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rlm@2 1 This story is a songfic about ChibiUsa a while after Hotaru has died in
rlm@2 2 a battle. The song is ‘Melodies of Life’, a beautiful song from Final
rlm@2 3 Fantasy 9 sung by Emiko Shiratori and written by Nobuo Uematsu. The
rlm@2 4 gorgeous characters were created by the wonderfully talented Naoko
rlm@2 5 Takeuchi.
rlm@2 6
rlm@2 7 Melodies of Life
rlm@2 8 By Amazoness Quartet
rlm@2 9 amazonessduo@hotmail.com
rlm@2 10 ----------------
rlm@2 11
rlm@2 12 ~Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark
rlm@2 13 For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart
rlm@2 14 To weave by picking up the pieces that remain
rlm@2 15 Melodies of life--love's lost refrain~
rlm@2 16
rlm@2 17 Why did you have to leave me? I loved you so much. I still do.
rlm@2 18 That’s why it still hurts so badly whenever I think about you. My mom
rlm@2 19 says I’ve been growing distant, that I’m always lost in thought. That
rlm@2 20 can’t be good for the next Queen of Crystal Tokyo. But I can’t help it,
rlm@2 21 Hotaru. I miss you. When I close my eyes, I can still see that shy
rlm@2 22 smile of yours, hear your soft voice calling me. I’ll always love you,
rlm@2 23 even if we can’t be together. Why wouldn’t you let me come with you?
rlm@2 24 Maybe I could have helped. And even if I couldn’t, at least we would
rlm@2 25 have died together. You told me when you had grown up again that it was
rlm@2 26 to fight alongside me. Why couldn’t I fight alongside you then? I know
rlm@2 27 you wanted to protect me, but it hurts so much without you. It’s so
rlm@2 28 hard to keep going. But every time I falter, every time I fall, I can
rlm@2 29 feel you there with me, helping me make it through.
rlm@2 30
rlm@2 31 ~Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why
rlm@2 32 We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye
rlm@2 33 And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
rlm@2 34 Let them ring out loud till they unfold~
rlm@2 35
rlm@2 36 You were always so sad, Hotaru. Just lurking under the surface,
rlm@2 37 like you could never completely escape it. Even when I could lure that
rlm@2 38 smile out of you or hear your laugh, it was still there. I could never
rlm@2 39 completely cure that sadness inside of you. I told you that we’d be
rlm@2 40 together forever and you smiled a little sadly and didn’t say anything.
rlm@2 41 I always wondered why you looked on the dark side of things so often,
rlm@2 42 but I was determined to show you that things could work out. That you
rlm@2 43 could have a happy ending. But now as I look back on it all, was I just
rlm@2 44 naïve? Did you know all along that it would come to this? All the
rlm@2 45 dreams we had shared will never take place now. All the promises I had
rlm@2 46 made of our beautiful future together. I wanted to keep them so dearly,
rlm@2 47 Hotaru. And I’d probably promise you them all over again if you were
rlm@2 48 here, even after all that’s happened.
rlm@2 49
rlm@2 50 ~In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me
rlm@2 51 Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name~
rlm@2 52
rlm@2 53 Looking around feverishly, I find myself once again in my bed.
rlm@2 54 Looking next to me, I almost expect to see you there, asleep after a
rlm@2 55 passion filled night, or maybe just reading a book as you watched me
rlm@2 56 dozing. Your beautiful pale body seemed to shine in the moonlight,
rlm@2 57 though I needed no such prompting to go to you. I swear I can hear your
rlm@2 58 voice sometimes, even though Diana says she doesn’t hear anything.
rlm@2 59 Careful not to wake my guardian cat, I sneak outside to the balcony.
rlm@2 60 Its cold out, but I don’t care. Not anymore. I remember when I used to
rlm@2 61 find you out here late at night, staring at the stars. I’d ask you to
rlm@2 62 come back inside but you’d always say you weren’t tired. I would go
rlm@2 63 back in for a few seconds and come back with a blanket for the two of
rlm@2 64 us to share. Sometimes I’d ask what it was and other times you’d look
rlm@2 65 like you didn’t want to talk about it. But it didn’t matter because we
rlm@2 66 were together. Is that what you were trying to teach me whenever I’d
rlm@2 67 feel bad about not being able to fix things for you and you’d tell me
rlm@2 68 that wasn’t what was important? I hug myself tighter as the cold starts
rlm@2 69 to set in. I don’t want to go back inside now. Not yet.
rlm@2 70
rlm@2 71 ~A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
rlm@2 72 Adding up the layers of harmony
rlm@2 73 And so it goes, on and on
rlm@2 74 Melodies of life,
rlm@2 75 To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond~
rlm@2 76
rlm@2 77 When I look back on things, it seems like a blur sometimes. When
rlm@2 78 we first met, when I saw you smile for the first time, when you
rlm@2 79 returned to me, when we first kissed, when we would share our hopes and
rlm@2 80 dreams in each other’s arms, when I saw you for the last time with that
rlm@2 81 determined look on your face... I’m crying again, I realize. I should
rlm@2 82 hide it before mother sees, but I can’t find the will. She wants me to
rlm@2 83 be strong, to work my way through this, but I’m not as strong as you.
