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+Hello everyone! I'm lanis01 and this is my first attempt to writing a Sekkushiaru Roman. For those of you
+who don’t know what this is it’s a romance story that contains a lot of adult themes. This is for mature
+readers only. If you caught with this and you are underage I hope your parents teach you a lesson! I am not
+responsible for minors that happen to read this story because they are not my responsibility they are the
+parents and this story is on a site that says who can read this and who can't. I don't own any of the
+characters in this, Toei, Naoko Takeuchi and other people who I don't know of yet do. This story line
+however is my idea and I hope you readers enjoy my story!
+Hotaru's secret
+By: Lanis01
+"Ten to three, ten more minutes closer to freedom." Hotaru sighed happily. It was the last day
+of school and Hotaru couldn't wait to get home. School was never her favorite thing. Even though
+she had a normal life like the rest of the sailor soldiers, her life could never be anything like
+normal. The attacks she used to have when she had first met the other soldiers had come back.
+She thought it was always because she was torn between the two forces trapped inside her body,
+but now there was no reason for her attacks. 'I'm just a freak like always' she thought to herself.
+At least that’s what the kids at school told her. She had no friends at her school; she really didn't
+want to be friends with people like them. She thought things would be different after she had
+become sailor saturn but nothing had changed. 'No, that’s not all true, one this has changed' she
+thought again. She opened her wallet and saw the picture she had inside it. It made her smile,
+which was something most people never saw. It wasn't an old picture, but the date the picture was
+taken seemed like it had been years ago. But no matter how old it was, its value to her heart
+would never change. She stared at the picture and thought back to when it was taken. It had been
+the happiest day of her life, one she would never forget. Suddenly her mind shot back to reality as
+the last bell rang and the students around her got up to leave. Hotaru put the picture away and
+stood up. No sooner has she stood up when a hand grabbed her shoulder and forced her back in
+her seat. Hotaru looked up scared to a girl who was known for causing a lot of fights in her
+school. She was a head taller then Hotaru but was very beautiful, at least that’s what most guys
+thought. She had blond curly hair that ended to her shoulders and dark green eyes. "Where do you
+think your going freak?" the girl asked tightening her hold on Hotaru's shoulder. "Wh…What do
+you want Kerri?" Hotaru whispered. "Shut up! I saw you looking at my boyfriend slut. Stay away
+from him or I'll cripple your worthless ass!" Kerri yelled. She turned her head to see if the two of
+them were alone and when she saw that they were she backhanded Hotaru across the face. Hotaru
+fell out of her chair and took her school bag with her, knocking out the things she had in it.
+"Understand?" Kerri said in a low voice. Hotaru was on her hands and knees and only nodded to
+the question. "Good. See you next year freak." Kerri said as she walked out of the empty
+classroom. Hotaru was starting to cry softly to herself as she picked up the things that had fallen
+out of her bag. 'The more things change, the more the remain the same…'
+'At least its over know, I don't have to go back for a long time.' Hotaru though to herself on
+her way home. Her cheek was red and so were her eyes. 'I just hope I get home in one piece, and
+once I do I'm running upstairs to my room and locking the door!' Hotaru thought again kicking a
+rock in front of her. 'But I know that won't change anything, I just hope my days get better.' As
+Hotaru was walking she heard a stick break behind her but before she could turn around someone
+covered her eyes with their hands from behind her. Hotaru gasped, scared that it might have been
+Kerri again. "Guess who!" a small voice said behind her. Hotaru sighed, as she knew who it was
+and smiled. "Is it a cute girl with short pink hair done up in a odd style?" Hotaru asked, blushing
+when she heard herself talk. "No, just little old me." Chibiusa said uncovering her eyes and
+stepping in front of Hotaru. "Hotaru are you ok? Your face is red and so are your eyes? Is
+everything alright?" Chibiusa asked with concern in her voice for her dear friend. Hotaru covered
+her cheek and said, "I'm fine, I always am aren't I?" That was all Chibiusa need to hear. "You
+can't lie to me Miss Hotaru Tomoe, I'm your best friend and I know when you're hiding
+something." Chibiusa said acting as if she knew Hotaru like a book, which she almost did. And
+almost was just how Hotaru wanted it. Hotaru only smiled, "I'm fine really Chibiusa, you don't
+need to worry about me." Chibiusa gave Hotaru a serious look and said back, "What kind of a
+friend would I be if I didn't worry?" Hotaru sighed and asked, "Would you walk me home please
+Chibiusa? I mean if you're not busy." Chibiusa smiled and took Hotaru's hand. "Of course I will.
+Is it ok with you if I stay alittle while? Usagi is cooking again today and I'm scared to go home."
+Hotaru giggled and nodded. "I would love to have you over." The two girls smiled to one another
+and made there way to Hotaru's house.
+"Please, make yourself at home. Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama won't be home till late
+because I think they were going to try and go out on a date. And Setsuna-mama has been really
+busy lately so I don’t even think she'll come home." Hotaru said taking her shoes off. "You sure
+they won't mind?" Chibiusa asked setting her bags down. "I'm sure, why would they mind?"
