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rlm@2 1 We Meet Again (Shoujo-Ai Archive Fanfiction)We Meet Again
rlm@2 2 a Card Captor Sakura fanfiction by Kamui Ikari
rlm@2 3 Hi!!! I'm back with a new story of CCS. I remembered that I promised
rlm@2 4 time ago I would make a story called "We meet again", but I forgot it.
rlm@2 5 Then I did "You and me, together forever", "Maņana" then finally I did
rlm@2 6 this story. This story will closure that period that I started with
rlm@2 7 "She won't cry for you", "Don't lose Hope" and "Tomoyo's Farewell
rlm@2 8 Letter", these ones are about Tomoyo's destiny after the ugly ending of
rlm@2 9 CCS, especially "She won't cry for you" where Tomoyo's destiny is
rlm@2 10 facing at her fifteen years old her own death. Really, I never thought
rlm@2 11 why I made these stories. It was a moment a depression, but I finally
rlm@2 12 decided not make these type of stories nevermore. Because I realized
rlm@2 13 that I was giving the reason to the Sakura x Syaoran fans. Why?. Maybe
rlm@2 14 in my opinion, for them this topic is closed, but for me not. They have
rlm@2 15 their happy ending, then why I would make more stories only to give
rlm@2 16 them the reason? Honestly, I would accept the official ending, but I
rlm@2 17 don't and never. Why?. In my opinion, the ending was very forced,
rlm@2 18 Sakura started to see Syaoran as a friend but in the last volume of
rlm@2 19 manga, she fell in love with him so fast, and ended with him in the
rlm@2 20 end. For me it's ugly, but for the S+S fans it's okay, they ended
rlm@2 21 together and that's all. But for me that relationship is not
rlm@2 22 convincing, Sakura fell in love with him so fast. That kind of "fast
rlm@2 23 relationship" is not convincing for me. Another point that I don't like
rlm@2 24 it, is that Tomoyo was the only character that ended alone in the end,
rlm@2 25 all ended with someone in the end less her. Well, enough of thoughts
rlm@2 26 but I need to get out of my chest.
rlm@2 27
rlm@2 28 Some points:
rlm@2 29
rlm@2 30 -The story takes places after the end oof CCS.
rlm@2 31 -It seems for the title that is a S+S sstory, but I'm sorry. It's a yuri
rlm@2 32 fic, of course you must know what is yuri but I will explain: is a term
rlm@2 33 designed for love between girls, women, etc. So if you don't like these
rlm@2 34 type of stories please leave, if you like please go on.
rlm@2 35
rlm@2 36 I hope you liked it and I will see you at the end of story.
rlm@2 37
rlm@2 38 -----------------------------------------------------------------------
rlm@2 39
rlm@2 40 How did it start? It started when I was ten years old, I remember that
rlm@2 41 I was waiting on my seat when I met her. She gave me an eraser and said
rlm@2 42 that she was glad to give me that. We became best friends and we did
rlm@2 43 many things together, but all that changed. She found the Clow Book and
rlm@2 44 opened it, then she became the Card Captor. I made costumes for her,
rlm@2 45 recorded her on video, anything that she needed I was willing to give
rlm@2 46 her.
rlm@2 47
rlm@2 48 He came too. A Chinese boy that was her rival first, later her friend
rlm@2 49 and finally her number one person.
rlm@2 50
rlm@2 51 It's true that I said I'd him give a try, I was hoping that she will be
rlm@2 52 happy with him, I was hoping to stay with her until the day that I
rlm@2 53 would tell her my true feelings.
rlm@2 54
rlm@2 55 She choose him as her number one person, she and him gave the names to
rlm@2 56 the bears. He left to Hong Kong and she promised to wait for him. I
rlm@2 57 remember when she left to find him and tell her feelings.
rlm@2 58
rlm@2 59 I was smiling, then I knew that my true feelings would be sealed
rlm@2 60 forever and went to my house. I think that my mother entered in my
rlm@2 61 room, she found me in bed. She looked at me with an understanding look
rlm@2 62 on her face, she embraced me and didn't say anything.
rlm@2 63
rlm@2 64 I remembered that I cried so much.
