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     1.4 +Hello everyone! I'm lanis01 and this is my first attempt to writing a Sekkushiaru Roman. For those of you 
     1.5 +who don’t know what this is it’s a romance story that contains a lot of adult themes. This is for mature 
     1.6 +readers only. If you caught with this and you are underage I hope your parents teach you a lesson! I am not 
     1.7 +responsible for minors that happen to read this story because they are not my responsibility they are the 
     1.8 +parents and this story is on a site that says who can read this and who can't. I don't own any of the 
     1.9 +characters in this, Toei, Naoko Takeuchi and other people who I don't know of yet do. This story line 
    1.10 +however is my idea and I hope you readers enjoy my story! 
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    1.12 +
    1.13 +Hotaru's secret
    1.14 +By: Lanis01
    1.15 +
    1.16 +
    1.17 +       "Ten to three, ten more minutes closer to freedom." Hotaru sighed happily. It was the last day 
    1.18 +of school and Hotaru couldn't wait to get home. School was never her favorite thing. Even though 
    1.19 +she had a normal life like the rest of the sailor soldiers, her life could never be anything like 
    1.20 +normal. The attacks she used to have when she had first met the other soldiers had come back. 
    1.21 +She thought it was always because she was torn between the two forces trapped inside her body, 
    1.22 +but now there was no reason for her attacks. 'I'm just a freak like always' she thought to herself. 
    1.23 +At least that’s what the kids at school told her. She had no friends at her school; she really didn't 
    1.24 +want to be friends with people like them. She thought things would be different after she had 
    1.25 +become sailor saturn but nothing had changed. 'No, that’s not all true, one this has changed' she 
    1.26 +thought again. She opened her wallet and saw the picture she had inside it. It made her smile, 
    1.27 +which was something most people never saw. It wasn't an old picture, but the date the picture was 
    1.28 +taken seemed like it had been years ago. But no matter how old it was, its value to her heart 
    1.29 +would never change. She stared at the picture and thought back to when it was taken. It had been 
    1.30 +the happiest day of her life, one she would never forget. Suddenly her mind shot back to reality as 
    1.31 +the last bell rang and the students around her got up to leave. Hotaru put the picture away and 
    1.32 +stood up. No sooner has she stood up when a hand grabbed her shoulder and forced her back in 
    1.33 +her seat. Hotaru looked up scared to a girl who was known for causing a lot of fights in her 
    1.34 +school. She was a head taller then Hotaru but was very beautiful, at least that’s what most guys 
    1.35 +thought. She had blond curly hair that ended to her shoulders and dark green eyes. "Where do you 
    1.36 +think your going freak?" the girl asked tightening her hold on Hotaru's shoulder. "Wh…What do 
    1.37 +you want Kerri?" Hotaru whispered. "Shut up! I saw you looking at my boyfriend slut. Stay away 
    1.38 +from him or I'll cripple your worthless ass!" Kerri yelled. She turned her head to see if the two of 
    1.39 +them were alone and when she saw that they were she backhanded Hotaru across the face. Hotaru 
    1.40 +fell out of her chair and took her school bag with her, knocking out the things she had in it. 
    1.41 +"Understand?" Kerri said in a low voice. Hotaru was on her hands and knees and only nodded to 
    1.42 +the question. "Good. See you next year freak." Kerri said as she walked out of the empty 
    1.43 +classroom. Hotaru was starting to cry softly to herself as she picked up the things that had fallen 
    1.44 +out of her bag. 'The more things change, the more the remain the same…'
    1.45 +
    1.46 +           'At least its over know, I don't have to go back for a long time.' Hotaru though to herself on 
    1.47 +her way home. Her cheek was red and so were her eyes. 'I just hope I get home in one piece, and 
    1.48 +once I do I'm running upstairs to my room and locking the door!' Hotaru thought again kicking a 
    1.49 +rock in front of her. 'But I know that won't change anything, I just hope my days get better.' As 
    1.50 +Hotaru was walking she heard a stick break behind her but before she could turn around someone 
    1.51 +covered her eyes with their hands from behind her. Hotaru gasped, scared that it might have been 
    1.52 +Kerri again. "Guess who!" a small voice said behind her. Hotaru sighed, as she knew who it was 
    1.53 +and smiled. "Is it a cute girl with short pink hair done up in a odd style?" Hotaru asked, blushing 
    1.54 +when she heard herself talk. "No, just little old me." Chibiusa said uncovering her eyes and 
    1.55 +stepping in front of Hotaru. "Hotaru are you ok? Your face is red and so are your eyes? Is 
    1.56 +everything alright?" Chibiusa asked with concern in her voice for her dear friend. Hotaru covered 
    1.57 +her cheek and said, "I'm fine, I always am aren't I?" That was all Chibiusa need to hear. "You 
    1.58 +can't lie to me Miss Hotaru Tomoe, I'm your best friend and I know when you're hiding 
    1.59 +something." Chibiusa said acting as if she knew Hotaru like a book, which she almost did. And 
    1.60 +almost was just how Hotaru wanted it. Hotaru only smiled, "I'm fine really Chibiusa, you don't 
    1.61 +need to worry about me." Chibiusa gave Hotaru a serious look and said back, "What kind of a 
    1.62 +friend would I be if I didn't worry?" Hotaru sighed and asked, "Would you walk me home please 
    1.63 +Chibiusa? I mean if you're not busy." Chibiusa smiled and took Hotaru's hand. "Of course I will. 
    1.64 +Is it ok with you if I stay alittle while? Usagi is cooking again today and I'm scared to go home." 
    1.65 +Hotaru giggled and nodded. "I would love to have you over." The two girls smiled to one another 
    1.66 +and made there way to Hotaru's house. 
    1.67 +
    1.68 +     "Please, make yourself at home. Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama won't be home till late 
    1.69 +because I think they were going to try and go out on a date. And Setsuna-mama has been really 
    1.70 +busy lately so I don’t even think she'll come home." Hotaru said taking her shoes off. "You sure 
    1.71 +they won't mind?" Chibiusa asked setting her bags down. "I'm sure, why would they mind?" 
