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rlm@2 1 Hello everyone! I'm lanis01 and this is my first attempt to writing a Sekkushiaru Roman. For those of you
rlm@2 2 who don’t know what this is it’s a romance story that contains a lot of adult themes. This is for mature
rlm@2 3 readers only. If you caught with this and you are underage I hope your parents teach you a lesson! I am not
rlm@2 4 responsible for minors that happen to read this story because they are not my responsibility they are the
rlm@2 5 parents and this story is on a site that says who can read this and who can't. I don't own any of the
rlm@2 6 characters in this, Toei, Naoko Takeuchi and other people who I don't know of yet do. This story line
rlm@2 7 however is my idea and I hope you readers enjoy my story!
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rlm@2 10 Hotaru's secret
rlm@2 11 By: Lanis01
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rlm@2 14 "Ten to three, ten more minutes closer to freedom." Hotaru sighed happily. It was the last day
rlm@2 15 of school and Hotaru couldn't wait to get home. School was never her favorite thing. Even though
rlm@2 16 she had a normal life like the rest of the sailor soldiers, her life could never be anything like
rlm@2 17 normal. The attacks she used to have when she had first met the other soldiers had come back.
rlm@2 18 She thought it was always because she was torn between the two forces trapped inside her body,
rlm@2 19 but now there was no reason for her attacks. 'I'm just a freak like always' she thought to herself.
rlm@2 20 At least that’s what the kids at school told her. She had no friends at her school; she really didn't
rlm@2 21 want to be friends with people like them. She thought things would be different after she had
rlm@2 22 become sailor saturn but nothing had changed. 'No, that’s not all true, one this has changed' she
rlm@2 23 thought again. She opened her wallet and saw the picture she had inside it. It made her smile,
rlm@2 24 which was something most people never saw. It wasn't an old picture, but the date the picture was
rlm@2 25 taken seemed like it had been years ago. But no matter how old it was, its value to her heart
rlm@2 26 would never change. She stared at the picture and thought back to when it was taken. It had been
rlm@2 27 the happiest day of her life, one she would never forget. Suddenly her mind shot back to reality as
rlm@2 28 the last bell rang and the students around her got up to leave. Hotaru put the picture away and
rlm@2 29 stood up. No sooner has she stood up when a hand grabbed her shoulder and forced her back in
rlm@2 30 her seat. Hotaru looked up scared to a girl who was known for causing a lot of fights in her
rlm@2 31 school. She was a head taller then Hotaru but was very beautiful, at least that’s what most guys
rlm@2 32 thought. She had blond curly hair that ended to her shoulders and dark green eyes. "Where do you
rlm@2 33 think your going freak?" the girl asked tightening her hold on Hotaru's shoulder. "Wh…What do
rlm@2 34 you want Kerri?" Hotaru whispered. "Shut up! I saw you looking at my boyfriend slut. Stay away
rlm@2 35 from him or I'll cripple your worthless ass!" Kerri yelled. She turned her head to see if the two of
rlm@2 36 them were alone and when she saw that they were she backhanded Hotaru across the face. Hotaru
rlm@2 37 fell out of her chair and took her school bag with her, knocking out the things she had in it.
rlm@2 38 "Understand?" Kerri said in a low voice. Hotaru was on her hands and knees and only nodded to
rlm@2 39 the question. "Good. See you next year freak." Kerri said as she walked out of the empty
rlm@2 40 classroom. Hotaru was starting to cry softly to herself as she picked up the things that had fallen
rlm@2 41 out of her bag. 'The more things change, the more the remain the same…'
rlm@2 42
rlm@2 43 'At least its over know, I don't have to go back for a long time.' Hotaru though to herself on
rlm@2 44 her way home. Her cheek was red and so were her eyes. 'I just hope I get home in one piece, and
rlm@2 45 once I do I'm running upstairs to my room and locking the door!' Hotaru thought again kicking a
rlm@2 46 rock in front of her. 'But I know that won't change anything, I just hope my days get better.' As
rlm@2 47 Hotaru was walking she heard a stick break behind her but before she could turn around someone
rlm@2 48 covered her eyes with their hands from behind her. Hotaru gasped, scared that it might have been
rlm@2 49 Kerri again. "Guess who!" a small voice said behind her. Hotaru sighed, as she knew who it was
rlm@2 50 and smiled. "Is it a cute girl with short pink hair done up in a odd style?" Hotaru asked, blushing
rlm@2 51 when she heard herself talk. "No, just little old me." Chibiusa said uncovering her eyes and
rlm@2 52 stepping in front of Hotaru. "Hotaru are you ok? Your face is red and so are your eyes? Is
rlm@2 53 everything alright?" Chibiusa asked with concern in her voice for her dear friend. Hotaru covered
rlm@2 54 her cheek and said, "I'm fine, I always am aren't I?" That was all Chibiusa need to hear. "You
rlm@2 55 can't lie to me Miss Hotaru Tomoe, I'm your best friend and I know when you're hiding
rlm@2 56 something." Chibiusa said acting as if she knew Hotaru like a book, which she almost did. And
rlm@2 57 almost was just how Hotaru wanted it. Hotaru only smiled, "I'm fine really Chibiusa, you don't
rlm@2 58 need to worry about me." Chibiusa gave Hotaru a serious look and said back, "What kind of a
rlm@2 59 friend would I be if I didn't worry?" Hotaru sighed and asked, "Would you walk me home please
rlm@2 60 Chibiusa? I mean if you're not busy." Chibiusa smiled and took Hotaru's hand. "Of course I will.
rlm@2 61 Is it ok with you if I stay alittle while? Usagi is cooking again today and I'm scared to go home."
rlm@2 62 Hotaru giggled and nodded. "I would love to have you over." The two girls smiled to one another
rlm@2 63 and made there way to Hotaru's house.
rlm@2 64
rlm@2 65 "Please, make yourself at home. Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama won't be home till late
rlm@2 66 because I think they were going to try and go out on a date. And Setsuna-mama has been really
rlm@2 67 busy lately so I don’t even think she'll come home." Hotaru said taking her shoes off. "You sure
rlm@2 68 they won't mind?" Chibiusa asked setting her bags down. "I'm sure, why would they mind?"
