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rlm@2 3 Prism Hearts
rlm@2 4 Chapter 7
rlm@2 5 Melodies of Life
rlm@2 6 by Amazoness Duo
rlm@2 7 amazonessduo@hotmail.com
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rlm@2 9
rlm@2 10 “Why did you come with me?”
rlm@2 11
rlm@2 12 “Hey, that’s Ipsen’s line.”
rlm@2 13
rlm@2 14 “Ipsen? Who’s that?”
rlm@2 15
rlm@2 16 “Ipsen is a character from a play. But he’s a real life adventurer.
rlm@2 17 I think the play is based on his adventures. It kind of goes like
rlm@2 18 this: Ipsen and his good friend, Colin, worked at a tavern in Treno.
rlm@2 19 One day, Ipsen got a letter. The letter was so wet from rain that
rlm@2 20 most of the writing was illegible. The only part he could read said
rlm@2 21 “Come back home”. Nowadays, we have airships and stuff, but back
rlm@2 22 then, it was really hard to travel. He didn’t know why he had to go
rlm@2 23 back, but he had some time off, gathered his things, and set out on a
rlm@2 24 journey home. He walked a thousand leagues through the mist.
rlm@2 25 Sometimes he was attacked by vicious monsters, but he made it because
rlm@2 26 his friend, Colin, was by his side. And then, after much time on the
rlm@2 27 road, he had to ask Colin something. ‘Why did you come with me?’”
rlm@2 28
rlm@2 29 “And? What was Colin’s answer?”
rlm@2 30
rlm@2 31 “Only because I wanted to go with you.”
rlm@2 32
rlm@2 33 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 34
rlm@2 35 I am surrounded by darkness. It’s all around me, dark and thick and
rlm@2 36 cold. I can feel it reaching out to caress me, its knifelike touch
rlm@2 37 raking across my skin, trying to comfort me. It’s the only constant.
rlm@2 38 The endless darkness; a deep and ancient sea that stretches out into
rlm@2 39 eternity. It calls to me, echoing throughout me. It wants me here.
rlm@2 40 I... belong here. Amidst the darkness. My home for so long. The world
rlm@2 41 I had known for most of my life. One of darkness and pain. It’s
rlm@2 42 familiar, a feeling that resonates within me. Isn’t this how I’ve
rlm@2 43 always been? Before the Destiny Islands, before I managed to escape.
rlm@2 44 But now it’s found me again. And it will never let go. The darkness
rlm@2 45 has me in its grasp. I won’t be able to escape a second time. I am
rlm@2 46 home now.
rlm@2 47
rlm@2 48 No...
rlm@2 49
rlm@2 50 No! I don’t belong here! I don’t belong to the darkness! I’m not
rlm@2 51 like that!
rlm@2 52
rlm@2 53 I shake my head. It feels as if a spell has been broken. There’s
rlm@2 54 still the endless night, but there’s something else. It’s still
rlm@2 55 pulling on me, but I’m not letting myself get pulled helplessly
rlm@2 56 anymore. I can move again. I feel like I’m waking up from some
rlm@2 57 nightmare. I won’t let this drag me down. I have to get out of here,
rlm@2 58 away from the darkness. Away from all this.
rlm@2 59
rlm@2 60 ‘Running away again?’ a voice says, echoing all around me. I turn
rlm@2 61 around and around, searching for the voice, but I still can’t see
rlm@2 62 anything. It’s taunting me again, playing with my fears, trying to
rlm@2 63 break whatever confidence I manage to pull to myself. I ball my
rlm@2 64 fists, still searching. I won’t let it break me. Not now. I’ll find a
rlm@2 65 way out of here. Somehow.
rlm@2 66
rlm@2 67 I can still feel it reaching for me, the darkness reaching for
rlm@2 68 something inside of me. What scares me is that feeling of familiarity
rlm@2 69 that burns within me while I’m here. Like I’ve been here before. Like
rlm@2 70 I’ve felt this all before. But that can’t be; I’ve never been inside
rlm@2 71 of the darkness before. This place... Pieces begin to take shape. My
rlm@2 72 clothes are changing. They’re darker, more gothic. People begin to
rlm@2 73 surround me. Cold, dark. Heartless. These people are also familiar
rlm@2 74 somehow. Like I can almost remember them. How they never cared. How I
rlm@2 75 was always alone even when the halls were crowded.
rlm@2 76
rlm@2 77 ‘Welcome home, Kairi,’ the voice whispers in my ear again.
rlm@2 78
rlm@2 79 I stare in horror as more of the world starts to take shape before
rlm@2 80 me. It all feels so real, as if I can step out into it. A world
rlm@2 81 created entirely of darkness. A world built upon pain and suffering.
rlm@2 82 Where loneliness was my only constant companion. A world where the
rlm@2 83 bright crimson of blood was my only escape from the endless darkness
rlm@2 84 that had imprisoned me. Names begin to tease my mind, of people and
rlm@2 85 places that I can’t know, shouldn’t know. This isn’t my world. I’m
rlm@2 86 not from here. I can’t be.
rlm@2 87
rlm@2 88 I search frantically for an exit. Any exit. I don’t care what the
rlm@2 89 voice says. I want to get away from here. I need to get away before
rlm@2 90 it becomes any more real. Before it chains me to it again. I won’t
rlm@2 91 let it take me back. I won’t ever go back. I refuse. I turned my back
rlm@2 92 on that life when I slit my wrists, breaking my bonds. But like an
rlm@2 93 angry dragon deprived of its treasure, it’s hunting me, yearning to
rlm@2 94 drag me back in its clutches, crushed and bloody.
rlm@2 95
rlm@2 96 My heart pounds in my chest, my body shaking. I’m gasping for
rlm@2 97 breath, an eerie chill sending frosty crystals flowing through me. I
rlm@2 98 shudder. I can’t let this happen. Desperation is stabbing into me, a
rlm@2 99 thousand needles, all incredibly intent. I have to get away. Now!