    1.72 +Hotaru asked walking into the kitchen. "Would you like something to drink?" Hotaru asked. "No 
    1.73 +that’s ok, do you mind if I put my bags in your room?" Chibiusa asked back. "No go ahead, I 
    1.74 +have to check on dinner so I'll be up in a minute." Hotaru said. Chibiusa took her bags and ran 
    1.75 +upstairs. She went to the end of the hallway and opened the door to Hotaru's room. As soon as the 
    1.76 +door opened up she caught the scent of Jasmine in the room. Hotaru had two dark emerald green 
    1.77 +candles lit. Hotaru's room was always dark if not for the lamps and few scented candles she had. 
    1.78 +Chibiusa always loved being in Hotaru's room, it was so, romantic. But it was also dark, like 
    1.79 +Hotaru was sometimes. That thought made Chibiusa frown, she knew that recently Hotaru had 
    1.80 +been acting sadder and sadder but would always try and hide it when she was around. Chibiusa 
    1.81 +sat down on Hotaru's bed and let she let herself fall back. Hotaru had a feather bed and it was 
    1.82 +always very comfortable, like a cloud. She turned and noticed something, a large black leather 
    1.83 +book on Hotaru's desk. It had a purple ribbon in the middle. Chibiusa knew she shouldn't have 
    1.84 +looked in it but she couldn’t stop her curiosity. She opened the book and read what was inside. 
    1.85 +'Oh my god this is Hotaru's diary! Oh my…no wonder she's been so sad!' Chibiusa thought to 
    1.86 +herself. Hotaru had never told her about her attacks coming back or that nothing in her social life 
    1.87 +had changed. What made Chibiusa really upset was the line she read at the end; 'I was born a 
    1.88 +freak, and I'll die a freak.' Chibiusa heard footsteps coming up to the room and quickly put the 
    1.89 +book back. Hotaru walked in her room and noticed the look on Chibiusa's face. "What's wrong?" 
    1.90 +she asked seeing that Chibiusa was upset. "Why didn't you tell me?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru 
    1.91 +looked at Chibiusa for a moment then noticed her dairy was behind her. "What are you talking 
    1.92 +about?" Hotaru asked, although she had a good idea what Chibiusa was talking about. "I'm 
    1.93 +talking about your attacks coming back! And that you've been getting beat up at school! I take it 
    1.94 +that it happened again." Chibiusa said in an angry tone, pointing to Hotaru's still sore cheek. 
    1.95 +Hotaru was shocked that she knew all that and felt tears building up in her eyes. 'Oh my god, she 
    1.96 +read it! She must know what I wrote about her then!' "Chibiusa…I'm sorry I…" Hotaru couldn't 
    1.97 +think of words to say, she thought Chibiusa would hate her forever now that she knew Hotaru's 
    1.98 +secret. "And I wish you wouldn't think like that, it's wrong Hotaru! You know it is." Rini said, 
    1.99 +talking about how Hotaru thought she was a freak. Hotaru couldn't believe what Chibiusa had 
   1.100 +said and started to breakdown. "I know its wrong, I'm so sorry!" Hotaru cried thinking she was 
   1.101 +talking about her secret. Tears were sliding down her face and finally Hotaru ran out of her room. 
   1.102 +Chibiusa didn't know why Hotaru had acted so serious over what she said. But she didn't read all 
   1.103 +of Hotaru's diary, at least not the part about her. Chibiusa ran after Hotaru and found her crying in 
   1.104 +her parent's bedroom. "Hotaru? I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry. I had no idea you take it 
   1.105 +that seriously." Chibiusa said behind Hotaru. "I knew you would be angry with me, I know 
   1.106 +thinking such things are wrong and I know you must hate me for what I wrote about you. Its just 
   1.107 +that you…" Hotaru couldn't finish her sentence. Chibiusa moved in front of her and knelled down 
   1.108 +next to her. "What did you write about me?" she asked. Hotaru looked up to her in shock 'Oh my 
   1.109 +god she doesn't know?!' Hotaru though. Hotaru was even more scared now. Her secret had not 
   1.110 +been found out by the one person that it had to do with, but now her mistake would force that 
   1.111 +secret out. "Hotaru? What did you write about me?" Rini asked again. Hotaru couldn't bring 
   1.112 +herself to say it. "Please Chibiusa, I don't want to talk about it. It was nothing. I just need to get 
   1.113 +some rest." Hotaru said as she tried to leave. Chibiusa grabbed her arm and stopped her. "Please 
   1.114 +Hotaru, if something is bothering you I want to know what it is. I'm your best friend aren't I?  
   1.115 +Please let me help you!" Chibiusa said now getting frustrated with her. "Chibiusa please!" Hotaru 
   1.116 +yelled. Chibiusa let her arm go and backed off in shock. She had not expected to hear Hotaru yell 
   1.117 +at her. Hotaru began to cry again when she realized she had yell at her best friend for only trying 
   1.118 +to help her. "Please, I just want to get some rest now. I don't want to talk about it anymore." 
   1.119 +Hotaru said softly, trying to act calmer. Chibiusa just nodded, afraid to say anymore. "I'm sorry, 
   1.120 +I'll get my bag and go back home, I didn't mean to upset you." Chibiusa said, leaving before 
   1.121 +Hotaru could say anything else. She ran back to Hotaru's room and grabbed her bag, unknowingly 
   1.122 +knocking Hotaru's dairy in an open pocket in her bag. She took the bag in her arm and left. She 
   1.123 +was about to leave when Hotaru stopped her. "Chibiusa, I'm sorry for raising my voice. You were 
   1.124 +right; I did get into another fight in school today. My days only seem to get harder as they go by. 