+Hotaru asked walking into the kitchen. "Would you like something to drink?" Hotaru asked. "No
+that’s ok, do you mind if I put my bags in your room?" Chibiusa asked back. "No go ahead, I
+have to check on dinner so I'll be up in a minute." Hotaru said. Chibiusa took her bags and ran
+upstairs. She went to the end of the hallway and opened the door to Hotaru's room. As soon as the
+door opened up she caught the scent of Jasmine in the room. Hotaru had two dark emerald green
+candles lit. Hotaru's room was always dark if not for the lamps and few scented candles she had.
+Chibiusa always loved being in Hotaru's room, it was so, romantic. But it was also dark, like
+Hotaru was sometimes. That thought made Chibiusa frown, she knew that recently Hotaru had
+been acting sadder and sadder but would always try and hide it when she was around. Chibiusa
+sat down on Hotaru's bed and let she let herself fall back. Hotaru had a feather bed and it was
+always very comfortable, like a cloud. She turned and noticed something, a large black leather
+book on Hotaru's desk. It had a purple ribbon in the middle. Chibiusa knew she shouldn't have
+looked in it but she couldn’t stop her curiosity. She opened the book and read what was inside.
+'Oh my god this is Hotaru's diary! Oh my…no wonder she's been so sad!' Chibiusa thought to
+herself. Hotaru had never told her about her attacks coming back or that nothing in her social life
+had changed. What made Chibiusa really upset was the line she read at the end; 'I was born a
+freak, and I'll die a freak.' Chibiusa heard footsteps coming up to the room and quickly put the
+book back. Hotaru walked in her room and noticed the look on Chibiusa's face. "What's wrong?"
+she asked seeing that Chibiusa was upset. "Why didn't you tell me?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru
+looked at Chibiusa for a moment then noticed her dairy was behind her. "What are you talking
+about?" Hotaru asked, although she had a good idea what Chibiusa was talking about. "I'm
+talking about your attacks coming back! And that you've been getting beat up at school! I take it
+that it happened again." Chibiusa said in an angry tone, pointing to Hotaru's still sore cheek.
+Hotaru was shocked that she knew all that and felt tears building up in her eyes. 'Oh my god, she
+read it! She must know what I wrote about her then!' "Chibiusa…I'm sorry I…" Hotaru couldn't
+think of words to say, she thought Chibiusa would hate her forever now that she knew Hotaru's
+secret. "And I wish you wouldn't think like that, it's wrong Hotaru! You know it is." Rini said,
+talking about how Hotaru thought she was a freak. Hotaru couldn't believe what Chibiusa had
+said and started to breakdown. "I know its wrong, I'm so sorry!" Hotaru cried thinking she was
+talking about her secret. Tears were sliding down her face and finally Hotaru ran out of her room.
+Chibiusa didn't know why Hotaru had acted so serious over what she said. But she didn't read all
+of Hotaru's diary, at least not the part about her. Chibiusa ran after Hotaru and found her crying in
+her parent's bedroom. "Hotaru? I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry. I had no idea you take it
+that seriously." Chibiusa said behind Hotaru. "I knew you would be angry with me, I know
+thinking such things are wrong and I know you must hate me for what I wrote about you. Its just
+that you…" Hotaru couldn't finish her sentence. Chibiusa moved in front of her and knelled down
+next to her. "What did you write about me?" she asked. Hotaru looked up to her in shock 'Oh my
+god she doesn't know?!' Hotaru though. Hotaru was even more scared now. Her secret had not
+been found out by the one person that it had to do with, but now her mistake would force that
+secret out. "Hotaru? What did you write about me?" Rini asked again. Hotaru couldn't bring
+herself to say it. "Please Chibiusa, I don't want to talk about it. It was nothing. I just need to get
+some rest." Hotaru said as she tried to leave. Chibiusa grabbed her arm and stopped her. "Please
+Hotaru, if something is bothering you I want to know what it is. I'm your best friend aren't I?
+Please let me help you!" Chibiusa said now getting frustrated with her. "Chibiusa please!" Hotaru
+yelled. Chibiusa let her arm go and backed off in shock. She had not expected to hear Hotaru yell
+at her. Hotaru began to cry again when she realized she had yell at her best friend for only trying
+to help her. "Please, I just want to get some rest now. I don't want to talk about it anymore."
+Hotaru said softly, trying to act calmer. Chibiusa just nodded, afraid to say anymore. "I'm sorry,
+I'll get my bag and go back home, I didn't mean to upset you." Chibiusa said, leaving before
+Hotaru could say anything else. She ran back to Hotaru's room and grabbed her bag, unknowingly
+knocking Hotaru's dairy in an open pocket in her bag. She took the bag in her arm and left. She
+was about to leave when Hotaru stopped her. "Chibiusa, I'm sorry for raising my voice. You were
+right; I did get into another fight in school today. My days only seem to get harder as they go by.
