rlm@2: This is a Sekkushiaru Roman. rlm@2: This story is the third and final part of the trilogy Hotaru's rlm@2: pain. Not so sad as parts 1 & 2. Hotaru is about 16 years old here. rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru's Pain part 3 rlm@2: Featuring Hotaru and ChibiUsa rlm@2: By The Ghost of 'lectricity rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: "Tomoe Hotaru!" The sharp voice emanating from the teacher knocked rlm@2: the black haired girl out of her thoughts. rlm@2: "Tomoe Hotaru, do you know the answer?" rlm@2: Hotaru looked around the class, everybody was looking at her and rlm@2: the teacher was waiting for an answer. The moment somebody rlm@2: whispered the right answer, the teacher already got tired of rlm@2: waiting. rlm@2: "Hotaru, you have been daydreaming again. I will have to report rlm@2: you to your class teacher. Now pay attention to the rest of the rlm@2: lesson." rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru entered the kitchen and put her schoolbag down next to the rlm@2: table. Setsuna was making lunch and Haruka sat at the dinner table. rlm@2: "Was there any mail for me?" Hotaru asked, looking at Setsuna. The rlm@2: tall woman was making lunch and completely ignored the younger girl rlm@2: behind her back. The moment of silence was only to be broken by rlm@2: Haruka's voice. rlm@2: "Sorry, nothing for you Hotaru-chan." rlm@2: Ever since ChibiUsa left two years ago Setsuna brought Hotaru rlm@2: letters from the princess every now and then. Setsuna broke almost rlm@2: every taboo by doing this. She couldn't help it when ChibiUsa rlm@2: looked at her with pleading eyes in Crystal Tokyo and Hotaru with rlm@2: much the same eyes in the 20th century. Setsuna could only bring rlm@2: over a letter every few months and ChibiUsa wasn't allowed to write rlm@2: anything about the future. This was why their letters were very rlm@2: intense and emotional and Hotaru liked it that way. Although she rlm@2: was wondering about her future self and about Crystal Tokyo, she rlm@2: was grateful that she could still be in contact with ChibiUsa. But rlm@2: in the past four months no letter came from the princess. rlm@2: Although she tried to ignore the little girl, Setsuna's heart was rlm@2: breaking at the thought that she couldn't bring Hotaru any messages rlm@2: from ChibiUsa this time. rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: In her dark room Hotaru sat down on the bed and her mind drifted rlm@2: away from her surroundings. rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru rolled over on her bed and opened a drawer on her night rlm@2: table. She pulled out a bunch of letters and turned on a lamp rlm@2: beside her bed. rlm@2: She began reading the old love letters when her dark, purple eyes rlm@2: spotted something she hadn't noticed before. Inside the envelope of rlm@2: the last letter were a few words written: rlm@2: rlm@2: 'ps: i have a suprize for u.' rlm@2: rlm@2: This was definitely written by ChibiUsa. It was her handwriting and rlm@2: even Neo Queen Serenity couldn't make that many errors. rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: The rest of the day was quiet at the house where the Outer Senshi rlm@2: lived. Haruka and Michiru rented a romantic movie which they rlm@2: watched in their bedroom. Setsuna was calculating some time rlm@2: anomalies on her computer and Hotaru was thinking about the note rlm@2: she found in the envelope. rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: The raven haired girl woke up with an unusual feeling the next rlm@2: morning. Something is going to happen. Something important. rlm@2: "What is it, Hotaru-chan?" Michiru asked while Hotaru was silently rlm@2: eating her breakfast. rlm@2: "Nothing, Michiru-mama." rlm@2: "Come on, I can see something is wrong, sweetie." rlm@2: "It's nothing really. It's just this strange feeling." rlm@2: At this point Haruka and Setsuna became interested too. rlm@2: "A new enemy?" Haruka asked. rlm@2: "No, no. Nothing like that. I just have this strange feeling rlm@2: something important is going to happen to me..." rlm@2: Suddenly the sound of a horn from a car thundered in front of the rlm@2: house. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: "What do you think she's going to say, Usagi-chan?" rlm@2: The sound of Usagi's laughter chimed throughout the car. rlm@2: "What is it, got cold feet?" rlm@2: "No!" rlm@2: "Are you ready?" Mamoru asked. rlm@2: "Wait a minute." The girl sitting in the back of the car got out rlm@2: and took a deep breath. She was very obviously nervous. rlm@2: "Okay, I'm ready." rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: The three young women and the girl looked at each other at the rlm@2: sound of the horn and jointly got up. Hotaru's feeling grew rlm@2: stronger the closer she came to the front door. She got nervous rlm@2: when she reached for the doorknob. Feelings of fear and anger came rlm@2: up. Anger because of fear. She's a senshi. She shouldn't be afraid. rlm@2: Her hand slowly - painfully slowly - pushed the door open. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: The girl standing next to Mamoru's car was getting more nervous rlm@2: with each second that passed. She was standing on the sidewalk, rlm@2: looking at the door of the house in front of her. She looked at rlm@2: Usagi and Mamoru, looking for reassurance and found two supporting rlm@2: loving smiles. rlm@2: Then, the door slowly began to open. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: When Hotaru finally opened the door she saw Mamoru's car and a rlm@2: girl standing beside it. Hotaru could hardly believe her eyes. The rlm@2: girl looked about her age, her hair was pink and put up in two rlm@2: pointy odangos. Her ponytails reached her knees but were a bit rlm@2: puffy at their base. She was slim, her bust was not too big and rlm@2: surely not too small. The girl's beauty hypnotized Hotaru. rlm@2: The girl was looking at Hotaru with a nervous smile on her face. rlm@2: She was standing perfectly still, like a statue. Usagi's head rlm@2: popped out of Mamoru's car and she gave the girl a little push. The rlm@2: girl made a step forward, then another, then began running towards rlm@2: Hotaru. rlm@2: "Hotaru-chan!" A familiar squeak came from the girl's mouth and rlm@2: tears started filling her crimson eyes. rlm@2: "Chi... bi... u... sa...?" rlm@2: The girl reached Hotaru, threw her arms around her and began rlm@2: crying on her shoulder. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: "You got so big..." rlm@2: "A few hundred years passed in my time since I last saw you." rlm@2: Silence followed for a moment. rlm@2: "You are beautiful ChibiUsa-chan." Another moment of silence rlm@2: passed as they were staring deeply into each other's eyes. Hotaru rlm@2: leaned forward and gently and softly kissed ChibiUsa. rlm@2: "Why did you come back?" rlm@2: "Because of you. – I came to ask you out on our first official rlm@2: date." rlm@2: "Wha-?" Hotaru wasn't able to finish the word as ChibiUsa pressed rlm@2: her lips on Hotaru's. rlm@2: "Don't you want to go out on a date with me, Taru-chan?" ChibiUsa rlm@2: asked mischievously, already seeing the sparks of joy in her rlm@2: lover's eyes. rlm@2: "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan! I love you so much!" Hotaru squealed and rlm@2: hugged ChibiUsa. rlm@2: "Okay, listen. We both go to the shopping center tomorrow and buy rlm@2: a nice outfit for our date. You go with your parents and I go with rlm@2: the other girls. And we're not supposed to see what we bought until rlm@2: tomorrow evening. 'Kay?" Hotaru was amazed. rlm@2: "How long did you plan this evening Chibi-chan?" rlm@2: "Oh, just the last one hundred years," she said, causing laughter rlm@2: to fill Hotaru's room. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: "Haruka-papa! Do I look sexy in this?" Hotaru called across the rlm@2: store where Haruka and Setsuna were standing. Both looked somewhat rlm@2: sad seeing their daughter picking out dresses for her first date. rlm@2: "Come on, sweetie. Let's find something that shows your long legs rlm@2: off!" The two heard Michiru say enthusiastically in the distance. rlm@2: "We're losing her," Haruka commentated on the situation. rlm@2: "Yeah. I know." rlm@2: "Michiru doesn't seem to mind." rlm@2: "She compensates for it by playing dress-up with our daughter." rlm@2: Haruka looked at Setsuna strangely. "What?! Why are you looking at rlm@2: me like that? Being the keeper of the gates of time for a couple of rlm@2: centuries gets boring from time to time!" rlm@2: "Errrr... okay. Oh, look! There's ChibiUsa-chan with the other rlm@2: girls!" rlm@2: rlm@2: "Oh no, spies! Hide the dress!" ChibiUsa exclaimed when she saw rlm@2: the two women approaching. rlm@2: "Don't worry Small Lady. We won't tell anything." rlm@2: "Okay, then help me. Haruka-san, do I look sexy in this?" rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: For Hotaru this was the happiest day in her life. In a few minutes rlm@2: she would go out on her first date. On a