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1 Hello everyone! I'm lanis01 and this is my first attempt to writing a Sekkushiaru Roman. For those of you
2 who don’t know what this is it’s a romance story that contains a lot of adult themes. This is for mature
3 readers only. If you caught with this and you are underage I hope your parents teach you a lesson! I am not
4 responsible for minors that happen to read this story because they are not my responsibility they are the
5 parents and this story is on a site that says who can read this and who can't. I don't own any of the
6 characters in this, Toei, Naoko Takeuchi and other people who I don't know of yet do. This story line
7 however is my idea and I hope you readers enjoy my story!
10 Hotaru's secret
11 By: Lanis01
14 "Ten to three, ten more minutes closer to freedom." Hotaru sighed happily. It was the last day
15 of school and Hotaru couldn't wait to get home. School was never her favorite thing. Even though
16 she had a normal life like the rest of the sailor soldiers, her life could never be anything like
17 normal. The attacks she used to have when she had first met the other soldiers had come back.
18 She thought it was always because she was torn between the two forces trapped inside her body,
19 but now there was no reason for her attacks. 'I'm just a freak like always' she thought to herself.
20 At least that’s what the kids at school told her. She had no friends at her school; she really didn't
21 want to be friends with people like them. She thought things would be different after she had
22 become sailor saturn but nothing had changed. 'No, that’s not all true, one this has changed' she
23 thought again. She opened her wallet and saw the picture she had inside it. It made her smile,
24 which was something most people never saw. It wasn't an old picture, but the date the picture was
25 taken seemed like it had been years ago. But no matter how old it was, its value to her heart
26 would never change. She stared at the picture and thought back to when it was taken. It had been
27 the happiest day of her life, one she would never forget. Suddenly her mind shot back to reality as
28 the last bell rang and the students around her got up to leave. Hotaru put the picture away and
29 stood up. No sooner has she stood up when a hand grabbed her shoulder and forced her back in
30 her seat. Hotaru looked up scared to a girl who was known for causing a lot of fights in her
31 school. She was a head taller then Hotaru but was very beautiful, at least that’s what most guys
32 thought. She had blond curly hair that ended to her shoulders and dark green eyes. "Where do you
33 think your going freak?" the girl asked tightening her hold on Hotaru's shoulder. "Wh…What do
34 you want Kerri?" Hotaru whispered. "Shut up! I saw you looking at my boyfriend slut. Stay away
35 from him or I'll cripple your worthless ass!" Kerri yelled. She turned her head to see if the two of
36 them were alone and when she saw that they were she backhanded Hotaru across the face. Hotaru
37 fell out of her chair and took her school bag with her, knocking out the things she had in it.
38 "Understand?" Kerri said in a low voice. Hotaru was on her hands and knees and only nodded to
39 the question. "Good. See you next year freak." Kerri said as she walked out of the empty
40 classroom. Hotaru was starting to cry softly to herself as she picked up the things that had fallen
41 out of her bag. 'The more things change, the more the remain the same…'
43 'At least its over know, I don't have to go back for a long time.' Hotaru though to herself on
44 her way home. Her cheek was red and so were her eyes. 'I just hope I get home in one piece, and
45 once I do I'm running upstairs to my room and locking the door!' Hotaru thought again kicking a
46 rock in front of her. 'But I know that won't change anything, I just hope my days get better.' As
47 Hotaru was walking she heard a stick break behind her but before she could turn around someone
48 covered her eyes with their hands from behind her. Hotaru gasped, scared that it might have been
49 Kerri again. "Guess who!" a small voice said behind her. Hotaru sighed, as she knew who it was
50 and smiled. "Is it a cute girl with short pink hair done up in a odd style?" Hotaru asked, blushing
51 when she heard herself talk. "No, just little old me." Chibiusa said uncovering her eyes and
52 stepping in front of Hotaru. "Hotaru are you ok? Your face is red and so are your eyes? Is
53 everything alright?" Chibiusa asked with concern in her voice for her dear friend. Hotaru covered
54 her cheek and said, "I'm fine, I always am aren't I?" That was all Chibiusa need to hear. "You
55 can't lie to me Miss Hotaru Tomoe, I'm your best friend and I know when you're hiding
56 something." Chibiusa said acting as if she knew Hotaru like a book, which she almost did. And
57 almost was just how Hotaru wanted it. Hotaru only smiled, "I'm fine really Chibiusa, you don't
58 need to worry about me." Chibiusa gave Hotaru a serious look and said back, "What kind of a
59 friend would I be if I didn't worry?" Hotaru sighed and asked, "Would you walk me home please
60 Chibiusa? I mean if you're not busy." Chibiusa smiled and took Hotaru's hand. "Of course I will.
61 Is it ok with you if I stay alittle while? Usagi is cooking again today and I'm scared to go home."
62 Hotaru giggled and nodded. "I would love to have you over." The two girls smiled to one another
63 and made there way to Hotaru's house.
65 "Please, make yourself at home. Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama won't be home till late
66 because I think they were going to try and go out on a date. And Setsuna-mama has been really
67 busy lately so I don’t even think she'll come home." Hotaru said taking her shoes off. "You sure
68 they won't mind?" Chibiusa asked setting her bags down. "I'm sure, why would they mind?"