rlm@2 69 Hotaru asked walking into the kitchen. "Would you like something to drink?" Hotaru asked. "No
rlm@2 70 that’s ok, do you mind if I put my bags in your room?" Chibiusa asked back. "No go ahead, I
rlm@2 71 have to check on dinner so I'll be up in a minute." Hotaru said. Chibiusa took her bags and ran
rlm@2 72 upstairs. She went to the end of the hallway and opened the door to Hotaru's room. As soon as the
rlm@2 73 door opened up she caught the scent of Jasmine in the room. Hotaru had two dark emerald green
rlm@2 74 candles lit. Hotaru's room was always dark if not for the lamps and few scented candles she had.
rlm@2 75 Chibiusa always loved being in Hotaru's room, it was so, romantic. But it was also dark, like
rlm@2 76 Hotaru was sometimes. That thought made Chibiusa frown, she knew that recently Hotaru had
rlm@2 77 been acting sadder and sadder but would always try and hide it when she was around. Chibiusa
rlm@2 78 sat down on Hotaru's bed and let she let herself fall back. Hotaru had a feather bed and it was
rlm@2 79 always very comfortable, like a cloud. She turned and noticed something, a large black leather
rlm@2 80 book on Hotaru's desk. It had a purple ribbon in the middle. Chibiusa knew she shouldn't have
rlm@2 81 looked in it but she couldn’t stop her curiosity. She opened the book and read what was inside.
rlm@2 82 'Oh my god this is Hotaru's diary! Oh my…no wonder she's been so sad!' Chibiusa thought to
rlm@2 83 herself. Hotaru had never told her about her attacks coming back or that nothing in her social life
rlm@2 84 had changed. What made Chibiusa really upset was the line she read at the end; 'I was born a
rlm@2 85 freak, and I'll die a freak.' Chibiusa heard footsteps coming up to the room and quickly put the
rlm@2 86 book back. Hotaru walked in her room and noticed the look on Chibiusa's face. "What's wrong?"
rlm@2 87 she asked seeing that Chibiusa was upset. "Why didn't you tell me?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru
rlm@2 88 looked at Chibiusa for a moment then noticed her dairy was behind her. "What are you talking
rlm@2 89 about?" Hotaru asked, although she had a good idea what Chibiusa was talking about. "I'm
rlm@2 90 talking about your attacks coming back! And that you've been getting beat up at school! I take it
rlm@2 91 that it happened again." Chibiusa said in an angry tone, pointing to Hotaru's still sore cheek.
rlm@2 92 Hotaru was shocked that she knew all that and felt tears building up in her eyes. 'Oh my god, she
rlm@2 93 read it! She must know what I wrote about her then!' "Chibiusa…I'm sorry I…" Hotaru couldn't
rlm@2 94 think of words to say, she thought Chibiusa would hate her forever now that she knew Hotaru's
rlm@2 95 secret. "And I wish you wouldn't think like that, it's wrong Hotaru! You know it is." Rini said,
rlm@2 96 talking about how Hotaru thought she was a freak. Hotaru couldn't believe what Chibiusa had
rlm@2 97 said and started to breakdown. "I know its wrong, I'm so sorry!" Hotaru cried thinking she was
rlm@2 98 talking about her secret. Tears were sliding down her face and finally Hotaru ran out of her room.
rlm@2 99 Chibiusa didn't know why Hotaru had acted so serious over what she said. But she didn't read all
rlm@2 100 of Hotaru's diary, at least not the part about her. Chibiusa ran after Hotaru and found her crying in
rlm@2 101 her parent's bedroom. "Hotaru? I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry. I had no idea you take it
rlm@2 102 that seriously." Chibiusa said behind Hotaru. "I knew you would be angry with me, I know
rlm@2 103 thinking such things are wrong and I know you must hate me for what I wrote about you. Its just
rlm@2 104 that you…" Hotaru couldn't finish her sentence. Chibiusa moved in front of her and knelled down
rlm@2 105 next to her. "What did you write about me?" she asked. Hotaru looked up to her in shock 'Oh my
rlm@2 106 god she doesn't know?!' Hotaru though. Hotaru was even more scared now. Her secret had not
rlm@2 107 been found out by the one person that it had to do with, but now her mistake would force that
rlm@2 108 secret out. "Hotaru? What did you write about me?" Rini asked again. Hotaru couldn't bring
rlm@2 109 herself to say it. "Please Chibiusa, I don't want to talk about it. It was nothing. I just need to get
rlm@2 110 some rest." Hotaru said as she tried to leave. Chibiusa grabbed her arm and stopped her. "Please
rlm@2 111 Hotaru, if something is bothering you I want to know what it is. I'm your best friend aren't I?
rlm@2 112 Please let me help you!" Chibiusa said now getting frustrated with her. "Chibiusa please!" Hotaru
rlm@2 113 yelled. Chibiusa let her arm go and backed off in shock. She had not expected to hear Hotaru yell
rlm@2 114 at her. Hotaru began to cry again when she realized she had yell at her best friend for only trying
rlm@2 115 to help her. "Please, I just want to get some rest now. I don't want to talk about it anymore."
rlm@2 116 Hotaru said softly, trying to act calmer. Chibiusa just nodded, afraid to say anymore. "I'm sorry,
rlm@2 117 I'll get my bag and go back home, I didn't mean to upset you." Chibiusa said, leaving before
rlm@2 118 Hotaru could say anything else. She ran back to Hotaru's room and grabbed her bag, unknowingly
rlm@2 119 knocking Hotaru's dairy in an open pocket in her bag. She took the bag in her arm and left. She
rlm@2 120 was about to leave when Hotaru stopped her. "Chibiusa, I'm sorry for raising my voice. You were
rlm@2 121 right; I did get into another fight in school today. My days only seem to get harder as they go by.