date with the person she rlm@2: loved more than anything else in the universe. Two years ago she rlm@2: had buried the thought of seeing ChibiUsa sooner than in about a rlm@2: thousand years, but now she's here. Here, in the guest room – the rlm@2: room next to Hotaru's - getting ready for their date. Though rlm@2: something was still wrong – Hotaru could feel it. rlm@2: Suddenly a scratch was heard from the door. This was Diana's sign rlm@2: that ChibiUsa is about to come out of her room. Hotaru looked one rlm@2: last time in the mirror, got up from her chair and turned around. rlm@2: She was facing her parents now. rlm@2: "How do I look?" rlm@2: "Pretty." rlm@2: "Adorable." rlm@2: "Sexy." rlm@2: She smiled nervously and walked towards the door. She opened it rlm@2: and stepped into the hallway. The hall was filled with people. rlm@2: Usagi and her friends were there – they were helping ChibiUsa with rlm@2: her make-up and dress. Even Hotaru's parents stepped out in the rlm@2: hallway. rlm@2: rlm@2: Suddenly I turned around and she was standing there rlm@2: With silver bracelets on her wrists and flowers in her hair rlm@2: She walked up to me so gracefully and took my crown of thorns rlm@2: "Come in," she said "I'll give you rlm@2: Shelter from the storm" rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru wrote those words down in her diary a long time ago – rlm@2: actually in another lifetime. She heard them in a song on the radio rlm@2: some days after she first met ChibiUsa. They fit so well then and rlm@2: they fit so well now. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: The first stars were already appearing on the evening sky as the rlm@2: lovers walked into a restaurant. It was the restaurant which Haruka rlm@2: and Michiru often visited. rlm@2: Haruka called the restaurant earlier to make sure the girls would rlm@2: be treated accordingly and that she would later settle the bill. rlm@2: The girls were led to a table for two and ChibiUsa ordered a bottle rlm@2: of champagne. rlm@2: "Champagne, ChibiUsa-chan? Why did you order champagne?" ChibiUsa rlm@2: just shrugged her shoulders. rlm@2: "I don't know. It's a special occasion, isn't it Taru-chan?" rlm@2: Hotaru smiled. "Yes it is," rlm@2: Both were enjoying the tickling of the champagne in their mouths rlm@2: and the tickling of love in their stomachs. They both remained rlm@2: silent for a couple of minutes, studying the lines of their faces, rlm@2: exploring the changes of the years that passed. The purple and rlm@2: crimson eyes met and lost themselves in the depths. They were rlm@2: holding hands again, just like a long time ago. But this time was rlm@2: different. A long time ago they hadn't confessed their love to each rlm@2: other yet. rlm@2: Evening turned into night, the crowd in the restaurant thinned rlm@2: down. rlm@2: "Taru-chan, do you remember the poem you gave me when I left?" rlm@2: "The poem? Yes, I remember it. Though I wish I wouldn't. It's not rlm@2: a good poem. It's stupid." rlm@2: rlm@2: "Little bunny on the moon rlm@2: On the moon so far away rlm@2: The firefly cannot fly high rlm@2: High enough to reach the sky" rlm@2: rlm@2: "The little bunny on the moon rlm@2: Came down to earth to seek a friend rlm@2: Oh firefly, a friend is here rlm@2: A friend is here, a love is here" rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru blushed dark red as ChibiUsa recited the poem Hotaru wrote rlm@2: two years ago. rlm@2: "You- You learned it by heart..." rlm@2: "I think it's beautiful. Like you." rlm@2: ChibiUsa gently caressed Hotaru's hands within her own. ChibiUsa's rlm@2: eyes grew darker. Slowly, she was preparing herself to tell Hotaru rlm@2: the true reason she had come back. rlm@2: "Hotaru, I have to tell you something important. About you and rlm@2: me... and the future." rlm@2: Hotaru nodded and smiled to ChibiUsa. She knew she was going to rlm@2: hear something she rather wouldn't but she didn't want to make it rlm@2: harder for ChibiUsa – her true love. rlm@2: "I expected that ChibiUsa, I have sensed it since yesterday. Go rlm@2: ahead, rlm@2: I'm ready." rlm@2: ChibiUsa sighed and began: rlm@2: "Hotaru, where I come from, in my future, we two do not have the rlm@2: thing we share here. We do not share this love we have here. I rlm@2: searched for you after I came back from the past. I found you but rlm@2: you were not the same. You... you rejected me." rlm@2: "ChibiUsa..." Hotaru gasped in shock. rlm@2: "Yes. And I do not know why. I could see in you eyes you love me. rlm@2: I could see the