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rlm@2 1 How come who's asking?The stream, running full force, was a
rlm@2 2 beautiful blue color. Not deep blue or light blue, but a sort of
rlm@2 3 mixture of the two. Just a beautiful blue color. They had never
rlm@2 4 seen such a color before.
rlm@2 5 The two lovers, both petite women, looked up from the stream
rlm@2 6 and into each others eyes. One had light pink colored hair, and
rlm@2 7 the other had dark blue...almost a black. They were both not
rlm@2 8 wearing anything, as is customary in the fourth dimension. The
rlm@2 9 lover's bodies shone in the light, but they did not look over the
rlm@2 10 other's form. They just continued to look at each other, before
rlm@2 11 looking back into the stream.
rlm@2 12 "It's so beautiful, Hotaru." The pink haired one said,
rlm@2 13 still looking at the stream. "I wish I could stay here with you
rlm@2 14 forever."
rlm@2 15 "Why can't you?" The dark haired one said. "We both need
rlm@2 16 each other, Chibi-chan. We do. So just stay here with me."
rlm@2 17 "I can't. I just...can't." Replied the pink haired girl.
rlm@2 18 "Look at our stream, Chibi. Watch it flow. This is our
rlm@2 19 love. Don't deny it! It's our love, flowing, just as it always
rlm@2 20 will. We have always been a part of each other, and always will
rlm@2 21 be."
rlm@2 22 "Our water WILL run dry, Hotaru. It will run dry."
rlm@2 23
rlm@2 24
rlm@2 25 Water Runs Dry
rlm@2 26 A Sailor Moon Sekkushiaru Roman
rlm@2 27 By: PsychoKittenSenshi611
rlm@2 28 Eeh-mail: katprincess82@hotmail.com
rlm@2 29 This is a Sekkushiaru Roman, so you all know what is
rlm@2 30 expected of you. You must be 18 to read this (sorry folks, I don't make
rlm@2 31 the rules...unfortunately!) otherwise...well...we all know the consequences.
rlm@2 32 This story contains love and love alone.
rlm@2 33 Ok enough of that crap. Read on loves! *MuAH!*
rlm@2 34
rlm@2 35 We don't even talk anymore
rlm@2 36 And we don't even know what we argue about
rlm@2 37 Don't even say I love you no more
rlm@2 38 Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed
rlm@2 39 Some people work things out
rlm@2 40 And some just don't know how to change
rlm@2 41 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
rlm@2 42 We might watch our whole lives pass us by
rlm@2 43 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
rlm@2 44 We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
rlm@2 45 Don't do it baby
rlm@2 46 Now they can see the tears in our eyes
rlm@2 47 But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
rlm@2 48 Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
rlm@2 49 Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
rlm@2 50 Why do we hurt each other
rlm@2 51 Why do we push love away
rlm@2 52 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
rlm@2 53 We might watch our whole lives pass us by
rlm@2 54 Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
rlm@2 55 We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
rlm@2 56 Don't do it baby
rlm@2 57 --Boyz II Men
rlm@2 58
rlm@2 59 Haruka sat next to Hotaru's bed, almost crying herself. She
rlm@2 60 understood her friend's pain almost perfectly. She had just gotten over
rlm@2 61 some troubles with Michiru, and the nagging pain was still at the back
rlm@2 62 of her mind.
rlm@2 63 Something inside of her told her Hotaru needed to be alone. She
rlm@2 64 stood up, trying to force out some kind of comforting words, but none
rlm@2 65 came. All she could manage was a comforting smile, and a hand on
rlm@2 66 Hotaru's shoulder.
rlm@2 67 Hotaru nodded to Haruka, then placed her head in her hands once
rlm@2 68 again. She knew this was it. She knew it was finally over.
rlm@2 69 ChibiUSA was gone. Gone forever. She had called Hotaru up to
rlm@2 70 tell her it was over, and Hotaru didn't even hear one tone of sadness in
rlm@2 71 her lover's voice. Chibi had just told her she couldn't do it
rlm@2 72 anymore...she couldn't keep living like this.