rlm@2 122 Now I just want to rest for awhile. I appreciate that you want to help me, but there are
rlm@2 123 something's that a friend just can't help someone with. I'm really sorry I yelled at you." Hotaru
rlm@2 124 said bowing her head. Chibiusa only nodded and put on a fake smile. "It's ok, I know you had a
rlm@2 125 hard day. I'll leave you alone now." Chibiusa said quickly. She left just as fast, not waiting to say
rlm@2 126 goodbye to Hotaru. Hotaru wanted to stop her before a sharp pain hit her chest and made her
rlm@2 127 collapse. She was having another one of her attacks. She grabbed her chest, struggling to breathe.
rlm@2 128 This attack was the worst one she had ever had. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru tried to yell out, but it came
rlm@2 129 only in a whisper. Hotaru was scared now and thought for sure that she was going to die, the pain
rlm@2 130 she was in was so great that for a moment she wanted to die if it meant ending this pain. Tears
rlm@2 131 were building up in Hotaru's eyes and suddenly everything went black. 'I'm dead' was Hotaru's
rlm@2 132 last thought; not something you want to take with you into the darkness.
rlm@2 133
rlm@2 134 Colors. Dark and cold colors. It felt like being in a tomb almost. But there was a breeze?
rlm@2 135 Tombs don't have a breeze, do they? That’s what Hotaru asked herself when she opened her eyes.
rlm@2 136 Her vision was blurred and she couldn't tell where she was or if she was alone. She tried to talk
rlm@2 137 but couldn't. 'I'm dead…' Hotaru though to herself again. Suddenly she felt something warm take
rlm@2 138 her hand. She closed her eyes and opened them again to clear her vision. What she saw would
rlm@2 139 have made her cry. She wasn't dead at all, she was in her room laying on top of her bed with what
rlm@2 140 Hotaru thought for sure could only have been an angel. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru whispered after she
rlm@2 141 licked her dry and cracked lips. How long had she been out? When she spoke the name of the
rlm@2 142 person sitting next to her bed the grip on her hand tighten. "Shh Hotaru, don't try and talk. You've
rlm@2 143 been unconsciousness for three days now. The doctors thought you were in a coma and you
rlm@2 144 would never wake up. But I told them they were wrong, I made them go away and told the others
rlm@2 145 I would stay with you until you woke up." Chibiusa had tears in her red eyes and after Hotaru's
rlm@2 146 vision cleared more she could see Chibiusa's cheeks were tear stained. 'She stayed her with me?
rlm@2 147 All that time, for me?' Hotaru though that maybe she really did die, why would anyone want to
rlm@2 148 stay with her when everyone else thought she was with death. Chibiusa brushed some hair off
rlm@2 149 Hotaru's face and said, "Are you hungry Hotaru? Can I get you anything?" Hotaru only shook her
rlm@2 150 head. She was tired but she didn't have the strength to eat or to even sleep. Plus if what Chibiusa
rlm@2 151 said was true, which she knew it was when she saw a plate with food half eaten on her desk and a
rlm@2 152 blanket on Chibiusa's lap, then Hotaru wouldn't burden her any further. Chibiusa smiled at Hotaru
rlm@2 153 and said, "Don't worry about it, I'll get something right now." Chibiusa got up and pulled the
rlm@2 154 blanket that was covering Hotaru up more and she tucked some of the blanket under Hotaru's feet.
rlm@2 155 "Promise me you'll be awake when I come back ok?" Hotaru would have cried right there if she
rlm@2 156 hadn't been struggling to hold back her tears. Hotaru nodded. "Thank you Tara-chan, I'll be back
rlm@2 157 really soon." Chibiusa said. She walked out of Hotaru's room and closed the door behind her,
rlm@2 158 forgetting what she had just called Hotaru. Hotaru stared at the door in shock, she wondered if
rlm@2 159 that had been all a dream. 'If that was just another of my dying dreams, I pray I die with this
rlm@2 160 dream so I may never leave it.'
rlm@2 161
rlm@2 162 Night had come; Hotaru had just fallen asleep. Chibiusa had made sure that Hotaru didn't get
rlm@2 163 out of bed with out her knowing. She wouldn't let anyone else in the room beside her and told the
rlm@2 164 others, "I just need to be alone with her." Chibiusa sat back in an old rocking chair that Hotaru
rlm@2 165 had. She remembered her telling Chibiusa that it was her mother's. She closed her eyes and
rlm@2 166 smiled. 'Thank God you woke up Tara-chan. Thank you God so much.' Chibiusa took a book
rlm@2 167 from her backpack and opened it to a bookmarked page. She smiled joyfully and read the same
rlm@2 168 pages she had been reading for those three days she stayed with Hotaru:
rlm@2 169
rlm@2 170 June 25, 1999
rlm@2 171 The day I opened my eyes
rlm@2 172
rlm@2 173 Dear diary,
rlm@2 174 God knows how many lives I've ruined, God knows how many lives I'll lived, but for the first
rlm@2 175 time in all those lives, my eyes have opened. All this time I kept fooling myself thinking this was
rlm@2 176 wrong or that I was wrong myself. I have given this a lot of thought and I'm sure with all my
rlm@2 177 heart that this is anything but wrong. I kissed someone for the first time in my life. Not a kiss on
rlm@2 178 the cheek but a real kiss on the lips. Oh it was the sweetest feeling I could ever feel. I can't think
rlm@2 179 of words to describe it but pure serenity would be the only thing that comes close to it. I know
rlm@2 180 that I love this person, I have loved this person for a long time. No, I take that back, love is to
rlm@2 181 small a word to describe how I feel about this person. To think I never saw it makes wonder how
rlm@2 182 I can see anything. But now I worry about what this person will think. Will they feel the same? I
rlm@2 183 think they won't. No, not for me. I am the last person to be blessed by something wonderful as
rlm@2 184 true love. They could not love me because I am different. Even more now then before. I fear if I
rlm@2 185 ever tell them about my true feelings that they will laugh or even worse, abandon me and think
rlm@2 186 me a freak when they are the only soul on this planet that might just think I am normal. Its funny,