rlm@2 100
rlm@2 101 ‘Kairi...’
rlm@2 102
rlm@2 103 No... Leave me alone. I don’t know you!
rlm@2 104
rlm@2 105 ‘Kairi, dear...’
rlm@2 106
rlm@2 107 Please, just go away! I clutch my head, crumbling to my knees. I
rlm@2 108 don’t belong here! Don’t you see that?! I never did fit in. I never
rlm@2 109 belonged. I couldn’t survive in the darkness. It was too much for me.
rlm@2 110 It left me broken. Why couldn’t you see that? I had to leave it. I
rlm@2 111 had to get away.
rlm@2 112
rlm@2 113 “Kairi,” she says, her hand on my shoulder.
rlm@2 114
rlm@2 115 I scream. That world shatters around me, breaking like a dropped
rlm@2 116 china doll. I fall, plunging through a world of splintered glass. I
rlm@2 117 don’t know where I’m going or where I am. But I can’t help feeling
rlm@2 118 some faint relief to get away from that nightmare. Even if I’m only
rlm@2 119 trading it in for another.
rlm@2 120
rlm@2 121 I am surrounded by darkness. It’s all around me, dark and thick and
rlm@2 122 cold. I can feel it reaching out to caress me, it’s knifelike touch
rlm@2 123 raking across my skin, trying to comfort me. It’s the only constant.
rlm@2 124 The endless darkness, like a deep and ancient sea that stretches out
rlm@2 125 into eternity. It calls to me, echoing throughout me. It wants me
rlm@2 126 here. But I will not stay here. I’m getting out of here. I won’t let
rlm@2 127 the darkness consume me. I have too much I still need to do. Sora and
rlm@2 128 Riku need me. I won’t play the helpless princess this time. This
rlm@2 129 time, I’ll protect you. Both of you. I promise.
rlm@2 130
rlm@2 131 Even in the darkness, there is light. I just have to find it.
rlm@2 132 There... So far away, so faint it could almost be my imagination. But
rlm@2 133 it’s there. Because I believe it’s really there. I have faith that
rlm@2 134 the light is waiting for me. Because I know what the light in my life
rlm@2 135 is. Riku and Sora. They are my light. And I carry them with me
rlm@2 136 wherever I go. So no matter the darkness that surrounds me, there
rlm@2 137 will always be light in my heart.
rlm@2 138
rlm@2 139 I run to the light. And run. And run. It seems so far away. My
rlm@2 140 muscles ache and burn, the darkness clawing at me as I run, trying to
rlm@2 141 drag me back. But I won’t let anything keep me away from them. I’m
rlm@2 142 going to save them. No matter what it takes. The light... It’s so
rlm@2 143 beautiful. So warm. It caresses me as I finally reach it. And for
rlm@2 144 just a split second, he holds me. It’s all too brief, but I burn it
rlm@2 145 into my mind, etching every half-remembered feeling into my soul. One
rlm@2 146 day I’ll have that forever. It won’t be snatched away from me. I’ll
rlm@2 147 hold onto him until the sun falls from the sky and even longer.
rlm@2 148
rlm@2 149 One day...
rlm@2 150
rlm@2 151 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 152
rlm@2 153
rlm@2 154 Light... Bright and jarring. It cascades around me harshly, bathing
rlm@2 155 everything in its judgmental glow. As if accusing me. ‘You, girl from
rlm@2 156 the darkness, you are not welcome here,’ I can almost hear it say. My
rlm@2 157 eyes ache and shut instinctively tighter, trying to drown out the
rlm@2 158 brilliant glow that surrounds me. ‘Just go away...’ I beg. But it
rlm@2 159 ignores me, seeming to focus even more on me.
rlm@2 160
rlm@2 161 We always cherish light. It is beautiful. It is right. It is good.
rlm@2 162 But we never stop to think that if anything were held to the light,
rlm@2 163 that it would wither and burn under its touch. Without a filter, the
rlm@2 164 light is too blinding, too strong. The blazing light and the cold
rlm@2 165 darkness are both ends of the extreme. One isn’t simply salvation
rlm@2 166 while the other is ruin. Both can destroy you. Both can protect you.
rlm@2 167 The darkness can be just as beautiful, can’t it?
rlm@2 168
rlm@2 169 Perhaps there are more similarities than I’d ever realized...
rlm@2 170
rlm@2 171 But now, the light is making me ache and burn. I curl up, trying to
rlm@2 172 shut it out. I fall short in its harsh view. I am not of the light,
rlm@2 173 it tells me. I don’t belong here. It will wash me away in its light
rlm@2 174 until I’m nothing more than the hint of a shadow.
rlm@2 175
rlm@2 176 This is wrong. Of course I’m from the light. I wanted to escape the
rlm@2 177 darkness, didn’t I? This should be welcome. This should be freedom.
rlm@2 178 So why am I so afraid of it? Why isn’t it welcoming me with open
rlm@2 179 arms? Why am I being turned away? What’s wrong with me? Tears start
rlm@2 180 to burn at my eyes as I shut them tighter. ‘Please,’ I call out.
rlm@2 181 ‘Help me...’ Isn’t the light supposed to save you? Isn’t it what
rlm@2 182 dreams and hope are built from.
rlm@2 183
rlm@2 184 ‘No...’ Comes its response, reverberating through me. ‘Nothing can
rlm@2 185 save you. You are too entangled by the darkness. You are darkness.’
rlm@2 186
rlm@2 187 ‘No! Please, don’t send me away! I need help! I’m all alone...’
rlm@2 188
rlm@2 189 But the light ignores me. It doesn’t wish to have me so close
rlm@2 190 anymore, dirtying its gorgeous rays. So it simply casts me out.
rlm@2 191
rlm@2 192 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 193
rlm@2 194 I lie there for a long time, trying to make sense out of things. I
rlm@2 195 don’t care enough to open my eyes and find out where I am. That’s
rlm@2 196 secondary. I’ll figure it out later. I hope. It doesn’t matter where
rlm@2 197 I am, anyway. It’s not like I’ve had a well-designed plan through all
rlm@2 198 of this.