69 Hotaru asked walking into the kitchen. "Would you like something to drink?" Hotaru asked. "No
70 that’s ok, do you mind if I put my bags in your room?" Chibiusa asked back. "No go ahead, I
71 have to check on dinner so I'll be up in a minute." Hotaru said. Chibiusa took her bags and ran
72 upstairs. She went to the end of the hallway and opened the door to Hotaru's room. As soon as the
73 door opened up she caught the scent of Jasmine in the room. Hotaru had two dark emerald green
74 candles lit. Hotaru's room was always dark if not for the lamps and few scented candles she had.
75 Chibiusa always loved being in Hotaru's room, it was so, romantic. But it was also dark, like
76 Hotaru was sometimes. That thought made Chibiusa frown, she knew that recently Hotaru had
77 been acting sadder and sadder but would always try and hide it when she was around. Chibiusa
78 sat down on Hotaru's bed and let she let herself fall back. Hotaru had a feather bed and it was
79 always very comfortable, like a cloud. She turned and noticed something, a large black leather
80 book on Hotaru's desk. It had a purple ribbon in the middle. Chibiusa knew she shouldn't have
81 looked in it but she couldn’t stop her curiosity. She opened the book and read what was inside.
82 'Oh my god this is Hotaru's diary! Oh my…no wonder she's been so sad!' Chibiusa thought to
83 herself. Hotaru had never told her about her attacks coming back or that nothing in her social life
84 had changed. What made Chibiusa really upset was the line she read at the end; 'I was born a
85 freak, and I'll die a freak.' Chibiusa heard footsteps coming up to the room and quickly put the
86 book back. Hotaru walked in her room and noticed the look on Chibiusa's face. "What's wrong?"
87 she asked seeing that Chibiusa was upset. "Why didn't you tell me?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru
88 looked at Chibiusa for a moment then noticed her dairy was behind her. "What are you talking
89 about?" Hotaru asked, although she had a good idea what Chibiusa was talking about. "I'm
90 talking about your attacks coming back! And that you've been getting beat up at school! I take it
91 that it happened again." Chibiusa said in an angry tone, pointing to Hotaru's still sore cheek.
92 Hotaru was shocked that she knew all that and felt tears building up in her eyes. 'Oh my god, she
93 read it! She must know what I wrote about her then!' "Chibiusa…I'm sorry I…" Hotaru couldn't
94 think of words to say, she thought Chibiusa would hate her forever now that she knew Hotaru's
95 secret. "And I wish you wouldn't think like that, it's wrong Hotaru! You know it is." Rini said,
96 talking about how Hotaru thought she was a freak. Hotaru couldn't believe what Chibiusa had
97 said and started to breakdown. "I know its wrong, I'm so sorry!" Hotaru cried thinking she was
98 talking about her secret. Tears were sliding down her face and finally Hotaru ran out of her room.
99 Chibiusa didn't know why Hotaru had acted so serious over what she said. But she didn't read all
100 of Hotaru's diary, at least not the part about her. Chibiusa ran after Hotaru and found her crying in
101 her parent's bedroom. "Hotaru? I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry. I had no idea you take it
102 that seriously." Chibiusa said behind Hotaru. "I knew you would be angry with me, I know
103 thinking such things are wrong and I know you must hate me for what I wrote about you. Its just
104 that you…" Hotaru couldn't finish her sentence. Chibiusa moved in front of her and knelled down
105 next to her. "What did you write about me?" she asked. Hotaru looked up to her in shock 'Oh my
106 god she doesn't know?!' Hotaru though. Hotaru was even more scared now. Her secret had not
107 been found out by the one person that it had to do with, but now her mistake would force that
108 secret out. "Hotaru? What did you write about me?" Rini asked again. Hotaru couldn't bring
109 herself to say it. "Please Chibiusa, I don't want to talk about it. It was nothing. I just need to get
110 some rest." Hotaru said as she tried to leave. Chibiusa grabbed her arm and stopped her. "Please
111 Hotaru, if something is bothering you I want to know what it is. I'm your best friend aren't I?
112 Please let me help you!" Chibiusa said now getting frustrated with her. "Chibiusa please!" Hotaru
113 yelled. Chibiusa let her arm go and backed off in shock. She had not expected to hear Hotaru yell
114 at her. Hotaru began to cry again when she realized she had yell at her best friend for only trying
115 to help her. "Please, I just want to get some rest now. I don't want to talk about it anymore."
116 Hotaru said softly, trying to act calmer. Chibiusa just nodded, afraid to say anymore. "I'm sorry,
117 I'll get my bag and go back home, I didn't mean to upset you." Chibiusa said, leaving before
118 Hotaru could say anything else. She ran back to Hotaru's room and grabbed her bag, unknowingly
119 knocking Hotaru's dairy in an open pocket in her bag. She took the bag in her arm and left. She
120 was about to leave when Hotaru stopped her. "Chibiusa, I'm sorry for raising my voice. You were
121 right; I did get into another fight in school today. My days only seem to get harder as they go by.