+Now I just want to rest for awhile. I appreciate that you want to help me, but there are
+something's that a friend just can't help someone with. I'm really sorry I yelled at you." Hotaru
+said bowing her head. Chibiusa only nodded and put on a fake smile. "It's ok, I know you had a
+hard day. I'll leave you alone now." Chibiusa said quickly. She left just as fast, not waiting to say
+goodbye to Hotaru. Hotaru wanted to stop her before a sharp pain hit her chest and made her
+collapse. She was having another one of her attacks. She grabbed her chest, struggling to breathe.
+This attack was the worst one she had ever had. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru tried to yell out, but it came
+only in a whisper. Hotaru was scared now and thought for sure that she was going to die, the pain
+she was in was so great that for a moment she wanted to die if it meant ending this pain. Tears
+were building up in Hotaru's eyes and suddenly everything went black. 'I'm dead' was Hotaru's
+last thought; not something you want to take with you into the darkness.
+Colors. Dark and cold colors. It felt like being in a tomb almost. But there was a breeze?
+Tombs don't have a breeze, do they? That’s what Hotaru asked herself when she opened her eyes.
+Her vision was blurred and she couldn't tell where she was or if she was alone. She tried to talk
+but couldn't. 'I'm dead…' Hotaru though to herself again. Suddenly she felt something warm take
+her hand. She closed her eyes and opened them again to clear her vision. What she saw would
+have made her cry. She wasn't dead at all, she was in her room laying on top of her bed with what
+Hotaru thought for sure could only have been an angel. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru whispered after she
+licked her dry and cracked lips. How long had she been out? When she spoke the name of the
+person sitting next to her bed the grip on her hand tighten. "Shh Hotaru, don't try and talk. You've
+been unconsciousness for three days now. The doctors thought you were in a coma and you
+would never wake up. But I told them they were wrong, I made them go away and told the others
+I would stay with you until you woke up." Chibiusa had tears in her red eyes and after Hotaru's
+vision cleared more she could see Chibiusa's cheeks were tear stained. 'She stayed her with me?
+All that time, for me?' Hotaru though that maybe she really did die, why would anyone want to
+stay with her when everyone else thought she was with death. Chibiusa brushed some hair off
+Hotaru's face and said, "Are you hungry Hotaru? Can I get you anything?" Hotaru only shook her
+head. She was tired but she didn't have the strength to eat or to even sleep. Plus if what Chibiusa
+said was true, which she knew it was when she saw a plate with food half eaten on her desk and a
+blanket on Chibiusa's lap, then Hotaru wouldn't burden her any further. Chibiusa smiled at Hotaru
+and said, "Don't worry about it, I'll get something right now." Chibiusa got up and pulled the
+blanket that was covering Hotaru up more and she tucked some of the blanket under Hotaru's feet.
+"Promise me you'll be awake when I come back ok?" Hotaru would have cried right there if she
+hadn't been struggling to hold back her tears. Hotaru nodded. "Thank you Tara-chan, I'll be back
+really soon." Chibiusa said. She walked out of Hotaru's room and closed the door behind her,
+forgetting what she had just called Hotaru. Hotaru stared at the door in shock, she wondered if
+that had been all a dream. 'If that was just another of my dying dreams, I pray I die with this
+dream so I may never leave it.'
+Night had come; Hotaru had just fallen asleep. Chibiusa had made sure that Hotaru didn't get
+out of bed with out her knowing. She wouldn't let anyone else in the room beside her and told the
+others, "I just need to be alone with her." Chibiusa sat back in an old rocking chair that Hotaru
+had. She remembered her telling Chibiusa that it was her mother's. She closed her eyes and
+smiled. 'Thank God you woke up Tara-chan. Thank you God so much.' Chibiusa took a book
+from her backpack and opened it to a bookmarked page. She smiled joyfully and read the same
+pages she had been reading for those three days she stayed with Hotaru:
+June 25, 1999
+The day I opened my eyes
+Dear diary,
+God knows how many lives I've ruined, God knows how many lives I'll lived, but for the first
+time in all those lives, my eyes have opened. All this time I kept fooling myself thinking this was
+wrong or that I was wrong myself. I have given this a lot of thought and I'm sure with all my
+heart that this is anything but wrong. I kissed someone for the first time in my life. Not a kiss on
+the cheek but a real kiss on the lips. Oh it was the sweetest feeling I could ever feel. I can't think
+of words to describe it but pure serenity would be the only thing that comes close to it. I know
+that I love this person, I have loved this person for a long time. No, I take that back, love is to
+small a word to describe how I feel about this person. To think I never saw it makes wonder how
+I can see anything. But now I worry about what this person will think. Will they feel the same? I
+think they won't. No, not for me. I am the last person to be blessed by something wonderful as
+true love. They could not love me because I am different. Even more now then before. I fear if I
+ever tell them about my true feelings that they will laugh or even worse, abandon me and think
+me a freak when they are the only soul on this planet that might just think I am normal. Its funny,
+writing that right now, I don't believe I am or ever well be normal. I was born with this curse and
