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1 We Meet Again (Shoujo-Ai Archive Fanfiction)We Meet Again
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2 a Card Captor Sakura fanfiction by Kamui Ikari
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3 Hi!!! I'm back with a new story of CCS. I remembered that I promised
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4 time ago I would make a story called "We meet again", but I forgot it.
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5 Then I did "You and me, together forever", "Maņana" then finally I did
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6 this story. This story will closure that period that I started with
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7 "She won't cry for you", "Don't lose Hope" and "Tomoyo's Farewell
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8 Letter", these ones are about Tomoyo's destiny after the ugly ending of
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9 CCS, especially "She won't cry for you" where Tomoyo's destiny is
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10 facing at her fifteen years old her own death. Really, I never thought
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11 why I made these stories. It was a moment a depression, but I finally
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12 decided not make these type of stories nevermore. Because I realized
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13 that I was giving the reason to the Sakura x Syaoran fans. Why?. Maybe
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14 in my opinion, for them this topic is closed, but for me not. They have
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15 their happy ending, then why I would make more stories only to give
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16 them the reason? Honestly, I would accept the official ending, but I
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17 don't and never. Why?. In my opinion, the ending was very forced,
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18 Sakura started to see Syaoran as a friend but in the last volume of
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19 manga, she fell in love with him so fast, and ended with him in the
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20 end. For me it's ugly, but for the S+S fans it's okay, they ended
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21 together and that's all. But for me that relationship is not
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22 convincing, Sakura fell in love with him so fast. That kind of "fast
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23 relationship" is not convincing for me. Another point that I don't like
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24 it, is that Tomoyo was the only character that ended alone in the end,
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25 all ended with someone in the end less her. Well, enough of thoughts
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26 but I need to get out of my chest.
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27
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28 Some points:
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29
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30 -The story takes places after the end oof CCS.
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31 -It seems for the title that is a S+S sstory, but I'm sorry. It's a yuri
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32 fic, of course you must know what is yuri but I will explain: is a term
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33 designed for love between girls, women, etc. So if you don't like these
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34 type of stories please leave, if you like please go on.
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35
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36 I hope you liked it and I will see you at the end of story.
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37
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38 -----------------------------------------------------------------------
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39
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40 How did it start? It started when I was ten years old, I remember that
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41 I was waiting on my seat when I met her. She gave me an eraser and said
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42 that she was glad to give me that. We became best friends and we did
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43 many things together, but all that changed. She found the Clow Book and
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44 opened it, then she became the Card Captor. I made costumes for her,
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45 recorded her on video, anything that she needed I was willing to give
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46 her.
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47
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48 He came too. A Chinese boy that was her rival first, later her friend
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49 and finally her number one person.
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50
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51 It's true that I said I'd him give a try, I was hoping that she will be
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52 happy with him, I was hoping to stay with her until the day that I
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53 would tell her my true feelings.
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54
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55 She choose him as her number one person, she and him gave the names to
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56 the bears. He left to Hong Kong and she promised to wait for him. I
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57 remember when she left to find him and tell her feelings.
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58
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59 I was smiling, then I knew that my true feelings would be sealed
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60 forever and went to my house. I think that my mother entered in my
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61 room, she found me in bed. She looked at me with an understanding look
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62 on her face, she embraced me and didn't say anything.
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63
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64 I remembered that I cried so much.
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65
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66 She was naive as I was. I was naive because I was hoping that she would
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67 choose me as her number one person. But she didn't. She is my number
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68 one person but I wasn't for her. I was in love with her, but she ended
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69 with him. After he left, things seemed to return to normal. We did the
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70 same things that we did together before, but she usually said that she
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71 couldn't wait to see him again. She thanked me for being her best
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72 friend.
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73
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74 I smiled at her, but inside me I knew that was the end for my chances
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75 of telling her my feelings. After five years he returned to Japan, I
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76 saw their meeting and she said that they will be together forever.
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77
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78 Once again I smiled but my heart broke again.
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79
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80 Then all changed, we started a new period on college. A new group of
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81 students came to our classroom. She was very popular in class, they
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82 became her friends and I was happy. Chiharu, Rika, Yamazaki and Naoko
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83 weren't with us. They parted from us, looking for their own path.
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84
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85 When the classes were over, she waited for him, he came for her and
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86 they leave as usually they did. They greeted me as always they did.
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87 Then I walked to my home alone as I always did.