tears that tried to break your eyes but you rlm@2: remained strong. You did not even want to talk to me. I came back rlm@2: to the past to change that future. Hotaru, I want you to promise me rlm@2: something. For what we have here, promise me you will never deceive rlm@2: your feelings. And promise me that if you ever stop loving me, you rlm@2: will look me in the eyes and tell me that." rlm@2: "ChibiUsa, I will always -" rlm@2: "No! Do not tell me you will always love me! Promise me these two rlm@2: things!" rlm@2: "I promise you." rlm@2: "Thank you Hotaru. Now I can go back to my future reassured. I was rlm@2: only given a limited time here. I will have to leave soon. rlm@2: Tomorrow," ChibiUsa said with a sigh. Three simple words: I promise rlm@2: you. Could these three simple words change the future? A future rlm@2: that somehow went terribly wrong for her. rlm@2: "Tomorrow already? Then... Then we'll have to make this night a rlm@2: night to remember." Hotaru tried to hide her hurt behind a rlm@2: reassuring smile. rlm@2: "Thank you Hotaru. But you forgot who you are talking to. I can rlm@2: see through your masks. You don't have to smile if you don't feel rlm@2: like it." rlm@2: "Don't you understand it ChibiUsa? I want to smile to make *you* rlm@2: smile. When I see your smile it always makes me feel better." rlm@2: Now a smile lit ChibiUsa's face also. rlm@2: "Thank you ChibiUsa. Can I say it now?" rlm@2: "Go ahead." rlm@2: "I will always love you ChibiUsa." rlm@2: "And I will always love you Hotaru." rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: Midnight already passed when the two young women came to Hotaru's rlm@2: home. It was arranged that ChibiUsa would stay in the guest room in rlm@2: the Outer's mansion but everybody soon realized that they would rlm@2: spend the night in the same room. rlm@2: The girls quietly took off their shoes and went upstairs holding rlm@2: hands. They remained quiet when they were passing the halls until rlm@2: they reached the door to Hotaru's room. Hotaru reached for the rlm@2: doorknob but then she turned around with a question on her flushed rlm@2: face. They slept together all the time when they were younger. But rlm@2: now was different. Now they were in love. rlm@2: ChibiUsa simply smiled at Hotaru and nodded. No words were rlm@2: necessary, ChibiUsa knew what question was on Hotaru's mind. They rlm@2: entered the room and looked into each other's eyes. The most rlm@2: passionate kiss they ever shared followed. Their tongues danced rlm@2: with each other and explored each other's mouths. Their hands rlm@2: roamed across their bodies, studying the changes the years had rlm@2: brought. rlm@2: Hotaru slipped her hand under ChibiUsa's dress and savoured the rlm@2: feeling of the soft skin against her fingertips. She slowly moved rlm@2: her hands around ChibiUsa's back and began undressing her as rlm@2: ChibiUsa was doing the same. Soon, both were standing in their rlm@2: underwear and stockings. rlm@2: As Hotaru's dress fell on the floor, ChibiUsa went down on her rlm@2: Knees, and began slowly pulling off one of Hotaru's stockings. She rlm@2: would pull the stocking down a bit and kiss the soft skin she rlm@2: freed. Inside herself, Hotaru could feel something warm forming, rlm@2: and with every kiss ChibiUsa planted on her leg the feeling grew rlm@2: stronger. When ChibiUsa finally removed both stockings it was rlm@2: Hotaru's turn. Though Hotaru took a different approach. With her rlm@2: hands she was pulling down the stocking and her tongue travelled rlm@2: along a few inches behind the stocking. ChibiUsa let out a muttered rlm@2: moan as the delicate feeling of Hotaru's tongue against her skin rlm@2: washed through her body. rlm@2: After the stockings were off, Hotaru's bra was next. ChibiUsa rlm@2: unclasped it and let it fall to the floor. She gently cupped one of rlm@2: Hotaru's breasts with her hand and kissed the other's nipple rlm@2: lovingly. She began suckling on the nipple and stroking the other rlm@2: with her thumb. Hotaru's nipples were growing harder every second rlm@2: as ChibiUsa was playing with her breasts. They were already rock rlm@2: hard when ChibiUsa felt two hands encircle her face. Hotaru rlm@2: lovingly brought ChibiUsa's face in front of hers and kissed her rlm@2: passionately while she unclasped her bra. rlm@2: ChibiUsa saw desire in her lover's eyes, as Hotaru lowered her rlm@2: head to have some fun with ChibiUsa's breasts, which were slightly rlm@2: larger than her own. At the same time Hotaru put her hands