+I'll die with it, then take it with me to my next life. So I decided not to tell this person I love them,
+nor that I stole a kiss from them in their sleep. I suppose they may never know how I feel, even
+though I scream the words "I love you" from my heart; they will never hear them. Just like I will
+never hear those words back from their lips. Their sweet lips.  I would give anything to kiss their
+lips again, to have them hold me in their arms at night and in day. To look into their eyes and
+know that they really love me in all the ways a human can be loved. If it were possible for me
+then I would sell my soul to have them forever. But just like I said before, this person, this sweet
+and special person would never love a mistake like me. They are far too good for me to have. For
+me to call my own. But I hope and pray, beyond hope and prayers can go, that this person might
+someday say the words I may never live to hear, "I love you Hotaru." It has grown late now, I
+should go and sleep but that would only bring my days closer to me, and so far for the last four
+weeks my days have given me only sadness and more reasons to hold that knife to my wrist. If
+not for this person, I would have died along ago. And this person, this person who God himself
+must have sent to be with me is someone who I hope I never lose, someone how has become the
+only ray of light in my dark world. And that someone is Chibiusa…
+Chibiusa blushed the whole time she read that special part in Hotaru's dairy. She never had a
+clue that Hotaru felt like this about her. When she thought about it, they had been spending more
+time with each other recently, and it was normally just the two of them. Hotaru was very dear to
+Chibiusa; she was her first real friend sense she came back to the past. Chibiusa smiled
+remembering the day they first met. Her hat had been flown away in the park. And even though
+Hotaru didn't know Chibiusa at the time she went after her hat and saved it from a creek. She
+wasn't even suppose to be running because she was so weak but she still did it. 'Maybe she
+already knew?' Chibiusa though, holding the diary close to her like she would hold a teddy bear.
+'Do I feel the same?' she thought again. She turned to Hotaru who was still sleeping soundly in
+bed. She was the only person Chibiusa knew that didn't look peaceful when they slept. Hotaru
+didn't look like she was in pain, just sad. Chibiusa put the book down on the desk and moved to
+the side of the bed. She lit one of Hotaru's lamps and stood by the foot of the bed. Chibiusa
+smiled to Hotaru, her face looked beautiful in the small amount of light the lamp gave out.
+Chibiusa bent over and moved some of Hotaru's hair away from her face but didn't get back up.
+Chibiusa was staring at Hotaru's face. There was something different about, something she had
+never noticed before. Hotaru's face looked so pretty, even though she couldn't see her eyes. "You
+are important to me…" Chibiusa whispered. She felt her heart beginning to beat faster as she
+licked her lips and took a deep breath. Chibiusa bent over alittle more and very gently gave
+Hotaru a kiss. Just like Hotaru had stole a kiss from her, Chibiusa had just stole a kiss from
+Hotaru, and Chibiusa blushed greatly after it. But, she did have a rather big smile on her face.
+Hotaru woke up early the morning after to the scent of pancakes. Hotaru sat up in bed and
+looked around. Chibiusa was still asleep in her mother's rocking chair. Hotaru blushed alittle and
+thought how sweet Chibiusa was to stay with her all these nights. Hotaru pushed the heavy
+blankets away and was surprised to see that she was still in her school uniform. 'Eww. I need to
+change. No I need a shower first!' Hotaru though. They she smelled pancakes. 'After I eat.' She
+tried to stand up but found that it was kind of hard. Chibiusa heard Hotaru getting up and jumped
+out of her chair. "Hotaru! You shouldn't be moving around like that! You might hurt yourself!"
+Chibiusa said taking Hotaru's arm and helping her stand when she was about to fall. Hotaru only
+blushed. "Chibiusa, I'm fine really I am. I need to move around or I'll be stuck in that bed. And I
+think I need to change these cloths." Hotaru said calmly, trying to fool her pink hair friend.
+Chibiusa didn't buy it. "Hold on, you can't just get up and walk away after being asleep for three
+days straight. Please let me take care of you for now." Chibiusa pleaded. Hotaru didn't want to
+agree with her but she was feeling alittle too weak to argue. "Alright…" Hotaru said sitting back
+in bed. “Good!” Chibiusa said happily. “Now I tell you what, you can go ahead and take a shower
+if you want, and then after that I’ll serve you breakfast in bed. Does that sound good?” Chibiusa
+asked. Hotaru giggled and nodded. “Your doing too much Chibiusa, you don’t have to be
+worrying yourself over me like this.” As soon as Hotaru had finished her sentence Chibiusa
+pressed her finger against Hotaru’s lips. “Shh, you almost died if I had not gone back to talk more
+to you, I was scared I would lose you Hotaru, so expect me to worry more about you for awhile.
+You’re a precious person to me and I’m going to take care of you until I know your better.”
+Chibiusa said looking into Hotaru’s eyes the whole time she was talking. ‘She has such lovely
+eyes’ Chibiusa thought to herself. Hotaru was shocked by Chibiusa and nodded to what she had
+said, blushing badly. “Alright then, so you going to take your shower or do you want your food
+now?” Chibiusa asked smiling happily knowing Hotaru was going to let her take care of her.