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88
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89 Life was showing my destiny, a destiny that suited me, alone.
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90
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91 During that time she didn't call me at my house like the times she did
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92 before, the calls were distant. In school, I was wishing to do
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93 something for her. I asked her if she needed something many times. Her
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94 response was the same:
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95
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96 "No, I don't. Thank you."
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97
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98 I asked her if she wanted to talk with me, but she said that she
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99 didn't.
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100
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101 I knew when I wasn't needed.
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102
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103 I didn't press her to have a talk with me or need something. I just let
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104 her go.
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105
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106 I saw many times how she went to her new friends to ask something, need
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107 something and how they agreed. She was happy with them. She and him
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108 went with them to their dates. She was happy with him.
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109
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110 When Valentine's Day came I made chocolates for her. I was hoping that
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111 at least she would receive them. When I gave it to her, she thanked me
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112 but she returned them to me. She said that I would give them to a boy,
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113 because all girls do that, giving chocolates to a boy. I said that I
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114 didn't have a boy and I would like to give them to her. But she said
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115 that she wouldn't receive them, she said that when we're children it
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116 was normal, but that now it was different. Because a girl that did that
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117 it wasn't "normal".
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118
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119 My heart broke again.
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120
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121 She gave them to me and left. He was waiting for her and had a box of
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122 them for her, they embraced and kissed. Once again I smiled.
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123
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124 I left the place and when the class was over I went to my house. I left
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125 them on the desk and I collapsed on my bed crying. The next day I
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126 looked for her and said that I was sorry but I wanted to give it to her
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127 because she was my best friend. She said that Valentine's Day is a day
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128 for the ones who were in love, not friends. She asked if I saw someone
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129 of the girls doing that. I said to her no, she said that I was the only
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130 one who did that and her friends said to her that I wasn't normal. Then
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131 she said that became a rumor through college. I asked her if she
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132 believed it. Her response was simple:
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133
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134 "Yes."
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135
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136 I asked to her what she saw on me that could be considered "not
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137 normal". She said that I was obsessed with her. I was in love with her,
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138 I was worried about her, I wanted her to be happy, is that called
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139 obsession?
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140
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141 It seems that for others is, but not for me.
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142
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143 For me it's to be in love with her.
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144
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145 She said that her friends said that I'm different, I asked her what
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146 they said.
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147
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148 "They said that you're... a lesbian."
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149
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150 Once again, I asked her if she believed it.
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151
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152 "I don't want to believe that you..."
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153
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154 "That I'm?" I asked her serious.
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155
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156 "No, I don't want to believe..."
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157
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158 Maybe a talk could help it...
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159
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160 I extended my hand but she said:
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161
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162 "Please... don't touch me, please don't look at me, you... scare me"
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163 she said to me with tears in her eyes.
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164
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165 Then I smiled to her and said:
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166
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167 "You believe them, don't you? Please be honest" I said smiling.
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168
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169 "At first no, but now it seems that yes" she said with tears.
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170
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171 Before saying something, she said:
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172
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173 "Please go, please go, please go... please" she said crying.
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174
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175 I smiled with tears and then I left her alone but I said something:
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176
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177 "I just want you to be happy , that's all"
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179 She didn't say anything and I left.
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180
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181 The following week was harder.
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182
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183 When I entered in the class, nobody greeted me. I heard them saying
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184 that I was a freak, a lesbian, a error of nature. Nobody wanted to
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185 speak me, to ask me something, and needing something... nothing from
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186 me.
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187
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188 She didn't talk to me, when I was looking for her she avoided her gaze,
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189 she changed her seat. She went far from me. When the class was over, I
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190 just went to my house. My mother was taking care of my little brother,
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191 Kenji. He born when I was 13 years old. She saw me and left him and
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192 came to me.
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193
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194 She embraced me again and said:
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195
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196 "Just let it out, let it out"
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197
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198 Once again I cried.
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199
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200 After that I went to my room and locked it, I went to my bookshelf, I
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201 chose one of her videos. I put it on. It was one of her battles
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202 against a Clow Card. I looked to my camera, I haven't used it for many
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203 years, always I found something about her that I wanted to record.
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204 Anything about her, I wanted to record.
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205
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206 After that I looked to my sewing tools, I remember how much time I
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207 spent making the costumes for her. I was happy to make costumes for
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208 her, just saw her with my designs made me so happy. I did many things
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209 for her. Time ago I heard that if someone did something they will get a
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210 reward.