rlm@2 65
rlm@2 66 She was naive as I was. I was naive because I was hoping that she would
rlm@2 67 choose me as her number one person. But she didn't. She is my number
rlm@2 68 one person but I wasn't for her. I was in love with her, but she ended
rlm@2 69 with him. After he left, things seemed to return to normal. We did the
rlm@2 70 same things that we did together before, but she usually said that she
rlm@2 71 couldn't wait to see him again. She thanked me for being her best
rlm@2 72 friend.
rlm@2 73
rlm@2 74 I smiled at her, but inside me I knew that was the end for my chances
rlm@2 75 of telling her my feelings. After five years he returned to Japan, I
rlm@2 76 saw their meeting and she said that they will be together forever.
rlm@2 77
rlm@2 78 Once again I smiled but my heart broke again.
rlm@2 79
rlm@2 80 Then all changed, we started a new period on college. A new group of
rlm@2 81 students came to our classroom. She was very popular in class, they
rlm@2 82 became her friends and I was happy. Chiharu, Rika, Yamazaki and Naoko
rlm@2 83 weren't with us. They parted from us, looking for their own path.
rlm@2 84
rlm@2 85 When the classes were over, she waited for him, he came for her and
rlm@2 86 they leave as usually they did. They greeted me as always they did.
rlm@2 87 Then I walked to my home alone as I always did.
rlm@2 88
rlm@2 89 Life was showing my destiny, a destiny that suited me, alone.
rlm@2 90
rlm@2 91 During that time she didn't call me at my house like the times she did
rlm@2 92 before, the calls were distant. In school, I was wishing to do
rlm@2 93 something for her. I asked her if she needed something many times. Her
rlm@2 94 response was the same:
rlm@2 95
rlm@2 96 "No, I don't. Thank you."
rlm@2 97
rlm@2 98 I asked her if she wanted to talk with me, but she said that she
rlm@2 99 didn't.
rlm@2 100
rlm@2 101 I knew when I wasn't needed.
rlm@2 102
rlm@2 103 I didn't press her to have a talk with me or need something. I just let
rlm@2 104 her go.
rlm@2 105
rlm@2 106 I saw many times how she went to her new friends to ask something, need
rlm@2 107 something and how they agreed. She was happy with them. She and him
rlm@2 108 went with them to their dates. She was happy with him.
rlm@2 109
rlm@2 110 When Valentine's Day came I made chocolates for her. I was hoping that
rlm@2 111 at least she would receive them. When I gave it to her, she thanked me
rlm@2 112 but she returned them to me. She said that I would give them to a boy,
rlm@2 113 because all girls do that, giving chocolates to a boy. I said that I
rlm@2 114 didn't have a boy and I would like to give them to her. But she said
rlm@2 115 that she wouldn't receive them, she said that when we're children it
rlm@2 116 was normal, but that now it was different. Because a girl that did that
rlm@2 117 it wasn't "normal".
rlm@2 118
rlm@2 119 My heart broke again.
rlm@2 120
rlm@2 121 She gave them to me and left. He was waiting for her and had a box of
rlm@2 122 them for her, they embraced and kissed. Once again I smiled.
rlm@2 123
rlm@2 124 I left the place and when the class was over I went to my house. I left
rlm@2 125 them on the desk and I collapsed on my bed crying. The next day I
rlm@2 126 looked for her and said that I was sorry but I wanted to give it to her
rlm@2 127 because she was my best friend. She said that Valentine's Day is a day
rlm@2 128 for the ones who were in love, not friends. She asked if I saw someone
rlm@2 129 of the girls doing that. I said to her no, she said that I was the only
rlm@2 130 one who did that and her friends said to her that I wasn't normal. Then
rlm@2 131 she said that became a rumor through college. I asked her if she
rlm@2 132 believed it. Her response was simple:
rlm@2 133
rlm@2 134 "Yes."
rlm@2 135
rlm@2 136 I asked to her what she saw on me that could be considered "not
rlm@2 137 normal". She said that I was obsessed with her. I was in love with her,
rlm@2 138 I was worried about her, I wanted her to be happy, is that called
rlm@2 139 obsession?
rlm@2 140
rlm@2 141 It seems that for others is, but not for me.
rlm@2 142
rlm@2 143 For me it's to be in love with her.
rlm@2 144
rlm@2 145 She said that her friends said that I'm different, I asked her what
rlm@2 146 they said.
rlm@2 147
rlm@2 148 "They said that you're... a lesbian."
rlm@2 149
rlm@2 150 Once again, I asked her if she believed it.
rlm@2 151
rlm@2 152 "I don't want to believe that you..."
rlm@2 153
rlm@2 154 "That I'm?" I asked her serious.
rlm@2 155
rlm@2 156 "No, I don't want to believe..."
rlm@2 157
rlm@2 158 Maybe a talk could help it...
rlm@2 159
rlm@2 160 I extended my hand but she said:
rlm@2 161
rlm@2 162 "Please... don't touch me, please don't look at me, you... scare me"
rlm@2 163 she said to me with tears in her eyes.
rlm@2 164
rlm@2 165 Then I smiled to her and said:
rlm@2 166
rlm@2 167 "You believe them, don't you? Please be honest" I said smiling.
rlm@2 168
rlm@2 169 "At first no, but now it seems that yes" she said with tears.
rlm@2 170
rlm@2 171 Before saying something, she said:
rlm@2 172
rlm@2 173 "Please go, please go, please go... please" she said crying.
rlm@2 174
rlm@2 175 I smiled with tears and then I left her alone but I said something:
rlm@2 176
rlm@2 177 "I just want you to be happy , that's all"
rlm@2 178
rlm@2 179 She didn't say anything and I left.
rlm@2 180
rlm@2 181 The following week was harder.
rlm@2 182
rlm@2 183 When I entered in the class, nobody greeted me. I heard them saying
rlm@2 184 that I was a freak, a lesbian, a error of nature. Nobody wanted to
rlm@2 185 speak me, to ask me something, and needing something... nothing from
rlm@2 186 me.
rlm@2 187
rlm@2 188 She didn't talk to me, when I was looking for her she avoided her gaze,
rlm@2 189 she changed her seat. She went far from me. When the class was over, I
rlm@2 190 just went to my house. My mother was taking care of my little brother,
rlm@2 191 Kenji. He born when I was 13 years old. She saw me and left him and
rlm@2 192 came to me.
rlm@2 193
rlm@2 194 She embraced me again and said:
rlm@2 195
rlm@2 196 "Just let it out, let it out"
rlm@2 197
rlm@2 198 Once again I cried.
rlm@2 199
rlm@2 200 After that I went to my room and locked it, I went to my bookshelf, I
rlm@2 201 chose one of her videos. I put it on. It was one of her battles
rlm@2 202 against a Clow Card. I looked to my camera, I haven't used it for many
rlm@2 203 years, always I found something about her that I wanted to record.
rlm@2 204 Anything about her, I wanted to record.
rlm@2 205
rlm@2 206 After that I looked to my sewing tools, I remember how much time I
rlm@2 207 spent making the costumes for her. I was happy to make costumes for
rlm@2 208 her, just saw her with my designs made me so happy. I did many things
rlm@2 209 for her. Time ago I heard that if someone did something they will get a
rlm@2 210 reward.
rlm@2 211
rlm@2 212 Maybe what's happening to me is my reward for all I did.
rlm@2 213
rlm@2 214 Then I went to my bed and I thought about making a decision about my
rlm@2 215 life. At the next day I talked with my mother about the decision. She
rlm@2 216 was surprised but she said if that was I really wanted she would accept
rlm@2 217 it.
rlm@2 218
rlm@2 219 "Thank you, mother," I said with tears.
rlm@2 220
rlm@2 221 After that my mother helped me with arranging things, after a few days
rlm@2 222 I made a bear for my brother. Then I knew that there was one thing left
rlm@2 223 to do.
rlm@2 224
rlm@2 225 I dialed her number.
rlm@2 226
rlm@2 227 "Hello, Kinomoto house."
rlm@2 228
rlm@2 229 "Hi, Fujitaka-san. Is Sakura there?"
rlm@2 230
rlm@2 231 "No, she went a date with her boyfriend. Do you need something?" he
rlm@2 232 asked.
rlm@2 233
rlm@2 234 "Yes. Please could you tell her "Farewell" for me?" I asked.
rlm@2 235
rlm@2 236 "Yes, but did something happen?" he asked worried.
rlm@2 237
rlm@2 238 "No, but could you tell her "I won't interfere with your life anymore,
rlm@2 239 just be happy. It's the only thing I most desire," for me please?"
rlm@2 240
rlm@2 241 "Yes," he said uncertainly.
rlm@2 242
rlm@2 243 "Thanks for everything, Fujitaka-san. Send my regards to Touya-san and
rlm@2 244 Yukito-san" I said and hung up the phone.
rlm@2 245
rlm@2 246 After that I went to see my brother, he was sleeping with the bear that
rlm@2 247 I made. I smiled and kissed him on the forehead.
rlm@2 248
rlm@2 249 I left his room and picked my things. My mother was waiting for me.
rlm@2 250
rlm@2 251 "It's almost time."
rlm@2 252
rlm@2 253 "Yes."
rlm@2 254
rlm@2 255 We picked a car and went to the airport.
rlm@2 256
rlm@2 257 "Will you write me?"
rlm@2 258
rlm@2 259 "Of course, I will be back someday. Don't worry about me, but I need to
rlm@2 260 do this. Take care of Kenji-kun, please," I said to her.
rlm@2 261
rlm@2 262 "I will wait for that day" she said crying.
rlm@2 263
rlm@2 264 "Me too," I said crying.
rlm@2 265
rlm@2 266 We embraced tightly, then I picked my things and took my flight.
rlm@2 267
rlm@2 268 A flight which will make me leave Japan and her.
rlm@2 269
rlm@2 270 **********
rlm@2 271
rlm@2 272 I traveled the entire world, it was easy because of the family's
rlm@2 273 fortune. My mother settled things about my studies and I didn't have to
rlm@2 274 worry about that. The trip was the last chance to start a new life
rlm@2 275 without her. The trip was about healing my broken heart.
rlm@2 276
rlm@2 277 I never imagined how the outside world was. I went to many countries in
rlm@2 278 Europe, North America, South America. I learned many things from these
rlm@2 279 places.
rlm@2 280
rlm@2 281 My mother sent me photos of Kenji and her. My brother was growing up
rlm@2 282 and he was cute. He asked about me many times, when I would return to
rlm@2 283 Japan. I would like to tell him the real reason of my departure but I
rlm@2 284 didn't want make him sad. My mother also asked me about my return, that
rlm@2 285 she missed me so much. I missed them so much, I knew that I would
rlm@2 286 return someday but I wasn't ready. I send them the things that I got in
rlm@2 287 the countries that I stayed, photos, gifts, anything of these places.
rlm@2 288
rlm@2 289 I traveled the world for almost six years but as the time passed, I
rlm@2 290 felt empty...
rlm@2 291
rlm@2 292 I missed her so much.
rlm@2 293
rlm@2 294 During that time, I tried to break the bond to her, but I failed. I
rlm@2 295 looked for someone special but I didn't find anyone.
rlm@2 296
rlm@2 297 Once again, life was showing my destiny, alone.
rlm@2 298
rlm@2 299 Before heading to Japan I stayed for a time in Argentina. I met
rlm@2 300 someone, an old woman who tells the future. She said that I was wrong
rlm@2 301 about the reward. That the real reward will come from someone
rlm@2 302 unexpected. After that I left Argentina and went back to Japan.
rlm@2 303
rlm@2 304 **********
rlm@2 305
rlm@2 306 During the flight back, I read the letters my mother sent me, I was
rlm@2 307 surprised to see a letter from Eriol-san. We wrote some letters before
rlm@2 308 but curiously the letters were distant, sometimes I didn't receive
rlm@2 309 anything from him. I read the letter, he wrote that he finally began
rlm@2 310 with his life after choosing not to be a magician anymore. He was
rlm@2 311 studying to become a lawyer, that Nakuru-san was in couple with a man,
rlm@2 312 that Spinel was working on a TV program for kids. He wanted to know how
rlm@2 313 was everything in Tomoeda, but I wasn't in Tomoeda for almost six
rlm@2 314 years. After that he said that he was married with Kaho Mizuki-sensei
rlm@2 315 and she was waiting a child from him. He was excited and couldn't wait
rlm@2 316 to see his child. He asked if I got someone special. I would like to
rlm@2 317 say to him that I didn't.
rlm@2 318
rlm@2 319 In this six years I realized that I can't love anyone but her...
rlm@2 320
rlm@2 321 Soon I noticed I was in Japan. I left the airport and went directly to
rlm@2 322 my house.
rlm@2 323
rlm@2 324 After a time I reached my house and I pressed the doorbell.
rlm@2 325
rlm@2 326 "Who is it?" asked the voice through the receiver.
rlm@2 327
rlm@2 328 "It's me, Sonomi's daughter, Tomoyo Daidouji" I said happily.
rlm@2 329
rlm@2 330 The door opened and I entered. I waited for my mother to come out of
rlm@2 331 the house.
rlm@2 332
rlm@2 333 She did, she was crying with joy.
rlm@2 334
rlm@2 335 "You came, as you promised." she said crying.
rlm@2 336
rlm@2 337 "Yes, I'm back. I never forgot the promises I made. I waited for this
rlm@2 338 day, mother," I said crying.
rlm@2 339
rlm@2 340 We embraced crying.
rlm@2 341
rlm@2 342 "Why you didn't tell me that you were returning? I would have gone to
rlm@2 343 the airport to pick you up," she said worried.
rlm@2 344
rlm@2 345 "I wanted to give you a surprise mom," I simply said.
rlm@2 346
rlm@2 347 "It's so good that you're here now, I just thought that you would never
rlm@2 348 return..." she said crying again.
rlm@2 349
rlm@2 350 "I promised you that I would return to Japan, remember? I'm here" I
rlm@2 351 said.
rlm@2 352
rlm@2 353 After that we entered the house, I saw Kenji with a beautiful girl of
rlm@2 354 his same age.
rlm@2 355
rlm@2 356 "Tomoyo nee-san!!!"
rlm@2 357
rlm@2 358 "Hi, Kenji onii-chan!!!" I said happily.
rlm@2 359
rlm@2 360 He embraced me crying..
rlm@2 361
rlm@2 362 "I missed you so much, nee-san" he said crying.
rlm@2 363
rlm@2 364 "I missed you, too. You're a strong boy, onii-chan. And cute" I said
rlm@2 365 smiling.
rlm@2 366
rlm@2 367 He blushed.
rlm@2 368
rlm@2 369 "Will you leave again?" he asked.
rlm@2 370
rlm@2 371 "No, I won't. I will stay with you, onii-chan. I will never leave you
rlm@2 372 alone, and mother too" I said.
rlm@2 373
rlm@2 374 My mother was smiling.
rlm@2 375
rlm@2 376 I was glad to stay here with my mother, my brother, with the people
rlm@2 377 that loved me...
rlm@2 378
rlm@2 379 If only she could understand my true feelings...
rlm@2 380
rlm@2 381 "You brought me something?" he asked happily.
rlm@2 382
rlm@2 383 "Of course! I have many things for you, onii-chan. Who is this
rlm@2 384 beautiful girl?" I asked politely.
rlm@2 385
rlm@2 386 "I'm Hinako, I'm pleased to meet you, Daidouji-san"
rlm@2 387
rlm@2 388 "Just call me Tomoyo. You're really cute Hinako-chan."
rlm@2 389
rlm@2 390 "Thanks, Tomoyo-san" she said blushing and bowed before me.
rlm@2 391
rlm@2 392 I talked with them about the things that I did these six years. While I
rlm@2 393 was talking with them I noticed that Kenji-kun and Hinako-san were
rlm@2 394 holding hands, I smiled at the sight of that.
rlm@2 395
rlm@2 396 They were talking about many things and my mother and me left them
rlm@2 397 alone. We entered in the kitchen and the maid prepared two cups of tea
rlm@2 398 for us. We went to my room for a talk.
rlm@2 399
rlm@2 400 "Kenji onii-chan and Hinako-san are going out, mom?" I asked to her.
rlm@2 401
rlm@2 402 "Yes, it seems for me, they didn't accept yet. But I saw the love
rlm@2 403 between them. I'm glad that he found someone special like her" she
rlm@2 404 said.
rlm@2 405
rlm@2 406 "He will pass the Daidouji's name to his future sons and daughters. But
rlm@2 407 I'm not glad for this, I'm glad because he will not suffer as we
rlm@2 408 suffered all these years. If someday he's going to suffer, his pain
rlm@2 409 will be different from ours, he was born fated to follow a different
rlm@2 410 path that us" I said with a smile.
rlm@2 411
rlm@2 412 "It's true, his path is different than ours" my mother said sadly.
rlm@2 413
rlm@2 414 "Do you still love her, mother? Do you still love Nadeshiko-san?" I
rlm@2 415 asked her.
rlm@2 416
rlm@2 417 "Yes, even I tried to break the bond to her, I didn't. It was my first
rlm@2 418 love, but it was unrequited. I continued with my life after she get
rlm@2 419 married, I found your father and married him. I loved your father, but
rlm@2 420 it wasn't the same that I still feel for Nadeshiko, she is still in my
rlm@2 421 heart," my mother said.
rlm@2 422
rlm@2 423 I nodded at her.
rlm@2 424
rlm@2 425 "And you? Do you still love Sakura?" she asked me.
rlm@2 426
rlm@2 427 "Yes, it's my first love too. I thought that the trip would make me
rlm@2 428 forget about her, but I still love her. It seems that we can't break
rlm@2 429 that destiny. I believe that we can't control love, love controls us.
rlm@2 430 The first love is special but is more special when it's your first love
rlm@2 431 and your true love." I said sadly.
rlm@2 432
rlm@2 433 "You thought about marriage, Tomoyo?" she asked.
rlm@2 434
rlm@2 435 "Yes, I thought about that. But I decided that I will not marry.
rlm@2 436 Because I can't love anyone but her. Even I tried to letting go of her
rlm@2 437 but I failed, she is like a seed that is strongly implanted on my
rlm@2 438 heart. What would happen if I have a child, a daughter? She would fell
rlm@2 439 in love with her daughter, and then the same would repeat again. I
rlm@2 440 don't want that child suffer. I want to end this cycle that began with
rlm@2 441 you mother. It started with you, it will end with me." I said.
rlm@2 442
rlm@2 443 "You're strong, Tomoyo" she said.
rlm@2 444
rlm@2 445 "We're strong mom, you and me. We're strong because realizing that
rlm@2 446 you're in love with a person of your same sex and accepting it made us
rlm@2 447 strong, being rejected made us strong. Your unrequited love and mine
rlm@2 448 made us strong. Life made us strong for standing up when we fell. If my
rlm@2 449 destiny is to be alone, I will accept it then" I said.
rlm@2 450
rlm@2 451 She embraced me.
rlm@2 452
rlm@2 453 "Ah, I have some news of your friends," she said.
rlm@2 454
rlm@2 455 "From whom?" I said.
rlm@2 456
rlm@2 457 "From Chiharu-san, Yamazaki-san, Naoko-san and Rika-san" she said.
rlm@2 458
rlm@2 459 "Really?!" I said happily
rlm@2 460
rlm@2 461 My mother told me about their destiny. Yamazaki and Chiharu got married
rlm@2 462 and waiting a child. Naoko got a boyfriend. And Rika got married with
rlm@2 463 Terada-sensei. I knew that Rika and Terada were going out. She told me
rlm@2 464 before heading her own path, I was surprised but I whished her luck.
rlm@2 465
rlm@2 466 After that, when it was almost midnight, I decided to take a walk. My
rlm@2 467 mother sent the bodyguards with me. After a time, I told them to leave
rlm@2 468 and I will call them when I was ready to leave. I walked to the King
rlm@2 469 Penguin Park, it seemed that nothing changed in these almost six years
rlm@2 470 of absence.
rlm@2 471
rlm@2 472 I sat in one of the swings and looked to the stars, they were shining
rlm@2 473 and so was the moon. Then I heard something...
rlm@2 474
rlm@2 475 "Last night, I dreamt that you returned to Tomoeda" said a voice.
rlm@2 476
rlm@2 477 I froze at the sound of that.
rlm@2 478
rlm@2 479 "We meet again" said the voice again.
rlm@2 480
rlm@2 481 I had no doubt, it was her voice.
rlm@2 482
rlm@2 483 I turned around to see her, and I found her. I saw something different,
rlm@2 484 she was different. She was smiling sadly, and a tear ran through her
rlm@2 485 cheek. Her hair was still short but a little longer, her eyes were so
rlm@2 486 different... they could tell a lot of emotions, but it seemed that they
rlm@2 487 showed... pain.
rlm@2 488
rlm@2 489 I saw her sitting in another swing then I turned my head.
rlm@2 490
rlm@2 491 "You traveled the entire world, didn't you?" she asked.
rlm@2 492
rlm@2 493 "How did you know?" I asked surprised.
rlm@2 494
rlm@2 495 "Because I did a lot of researching. I did anything to find where you
rlm@2 496 were" she said quietly.
rlm@2 497
rlm@2 498 Before saying something, she said:
rlm@2 499
rlm@2 500 "I broke with him" she said darkly.
rlm@2 501
rlm@2 502 I was shocked to hear that, I believed that she and him would be
rlm@2 503 together forever. She chose him as her number one person, it couldn't
rlm@2 504 be.
rlm@2 505
rlm@2 506 "Why did you break with him?" I asked surprised.
rlm@2 507
rlm@2 508 "Because, in the end we didn't match. In the beginning all was right,
rlm@2 509 but as the time passed, we started to have fights. He was jealous of
rlm@2 510 any person that approached me. I tried to make him have trust in
rlm@2 511 others, but I failed. As we were growing we'd changed, he was different
rlm@2 512 as I was. After a some time, we decided to break the relationship and
rlm@2 513 he returned to Hong Kong." she said.
rlm@2 514
rlm@2 515 "But you loved him..." I said.
rlm@2 516
rlm@2 517 "Yes, I did. But not now. I learned one thing: a relationship, any
rlm@2 518 relationship must be built between the parts. I believed that I fell in
rlm@2 519 love with him, but I realized that only I had a crush on him. I waited
rlm@2 520 five years for him, but I never thought if I really loved him. I didn't
rlm@2 521 want to lose him because what Eriol told me, I didn't have any idea
rlm@2 522 that he loved me. I saw him as friend and didn't want to lose him, then
rlm@2 523 I realized that I was in love with him, but I never thought if they
rlm@2 524 were my real feelings. How could I be so blind? I was blind of love but
rlm@2 525 I never thought that we changed during these five years of waiting.
rlm@2 526 With the fights I started to wonder if I really loved him or didn't. In
rlm@2 527 the end I realized that I wasn't in love with him" she said.
rlm@2 528
rlm@2 529 "I see..."
rlm@2 530
rlm@2 531 "I broke with my friends too..." she said.
rlm@2 532
rlm@2 533 "What?" I said.
rlm@2 534
rlm@2 535 "Yes, I broke because I didn't want to be popular. Because I didn't
rlm@2 536 want to follow their advice anymore, because of that advice... I almost
rlm@2 537 lost you." she said.
rlm@2 538
rlm@2 539 "I don't care about what will happen to me. Only seeing you happy it's
rlm@2 540 enough for me" I said.
rlm@2 541
rlm@2 542 "I know that..." she said as she stood up and came to me.
rlm@2 543
rlm@2 544 I looked at her, she was crying softly and smiling at me. I extended my
rlm@2 545 hand but I stopped.
rlm@2 546
rlm@2 547 "What's happened?" she said quietly.
rlm@2 548
rlm@2 549 "It's just... you said that you didn't want me touch you, remember?" I
rlm@2 550 said sadly.
rlm@2 551
rlm@2 552 She took hold of my hand and laid it in her cheek.
rlm@2 553
rlm@2 554 "I want you to touch me, to see me... I was so stupid saying that, I
rlm@2 555 almost destroyed our friendship. You were there when I needed
rlm@2 556 something, even you were there when I said that I didn't need
rlm@2 557 something. You were always worried for me. I'd changed in these almost
rlm@2 558 six years. I never hated you, just I couldn't understand that you were
rlm@2 559 in love with me..." she said.
rlm@2 560
rlm@2 561 "How do you know that I'm in love with you, couldn't it be another
rlm@2 562 girl?" I asked her.
rlm@2 563
rlm@2 564 "You said that you wanted your special person happy, didn't you? I
rlm@2 565 realized that I'm that person, for what you said and what father said
rlm@2 566 to me when you left Japan" she said.
rlm@2 567
rlm@2 568 "Are you angry with me for loving you?" I asked her.
rlm@2 569
rlm@2 570 "No..." she said and made me stand up.
rlm@2 571
rlm@2 572 She embraced me, I tried not to embrace her but I failed. My arms went
rlm@2 573 around her and we embraced tightly. She rested her head in my shoulder.
rlm@2 574
rlm@2 575 "Welcome back, Tomoyo-chan" she said crying softly.
rlm@2 576
rlm@2 577 "Thanks, Sakura-chan" I said crying.
rlm@2 578
rlm@2 579 *******
rlm@2 580
rlm@2 581 I will never forget that day... when we met again.
rlm@2 582
rlm@2 583 After that day, we did many things together as before. It was a restart
rlm@2 584 of our friendship, she was fine with me, even knowing that I still
rlm@2 585 loved her. One day she called asking me if I could go to her house. I
rlm@2 586 agreed and I went to her house, she was waiting for me. She said that
rlm@2 587 wanted me to go out with her. In other words, she wanted a date with
rlm@2 588 me. I was surprised, but she erased my doubts kissing me.
rlm@2 589
rlm@2 590 From the day we met again until the day that she kissed me four years
rlm@2 591 passed. And two more years of going out.
rlm@2 592
rlm@2 593 Without knowing it, we built a loving relationship between us.
rlm@2 594
rlm@2 595 ******
rlm@2 596
rlm@2 597 I was looking to the stars in the sky when I felt her arms around my
rlm@2 598 waist.
rlm@2 599
rlm@2 600 "What are you thinking Tomoyo-chan?" she said.
rlm@2 601
rlm@2 602 "Remembering what happened between us all these years, from the first
rlm@2 603 day than I met you, eighteen years ago" I said still looking at the
rlm@2 604 stars.
rlm@2 605
rlm@2 606 She turned my head and I was looking at her.
rlm@2 607
rlm@2 608 "I never meant to hurt you, but I did. But I promise you that I will
rlm@2 609 never hurt you again. I don't know if I will be able to heal the pain I
rlm@2 610 caused you" she said sadly.
rlm@2 611
rlm@2 612 "We have to live with pain, every person has a type of pain, and pain
rlm@2 613 will be present in every person of this world. Things would be
rlm@2 614 different if pain doesn't exist, but it does exist. But if two people
rlm@2 615 meet each other, they could be able to heal the pain they have." I
rlm@2 616 said.
rlm@2 617
rlm@2 618 I caressed her hair, it was smooth.
rlm@2 619
rlm@2 620 "I love you Tomoyo-chan. You're my true number one person" she said.
rlm@2 621
rlm@2 622 "I love you too, Sakura-chan. You are always my number one person. I
rlm@2 623 don't mind my pain, because in the end I have you, and we will be able
rlm@2 624 to heal our pain" I said.
rlm@2 625
rlm@2 626 "It's true" she said.
rlm@2 627
rlm@2 628 We kissed each other and went to sleep.
rlm@2 629
rlm@2 630 ******
rlm@2 631
rlm@2 632 I wake up and I look to her, she is sleeping nicely. Then I remember
rlm@2 633 what the old woman told me before, that the real reward will come from
rlm@2 634 someone unexpected. I never thought that Sakura-chan falling in love
rlm@2 635 with me would be the real reward for all I did. I just thought that I
rlm@2 636 would be alone for the rest of my life. But it seems that is not.
rlm@2 637
rlm@2 638 "I love you, Sakura-chan" I whisper.
rlm@2 639
rlm@2 640 "I know. I really love you too, Tomoyo-chan" she says opening her eyes.
rlm@2 641
rlm@2 642 "Are you awake?" I ask smiling to her.
rlm@2 643
rlm@2 644 "I was awake, I was only imitating that I was sleeping." she says
rlm@2 645 smiling.
rlm@2 646
rlm@2 647 I smile to her.
rlm@2 648
rlm@2 649 "Tomoyo-chan, I want to know one thing: Will you stay with me forever?"
rlm@2 650 she asks me.
rlm@2 651
rlm@2 652 "Of course I will. You are my reason to live, I promise I will make you
rlm@2 653 happy" I say to her.
rlm@2 654
rlm@2 655 "You know what? One thing will make me happy" she says.
rlm@2 656
rlm@2 657 "What thing?" I ask.
rlm@2 658
rlm@2 659 "You marrying me, someday" she says blushing.
rlm@2 660
rlm@2 661 I open my eyes and I feel tears coming down my cheeks.
rlm@2 662
rlm@2 663 "Are you serious?" I say crying.
rlm@2 664
rlm@2 665 "Yes, I'm serious. But you don't have to give me an answer right now,
rlm@2 666 but until that day come; promise me that you will stay with me" she
rlm@2 667 says taking my head between her soft hands.
rlm@2 668
rlm@2 669 "I promise, I promise" I say still crying.
rlm@2 670
rlm@2 671 We kiss each other and leave the bed, we look to the stars.
rlm@2 672
rlm@2 673 We embrace tightly knowing that there is a path in front of us that
rlm@2 674 will lead us to the happiness.
rlm@2 675
rlm@2 676 "We will be together forever" she says happily.
rlm@2 677
rlm@2 678 "I know..." I say.
rlm@2 679
rlm@2 680 "I know we will be together forever..." I say before kissing her.
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