+Hotaru was still blushing and thought, ‘Thank God I have you…’
+Hotaru walked out of the bathroom carrying her cloths with her. She had finished taking her
+shower and felt a lot better now. She dressed herself in a black nightgown, even though it was
+still early in the day but Chibiusa wanted her to dress comfortable. It was nice knowing she had a
+friend that cared so much for her, but Hotaru never really felt worthy of Chibiusa's friendship.
+She was nothing like Chibiusa or any of her friends. She laughed alittle to herself when she
+thought to herself that she was nothing like anyone! But if Chibiusa could hear her thoughts she
+would scold Hotaru for thinking such foolish things. Chibiusa always said that out of all her
+friends Hotaru meant the most to her because she was her first true friend. And she always said
+that Hotaru was her special friend. Hotaru blushed remembering the first day Chibiusa said that to
+her. It was when Chibiusa went to see her father, after Sailor Moon had saved Hotaru from the
+silence. She was only a baby, but she clearly remembered Chibiusa holding her in her arms and
+whispering, "Sweet Hotaru, I know you may not be able to understand me, but I couldn't leave
+without saying good bye to you my special friend." Hotaru blushed more and quickly pulled
+herself together before she entered her room. She knew Chibiusa was in there and she didn't want
+to explain why she was blushing. She opened the door and dropped the cloths she was holding to
+the floor in surprise. Her room, dark as always, had every lamp she ever collected lit up. The
+room had a beautiful glow to it and for a second Hotaru didn't know if she was in the right room
+or not. She had never lit all of them before. She could smell something sweet in the air as well.
+"Jasmine," Chibiusa's voice said behind Hotaru. Hotaru turned around and saw Chibiusa was
+dressed in a nurse's dress. Hotaru couldn't help but notice that it looked little too tight on her from
+the waist up. "What's this?" Hotaru asked. "Just something to make you alittle more comfortable.
+Come on lay down. I changed the sheets on your bed too because I knew you wouldn't want to
+sleep in a sweaty bed." Chibiusa said with her finger in the air pointing up like she knew what she
+was talking about. Hotaru only sweat drop. She walked in and sat down on her bed, Chibiusa had
+put on the dark purple silk sheets Hotaru had. Chibiusa grabbed Hotaru's legs and lifted them up
+to the bed before Hotaru could stop her. " Haruka and Michiru are out now, I told them I could
+take care of you by myself and they agreed so it's just you and me." Chibiusa said. Hotaru
+blushed and said, "Chibiusa this is all so very thoughtful of you but it's all too much. You
+shouldn't have done all this for me. It must have took you all day." Chibiusa giggled and said,
+"Hotaru I want to take care of you, making you relax is one of the ways I take care of people. Plus
+I know you've had a hard couple of weeks and I haven't been a good friend by not being there for
+you so this is the least I can do." Hotaru blushed more and shook her head. "You’re a wonderful
+friend Chibiusa, more then I should have, thank you so much for all that you've done. It really
+means a lot to me." Chibiusa bowed. "Your very welcome Tara-chan. And don't say such foolish
+things about yourself."
+Hotaru lay peacefully in bed after she had finished eating the dinner Chibiusa had brought her.
+She remembered what Usagi told her about Minako and Chibiusa dressing up like nurses and
+taking care of her. It made Hotaru laugh, even more when Usagi told her to watch out for that rice
+gruel they would bring her. Just then Chibiusa walked in to Hotaru's room. She smiled to Hotaru
+and asked, "Anything I can get you?" Hotaru giggled and said, "No Chibiusa I'm quiet fine.
+You've already taken such great care of me I can't thank you enough." Chibiusa only nodded and
+asked in serious tone, "Hotaru, may I talk to you about something?" Hotaru could tell the change
+in her friend's tone and said, "Of course Chibiusa, what is it?" Chibiusa walked to the bed and sat
+next to Hotaru. "I know now. I know what you think about me." Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa
+when she heard her say that and a feeling of fear ran down Hotaru's spine. "What…what do you
+mean?" Hotaru asked. Chibiusa took Hotaru's hand and said, "You know what I mean, I know
+what you feel for me, that you're in love with me." Chibiusa's voice was heavy with emotion and
+Hotaru was scared now that Chibiusa would hate her for knowing what she really thought about
+her friend. "Chibiusa…I…I know its wrong to think such things but…I can't help it." Hotaru had
+tears in her eyes and jumped out of her bed and gave Chibiusa a hard look. "I won't lie about it
+anymore, yes I do love you Chibiusa! I've loved you for a long time because you’re a special
+person to me and you mean so much to me that I can't imagine a life with out you." Hotaru yelled,
+tears running down her face. She was very scared about what Chibiusa would say about this but
+she knew she had to say it. It was the right thing to say. "You make my days worth living, you've
+always been there for me when even God himself abandoned me. When everyone thought I was
+just a cold-hearted killer you were the only one that would stand beside me and protect me, even
+when I turned on all of you, you still wouldn't give up on me. You saved my life; you saved my
+soul from the darkness that would have swallowed me whole. You’re the light in my life, how
+could I not fall in love with you?" Hotaru said before she fell to her knees crying. "I love you and
+I know you must think I'm a freak now more then ever." Hotaru was breaking down and Chibiusa
+went right to her and made Hotaru face her. The two girls looked into each other's eyes for while,
+one seeing sadness and begging for forgiveness, the other seeing only concern and what someone
+would have mistaken for love. "Chibiusa, I…" Hotaru never had the chance to finish her
+sentence. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru toward her and pressed her lips against hers. Hotaru's eyes grew
+big with surprise and shock; Chibiusa's eyes however were closed. Hotaru didn't know what to
+do, she wasn't even breathing. Chibiusa put her arms around Hotaru's neck and Hotaru closed her
+eyes, putting her arms around Chibiusa waist. The two girls relaxed and kissed each other for
+what seemed to them like hours. Finally, Chibiusa broke the kiss. Both girls' cheeks were red.