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211
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212 Maybe what's happening to me is my reward for all I did.
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213
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214 Then I went to my bed and I thought about making a decision about my
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215 life. At the next day I talked with my mother about the decision. She
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216 was surprised but she said if that was I really wanted she would accept
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217 it.
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218
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219 "Thank you, mother," I said with tears.
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220
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221 After that my mother helped me with arranging things, after a few days
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222 I made a bear for my brother. Then I knew that there was one thing left
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223 to do.
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224
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225 I dialed her number.
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226
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227 "Hello, Kinomoto house."
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228
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229 "Hi, Fujitaka-san. Is Sakura there?"
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230
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231 "No, she went a date with her boyfriend. Do you need something?" he
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232 asked.
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233
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234 "Yes. Please could you tell her "Farewell" for me?" I asked.
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235
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236 "Yes, but did something happen?" he asked worried.
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237
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238 "No, but could you tell her "I won't interfere with your life anymore,
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239 just be happy. It's the only thing I most desire," for me please?"
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240
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241 "Yes," he said uncertainly.
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242
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243 "Thanks for everything, Fujitaka-san. Send my regards to Touya-san and
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244 Yukito-san" I said and hung up the phone.
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245
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246 After that I went to see my brother, he was sleeping with the bear that
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247 I made. I smiled and kissed him on the forehead.
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248
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249 I left his room and picked my things. My mother was waiting for me.
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250
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251 "It's almost time."
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252
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253 "Yes."
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254
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255 We picked a car and went to the airport.
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256
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257 "Will you write me?"
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258
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259 "Of course, I will be back someday. Don't worry about me, but I need to
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260 do this. Take care of Kenji-kun, please," I said to her.
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261
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262 "I will wait for that day" she said crying.
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263
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264 "Me too," I said crying.
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265
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266 We embraced tightly, then I picked my things and took my flight.
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267
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268 A flight which will make me leave Japan and her.
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269
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270 **********
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271
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272 I traveled the entire world, it was easy because of the family's
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273 fortune. My mother settled things about my studies and I didn't have to
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274 worry about that. The trip was the last chance to start a new life
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275 without her. The trip was about healing my broken heart.
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276
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277 I never imagined how the outside world was. I went to many countries in
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278 Europe, North America, South America. I learned many things from these
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279 places.
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280
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281 My mother sent me photos of Kenji and her. My brother was growing up
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282 and he was cute. He asked about me many times, when I would return to
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283 Japan. I would like to tell him the real reason of my departure but I
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284 didn't want make him sad. My mother also asked me about my return, that
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285 she missed me so much. I missed them so much, I knew that I would
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286 return someday but I wasn't ready. I send them the things that I got in
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287 the countries that I stayed, photos, gifts, anything of these places.
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288
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289 I traveled the world for almost six years but as the time passed, I
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290 felt empty...
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291
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292 I missed her so much.
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293
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294 During that time, I tried to break the bond to her, but I failed. I
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295 looked for someone special but I didn't find anyone.
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296
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297 Once again, life was showing my destiny, alone.
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299 Before heading to Japan I stayed for a time in Argentina. I met
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300 someone, an old woman who tells the future. She said that I was wrong
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301 about the reward. That the real reward will come from someone
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302 unexpected. After that I left Argentina and went back to Japan.
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304 **********
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305
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306 During the flight back, I read the letters my mother sent me, I was
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307 surprised to see a letter from Eriol-san. We wrote some letters before
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308 but curiously the letters were distant, sometimes I didn't receive
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309 anything from him. I read the letter, he wrote that he finally began
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310 with his life after choosing not to be a magician anymore. He was
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311 studying to become a lawyer, that Nakuru-san was in couple with a man,
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312 that Spinel was working on a TV program for kids. He wanted to know how
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313 was everything in Tomoeda, but I wasn't in Tomoeda for almost six
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314 years. After that he said that he was married with Kaho Mizuki-sensei
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315 and she was waiting a child from him. He was excited and couldn't wait
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316 to see his child. He asked if I got someone special. I would like to
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317 say to him that I didn't.
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318
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319 In this six years I realized that I can't love anyone but her...
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320
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321 Soon I noticed I was in Japan. I left the airport and went directly to
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322 my house.
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323
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324 After a time I reached my house and I pressed the doorbell.
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325
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326 "Who is it?" asked the voice through the receiver.
