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1 How come who's asking?The stream, running full force, was a
2 beautiful blue color. Not deep blue or light blue, but a sort of
3 mixture of the two. Just a beautiful blue color. They had never
4 seen such a color before.
5 The two lovers, both petite women, looked up from the stream
6 and into each others eyes. One had light pink colored hair, and
7 the other had dark blue...almost a black. They were both not
8 wearing anything, as is customary in the fourth dimension. The
9 lover's bodies shone in the light, but they did not look over the
10 other's form. They just continued to look at each other, before
11 looking back into the stream.
12 "It's so beautiful, Hotaru." The pink haired one said,
13 still looking at the stream. "I wish I could stay here with you
14 forever."
15 "Why can't you?" The dark haired one said. "We both need
16 each other, Chibi-chan. We do. So just stay here with me."
17 "I can't. I just...can't." Replied the pink haired girl.
18 "Look at our stream, Chibi. Watch it flow. This is our
19 love. Don't deny it! It's our love, flowing, just as it always
20 will. We have always been a part of each other, and always will
21 be."
22 "Our water WILL run dry, Hotaru. It will run dry."
25 Water Runs Dry
26 A Sailor Moon Sekkushiaru Roman
27 By: PsychoKittenSenshi611
28 Eeh-mail: katprincess82@hotmail.com
29 This is a Sekkushiaru Roman, so you all know what is
30 expected of you. You must be 18 to read this (sorry folks, I don't make
31 the rules...unfortunately!) otherwise...well...we all know the consequences.
32 This story contains love and love alone.
33 Ok enough of that crap. Read on loves! *MuAH!*
35 We don't even talk anymore
36 And we don't even know what we argue about
37 Don't even say I love you no more
38 Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed
39 Some people work things out
40 And some just don't know how to change
41 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
42 We might watch our whole lives pass us by
43 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
44 We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
45 Don't do it baby
46 Now they can see the tears in our eyes
47 But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
48 Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
49 Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
50 Why do we hurt each other
51 Why do we push love away
52 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
53 We might watch our whole lives pass us by
54 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
55 We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
56 Don't do it baby
57 --Boyz II Men
59 Haruka sat next to Hotaru's bed, almost crying herself. She
60 understood her friend's pain almost perfectly. She had just gotten over
61 some troubles with Michiru, and the nagging pain was still at the back
62 of her mind.
63 Something inside of her told her Hotaru needed to be alone. She
64 stood up, trying to force out some kind of comforting words, but none
65 came. All she could manage was a comforting smile, and a hand on
66 Hotaru's shoulder.
67 Hotaru nodded to Haruka, then placed her head in her hands once
68 again. She knew this was it. She knew it was finally over.
69 ChibiUSA was gone. Gone forever. She had called Hotaru up to
70 tell her it was over, and Hotaru didn't even hear one tone of sadness in
71 her lover's voice. Chibi had just told her she couldn't do it
72 anymore...she couldn't keep living like this.
73 Living like what? Hotaru asked herself. Living on different
74 continents, only seeing each other on holidays? She could understand
75 that. But...but...it was all so RIGHT, how could it just end like that?
76 Two words and her entire life came crashing down. ChibiUSA was the love
77 of her life, and she could feel the love they shared even though they
78 were miles apart. She had decided to take the year study in the United
79 States at Stanford. An irreplaceable opportunity, she had said.
80 Chibi was never one to pass up opportunities like this.
81 She had practically begged Hotaru to join her, but Hotaru had
82 declined. Her own dreams were being fulfilled here in Japan, and she
83 hadn't wanted to pass up her own opportunity to become a doctor. She
84 did it half out of the pain she was suffering from the loss, but the
85 other half of her knew it was right. She had thought that the
86 separation would be just a test of their love, and everything would turn
87 out right in a year just one year. That's all. Just one year. Then
88 they'd be together again and everything would be just as it was before,
89 and they would get married. Just like they had planned.
90 But it was all over. The year was almost up, and ChibiUSA had
91 called Hotaru like she had done every month. But it was no longer the
92 happy and excited and somewhat depressed Chibi. It was a cold and
93 foreign Chibi. She just told Hotaru she would stay another year, and
94 that she was ending their engagement. She had just said that she
95 couldn't go on anymore.
96 Hotaru burst into tears at the thought.
98 * * *
100 Five thousand miles away, ChibiUSA sat in front of the phone,
101 wondering what she had just done. Hotaru had cried, she realized, and
102 her eyes went wide with sadness at the thought. What was she doing?