rlm@2 187 writing that right now, I don't believe I am or ever well be normal. I was born with this curse and
rlm@2 188 I'll die with it, then take it with me to my next life. So I decided not to tell this person I love them,
rlm@2 189 nor that I stole a kiss from them in their sleep. I suppose they may never know how I feel, even
rlm@2 190 though I scream the words "I love you" from my heart; they will never hear them. Just like I will
rlm@2 191 never hear those words back from their lips. Their sweet lips. I would give anything to kiss their
rlm@2 192 lips again, to have them hold me in their arms at night and in day. To look into their eyes and
rlm@2 193 know that they really love me in all the ways a human can be loved. If it were possible for me
rlm@2 194 then I would sell my soul to have them forever. But just like I said before, this person, this sweet
rlm@2 195 and special person would never love a mistake like me. They are far too good for me to have. For
rlm@2 196 me to call my own. But I hope and pray, beyond hope and prayers can go, that this person might
rlm@2 197 someday say the words I may never live to hear, "I love you Hotaru." It has grown late now, I
rlm@2 198 should go and sleep but that would only bring my days closer to me, and so far for the last four
rlm@2 199 weeks my days have given me only sadness and more reasons to hold that knife to my wrist. If
rlm@2 200 not for this person, I would have died along ago. And this person, this person who God himself
rlm@2 201 must have sent to be with me is someone who I hope I never lose, someone how has become the
rlm@2 202 only ray of light in my dark world. And that someone is Chibiusa…
rlm@2 203
rlm@2 204 Chibiusa blushed the whole time she read that special part in Hotaru's dairy. She never had a
rlm@2 205 clue that Hotaru felt like this about her. When she thought about it, they had been spending more
rlm@2 206 time with each other recently, and it was normally just the two of them. Hotaru was very dear to
rlm@2 207 Chibiusa; she was her first real friend sense she came back to the past. Chibiusa smiled
rlm@2 208 remembering the day they first met. Her hat had been flown away in the park. And even though
rlm@2 209 Hotaru didn't know Chibiusa at the time she went after her hat and saved it from a creek. She
rlm@2 210 wasn't even suppose to be running because she was so weak but she still did it. 'Maybe she
rlm@2 211 already knew?' Chibiusa though, holding the diary close to her like she would hold a teddy bear.
rlm@2 212 'Do I feel the same?' she thought again. She turned to Hotaru who was still sleeping soundly in
rlm@2 213 bed. She was the only person Chibiusa knew that didn't look peaceful when they slept. Hotaru
rlm@2 214 didn't look like she was in pain, just sad. Chibiusa put the book down on the desk and moved to
rlm@2 215 the side of the bed. She lit one of Hotaru's lamps and stood by the foot of the bed. Chibiusa
rlm@2 216 smiled to Hotaru, her face looked beautiful in the small amount of light the lamp gave out.
rlm@2 217 Chibiusa bent over and moved some of Hotaru's hair away from her face but didn't get back up.
rlm@2 218 Chibiusa was staring at Hotaru's face. There was something different about, something she had
rlm@2 219 never noticed before. Hotaru's face looked so pretty, even though she couldn't see her eyes. "You
rlm@2 220 are important to me…" Chibiusa whispered. She felt her heart beginning to beat faster as she
rlm@2 221 licked her lips and took a deep breath. Chibiusa bent over alittle more and very gently gave
rlm@2 222 Hotaru a kiss. Just like Hotaru had stole a kiss from her, Chibiusa had just stole a kiss from
rlm@2 223 Hotaru, and Chibiusa blushed greatly after it. But, she did have a rather big smile on her face.
rlm@2 224
rlm@2 225 Hotaru woke up early the morning after to the scent of pancakes. Hotaru sat up in bed and
rlm@2 226 looked around. Chibiusa was still asleep in her mother's rocking chair. Hotaru blushed alittle and
rlm@2 227 thought how sweet Chibiusa was to stay with her all these nights. Hotaru pushed the heavy
rlm@2 228 blankets away and was surprised to see that she was still in her school uniform. 'Eww. I need to
rlm@2 229 change. No I need a shower first!' Hotaru though. They she smelled pancakes. 'After I eat.' She
rlm@2 230 tried to stand up but found that it was kind of hard. Chibiusa heard Hotaru getting up and jumped
rlm@2 231 out of her chair. "Hotaru! You shouldn't be moving around like that! You might hurt yourself!"
rlm@2 232 Chibiusa said taking Hotaru's arm and helping her stand when she was about to fall. Hotaru only
rlm@2 233 blushed. "Chibiusa, I'm fine really I am. I need to move around or I'll be stuck in that bed. And I
rlm@2 234 think I need to change these cloths." Hotaru said calmly, trying to fool her pink hair friend.
rlm@2 235 Chibiusa didn't buy it. "Hold on, you can't just get up and walk away after being asleep for three
rlm@2 236 days straight. Please let me take care of you for now." Chibiusa pleaded. Hotaru didn't want to
rlm@2 237 agree with her but she was feeling alittle too weak to argue. "Alright…" Hotaru said sitting back
rlm@2 238 in bed. “Good!” Chibiusa said happily. “Now I tell you what, you can go ahead and take a shower
rlm@2 239 if you want, and then after that I’ll serve you breakfast in bed. Does that sound good?” Chibiusa
rlm@2 240 asked. Hotaru giggled and nodded. “Your doing too much Chibiusa, you don’t have to be
rlm@2 241 worrying yourself over me like this.” As soon as Hotaru had finished her sentence Chibiusa
rlm@2 242 pressed her finger against Hotaru’s lips. “Shh, you almost died if I had not gone back to talk more
rlm@2 243 to you, I was scared I would lose you Hotaru, so expect me to worry more about you for awhile.
rlm@2 244 You’re a precious person to me and I’m going to take care of you until I know your better.”
rlm@2 245 Chibiusa said looking into Hotaru’s eyes the whole time she was talking. ‘She has such lovely
rlm@2 246 eyes’ Chibiusa thought to herself. Hotaru was shocked by Chibiusa and nodded to what she had
rlm@2 247 said, blushing badly. “Alright then, so you going to take your shower or do you want your food
rlm@2 248 now?” Chibiusa asked smiling happily knowing Hotaru was going to let her take care of her.