rlm@2 73 Living like what? Hotaru asked herself. Living on different
rlm@2 74 continents, only seeing each other on holidays? She could understand
rlm@2 75 that. But...but...it was all so RIGHT, how could it just end like that?
rlm@2 76 Two words and her entire life came crashing down. ChibiUSA was the love
rlm@2 77 of her life, and she could feel the love they shared even though they
rlm@2 78 were miles apart. She had decided to take the year study in the United
rlm@2 79 States at Stanford. An irreplaceable opportunity, she had said.
rlm@2 80 Chibi was never one to pass up opportunities like this.
rlm@2 81 She had practically begged Hotaru to join her, but Hotaru had
rlm@2 82 declined. Her own dreams were being fulfilled here in Japan, and she
rlm@2 83 hadn't wanted to pass up her own opportunity to become a doctor. She
rlm@2 84 did it half out of the pain she was suffering from the loss, but the
rlm@2 85 other half of her knew it was right. She had thought that the
rlm@2 86 separation would be just a test of their love, and everything would turn
rlm@2 87 out right in a year just one year. That's all. Just one year. Then
rlm@2 88 they'd be together again and everything would be just as it was before,
rlm@2 89 and they would get married. Just like they had planned.
rlm@2 90 But it was all over. The year was almost up, and ChibiUSA had
rlm@2 91 called Hotaru like she had done every month. But it was no longer the
rlm@2 92 happy and excited and somewhat depressed Chibi. It was a cold and
rlm@2 93 foreign Chibi. She just told Hotaru she would stay another year, and
rlm@2 94 that she was ending their engagement. She had just said that she
rlm@2 95 couldn't go on anymore.
rlm@2 96 Hotaru burst into tears at the thought.
rlm@2 97
rlm@2 98 * * *
rlm@2 99
rlm@2 100 Five thousand miles away, ChibiUSA sat in front of the phone,
rlm@2 101 wondering what she had just done. Hotaru had cried, she realized, and
rlm@2 102 her eyes went wide with sadness at the thought. What was she doing?
rlm@2 103 She should be back home with her one true love sleeping in her arms.
rlm@2 104 She should be in her bed, in her embrace, and in her life again. What
rlm@2 105 was she doing in this University in California, anyway? Studying to
rlm@2 106 become something she didn't even want. She wanted to be a wife to
rlm@2 107 Hotaru, and that was it.
rlm@2 108 How could she, now that she had called it off? She couldn't
rlm@2 109 possibly call Hotaru right back and just say "oops I'm sorry about that!
rlm@2 110 I was just kidding!" What was that supposed to be? Stupid dreams. Why
rlm@2 111 did she listen to them? That was what her father did, and he had almost
rlm@2 112 ruined his relationship with her mother. But, luckily, her father had
rlm@2 113 caught himself. How the hell was she supposed to catch herself? Every
rlm@2 114 time she thought about Hotaru the dreams would creep into her head and
rlm@2 115 horrify her...seeing the black haired girl die at her feet. She couldn't
rlm@2 116 possibly risk her life. She couldn't be that selfish.
rlm@2 117 Hotaru was sitting on her bed now, probably crying. Chibi could
rlm@2 118 picture it perfectly. Hotaru's small body, curled up in a tiny ball,
rlm@2 119 holding a battered piece of Klean-x, her blue-black hair falling limp in
rlm@2 120 front of her deep blue eyes.
rlm@2 121 "Oh God...what have I done?!" Chibi hunched over the phone, tears
rlm@2 122 pouring out of her and sobs wracking her small body like never before.
rlm@2 123 * * *
rlm@2 124 The stream was beginning to trickle, no longer running with
rlm@2 125 the same strength. The dark haired girl gripped the other, pain
rlm@2 126 in her eyes. "ChibiUSA, please, no!" She called out. "It
rlm@2 127 can't...it just CAN'T!"