rlm@2 84 You suffered through so much, Hotaru. You took it all and yet you
rlm@2 85 continued on. You would never admit it. You never saw the strength in
rlm@2 86 yourself that I always saw in you.
rlm@2 87
rlm@2 88 ~So far and away, see the bird as it flies by
rlm@2 89 Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky
rlm@2 90 I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
rlm@2 91 Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings~
rlm@2 92
rlm@2 93 Sometime later, I find myself sitting barefoot on the hill where
rlm@2 94 I spent so much time as a child, leaning against an old tree that has
rlm@2 95 grown there. Here I can lose myself in my memories and forget all
rlm@2 96 that’s happened. The birds are beautiful, Hotaru, but not as beautiful
rlm@2 97 as the fireflies. Sometimes I’ll come out late at night and watch them.
rlm@2 98 Sometimes I even think I see you amongst them, carefree and happy at
rlm@2 99 last. It may last for just a split second out of the corner of my eye,
rlm@2 100 but that sight alone gives me the strength I need to push forward. I
rlm@2 101 know I can’t have you back, but sometimes its nice to pretend, ne? I
rlm@2 102 smile a little as I watch the city in the distance. I don’t know what
rlm@2 103 lies ahead of me, but I promise I’ll always remember you, that I’ll
rlm@2 104 always love you.
rlm@2 105
rlm@2 106 ~In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
rlm@2 107 Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?~
rlm@2 108
rlm@2 109 I’ve lost you so many times. I had thought that this time would
rlm@2 110 be no different, that we’d find ourselves in the other’s arms before it
rlm@2 111 was through. But it didn’t work out that way. It was such a cruel trick
rlm@2 112 fate played, letting me fall in love with you before snatching you away
rlm@2 113 from me. But I would do it all over again if I had the choice. It was
rlm@2 114 so painful, but the joy you made me feel was worth so much more. I know
rlm@2 115 we’ll be together again. Because... because I know that you love me,
rlm@2 116 too.
rlm@2 117
rlm@2 118 ~A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
rlm@2 119 Adding up the layers of harmony
rlm@2 120 And so it goes, on and on
rlm@2 121 Melodies of life,
rlm@2 122 To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond~
rlm@2 123
rlm@2 124 “ChibiUsa-chan..?”
rlm@2 125 I hear a soft voice whisper behind me, ripping me from my
rlm@2 126 thoughts. That voice... My heart starts beating furiously as I sit up
rlm@2 127 on my knees. It’s almost impossible to breath as I struggle to turn
rlm@2 128 around quickly enough. It’s.. you... Standing up, I almost fall back
rlm@2 129 down again. My vision blurs as tears start to form in my eyes. “Hotaru-
rlm@2 130 chan?” I ask weakly as I stumble towards you. You merely smile, dark
rlm@2 131 eyes shining with the inner beauty that made me fall in love with you
rlm@2 132 in the first place. I throw myself into her arms, you stagger back
rlm@2 133 under my assault. Sobs wrack my body as I hold onto you tightly. I’ve
rlm@2 134 missed you so much. There’s been so much I wanted to tell you, but
rlm@2 135 words escape me right now. I want to hold on to you for eternity, to
rlm@2 136 never let go again. I can feel your fingers brushing through my hair
rlm@2 137 and I feel myself sobbing more uncontrollably at the memories. Looking
rlm@2 138 up, I see tears in your own dark eyes. Oh, Hotaru...
rlm@2 139
rlm@2 140 ~If I should leave this lonely world behind
rlm@2 141 Your voice will still remember our melody
rlm@2 142 Now I know we'll carry on
rlm@2 143 Melodies of life
rlm@2 144 Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
rlm@2 145 As long as we remember~
rlm@2 146
rlm@2 147 I want to hear you promise me that we’ll always be together, that you’ll never leave my side again,
rlm@2 148 but its enough for me just to have you here with me now. I know that this time we don’t need promises like
rlm@2 149 that. Because this time I know that we’ll always be together, even if one of us dies. Because you were with
rlm@2 150 me through every step I took while you were gone. Just as I’d be there with you. But I’m so glad to have
rlm@2 151 you here like this nonetheless. Clutching onto you tighter, I bury my face against your shoulder.
rlm@2 152 Your answer to all of my unasked questions sends a warm spark through my body as your lips
rlm@2 153 press against my own. I feel myself kissing back with all the strength I can muster as the tension from the
rlm@2 154 past few years drains away from me in the space of seconds. I feel alive again in your arms. Truly alive.
rlm@2 155 “How..?” I ask softly.
rlm@2 156 You just smile again and kiss me softly. “I love you, ChibiUsa-chan.”
rlm@2 157 I love you, too, Hotaru. And I always will.