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327
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328 "It's me, Sonomi's daughter, Tomoyo Daidouji" I said happily.
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329
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330 The door opened and I entered. I waited for my mother to come out of
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331 the house.
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332
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333 She did, she was crying with joy.
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334
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335 "You came, as you promised." she said crying.
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336
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337 "Yes, I'm back. I never forgot the promises I made. I waited for this
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338 day, mother," I said crying.
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339
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340 We embraced crying.
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341
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342 "Why you didn't tell me that you were returning? I would have gone to
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343 the airport to pick you up," she said worried.
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344
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345 "I wanted to give you a surprise mom," I simply said.
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346
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347 "It's so good that you're here now, I just thought that you would never
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348 return..." she said crying again.
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349
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350 "I promised you that I would return to Japan, remember? I'm here" I
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351 said.
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352
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353 After that we entered the house, I saw Kenji with a beautiful girl of
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354 his same age.
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355
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356 "Tomoyo nee-san!!!"
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357
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358 "Hi, Kenji onii-chan!!!" I said happily.
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359
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360 He embraced me crying..
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361
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362 "I missed you so much, nee-san" he said crying.
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363
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364 "I missed you, too. You're a strong boy, onii-chan. And cute" I said
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365 smiling.
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366
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367 He blushed.
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368
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369 "Will you leave again?" he asked.
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370
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371 "No, I won't. I will stay with you, onii-chan. I will never leave you
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372 alone, and mother too" I said.
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373
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374 My mother was smiling.
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375
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376 I was glad to stay here with my mother, my brother, with the people
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377 that loved me...
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378
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379 If only she could understand my true feelings...
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380
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381 "You brought me something?" he asked happily.
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382
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383 "Of course! I have many things for you, onii-chan. Who is this
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384 beautiful girl?" I asked politely.
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385
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386 "I'm Hinako, I'm pleased to meet you, Daidouji-san"
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387
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388 "Just call me Tomoyo. You're really cute Hinako-chan."
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389
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390 "Thanks, Tomoyo-san" she said blushing and bowed before me.
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391
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392 I talked with them about the things that I did these six years. While I
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393 was talking with them I noticed that Kenji-kun and Hinako-san were
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394 holding hands, I smiled at the sight of that.
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395
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396 They were talking about many things and my mother and me left them
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397 alone. We entered in the kitchen and the maid prepared two cups of tea
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398 for us. We went to my room for a talk.
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399
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400 "Kenji onii-chan and Hinako-san are going out, mom?" I asked to her.
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401
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402 "Yes, it seems for me, they didn't accept yet. But I saw the love
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403 between them. I'm glad that he found someone special like her" she
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404 said.
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405
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406 "He will pass the Daidouji's name to his future sons and daughters. But
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407 I'm not glad for this, I'm glad because he will not suffer as we
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408 suffered all these years. If someday he's going to suffer, his pain
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409 will be different from ours, he was born fated to follow a different
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410 path that us" I said with a smile.
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411
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412 "It's true, his path is different than ours" my mother said sadly.
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413
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414 "Do you still love her, mother? Do you still love Nadeshiko-san?" I
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415 asked her.
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416
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417 "Yes, even I tried to break the bond to her, I didn't. It was my first
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418 love, but it was unrequited. I continued with my life after she get
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419 married, I found your father and married him. I loved your father, but
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420 it wasn't the same that I still feel for Nadeshiko, she is still in my
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421 heart," my mother said.
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422
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423 I nodded at her.
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424
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425 "And you? Do you still love Sakura?" she asked me.
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426
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427 "Yes, it's my first love too. I thought that the trip would make me
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428 forget about her, but I still love her. It seems that we can't break
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429 that destiny. I believe that we can't control love, love controls us.
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430 The first love is special but is more special when it's your first love
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431 and your true love." I said sadly.
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432
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433 "You thought about marriage, Tomoyo?" she asked.
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434
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435 "Yes, I thought about that. But I decided that I will not marry.
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436 Because I can't love anyone but her. Even I tried to letting go of her
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437 but I failed, she is like a seed that is strongly implanted on my
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438 heart. What would happen if I have a child, a daughter? She would fell
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439 in love with her daughter, and then the same would repeat again. I
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440 don't want that child suffer. I want to end this cycle that began with
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441 you mother. It started with you, it will end with me." I said.
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442
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443 "You're strong, Tomoyo" she said.
