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1 Tomoyo's Magic
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2 by rphjas
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3 rphjas@yahoo.com
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5 ---------------
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6
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7 Dear Diary..
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8
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9 It has been several months since I began living with her and Sonomi-
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10 sama. That fateful night..the night I discovered I was her special
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11 someone.. started a whole new chapter in my life. I was surprised by
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12 my family's reaction to our proposal that I live with her. Father was
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13 not upset ,but relieved that I would not be by myself
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14 anymore..especially with his long hours and Onii-chan's part-time
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15 jobs keeping them from home so much. Sonomi-sama was thrilled with
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16 the idea. She was very excited that her beloved Nadesico's daughter
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17 would be living in her large home. Likewise, all of the staff and
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18 bodyguards have been so warm and kind to me. Tomoyo and I share the
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19 same room and large bed. It seems like everyone has been supportive
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20 with the move all the way around. Even my usually gruff Onii-chan is
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21 pleased.. now that Syaoran is out of my heart. And of course, Tomoyo
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22 and I still keep my sorceress affairs secret..even though all of the
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23 Cards have been captured long ago.
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24
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25 Each day has been so wonderful and filled with great joy. We
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26 sometimes study together after classes in Penguin Park or cheer for
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27 each other as we participate in our different clubs. School days are
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28 spent like before the move, except I hold hands with her more. If
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29 there is nobody around though, playful mischievous Tomoyo encircles
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30 my waist with her tiny arms and kisses me with her soft lips. Even
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31 now, she still adores my looks of surprise and my blushing cheeks.
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32
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33 Tonight, I write in you after another session of love-making. In the
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34 moon light, Tomoyo's bare shoulder peeks above the sheets. She sleeps
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35 on her side facing mine, and the bed looks gigantic with only her in
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36 it. Her hands are together..fingers clasped as if in prayer. From the
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37 open window, a gentle breeze moves her long black hair. Her face
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38 wears a smile now..a smile I can always see. It is no longer forced.
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39 Her grief and sadness forever gone, she has thrown all of her masks
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40 away. With each breath, a strand of her hair floats skyward. Her
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41 mouth soundlessly utters my name. I know because she now wears that
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42 special smile..the one that is just for me. Her fingers automatically
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43 seek me..drawn to the warmth of my vacated portion of the mattress. A
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44 troubled look crosses her face, and I quickly summon Mirror to kindly
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45 take my place. Mirror copies my image and quickly gets into the bed.
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46 Tomoyo's questing fingers find her, and her special smile once again
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47 lights her face.
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48
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49 With relief, I return to my thoughts and writing..while Mirror holds
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50 Tomoyo close..stroking her hair..and holding her close. Snuggling,
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51 Tomoyo sleeps peacefully again. I should hurry this entry, though.
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52 Mirror can not fool her heart for long. I may be the sorceress, but
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53 Tomoyo has an even greater power. Tonight, I see it..a powerful
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54 aura..an aura that should consume her porcelain doll-like body. She
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55 loves me so completely and so intensely that I worry she will break
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56 one day. I feel a knot of fear in my belly.. a fear of the unknown
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57 future. What would I do if I woke up one morning..only to kiss cold
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58 lips..and discover her lifeless?
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59
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60 During nights of worry, I have been trying to create a magic of my
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61 own. Tomoyo has always been frail. So, I want to create a Card of
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62 Health and Healing..one I can use for her when she is ill. But so
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63 far, I have had no success. I have always relied on her, but I
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64 understand now that it would be unbearable for me to lose her. I
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65 crave her soft lips and her lavender eyes..the warmth of her
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66 body..and the bath her love prepares for me..that always cleanses my
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67 heart..
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68
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69 During my first days with her, I was always apologizing. I felt
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70 guilty for being so slow to perceive her love for me..and mine for
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71 her..for all of those lonely tear-filled nights she lived through. I
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72 cried from all of the scars I cut into her heart. But, with her usual
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73 tenderness, she would only kiss me and bid me to worry about that no
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74 more. All of those nights lived only in her past, and she looks now
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75 only to our future. Even with the Return Card, I could never undo
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76 those wounds. The paradox of Time prevents me. So, reluctantly, I
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77 complied with her wishes.
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78
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79 With my own voice, Mirror whispers across the room to me. Tomoyo
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80 frowns and stirs restlessly. With my quiet thanks, Mirror and I
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81 switch places. I kiss Tomoyo's upturned cheek and once more see her
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82 special smile. Her mystical aura of love envelops us both in its
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83 protective blanket..covering our unclothed bodies..soothing us into a
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84 deep and peaceful sleep...burning all my concerns away.. |