+"When you collapsed at your door after I left I was so scared that I couldn't get you to open your
+eyes, I prayed to God that you weren't going to die. I would have done anything to make you
+open your eyes again. I would have traded my life for yours. And then finally after help came, I
+thought to myself what would have happened if you had died right there and then. I would have
+been lost without you. The thought of losing you twice, no, three times was too much for me. I
+swear I was so scared I wouldn't leave your room. I stayed by your bedside holding your hand
+hoping and waiting for you to open your eyes again. All the while, I read more of your diary, and
+I realized I had felt the same about you all the time. And when I thought I was going to lose you, I
+made myself promise that when you woke up I wasn't going to lie to myself anymore. I wouldn't
+want to leave your side and most importantly, I wanted to let you know I left the same way about
+you." Chibiusa and Hotaru were both crying after Chibiusa's speech. Hotaru was crying the worst
+and hid her face in Chibiusa's chest. "Say it again please?" she asked. Chibiusa held Hotaru
+tightly, as if she was going to fade away and whispered, "I love you Hotaru." Hotaru stayed in
+Chibiusa's arms crying for an hour, thinking of how impossible it all seemed. How wrong it
+would seem that anyone would love a monster like her. But Chibiusa never let her go and Hotaru
+knew inside her heart that she would never let her go, just like she would never let Chibiusa go.
+Hours had past, maybe more? Hotaru didn't care. Both her and Chibiusa were lying in her bed,
+Hotaru still in Chibiusa's arms. Her face was tear stained but she wasn't crying anymore. "What
+are you thinking Hotaru?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru's back was toward Chibiusa and she couldn't
+see her face but Chibiusa knew she was not all right. Hotaru sighed and said, "I…I just still can't
+get over it I guess. I prayed so hard that someday someone would treat me like a normal person,
+and then I met you. Then I wished to fall in love with someone who would really love me back,
+not just say it, but mean it in every way it can be meant. Like the person's heart would say I love
+you, not their mouth. Then I began to realize just how important you were to me, and how much
+you truly me to me." Hotaru turned around and faced Chibiusa; the first thing she noticed where
+how Chibiusa's eyes glowed in the light the lamps around them gave out. 'Beautiful.' Hotaru
+thought to herself. "Hotaru, why didn't you tell me this sooner? Why were you afraid to tell me?"
+Chibiusa asked. Hotaru laughed alittle to the question and said, "What would you have thought if
+one day I came up to you and said 'Chibiusa I'm in love with you'? Besides, I was so sure you
+wouldn't feel the same way. I mean, I'm your best friend, at least I think I am still, and plus I'm a
+girl, I was worried what you would think about that, not to mention what everyone else would
+think. I didn't want to but you in that kind of situation. And what could you love in a freak like
+me?" Chibiusa placed her hand on Hotaru's cheek and put her forehead to Hotaru's. "Don't say
+such foolish things Hotaru. Your not a freak, never have been and never will be." Chibiusa said.
+She kissed Hotaru's forehead and continued, "I'll admit I can understand why you didn't tell me.
+But I'm glad I found out. You’re a special person to me Hotaru; you were my first real friend
+when I came to this time. You saved my hat when you didn't even know me, and you knew you
+shouldn't had been running. I can always trust you just like you can always trust me. So trust me
+when I say I do not care what Usagi or anyone else would say about you and me. One of the
+things my mother taught me was that love is love, love is unbiased and there is no wrong way to
+love someone, and I love you Hotaru. You’re the reason why I came back to this time again."
+Hotaru was hiding her face from Chibiusa's and could feel her eyes watering. "But…I'm crazy."
+Hotaru whispered, not wanting Chibiusa to hear. Chibiusa lifted Hotaru's face back up to hers and
+whispered back, "Your not crazy Tara-chan. Actually, from what I see right now, your beautiful."