103 She should be back home with her one true love sleeping in her arms.
104 She should be in her bed, in her embrace, and in her life again. What
105 was she doing in this University in California, anyway? Studying to
106 become something she didn't even want. She wanted to be a wife to
107 Hotaru, and that was it.
108 How could she, now that she had called it off? She couldn't
109 possibly call Hotaru right back and just say "oops I'm sorry about that!
110 I was just kidding!" What was that supposed to be? Stupid dreams. Why
111 did she listen to them? That was what her father did, and he had almost
112 ruined his relationship with her mother. But, luckily, her father had
113 caught himself. How the hell was she supposed to catch herself? Every
114 time she thought about Hotaru the dreams would creep into her head and
115 horrify her...seeing the black haired girl die at her feet. She couldn't
116 possibly risk her life. She couldn't be that selfish.
117 Hotaru was sitting on her bed now, probably crying. Chibi could
118 picture it perfectly. Hotaru's small body, curled up in a tiny ball,
119 holding a battered piece of Klean-x, her blue-black hair falling limp in
120 front of her deep blue eyes.
121 "Oh God...what have I done?!" Chibi hunched over the phone, tears
122 pouring out of her and sobs wracking her small body like never before.
123 * * *
124 The stream was beginning to trickle, no longer running with
125 the same strength. The dark haired girl gripped the other, pain
126 in her eyes. "ChibiUSA, please, no!" She called out. "It
127 can't...it just CAN'T!"
128 "It must, Hotaru. It just has to happen."
130 * * *
132 "Haruka-papa! Come back here!" Hotaru laughed, trying to grab
133 the anniversary present from Haruka's eager hands. Michiru just
134 laughed, placing another plate on the table for the party. She watched
135 as her God-daughter ran after her lover, and smiled slightly. Haruka
136 wasn't supposed to open any of the presents for their anniversary, but
137 she had already gotten to a couple. Matching rings with two stones cut
138 to resemble the two planets they represented, necklaces with "H&M
139 Forever" on both, a couple paintings, and assorted nick-knacks to place
140 around their new house. Michiru smiled at that thought. Their own
141 house. She couldn't wait.
142 Haruka slowed down, breathless, still cradling the small silver-
143 wrapped package. She breathed heavily, hunching over and placing her
144 left hand on her knee, holding the package with her right. She smiled a
145 tired smile, and looked up at Hotaru.
146 "Give...it...back..." Hotaru said between gasps for air.
147 "Come on...let me just open it now!" Haruka gasped. She looked up
148 suddenly to see Michiru standing there, a hand on her aqua-colored
149 dress. Her hair tumbled down in front of her eyes, and her lips wore a
150 smile. She lifted up a small hand and held it out in front of her,
151 motioning to the package.
152 "Haruka..." She softly pleaded, and Haruka obeyed her silent
153 question. Handing over the package with a scowl, she stood up straight.
154 "Thank you, Haruka." Michiru said quietly, and walked over to her
155 lover. She wrapped an arm around Haruka's waist and kissed her
156 fiercely, forgetting about Hotaru completely.
157 "You two!" Hotaru knew when to turn around. She turned on her
158 heels and walked outside, leaving the two alone. She knew that if she
159 and Chibi were kissing...
160 She suddenly stopped the thought. She and Chibi were no...longer...
161 Hotaru sat down on the bench in the garden, placing her head in
162 her hands. Not again. She didn't want to have to go through this every
163 day of her life. She didn't want to have to keep telling herself OVER
164 and OVER that it was done.
165 She looked up at the noise of a car approaching. She wondered who
166 it could be. Guests were not arriving for another hour or so. Setsuna
167 was out shopping for some goodies...hopefully bringing something back for
168 her. So who could it be?
169 She looked down at her feet again, and ran her hands through her
170 wavy tendrils of hair. She was stressed, high strung, wound up like a
171 spring. She didn't WANT to be, but knew she was. She needed to see
172 ChibiUSA again, just once, to know it was really over. She needed to
173 see her again and talk to her and touch her pink hair and look into her
174 red eyes, just ONE MORE TIME. Just one.
175 A car door opened and slammed shut. She didn't even look up. She
176 didn't really want to. She just ran her hands through her hair again,
177 and closed her eyes tight to try to remember every single detail about
178 her only love's face.
180 * * *
182 ChibiUSA got out of the car, all the while her eyes on the timid
183 figure sitting on a bench. She knew who it was.
184 She forced her eyes away to look up at the house. It was
185 gorgeous, really. She hadn't expected it to be so big. The entire
186 house was a beige color, and the garden was big and gorgeous. Flowers
187 reached up to her thighs, but were all trimmed and well taken care of.