   1.125 +Now I just want to rest for awhile. I appreciate that you want to help me, but there are 
   1.126 +something's that a friend just can't help someone with. I'm really sorry I yelled at you." Hotaru 
   1.127 +said bowing her head. Chibiusa only nodded and put on a fake smile. "It's ok, I know you had a 
   1.128 +hard day. I'll leave you alone now." Chibiusa said quickly. She left just as fast, not waiting to say 
   1.129 +goodbye to Hotaru. Hotaru wanted to stop her before a sharp pain hit her chest and made her 
   1.130 +collapse. She was having another one of her attacks. She grabbed her chest, struggling to breathe. 
   1.131 +This attack was the worst one she had ever had. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru tried to yell out, but it came 
   1.132 +only in a whisper. Hotaru was scared now and thought for sure that she was going to die, the pain 
   1.133 +she was in was so great that for a moment she wanted to die if it meant ending this pain. Tears 
   1.134 +were building up in Hotaru's eyes and suddenly everything went black. 'I'm dead' was Hotaru's 
   1.135 +last thought; not something you want to take with you into the darkness. 
   1.136 +
   1.137 +       Colors. Dark and cold colors. It felt like being in a tomb almost. But there was a breeze? 
   1.138 +Tombs don't have a breeze, do they? That’s what Hotaru asked herself when she opened her eyes. 
   1.139 +Her vision was blurred and she couldn't tell where she was or if she was alone. She tried to talk 
   1.140 +but couldn't. 'I'm dead…' Hotaru though to herself again. Suddenly she felt something warm take 
   1.141 +her hand. She closed her eyes and opened them again to clear her vision. What she saw would 
   1.142 +have made her cry. She wasn't dead at all, she was in her room laying on top of her bed with what 
   1.143 +Hotaru thought for sure could only have been an angel. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru whispered after she 
   1.144 +licked her dry and cracked lips. How long had she been out? When she spoke the name of the 
   1.145 +person sitting next to her bed the grip on her hand tighten. "Shh Hotaru, don't try and talk. You've 
   1.146 +been unconsciousness for three days now. The doctors thought you were in a coma and you 
   1.147 +would never wake up. But I told them they were wrong, I made them go away and told the others 
   1.148 +I would stay with you until you woke up." Chibiusa had tears in her red eyes and after Hotaru's 
   1.149 +vision cleared more she could see Chibiusa's cheeks were tear stained. 'She stayed her with me? 
   1.150 +All that time, for me?' Hotaru though that maybe she really did die, why would anyone want to 
   1.151 +stay with her when everyone else thought she was with death. Chibiusa brushed some hair off 
   1.152 +Hotaru's face and said, "Are you hungry Hotaru? Can I get you anything?" Hotaru only shook her 
   1.153 +head. She was tired but she didn't have the strength to eat or to even sleep. Plus if what Chibiusa 
   1.154 +said was true, which she knew it was when she saw a plate with food half eaten on her desk and a 
   1.155 +blanket on Chibiusa's lap, then Hotaru wouldn't burden her any further. Chibiusa smiled at Hotaru 
   1.156 +and said, "Don't worry about it, I'll get something right now." Chibiusa got up and pulled the 
   1.157 +blanket that was covering Hotaru up more and she tucked some of the blanket under Hotaru's feet. 
   1.158 +"Promise me you'll be awake when I come back ok?" Hotaru would have cried right there if she 
   1.159 +hadn't been struggling to hold back her tears. Hotaru nodded. "Thank you Tara-chan, I'll be back 
   1.160 +really soon." Chibiusa said. She walked out of Hotaru's room and closed the door behind her, 
   1.161 +forgetting what she had just called Hotaru. Hotaru stared at the door in shock, she wondered if 
   1.162 +that had been all a dream. 'If that was just another of my dying dreams, I pray I die with this 
   1.163 +dream so I may never leave it.'
   1.164 +
   1.165 +     Night had come; Hotaru had just fallen asleep. Chibiusa had made sure that Hotaru didn't get 
   1.166 +out of bed with out her knowing. She wouldn't let anyone else in the room beside her and told the 
   1.167 +others, "I just need to be alone with her." Chibiusa sat back in an old rocking chair that Hotaru 
   1.168 +had. She remembered her telling Chibiusa that it was her mother's. She closed her eyes and 
   1.169 +smiled. 'Thank God you woke up Tara-chan. Thank you God so much.' Chibiusa took a book 
   1.170 +from her backpack and opened it to a bookmarked page. She smiled joyfully and read the same 
   1.171 +pages she had been reading for those three days she stayed with Hotaru:
   1.172 +
   1.173 +June 25, 1999
   1.174 +The day I opened my eyes
   1.175 +
   1.176 +Dear diary,
   1.177 +     God knows how many lives I've ruined, God knows how many lives I'll lived, but for the first 
   1.178 +time in all those lives, my eyes have opened. All this time I kept fooling myself thinking this was 
   1.179 +wrong or that I was wrong myself. I have given this a lot of thought and I'm sure with all my 
   1.180 +heart that this is anything but wrong. I kissed someone for the first time in my life. Not a kiss on 
   1.181 +the cheek but a real kiss on the lips. Oh it was the sweetest feeling I could ever feel. I can't think 
   1.182 +of words to describe it but pure serenity would be the only thing that comes close to it. I know 
   1.183 +that I love this person, I have loved this person for a long time. No, I take that back, love is to 
   1.184 +small a word to describe how I feel about this person. To think I never saw it makes wonder how 
   1.185 +I can see anything. But now I worry about what this person will think. Will they feel the same? I 
   1.186 +think they won't. No, not for me. I am the last person to be blessed by something wonderful as 
   1.187 +true love. They could not love me because I am different. Even more now then before. I fear if I 
   1.188 +ever tell them about my true feelings that they will laugh or even worse, abandon me and think 
   1.189 +me a freak when they are the only soul on this planet that might just think I am normal. Its funny, 