+Chibiusa smiled a loving smile to Hotaru and gave her a soft and gentle kiss. Hotaru felt her body
+stiffen to the kiss but it didn't stop her from kissing back. Their kissed lasted for what seemed like
+forever to them. Chibiusa broke the kiss from Hotaru's soft lips and started kissing her cheeks and
+her forehead, everywhere on Hotaru's face. Hotaru started kissing Chibiusa neck and made her
+way down. She stopped at Chibiusa's transformation brooch and gave it a soft kiss; to her it felt
+like kissing Chibiusa's heart. Chibiusa put her hands on Hotaru's cheeks and brought her face to
+hers. "I love you Hotaru." she whispered. Hotaru blushed deeply and whispered back, "I love you
+too Chibiusa." Chibiusa smiled slyly and whispered again in Hotaru's ear, "Then, may I show you
+just how much I love you?" Hotaru's face and her body got hot with those words and all she could
+do was nod.
+Hotaru laid on her back under the black silk sheets of her queen size bed. She was wearing a
+simple rose red nightgown with a black lace trim on the shoulders and at the skirt. Her cheeks had
+a red glow to them as Chibiusa pulled some of the sheets away and went into the bed. She was
+wearing a soft pink nightgown made out of silk. She pulled the covers back up and embraced the
+other girl. Hotaru's cheeks had brightened as she wrapped her arms around Chibiusa slim waist.
+She was trembling slightly to being so close to the person who she had secretly had been
+fantasizing about for so long. She looked into Chibiusa's ruby eyes and became lost within them.
+"Are you sure you're ok with this Tara-chan? You don't have to force yourself." Chibiusa said in a
+gently whisper. Hotaru pulled herself closer to Chibiusa and said weakly, "No, I've been
+dreaming about this for so long. I never thought it was possible but now that it has truly happened
+I want to be as close to you as possible." Hotaru put her hand on the back of Chibiusa's head and
+gave her a passionate kiss. To her it was like kissing a divine angel. Chibiusa's lips were soft like
+rose petals and just as sweet. To Chibiusa, kissing Hotaru was like kissing a star; it was nothing
+short of amazing. Their tongue's danced in their mouths and their fingers locked together, never
+wanting to part, just like them. Chibiusa turned Hotaru over so she was on top oh her. Their kiss
+deepened not only in length but also in feeling. Hotaru began moaning softly as Chibiusa began
+giving her quick butterfly kisses to Hotaru's sweet neck. Hotaru moaned louder, making Chibiusa
+more excited and said almost in a plea, "Chibiusa, I love you." Chibiusa blushed and responded
+with more kisses to Hotaru's neck and a whisper, "I love you too Hotaru." Chibiusa pulled the
+shoulders of Hotaru's nightgown down and pulled the soft garment off, exposing Hotaru's soft
+pale skin. Hotaru wasn't wearing anything underneath the nightgown and felt her naked body turn
+red with embarrassment. "You really are a goddess aren’t you," Chibiusa said, winking to Hotaru.
+Hotaru blushed more and pulled Chibiusa up to her, kissing her deeply and untying the garment
+in the back that Chibiusa was wearing. When she pulled it off, she found that she wasn't the only
+one that didn't wear anything underneath their nightgown. Hotaru laid underneath Chibiusa and
+smiled to her. Chibiusa smiled back and started to kiss Hotaru's chest. Chibiusa heard Hotaru
+moan softly as she started to kiss Hotaru's breast. She could feel Hotaru's hand moving up and
+down her back. Chibiusa took one of Hotaru's breasts in her mouth and sucked gently on it,
+playing with the other one with her hand. Hotaru arched her back up slightly, putting her leg
+between Chibiusa's as she started running her hands threw Chibiusa soft hair. She undid the
+odango's, letting Chibiusa's hair fall free down the length of her back. Chibiusa could feel
+Hotaru's leg between hers and started to move her hips along the length of Hotaru's soft silky leg.
+She let Hotaru's breast go and started to kiss her tummy. Hotaru giggled slightly to the feeling as
+she started to kiss the top of Chibiusa head, taking in the scent of roses in her hair. Chibiusa
+smiled and brought her face down lower. She spread Hotaru's legs apart and gave Hotaru a sly
+smile. Hotaru didn’t know what Chibiusa was going to do until it was too late. Chibiusa bent her
+head down and gently licked Hotaru's untouched flower. Hotaru let out a yell to the feeling of
+Chibiusa wet tongue giving her pleasure that she never knew of. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru moaned as
+she placed her hands on Chibiusa head, almost pushing her head closer. Chibiusa responded to
+Hotaru's moans by taking all of Hotaru in her mouth, licking and kissing her. Hotaru started to
+move her hips in the rhythm of Chibiusa tongue, keeping her eyes closed and moaning louder and
+louder. Chibiusa was enjoying hearing Hotaru moan and say her name repeatedly. She pulled
+Hotaru's lips apart slightly and pushed a finger inside of her. Hotaru gave a loud yell as she
+started to feel something inside of here building up. "Chibiusa…don't stop." Hotaru panted. "I
+won't, trust me." Chibiusa said as she pushed another finger inside of the lavender haired girl.
