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     1.4 +"I'll have to say I love you in a song"
     1.5 +    by Sara Jaye
     1.6 +        SaraJNES@aol.com
     1.7 +
     1.8 +    Wow, who'd have thought my first ever CCS fic would be a songfic? :P But
     1.9 +that's what it is. In honor of Valentine's Day, I decided to make my writing
    1.10 +debut with a short, sweet little songfic. It's a Sakura/Tomoyo story *ducks
    1.11 +flames from Sakura/Syaoran fans*, and it's mostly from Tomoyo's point of
    1.12 +view. Well, the song is at least, until the last few lines. After that, it
    1.13 +switches to Sakura's. Parts from Tomoyo's point of view are encased in
    1.14 +{}'s.
    1.15 +    I used the song "I'll have to say I love you in a song", by Jim Croce.
    1.16 +Sorry if it's such an obscure one. ^^; I just thought it fit rather well.
    1.17 +    All lyrics are encased in *'s.
    1.18 +    I've never really seen CCS before, and only know a little about the
    1.19 +manga. So I'm not sure of the time period the storyline covers. In this
    1.20 +story, Sakura and Tomoyo are 13, but Syaoran and Sakura are (supposedly)
    1.21 +falling for one another. So if I got any timeline or story elements wrong,
    1.22 +please let me know.
    1.23 +    Anyways, I think that's enough for the author's notes, ne? :P Now, on
    1.24 +with the story! ^_^
    1.25 +
    1.26 +
    1.27 +[Disclaimers: CCS, Sakura, Tomoyo, and Syaoran are not mine, the belong to
    1.28 +CLAMP. This story is for entertainment purposes, so please don't sue me.
    1.29 +"I'll have to say I love you in a song" is the property of the late, great
    1.30 +Jim Croce.
    1.31 +This is a yuri fanfiction, meaning love between 2 girls. If you are either
    1.32 +(a) homophobic and offended/bothered by this kind of thing or (b) a
    1.33 +Sakura/Syaoran fan, I suggest you leave now, as you will definitely not like
    1.34 +this. If you read this and are outraged/disturbed/etc, please do not blame
    1.35 +me. :P But if none of the above apply to you, enjoy! ^_^]
    1.36 +
    1.37 +                ~
    1.38 +
    1.39 +*Well, I know it's kind of late,
    1.40 +I hope I didn't wake you.*
    1.41 +
    1.42 +    {I hate to call this late. I know you're probably asleep and would hate
    1.43 +to disturb you or anyone else in the house. So if I did, gomen nasai.}
    1.44 +
    1.45 +*But what I got to say can't wait,
    1.46 +I know you'd understand.*
    1.47 +
    1.48 +    {I just really needed to tell you this. It's been driving me crazy for
    1.49 +the longest time and if I put it off any longer, it's sure to kill me. But
    1.50 +you'll probably understand. You've always been so sweet...among many other
    1.51 +things.}
    1.52 +
    1.53 +*Every time I tried to tell you
    1.54 +The words just came out wrong.*
    1.55 +
    1.56 +    {I've tried to say this to you several times, but no matter how hard I
    1.57 +tried, the words always got caught in my throat. And when I did manage to say
    1.58 +something, it always came out wrong, like "I love that color on you", or
    1.59 +"You're very important to me". Even if those things are true...they're not
    1.60 +what I wanted to say.}
    1.61 +
    1.62 +*So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
    1.63 +
    1.64 +    {What I'm trying to say, and what I've been trying to say for all this
    1.65 +time is...I love you, Sakura-chan. I always have, and I always will.}
    1.66 +
    1.67 +*Yeah, I know it's kind of strange,
    1.68 +But every time I'm near you,
    1.69 +I just run out of things to say.*
    1.70 +
    1.71 +    {It's so strange. I'm usually so cheerful and talkative around people,
    1.72 +and you've always been the shy one. Yet every time we're together, this shy,
    1.73 +awkward feeling comes over me and I get so...tongue-tied. I don't know what
    1.74 +to say...}
    1.75 +
    1.76 +*I know you'd understand.*
    1.77 +
    1.78 +    {So you'll probably understand what I'm saying...or at least I hope.}
    1.79 +
    1.80 +*Every time I tried to tell you
    1.81 +The words just came out wrong.