rlm@2 199
rlm@2 200 The darkness longs for me. The light rejects me. I feel a cold chill
rlm@2 201 pass over my body at that thought. The light that can save me won’t
rlm@2 202 let me near. The darkness is even now creeping after me, trying to
rlm@2 203 plunge me back into its depths. It’s hunting for me. And I have
rlm@2 204 nowhere to run to. No sanctuary that can protect me.
rlm@2 205
rlm@2 206 I shudder on the cold floor. I’m all alone.
rlm@2 207
rlm@2 208 No... ‘Remember what you said, Kairi? I’m always with you, too,’
rlm@2 209 Sora had said right before he had been dragged away from me to
rlm@2 210 someplace far off. Yes. I am not alone. I place a hand over my heart.
rlm@2 211 My boys are right there with me. No matter where they are. I’m not
rlm@2 212 alone. If the light turned its back on me, then I Don’t need it. All
rlm@2 213 I need are Riku and Sora. If I can’t believe in the light, then I’ll
rlm@2 214 believe in them. I will find them. I will save them. And they will be
rlm@2 215 my shelter from the storm that threatens to consume me. As long as I
rlm@2 216 have them, I’ll never let the darkness swallow me.
rlm@2 217
rlm@2 218 “Ohhhh...” someone groans beside me. “I’m starting to think
rlm@2 219 travelling by Gummi Ship from world to world isn’t half bad. Sure, I
rlm@2 220 got motion sick from it. But I didn’t wake up wondering where the
rlm@2 221 hell I was.”
rlm@2 222
rlm@2 223 “One of these days you’re going to wake up naked in a hotel room
rlm@2 224 thinking that and I’ll prove to you that it can be a good thing,”
rlm@2 225 another voice pipes in.
rlm@2 226
rlm@2 227 “Relm, watch your hands,” the first voice warns.
rlm@2 228
rlm@2 229 “Oops... Sorry,” comes the gleeful response. Relm doesn’t sound
rlm@2 230 sorry in the least.
rlm@2 231
rlm@2 232 Well, at least I know Yuffie and Relm are both still with me. I
rlm@2 233 don’t have to go on alone after all. I slowly open my eyes, the world
rlm@2 234 a blur around me. How long was I out this time? Where will I find
rlm@2 235 myself now? My head swims, still reeling from my sudden brushes with
rlm@2 236 both the light and the darkness. My heart wavers. I still don’t know
rlm@2 237 where I stand. Grandma used to tell me there was always light. But if
rlm@2 238 the light wouldn’t accept me...
rlm@2 239
rlm@2 240 Now is not the time to be thinking about these things. First things
rlm@2 241 first. I need to find out where I am. Somehow. “Where are we?” I ask
rlm@2 242 after a moment, flipping some hair from my eyes.
rlm@2 243
rlm@2 244 “Maybe you can ask them,” Relm suggests, pointing behind me.
rlm@2 245
rlm@2 246 The concerned look in her eyes tells me I probably won’t want to ask
rlm@2 247 whoever it is. Yuffie just watches on with a ‘why does this sort of
rlm@2 248 thing always happen to me?’ look plastered on her face. I slowly
rlm@2 249 turn, hesitant to find out. Sure enough, I doubt these people are
rlm@2 250 interested in telling me directions to find my lost boys. There are
rlm@2 251 at least seven women in the hallway, all wearing armor and bearing
rlm@2 252 swords and shields. The one in the lead holds a rather hefty sword
rlm@2 253 and sports an eye patch, presumably a testament to the many battles
rlm@2 254 she had been through. I swallow nervously. “You wouldn’t happen to
rlm@2 255 know where I could find a silver haired boy, would you?” I try a
rlm@2 256 smile, but it’s lost on the soldiers.
rlm@2 257
rlm@2 258 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 259
rlm@2 260 Yep. I’m officially hating this by now. I lie on my cold, hard bunk
rlm@2 261 in the dungeon, my hands behind my head. If I had more materia, those
rlm@2 262 knights wouldn’t have stood a chance against me. Of course, Beatrix,
rlm@2 263 as I’d learned was her name after the fact (my jailer won’t shut up
rlm@2 264 about her), soundly trounced me while Kairi and Relm sat there
rlm@2 265 worthlessly and squealed like little girls when the knights grabbed
rlm@2 266 them. So one could say the odds weren’t exactly stacked in my favor.
rlm@2 267
rlm@2 268 I roll on my side and hit the wall with my fist. I’m supposed to be
rlm@2 269 a legendary hero. The greatest ninja that ever lived. Some hero I’m
rlm@2 270 turning out to be. I can’t even save Relm from a couple stupid
rlm@2 271 knights. And Kairi, I hastily add. Not like I have any vested
rlm@2 272 interest in Relm. Of course not. I laugh aloud. What a silly thought.
rlm@2 273 That little pervert isn’t getting to me. I mean, sure she’s awfully
rlm@2 274 sweet and she has this way of riling me up, and her eyes have this
rlm@2 275 way of taking over your soul...
rlm@2 276
rlm@2 277 I shake my head, trying to clear my thoughts. Whatever the case, it
rlm@2 278 doesn’t matter. I couldn’t come to her rescue even if I wanted to.
rlm@2 279 Which I don’t. I’m stuck in the dungeon, alone, weaponless. At this
rlm@2 280 rate, the universe will be swallowed by Heartless before I can ever
rlm@2 281 get Kairi to the Doorway to the Light. But at least I’m trying! Not
rlm@2 282 like Leon and Aerith. Both staying home to cuddle with their love
rlm@2 283 bunnies while I work my ass off trying to get the Keyblade Mistress
rlm@2 284 to fix everything. And I’m not out here just because I don’t have
rlm@2 285 someone! I wouldn’t be doing the exact some thing as them if I had
rlm@2 286 someone to wake up with and cling tightly to and... Of course not!