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444
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445 "We're strong mom, you and me. We're strong because realizing that
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446 you're in love with a person of your same sex and accepting it made us
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447 strong, being rejected made us strong. Your unrequited love and mine
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448 made us strong. Life made us strong for standing up when we fell. If my
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449 destiny is to be alone, I will accept it then" I said.
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450
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451 She embraced me.
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452
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453 "Ah, I have some news of your friends," she said.
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454
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455 "From whom?" I said.
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456
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457 "From Chiharu-san, Yamazaki-san, Naoko-san and Rika-san" she said.
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458
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459 "Really?!" I said happily
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460
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461 My mother told me about their destiny. Yamazaki and Chiharu got married
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462 and waiting a child. Naoko got a boyfriend. And Rika got married with
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463 Terada-sensei. I knew that Rika and Terada were going out. She told me
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464 before heading her own path, I was surprised but I whished her luck.
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465
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466 After that, when it was almost midnight, I decided to take a walk. My
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467 mother sent the bodyguards with me. After a time, I told them to leave
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468 and I will call them when I was ready to leave. I walked to the King
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469 Penguin Park, it seemed that nothing changed in these almost six years
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470 of absence.
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471
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472 I sat in one of the swings and looked to the stars, they were shining
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473 and so was the moon. Then I heard something...
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474
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475 "Last night, I dreamt that you returned to Tomoeda" said a voice.
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476
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477 I froze at the sound of that.
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478
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479 "We meet again" said the voice again.
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480
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481 I had no doubt, it was her voice.
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482
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483 I turned around to see her, and I found her. I saw something different,
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484 she was different. She was smiling sadly, and a tear ran through her
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485 cheek. Her hair was still short but a little longer, her eyes were so
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486 different... they could tell a lot of emotions, but it seemed that they
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487 showed... pain.
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488
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489 I saw her sitting in another swing then I turned my head.
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490
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491 "You traveled the entire world, didn't you?" she asked.
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492
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493 "How did you know?" I asked surprised.
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494
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495 "Because I did a lot of researching. I did anything to find where you
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496 were" she said quietly.
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497
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498 Before saying something, she said:
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499
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500 "I broke with him" she said darkly.
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501
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502 I was shocked to hear that, I believed that she and him would be
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503 together forever. She chose him as her number one person, it couldn't
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504 be.
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505
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506 "Why did you break with him?" I asked surprised.
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507
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508 "Because, in the end we didn't match. In the beginning all was right,
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509 but as the time passed, we started to have fights. He was jealous of
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510 any person that approached me. I tried to make him have trust in
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511 others, but I failed. As we were growing we'd changed, he was different
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512 as I was. After a some time, we decided to break the relationship and
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513 he returned to Hong Kong." she said.
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514
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515 "But you loved him..." I said.
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516
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517 "Yes, I did. But not now. I learned one thing: a relationship, any
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518 relationship must be built between the parts. I believed that I fell in
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519 love with him, but I realized that only I had a crush on him. I waited
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520 five years for him, but I never thought if I really loved him. I didn't
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521 want to lose him because what Eriol told me, I didn't have any idea
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522 that he loved me. I saw him as friend and didn't want to lose him, then
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523 I realized that I was in love with him, but I never thought if they
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524 were my real feelings. How could I be so blind? I was blind of love but
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525 I never thought that we changed during these five years of waiting.
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526 With the fights I started to wonder if I really loved him or didn't. In
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527 the end I realized that I wasn't in love with him" she said.
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528
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529 "I see..."
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530
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531 "I broke with my friends too..." she said.
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532
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533 "What?" I said.
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534
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535 "Yes, I broke because I didn't want to be popular. Because I didn't
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536 want to follow their advice anymore, because of that advice... I almost
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537 lost you." she said.
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538
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539 "I don't care about what will happen to me. Only seeing you happy it's
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540 enough for me" I said.
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541
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542 "I know that..." she said as she stood up and came to me.
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543
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544 I looked at her, she was crying softly and smiling at me. I extended my
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545 hand but I stopped.
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546
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547 "What's happened?" she said quietly.
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548
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549 "It's just... you said that you didn't want me touch you, remember?" I
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550 said sadly.
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551
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552 She took hold of my hand and laid it in her cheek.
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553
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554 "I want you to touch me, to see me... I was so stupid saying that, I
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555 almost destroyed our friendship. You were there when I needed
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556 something, even you were there when I said that I didn't need
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557 something. You were always worried for me. I'd changed in these almost
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558 six years. I never hated you, just I couldn't understand that you were
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559 in love with me..." she said.
