rlm@2: The story contains some sexual scenes so don't read it if you're rlm@2: underage. Right, like if you'd listen to me, but don't come to me rlm@2: when your psychiatrist tells you you're not quite normal! rlm@2: The story takes place after the senshi defeat Neherenia. So Hotaru rlm@2: reached her normal age again and lives with the Outers and ChibiUsa rlm@2: with Usagi and her family. Hotaru is about 14 and ChibiUsa a bit rlm@2: younger. rlm@2: Before we begin I would like to thank Naoko Takeuchi for creating rlm@2: the beautiful legend of Sailor Moon. rlm@2: These characters ain't mine, I'm just borrowing them for a while. rlm@2: rlm@2: This story is a continuation of the story "Hotaru's pain", but it rlm@2: makes sense on it's own too (but it makes more sense if you read rlm@2: Hotaru's pain first). rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru's pain part 2 rlm@2: Featuring Hotaru and ChibiUsa rlm@2: By The Ghost of 'lectricity rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru ate her lunch in silence as her classmates laughed and had rlm@2: fun around her. It seemed like nothing had changed from yesterday. rlm@2: Her classmates were still ignoring the silent and a bit weird rlm@2: black-haired girl in the back row. rlm@2: What was wrong? Everybody had seen how she healed the boy rlm@2: yesterday, everyone had stood in the circle around them as she put rlm@2: her hand on the boy's head and made the blood disappear. rlm@2: They weren't calling her a witch. Well, at least not more than rlm@2: once. But still she didn't know what they were thinking about her. rlm@2: She knew they were talking about her, but she did not know what rlm@2: they were saying. She saw a pair of eyes turning her way but as rlm@2: soon as her eyes wandered across the room to meet them the pair rlm@2: quickly turned away. rlm@2: It was still rlm@2: hard for Hotaru to say the word, even in her mind. At these thoughts Hotaru blushed. rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru was watching Mio wander around the class, as the blue rlm@2: haired girl was making sure she wouldn't let anyone out. Hotaru was rlm@2: feeling like she was trapped inside a circle. Inside a circle of rlm@2: people, turning their backs to her. Suddenly a shadow fell over rlm@2: her... rlm@2: "Hi!" rlm@2: "R- Ryu..." rlm@2: "May I sit down? Why are you so amazed? I said I'd have lunch with rlm@2: you." rlm@2: "I... I thought you forgot..." Hotaru replied silently. rlm@2: "How could I forget? You saved my life." rlm@2: Hotaru remained silent and was looking down. rlm@2: "What?! Aren't you proud of what you done?" Ryu asked surprised. rlm@2: "I... I don't know. Now everybody thinks I'm a witch." Hotaru rlm@2: said, looking at Mio now, who was still running around the rlm@2: class. rlm@2: "You think she's telling that to everyone?" Ryu asked, slightly rlm@2: grinning. rlm@2: "What else..." rlm@2: "Well, actually... I talked to her earlier. I told her not to call rlm@2: you that - what she called you yesterday... Now she's telling rlm@2: everyone that I'm in love with you! HaHaHa!" rlm@2: As Ryu was laughing loudly Hotaru just blushed. The fact that rlm@2: anyone - other than ChibiUsa - would like her *that* much seemed rlm@2: totally absurd to her. Obviously Ryu was thinking pretty much the rlm@2: same about it. rlm@2: "See Mio, I'm talking to Tomoe Hotaru and I'm not dead yet!" Ryu rlm@2: shouted across the classroom. rlm@2: "Well then why don't you two find a quiet place where you can do rlm@2: what you *really* want to do!" the blue-haired girl shouted back. rlm@2: "Are you getting jealous?" Ryu teased her. The whole class knew rlm@2: Ryu and Mio had a crush on each other since they first laid eyes on rlm@2: each other. As the two and the rest of the class were enjoying rlm@2: their quarrel Hotaru went through hell. She never