   1.190 +writing that right now, I don't believe I am or ever well be normal. I was born with this curse and 
   1.191 +I'll die with it, then take it with me to my next life. So I decided not to tell this person I love them, 
   1.192 +nor that I stole a kiss from them in their sleep. I suppose they may never know how I feel, even 
   1.193 +though I scream the words "I love you" from my heart; they will never hear them. Just like I will 
   1.194 +never hear those words back from their lips. Their sweet lips.  I would give anything to kiss their 
   1.195 +lips again, to have them hold me in their arms at night and in day. To look into their eyes and 
   1.196 +know that they really love me in all the ways a human can be loved. If it were possible for me 
   1.197 +then I would sell my soul to have them forever. But just like I said before, this person, this sweet 
   1.198 +and special person would never love a mistake like me. They are far too good for me to have. For 
   1.199 +me to call my own. But I hope and pray, beyond hope and prayers can go, that this person might 
   1.200 +someday say the words I may never live to hear, "I love you Hotaru." It has grown late now, I 
   1.201 +should go and sleep but that would only bring my days closer to me, and so far for the last four 
   1.202 +weeks my days have given me only sadness and more reasons to hold that knife to my wrist. If 
   1.203 +not for this person, I would have died along ago. And this person, this person who God himself 
   1.204 +must have sent to be with me is someone who I hope I never lose, someone how has become the 
   1.205 +only ray of light in my dark world. And that someone is Chibiusa…
   1.206 +
   1.207 +      Chibiusa blushed the whole time she read that special part in Hotaru's dairy. She never had a 
   1.208 +clue that Hotaru felt like this about her. When she thought about it, they had been spending more 
   1.209 +time with each other recently, and it was normally just the two of them. Hotaru was very dear to 
   1.210 +Chibiusa; she was her first real friend sense she came back to the past. Chibiusa smiled 
   1.211 +remembering the day they first met. Her hat had been flown away in the park. And even though 
   1.212 +Hotaru didn't know Chibiusa at the time she went after her hat and saved it from a creek. She 
   1.213 +wasn't even suppose to be running because she was so weak but she still did it. 'Maybe she 
   1.214 +already knew?' Chibiusa though, holding the diary close to her like she would hold a teddy bear. 
   1.215 +'Do I feel the same?' she thought again. She turned to Hotaru who was still sleeping soundly in 
   1.216 +bed. She was the only person Chibiusa knew that didn't look peaceful when they slept. Hotaru 
   1.217 +didn't look like she was in pain, just sad. Chibiusa put the book down on the desk and moved to 
   1.218 +the side of the bed. She lit one of Hotaru's lamps and stood by the foot of the bed. Chibiusa 
   1.219 +smiled to Hotaru, her face looked beautiful in the small amount of light the lamp gave out. 
   1.220 +Chibiusa bent over and moved some of Hotaru's hair away from her face but didn't get back up. 
   1.221 +Chibiusa was staring at Hotaru's face. There was something different about, something she had 
   1.222 +never noticed before. Hotaru's face looked so pretty, even though she couldn't see her eyes. "You 
   1.223 +are important to me…" Chibiusa whispered. She felt her heart beginning to beat faster as she 
   1.224 +licked her lips and took a deep breath. Chibiusa bent over alittle more and very gently gave 
   1.225 +Hotaru a kiss. Just like Hotaru had stole a kiss from her, Chibiusa had just stole a kiss from 
   1.226 +Hotaru, and Chibiusa blushed greatly after it. But, she did have a rather big smile on her face.
   1.227 +
   1.228 +      Hotaru woke up early the morning after to the scent of pancakes. Hotaru sat up in bed and 
   1.229 +looked around. Chibiusa was still asleep in her mother's rocking chair. Hotaru blushed alittle and 
   1.230 +thought how sweet Chibiusa was to stay with her all these nights. Hotaru pushed the heavy 
   1.231 +blankets away and was surprised to see that she was still in her school uniform. 'Eww. I need to 
   1.232 +change. No I need a shower first!' Hotaru though. They she smelled pancakes. 'After I eat.' She 
   1.233 +tried to stand up but found that it was kind of hard. Chibiusa heard Hotaru getting up and jumped 
   1.234 +out of her chair. "Hotaru! You shouldn't be moving around like that! You might hurt yourself!" 
   1.235 +Chibiusa said taking Hotaru's arm and helping her stand when she was about to fall. Hotaru only 
   1.236 +blushed. "Chibiusa, I'm fine really I am. I need to move around or I'll be stuck in that bed. And I 
   1.237 +think I need to change these cloths." Hotaru said calmly, trying to fool her pink hair friend. 
   1.238 +Chibiusa didn't buy it. "Hold on, you can't just get up and walk away after being asleep for three 
   1.239 +days straight. Please let me take care of you for now." Chibiusa pleaded. Hotaru didn't want to 
   1.240 +agree with her but she was feeling alittle too weak to argue. "Alright…" Hotaru said sitting back 
   1.241 +in bed. “Good!” Chibiusa said happily. “Now I tell you what, you can go ahead and take a shower 
   1.242 +if you want, and then after that I’ll serve you breakfast in bed. Does that sound good?” Chibiusa 
   1.243 +asked. Hotaru giggled and nodded. “Your doing too much Chibiusa, you don’t have to be 
   1.244 +worrying yourself over me like this.” As soon as Hotaru had finished her sentence Chibiusa 
   1.245 +pressed her finger against Hotaru’s lips. “Shh, you almost died if I had not gone back to talk more 
   1.246 +to you, I was scared I would lose you Hotaru, so expect me to worry more about you for awhile. 
   1.247 +You’re a precious person to me and I’m going to take care of you until I know your better.” 
   1.248 +Chibiusa said looking into Hotaru’s eyes the whole time she was talking. ‘She has such lovely 
   1.249 +eyes’ Chibiusa thought to herself. Hotaru was shocked by Chibiusa and nodded to what she had 
   1.250 +said, blushing badly. “Alright then, so you going to take your shower or do you want your food 
   1.251 +now?” Chibiusa asked smiling happily knowing Hotaru was going to let her take care of her. 