rlm@2 287
rlm@2 288 “And she’s much, much more talented than Sir Steiner. Why, Lady
rlm@2 289 Beatrix was our pride and joy at the last tournament. The Knights of
rlm@2 290 Pluto didn’t even want to challenge her. It was really very funny.
rlm@2 291 They were all...” The guard drones on. She had explained earlier than
rlm@2 292 she doesn’t mind guard duty. I think I can see why. She takes a
rlm@2 293 sadistic pleasure in slowly killing the prisoners.
rlm@2 294
rlm@2 295 I pull my pillow around my head, trying to drown out her incessant
rlm@2 296 ranting about Lady Beatrix. I’m still pissed that Beatrix stopped me
rlm@2 297 in the hallway. I could’ve at least gotten through her and then been
rlm@2 298 taken down by the guards. Or they could’ve all ganged up on me or
rlm@2 299 something. It’s embarrassing that it only took Beatrix. Now Relm’s
rlm@2 300 images of me are probably shattered and I’ll never be her hero again.
rlm@2 301 Not that I care, mind you. Nope. Not in the least.
rlm@2 302
rlm@2 303 I wonder where they took Relm and Kairi. We were split up after our
rlm@2 304 clash in that hallway. Oddly enough, It seemed like they had been
rlm@2 305 expecting us. Everywhere else we had been, we always seemed to wind
rlm@2 306 up there by accident. But this time, they were ready. They seemed to
rlm@2 307 want Kairi for something. So she’ll be safe for a bit, at least. If
rlm@2 308 they need her, they can’t harm her. But what about Relm? She isn’t in
rlm@2 309 the dungeon. Where would they have taken her? I hope she’s all
rlm@2 310 right... I won’t forgive myself if she got hurt because of me.
rlm@2 311
rlm@2 312 And where is Rikku? I remember the wave crashing around us. She was
rlm@2 313 holding onto one of my arms and Relm was holding onto the other. I
rlm@2 314 tried to hold onto both of them, but I was getting thrown about and I
rlm@2 315 couldn’t keep my grip. My heart skips a beat at the thought of her
rlm@2 316 being lost someplace in this infinity. But she has to be out there.
rlm@2 317 She probably just didn’t get stuck in the same place we did. Yeah.
rlm@2 318 That has to be it. I hope.
rlm@2 319
rlm@2 320 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 321
rlm@2 322 I watch Yuffie in her cell for a while. Oh, my poor girl. Her ego’s
rlm@2 323 wounded. I’m just thrilled she’d fight for me, win or lose. But she
rlm@2 324 doesn’t see it that way. She’s got to be the best. But usually she’s
rlm@2 325 better about turning things around and pretending she’s gotten away
rlm@2 326 with what she wanted to. Snatching semi-victories from the jaws of
rlm@2 327 defeat. But she still looks cute, even languishing on her prison bed.
rlm@2 328 The guard unlocks the door for me and I slip quietly into Yuffie’s
rlm@2 329 cell, not wanting to disturb her dark thoughts. Not yet, at least.
rlm@2 330
rlm@2 331 I wonder what you’re thinking, my beautiful ninja. Are any of your
rlm@2 332 thoughts about me? Is there any room in that guarded heart of yours
rlm@2 333 for me? I sure hope so. I’ll keep trying until I can find out for
rlm@2 334 sure.
rlm@2 335
rlm@2 336 Leaning forward, I nuzzle the crook of her neck, delighting at the
rlm@2 337 feel of her soft skin against my nose and lips. She flinches
rlm@2 338 instinctively, but it’s too late. There’s nowhere to escape for now.
rlm@2 339 She must really be out of it if I could catch her by surprise like
rlm@2 340 this. I nuzzle deeper as she curls up on the small bed, trying to
rlm@2 341 escape me but only succeeding in pressing against the wall. I giggle
rlm@2 342 as I slowly pull away, watching the mortified look on her face. Her
rlm@2 343 cheeks are a cherry red, her eyes as wide as twin moons.
rlm@2 344
rlm@2 345 “Relm,” she gets out weakly.
rlm@2 346
rlm@2 347 “Didja miss me?” I ask, grinning as I lean over her curled up form.
rlm@2 348 The great and mighty Yuffie, slayer of monsters and master thief. And
rlm@2 349 here she is cowering before me, with nowhere to hide. Weird how a
rlm@2 350 young artist from another world could do that to her. Not that I
rlm@2 351 mind. The irony makes it all taste even more delicious.
rlm@2 352
rlm@2 353 Slowly she manages to piece together her sarcastic, independent
rlm@2 354 exterior. Her eyes narrow and she places a hand on my forehead,
rlm@2 355 pushing me back so she can sit up. I try to push back, but she’s too
rlm@2 356 much stronger than me. I sigh and step back, crossing my arms. “Oh,
rlm@2 357 right. I hate having the use of my right arm. It’s much better when
rlm@2 358 you’re hanging off of it,” she replies sarcastically.
rlm@2 359
rlm@2 360 I pout. “Well, I was going to get you out, but if you don’t want
rlm@2 361 to...” I sigh, turning my back to her. It takes a second for that to
rlm@2 362 seep in for her.
rlm@2 363
rlm@2 364 “Get me out? What are you talking about?”
rlm@2 365
rlm@2 366 I turn around to face her again, smiling brightly. Oh, I can’t stay
rlm@2 367 mad at her for long. Even if she can be selfish and arrogant and...
rlm@2 368 Ahem. Okay, maybe I can stay a little frustrated with her, but that’s
rlm@2 369 different. “I’m her majesty’s royal artist. One of the knights found
rlm@2 370 a picture I had and they decided the queen should see this ‘wee
rlm@2 371 girl’s’ abilities for herself. She made me do a portrait, which I had
rlm@2 372 to make up a lot for because she isn’t very easy to look at for long,
rlm@2 373 and she liked it so much that she decided to give me a job instead of
rlm@2 374 throwing me in here.”