rlm@2 128 "It must, Hotaru. It just has to happen."
rlm@2 129
rlm@2 130 * * *
rlm@2 131
rlm@2 132 "Haruka-papa! Come back here!" Hotaru laughed, trying to grab
rlm@2 133 the anniversary present from Haruka's eager hands. Michiru just
rlm@2 134 laughed, placing another plate on the table for the party. She watched
rlm@2 135 as her God-daughter ran after her lover, and smiled slightly. Haruka
rlm@2 136 wasn't supposed to open any of the presents for their anniversary, but
rlm@2 137 she had already gotten to a couple. Matching rings with two stones cut
rlm@2 138 to resemble the two planets they represented, necklaces with "H&M
rlm@2 139 Forever" on both, a couple paintings, and assorted nick-knacks to place
rlm@2 140 around their new house. Michiru smiled at that thought. Their own
rlm@2 141 house. She couldn't wait.
rlm@2 142 Haruka slowed down, breathless, still cradling the small silver-
rlm@2 143 wrapped package. She breathed heavily, hunching over and placing her
rlm@2 144 left hand on her knee, holding the package with her right. She smiled a
rlm@2 145 tired smile, and looked up at Hotaru.
rlm@2 146 "Give...it...back..." Hotaru said between gasps for air.
rlm@2 147 "Come on...let me just open it now!" Haruka gasped. She looked up
rlm@2 148 suddenly to see Michiru standing there, a hand on her aqua-colored
rlm@2 149 dress. Her hair tumbled down in front of her eyes, and her lips wore a
rlm@2 150 smile. She lifted up a small hand and held it out in front of her,
rlm@2 151 motioning to the package.
rlm@2 152 "Haruka..." She softly pleaded, and Haruka obeyed her silent
rlm@2 153 question. Handing over the package with a scowl, she stood up straight.
rlm@2 154 "Thank you, Haruka." Michiru said quietly, and walked over to her
rlm@2 155 lover. She wrapped an arm around Haruka's waist and kissed her
rlm@2 156 fiercely, forgetting about Hotaru completely.
rlm@2 157 "You two!" Hotaru knew when to turn around. She turned on her
rlm@2 158 heels and walked outside, leaving the two alone. She knew that if she
rlm@2 159 and Chibi were kissing...
rlm@2 160 She suddenly stopped the thought. She and Chibi were no...longer...
rlm@2 161 Hotaru sat down on the bench in the garden, placing her head in
rlm@2 162 her hands. Not again. She didn't want to have to go through this every
rlm@2 163 day of her life. She didn't want to have to keep telling herself OVER
rlm@2 164 and OVER that it was done.
rlm@2 165 She looked up at the noise of a car approaching. She wondered who
rlm@2 166 it could be. Guests were not arriving for another hour or so. Setsuna
rlm@2 167 was out shopping for some goodies...hopefully bringing something back for
rlm@2 168 her. So who could it be?
rlm@2 169 She looked down at her feet again, and ran her hands through her
rlm@2 170 wavy tendrils of hair. She was stressed, high strung, wound up like a
rlm@2 171 spring. She didn't WANT to be, but knew she was. She needed to see
rlm@2 172 ChibiUSA again, just once, to know it was really over. She needed to
rlm@2 173 see her again and talk to her and touch her pink hair and look into her
rlm@2 174 red eyes, just ONE MORE TIME. Just one.
rlm@2 175 A car door opened and slammed shut. She didn't even look up. She
rlm@2 176 didn't really want to. She just ran her hands through her hair again,
rlm@2 177 and closed her eyes tight to try to remember every single detail about
rlm@2 178 her only love's face.
rlm@2 179
rlm@2 180 * * *
rlm@2 181
rlm@2 182 ChibiUSA got out of the car, all the while her eyes on the timid
rlm@2 183 figure sitting on a bench. She knew who it was.