rlm@2 249 Hotaru was still blushing and thought, ‘Thank God I have you…’
rlm@2 250
rlm@2 251 Hotaru walked out of the bathroom carrying her cloths with her. She had finished taking her
rlm@2 252 shower and felt a lot better now. She dressed herself in a black nightgown, even though it was
rlm@2 253 still early in the day but Chibiusa wanted her to dress comfortable. It was nice knowing she had a
rlm@2 254 friend that cared so much for her, but Hotaru never really felt worthy of Chibiusa's friendship.
rlm@2 255 She was nothing like Chibiusa or any of her friends. She laughed alittle to herself when she
rlm@2 256 thought to herself that she was nothing like anyone! But if Chibiusa could hear her thoughts she
rlm@2 257 would scold Hotaru for thinking such foolish things. Chibiusa always said that out of all her
rlm@2 258 friends Hotaru meant the most to her because she was her first true friend. And she always said
rlm@2 259 that Hotaru was her special friend. Hotaru blushed remembering the first day Chibiusa said that to
rlm@2 260 her. It was when Chibiusa went to see her father, after Sailor Moon had saved Hotaru from the
rlm@2 261 silence. She was only a baby, but she clearly remembered Chibiusa holding her in her arms and
rlm@2 262 whispering, "Sweet Hotaru, I know you may not be able to understand me, but I couldn't leave
rlm@2 263 without saying good bye to you my special friend." Hotaru blushed more and quickly pulled
rlm@2 264 herself together before she entered her room. She knew Chibiusa was in there and she didn't want
rlm@2 265 to explain why she was blushing. She opened the door and dropped the cloths she was holding to
rlm@2 266 the floor in surprise. Her room, dark as always, had every lamp she ever collected lit up. The
rlm@2 267 room had a beautiful glow to it and for a second Hotaru didn't know if she was in the right room
rlm@2 268 or not. She had never lit all of them before. She could smell something sweet in the air as well.
rlm@2 269 "Jasmine," Chibiusa's voice said behind Hotaru. Hotaru turned around and saw Chibiusa was
rlm@2 270 dressed in a nurse's dress. Hotaru couldn't help but notice that it looked little too tight on her from
rlm@2 271 the waist up. "What's this?" Hotaru asked. "Just something to make you alittle more comfortable.
rlm@2 272 Come on lay down. I changed the sheets on your bed too because I knew you wouldn't want to
rlm@2 273 sleep in a sweaty bed." Chibiusa said with her finger in the air pointing up like she knew what she
rlm@2 274 was talking about. Hotaru only sweat drop. She walked in and sat down on her bed, Chibiusa had
rlm@2 275 put on the dark purple silk sheets Hotaru had. Chibiusa grabbed Hotaru's legs and lifted them up
rlm@2 276 to the bed before Hotaru could stop her. " Haruka and Michiru are out now, I told them I could
rlm@2 277 take care of you by myself and they agreed so it's just you and me." Chibiusa said. Hotaru
rlm@2 278 blushed and said, "Chibiusa this is all so very thoughtful of you but it's all too much. You
rlm@2 279 shouldn't have done all this for me. It must have took you all day." Chibiusa giggled and said,
rlm@2 280 "Hotaru I want to take care of you, making you relax is one of the ways I take care of people. Plus
rlm@2 281 I know you've had a hard couple of weeks and I haven't been a good friend by not being there for
rlm@2 282 you so this is the least I can do." Hotaru blushed more and shook her head. "You’re a wonderful
rlm@2 283 friend Chibiusa, more then I should have, thank you so much for all that you've done. It really
rlm@2 284 means a lot to me." Chibiusa bowed. "Your very welcome Tara-chan. And don't say such foolish
rlm@2 285 things about yourself."
rlm@2 286
rlm@2 287 Hotaru lay peacefully in bed after she had finished eating the dinner Chibiusa had brought her.
rlm@2 288 She remembered what Usagi told her about Minako and Chibiusa dressing up like nurses and
rlm@2 289 taking care of her. It made Hotaru laugh, even more when Usagi told her to watch out for that rice
rlm@2 290 gruel they would bring her. Just then Chibiusa walked in to Hotaru's room. She smiled to Hotaru
rlm@2 291 and asked, "Anything I can get you?" Hotaru giggled and said, "No Chibiusa I'm quiet fine.
rlm@2 292 You've already taken such great care of me I can't thank you enough." Chibiusa only nodded and
rlm@2 293 asked in serious tone, "Hotaru, may I talk to you about something?" Hotaru could tell the change
rlm@2 294 in her friend's tone and said, "Of course Chibiusa, what is it?" Chibiusa walked to the bed and sat
rlm@2 295 next to Hotaru. "I know now. I know what you think about me." Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa
rlm@2 296 when she heard her say that and a feeling of fear ran down Hotaru's spine. "What…what do you
rlm@2 297 mean?" Hotaru asked. Chibiusa took Hotaru's hand and said, "You know what I mean, I know
rlm@2 298 what you feel for me, that you're in love with me." Chibiusa's voice was heavy with emotion and
rlm@2 299 Hotaru was scared now that Chibiusa would hate her for knowing what she really thought about
rlm@2 300 her friend. "Chibiusa…I…I know its wrong to think such things but…I can't help it." Hotaru had
rlm@2 301 tears in her eyes and jumped out of her bed and gave Chibiusa a hard look. "I won't lie about it
rlm@2 302 anymore, yes I do love you Chibiusa! I've loved you for a long time because you’re a special
rlm@2 303 person to me and you mean so much to me that I can't imagine a life with out you." Hotaru yelled,
rlm@2 304 tears running down her face. She was very scared about what Chibiusa would say about this but
rlm@2 305 she knew she had to say it. It was the right thing to say. "You make my days worth living, you've
rlm@2 306 always been there for me when even God himself abandoned me. When everyone thought I was
rlm@2 307 just a cold-hearted killer you were the only one that would stand beside me and protect me, even
rlm@2 308 when I turned on all of you, you still wouldn't give up on me. You saved my life; you saved my
rlm@2 309 soul from the darkness that would have swallowed me whole. You’re the light in my life, how
rlm@2 310 could I not fall in love with you?" Hotaru said before she fell to her knees crying. "I love you and
rlm@2 311 I know you must think I'm a freak now more then ever." Hotaru was breaking down and Chibiusa
rlm@2 312 went right to her and made Hotaru face her. The two girls looked into each other's eyes for while,
rlm@2 313 one seeing sadness and begging for forgiveness, the other seeing only concern and what someone
rlm@2 314 would have mistaken for love. "Chibiusa, I…" Hotaru never had the chance to finish her
rlm@2 315 sentence. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru toward her and pressed her lips against hers. Hotaru's eyes grew
rlm@2 316 big with surprise and shock; Chibiusa's eyes however were closed. Hotaru didn't know what to
rlm@2 317 do, she wasn't even breathing. Chibiusa put her arms around Hotaru's neck and Hotaru closed her
rlm@2 318 eyes, putting her arms around Chibiusa waist. The two girls relaxed and kissed each other for
rlm@2 319 what seemed to them like hours. Finally, Chibiusa broke the kiss. Both girls' cheeks were red.