rlm@2 375
rlm@2 376 “You convinced them with a picture?” she asks, blinking. Then she
rlm@2 377 considers. “Well, you are really good. That fire you drew seemed real
rlm@2 378 enough. So I guess that makes sense.”
rlm@2 379
rlm@2 380 I narrow my eyebrows. “They wouldn’t have found the picture at all
rlm@2 381 if they’d been keeping their hands to themselves. But then, in a
rlm@2 382 place with a band of female knights, you have to wonder.” I wait
rlm@2 383 anxiously for her jealous reply. She wouldn’t want anyone touching
rlm@2 384 me. Or harassing me. Or anything like that. Not when she can do all
rlm@2 385 of that herself. Right...?
rlm@2 386
rlm@2 387 Yuffie grins. “Must be your kinda place then, huh?”
rlm@2 388
rlm@2 389 I can only stare at her. I’m trembling. How could she say that to
rlm@2 390 me? Does she really think of me like that? I only want her to know
rlm@2 391 how much I like her. I wouldn’t do that with anyone. I just want her
rlm@2 392 to know... I don’t know how else to do it. I’ve never been in love
rlm@2 393 before. This is all so new to me. I can’t even see her anymore. I
rlm@2 394 only see a haze as tears fill my vision. I yank the picture they’d
rlm@2 395 found on me, one I’d drawn the night I met Yuffie. I crumple it up in
rlm@2 396 my hands, tearing and ripping. I want to destroy something beautiful.
rlm@2 397 Something that meant so much to me. Unable to get out any words, I
rlm@2 398 make a muffled sob as I toss the pieces at her, turning and running
rlm@2 399 as fast as I can away from her. I don’t care where I go as long as
rlm@2 400 it’s away. Far, far away. I sob weakly as I force myself to run. When
rlm@2 401 you get hurt, when your heart bleeds, that’s what tears are. I hate
rlm@2 402 you, Yuffie. I hate you. Because obviously I’m nothing more than a
rlm@2 403 stupid little perverse kid to you. And I hate myself for not being
rlm@2 404 good enough, worthy enough of you. So I run. And I cry.
rlm@2 405
rlm@2 406 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 407
rlm@2 408 I blink, watching Relm burst into tears and run off. The prison door
rlm@2 409 slams shut behind her, the guard more watchful than I thought. Not
rlm@2 410 that I’d be able to escape right now even if she wasn’t paying
rlm@2 411 attention; my mind’s on other things.
rlm@2 412
rlm@2 413 I kneel down, sifting my fingers through the ripped and crumpled
rlm@2 414 picture on the floor. How she could destroy something she’d spent so
rlm@2 415 much time creating is beyond me. Whatever I did, I must have hurt her
rlm@2 416 immeasurably to get that kind of reaction. To see her shred something
rlm@2 417 that she had given life to. Slowly the image begins to take shape
rlm@2 418 under my fingers, the angry rips and tears defiling the beautiful
rlm@2 419 image. Me. She had drawn me. A portrait that’s more gorgeous than I
rlm@2 420 could ever pray to truly be myself. That’s what the guards had seen,
rlm@2 421 what had prompted the queen to keep her out of the dungeon. It’s
rlm@2 422 lovely. Or it was. Before I disgraced it. Before I signed its death
rlm@2 423 sentence and left it to die in its creator’s usually gentle hands.
rlm@2 424
rlm@2 425 She drew me. She wanted me to be the subject of her amazing talent.
rlm@2 426 She looked at me with those shining eyes, filled with love and
rlm@2 427 adoration. And all I could do was slap her in the face because I’m
rlm@2 428 too much of a bitch to accept it all gratefully. I didn’t realize how
rlm@2 429 much it would hurt her. I didn’t mean to...
rlm@2 430
rlm@2 431 What have I done? “Fuck...” I mutter, hunching over, my short hair
rlm@2 432 drooping as my head nearly touches the floor. Good one, Yuffie.
rlm@2 433 She’ll never let you save her now. Now it looks like you’re the one
rlm@2 434 who needs saving.
rlm@2 435
rlm@2 436 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 437
rlm@2 438 Kairi sighed. She looked out a large window, the only escape from
rlm@2 439 the room she was stuck in. But to escape this prison, she would need
rlm@2 440 angel’s wings. She slumped against the windowsill, watching the doves
rlm@2 441 come and go as they pleased. If only it was that easy for her. The
rlm@2 442 room was beautifully furnished. But it was still a cage to her. She
rlm@2 443 wanted to soar free. To escape all of this.
rlm@2 444
rlm@2 445 The young princess fidgeted uneasily. She had been separated from
rlm@2 446 her friends and placed in these chambers. Two maids had ‘helped’ her
rlm@2 447 change into an elegant pale lavender dress and then left her there.
rlm@2 448 She wasn’t used to dresses. They were too confining. She liked to
rlm@2 449 have room to run and be free. ‘Mom always wanted me to wear dresses.
rlm@2 450 But they weren’t my style. I only wore the one’s she’d buy me a few
rlm@2 451 times and that was only to appease her,’ she thought. The memories
rlm@2 452 had come to her unbidden. But there was something else, as well.
rlm@2 453 Someone older, shaking his head in disgust. ‘The princess is a
rlm@2 454 tomboy,’ he had said. And then someone laughing. Her... father? But
rlm@2 455 she hadn’t had a father, had she? Not in that place where her room
rlm@2 456 existed. But somewhere else, she had been raised by her father
rlm@2 457 instead of her mother. ‘She takes after her father,’ he had said,
rlm@2 458 smiling. He had a warm smile. Everyone had loved him dearly.