    1.82 +So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
    1.83 +
    1.84 +    {People always say that it's better to confess something like this in
    1.85 +person. But since I obviously can't do that, I've got to tell you over the
    1.86 +phone. In this message. I just hope nobody else hears this before you do,
    1.87 +Sakura.}
    1.88 +
    1.89 +*(Guitar solo)*
    1.90 +
    1.91 +    {I can't believe it's come down to this, though...having to tell you my
    1.92 +true feelings in an answering machine message. Were the little messages I've
    1.93 +been sending for awhile not getting through? If that's the case...I'm not
    1.94 +surprised. I love you more than life itself, and I hate to say anything
    1.95 +negative about you...but you can be so dense sometimes, Sakura-chan. I know
    1.96 +you've got other important things to worry about, but still...*sigh* Maybe
    1.97 +it's my fault...maybe I'm being too subtle.
    1.98 +    And the sad thing is...even if you had been able to pick up on the hints,
    1.99 +I know you couldn't feel the same way towards me as I feel towards you. I
   1.100 +know you already have someone...I know you're slowly falling in love with
   1.101 +Syaoran. But that is okay. I want you to be happy above all else, and if he
   1.102 +makes you happy, then I hope you 2 get together. I want only the best for
   1.103 +you, Sakura-chan. You deserve it.}
   1.104 +
   1.105 +*Every time the time was right,
   1.106 +All the words just came out wrong.*
   1.107 +
   1.108 +    {*sigh* Even when the moment was just perfect, I always managed to
   1.109 +freeze...or he came by...sometimes I feel so frustrated. Why does something
   1.110 +that should be as simple as this have to be so hard to say? Why?}
   1.111 +
   1.112 +*So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
   1.113 +
   1.114 +    {As long as you get this message, I'll be satisfied. I just hope...you
   1.115 +don't feel any differently towards me...}
   1.116 +
   1.117 +*Yeah, I know it's kind of late,
   1.118 +I hope I didn't wake you.*
   1.119 +
   1.120 +    {Again, if I woke you or your family, gomen nasai. I'll go
   1.121 +now...Goodnight, Sakura-chan. Sleep well. *voice breaks a little* I love you.
   1.122 +*hangs up*}
   1.123 +
   1.124 +*But there's something that I just got to say.
   1.125 +I know you'd understand.*
   1.126 +
   1.127 +    I sneak dowstairs to the answering machine. I could've sworn Tomoyo just
   1.128 +left me a message...but why? Could I just be imagining things? I walk to the
   1.129 +table where the machine rests, and the light is flashing. Someone did leave a
   1.130 +message. I press the "Play" button and listen.
   1.131 +
   1.132 +*Every time I tried to tell you
   1.133 +The words just came out wrong.
   1.134 +So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
   1.135 +
   1.136 +    By the time the message is over, I can't even blink. Did I actually hear
   1.137 +this? Tomoyo loves me? I must be dreaming...I pinch myself just to be
   1.138 +sure...this seems so unreal.
   1.139 +    "Ow!" I wince. I'm not dreaming. And now I feel guilty, rather stupid,
   1.140 +and relieved. She does love me...
   1.141 +    I can't say that I was wishing the exact same thing the whole time. Until
   1.142 +recently, I only thought of her as my best friend. But lately, I'd been
   1.143 +noticing her in a different light...for the first time, I'm seeing just how
   1.144 +wonderful she really is...how beautiful she looks, especially in the
   1.145 +moonlight on a clear, starry night. And just how much she means to me. But
   1.146 +I've also had feelings for Syaoran, so I was confused.