+Hotaru arched her back as much as she could and finally it hit her. Her first orgasm left like a
+shock of electricity running threw her body, stealing her strength but giving her unimaginable
+pleasure. "Oh my God, you must be an angel cause I think you just took me to heaven." Hotaru
+said as she took deep breaths. Chibiusa giggled and said, "I guess I was good." Hotaru sat up and
+nodded. "Now I want to return the favor." Hotaru said as she pulled Chibiusa into her arms,
+kissing her passionately. Chibiusa was caught off guard by the kiss but soon came over that.
+Hotaru moved behind Chibiusa and started kissing her shoulder blade and neck while her hands
+wondered all over Chibiusa body. Chibiusa moaned softly in Hotaru's ear and whispered, "Be
+gentle." Hotaru kissed the back of Chibiusa ear and said, "With you, always princess." Hotaru's
+hands grabbed Chibiusa breast and started to play with them, gently as Chibiusa had requested.
+Chibiusa gave a small moan and took Hotaru's cheek in her hand and turned her head to kiss her.
+As they kissed Hotaru's hands started to work magic into Chibiusa as they started to glow in a
+soft purple light. She took Chibiusa nipples between her fingers and gave a slight twist. Chibiusa
+started to moan louder, saying Hotaru's name with each breath as Hotaru continued to pleasure
+her. Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa and said, "Now like I said before, I'll return the favor you
+gave me." She spread Chibiusa's legs apart, exposing the girl's wet and untouched flower. Hotaru
+lifted Chibiusa's pussy to her mouth and took her all in. Chibiusa let a short scream out when she
+left Hotaru's tongue washing over her sensitive area and then let another one out when she felt it
+go in her. "Oh Hotaru, oh my God don't stop, please don't stop." Chibi begged as she pushed
+Hotaru's head closer to her. Hotaru pushed her tongue in as deep as she could, enjoying the little
+Chibiusa pie she was having. Finally, Chibiusa couldn't take anymore of the pleasure Hotaru was
+giving her and gave one last finally yell before her body stiffened and her heart forgot to beat.
+Chibiusa collapsed on the bed panting for air. Hotaru put her fingers inside of Chibiusa and took a
+taste of the pink haired girl. She didn't know just how to describe it other then sweet and kinda of
+bitter. All and all, her Chibiusa pie was good.
+Chibiusa finally started to breathe normally again and noticed Hotaru was gone. She looked
+around the room but there was no sight of her. Suddenly the lights in the room went off and a
+cold chill entered the room. Chibiusa was still naked and started shivering. "Hotaru? Where are
+you?" Suddenly out of no where Hotaru appeared, but as Sailor Saturn. "Hotaru?" Chibiusa
+asked. "I am Sailor Saturn, the soldier born to darkness and death. I was born alone, and meant to
+die alone for I am the forbidden soldier who should never have been. But now I live for a new
+reason now. Not to snuff out a worlds dying light, nor to walk the path of ruin and silence, but to
+serve and protect the princess of the future Crystal Tokyo, Small Lady Chibiusa. And I promise to
+serve, honor, protect, and love her for all the days of my life, and the rest of all eternity." Sailor
+Saturn said bowing on one knee to Chibiusa. Chibiusa could feel tears in her eyes and jumped off
+the bed and took Saturn in her arms. "Oh Hotaru I love you so much!" Saturn put her arms around
+Chibiusa and said, "And I love you my princess, more then the word love cane even describe."
+With that the two girls shared a deep a loving kiss that they would always remember for the rest
+of their lives and even after that. Saturn quickly took Chibiusa in her arms and lifted her up,
+carrying her back into the bed. She laid her down and got on top of her.  She kissed her gently on
+the lips and put her arms around Chibiusa. Chibiusa did the same and Saturn's fuku began to
+disappear, leaving behind only purple ribbons around Hotaru's naked figure. The ribbons seemed
+to go around Chibiusa as well, binding the two together. Hotaru pushed herself on Chibiusa and
+moaned when her sex was rubbed up against Chibiusa. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru into a deeper kiss
+as the two started to rub up against each other. They turned around and switched places with each
+other, but always would the ribbons keep them together, just like their newfound love would keep
+their hearts and their souls together forever. Hotaru began to move her hips faster and harder,
+making both her and Chibiusa pant harder and harder, each one saying the others name over and
+over again until they both stopped when an explosion hit both of them at the same time. The two
+lovers came together, each one screaming "I love you," each one holding on to the other tightly
+hoping nothing would pull them apart. Hotaru fell on top of Chibiusa exhausted and tired.
+Chibiusa panted hard and was very tired herself. Without saying a word, the couple fell asleep in
+each other's arms, the ribbons around them still holding them together. But when they would
+wake, it would be their hearts that would hold the two together for the rest of their lives.
+The end.
+Well that’s all! I hope you enjoyed my story. Again this is my first attempt to writing a
+Sekkushiaru Roman. I welcome any comments or feedback and you can e-mail me at
+saturn_archangel@hotbot.com. I hope you enjoyed my story. ^_^

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