122 Now I just want to rest for awhile. I appreciate that you want to help me, but there are
123 something's that a friend just can't help someone with. I'm really sorry I yelled at you." Hotaru
124 said bowing her head. Chibiusa only nodded and put on a fake smile. "It's ok, I know you had a
125 hard day. I'll leave you alone now." Chibiusa said quickly. She left just as fast, not waiting to say
126 goodbye to Hotaru. Hotaru wanted to stop her before a sharp pain hit her chest and made her
127 collapse. She was having another one of her attacks. She grabbed her chest, struggling to breathe.
128 This attack was the worst one she had ever had. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru tried to yell out, but it came
129 only in a whisper. Hotaru was scared now and thought for sure that she was going to die, the pain
130 she was in was so great that for a moment she wanted to die if it meant ending this pain. Tears
131 were building up in Hotaru's eyes and suddenly everything went black. 'I'm dead' was Hotaru's
132 last thought; not something you want to take with you into the darkness.
134 Colors. Dark and cold colors. It felt like being in a tomb almost. But there was a breeze?
135 Tombs don't have a breeze, do they? That’s what Hotaru asked herself when she opened her eyes.
136 Her vision was blurred and she couldn't tell where she was or if she was alone. She tried to talk
137 but couldn't. 'I'm dead…' Hotaru though to herself again. Suddenly she felt something warm take
138 her hand. She closed her eyes and opened them again to clear her vision. What she saw would
139 have made her cry. She wasn't dead at all, she was in her room laying on top of her bed with what
140 Hotaru thought for sure could only have been an angel. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru whispered after she
141 licked her dry and cracked lips. How long had she been out? When she spoke the name of the
142 person sitting next to her bed the grip on her hand tighten. "Shh Hotaru, don't try and talk. You've
143 been unconsciousness for three days now. The doctors thought you were in a coma and you
144 would never wake up. But I told them they were wrong, I made them go away and told the others
145 I would stay with you until you woke up." Chibiusa had tears in her red eyes and after Hotaru's
146 vision cleared more she could see Chibiusa's cheeks were tear stained. 'She stayed her with me?
147 All that time, for me?' Hotaru though that maybe she really did die, why would anyone want to
148 stay with her when everyone else thought she was with death. Chibiusa brushed some hair off
149 Hotaru's face and said, "Are you hungry Hotaru? Can I get you anything?" Hotaru only shook her
150 head. She was tired but she didn't have the strength to eat or to even sleep. Plus if what Chibiusa
151 said was true, which she knew it was when she saw a plate with food half eaten on her desk and a
152 blanket on Chibiusa's lap, then Hotaru wouldn't burden her any further. Chibiusa smiled at Hotaru
153 and said, "Don't worry about it, I'll get something right now." Chibiusa got up and pulled the
154 blanket that was covering Hotaru up more and she tucked some of the blanket under Hotaru's feet.
155 "Promise me you'll be awake when I come back ok?" Hotaru would have cried right there if she
156 hadn't been struggling to hold back her tears. Hotaru nodded. "Thank you Tara-chan, I'll be back
157 really soon." Chibiusa said. She walked out of Hotaru's room and closed the door behind her,
158 forgetting what she had just called Hotaru. Hotaru stared at the door in shock, she wondered if
159 that had been all a dream. 'If that was just another of my dying dreams, I pray I die with this
160 dream so I may never leave it.'
162 Night had come; Hotaru had just fallen asleep. Chibiusa had made sure that Hotaru didn't get
163 out of bed with out her knowing. She wouldn't let anyone else in the room beside her and told the
164 others, "I just need to be alone with her." Chibiusa sat back in an old rocking chair that Hotaru
165 had. She remembered her telling Chibiusa that it was her mother's. She closed her eyes and
166 smiled. 'Thank God you woke up Tara-chan. Thank you God so much.' Chibiusa took a book
167 from her backpack and opened it to a bookmarked page. She smiled joyfully and read the same
168 pages she had been reading for those three days she stayed with Hotaru:
170 June 25, 1999
171 The day I opened my eyes
173 Dear diary,
174 God knows how many lives I've ruined, God knows how many lives I'll lived, but for the first
175 time in all those lives, my eyes have opened. All this time I kept fooling myself thinking this was
176 wrong or that I was wrong myself. I have given this a lot of thought and I'm sure with all my
177 heart that this is anything but wrong. I kissed someone for the first time in my life. Not a kiss on
178 the cheek but a real kiss on the lips. Oh it was the sweetest feeling I could ever feel. I can't think
179 of words to describe it but pure serenity would be the only thing that comes close to it. I know
180 that I love this person, I have loved this person for a long time. No, I take that back, love is to
181 small a word to describe how I feel about this person. To think I never saw it makes wonder how
182 I can see anything. But now I worry about what this person will think. Will they feel the same? I
183 think they won't. No, not for me. I am the last person to be blessed by something wonderful as
184 true love. They could not love me because I am different. Even more now then before. I fear if I
185 ever tell them about my true feelings that they will laugh or even worse, abandon me and think
186 me a freak when they are the only soul on this planet that might just think I am normal. Its funny,
187 writing that right now, I don't believe I am or ever well be normal. I was born with this curse and