188 The bench that her former lover was sitting on was lined by a small
189 pathway that entwined in the flowers, half hiding her in the beautiful
190 growth. It seemed fitting that a beautiful flower should be surrounded
191 by beautiful flowers.
192 No, her inner voice shouted at her. You ended that relationship,
193 and you have to accept responsibility.
194 Apologize! Another voice screamed at her. Apologize and
195 everything will be fine again she'll take you back because you love each
196 other and...
197 But what if she doesn't love you anymore? What if she's found
198 someone else?
199 Chibi almost cried out with the unbearable thought. What if she
200 HAS found someone else? Someone who loves her more and cares for her
201 more and kisses her and holds her...no one can touch her. ChibiUSA knew
202 she would have to do it soon, have to explain herself and apologize
203 before the day was up. She couldn't let the horrible pain go on another
204 second.
205 She walked briskly into the garden, trying to dodge plants as best
206 she could. She couldn't find a good enough path, so she began to
207 carefully weave her way through the growth. She tried, in vain, to
208 brush off some of the petals and pollen that stuck to her dark jean
209 shorts as she did so.
210 She found herself a few feet away from the bench, with Hotaru's
211 head still down. Hotaru looked stressed, pained...not loved. She hoped,
212 with a selfish thought, that she hadn't been loved lately. At least,
213 not the way ChibiUSA would love her. Not like that. Hotaru's arms were
214 on either side of her head, and Chibi could sense that she was deep in
215 thought. What was she thinking? She couldn't tell. She didn't know if
216 she wanted to be able to tell.
217 "Hotaru." She whispered, slightly quivering on the 'u'. Hotaru
218 whipped her head upwards at the sound, and her eyes took Chibi in.
220 * * *
222 Her hair had grown slightly, and she seemed to be a little taller.
223 Her dark jean shorts looked really good with the pink T-shirt, and her
224 little pink flip-flops were just right for the warm summer weather. Her
225 eyes were still the beautiful shade of red, and her lips were the same
226 color.
227 An overwhelming heat seeped through Hotaru's blood as her gaze
228 focused on her once-lover's lips. Oh God, she thought. I must be
229 imagining her. That's it...I'm just imagining. She's not really here,
230 she didn't come to the party, she is still back at her college.
231 "Hotaru?" Chibi said again, this time questioning her.
232 Hotaru cleared her throat, trying to prepare herself for the pain
233 that was about to come. "Hello, ChibiUSA. Nice to see you." Her voice
234 came out remarkably controlled, the pain masked by the cold tone. Her
235 eyes and heart hardened, like ice. She didn't want to feel the pain
236 anymore. She returned to her darkened self, inside herself and
237 retreating back away.
238 ChibiUSA looked shocked. She had never seen Hotaru so cold
239 before...Hotaru was always the voice of calm among the two, the reason in
240 their chaos. But never, ever, had ChibiUSA seem her so cold.
241 "I didn't think you would come back here so soon." Hotaru said,
242 trying to mask the uncomfortable silence. Her eyes narrowed into small
243 slits, and her lips thinned out. She realized just how ANGRY she was at
244 Chibi, and clenched her fists at the thought. How DARE she come back
245 here, how dare she just stand there and act like everything is fine.
246 She must have a lot of guts coming back here...
247 "Of course, Hotaru! It's Michiru's and Haruka's anniversary...and
248 besides, it's summer vacation. I wouldn't miss seeing all the Senshi
249 back in one place for anything!" She put on a silly grin, showing her
250 perfectly straight white teeth. Hotaru almost joined in with a smile of
251 her own, but she caught herself.
252 Hotaru stood up with the pure awkwardness of it all, and placed
253 her hand on her hip. "Well I must be going now. Setsuna-mama is at the
254 mall, and I have to go meet her. See you later." Hotaru walked briskly
255 away, and Chibi stood still as she walked by. Her eyes swept over
256 Hotaru's curves longingly, and she let out a sigh. Hotaru caught it,
257 but didn't say anything at all. She didn't want to say anything.
258 Hotaru was almost to her car when Chibi finally got control of
259 herself. "Taru-chan!" She called, and ran toward her. Hotaru didn't
260 move, her hand extended with keys in hand to unlock the car door.
261 "Wait, Taru-chan!" She complied, and soon enough ChibiUSA had caught up
262 with her. She was a little out of breath, and Hotaru waited in a
263 patient silence. Chibi finally got control over herself, and stood up
264 straight. "I'll go with you."
265 "That's fine. You stay here. I'm sure everyone will want to see
266 you." Hotaru put the keys in the lock and turned them.