   1.147 +    'Not anymore,' I think. Quietly, I go back up to my room. I slip on my
   1.148 +shoes and jacket, then open the window and climb out. For a minute I consider
   1.149 +using the power of the Clow cards and flying to her house, but decide not to.
   1.150 +It'd be too risky. Shivering, I quickly walk to Tomoyo's house.
   1.151 +
   1.152 +    Standing outside, I gaze into her window. It's dark, and the blinds are
   1.153 +drawn almost all the way. She's probably asleep...I consider going back and
   1.154 +just leaving her a message. 'No,' I tell myself. 'You owe it to both her and
   1.155 +yourself to tell her in person.' I sigh, then pick up a tiny pebble and throw
   1.156 +it up at her window, hoping not to wake her mother or her bodyguards. As I
   1.157 +see her get out of bed and walk to the window, I feel my heart pounding in my
   1.158 +chest. 'Please understand, Tomoyo-chan,' I pray.
   1.159 +    "Sakura-chan?" she yawns, rubbing her eyes and looking very surprised to
   1.160 +see me. "Hi...can I talk to you?" I ask shyly. She nods, tossing a rope out
   1.161 +the window. I climb up as fast as I can, then practically fall into the room,
   1.162 +shivering.
   1.163 +    "You must be freezing," she says sympathetically, and wraps a blanket
   1.164 +around my shoulders. "Thanks," I whisper. She smiles. "No problem," she says,
   1.165 +settling down next to me on the bed. The next few minutes are silent.
   1.166 +    "What did you want to talk to me about?" she asks. I take a deep breath,
   1.167 +then look at her. "I got your message." She blushes, and almost looks
   1.168 +panicked.
   1.169 +    "You did?" she nearly cries out. I nod. "I see..." She looks down.
   1.170 +    "And?"
   1.171 +    "And...now I understand. And I'm very sorry for not seeing it
   1.172 +before...for not picking up on your hints, and for not realizing I felt the
   1.173 +same way." She blinks.
   1.174 +    "You mean...?" I nod. My heart beats faster, and I can barely get the
   1.175 +words out. But somehow, I manage.
   1.176 +    "Aishiteru, Tomoyo-chan," I whispered. For a minute, she doesn't answer.
   1.177 +Then she turns to me, her eyes shiny and that beautiful smile spreading
   1.178 +across her face.
   1.179 +    "Sakura-chan..." she whispers. Several tears of joy run down her cheeks.
   1.180 +I reach up and gently brush them away with my fingertips, then take her in my
   1.181 +arms. "I-I just can't believe this...I never thought you could feel the same
   1.182 +way," she chokes. I look into her eyes, my own sparkling with happiness.
   1.183 +    "I only wish I'd known my own feelings sooner," I whisper. She smiles and
   1.184 +snuggles closer.
   1.185 +    "It's okay. I'm just happy I finally told you," she sighs. "I love you so
   1.186 +much...finding out you feel the same way is just...more than I ever dreamed
   1.187 +possible." Then she looked a little concerned. "What about Syaoran?" she
   1.188 +asked.
   1.189 +    "He's just a good friend. I thought I loved him, but it was only a
   1.190 +schoolgirl crush," I told her. We gaze into each other's eyes. She wraps her
   1.191 +arms around my chest, looking deliriously happy.
   1.192 +    "I love you, Sakura-chan," she whispers.
   1.193 +    "And I love you." I lean my head in slightly, as does she. Our eyes
   1.194 +close, and our lips slowly meet.
   1.195 +
   1.196 +                ~End~
   1.197 +
   1.198 +    Wow, that was a bit longer than I expected! ^^ But it was pretty damn fun
   1.199 +to write. Sakura and Tomoyo are just too cute. ^-^
   1.200 +Well, that's all for now. I dunno when I'll actually write my next CCS fic,
   1.201 +but I hope I can soon. ^^
   1.202 +    Till then, ja ne! ^_^
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