doesn't answer.
rlm@2 174 Then she turns to me, her eyes shiny and that beautiful smile spreading
rlm@2 175 across her face.
rlm@2 176 "Sakura-chan..." she whispers. Several tears of joy run down her cheeks.
rlm@2 177 I reach up and gently brush them away with my fingertips, then take her in my
rlm@2 178 arms. "I-I just can't believe this...I never thought you could feel the same
rlm@2 179 way," she chokes. I look into her eyes, my own sparkling with happiness.
rlm@2 180 "I only wish I'd known my own feelings sooner," I whisper. She smiles and
rlm@2 181 snuggles closer.
rlm@2 182 "It's okay. I'm just happy I finally told you," she sighs. "I love you so
rlm@2 183 much...finding out you feel the same way is just...more than I ever dreamed
rlm@2 184 possible." Then she looked a little concerned. "What about Syaoran?" she
rlm@2 185 asked.
rlm@2 186 "He's just a good friend. I thought I loved him, but it was only a
rlm@2 187 schoolgirl crush," I told her. We gaze into each other's eyes. She wraps her
rlm@2 188 arms around my chest, looking deliriously happy.
rlm@2 189 "I love you, Sakura-chan," she whispers.
rlm@2 190 "And I love you." I lean my head in slightly, as does she. Our eyes
rlm@2 191 close, and our lips slowly meet.
rlm@2 192
rlm@2 193 ~End~
rlm@2 194
rlm@2 195 Wow, that was a bit longer than I expected! ^^ But it was pretty damn fun
rlm@2 196 to write. Sakura and Tomoyo are just too cute. ^-^
rlm@2 197 Well, that's all for now. I dunno when I'll actually write my next CCS fic,
rlm@2 198 but I hope I can soon. ^^
rlm@2 199 Till then, ja ne! ^_^