   1.252 +Hotaru was still blushing and thought, ‘Thank God I have you…’
   1.253 +
   1.254 +     Hotaru walked out of the bathroom carrying her cloths with her. She had finished taking her 
   1.255 +shower and felt a lot better now. She dressed herself in a black nightgown, even though it was 
   1.256 +still early in the day but Chibiusa wanted her to dress comfortable. It was nice knowing she had a 
   1.257 +friend that cared so much for her, but Hotaru never really felt worthy of Chibiusa's friendship. 
   1.258 +She was nothing like Chibiusa or any of her friends. She laughed alittle to herself when she 
   1.259 +thought to herself that she was nothing like anyone! But if Chibiusa could hear her thoughts she 
   1.260 +would scold Hotaru for thinking such foolish things. Chibiusa always said that out of all her 
   1.261 +friends Hotaru meant the most to her because she was her first true friend. And she always said 
   1.262 +that Hotaru was her special friend. Hotaru blushed remembering the first day Chibiusa said that to 
   1.263 +her. It was when Chibiusa went to see her father, after Sailor Moon had saved Hotaru from the 
   1.264 +silence. She was only a baby, but she clearly remembered Chibiusa holding her in her arms and 
   1.265 +whispering, "Sweet Hotaru, I know you may not be able to understand me, but I couldn't leave 
   1.266 +without saying good bye to you my special friend." Hotaru blushed more and quickly pulled 
   1.267 +herself together before she entered her room. She knew Chibiusa was in there and she didn't want 
   1.268 +to explain why she was blushing. She opened the door and dropped the cloths she was holding to 
   1.269 +the floor in surprise. Her room, dark as always, had every lamp she ever collected lit up. The 
   1.270 +room had a beautiful glow to it and for a second Hotaru didn't know if she was in the right room 
   1.271 +or not. She had never lit all of them before. She could smell something sweet in the air as well. 
   1.272 +"Jasmine," Chibiusa's voice said behind Hotaru. Hotaru turned around and saw Chibiusa was 
   1.273 +dressed in a nurse's dress. Hotaru couldn't help but notice that it looked little too tight on her from 
   1.274 +the waist up. "What's this?" Hotaru asked. "Just something to make you alittle more comfortable. 
   1.275 +Come on lay down. I changed the sheets on your bed too because I knew you wouldn't want to 
   1.276 +sleep in a sweaty bed." Chibiusa said with her finger in the air pointing up like she knew what she 
   1.277 +was talking about. Hotaru only sweat drop. She walked in and sat down on her bed, Chibiusa had 
   1.278 +put on the dark purple silk sheets Hotaru had. Chibiusa grabbed Hotaru's legs and lifted them up 
   1.279 +to the bed before Hotaru could stop her. " Haruka and Michiru are out now, I told them I could 
   1.280 +take care of you by myself and they agreed so it's just you and me." Chibiusa said. Hotaru 
   1.281 +blushed and said, "Chibiusa this is all so very thoughtful of you but it's all too much. You 
   1.282 +shouldn't have done all this for me. It must have took you all day." Chibiusa giggled and said, 
   1.283 +"Hotaru I want to take care of you, making you relax is one of the ways I take care of people. Plus 
   1.284 +I know you've had a hard couple of weeks and I haven't been a good friend by not being there for 
   1.285 +you so this is the least I can do." Hotaru blushed more and shook her head. "You’re a wonderful 
   1.286 +friend Chibiusa, more then I should have, thank you so much for all that you've done. It really 
   1.287 +means a lot to me." Chibiusa bowed. "Your very welcome Tara-chan. And don't say such foolish 
   1.288 +things about yourself." 
   1.289 +
   1.290 +     Hotaru lay peacefully in bed after she had finished eating the dinner Chibiusa had brought her.  
   1.291 +She remembered what Usagi told her about Minako and Chibiusa dressing up like nurses and 
   1.292 +taking care of her. It made Hotaru laugh, even more when Usagi told her to watch out for that rice 
   1.293 +gruel they would bring her. Just then Chibiusa walked in to Hotaru's room. She smiled to Hotaru 
   1.294 +and asked, "Anything I can get you?" Hotaru giggled and said, "No Chibiusa I'm quiet fine. 
   1.295 +You've already taken such great care of me I can't thank you enough." Chibiusa only nodded and 
   1.296 +asked in serious tone, "Hotaru, may I talk to you about something?" Hotaru could tell the change 
   1.297 +in her friend's tone and said, "Of course Chibiusa, what is it?" Chibiusa walked to the bed and sat 
   1.298 +next to Hotaru. "I know now. I know what you think about me." Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa 
   1.299 +when she heard her say that and a feeling of fear ran down Hotaru's spine. "What…what do you 
   1.300 +mean?" Hotaru asked. Chibiusa took Hotaru's hand and said, "You know what I mean, I know 
   1.301 +what you feel for me, that you're in love with me." Chibiusa's voice was heavy with emotion and 
   1.302 +Hotaru was scared now that Chibiusa would hate her for knowing what she really thought about 
   1.303 +her friend. "Chibiusa…I…I know its wrong to think such things but…I can't help it." Hotaru had 
   1.304 +tears in her eyes and jumped out of her bed and gave Chibiusa a hard look. "I won't lie about it 
   1.305 +anymore, yes I do love you Chibiusa! I've loved you for a long time because you’re a special 
   1.306 +person to me and you mean so much to me that I can't imagine a life with out you." Hotaru yelled, 
   1.307 +tears running down her face. She was very scared about what Chibiusa would say about this but 
   1.308 +she knew she had to say it. It was the right thing to say. "You make my days worth living, you've 
   1.309 +always been there for me when even God himself abandoned me. When everyone thought I was 
   1.310 +just a cold-hearted killer you were the only one that would stand beside me and protect me, even 
   1.311 +when I turned on all of you, you still wouldn't give up on me. You saved my life; you saved my 
   1.312 +soul from the darkness that would have swallowed me whole. You’re the light in my life, how 
   1.313 +could I not fall in love with you?" Hotaru said before she fell to her knees crying. "I love you and 
   1.314 +I know you must think I'm a freak now more then ever." Hotaru was breaking down and Chibiusa 
   1.315 +went right to her and made Hotaru face her. The two girls looked into each other's eyes for while, 
   1.316 +one seeing sadness and begging for forgiveness, the other seeing only concern and what someone 
   1.317 +would have mistaken for love. "Chibiusa, I…" Hotaru never had the chance to finish her 
   1.318 +sentence. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru toward her and pressed her lips against hers. Hotaru's eyes grew 
   1.319 +big with surprise and shock; Chibiusa's eyes however were closed. Hotaru didn't know what to 
   1.320 +do, she wasn't even breathing. Chibiusa put her arms around Hotaru's neck and Hotaru closed her 
   1.321 +eyes, putting her arms around Chibiusa waist. The two girls relaxed and kissed each other for 
   1.322 +what seemed to them like hours. Finally, Chibiusa broke the kiss. Both girls' cheeks were red. 
