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1 Salutations. Sorry for the length of time it was between stories . . | |
2 . actually, no, I'm not too sure if I am. I got three E-mails | |
3 regarding Toujours. One asked me when the next chapter was coming | |
4 out, another condemned my actions, and a third was a fiction idea. A | |
5 few E-mails here and there that tell me you enjoy my reading, or hate | |
6 it, and the reasons why would be very helpful for not only better | |
7 stories but my actual will to write them. Address is the same if you | |
8 want to E-Mail me: Saturn_Knight@hotmail.com . Anyhow, this is the | |
9 idea of the person who E-mailed me, and thus dedicated to her. Enjoy, | |
10 Maggie. | |
11 | |
12 Yet another overcast, cloudy day in Japan. The wind ripped through | |
13 the trees, scattering leaves across the lush green grass of the park | |
14 where both Hotaru and Chibi-Usa were sitting. It was on the cooler | |
15 side, and neither girl had anything warmer than a heavy sweater, | |
16 though neither wanted to move from their location. However, a stray | |
17 gust of wind caught Hotaru off guard, causing her to shiver and pull | |
18 her arms tighter around herself. | |
19 "Are you cold?" Chibi-Usa asked, worried that her friend might | |
20 catch a chill and become sick. Hotaru only had time to nod once | |
21 before she was moved, being rearranged by Chibi-Usa . "Here, what if | |
22 I sit like..." Hotaru's back was moved against the other girl's chest | |
23 and a set of arms found their way around her body, clasping around | |
24 her stomach. Chibi felt a little odd with the position, thinking she | |
25 was behaving too much like her mother and Mamoru, but she wanted to | |
26 keep her friend warm. Hotaru smiled over her shoulder, her eyes have | |
27 closed with sleep, before she settled into her friend's body, | |
28 thinking the position was all too right. | |
29 "Tired too huh?" The pink haired girl asked, adjusting her body so | |
30 that Hotaru's shoulder didn't hit her directly in the rib. Once more, | |
31 the quiet girl nodded, yawning as if to accentuate Chibi's point | |
32 before growing still. "Yeah, sleep on me." Chibi mumbled with a smile | |
33 on her face, "You're like just like Artemis." Hotaru didn't rise a | |
34 reply, only the quiet, steady sound of her breathing was heard in the | |
35 still of the park evening. The smaller girl's mind began to wander, | |
36 looking her friend over thoughtfully before coming to an unusual | |
37 conclusion, 全he trusts me enough to sleep...and with her that's a | |
38 pretty big thing.' Chibi thought, trying to hold as still as possible | |
39 though her body tried to make her fidget. 選've only seen her sleep | |
40 in bed at home, in my room on the floor, or with Puu, but...' Her | |
41 tiny, soft hand brushed some of Hotaru's hair from in front of her | |
42 eyes, 鮮ot me...not like this.' | |
43 A mix of emotions began to work their way through Chibi's system: | |
44 happiness, flattery, excitement, but also uncertainty and doubt. | |
45 閃aybe she's just to exhausted...I made her run around a lot today.' | |
46 She thought to herself, pursing her lips as she again commanded her | |
47 body to remain still. 全he's probably just too tired to stay | |
48 awake...but....maybe she trusts me? Of course she trusts me, she's my | |
49 best friend! She tells me things she'd never tell anyone | |
50 else...but...' Chibi shook her head quickly to clear her thoughts, | |
51 the ends of her hair slapping her in the face. The movement roused | |
52 Hotaru, who took a deep breath and opened her eyes. | |
53 "I fell asleep..." she thought verbally, sitting up, putting a hand | |
54 to her face and rubbing the open palm down her cheek. "I'm sorry." | |
55 Hotaru spoke aloud and turned to face Chibi, her voice sounding | |
56 groggy and disconnected. The pink haired girl glanced away, looking | |
57 hurt. 選t was an accident...' She stood up, brushing her jeans off, | |
58 全he didn't do it because she trusted me.' This quick movement | |
59 startled Hotaru, who fell back onto her ankles and looked up at Chibi | |
60 questioningly. | |
61 "Let's go home." The smaller girl said with a slight snip in her | |
62 voice that made Hotaru wonder what she did wrong. 全he's.....not mad | |
63 that I fell asleep on her, is she?' Hotaru thought as she got to her | |
64 feet and balanced herself from the uneasy equilibrium of someone who | |
65 just woke. Putting a hand on Chibi's shoulder to keep herself | |
66 upright, Hotaru got a sharp look and quickly withdrew it. 全he's mad | |
67 at me,' the black haired girl thought, looking to her feet and | |