rlm@2 320 "When you collapsed at your door after I left I was so scared that I couldn't get you to open your
rlm@2 321 eyes, I prayed to God that you weren't going to die. I would have done anything to make you
rlm@2 322 open your eyes again. I would have traded my life for yours. And then finally after help came, I
rlm@2 323 thought to myself what would have happened if you had died right there and then. I would have
rlm@2 324 been lost without you. The thought of losing you twice, no, three times was too much for me. I
rlm@2 325 swear I was so scared I wouldn't leave your room. I stayed by your bedside holding your hand
rlm@2 326 hoping and waiting for you to open your eyes again. All the while, I read more of your diary, and
rlm@2 327 I realized I had felt the same about you all the time. And when I thought I was going to lose you, I
rlm@2 328 made myself promise that when you woke up I wasn't going to lie to myself anymore. I wouldn't
rlm@2 329 want to leave your side and most importantly, I wanted to let you know I left the same way about
rlm@2 330 you." Chibiusa and Hotaru were both crying after Chibiusa's speech. Hotaru was crying the worst
rlm@2 331 and hid her face in Chibiusa's chest. "Say it again please?" she asked. Chibiusa held Hotaru
rlm@2 332 tightly, as if she was going to fade away and whispered, "I love you Hotaru." Hotaru stayed in
rlm@2 333 Chibiusa's arms crying for an hour, thinking of how impossible it all seemed. How wrong it
rlm@2 334 would seem that anyone would love a monster like her. But Chibiusa never let her go and Hotaru
rlm@2 335 knew inside her heart that she would never let her go, just like she would never let Chibiusa go.
rlm@2 336
rlm@2 337 Hours had past, maybe more? Hotaru didn't care. Both her and Chibiusa were lying in her bed,
rlm@2 338 Hotaru still in Chibiusa's arms. Her face was tear stained but she wasn't crying anymore. "What
rlm@2 339 are you thinking Hotaru?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru's back was toward Chibiusa and she couldn't
rlm@2 340 see her face but Chibiusa knew she was not all right. Hotaru sighed and said, "I…I just still can't
rlm@2 341 get over it I guess. I prayed so hard that someday someone would treat me like a normal person,
rlm@2 342 and then I met you. Then I wished to fall in love with someone who would really love me back,
rlm@2 343 not just say it, but mean it in every way it can be meant. Like the person's heart would say I love
rlm@2 344 you, not their mouth. Then I began to realize just how important you were to me, and how much
rlm@2 345 you truly me to me." Hotaru turned around and faced Chibiusa; the first thing she noticed where
rlm@2 346 how Chibiusa's eyes glowed in the light the lamps around them gave out. 'Beautiful.' Hotaru
rlm@2 347 thought to herself. "Hotaru, why didn't you tell me this sooner? Why were you afraid to tell me?"
rlm@2 348 Chibiusa asked. Hotaru laughed alittle to the question and said, "What would you have thought if
rlm@2 349 one day I came up to you and said 'Chibiusa I'm in love with you'? Besides, I was so sure you
rlm@2 350 wouldn't feel the same way. I mean, I'm your best friend, at least I think I am still, and plus I'm a
rlm@2 351 girl, I was worried what you would think about that, not to mention what everyone else would
rlm@2 352 think. I didn't want to but you in that kind of situation. And what could you love in a freak like
rlm@2 353 me?" Chibiusa placed her hand on Hotaru's cheek and put her forehead to Hotaru's. "Don't say
rlm@2 354 such foolish things Hotaru. Your not a freak, never have been and never will be." Chibiusa said.
rlm@2 355 She kissed Hotaru's forehead and continued, "I'll admit I can understand why you didn't tell me.
rlm@2 356 But I'm glad I found out. You’re a special person to me Hotaru; you were my first real friend
rlm@2 357 when I came to this time. You saved my hat when you didn't even know me, and you knew you
rlm@2 358 shouldn't had been running. I can always trust you just like you can always trust me. So trust me
rlm@2 359 when I say I do not care what Usagi or anyone else would say about you and me. One of the
rlm@2 360 things my mother taught me was that love is love, love is unbiased and there is no wrong way to
rlm@2 361 love someone, and I love you Hotaru. You’re the reason why I came back to this time again."
rlm@2 362 Hotaru was hiding her face from Chibiusa's and could feel her eyes watering. "But…I'm crazy."
rlm@2 363 Hotaru whispered, not wanting Chibiusa to hear. Chibiusa lifted Hotaru's face back up to hers and
rlm@2 364 whispered back, "Your not crazy Tara-chan. Actually, from what I see right now, your beautiful."