rlm@2 459
rlm@2 460 Holding her head, Kairi tried to sort through the contradictory
rlm@2 461 memories. Was she a princess who had lost her memories? Or was she a
rlm@2 462 girl so desperate to escape her own life that she had drowned in
rlm@2 463 fantasy? It was like two separate lives were trying to piece
rlm@2 464 themselves together inside of her. It was taking its toll on the
rlm@2 465 brunette. She was starting to have a hard time telling which way was
rlm@2 466 up.
rlm@2 467
rlm@2 468 “Why do you care so much about what’s ‘real’?” a voice asked.
rlm@2 469
rlm@2 470 Kairi whirled about. A young blonde girl stood before her. She had a
rlm@2 471 bandage over one of her eyes and she wore a hospital gown.
rlm@2 472
rlm@2 473 “What is Real, anyway?” another voice asked, coming from the bed.
rlm@2 474 The girl on the bed looked exactly the same as the other girl, though
rlm@2 475 she wasn’t wearing the bandage. “Is Real what everyone tells you is
rlm@2 476 real?”
rlm@2 477
rlm@2 478 “Or is Real what you believe in your heart to be true?” the other
rlm@2 479 girl continued.
rlm@2 480
rlm@2 481 “Who are you?” Kairi asked, looking back and forth between the two
rlm@2 482 young girls.
rlm@2 483
rlm@2 484 “She’s Maya,” the one with the bandage said, pointing to the girl on
rlm@2 485 the bed.
rlm@2 486
rlm@2 487 “And this is Aya,” the one on the bed said, hurrying up to her
rlm@2 488 sister’s side. Both girls giggled and bowed to Kairi.
rlm@2 489
rlm@2 490 “We’re Eve,” they said in unison.
rlm@2 491
rlm@2 492 “Oh...” Kairi responded, not understanding in the slightest. She
rlm@2 493 shook her head, looking out the window. “I don’t know what’s real
rlm@2 494 anymore.”
rlm@2 495
rlm@2 496 “Is Real what everyone around you decides is real?” Maya asked, her
rlm@2 497 head tilted to the right.
rlm@2 498
rlm@2 499 “Or is Real what you decide is real?” Aya asked, her head tilted to
rlm@2 500 the left.
rlm@2 501
rlm@2 502 “You both sound like Harle.” Kairi closed her eyes, trying to focus.
rlm@2 503 This was all confusing her more and more.
rlm@2 504
rlm@2 505 “Eventually you’ll need to make a decision,” Maya explained.
rlm@2 506 “Whether you’ll accept reality or remake it altogether.”
rlm@2 507
rlm@2 508 “Whether you will live or die. Awaken or dream. Love or hate. After
rlm@2 509 all, these things are all two sides of the same coin. You cannot have
rlm@2 510 one without the other,” Aya adds, resting back to back with her
rlm@2 511 sister.
rlm@2 512
rlm@2 513 “But can’t you choose the light? Can’t you have one without the
rlm@2 514 other? Must it always be both? Love and hate, life and death, light
rlm@2 515 and dark?” Kairi asks, nearly pleading.
rlm@2 516
rlm@2 517 Maya shakes her head. “These things are all interconnected. They
rlm@2 518 aren’t all completely different notions. They’re all dependent on
rlm@2 519 each other. Each of these ‘opposites’ is entwined in a lover’s
rlm@2 520 embrace that you couldn’t hope to untangle. Without one, the other is
rlm@2 521 meaningless.”
rlm@2 522
rlm@2 523 “After all,” Aya continues, “how can you really, truly love if you
rlm@2 524 don’t know what it’s like to be hated? For you to live, someone must
rlm@2 525 die. For you to awaken, you must have been dreaming.”
rlm@2 526
rlm@2 527 “Without darkness, there is no light,” the twins say in harmony.
rlm@2 528
rlm@2 529 Kairi opened her mouth, but nothing came out. She was speechless.
rlm@2 530 The twins’ words spun around her, leaving her dizzy.
rlm@2 531
rlm@2 532 “Everyone’s waiting for your answer, Kairi,” Maya said softly.
rlm@2 533
rlm@2 534 “Don’t disappoint everyone. The show’s just about to begin,” Aya
rlm@2 535 added.
rlm@2 536
rlm@2 537 A knock at the door drove Kairi out of her stupor. She bolted
rlm@2 538 upright. “Coming!” she called. She turned back to the girls to ask
rlm@2 539 them something, but they were already gone. “Where did they go?” she
rlm@2 540 asked, blinking. The only way out of the room was the window. And
rlm@2 541 unless they grew wings, that wouldn’t be a very good choice.
rlm@2 542
rlm@2 543 “There you are. You must be another one of the girls that Kuja had
rlm@2 544 brought to the palace. I assure you, I’ll try my hardest to make sure
rlm@2 545 your stay is a pleasant one,” a woman with dark hair said as she
rlm@2 546 entered the room, followed by a much younger girl with purple hair
rlm@2 547 and a horn on her forehead. “I’m Princess Garnet Til Alexandros the
rlm@2 548 17th. This is Eiko Carol. We wanted to check in on you. We’re
rlm@2 549 terribly sorry for the inconvenience.”
rlm@2 550
rlm@2 551 “We thought it would be better if you saw us first instead of being
rlm@2 552 traumatized by Kuja inspecting you,” the younger girl explained. She
rlm@2 553 spat the name with disgust. Apparently she didn’t think very highly
rlm@2 554 of him.
rlm@2 555
rlm@2 556 “Why am I here? What’s going on? I really need to get going. My
rlm@2 557 friends need me. I have to find them,” Kairi said. She wanted to make
rlm@2 558 them understand somehow. Her words couldn’t convey the urgency in her
rlm@2 559 heart. She couldn’t afford to get sidetracked. Not now. Not with Riku
rlm@2 560 and Sora so close.
rlm@2 561
rlm@2 562 “You’ll be able to leave as soon as Kuja has finished. In the
rlm@2 563 meantime, we’ll make you as comfortable as we can,” the princess
rlm@2 564 explained politely. She was genuinely apologetic, feeling personally
rlm@2 565 responsible for the delay in Kairi’s journey, whatever it may be.