liked to be in rlm@2: the center of attention. Ryu and Mio made her a part of the show rlm@2: they were putting up. rlm@2: "Jealous of her? No, the poor scared girl wouldn't dare to do rlm@2: anything." rlm@2: "So, what's the problem then?" rlm@2: "You! If you're so nice to her she'll think you like her!" rlm@2: Then someone cut in: "Yeah, and we all know whom he *really* rlm@2: likes!" The two just blushed, which doesn't happen often and rlm@2: simultaneously shouted back to the other boy: "Shut up!" rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: "I'll get it!" Hotaru chimed cheerfully as the doorbell rang. rlm@2: Just before she opened the door she looked at Haruka and Michiru, rlm@2: who were sitting on the couch. rlm@2: "Can't you two ever stop? Haruka-papa, take your hand out of rlm@2: Michiru-mama's blouse!" As Hotaru turned to open the door she said rlm@2: over her shoulder: "And from under her skirt too!" rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: It was an unusual view: this time it seemed like Hotaru was the rlm@2: more cheerful one and ChibiUsa had a somewhat sad look in her eyes. rlm@2: But she didn't want Hotaru to notice. rlm@2: "So, how was it in school?" ChibiUsa asked Hotaru as they entered rlm@2: her room, trying to disband the heavy thoughts that lingered in her rlm@2: mind. rlm@2: "I think I met new friends." Hotaru said with a big smile on her rlm@2: face. rlm@2: "You think?" rlm@2: "Well, I don't have that much experience in making friends, rlm@2: ChibiUsa-chan." rlm@2: "That's great then." ChibiUsa said. rlm@2: "What is with you ChibiUsa-chan? You're strange." Hotaru inquired rlm@2: concerned. rlm@2: ChibiUsa looked her best friend square in the eyes. rlm@2: "I got a letter today.... It was from my mother... from the rlm@2: future..." ChibiUsa saw something break in her best friend's eyes. rlm@2: "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..." rlm@2: "I'll have to go home soon..." rlm@2: To Hotaru it seemed like the world stopped turning and this moment rlm@2: of pain would last for an eternity. rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: "Haruka-papa? Michiru-mama? Can I come in?" Hotaru asked as she rlm@2: knocked on the door of the pair's bedroom. rlm@2: "Of course, come in." rlm@2: "What is it, angel? Why aren't you asleep yet?" Michiru asked the rlm@2: figure who sat down on their bed in the darkness. rlm@2: Not answering the question Hotaru asked immediately: "How do you rlm@2: know you love somebody?" rlm@2: "Uhm... Errr... I... I... Haruka, would you like to answer that?" rlm@2: "Me? Hmmm... Errr... When you like to be around that someone. rlm@2: Michiru, would you care to continue?" Haruka picked up the game rlm@2: Michiru began. rlm@2: "When you like to hug someone!" Michiru said as she hugged Haruka. rlm@2: "When you like to kiss someone!" Haruka kissed Michiru. rlm@2: "When someone is more than just a friend to you." rlm@2: As Haruka and Michiru began kissing passionately Hotaru figured rlm@2: they wouldn't be of any more use to her. rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru was walking down the hall toward her own room when she rlm@2: bumped into Setsuna. rlm@2: "Oh, sorry Setsuna-mama." Hotaru apologised. rlm@2: "Hotaru-chan, wait. I have to talk to you." Setsuna said as put rlm@2: her hand on Hotaru's shoulder to stop her. rlm@2: "Why, what is it?" Hotaru replied. rlm@2: "...let's sit down." rlm@2: "Here? On the floor?" Hotaru asked but Setsuna already began rlm@2: speaking. rlm@2: "In a few years ChibiUsa will be born." Setsuna took a long rlm@2: breath. "You know she didn't know you when she came to our time, rlm@2: right?" Setsuna knew she was about to break the girl's heart. "I rlm@2: know it's hard but... you will have to..." rlm@2: "No, no, no! You can't demand that!" Hotaru screamed with tears rlm@2: building up in her eyes as she ran toward her room. rlm@2: Setsuna let out a sigh in the dark corridor. She was sure she rlm@2: wouldn't get any sleep tonight, just like the last six weeks. There rlm@2: must be another way. And so another sleepless night would go by. rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru was again crying herself to sleep this night. In a few days rlm@2: ChibiUsa would go away and she would lose the sun that made her rlm@2: dark world brighter. The fact that maybe she would't even be rlm@2: allowed to see her friend for the next one thousand years only made rlm@2: her tears flow faster down her cheeks. Without ChibiUsa her own rlm@2: life seemed meaningless to her. What was she really feeling for rlm@2: ChibiUsa? Was she just a friend... or was she... more...? Her rlm@2: feelings for the small pink bunny were much stronger than for any rlm@2: other of her friends. Even stronger than for Haruka-papa, Michiru- rlm@2: mama and Setsuna-mama. Is it... love? But she's a girl! In school rlm@2: they say girls should love boys! But Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama rlm@2: love each other, and they are girls... rlm@2: "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..." a whisper echoed silently in the dark room. rlm@2: Why does it hurt so much...? Love... rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: It was an ordinary Saturday morning the next day at the Outers' rlm@2: mansion. Michiru was making breakfast, Haruka was reading her rlm@2: sports magazine and glancing every now and then over to Michiru. rlm@2: Michiru would then bend over, on purpose of course, so Haruka could rlm@2: admire her long legs and firm butt. Setsuna was rambling something rlm@2: about the "damn primitive clocks" like she always did when she was rlm@2: waken by the alarm clock. Hotaru was silently eating her breakfast, rlm@2: just like always, but the three young women knew Hotaru was rlm@2: restless inside. rlm@2: Haruka stood up, wanting to comfort Hotaru. She always felt so rlm@2: guilty for trying to kill the fragile little girl so many times. rlm@2: She had a very feminine and motherly side - the side only Hotaru rlm@2: and Michiru knew. Just as she wanted to say something to Hotaru - rlm@2: what, she did not know yet - the telephone rang. Saved by the bell, rlm@2: Haruka picked up her saviour. rlm@2: "Hello?... Hi Usagi-chan... Yes, she's here... Wait a minute. rlm@2: Hotaru-chan! It's for you. It's Usagi. ... Take the phone in the rlm@2: living room, we don't want to disturb you." rlm@2: rlm@2: Hotaru sat down on the couch and picked up the phone. rlm@2: "Hello?" rlm@2: "Hello Hotaru-chan, it's me, Usagi." rlm@2: "Hello." rlm@2: "So you heard the news..." rlm@2: "Yes..." rlm@2: "I need to know something Hotaru-chan. What do you feel for rlm@2: ChibiUsa-chan?" rlm@2: Hotaru was hit in her weak spot. rlm@2: "I... She's my best friend." rlm@2: "Do you... ... Do you love her?" rlm@2: "I... I... I don't know. ...yes..." The last word was just a rlm@2: whisper, as if Hotaru didn't want Usagi to hear it. Or maybe she rlm@2: didn't want herself to hear it, knowing it would only bring her a rlm@2: lot of pain once it's said. rlm@2: "You have to tell her that!" rlm@2: "No! I can't! She... I... She won't understand." rlm@2: "Hotaru-chan... You know she will. She a smart girl." Hotaru could rlm@2: hear the shaking in Usagi's voice. Usagi would miss ChibiUsa just rlm@2: as much as Hotaru will. rlm@2: "But she'll be gone in a few days anyway. It doesn't matter rlm@2: anymore..." A tear - a silent witness of Hotaru's pain - ran down rlm@2: her cheek. rlm@2: "You're wrong, it does matter! If you don't tell her, you'll never rlm@2: know what she feels." rlm@2: "But- , but-" She couldn't say anything beyond that. Her sobs rlm@2: choked away the fake excuses. rlm@2: "I'll- I'll send