rlm@2 365 Chibiusa smiled a loving smile to Hotaru and gave her a soft and gentle kiss. Hotaru felt her body
rlm@2 366 stiffen to the kiss but it didn't stop her from kissing back. Their kissed lasted for what seemed like
rlm@2 367 forever to them. Chibiusa broke the kiss from Hotaru's soft lips and started kissing her cheeks and
rlm@2 368 her forehead, everywhere on Hotaru's face. Hotaru started kissing Chibiusa neck and made her
rlm@2 369 way down. She stopped at Chibiusa's transformation brooch and gave it a soft kiss; to her it felt
rlm@2 370 like kissing Chibiusa's heart. Chibiusa put her hands on Hotaru's cheeks and brought her face to
rlm@2 371 hers. "I love you Hotaru." she whispered. Hotaru blushed deeply and whispered back, "I love you
rlm@2 372 too Chibiusa." Chibiusa smiled slyly and whispered again in Hotaru's ear, "Then, may I show you
rlm@2 373 just how much I love you?" Hotaru's face and her body got hot with those words and all she could
rlm@2 374 do was nod.
rlm@2 375
rlm@2 376 Hotaru laid on her back under the black silk sheets of her queen size bed. She was wearing a
rlm@2 377 simple rose red nightgown with a black lace trim on the shoulders and at the skirt. Her cheeks had
rlm@2 378 a red glow to them as Chibiusa pulled some of the sheets away and went into the bed. She was
rlm@2 379 wearing a soft pink nightgown made out of silk. She pulled the covers back up and embraced the
rlm@2 380 other girl. Hotaru's cheeks had brightened as she wrapped her arms around Chibiusa slim waist.
rlm@2 381 She was trembling slightly to being so close to the person who she had secretly had been
rlm@2 382 fantasizing about for so long. She looked into Chibiusa's ruby eyes and became lost within them.
rlm@2 383 "Are you sure you're ok with this Tara-chan? You don't have to force yourself." Chibiusa said in a
rlm@2 384 gently whisper. Hotaru pulled herself closer to Chibiusa and said weakly, "No, I've been
rlm@2 385 dreaming about this for so long. I never thought it was possible but now that it has truly happened
rlm@2 386 I want to be as close to you as possible." Hotaru put her hand on the back of Chibiusa's head and
rlm@2 387 gave her a passionate kiss. To her it was like kissing a divine angel. Chibiusa's lips were soft like
rlm@2 388 rose petals and just as sweet. To Chibiusa, kissing Hotaru was like kissing a star; it was nothing
rlm@2 389 short of amazing. Their tongue's danced in their mouths and their fingers locked together, never
rlm@2 390 wanting to part, just like them. Chibiusa turned Hotaru over so she was on top oh her. Their kiss
rlm@2 391 deepened not only in length but also in feeling. Hotaru began moaning softly as Chibiusa began
rlm@2 392 giving her quick butterfly kisses to Hotaru's sweet neck. Hotaru moaned louder, making Chibiusa
rlm@2 393 more excited and said almost in a plea, "Chibiusa, I love you." Chibiusa blushed and responded
rlm@2 394 with more kisses to Hotaru's neck and a whisper, "I love you too Hotaru." Chibiusa pulled the
rlm@2 395 shoulders of Hotaru's nightgown down and pulled the soft garment off, exposing Hotaru's soft
rlm@2 396 pale skin. Hotaru wasn't wearing anything underneath the nightgown and felt her naked body turn
rlm@2 397 red with embarrassment. "You really are a goddess aren’t you," Chibiusa said, winking to Hotaru.
rlm@2 398 Hotaru blushed more and pulled Chibiusa up to her, kissing her deeply and untying the garment
rlm@2 399 in the back that Chibiusa was wearing. When she pulled it off, she found that she wasn't the only
rlm@2 400 one that didn't wear anything underneath their nightgown. Hotaru laid underneath Chibiusa and
rlm@2 401 smiled to her. Chibiusa smiled back and started to kiss Hotaru's chest. Chibiusa heard Hotaru
rlm@2 402 moan softly as she started to kiss Hotaru's breast. She could feel Hotaru's hand moving up and
rlm@2 403 down her back. Chibiusa took one of Hotaru's breasts in her mouth and sucked gently on it,
rlm@2 404 playing with the other one with her hand. Hotaru arched her back up slightly, putting her leg
rlm@2 405 between Chibiusa's as she started running her hands threw Chibiusa soft hair. She undid the
rlm@2 406 odango's, letting Chibiusa's hair fall free down the length of her back. Chibiusa could feel
rlm@2 407 Hotaru's leg between hers and started to move her hips along the length of Hotaru's soft silky leg.
rlm@2 408 She let Hotaru's breast go and started to kiss her tummy. Hotaru giggled slightly to the feeling as
rlm@2 409 she started to kiss the top of Chibiusa head, taking in the scent of roses in her hair. Chibiusa
rlm@2 410 smiled and brought her face down lower. She spread Hotaru's legs apart and gave Hotaru a sly
rlm@2 411 smile. Hotaru didn’t know what Chibiusa was going to do until it was too late. Chibiusa bent her
rlm@2 412 head down and gently licked Hotaru's untouched flower. Hotaru let out a yell to the feeling of
rlm@2 413 Chibiusa wet tongue giving her pleasure that she never knew of. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru moaned as
rlm@2 414 she placed her hands on Chibiusa head, almost pushing her head closer. Chibiusa responded to
rlm@2 415 Hotaru's moans by taking all of Hotaru in her mouth, licking and kissing her. Hotaru started to
rlm@2 416 move her hips in the rhythm of Chibiusa tongue, keeping her eyes closed and moaning louder and
rlm@2 417 louder. Chibiusa was enjoying hearing Hotaru moan and say her name repeatedly. She pulled
rlm@2 418 Hotaru's lips apart slightly and pushed a finger inside of her. Hotaru gave a loud yell as she
rlm@2 419 started to feel something inside of here building up. "Chibiusa…don't stop." Hotaru panted. "I
rlm@2 420 won't, trust me." Chibiusa said as she pushed another finger inside of the lavender haired girl.