rlm@2 184 She forced her eyes away to look up at the house. It was
rlm@2 185 gorgeous, really. She hadn't expected it to be so big. The entire
rlm@2 186 house was a beige color, and the garden was big and gorgeous. Flowers
rlm@2 187 reached up to her thighs, but were all trimmed and well taken care of.
rlm@2 188 The bench that her former lover was sitting on was lined by a small
rlm@2 189 pathway that entwined in the flowers, half hiding her in the beautiful
rlm@2 190 growth. It seemed fitting that a beautiful flower should be surrounded
rlm@2 191 by beautiful flowers.
rlm@2 192 No, her inner voice shouted at her. You ended that relationship,
rlm@2 193 and you have to accept responsibility.
rlm@2 194 Apologize! Another voice screamed at her. Apologize and
rlm@2 195 everything will be fine again she'll take you back because you love each
rlm@2 196 other and...
rlm@2 197 But what if she doesn't love you anymore? What if she's found
rlm@2 198 someone else?
rlm@2 199 Chibi almost cried out with the unbearable thought. What if she
rlm@2 200 HAS found someone else? Someone who loves her more and cares for her
rlm@2 201 more and kisses her and holds her...no one can touch her. ChibiUSA knew
rlm@2 202 she would have to do it soon, have to explain herself and apologize
rlm@2 203 before the day was up. She couldn't let the horrible pain go on another
rlm@2 204 second.
rlm@2 205 She walked briskly into the garden, trying to dodge plants as best
rlm@2 206 she could. She couldn't find a good enough path, so she began to
rlm@2 207 carefully weave her way through the growth. She tried, in vain, to
rlm@2 208 brush off some of the petals and pollen that stuck to her dark jean
rlm@2 209 shorts as she did so.
rlm@2 210 She found herself a few feet away from the bench, with Hotaru's
rlm@2 211 head still down. Hotaru looked stressed, pained...not loved. She hoped,
rlm@2 212 with a selfish thought, that she hadn't been loved lately. At least,
rlm@2 213 not the way ChibiUSA would love her. Not like that. Hotaru's arms were
rlm@2 214 on either side of her head, and Chibi could sense that she was deep in
rlm@2 215 thought. What was she thinking? She couldn't tell. She didn't know if
rlm@2 216 she wanted to be able to tell.
rlm@2 217 "Hotaru." She whispered, slightly quivering on the 'u'. Hotaru
rlm@2 218 whipped her head upwards at the sound, and her eyes took Chibi in.
rlm@2 219
rlm@2 220 * * *
rlm@2 221
rlm@2 222 Her hair had grown slightly, and she seemed to be a little taller.
rlm@2 223 Her dark jean shorts looked really good with the pink T-shirt, and her
rlm@2 224 little pink flip-flops were just right for the warm summer weather. Her
rlm@2 225 eyes were still the beautiful shade of red, and her lips were the same
rlm@2 226 color.
rlm@2 227 An overwhelming heat seeped through Hotaru's blood as her gaze
rlm@2 228 focused on her once-lover's lips. Oh God, she thought. I must be
rlm@2 229 imagining her. That's it...I'm just imagining. She's not really here,
rlm@2 230 she didn't come to the party, she is still back at her college.
rlm@2 231 "Hotaru?" Chibi said again, this time questioning her.
rlm@2 232 Hotaru cleared her throat, trying to prepare herself for the pain
rlm@2 233 that was about to come. "Hello, ChibiUSA. Nice to see you." Her voice
rlm@2 234 came out remarkably controlled, the pain masked by the cold tone. Her
rlm@2 235 eyes and heart hardened, like ice. She didn't want to feel the pain
rlm@2 236 anymore. She returned to her darkened self, inside herself and
rlm@2 237 retreating back away.
rlm@2 238 ChibiUSA looked shocked. She had never seen Hotaru so cold
rlm@2 239 before...Hotaru was always the voice of calm among the two, the reason in
rlm@2 240 their chaos. But never, ever, had ChibiUSA seem her so cold.