68 wrapping her arms around herself. 全he's upset that I fell asleep on | |
69 her...maybe I should just go home for the night...' "I'm really | |
70 sorry, Chibi-Usa....I swear." | |
71 "I know you are." Chibi answered, thinking 禅hat's why it hurts...' | |
72 "Come on," and she started in the direction back to Usagi's house not | |
73 waiting to see if Hotaru followed. | |
74 選'm sorry.....' Hotaru thought, hanging her head and beginning to | |
75 follow after her friend who had a considerable lead on her, 選 didn't | |
76 mean to assume too much trust...' | |
77 | |
78 Back at the Tsukino residence, both girls sat on the floor in | |
79 Chibi's room in complete silence. The blatherings of Usagi were heard | |
80 through the walls as she yakked away on the phone to one of her | |
81 friends. "When she's done, I'll call Michi-Mama and go home." Hotaru | |
82 said, not looking at Chibi, in a timid, almost frightened voice. | |
83 塑ou're mad at me and I'm afraid I'm going to ruin things if I | |
84 stay...' | |
85 "If you want to," Chibi replied, picking up a manga that was on the | |
86 table next to her and started flipping through the pages. 全he's that | |
87 upset with herself....she can't trust me anymore? We used to sleep | |
88 over all the time, why is it different now?' Drawings of various | |
89 characters flew by her as she furiously turned the pages, 糎as it | |
90 because I was holding onto her?' Hotaru noticed Chibi's obviously | |
91 riled demeanor and heaved a sigh, thinking 全he can't wait for me to | |
92 leave...I'm sorry! I didn't mean to assume!' | |
93 Neither said a word after that, and Usagi hadn't closed her mouth | |
94 for a full 10 minutes. Hotaru hugged her legs to her chest, her chin | |
95 resting on her tight-covered knees with her eyes cast down onto the | |
96 floor. She was thinking, which was always a dangerous thing, | |
97 especially in the emotional state she was in now. Hotaru remembered | |
98 all the fun times she and Chibi-Usa had in the past: parties, sleep | |
99 overs, playing at the park, or even just sitting and spilling their | |
100 hearts out to each other. 羨ll of that's over now...' The silence | |
101 senshi told herself, 腺ecause you let yourself fall asleep when she | |
102 was holding you....now she's going to know how you feel, and she's | |
103 going to tell you to go away because she's in love with HIM.' | |
104 Chibi glanced at her friend, a little concerned. Even if Hotaru | |
105 wasn't speaking aloud, she couldn't hide her ragged breathing and how | |
106 her arms clutched her legs tighter with every passing second. 全he's | |
107 that mad at me? Oh Hotaru, don't hate me... I just wanted to make you | |
108 comfortable...' Hotaru let out a swift, uneven breath as she clutched | |
109 her legs tight enough to make her knees crack. 前h gods, no... don't | |
110 take it out on yourself... I better say something...' "Puu said that | |
111 Helios was asking about me again." Chibi remarked, saying the first | |
112 thing that came to her head, but instantly wondered if it was the | |
113 right thing to do. | |
114 Hotaru gave Chibi a look as if she'd just struck her, her mouth | |
115 hanging open for a fraction of a second before she caught herself, | |
116 only nodding in response. 全he's telling me about HIM...' Hotaru | |
117 thought, mentally hissing the last word, not even wanting to think | |
118 his name. 全he's doing it because she wants me to know she's still in | |
119 love with him, and that thing at the park was just a friendly | |
120 thing...' She swallowed hard and rested her forehead on her knees | |
121 now, looking down at the floor, her face hidden. | |
122 選'll never be able to be anything more than a friend to her. She's | |
123 always going to see me as just a friend. No matter what I do...god, | |
124 don't start here, you're only going to embarrass yourself.' But she | |
125 couldn't hold it in anymore, and the tears started to drip from her | |
126 eyes, quickly being absorbed into her tights. Hotaru daren't make a | |
127 sound. | |
128 "I want to go back and see him soon," Chibi said, looking out the | |
129 window, only trying to make Hotaru happy. She figured that the reason | |
130 Hotaru was so upset was that they were so physically close to each | |
131 other and she'd gotten uncomfortable. "I wonder what our wedding is | |
132 going to be like?" The pink haired girl mused aloud, closing her eyes | |
133 to picture the event. "I want lots of flowers, and music, and | |
134 everyone's going to be invited." She paused to consider something, | |
135 tilting her head, "And I can have a really big cake, cus I know | |