rlm@2 421 Hotaru arched her back as much as she could and finally it hit her. Her first orgasm left like a
rlm@2 422 shock of electricity running threw her body, stealing her strength but giving her unimaginable
rlm@2 423 pleasure. "Oh my God, you must be an angel cause I think you just took me to heaven." Hotaru
rlm@2 424 said as she took deep breaths. Chibiusa giggled and said, "I guess I was good." Hotaru sat up and
rlm@2 425 nodded. "Now I want to return the favor." Hotaru said as she pulled Chibiusa into her arms,
rlm@2 426 kissing her passionately. Chibiusa was caught off guard by the kiss but soon came over that.
rlm@2 427 Hotaru moved behind Chibiusa and started kissing her shoulder blade and neck while her hands
rlm@2 428 wondered all over Chibiusa body. Chibiusa moaned softly in Hotaru's ear and whispered, "Be
rlm@2 429 gentle." Hotaru kissed the back of Chibiusa ear and said, "With you, always princess." Hotaru's
rlm@2 430 hands grabbed Chibiusa breast and started to play with them, gently as Chibiusa had requested.
rlm@2 431 Chibiusa gave a small moan and took Hotaru's cheek in her hand and turned her head to kiss her.
rlm@2 432 As they kissed Hotaru's hands started to work magic into Chibiusa as they started to glow in a
rlm@2 433 soft purple light. She took Chibiusa nipples between her fingers and gave a slight twist. Chibiusa
rlm@2 434 started to moan louder, saying Hotaru's name with each breath as Hotaru continued to pleasure
rlm@2 435 her. Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa and said, "Now like I said before, I'll return the favor you
rlm@2 436 gave me." She spread Chibiusa's legs apart, exposing the girl's wet and untouched flower. Hotaru
rlm@2 437 lifted Chibiusa's pussy to her mouth and took her all in. Chibiusa let a short scream out when she
rlm@2 438 left Hotaru's tongue washing over her sensitive area and then let another one out when she felt it
rlm@2 439 go in her. "Oh Hotaru, oh my God don't stop, please don't stop." Chibi begged as she pushed
rlm@2 440 Hotaru's head closer to her. Hotaru pushed her tongue in as deep as she could, enjoying the little
rlm@2 441 Chibiusa pie she was having. Finally, Chibiusa couldn't take anymore of the pleasure Hotaru was
rlm@2 442 giving her and gave one last finally yell before her body stiffened and her heart forgot to beat.
rlm@2 443 Chibiusa collapsed on the bed panting for air. Hotaru put her fingers inside of Chibiusa and took a
rlm@2 444 taste of the pink haired girl. She didn't know just how to describe it other then sweet and kinda of
rlm@2 445 bitter. All and all, her Chibiusa pie was good.
rlm@2 446
rlm@2 447 Chibiusa finally started to breathe normally again and noticed Hotaru was gone. She looked
rlm@2 448 around the room but there was no sight of her. Suddenly the lights in the room went off and a
rlm@2 449 cold chill entered the room. Chibiusa was still naked and started shivering. "Hotaru? Where are
rlm@2 450 you?" Suddenly out of no where Hotaru appeared, but as Sailor Saturn. "Hotaru?" Chibiusa
rlm@2 451 asked. "I am Sailor Saturn, the soldier born to darkness and death. I was born alone, and meant to
rlm@2 452 die alone for I am the forbidden soldier who should never have been. But now I live for a new
rlm@2 453 reason now. Not to snuff out a worlds dying light, nor to walk the path of ruin and silence, but to
rlm@2 454 serve and protect the princess of the future Crystal Tokyo, Small Lady Chibiusa. And I promise to
rlm@2 455 serve, honor, protect, and love her for all the days of my life, and the rest of all eternity." Sailor
rlm@2 456 Saturn said bowing on one knee to Chibiusa. Chibiusa could feel tears in her eyes and jumped off
rlm@2 457 the bed and took Saturn in her arms. "Oh Hotaru I love you so much!" Saturn put her arms around
rlm@2 458 Chibiusa and said, "And I love you my princess, more then the word love cane even describe."
rlm@2 459 With that the two girls shared a deep a loving kiss that they would always remember for the rest
rlm@2 460 of their lives and even after that. Saturn quickly took Chibiusa in her arms and lifted her up,
rlm@2 461 carrying her back into the bed. She laid her down and got on top of her. She kissed her gently on
rlm@2 462 the lips and put her arms around Chibiusa. Chibiusa did the same and Saturn's fuku began to
rlm@2 463 disappear, leaving behind only purple ribbons around Hotaru's naked figure. The ribbons seemed
rlm@2 464 to go around Chibiusa as well, binding the two together. Hotaru pushed herself on Chibiusa and
rlm@2 465 moaned when her sex was rubbed up against Chibiusa. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru into a deeper kiss
rlm@2 466 as the two started to rub up against each other. They turned around and switched places with each
rlm@2 467 other, but always would the ribbons keep them together, just like their newfound love would keep
rlm@2 468 their hearts and their souls together forever. Hotaru began to move her hips faster and harder,
rlm@2 469 making both her and Chibiusa pant harder and harder, each one saying the others name over and
rlm@2 470 over again until they both stopped when an explosion hit both of them at the same time. The two
rlm@2 471 lovers came together, each one screaming "I love you," each one holding on to the other tightly
rlm@2 472 hoping nothing would pull them apart. Hotaru fell on top of Chibiusa exhausted and tired.
rlm@2 473 Chibiusa panted hard and was very tired herself. Without saying a word, the couple fell asleep in
rlm@2 474 each other's arms, the ribbons around them still holding them together. But when they would
rlm@2 475 wake, it would be their hearts that would hold the two together for the rest of their lives.
rlm@2 476
rlm@2 477
rlm@2 478
rlm@2 479 The end.
rlm@2 480
rlm@2 481 Well that’s all! I hope you enjoyed my story. Again this is my first attempt to writing a
rlm@2 482 Sekkushiaru Roman. I welcome any comments or feedback and you can e-mail me at
rlm@2 483 saturn_archangel@hotbot.com. I hope you enjoyed my story. ^_^