rlm@2 566
rlm@2 567 “And when is that going to be?” Eiko asked irritably, raising her
rlm@2 568 arms. “He’s always so vague about it and he never answers me when I
rlm@2 569 ask him when I can go home.”
rlm@2 570
rlm@2 571 Garnet smiled softly and gently cupped the younger girl’s cheek.
rlm@2 572 “Soon, Eiko. I promise. I’ll ask him again for you. I’ll get you
rlm@2 573 home.” She didn’t seem to notice the purple haired girl’s cheeks
rlm@2 574 burning underneath her fingers or the deep gaze that Eiko was giving
rlm@2 575 her. She leant forward, kissing near Eiko’s horn.
rlm@2 576
rlm@2 577 “Princess Garnet, your mother wishes to see you,” a maid said from
rlm@2 578 the doorway.
rlm@2 579
rlm@2 580 Garnet nodded. “I’ll be right there.” She turned back to Kairi and
rlm@2 581 bowed. “Again, my apologies for keeping you here. If there’s anything
rlm@2 582 you need, please ask.” Turning, she left the room.
rlm@2 583
rlm@2 584 Eiko watched her leave. Sighing dreamily, she slowly came back to
rlm@2 585 earth. If only Garnet would pay attention to her!
rlm@2 586
rlm@2 587 “What’s going on?” Kairi asked again, pleading with the younger
rlm@2 588 girl. She walked over, kneeling to look the purple haired girl in the
rlm@2 589 eyes.
rlm@2 590
rlm@2 591 Sighing, Eiko let her arms fall to her sides. “You’re being kept
rlm@2 592 here because of some guy named Kuja. He’s got the ear of the Queen,
rlm@2 593 so she’ll do whatever he says. Apparently the kingdom is in big
rlm@2 594 trouble unless he can find the ‘Prism Heart’, whatever that is. He
rlm@2 595 says it resides within a girl with a beautiful heart. They checked
rlm@2 596 Princess Garnet, but it wasn’t her. So he’s been scouring the world
rlm@2 597 for this girl. That’s how I wound up here. Some Alexandrian Knights
rlm@2 598 sought me out because I’m the last of the summoners. Kuja thought
rlm@2 599 that might mean it might be me. But they checked and I don’t have it
rlm@2 600 either. But they still won’t let me go home. None of the girls he’s
rlm@2 601 taken here have gone home yet.” She looked back at the door. “Not
rlm@2 602 that I want to go home yet, anyway. Not without Garnet. But she's too
rlm@2 603 worried about her mother to come with me.” The little girl crossed
rlm@2 604 her arms, frustrated.
rlm@2 605
rlm@2 606 Kairi closed her eyes. Great. So she was stuck here. A prisoner in a
rlm@2 607 gilded cage. What was she supposed to do now? Riku and Sora needed
rlm@2 608 her. She couldn’t be wasting time while a kingdom searched for some
rlm@2 609 mythical girl. “So.. You really like Princess Garnet, huh?” Kairi
rlm@2 610 asked after a moment.
rlm@2 611
rlm@2 612 “Yep. You better keep your hands off of her. She’s mine,” Eiko
rlm@2 613 responded, her eyes narrowing.
rlm@2 614
rlm@2 615 “I.. What? No! Of course not!” That wasn’t exactly how Kairi had
rlm@2 616 meant her question. She could only stammer a response, taken off
rlm@2 617 guard.
rlm@2 618
rlm@2 619 “Good! Now you know. Anyway, I better go find her. She always gets
rlm@2 620 depressed after she talks with her mother.” As if stating it aloud
rlm@2 621 helped her to remember, Eiko now looked very concerned. “Bye!” She
rlm@2 622 waved over her shoulder before scurrying out the door, the little
rlm@2 623 angel wings pinned to her dress bobbing as she ran.
rlm@2 624
rlm@2 625 Kairi rested her face in her hands. Something out there didn’t like
rlm@2 626 her. That had to be it. God, Fate, or Whatever seemed to have it in
rlm@2 627 for her. Which was definitely going to make things more difficult.
rlm@2 628
rlm@2 629 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rlm@2 630
rlm@2 631 “You’re moving too quickly, Selphie. You just need to let yourself
rlm@2 632 move slowly, like the ocean waves,” Yuna explained. She demonstrated,
rlm@2 633 closing her eyes and moving beautifully on her toes. She and Selphie
rlm@2 634 were barefoot on the beach, the waves lapping around them. The spunky
rlm@2 635 brunette had come to Yuna requesting that she teach her how to dance.
rlm@2 636 It was too cute to turn away. Not that Yuna was ever good at turning
rlm@2 637 anyone away to begin with. Lulu chastised her about being too easy
rlm@2 638 for other people to manipulate, but she couldn’t help it. She wanted
rlm@2 639 to make people happy. She wanted to help if she could. And besides,
rlm@2 640 if Selphie wanted to dance with the girl she loved, it only seemed
rlm@2 641 right to teach her. It would be romantic to see Quistis and Selphie
rlm@2 642 dancing together under the moonlight. And Yuna could be a tiny part
rlm@2 643 of that because she had helped it come about.
rlm@2 644
rlm@2 645 “Hmm... Okay. Like this?” Selphie asked, twirling about again. The
rlm@2 646 world spun around her as she twirled about, finally coming to a halt
rlm@2 647 as she nearly stumbled in the ankle deep water.
rlm@2 648
rlm@2 649 Giggling softly, Yuna covered her mouth. “I think...” she began
rlm@2 650 quietly. “I think that you have just a little too much energy,
rlm@2 651 Selphie.”
rlm@2 652
rlm@2 653 “What’s wrong with having too much energy?” Selphie asked, pouting.
rlm@2 654 It had always served her well before. But now it was making this all
rlm@2 655 so difficult. She was having a hard time restricting her movements
rlm@2 656 into soft, flowing motions. She was too used to moving about.