rlm@2 241 "I didn't think you would come back here so soon." Hotaru said,
rlm@2 242 trying to mask the uncomfortable silence. Her eyes narrowed into small
rlm@2 243 slits, and her lips thinned out. She realized just how ANGRY she was at
rlm@2 244 Chibi, and clenched her fists at the thought. How DARE she come back
rlm@2 245 here, how dare she just stand there and act like everything is fine.
rlm@2 246 She must have a lot of guts coming back here...
rlm@2 247 "Of course, Hotaru! It's Michiru's and Haruka's anniversary...and
rlm@2 248 besides, it's summer vacation. I wouldn't miss seeing all the Senshi
rlm@2 249 back in one place for anything!" She put on a silly grin, showing her
rlm@2 250 perfectly straight white teeth. Hotaru almost joined in with a smile of
rlm@2 251 her own, but she caught herself.
rlm@2 252 Hotaru stood up with the pure awkwardness of it all, and placed
rlm@2 253 her hand on her hip. "Well I must be going now. Setsuna-mama is at the
rlm@2 254 mall, and I have to go meet her. See you later." Hotaru walked briskly
rlm@2 255 away, and Chibi stood still as she walked by. Her eyes swept over
rlm@2 256 Hotaru's curves longingly, and she let out a sigh. Hotaru caught it,
rlm@2 257 but didn't say anything at all. She didn't want to say anything.
rlm@2 258 Hotaru was almost to her car when Chibi finally got control of
rlm@2 259 herself. "Taru-chan!" She called, and ran toward her. Hotaru didn't
rlm@2 260 move, her hand extended with keys in hand to unlock the car door.
rlm@2 261 "Wait, Taru-chan!" She complied, and soon enough ChibiUSA had caught up
rlm@2 262 with her. She was a little out of breath, and Hotaru waited in a
rlm@2 263 patient silence. Chibi finally got control over herself, and stood up
rlm@2 264 straight. "I'll go with you."
rlm@2 265 "That's fine. You stay here. I'm sure everyone will want to see
rlm@2 266 you." Hotaru put the keys in the lock and turned them.
rlm@2 267 "I...I'd like to go with you. You know, catch up?" She let out a
rlm@2 268 nervous smile.
rlm@2 269 Hotaru couldn't resist. She just couldn't. "You don't need to
rlm@2 270 catch up with someone you pushed away," she snapped.
rlm@2 271 Chibi was silent for a moment, and watched as Hotaru put her purse
rlm@2 272 in the car. Hotaru was walking around the side of the car when she
rlm@2 273 caught herself in the daze again. "Hotaru..." She walked after her, and
rlm@2 274 grabbed her arm gently. "I...I didn't want to push you away. It's just..."
rlm@2 275 "Just what, Chibi-chan?" She said curtly, tears forming at the
rlm@2 276 base of her eyes. "Just someone else? You found someone better in
rlm@2 277 America, didn't you?" The tears fell like tiny stars to the ground.
rlm@2 278 "NO!" ChibiUSA said, her own tears forming. "I've only ever
rlm@2 279 loved you. I still love you! I always will! I just have these dreams
rlm@2 280 and you're...you're..."
rlm@2 281 Hotaru threw open her door and climbed in. She quickly put the
rlm@2 282 keys in the ignition and turned them, starting the car. ChibiUSA ran
rlm@2 283 around to the other side and climbed in quickly, surprising Hotaru. She
rlm@2 284 took her eyes from the steering wheel and looked at Chibi, shocked.
rlm@2 285 "Dreams, Chibi-chan? DREAMS? That's why you dumped me?"
rlm@2 286 "Remember my father, when he had those problems with dreams?"
rlm@2 287 "I remember you telling me about it, yes."
rlm@2 288 "The same kind of dreams, Taru-chan. The same kinds of dreams.
rlm@2 289 It scares me! I couldn't possibly risk letting them come true!"
rlm@2 290 Hotaru put the car in reverse and drove away from the house, a
rlm@2 291 little confused. "I don't understand, Chibi-chan. I just don't."