267 "I...I'd like to go with you. You know, catch up?" She let out a
268 nervous smile.
269 Hotaru couldn't resist. She just couldn't. "You don't need to
270 catch up with someone you pushed away," she snapped.
271 Chibi was silent for a moment, and watched as Hotaru put her purse
272 in the car. Hotaru was walking around the side of the car when she
273 caught herself in the daze again. "Hotaru..." She walked after her, and
274 grabbed her arm gently. "I...I didn't want to push you away. It's just..."
275 "Just what, Chibi-chan?" She said curtly, tears forming at the
276 base of her eyes. "Just someone else? You found someone better in
277 America, didn't you?" The tears fell like tiny stars to the ground.
278 "NO!" ChibiUSA said, her own tears forming. "I've only ever
279 loved you. I still love you! I always will! I just have these dreams
280 and you're...you're..."
281 Hotaru threw open her door and climbed in. She quickly put the
282 keys in the ignition and turned them, starting the car. ChibiUSA ran
283 around to the other side and climbed in quickly, surprising Hotaru. She
284 took her eyes from the steering wheel and looked at Chibi, shocked.
285 "Dreams, Chibi-chan? DREAMS? That's why you dumped me?"
286 "Remember my father, when he had those problems with dreams?"
287 "I remember you telling me about it, yes."
288 "The same kind of dreams, Taru-chan. The same kinds of dreams.
289 It scares me! I couldn't possibly risk letting them come true!"
290 Hotaru put the car in reverse and drove away from the house, a
291 little confused. "I don't understand, Chibi-chan. I just don't."
292 "I love you, Taru-chan. If that means sparing your life and
293 getting rid of my happiness, then I'll do it!"
294 "What about MY happiness?" Hotaru shouted. "I love you more than
295 anything! Without you I feel like I don't have a reason for living!"
296 "I don't want it to be MY fault that you die!" ChibiUSA shouted
297 back, tears streaming down her cheeks. The mall loomed up ahead, and
298 she wiped the tears away. "I couldn't stand the thought of putting you
299 in danger. I...I still can't."
300 Hotaru pulled into the mall's parking lot, trying to keep her
301 emotions under control. "Is the danger you felt gone now?" She
302 whispered.
303 "No." Their gazes met at the sound of the word. Hotaru swallowed
304 hard.
305 "Then...then why did you come here?"
306 "Because I had to see you. I had to know that you were alright."
307 ChibiUSA closed her eyes and sighed. She had finally gotten it all out,
308 thank God. Now Hotaru would know, and she could feel at least somewhat
309 at peace.
310 Hotaru swallowed hard again, trying to hold back the feelings of
311 love and fear and overwhelming emotion that were beginning to overtake
312 her. "I guess I understand. But we can't be together if it's too
313 dangerous, can we?"
314 "I guess not." ChibiUSA sighed. "But I still love you, Hotaru.
315 I always will."
316 "I...I love you too, ChibiUSA."
318 * * *
320 "Oh Hotaru!" The pink-haired girl flung herself into her
321 lover's arms. "I want to be with you so much!"
322 "Why can't you?! I don't understand!" The dark-haired girl
323 said. "We love each other..." The stream was beginning to run
324 again, and she smiled. "It's too obvious that we do. Our stream
325 is still running!"
326 "It will always run." The pink-haired girl smiled, but the
327 smile quickly turned back into a worried frown. "But we can't
328 always be together, Hotaru."
329 "I don't understand!" The other girl shouted once again.
330 "Those who do not understand love will always get in the
331 way. It's too dangerous. Our stream will continue to always run,
332 believe me. I won't let it run dry."
333 "It will run dry, Chibi-chan. All things must. You said it
334 yourself. If you don't want it to run dry, love me! Just love
335 me!" The dark-haired girl dropped to her knees.
336 "I will always love you, Hotaru." The pink-haired girl
337 said, and dropped to her knees in front of the other. "I will
338 always love you.
340 ToOh BeEh CoNtInUeD
342 * * *
344 Hey loves! I've wanted to do a story like this for a long time.
345 Stay tuned for part two! Thanks as always to the Amazoness Duo, those
346 wonderful gals! ?
347 And, of course, to my wonderful and supportive friends, Alea,
348 Jessica, Analicia...hope all of you are doing alright in Cali!
349 And to my new buds, especially Jayne. Thanks for the support and
350 your willingness! I love yah!
351 AND, FINALLY, to all my fans. You are the ones I keep doing this
352 for! Thanks so much.
353 <3 PsychoKittenSenshi611
354 Gabrielle