136 Usagi's going to be a pig and eat it all." | |
137 Hotaru started to shake, 糎hy is she doing this to me?' the tears | |
138 were flowing harder now and she had to give everything she had to | |
139 avoid sobbing loudly and running out of the room. 選s she trying to | |
140 hurt me? I didn't think she'd do that...did I make her that mad? Oh, | |
141 Chibi don't do this to me...please!' But, she only nodded, fighting | |
142 to keep her sniffles silent as she listened to her friend continue. | |
143 "Oh, and a really big dress. I want one that's pink and white with | |
144 little yellow bunnies on the veil, so he has to laugh when he kisses | |
145 me." Chibi smiled faintly at the thought, but only for effect. Her | |
146 heart wasn't in it. She was only saying what she thought Hotaru | |
147 wanted to hear, and looking out the window, she didn't notice that | |
148 the black haired girl cringed and tightened her hands into fists at | |
149 the mention of a kiss. Chibi-Usa continued, "Then comes the | |
150 honeymoon...where do you think he and I should go?" | |
151 Hotaru thought for a moment, knowing full well where she wanted to | |
152 send Helios, but only shrugged her shoulders. She would be | |
153 nice....she had to be, Chibi loved him, and she had no choice but to | |
154 accept that. Her friend was happy with this guy, and she would be | |
155 happy for her. Even if it killed her. | |
156 "I want somewhere romantic..." Chibi-Usa said, making her best | |
157 effort to sound wistful, and dreamy, "Because...you know, honey moon | |
158 stuff." That was the straw that broke the camel's back. Hotaru simply | |
159 couldn't take it any more. Giving in to her body's desires, she | |
160 simply let go and allowed herself to sob. It terrified Chjbi; it | |
161 didn't seem human, so much agony was reserved for the damned. It was | |
162 followed by a short, but loud scream as Hotaru slammed her fist into | |
163 the floor in frustration with herself and the situation. A soft, | |
164 sickening cracking sound issued from the blow, but it was completely | |
165 disregarded. "Hotaru....?" Chibi asked carefully, as a tear soaked | |
166 face raised from to look upon her. Hotaru's eyes were bloodshot, and | |
167 her skin was discolored from the tears and the dirt that was on the | |
168 knees of her tights from falling earlier. | |
169 "What, Chibi-Usa? What?" Hotaru managed between sobs, angry, but | |
170 not at her friend. "Want advice on what you should do with HIM!?" | |
171 That scared Chibi-Usa, who had frightening flash backs of Mistress 9, | |
172 and the sheer destructive nature that Hotaru possessed. Unable to | |
173 control herself, Hotaru bawled loudly, though Usagi's faint | |
174 conversation continued in the background. "I can't take it | |
175 anymore....I can't....I just can't!" | |
176 "Take what Hotaru!? You've been mean to me ever since the park! You | |
177 get mad at me cus you fall asleep, and then tell me that you didn't | |
178 mean to! You didn't know how happy it made me for you to show how | |
179 much you trusted me!" Chibi was just as agitated as Hotaru now, and | |
180 was speaking before she thought. 前h god, that's only going to make | |
181 her mad...please don't hurt yourself anymore... Please....' | |
182 "What?! You got mad and ran away when I told you I was sorry! I | |
183 just was so comfortable with you, and so happy to be around you that | |
184 I fell asleep! I said I was sorry!" Hotaru was too worked up to grasp | |
185 the situation, normally very keen on things, she simply couldn't see | |
186 where their messages got mixed up. "I didn't mean to!" | |
187 "You....trusted me?" Chibi's voice dropped from a yell to a | |
188 whisper. 選t wasn't a mistake...oh gods what have I done?!' | |
189 "Hotaru...oh no, no, no...gods no..." she approached the black haired | |
190 girl who took a step back and stood defensively to the advancement. | |
191 Her hand was already bruised a hideous, deep purple that marred her | |
192 alabaster perfection. 前h Hotaru what have I done to you?! But....why | |
193 did you get so mad? I have to know....' Swallowing hard, Chibi asked | |
194 the question that could make, or break their friendship, "Why did you | |
195 get so mad when I mention Helios?" | |
196 "Why...?" Hotaru asked, shaking her head, "Why...? Because you talk | |
197 about him like he's some kind of god! You tell me all the time about | |
198 how much you miss him, or how much you want to go back to see him." | |
199 Ignoring the pain that started to throb in her fingers, Hotaru | |
200 continued. "I'm jealous, Chibi-Usa. JEALOUS! I'm not perfect!" | |
