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1 Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me. They are the property of their respective owners (CLAMP...etc.).
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2 The song is by Lonestar and the lyrics belong to the songwriters. PLEASE do not post my fan fics without my
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3 permission!
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4
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5 Songfic: Smile
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6 by samuraiheart
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7
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8 Notes: This is from Tomoyo's point of view. The song lyrics are in italics
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11
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12 I still remember the night we met
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13 You said you loved my smile
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14
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15 I've known Sakura for so long. I can't imagine what my world would be like without her. Somehow I always imagined we'd be
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16 together forever. I love her very much and I hope she understands that. I've told her a thousand times in the way I look at her,
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17 the things I say to her, the things I do for her and the way I smile. She's always loved my smile.
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18
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19 But your love for me was like a summer breeze
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20 Oh it lasted for a while
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21
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22 We went through so much together as she fought to save the world from disaster. I was always there by her side - cheering her
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23 on. I cherish every moment I've spent in her presence. It's a shame that videotape can't always capture it all, but I remember. I
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24 could never forget - the thrill of being near Sakura just for a few moments is enough to last a lifetime. It is enough for me just to
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25 have those memories. At least I can keep telling myself that. I know a part of her will always love me even if she never says it.
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26 We are best friends and we can never lose that special bond. It's hard for me to admit that it will never grow into more than
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27 that.
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28
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29 I could hold on a little tighter I know
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30 But when you love someone
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31 You gotta let em go
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32
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33 I know she loves Shaolan and I don't want to stand in her way. I want her to be happy more than anything else and I know
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34 they belong together. Sakura promises me that we will never lose touch and I believe her. I would follow her to the ends of the
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35 earth to make sure of it. I will always be the one she can come to when she needs a friend. Her friendship means so much to
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36 me that I can push aside my broken heart so she won't see the tears.
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37
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38 So I'm gonna smile
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39 Cause I wanna make you happy
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40 Laugh so you can't see me cry
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41 I'm gonna let you go in style
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42 And even if it kills me
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43 I'm gonna smile
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44
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45 I smile when I see them together. I can't help it. Making Sakura happy matters more to me than any ache in my own soul. I can
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46 shed my tears alone in the darkness, but I can never let Sakura see. Mine are tears of emptiness and loneliness, but not
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47 sadness. I am happy for Sakura and I smile so that she will know this. I want nothing more than to make Sakura happy and I
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48 don't think could live with myself if I was ever responsible for a single tear on her beautiful cheek. I know that if I told her how
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49 much I loved her she would have to make a horrible choice and I'm not sure I could live with her decision. It's better this way.
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50 I can hold it inside and she can go on with her life.
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51
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52 Kiss me once for the good times baby
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53 Kiss me twice for goodbye
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54
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55 I stand before her now not sure what to do. I must say goodbye and let go of all my hopes and dreams. It's just another day to
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56 her. We will see each other tomorrow at school she reminds me as I struggle with the word goodbye. My voice cracks and
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57 shakes a little. Yes. I know I say, but my thoughts echo with the words it will never be the same. I blink back tears and hope
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58 she doesn't notice. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I know I have to do it for her. Everything I do is for her.
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59 As she turns away a sudden impulse hits me and I shout "SAKURA!" She turns around and looks at me puzzled. I run to her
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60 and throw my arms around her hugging her tightly. She returns the hug as I whisper in her ear "thanks for everything" Sakura
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61 pauses for a moment as our eyes meet. I try to hide my sadness, but I see my reflection in her sparkling eyes. For a moment I
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62 wonder if she understands as she kisses me softly on the cheek. "Goodbye Tomoyo... I'll see you in school." Two hands part
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63 and mine remains outstretched reaching for something I can never have.
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64
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65 You can't help how you don't feel
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66 And it doesn't matter why
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67 Give me a chance to bow out gracefully
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68 Cause that's how I want you to remember me
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69
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70 I watch her walk away and let out a deep breath I didn't realize I was holding in. This is for the best, I remind myself. We will
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71 always be friends and I will always be hers even if she can't be mine.
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72
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73 I'm gonna smile
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74 Cause I wanna make you happy
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75 Laugh so you can't see me cry
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76 I'm gonna let you go in style
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77 And Even if it kills me
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78 I'm gonna smile
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79
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80 At the end of the street she turns around. At first I am embarrassed that I am still standing there, but my patience earns me a
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81 precious gift as Sakura smiles brightly and waves at me before turning around and rushing home. I smile and return the wave.
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82 The image will stay with me always as an unspoken acceptance of my hidden promise to her. I will always love you, but you
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83 must find your own love. Go and be happy Sakura. You deserve it more than anyone else in this world. More than me.
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84
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85 I'm gonna smile
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86 So you can find the courage
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87 Laugh so you won't see me hurting
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88 I'm gonna let you go in style
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89 And even if it kills me
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90 I'm gonna smile
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91
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92 Please ignore the tears on my cheeks because I am smiling.
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