188 I'll die with it, then take it with me to my next life. So I decided not to tell this person I love them,
189 nor that I stole a kiss from them in their sleep. I suppose they may never know how I feel, even
190 though I scream the words "I love you" from my heart; they will never hear them. Just like I will
191 never hear those words back from their lips. Their sweet lips. I would give anything to kiss their
192 lips again, to have them hold me in their arms at night and in day. To look into their eyes and
193 know that they really love me in all the ways a human can be loved. If it were possible for me
194 then I would sell my soul to have them forever. But just like I said before, this person, this sweet
195 and special person would never love a mistake like me. They are far too good for me to have. For
196 me to call my own. But I hope and pray, beyond hope and prayers can go, that this person might
197 someday say the words I may never live to hear, "I love you Hotaru." It has grown late now, I
198 should go and sleep but that would only bring my days closer to me, and so far for the last four
199 weeks my days have given me only sadness and more reasons to hold that knife to my wrist. If
200 not for this person, I would have died along ago. And this person, this person who God himself
201 must have sent to be with me is someone who I hope I never lose, someone how has become the
202 only ray of light in my dark world. And that someone is Chibiusa…
204 Chibiusa blushed the whole time she read that special part in Hotaru's dairy. She never had a
205 clue that Hotaru felt like this about her. When she thought about it, they had been spending more
206 time with each other recently, and it was normally just the two of them. Hotaru was very dear to
207 Chibiusa; she was her first real friend sense she came back to the past. Chibiusa smiled
208 remembering the day they first met. Her hat had been flown away in the park. And even though
209 Hotaru didn't know Chibiusa at the time she went after her hat and saved it from a creek. She
210 wasn't even suppose to be running because she was so weak but she still did it. 'Maybe she
211 already knew?' Chibiusa though, holding the diary close to her like she would hold a teddy bear.
212 'Do I feel the same?' she thought again. She turned to Hotaru who was still sleeping soundly in
213 bed. She was the only person Chibiusa knew that didn't look peaceful when they slept. Hotaru
214 didn't look like she was in pain, just sad. Chibiusa put the book down on the desk and moved to
215 the side of the bed. She lit one of Hotaru's lamps and stood by the foot of the bed. Chibiusa
216 smiled to Hotaru, her face looked beautiful in the small amount of light the lamp gave out.
217 Chibiusa bent over and moved some of Hotaru's hair away from her face but didn't get back up.
218 Chibiusa was staring at Hotaru's face. There was something different about, something she had
219 never noticed before. Hotaru's face looked so pretty, even though she couldn't see her eyes. "You
220 are important to me…" Chibiusa whispered. She felt her heart beginning to beat faster as she
221 licked her lips and took a deep breath. Chibiusa bent over alittle more and very gently gave
222 Hotaru a kiss. Just like Hotaru had stole a kiss from her, Chibiusa had just stole a kiss from
223 Hotaru, and Chibiusa blushed greatly after it. But, she did have a rather big smile on her face.
225 Hotaru woke up early the morning after to the scent of pancakes. Hotaru sat up in bed and
226 looked around. Chibiusa was still asleep in her mother's rocking chair. Hotaru blushed alittle and
227 thought how sweet Chibiusa was to stay with her all these nights. Hotaru pushed the heavy
228 blankets away and was surprised to see that she was still in her school uniform. 'Eww. I need to
229 change. No I need a shower first!' Hotaru though. They she smelled pancakes. 'After I eat.' She
230 tried to stand up but found that it was kind of hard. Chibiusa heard Hotaru getting up and jumped
231 out of her chair. "Hotaru! You shouldn't be moving around like that! You might hurt yourself!"
232 Chibiusa said taking Hotaru's arm and helping her stand when she was about to fall. Hotaru only
233 blushed. "Chibiusa, I'm fine really I am. I need to move around or I'll be stuck in that bed. And I
234 think I need to change these cloths." Hotaru said calmly, trying to fool her pink hair friend.
235 Chibiusa didn't buy it. "Hold on, you can't just get up and walk away after being asleep for three
236 days straight. Please let me take care of you for now." Chibiusa pleaded. Hotaru didn't want to
237 agree with her but she was feeling alittle too weak to argue. "Alright…" Hotaru said sitting back
238 in bed. “Good!” Chibiusa said happily. “Now I tell you what, you can go ahead and take a shower
239 if you want, and then after that I’ll serve you breakfast in bed. Does that sound good?” Chibiusa
240 asked. Hotaru giggled and nodded. “Your doing too much Chibiusa, you don’t have to be
241 worrying yourself over me like this.” As soon as Hotaru had finished her sentence Chibiusa
242 pressed her finger against Hotaru’s lips. “Shh, you almost died if I had not gone back to talk more
243 to you, I was scared I would lose you Hotaru, so expect me to worry more about you for awhile.
244 You’re a precious person to me and I’m going to take care of you until I know your better.”
245 Chibiusa said looking into Hotaru’s eyes the whole time she was talking. ‘She has such lovely
246 eyes’ Chibiusa thought to herself. Hotaru was shocked by Chibiusa and nodded to what she had
247 said, blushing badly. “Alright then, so you going to take your shower or do you want your food
248 now?” Chibiusa asked smiling happily knowing Hotaru was going to let her take care of her.