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560
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561 "How do you know that I'm in love with you, couldn't it be another
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562 girl?" I asked her.
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563
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564 "You said that you wanted your special person happy, didn't you? I
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565 realized that I'm that person, for what you said and what father said
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566 to me when you left Japan" she said.
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567
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568 "Are you angry with me for loving you?" I asked her.
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569
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570 "No..." she said and made me stand up.
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571
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572 She embraced me, I tried not to embrace her but I failed. My arms went
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573 around her and we embraced tightly. She rested her head in my shoulder.
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574
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575 "Welcome back, Tomoyo-chan" she said crying softly.
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576
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577 "Thanks, Sakura-chan" I said crying.
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578
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579 *******
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580
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581 I will never forget that day... when we met again.
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582
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583 After that day, we did many things together as before. It was a restart
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584 of our friendship, she was fine with me, even knowing that I still
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585 loved her. One day she called asking me if I could go to her house. I
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586 agreed and I went to her house, she was waiting for me. She said that
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587 wanted me to go out with her. In other words, she wanted a date with
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588 me. I was surprised, but she erased my doubts kissing me.
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589
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590 From the day we met again until the day that she kissed me four years
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591 passed. And two more years of going out.
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592
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593 Without knowing it, we built a loving relationship between us.
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594
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595 ******
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596
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597 I was looking to the stars in the sky when I felt her arms around my
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598 waist.
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599
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600 "What are you thinking Tomoyo-chan?" she said.
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601
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602 "Remembering what happened between us all these years, from the first
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603 day than I met you, eighteen years ago" I said still looking at the
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604 stars.
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605
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606 She turned my head and I was looking at her.
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607
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608 "I never meant to hurt you, but I did. But I promise you that I will
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609 never hurt you again. I don't know if I will be able to heal the pain I
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610 caused you" she said sadly.
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611
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612 "We have to live with pain, every person has a type of pain, and pain
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613 will be present in every person of this world. Things would be
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614 different if pain doesn't exist, but it does exist. But if two people
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615 meet each other, they could be able to heal the pain they have." I
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616 said.
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617
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618 I caressed her hair, it was smooth.
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619
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620 "I love you Tomoyo-chan. You're my true number one person" she said.
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621
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622 "I love you too, Sakura-chan. You are always my number one person. I
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623 don't mind my pain, because in the end I have you, and we will be able
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624 to heal our pain" I said.
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625
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626 "It's true" she said.
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627
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628 We kissed each other and went to sleep.
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629
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630 ******
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631
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632 I wake up and I look to her, she is sleeping nicely. Then I remember
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633 what the old woman told me before, that the real reward will come from
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634 someone unexpected. I never thought that Sakura-chan falling in love
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635 with me would be the real reward for all I did. I just thought that I
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636 would be alone for the rest of my life. But it seems that is not.
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637
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638 "I love you, Sakura-chan" I whisper.
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639
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640 "I know. I really love you too, Tomoyo-chan" she says opening her eyes.
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641
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642 "Are you awake?" I ask smiling to her.
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643
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644 "I was awake, I was only imitating that I was sleeping." she says
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645 smiling.
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646
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647 I smile to her.
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648
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649 "Tomoyo-chan, I want to know one thing: Will you stay with me forever?"
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650 she asks me.
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651
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652 "Of course I will. You are my reason to live, I promise I will make you
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653 happy" I say to her.
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654
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655 "You know what? One thing will make me happy" she says.
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656
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657 "What thing?" I ask.
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658
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659 "You marrying me, someday" she says blushing.
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660
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661 I open my eyes and I feel tears coming down my cheeks.
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662
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663 "Are you serious?" I say crying.
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664
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665 "Yes, I'm serious. But you don't have to give me an answer right now,
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666 but until that day come; promise me that you will stay with me" she
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667 says taking my head between her soft hands.
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668
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669 "I promise, I promise" I say still crying.
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670
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671 We kiss each other and leave the bed, we look to the stars.
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672
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673 We embrace tightly knowing that there is a path in front of us that
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674 will lead us to the happiness.
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675
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676 "We will be together forever" she says happily.
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677
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678 "I know..." I say.
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679
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680 "I know we will be together forever..." I say before kissing her.
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685
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686 Back to Card Captor Sakura Shoujo-Ai Fanfiction
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