her over, okay?" Even Usagi started to sob now. rlm@2: "O- o-kay." rlm@2: "Hotaru-chan, I'm gonna put down the phone now, OK?" rlm@2: "Usagi-chan, tell me... that it's gonna be alright..." rlm@2: "Everything is gonna be okay... I promise..." rlm@2: "Thank you..." rlm@2: rlm@2: Except for Hotaru the house was empty when ChibiUsa came over. rlm@2: Haruka, Michiru and Setsuna said they had some business to attend rlm@2: to. Although they had the house for themselves Hotaru led ChibiUsa rlm@2: to her room. Hotaru needed the shelter of her room to say what she rlm@2: intended to. For the last hour she was grinding the words in her rlm@2: mind but she still had no clue of what to say. She sat down on her rlm@2: bed and ChibiUsa sat down beside her. They were sitting in silence rlm@2: and tension for a minute, Hotaru was still thinking of what to say. rlm@2: Suddenly ChibiUsa hugged Hotaru around her waist. rlm@2: "Oh, Hotaru-chan..." Within ChibiUsa's embrace Hotaru's mind rlm@2: finally found the peace it was longing for. ChibiUsa put her head rlm@2: on Hotaru's chest and closed her eyes and Hotaru put her arms rlm@2: around ChibiUsa's back and closed her eyes also. After a while rlm@2: ChibiUsa began: rlm@2: "You know why I like to hug you?" rlm@2: "You... You like to hug me?" Hotaru said in amazement, thinking of rlm@2: what Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama told her yesterday night. rlm@2: "I like to hug you because you're not as tall as the other girls." rlm@2: "What?" rlm@2: "You know, if I hug them my head reaches only their tummy. And rlm@2: except for Usagi, all of them have really strong muscles there - rlm@2: they are not soft. If you look up from there you only see two big rlm@2: balloons hanging over your head. I get really scared if I hug Mako- rlm@2: chan." Then she paused for a moment. She remained serious when she rlm@2: continued to speak: "But if I hug you my head lands straight on two rlm@2: soft pillows - with two chocolates on it, just like in a hotel rlm@2: room. Sometimes the chocolates are soft and I want to eat them, but rlm@2: sometimes they are really hard and I want to hold them in my hands rlm@2: so they would get softer. And if I look up from here I can see your rlm@2: beautiful face and your beautiful eyes looking down at me." Their rlm@2: eyes met but Hotaru turned her head away. rlm@2: "ChibiUsa-chan, I have to tell you something..." Hotaru took a rlm@2: deep breath. "ChibiUsa, you have been my first true friend. You rlm@2: made me laugh when no one was there to care for me. You were the rlm@2: light that made me hang on to my life when I was almost dead. You rlm@2: mean everything to me... I... I love you ChibiUsa..." Hotaru's eyes rlm@2: were closed as she whispered the last words. Her head wasn't facing rlm@2: ChibiUsa. Moments seemed like hours, seconds like eternity. Then, rlm@2: she heard a soft whisper. rlm@2: "I love you too, Hotaru." Hotaru felt a pair of soft lips press rlm@2: against her skin, sending shivers down her body. rlm@2: "...oh, ChibiUsa..." ChibiUsa was kissing Hotaru all over her face rlm@2: - on her cheeks, on her nose, on her forehead - until finally rlm@2: Hotaru felt the soft lips touch her own. Hotaru opened her mouth rlm@2: lightly and her tongue carefully touched ChibiUsa's lips and tasted rlm@2: their sweetness. rlm@2: ChibiUsa pushed Hotaru's body softly so Hotaru fell backwards on rlm@2: her bed and ChibiUsa right on top of her. "...oh, ChibiUsa... I rlm@2: dreamed of this..." ChibiUsa was sitting on top of Hotaru, her rlm@2: hands placed on Hotaru's belly. Hotaru felt the two hands move rlm@2: upward, slowly reaching her ribs and the base of her breasts, rlm@2: stopping there. Hotaru opened her eyes and found ChibiUsa's rlm@2: questioning face. rlm@2: "Go on... please..." Hotaru whispered. She felt the two soft hands rlm@2: finally reaching the end of their journey as they softly squeezed rlm@2: the tender flesh of her breasts through the fabric of Hotaru's rlm@2: shirt. Hotaru sighed when ChibiUsa began kneading her breasts. rlm@2: ChibiUsa saw Hotaru's nipples push against the fabric and she took rlm@2: one between her fingers. Hotaru felt the little fingers squeezing rlm@2: her nipple and sighed once more, the sensations driving her crazy. rlm@2: She couldn't bear it any more. She reached to her waist and pulled rlm@2: off her shirt, revealing her aroused breasts. rlm@2: "... my chocolates..." Before Hotaru could realize what ChibiUsa rlm@2: was doing she felt something warm encompass her nipple. ChibiUsa rlm@2: was kissing it! Hotaru never felt this kind of pleasure before. The rlm@2: warmth of ChibiUsa's mouth, ChibiUsa's tongue flicking over the rlm@2: nipple. Hotaru was panting heavily. rlm@2: Hotaru was on the brink of the greatest orgasm she ever had. Her rlm@2: hand travelled down her belly toward ChibiUsa's pussy that was rlm@2: placed on Hotaru's lap. ChibiUsa jerked when she felt something on rlm@2: her pussy, but Hotaru squeezed her hand gently past ChibiUsa and rlm@2: cupped her own sex. As her fingers were teasing and pleasuring her rlm@2: own pussy through the skin-tight pants she felt the warmth of rlm@2: ChibiUsa's sex against her wrist. ChibiUsa was licking and sucking rlm@2: on Hotaru's nipples and rubbing her crotch against Hotaru's wrist. rlm@2: Then Hotaru's body froze up and in the same moment her scream of rlm@2: pleasure filled the air of the room. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: Eleven young people gathered in the park a few days later. But the rlm@2: group was not a happy one, the heavy thought of farewell hung in rlm@2: the air. It was a sad ceremony - ChibiUsa was saying goodbye to all rlm@2: her friends. Usagi was trying very hard not to cry by holding on to rlm@2: Mamoru as hard as she could. Their goodbye present was a box of all rlm@2: the photos of her they had. Amy bought her a book. Makoto baked rlm@2: cookies for her. Rei gave her a special lucky charm. Minako rlm@2: presented her with a big poster of Sailor V. rlm@2: The only one left to say goodbye to was Hotaru. She hugged rlm@2: ChibiUsa gently and they kissed. They didn't bother about what the rlm@2: others would think and they whispered into each others ears a soft rlm@2: but definite "I love you." rlm@2: "ChibiUsa, my present is a poem. I've written it for you." Hotaru rlm@2: promised herself not to cry, not to make it even harder for rlm@2: ChibUsa. But as soon as she saw ChibiUsa's eyes fill up with tears rlm@2: when she gave her the envelope, she knew she wouldn't be strong rlm@2: enough. rlm@2: "You've written a poem for me? No one ever wrote a poem for me..." rlm@2: "But don't read it now. After you get home..." rlm@2: "I have something for you too, Hotaru." ChibiUsa said, reaching rlm@2: into her pocket and giving the dark beauty a picture. It was a rlm@2: picture of ChibiUsa and Hotaru holding hands, smiling brightly into rlm@2: the camera. It had a precious carved frame and in the corner of the rlm@2: picture were the words "I love you, Hotaru" written. rlm@2: They hugged again and let the tears of their loss flow in silence. rlm@2: rlm@2: *** rlm@2: rlm@2: I'm lonely when I close my eyes. rlm@2: rlm@2: Say, Haruka-papa, Michiru-mama, Setsuna-mama? Hold my hand tonight. rlm@2: Stay with me all night long. I want to have happy dreams. Dreams rlm@2: the color of rainbows. Dreams where the people precious to me are rlm@2: smiling with joy. rlm@2: rlm@2: Dreams that won't disappear when I open my eyes. rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: End of Part 2 rlm@2: rlm@2: The Ghost of 'lectricity rlm@2: Peter.dobaj@guest.arnes.si rlm@2: rlm@2: The last few lines are from the poem Dreams. rlm@2: