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1 a story of
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3 Tomoyo's Love
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4
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5 by that that walrusy guy you all know and love[tehwalrus@gmail.com]
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6
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7 It started off with a dove and the expression that it made on the face of
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8 Tomoyo's love. Sakura smiled brightly as she watched the bird with happiness
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9 plain writ upon her cheeks, a picturesque moment Tomoyo would cherish for
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10 weeks. And yet there was sadness there, not in Sakura's but Tomoyo's own. Both
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11 the girls have grown from the small children you have known, but as far as
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12 Time's wings have flown they have done naught to heal pains in hearts depths
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13 unknown.
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14
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15 The day is black and white in Tomoyo's eyes, with a spray of pink surprise, a
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16 feeling of love she feared was all lies, but if Sakura knew, if she would only
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17 realize... but where would Tomoyo then be? In Sakura's arms or thrown out the
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18 door? Nay, such insecurity she needs must ignore, she must play it safe with
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19 her love, hide, cage it safely inside so Sakura could not see accidentally. And
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20 that was hard. Sakura brought it welling forth with a single word or look, even
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21 the most simple sight. And thus Tomoyo swayed back and forth, heaving sighs of
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22 delight or sitting silently in Sakura's light, fearing she might put it out and
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23 be alone in the night... her heart, the site of many a battle, her Reasoning a
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24 stalwart knight to push back the overwhelming tide of uncertainties and doubts
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25 that comes blazing forth to try and open the cage's door, to make certain she
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26 could hide her love no more, to push her feelings to the fore, for good or ill,
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27 and then wait and see if her heart was beating still or dashed upon the cold
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28 hard floor.
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29
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30 To put a word of her loving forth... it is more than Tomoyo's life is worth. To
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31 say those simple words, a task more monumental than all else for she must fight
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32 herself and Tomoyo did not even know which side of the battle she cheered.
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33
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34 "Tomoyo-chan? Are you okay? You haven't said much since we've come, and it was
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35 your idea to watch the birds in the park."
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36
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37 She had invited Sakura here indeed, for she knew she must soon decide, step
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38 over that great divide, she must choose the winning side. For she had not
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39 forever, that hope had died, she must either take to Sakura's side or be
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40 roughly shoved aside and be left behind. Syaoran Li and a few like him chased
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41 after Sakura's magic, and while the mess it made of thier lives was tragic
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42 [poor Meilin, to have told and been given such a shoulder cold, though I'm sure
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43 she still expects to be the one beside him when they are old] and while they
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44 were better than the new crowd who wished only to have the beauty who broke the
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45 mold, none sought her heart to cherish and hold, so perhaps it is a must for
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46 Tomoyo to be bold and do just that, to keep it warm from cold, to love forever,
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47 Sakura close to hold...
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48
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49 Sakura was one who loved foremost, and she gave it to all unknowning and
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50 misunderstanding, misrepresenting her emotions to those most dear to her,
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51 strength as fear, respect as love... How could Tomoyo know where she stands?
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52 And so.
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53
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54 "Sakura-chan... I love you."
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55
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56 And so the dove, in it's simple flight unfolds the complexities of love. But of
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57 course it is not finished yet, not the end but not even the start, Sakura's
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58 understanding does not fly straight as the dart. So the waiting is even more
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59 painful for the one most heavily involved as what she had resolved turned out
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60 not so easily solved.
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61
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62 "Of course Tomoyo-chan, I love you too. You're my best friend."
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63
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64 A shake of the head... Tomoyo despairs at how this will end.
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65
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66 "I love you Sakura. I fall asleep thinking of you, spend the night dreaming of
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67 you and wake, eager to go and see you. I meet you and I am lost in you, I
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68 follow you, the wonderful girl Sakura, for the day until I must dreadfully part
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69 with you for another night, to dream of you again. I love you."
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70
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71 Sakura was not stupid, her sight merely didn't detect certain things, those
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72 lines of string that connect people to each other. But to have them spelt out
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73 was to have them revealed, and a haze from her sight was peeled. Tomoyo's
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74 eccentricity was removed... it was a love, intense and burning inside the pale
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75 girl. She had hoisted that love as a sail and let it unfurl, that even Sakura
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76 might see it.
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77
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78 Sakura searched for a sail of her own, examining things she had left alone,
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79 never truly dwelling on these thoughts. And yet, just as Tomoyo had explained
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80 she had thoughts the same of her friend.
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81
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82 "Is this love? Tomoyo-chan... I feel the same for you. You are the anchor of my
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83 life, the thing that it centers around. I see a beautiful bird, and I think 'I
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84 wish Tomoyo was here to see this with me' or a hundred similar things..."
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85
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86 And so Sakura told herself true to Tomoyo, fighting back all those insecurities
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87 and letting the love shine through. And yet Sakura was unsure and did not
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88 understand what she thought, or what was thought of her... was that love? She
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89 didn't know, she never knew... Tomoyo always helps her though, with such
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90 things, and Tomoyo is here, saying this is love.
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91
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92 They lived, mostly happy much of the time, for a while, together, their spirits
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93 mingled for ever and ever. |