249 Hotaru was still blushing and thought, ‘Thank God I have you…’
251 Hotaru walked out of the bathroom carrying her cloths with her. She had finished taking her
252 shower and felt a lot better now. She dressed herself in a black nightgown, even though it was
253 still early in the day but Chibiusa wanted her to dress comfortable. It was nice knowing she had a
254 friend that cared so much for her, but Hotaru never really felt worthy of Chibiusa's friendship.
255 She was nothing like Chibiusa or any of her friends. She laughed alittle to herself when she
256 thought to herself that she was nothing like anyone! But if Chibiusa could hear her thoughts she
257 would scold Hotaru for thinking such foolish things. Chibiusa always said that out of all her
258 friends Hotaru meant the most to her because she was her first true friend. And she always said
259 that Hotaru was her special friend. Hotaru blushed remembering the first day Chibiusa said that to
260 her. It was when Chibiusa went to see her father, after Sailor Moon had saved Hotaru from the
261 silence. She was only a baby, but she clearly remembered Chibiusa holding her in her arms and
262 whispering, "Sweet Hotaru, I know you may not be able to understand me, but I couldn't leave
263 without saying good bye to you my special friend." Hotaru blushed more and quickly pulled
264 herself together before she entered her room. She knew Chibiusa was in there and she didn't want
265 to explain why she was blushing. She opened the door and dropped the cloths she was holding to
266 the floor in surprise. Her room, dark as always, had every lamp she ever collected lit up. The
267 room had a beautiful glow to it and for a second Hotaru didn't know if she was in the right room
268 or not. She had never lit all of them before. She could smell something sweet in the air as well.
269 "Jasmine," Chibiusa's voice said behind Hotaru. Hotaru turned around and saw Chibiusa was
270 dressed in a nurse's dress. Hotaru couldn't help but notice that it looked little too tight on her from
271 the waist up. "What's this?" Hotaru asked. "Just something to make you alittle more comfortable.
272 Come on lay down. I changed the sheets on your bed too because I knew you wouldn't want to
273 sleep in a sweaty bed." Chibiusa said with her finger in the air pointing up like she knew what she
274 was talking about. Hotaru only sweat drop. She walked in and sat down on her bed, Chibiusa had
275 put on the dark purple silk sheets Hotaru had. Chibiusa grabbed Hotaru's legs and lifted them up
276 to the bed before Hotaru could stop her. " Haruka and Michiru are out now, I told them I could
277 take care of you by myself and they agreed so it's just you and me." Chibiusa said. Hotaru
278 blushed and said, "Chibiusa this is all so very thoughtful of you but it's all too much. You
279 shouldn't have done all this for me. It must have took you all day." Chibiusa giggled and said,
280 "Hotaru I want to take care of you, making you relax is one of the ways I take care of people. Plus
281 I know you've had a hard couple of weeks and I haven't been a good friend by not being there for
282 you so this is the least I can do." Hotaru blushed more and shook her head. "You’re a wonderful
283 friend Chibiusa, more then I should have, thank you so much for all that you've done. It really
284 means a lot to me." Chibiusa bowed. "Your very welcome Tara-chan. And don't say such foolish
285 things about yourself."
287 Hotaru lay peacefully in bed after she had finished eating the dinner Chibiusa had brought her.
288 She remembered what Usagi told her about Minako and Chibiusa dressing up like nurses and
289 taking care of her. It made Hotaru laugh, even more when Usagi told her to watch out for that rice
290 gruel they would bring her. Just then Chibiusa walked in to Hotaru's room. She smiled to Hotaru
291 and asked, "Anything I can get you?" Hotaru giggled and said, "No Chibiusa I'm quiet fine.
292 You've already taken such great care of me I can't thank you enough." Chibiusa only nodded and
293 asked in serious tone, "Hotaru, may I talk to you about something?" Hotaru could tell the change
294 in her friend's tone and said, "Of course Chibiusa, what is it?" Chibiusa walked to the bed and sat
295 next to Hotaru. "I know now. I know what you think about me." Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa
296 when she heard her say that and a feeling of fear ran down Hotaru's spine. "What…what do you
297 mean?" Hotaru asked. Chibiusa took Hotaru's hand and said, "You know what I mean, I know
298 what you feel for me, that you're in love with me." Chibiusa's voice was heavy with emotion and
299 Hotaru was scared now that Chibiusa would hate her for knowing what she really thought about
300 her friend. "Chibiusa…I…I know its wrong to think such things but…I can't help it." Hotaru had
301 tears in her eyes and jumped out of her bed and gave Chibiusa a hard look. "I won't lie about it
302 anymore, yes I do love you Chibiusa! I've loved you for a long time because you’re a special
303 person to me and you mean so much to me that I can't imagine a life with out you." Hotaru yelled,
304 tears running down her face. She was very scared about what Chibiusa would say about this but
305 she knew she had to say it. It was the right thing to say. "You make my days worth living, you've
306 always been there for me when even God himself abandoned me. When everyone thought I was
307 just a cold-hearted killer you were the only one that would stand beside me and protect me, even
308 when I turned on all of you, you still wouldn't give up on me. You saved my life; you saved my
309 soul from the darkness that would have swallowed me whole. You’re the light in my life, how
310 could I not fall in love with you?" Hotaru said before she fell to her knees crying. "I love you and
311 I know you must think I'm a freak now more then ever." Hotaru was breaking down and Chibiusa
312 went right to her and made Hotaru face her. The two girls looked into each other's eyes for while,
313 one seeing sadness and begging for forgiveness, the other seeing only concern and what someone
314 would have mistaken for love. "Chibiusa, I…" Hotaru never had the chance to finish her
315 sentence. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru toward her and pressed her lips against hers. Hotaru's eyes grew
316 big with surprise and shock; Chibiusa's eyes however were closed. Hotaru didn't know what to
317 do, she wasn't even breathing. Chibiusa put her arms around Hotaru's neck and Hotaru closed her
318 eyes, putting her arms around Chibiusa waist. The two girls relaxed and kissed each other for
319 what seemed to them like hours. Finally, Chibiusa broke the kiss. Both girls' cheeks were red.