on rlm@2: ChibiUsa's hips and lay her down on the bed. She took her position rlm@2: beside ChibiUsa and while teasing her nipples with her tongue she rlm@2: slid down ChibiUsa's panties. After the wet panties landed on the rlm@2: floor, Hotaru started planting a trail of kisses from ChibiUsa's rlm@2: breasts downward. rlm@2: The path led from one nipple through a valley to the other and rlm@2: then further downward across ChibiUsa's soft stomach. Hotaru was rlm@2: moving in circles around the navel and finally followed the musky rlm@2: scent to it's origin. Hotaru's lips reached a bush of pink hair and rlm@2: her fingers played a little with the pubic hair while her lips rlm@2: shyly touched the petals of ChibiUsa's sex. ChibiUsa let out a rlm@2: groan and a moan at the same time and Hotaru smiled to herself to rlm@2: her achievement. rlm@2: Determined to draw another moan from ChibiUsa, Hotaru changed her rlm@2: position. She put her knees down on either side of ChibiUsa's head, rlm@2: carefully avoiding her ponytails. Hotaru stretched over ChibiUsa's rlm@2: body and resumed the attack at her pussy. rlm@2: Suddenly, ChibiUsa was encircled with a sweet odour, and she rlm@2: slowly opened her eyes. She was greeted with a sight that rlm@2: immediately shattered all the walls inside her, and she let out a rlm@2: sound that Hotaru could only describe as something between a sigh rlm@2: and a moan. Two pillars were holding Hotaru's crotch mere inches rlm@2: away from ChibiUsa's face. ChibiUsa inhaled the strong scent deep rlm@2: inside and lifted her head to kiss the wet spot on the white rlm@2: panties above her. rlm@2: Hotaru was tasting the sweet juices that ran out of ChibiUsa's rlm@2: pussy when she felt two hands pulling down her panties. When rlm@2: ChibiUsa discarded Hotaru's panties and was engulfed by her rlm@2: Smell, she knew she wouldn't last much longer. The black haired rlm@2: girl felt ChibiUsa's tongue slowly lick her pussy. rlm@2: Hotaru knew ChibiUsa was close to her climax and so was she. Their rlm@2: breathing was shallow and quick. Moans, gasps and sighs were mixed rlm@2: with licking sounds. As if their minds were somehow connected, they rlm@2: inserted a finger into each other simultaniously and it was like rlm@2: floodgates were opened. rlm@2: After the climax passed, the lovers snuggled up to each to catch rlm@2: their breath for the next round. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: Soft, smiling crimson eyes greeted Hotaru when she woke up. The rlm@2: small amount of light in her room told her that morning has long rlm@2: passed. rlm@2: "Hotaru-chan, wake up," a soft voice began. rlm@2: 'Hmph' was the only response the voice got from the girl who rlm@2: pulled the blankets over her head. rlm@2: "Hotaru-chan, I'll give you a kiss if you get up," the soft voice rlm@2: persisted. rlm@2: "Why don't you get back in here and we can continue where we rlm@2: stopped last night." rlm@2: The softness in the voice disappeared as it started anew: "Hotaru, rlm@2: don't you want to say goodbye? I'll be going soon." rlm@2: Crimson eyes met purple ones again when Hotaru removed the blanket rlm@2: from her face. Two hands grabbed the unprepared ChibiUsa as Hotaru rlm@2: pulled her closer to kiss her. rlm@2: "Hotaru, how come you aren't sad?" ChibiUsa asked when they rlm@2: finally broke their kiss. rlm@2: "I am sad. But I know that our love is strong. I believe in our rlm@2: love. The princess, Usagi-chan, taught me to believe in love." rlm@2: Hotaru stated with certainty. rlm@2: After a pause the raven haired asked the question that lingered in rlm@2: her. rlm@2: "ChibiUsa, this is the last time you came back, isn't it?" rlm@2: A 'yes' spoken underneath ChibiUsa's breath was all the answer she rlm@2: got. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: About half an hour later, a time portal opened in the back yard of rlm@2: the Outers' house. rlm@2: "I love you Tomoe Hotaru, princess of Saturn." rlm@2: "I love you Tsukino Chibi Usagi, princess of the Moon." rlm@2: A phrase kept repeating itself in ChibiUsa's mind like if she was rlm@2: chanting a mandala. A phrase which held all her hopes, all her rlm@2: dreams, her entire being. rlm@2: rlm@2: And the light filled her. rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: The End rlm@2: rlm@2: The Ghost of 'lectricity rlm@2: Peter.dobaj@guest.arnes.si rlm@2: rlm@2: If you haven't noticed I borrowed a verse from Bob Dylan's Shelter rlm@2: from the Storm and various phrases from his songs. rlm@2: Thank you for reading.