   1.323 +"When you collapsed at your door after I left I was so scared that I couldn't get you to open your 
   1.324 +eyes, I prayed to God that you weren't going to die. I would have done anything to make you 
   1.325 +open your eyes again. I would have traded my life for yours. And then finally after help came, I 
   1.326 +thought to myself what would have happened if you had died right there and then. I would have 
   1.327 +been lost without you. The thought of losing you twice, no, three times was too much for me. I 
   1.328 +swear I was so scared I wouldn't leave your room. I stayed by your bedside holding your hand 
   1.329 +hoping and waiting for you to open your eyes again. All the while, I read more of your diary, and 
   1.330 +I realized I had felt the same about you all the time. And when I thought I was going to lose you, I 
   1.331 +made myself promise that when you woke up I wasn't going to lie to myself anymore. I wouldn't 
   1.332 +want to leave your side and most importantly, I wanted to let you know I left the same way about 
   1.333 +you." Chibiusa and Hotaru were both crying after Chibiusa's speech. Hotaru was crying the worst 
   1.334 +and hid her face in Chibiusa's chest. "Say it again please?" she asked. Chibiusa held Hotaru 
   1.335 +tightly, as if she was going to fade away and whispered, "I love you Hotaru." Hotaru stayed in 
   1.336 +Chibiusa's arms crying for an hour, thinking of how impossible it all seemed. How wrong it 
   1.337 +would seem that anyone would love a monster like her. But Chibiusa never let her go and Hotaru 
   1.338 +knew inside her heart that she would never let her go, just like she would never let Chibiusa go.      
   1.339 +
   1.340 +     Hours had past, maybe more? Hotaru didn't care. Both her and Chibiusa were lying in her bed, 
   1.341 +Hotaru still in Chibiusa's arms. Her face was tear stained but she wasn't crying anymore. "What 
   1.342 +are you thinking Hotaru?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru's back was toward Chibiusa and she couldn't 
   1.343 +see her face but Chibiusa knew she was not all right. Hotaru sighed and said, "I…I just still can't 
   1.344 +get over it I guess. I prayed so hard that someday someone would treat me like a normal person, 
   1.345 +and then I met you. Then I wished to fall in love with someone who would really love me back, 
   1.346 +not just say it, but mean it in every way it can be meant. Like the person's heart would say I love 
   1.347 +you, not their mouth. Then I began to realize just how important you were to me, and how much 
   1.348 +you truly me to me." Hotaru turned around and faced Chibiusa; the first thing she noticed where 
   1.349 +how Chibiusa's eyes glowed in the light the lamps around them gave out. 'Beautiful.' Hotaru 
   1.350 +thought to herself. "Hotaru, why didn't you tell me this sooner? Why were you afraid to tell me?" 
   1.351 +Chibiusa asked. Hotaru laughed alittle to the question and said, "What would you have thought if 
   1.352 +one day I came up to you and said 'Chibiusa I'm in love with you'? Besides, I was so sure you 
   1.353 +wouldn't feel the same way. I mean, I'm your best friend, at least I think I am still, and plus I'm a 
   1.354 +girl, I was worried what you would think about that, not to mention what everyone else would 
   1.355 +think. I didn't want to but you in that kind of situation. And what could you love in a freak like 
   1.356 +me?" Chibiusa placed her hand on Hotaru's cheek and put her forehead to Hotaru's. "Don't say 
   1.357 +such foolish things Hotaru. Your not a freak, never have been and never will be." Chibiusa said. 
   1.358 +She kissed Hotaru's forehead and continued, "I'll admit I can understand why you didn't tell me. 
   1.359 +But I'm glad I found out. You’re a special person to me Hotaru; you were my first real friend 
   1.360 +when I came to this time. You saved my hat when you didn't even know me, and you knew you 
   1.361 +shouldn't had been running. I can always trust you just like you can always trust me. So trust me 
   1.362 +when I say I do not care what Usagi or anyone else would say about you and me. One of the 
   1.363 +things my mother taught me was that love is love, love is unbiased and there is no wrong way to 
   1.364 +love someone, and I love you Hotaru. You’re the reason why I came back to this time again." 
   1.365 +Hotaru was hiding her face from Chibiusa's and could feel her eyes watering. "But…I'm crazy." 
   1.366 +Hotaru whispered, not wanting Chibiusa to hear. Chibiusa lifted Hotaru's face back up to hers and 
   1.367 +whispered back, "Your not crazy Tara-chan. Actually, from what I see right now, your beautiful." 
   1.368 +Chibiusa smiled a loving smile to Hotaru and gave her a soft and gentle kiss. Hotaru felt her body 
   1.369 +stiffen to the kiss but it didn't stop her from kissing back. Their kissed lasted for what seemed like 
   1.370 +forever to them. Chibiusa broke the kiss from Hotaru's soft lips and started kissing her cheeks and 
   1.371 +her forehead, everywhere on Hotaru's face. Hotaru started kissing Chibiusa neck and made her 
   1.372 +way down. She stopped at Chibiusa's transformation brooch and gave it a soft kiss; to her it felt 
   1.373 +like kissing Chibiusa's heart. Chibiusa put her hands on Hotaru's cheeks and brought her face to 
   1.374 +hers. "I love you Hotaru." she whispered. Hotaru blushed deeply and whispered back, "I love you 
   1.375 +too Chibiusa." Chibiusa smiled slyly and whispered again in Hotaru's ear, "Then, may I show you 
   1.376 +just how much I love you?" Hotaru's face and her body got hot with those words and all she could 
   1.377 +do was nod. 
   1.378 +
   1.379 +     Hotaru laid on her back under the black silk sheets of her queen size bed. She was wearing a 
   1.380 +simple rose red nightgown with a black lace trim on the shoulders and at the skirt. Her cheeks had 
   1.381 +a red glow to them as Chibiusa pulled some of the sheets away and went into the bed. She was 
   1.382 +wearing a soft pink nightgown made out of silk. She pulled the covers back up and embraced the 
   1.383 +other girl. Hotaru's cheeks had brightened as she wrapped her arms around Chibiusa slim waist. 
   1.384 +She was trembling slightly to being so close to the person who she had secretly had been 
   1.385 +fantasizing about for so long. She looked into Chibiusa's ruby eyes and became lost within them. 
   1.386 +"Are you sure you're ok with this Tara-chan? You don't have to force yourself." Chibiusa said in a 
   1.387 +gently whisper. Hotaru pulled herself closer to Chibiusa and said weakly, "No, I've been 
   1.388 +dreaming about this for so long. I never thought it was possible but now that it has truly happened 
   1.389 +I want to be as close to you as possible." Hotaru put her hand on the back of Chibiusa's head and 
   1.390 +gave her a passionate kiss. To her it was like kissing a divine angel. Chibiusa's lips were soft like 
   1.391 +rose petals and just as sweet. To Chibiusa, kissing Hotaru was like kissing a star; it was nothing 
   1.392 +short of amazing. Their tongue's danced in their mouths and their fingers locked together, never 
   1.393 +wanting to part, just like them. Chibiusa turned Hotaru over so she was on top oh her. Their kiss 
   1.394 +deepened not only in length but also in feeling. Hotaru began moaning softly as Chibiusa began 
   1.395 +giving her quick butterfly kisses to Hotaru's sweet neck. Hotaru moaned louder, making Chibiusa 
   1.396 +more excited and said almost in a plea, "Chibiusa, I love you." Chibiusa blushed and responded 
   1.397 +with more kisses to Hotaru's neck and a whisper, "I love you too Hotaru." Chibiusa pulled the 
   1.398 +shoulders of Hotaru's nightgown down and pulled the soft garment off, exposing Hotaru's soft 
   1.399 +pale skin. Hotaru wasn't wearing anything underneath the nightgown and felt her naked body turn 
   1.400 +red with embarrassment. "You really are a goddess aren’t you," Chibiusa said, winking to Hotaru. 
   1.401 +Hotaru blushed more and pulled Chibiusa up to her, kissing her deeply and untying the garment 
   1.402 +in the back that Chibiusa was wearing. When she pulled it off, she found that she wasn't the only 
   1.403 +one that didn't wear anything underneath their nightgown. Hotaru laid underneath Chibiusa and 
   1.404 +smiled to her. Chibiusa smiled back and started to kiss Hotaru's chest. Chibiusa heard Hotaru 
   1.405 +moan softly as she started to kiss Hotaru's breast. She could feel Hotaru's hand moving up and 
   1.406 +down her back. Chibiusa took one of Hotaru's breasts in her mouth and sucked gently on it, 
   1.407 +playing with the other one with her hand. Hotaru arched her back up slightly, putting her leg 
   1.408 +between Chibiusa's as she started running her hands threw Chibiusa soft hair. She undid the 
   1.409 +odango's, letting Chibiusa's hair fall free down the length of her back. Chibiusa could feel 
   1.410 +Hotaru's leg between hers and started to move her hips along the length of Hotaru's soft silky leg. 
   1.411 +She let Hotaru's breast go and started to kiss her tummy. Hotaru giggled slightly to the feeling as 
   1.412 +she started to kiss the top of Chibiusa head, taking in the scent of roses in her hair. Chibiusa 
   1.413 +smiled and brought her face down lower. She spread Hotaru's legs apart and gave Hotaru a sly 
   1.414 +smile. Hotaru didn’t know what Chibiusa was going to do until it was too late. Chibiusa bent her 
   1.415 +head down and gently licked Hotaru's untouched flower. Hotaru let out a yell to the feeling of 
   1.416 +Chibiusa wet tongue giving her pleasure that she never knew of. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru moaned as 
   1.417 +she placed her hands on Chibiusa head, almost pushing her head closer. Chibiusa responded to 
   1.418 +Hotaru's moans by taking all of Hotaru in her mouth, licking and kissing her. Hotaru started to 
   1.419 +move her hips in the rhythm of Chibiusa tongue, keeping her eyes closed and moaning louder and 
   1.420 +louder. Chibiusa was enjoying hearing Hotaru moan and say her name repeatedly. She pulled 
   1.421 +Hotaru's lips apart slightly and pushed a finger inside of her. Hotaru gave a loud yell as she 
   1.422 +started to feel something inside of here building up. "Chibiusa…don't stop." Hotaru panted. "I 
   1.423 +won't, trust me." Chibiusa said as she pushed another finger inside of the lavender haired girl. 