320 "When you collapsed at your door after I left I was so scared that I couldn't get you to open your
321 eyes, I prayed to God that you weren't going to die. I would have done anything to make you
322 open your eyes again. I would have traded my life for yours. And then finally after help came, I
323 thought to myself what would have happened if you had died right there and then. I would have
324 been lost without you. The thought of losing you twice, no, three times was too much for me. I
325 swear I was so scared I wouldn't leave your room. I stayed by your bedside holding your hand
326 hoping and waiting for you to open your eyes again. All the while, I read more of your diary, and
327 I realized I had felt the same about you all the time. And when I thought I was going to lose you, I
328 made myself promise that when you woke up I wasn't going to lie to myself anymore. I wouldn't
329 want to leave your side and most importantly, I wanted to let you know I left the same way about
330 you." Chibiusa and Hotaru were both crying after Chibiusa's speech. Hotaru was crying the worst
331 and hid her face in Chibiusa's chest. "Say it again please?" she asked. Chibiusa held Hotaru
332 tightly, as if she was going to fade away and whispered, "I love you Hotaru." Hotaru stayed in
333 Chibiusa's arms crying for an hour, thinking of how impossible it all seemed. How wrong it
334 would seem that anyone would love a monster like her. But Chibiusa never let her go and Hotaru
335 knew inside her heart that she would never let her go, just like she would never let Chibiusa go.
337 Hours had past, maybe more? Hotaru didn't care. Both her and Chibiusa were lying in her bed,
338 Hotaru still in Chibiusa's arms. Her face was tear stained but she wasn't crying anymore. "What
339 are you thinking Hotaru?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru's back was toward Chibiusa and she couldn't
340 see her face but Chibiusa knew she was not all right. Hotaru sighed and said, "I…I just still can't
341 get over it I guess. I prayed so hard that someday someone would treat me like a normal person,
342 and then I met you. Then I wished to fall in love with someone who would really love me back,
343 not just say it, but mean it in every way it can be meant. Like the person's heart would say I love
344 you, not their mouth. Then I began to realize just how important you were to me, and how much
345 you truly me to me." Hotaru turned around and faced Chibiusa; the first thing she noticed where
346 how Chibiusa's eyes glowed in the light the lamps around them gave out. 'Beautiful.' Hotaru
347 thought to herself. "Hotaru, why didn't you tell me this sooner? Why were you afraid to tell me?"
348 Chibiusa asked. Hotaru laughed alittle to the question and said, "What would you have thought if
349 one day I came up to you and said 'Chibiusa I'm in love with you'? Besides, I was so sure you
350 wouldn't feel the same way. I mean, I'm your best friend, at least I think I am still, and plus I'm a
351 girl, I was worried what you would think about that, not to mention what everyone else would
352 think. I didn't want to but you in that kind of situation. And what could you love in a freak like
353 me?" Chibiusa placed her hand on Hotaru's cheek and put her forehead to Hotaru's. "Don't say
354 such foolish things Hotaru. Your not a freak, never have been and never will be." Chibiusa said.
355 She kissed Hotaru's forehead and continued, "I'll admit I can understand why you didn't tell me.
356 But I'm glad I found out. You’re a special person to me Hotaru; you were my first real friend
357 when I came to this time. You saved my hat when you didn't even know me, and you knew you
358 shouldn't had been running. I can always trust you just like you can always trust me. So trust me
359 when I say I do not care what Usagi or anyone else would say about you and me. One of the
360 things my mother taught me was that love is love, love is unbiased and there is no wrong way to
361 love someone, and I love you Hotaru. You’re the reason why I came back to this time again."
362 Hotaru was hiding her face from Chibiusa's and could feel her eyes watering. "But…I'm crazy."
363 Hotaru whispered, not wanting Chibiusa to hear. Chibiusa lifted Hotaru's face back up to hers and
364 whispered back, "Your not crazy Tara-chan. Actually, from what I see right now, your beautiful."