rlm@2 657
rlm@2 658 “There’s nothing wrong with it. It’s part of what Quistis likes
rlm@2 659 about you, I’m sure. But it does make it a little harder to dance
rlm@2 660 together if you’re always a step before her,” Yuna warned softly.
rlm@2 661
rlm@2 662 Selphie bit her lip, thinking it over. She finally smiled and nodded
rlm@2 663 eagerly. “Yeah, you’re right. Thanks, Yuna! I wouldn’t be able to do
rlm@2 664 this without you. Quisty will be so surprised!” She giggled, hopping
rlm@2 665 from foot to foot.
rlm@2 666
rlm@2 667 Yuna giggled herself, energized by Selphie’s enthusiasm. She nodded.
rlm@2 668 “All right. I’ll do my best to make sure you’re ready in time for the
rlm@2 669 festival. Just watch me for a moment. You need to be able to move the
rlm@2 670 way you want to, the way your heart wants to. But if you go too
rlm@2 671 quickly, then it isn’t soft and romantic, and you don’t get to savor
rlm@2 672 it.” Closing her eyes, Yuna bowed to her practice partner before
rlm@2 673 beginning to dance, moving lithely in the shallow water. She moved
rlm@2 674 with a dancer’s grace, elegant and beautiful, almost seeming to walk
rlm@2 675 on the water itself as she skitted about. The long sleeves of her
rlm@2 676 half-kimono skimmed over the water as she twirled about, hopping here
rlm@2 677 and there.
rlm@2 678
rlm@2 679 “Booyaka! Yuna, you’re really, really good! I wanna dance like that
rlm@2 680 with Quisty.” Selphie sighed happily, already imagining the two of
rlm@2 681 them moving with each other along the beach. She watched Yuna
rlm@2 682 intently. ‘I want to be able to do that!’ she thought eagerly,
rlm@2 683 clapping. Yuna twirled and danced along the water, a beautiful sprite
rlm@2 684 on the shore. And then she tripped and plunged face first in the
rlm@2 685 water. Selphie stopped mid-clap, sweatdropping.
rlm@2 686
rlm@2 687 Getting to her feet dizzily, the soaked girl didn’t look up to face
rlm@2 688 her student at first. How embarrassing! How was she supposed to teach
rlm@2 689 Selphie how to dance when she couldn’t even stay on her feet herself?
rlm@2 690 But her mind started to ignore that as her foot swished around in the
rlm@2 691 water, searching for what she had tripped on. She finally found
rlm@2 692 something soft and yielding under the water, deeper where she was now
rlm@2 693 that the tide was coming in. It must have dragged something with it.
rlm@2 694 Yuna pushed again. What was it? Something pushed back. “Ahhhhhh!!!”
rlm@2 695 Yuna screamed, flailing her arms as she fell back into the water. She
rlm@2 696 gazed in shock as a figure slowly rose from the water.
rlm@2 697
rlm@2 698 Spluttering, a drenched catgirl emerged from the tide. Her lungs
rlm@2 699 burned. How long had she been underwater? Where was she, anyway? This
rlm@2 700 didn’t look like El Nido. And why had that girl been kicking her?
rlm@2 701 That wasn’t very nice at all. And most importantly of all, where was
rlm@2 702 Yuffie? But before she could answer any of these questions, she had
rlm@2 703 other things to contend with. “Stay away from Yuna!” A brunette girl
rlm@2 704 yelled as she ran towards her. In her semi-conscious state, Rikku
rlm@2 705 could do little to defend herself, let alone to argue. She turned to
rlm@2 706 try and explain, but she could only cough up seawater. And before she
rlm@2 707 could do anything else, something was arcing through the air. It
rlm@2 708 connected with her head in a fireworks display of pain. Collapsing
rlm@2 709 back into unconsciousness, the cat girl slumped into the waves again.
rlm@2 710
rlm@2 711 “That was a pretty wimpy monster,” Selphie noted disappointedly,
rlm@2 712 holding her nunchuks at her sides as Rikku floated in front of her.
rlm@2 713
rlm@2 714 “She’s going to drown,” Yuna said worriedly. She pushed forward
rlm@2 715 against the water, dipping her arms under the catgirl, pulling her up
rlm@2 716 so she could breathe. Straining, she dragged Rikku to the shore,
rlm@2 717 slumping next to her on the wet sand. She breathed heavily,
rlm@2 718 exhausted.
rlm@2 719
rlm@2 720 “Why are you saving that monster?” Selphie asked, blinking in
rlm@2 721 confusion.
rlm@2 722
rlm@2 723 “She wasn’t going to hurt me. She was too weak to. She just washed
rlm@2 724 up here. I don’t think she’s a Fiend. The poor girl looks too weak to
rlm@2 725 stand, let alone to do anything else. She needs my help,” Yuna
rlm@2 726 explained, slowly catching her breath as she lay next to the catgirl.
rlm@2 727
rlm@2 728 “Oh..” Selphie nodded thoughtfully. She laughed nervously. “I think
rlm@2 729 I might have something important to do when she wakes up. If she
rlm@2 730 wasn’t going to hurt you, she might wanna hurt me if she remembers me
rlm@2 731 smacking her on the head.”
rlm@2 732
rlm@2 733 Yuna smiled a bit. “Yeah, you can practice what I’ve taught you.
rlm@2 734 I’ll take her back to my house. I’ll try to help her recover there.”
rlm@2 735 She turned to the catgirl, watching her breath uneasily on the sand.
rlm@2 736 Strange things were happening on the Destiny Islands. Very strange
rlm@2 737 things. But whoever this weird girl was, maybe she could help her.
rlm@2 738 Somehow. She looked like she needed the help. Yuna brushed some of
rlm@2 739 the water from Rikku’s whiskers. Poor kitty. “I’ll help you,” she
rlm@2 740 promised quietly. Rikku’s breathing seemed to steady somewhat, her
rlm@2 741 cat ears perking up. “I promise.”