   1.424 +Hotaru arched her back as much as she could and finally it hit her. Her first orgasm left like a 
   1.425 +shock of electricity running threw her body, stealing her strength but giving her unimaginable 
   1.426 +pleasure. "Oh my God, you must be an angel cause I think you just took me to heaven." Hotaru 
   1.427 +said as she took deep breaths. Chibiusa giggled and said, "I guess I was good." Hotaru sat up and 
   1.428 +nodded. "Now I want to return the favor." Hotaru said as she pulled Chibiusa into her arms, 
   1.429 +kissing her passionately. Chibiusa was caught off guard by the kiss but soon came over that. 
   1.430 +Hotaru moved behind Chibiusa and started kissing her shoulder blade and neck while her hands 
   1.431 +wondered all over Chibiusa body. Chibiusa moaned softly in Hotaru's ear and whispered, "Be 
   1.432 +gentle." Hotaru kissed the back of Chibiusa ear and said, "With you, always princess." Hotaru's 
   1.433 +hands grabbed Chibiusa breast and started to play with them, gently as Chibiusa had requested. 
   1.434 +Chibiusa gave a small moan and took Hotaru's cheek in her hand and turned her head to kiss her. 
   1.435 +As they kissed Hotaru's hands started to work magic into Chibiusa as they started to glow in a 
   1.436 +soft purple light. She took Chibiusa nipples between her fingers and gave a slight twist. Chibiusa 
   1.437 +started to moan louder, saying Hotaru's name with each breath as Hotaru continued to pleasure 
   1.438 +her. Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa and said, "Now like I said before, I'll return the favor you 
   1.439 +gave me." She spread Chibiusa's legs apart, exposing the girl's wet and untouched flower. Hotaru 
   1.440 +lifted Chibiusa's pussy to her mouth and took her all in. Chibiusa let a short scream out when she 
   1.441 +left Hotaru's tongue washing over her sensitive area and then let another one out when she felt it 
   1.442 +go in her. "Oh Hotaru, oh my God don't stop, please don't stop." Chibi begged as she pushed 
   1.443 +Hotaru's head closer to her. Hotaru pushed her tongue in as deep as she could, enjoying the little 
   1.444 +Chibiusa pie she was having. Finally, Chibiusa couldn't take anymore of the pleasure Hotaru was 
   1.445 +giving her and gave one last finally yell before her body stiffened and her heart forgot to beat. 
   1.446 +Chibiusa collapsed on the bed panting for air. Hotaru put her fingers inside of Chibiusa and took a 
   1.447 +taste of the pink haired girl. She didn't know just how to describe it other then sweet and kinda of 
   1.448 +bitter. All and all, her Chibiusa pie was good. 
   1.449 +
   1.450 +      Chibiusa finally started to breathe normally again and noticed Hotaru was gone. She looked 
   1.451 +around the room but there was no sight of her. Suddenly the lights in the room went off and a 
   1.452 +cold chill entered the room. Chibiusa was still naked and started shivering. "Hotaru? Where are 
   1.453 +you?" Suddenly out of no where Hotaru appeared, but as Sailor Saturn. "Hotaru?" Chibiusa 
   1.454 +asked. "I am Sailor Saturn, the soldier born to darkness and death. I was born alone, and meant to 
   1.455 +die alone for I am the forbidden soldier who should never have been. But now I live for a new 
   1.456 +reason now. Not to snuff out a worlds dying light, nor to walk the path of ruin and silence, but to 
   1.457 +serve and protect the princess of the future Crystal Tokyo, Small Lady Chibiusa. And I promise to 
   1.458 +serve, honor, protect, and love her for all the days of my life, and the rest of all eternity." Sailor 
   1.459 +Saturn said bowing on one knee to Chibiusa. Chibiusa could feel tears in her eyes and jumped off 
   1.460 +the bed and took Saturn in her arms. "Oh Hotaru I love you so much!" Saturn put her arms around 
   1.461 +Chibiusa and said, "And I love you my princess, more then the word love cane even describe." 
   1.462 +With that the two girls shared a deep a loving kiss that they would always remember for the rest 
   1.463 +of their lives and even after that. Saturn quickly took Chibiusa in her arms and lifted her up, 
   1.464 +carrying her back into the bed. She laid her down and got on top of her.  She kissed her gently on 
   1.465 +the lips and put her arms around Chibiusa. Chibiusa did the same and Saturn's fuku began to 
   1.466 +disappear, leaving behind only purple ribbons around Hotaru's naked figure. The ribbons seemed 
   1.467 +to go around Chibiusa as well, binding the two together. Hotaru pushed herself on Chibiusa and 
   1.468 +moaned when her sex was rubbed up against Chibiusa. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru into a deeper kiss 
   1.469 +as the two started to rub up against each other. They turned around and switched places with each 
   1.470 +other, but always would the ribbons keep them together, just like their newfound love would keep 
   1.471 +their hearts and their souls together forever. Hotaru began to move her hips faster and harder, 
   1.472 +making both her and Chibiusa pant harder and harder, each one saying the others name over and 
   1.473 +over again until they both stopped when an explosion hit both of them at the same time. The two 
   1.474 +lovers came together, each one screaming "I love you," each one holding on to the other tightly 
   1.475 +hoping nothing would pull them apart. Hotaru fell on top of Chibiusa exhausted and tired. 
   1.476 +Chibiusa panted hard and was very tired herself. Without saying a word, the couple fell asleep in 
   1.477 +each other's arms, the ribbons around them still holding them together. But when they would 
   1.478 +wake, it would be their hearts that would hold the two together for the rest of their lives.
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   1.481 +
   1.482 +The end.              
   1.483 +
   1.484 +Well that’s all! I hope you enjoyed my story. Again this is my first attempt to writing a 
   1.485 +Sekkushiaru Roman. I welcome any comments or feedback and you can e-mail me at 
   1.486 +saturn_archangel@hotbot.com. I hope you enjoyed my story. ^_^