365 Chibiusa smiled a loving smile to Hotaru and gave her a soft and gentle kiss. Hotaru felt her body
366 stiffen to the kiss but it didn't stop her from kissing back. Their kissed lasted for what seemed like
367 forever to them. Chibiusa broke the kiss from Hotaru's soft lips and started kissing her cheeks and
368 her forehead, everywhere on Hotaru's face. Hotaru started kissing Chibiusa neck and made her
369 way down. She stopped at Chibiusa's transformation brooch and gave it a soft kiss; to her it felt
370 like kissing Chibiusa's heart. Chibiusa put her hands on Hotaru's cheeks and brought her face to
371 hers. "I love you Hotaru." she whispered. Hotaru blushed deeply and whispered back, "I love you
372 too Chibiusa." Chibiusa smiled slyly and whispered again in Hotaru's ear, "Then, may I show you
373 just how much I love you?" Hotaru's face and her body got hot with those words and all she could
374 do was nod.
376 Hotaru laid on her back under the black silk sheets of her queen size bed. She was wearing a
377 simple rose red nightgown with a black lace trim on the shoulders and at the skirt. Her cheeks had
378 a red glow to them as Chibiusa pulled some of the sheets away and went into the bed. She was
379 wearing a soft pink nightgown made out of silk. She pulled the covers back up and embraced the
380 other girl. Hotaru's cheeks had brightened as she wrapped her arms around Chibiusa slim waist.
381 She was trembling slightly to being so close to the person who she had secretly had been
382 fantasizing about for so long. She looked into Chibiusa's ruby eyes and became lost within them.
383 "Are you sure you're ok with this Tara-chan? You don't have to force yourself." Chibiusa said in a
384 gently whisper. Hotaru pulled herself closer to Chibiusa and said weakly, "No, I've been
385 dreaming about this for so long. I never thought it was possible but now that it has truly happened
386 I want to be as close to you as possible." Hotaru put her hand on the back of Chibiusa's head and
387 gave her a passionate kiss. To her it was like kissing a divine angel. Chibiusa's lips were soft like
388 rose petals and just as sweet. To Chibiusa, kissing Hotaru was like kissing a star; it was nothing
389 short of amazing. Their tongue's danced in their mouths and their fingers locked together, never
390 wanting to part, just like them. Chibiusa turned Hotaru over so she was on top oh her. Their kiss
391 deepened not only in length but also in feeling. Hotaru began moaning softly as Chibiusa began
392 giving her quick butterfly kisses to Hotaru's sweet neck. Hotaru moaned louder, making Chibiusa
393 more excited and said almost in a plea, "Chibiusa, I love you." Chibiusa blushed and responded
394 with more kisses to Hotaru's neck and a whisper, "I love you too Hotaru." Chibiusa pulled the
395 shoulders of Hotaru's nightgown down and pulled the soft garment off, exposing Hotaru's soft
396 pale skin. Hotaru wasn't wearing anything underneath the nightgown and felt her naked body turn
397 red with embarrassment. "You really are a goddess aren’t you," Chibiusa said, winking to Hotaru.
398 Hotaru blushed more and pulled Chibiusa up to her, kissing her deeply and untying the garment
399 in the back that Chibiusa was wearing. When she pulled it off, she found that she wasn't the only
400 one that didn't wear anything underneath their nightgown. Hotaru laid underneath Chibiusa and
401 smiled to her. Chibiusa smiled back and started to kiss Hotaru's chest. Chibiusa heard Hotaru
402 moan softly as she started to kiss Hotaru's breast. She could feel Hotaru's hand moving up and
403 down her back. Chibiusa took one of Hotaru's breasts in her mouth and sucked gently on it,
404 playing with the other one with her hand. Hotaru arched her back up slightly, putting her leg
405 between Chibiusa's as she started running her hands threw Chibiusa soft hair. She undid the
406 odango's, letting Chibiusa's hair fall free down the length of her back. Chibiusa could feel
407 Hotaru's leg between hers and started to move her hips along the length of Hotaru's soft silky leg.
408 She let Hotaru's breast go and started to kiss her tummy. Hotaru giggled slightly to the feeling as
409 she started to kiss the top of Chibiusa head, taking in the scent of roses in her hair. Chibiusa
410 smiled and brought her face down lower. She spread Hotaru's legs apart and gave Hotaru a sly
411 smile. Hotaru didn’t know what Chibiusa was going to do until it was too late. Chibiusa bent her
412 head down and gently licked Hotaru's untouched flower. Hotaru let out a yell to the feeling of
413 Chibiusa wet tongue giving her pleasure that she never knew of. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru moaned as
414 she placed her hands on Chibiusa head, almost pushing her head closer. Chibiusa responded to
415 Hotaru's moans by taking all of Hotaru in her mouth, licking and kissing her. Hotaru started to
416 move her hips in the rhythm of Chibiusa tongue, keeping her eyes closed and moaning louder and
417 louder. Chibiusa was enjoying hearing Hotaru moan and say her name repeatedly. She pulled
418 Hotaru's lips apart slightly and pushed a finger inside of her. Hotaru gave a loud yell as she
419 started to feel something inside of here building up. "Chibiusa…don't stop." Hotaru panted. "I
420 won't, trust me." Chibiusa said as she pushed another finger inside of the lavender haired girl.