201 "Jealous of what?! You're my best friend, I tell you EVERYTHING! I | |
202 tell you things I could never tell him!" Chibi shouted back, now | |
203 aggravated by Hotaru's unneeded jealousy. "Why are you so upset?!" | |
204 "Because I'm in love with you, that's why!" Hotaru yelled at Chibi | |
205 before she could even realize what she'd said. Both of them stood in | |
206 shock, Chibi-Usa's mouth dropping open as she stared at her friend | |
207 who suddenly grew sheepish, turning away as she mumbled "Because I'm | |
208 in love with you...I'm sorry, I'll go." Hotaru made a quick move for | |
209 the exit, but Chibi was much faster than she and grabbed onto her | |
210 injured arm, getting a short yelp of pain from Hotaru. | |
211 "I'm sorry....I didn't mean to....just don't go, please? | |
212 Stay....let me get you some ice for that hand...stay here, ok? | |
213 Promise me you'll stay here at least until I get back from the | |
214 kitchen." Chibi looked at the now quiet Hotaru who only nodded and | |
215 sat down on the bed, holding her bruised hand gingerly. Chibi-Usa ran | |
216 from her room, nearly colliding with Usagi who was in the kitchen, | |
217 still talking, and fixing herself a snack. | |
218 "What's all the yellin' about?" Usagi asked her daughter, who was | |
219 already filling a bag full of ice. Her mouth was packed with | |
220 chocolate donut, a glass of milk in her hand, and the phone cradled | |
221 against her shoulder. "And what's with the ice?" | |
222 "God you're nosy," Chibi said, closing the freezer and putting the | |
223 ice bag into a clean dish towel so it wouldn't freeze Hotaru's hand, | |
224 "Hotaru hurt herself and I'm getting her ice. Why are you stuffing | |
225 your face again?" | |
226 "Cus I'm hungry, duh." Usagi said over another bite of donut, | |
227 mumbling something incoherent to the person on the other end of the | |
228 phone before walking out of the kitchen and back to her room. | |
229 "You're always hungry..." The pink haired girl grumbled while she | |
230 hurried back to her room to find Hotaru still seated on the bed, her | |
231 tear stained face looking towards the floor. "Here you go.." Chibi | |
232 offered the ice carefully to Hotaru who took it and applied it to her | |
233 injury with a soft whine. "I'm sorry....Hotaru, really. I was only | |
234 mad cus I thought you were upset that you fell asleep on me...that | |
235 you were mad at yourself for accidently doing that...that you didn't | |
236 trust me." | |
237 "I trust you..." Hotaru whispered quietly with a shake of her head, | |
238 "Otherwise I wouldn't have done that...I thought you were mad at me | |
239 for thinking I could be that way with you..." She sighed, adjusting | |
240 the ice to not put pressure on the injury, "And...I guess after I | |
241 told you what I did, you don't want to see me anymore. You're | |
242 supposed to be with hi-" she caught herself, and released a | |
243 controlled breath, "With Helios... I won't get in the way..." | |
244 "I...don't know if I want to be with him anymore." Chibi confessed, | |
245 looking desperately at her friend, "It just feels so fake when I'm | |
246 with him, like I have to be someone I'm not. It didn't used to be | |
247 like that, I used to be able to talk with him for hours, and just | |
248 enjoy being next to him...." Her red irises grew larger as she came | |
249 to a realization, "Just....like I am with you." | |
250 "You....you mean that?" Hotaru asked carefully, being certain not | |
251 to get her hopes up for nothing, demanding that she stay in control | |
252 of her body. Chibi only nodded and placed a hand on Hotaru's cheek. | |
253 The two looked into each other's eyes, Chibi-Usa's hand cupping her | |
254 friend's face comfortingly. | |
255 "You really scared me, Hotaru...I've never seen you like that." Usa | |
256 began, gently touching the shoulder of Hotaru's injured arm, "I don't | |
257 want you to hurt...You should have hit me, I was the one being the | |
258 jerk..." | |
259 "No..." The black haired girl shook her head, "I could never | |
260 purposely hurt you like that. You know I care about you too much...I | |
261 love you, Chibi..." She didn't expect an answer back, and was content | |
262 with just saying it to let her friend know how she truly and honestly | |
263 felt. "I'm going to have trouble explaining my hand to my parents," | |
264 Hotaru quickly changed the subject, "They're going to worry abo-" She | |
265 was quickly silenced by Chibi-Usa who placed a single, slender digit | |
266 over her lips. | |
267 "I love you too Hotaru..." | |
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