rlm@2 292 "I love you, Taru-chan. If that means sparing your life and
rlm@2 293 getting rid of my happiness, then I'll do it!"
rlm@2 294 "What about MY happiness?" Hotaru shouted. "I love you more than
rlm@2 295 anything! Without you I feel like I don't have a reason for living!"
rlm@2 296 "I don't want it to be MY fault that you die!" ChibiUSA shouted
rlm@2 297 back, tears streaming down her cheeks. The mall loomed up ahead, and
rlm@2 298 she wiped the tears away. "I couldn't stand the thought of putting you
rlm@2 299 in danger. I...I still can't."
rlm@2 300 Hotaru pulled into the mall's parking lot, trying to keep her
rlm@2 301 emotions under control. "Is the danger you felt gone now?" She
rlm@2 302 whispered.
rlm@2 303 "No." Their gazes met at the sound of the word. Hotaru swallowed
rlm@2 304 hard.
rlm@2 305 "Then...then why did you come here?"
rlm@2 306 "Because I had to see you. I had to know that you were alright."
rlm@2 307 ChibiUSA closed her eyes and sighed. She had finally gotten it all out,
rlm@2 308 thank God. Now Hotaru would know, and she could feel at least somewhat
rlm@2 309 at peace.
rlm@2 310 Hotaru swallowed hard again, trying to hold back the feelings of
rlm@2 311 love and fear and overwhelming emotion that were beginning to overtake
rlm@2 312 her. "I guess I understand. But we can't be together if it's too
rlm@2 313 dangerous, can we?"
rlm@2 314 "I guess not." ChibiUSA sighed. "But I still love you, Hotaru.
rlm@2 315 I always will."
rlm@2 316 "I...I love you too, ChibiUSA."
rlm@2 317
rlm@2 318 * * *
rlm@2 319
rlm@2 320 "Oh Hotaru!" The pink-haired girl flung herself into her
rlm@2 321 lover's arms. "I want to be with you so much!"
rlm@2 322 "Why can't you?! I don't understand!" The dark-haired girl
rlm@2 323 said. "We love each other..." The stream was beginning to run
rlm@2 324 again, and she smiled. "It's too obvious that we do. Our stream
rlm@2 325 is still running!"
rlm@2 326 "It will always run." The pink-haired girl smiled, but the
rlm@2 327 smile quickly turned back into a worried frown. "But we can't
rlm@2 328 always be together, Hotaru."
rlm@2 329 "I don't understand!" The other girl shouted once again.
rlm@2 330 "Those who do not understand love will always get in the
rlm@2 331 way. It's too dangerous. Our stream will continue to always run,
rlm@2 332 believe me. I won't let it run dry."
rlm@2 333 "It will run dry, Chibi-chan. All things must. You said it
rlm@2 334 yourself. If you don't want it to run dry, love me! Just love
rlm@2 335 me!" The dark-haired girl dropped to her knees.
rlm@2 336 "I will always love you, Hotaru." The pink-haired girl
rlm@2 337 said, and dropped to her knees in front of the other. "I will
rlm@2 338 always love you.
rlm@2 339
rlm@2 340 ToOh BeEh CoNtInUeD
rlm@2 341
rlm@2 342 * * *
rlm@2 343
rlm@2 344 Hey loves! I've wanted to do a story like this for a long time.
rlm@2 345 Stay tuned for part two! Thanks as always to the Amazoness Duo, those
rlm@2 346 wonderful gals! ?
rlm@2 347 And, of course, to my wonderful and supportive friends, Alea,
rlm@2 348 Jessica, Analicia...hope all of you are doing alright in Cali!
rlm@2 349 And to my new buds, especially Jayne. Thanks for the support and
rlm@2 350 your willingness! I love yah!
rlm@2 351 AND, FINALLY, to all my fans. You are the ones I keep doing this
rlm@2 352 for! Thanks so much.
rlm@2 353 <3 PsychoKittenSenshi611
rlm@2 354 Gabrielle
rlm@2 355