421 Hotaru arched her back as much as she could and finally it hit her. Her first orgasm left like a
422 shock of electricity running threw her body, stealing her strength but giving her unimaginable
423 pleasure. "Oh my God, you must be an angel cause I think you just took me to heaven." Hotaru
424 said as she took deep breaths. Chibiusa giggled and said, "I guess I was good." Hotaru sat up and
425 nodded. "Now I want to return the favor." Hotaru said as she pulled Chibiusa into her arms,
426 kissing her passionately. Chibiusa was caught off guard by the kiss but soon came over that.
427 Hotaru moved behind Chibiusa and started kissing her shoulder blade and neck while her hands
428 wondered all over Chibiusa body. Chibiusa moaned softly in Hotaru's ear and whispered, "Be
429 gentle." Hotaru kissed the back of Chibiusa ear and said, "With you, always princess." Hotaru's
430 hands grabbed Chibiusa breast and started to play with them, gently as Chibiusa had requested.
431 Chibiusa gave a small moan and took Hotaru's cheek in her hand and turned her head to kiss her.
432 As they kissed Hotaru's hands started to work magic into Chibiusa as they started to glow in a
433 soft purple light. She took Chibiusa nipples between her fingers and gave a slight twist. Chibiusa
434 started to moan louder, saying Hotaru's name with each breath as Hotaru continued to pleasure
435 her. Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa and said, "Now like I said before, I'll return the favor you
436 gave me." She spread Chibiusa's legs apart, exposing the girl's wet and untouched flower. Hotaru
437 lifted Chibiusa's pussy to her mouth and took her all in. Chibiusa let a short scream out when she
438 left Hotaru's tongue washing over her sensitive area and then let another one out when she felt it
439 go in her. "Oh Hotaru, oh my God don't stop, please don't stop." Chibi begged as she pushed
440 Hotaru's head closer to her. Hotaru pushed her tongue in as deep as she could, enjoying the little
441 Chibiusa pie she was having. Finally, Chibiusa couldn't take anymore of the pleasure Hotaru was
442 giving her and gave one last finally yell before her body stiffened and her heart forgot to beat.
443 Chibiusa collapsed on the bed panting for air. Hotaru put her fingers inside of Chibiusa and took a
444 taste of the pink haired girl. She didn't know just how to describe it other then sweet and kinda of
445 bitter. All and all, her Chibiusa pie was good.
447 Chibiusa finally started to breathe normally again and noticed Hotaru was gone. She looked
448 around the room but there was no sight of her. Suddenly the lights in the room went off and a
449 cold chill entered the room. Chibiusa was still naked and started shivering. "Hotaru? Where are
450 you?" Suddenly out of no where Hotaru appeared, but as Sailor Saturn. "Hotaru?" Chibiusa
451 asked. "I am Sailor Saturn, the soldier born to darkness and death. I was born alone, and meant to
452 die alone for I am the forbidden soldier who should never have been. But now I live for a new
453 reason now. Not to snuff out a worlds dying light, nor to walk the path of ruin and silence, but to
454 serve and protect the princess of the future Crystal Tokyo, Small Lady Chibiusa. And I promise to
455 serve, honor, protect, and love her for all the days of my life, and the rest of all eternity." Sailor
456 Saturn said bowing on one knee to Chibiusa. Chibiusa could feel tears in her eyes and jumped off
457 the bed and took Saturn in her arms. "Oh Hotaru I love you so much!" Saturn put her arms around
458 Chibiusa and said, "And I love you my princess, more then the word love cane even describe."
459 With that the two girls shared a deep a loving kiss that they would always remember for the rest
460 of their lives and even after that. Saturn quickly took Chibiusa in her arms and lifted her up,
461 carrying her back into the bed. She laid her down and got on top of her. She kissed her gently on
462 the lips and put her arms around Chibiusa. Chibiusa did the same and Saturn's fuku began to
463 disappear, leaving behind only purple ribbons around Hotaru's naked figure. The ribbons seemed
464 to go around Chibiusa as well, binding the two together. Hotaru pushed herself on Chibiusa and
465 moaned when her sex was rubbed up against Chibiusa. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru into a deeper kiss
466 as the two started to rub up against each other. They turned around and switched places with each
467 other, but always would the ribbons keep them together, just like their newfound love would keep
468 their hearts and their souls together forever. Hotaru began to move her hips faster and harder,
469 making both her and Chibiusa pant harder and harder, each one saying the others name over and
470 over again until they both stopped when an explosion hit both of them at the same time. The two
471 lovers came together, each one screaming "I love you," each one holding on to the other tightly
472 hoping nothing would pull them apart. Hotaru fell on top of Chibiusa exhausted and tired.
473 Chibiusa panted hard and was very tired herself. Without saying a word, the couple fell asleep in
474 each other's arms, the ribbons around them still holding them together. But when they would
475 wake, it would be their hearts that would hold the two together for the rest of their lives.
479 The end.
481 Well that’s all! I hope you enjoyed my story. Again this is my first attempt to writing a
482 Sekkushiaru Roman. I welcome any comments or feedback and you can e-mail me at
483 saturn_archangel@hotbot.com. I hope you enjoyed my story. ^_^