rlm@2: Dear Sakura: rlm@2: On Angel's Wings rlm@2: by The Amazoness Duo rlm@2: amazonessduo@hotmail.com rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: rlm@2: “Tomoyo-chan, are you sure you won’t come with me? The cabin will rlm@2: be lonely without you. You could bring some of your videotapes and we rlm@2: could watch them while we’re up there. And the weather is going to be rlm@2: gorgeous. We could go for a picnic,” Sonomi Daidouji suggested to her rlm@2: daughter as the younger of the two continued packing. rlm@2: “I would love to come with, Okaa-sama, but I couldn’t stand to rlm@2: disappoint Sakura-chan. You should have heard her on the phone last rlm@2: night. She sounds so excited. I haven’t heard her like that since the rlm@2: night she told me that Li-kun had proposed to her.” What she didn’t rlm@2: have to add was that she and Syaoran had been planning to for weeks rlm@2: but he couldn’t work up the courage or make up his mind so she had to rlm@2: follow him around and nudge him ever closer into finally proposing. rlm@2: It had been one of the most heartbreaking things she had done for rlm@2: Sakura’s happiness, but it had to be done. What if he hadn’t proposed rlm@2: otherwise? Tomoyo smiled her trademark smile as she placed in some rlm@2: more clothing. Sakura had told her to pack light clothes, so she was rlm@2: going for a slightly different style than the usual dresses she wore. rlm@2: Her camcorder was already packed up in it’s case, ready for the long rlm@2: trip to Hong Kong. rlm@2: Sonomi sighed exasperatedly. Even if she could see past her rlm@2: daughter’s almost impenetrable emotional masks, she still wished that rlm@2: she would let them down more often around her. And that she would rlm@2: listen to reason. “I just don’t think this is a good idea. Sakura- rlm@2: chan already went off and got married right in front of you. Does she rlm@2: really need to throw it in your face? No good can come from this. rlm@2: Just tell her that as your mother and your boss, I forced you to come rlm@2: along to the mountains with me.” The older woman took out the blouse rlm@2: Tomoyo had just placed in the suitcase, laying it back on the bed. rlm@2: Looking back to her mother, Tomoyo smiled cheerfully again as she rlm@2: repacked the offending blouse. “Sakura-chan wouldn’t do that. She’s rlm@2: lonely up in Hong Kong all by herself. She needs some help getting rlm@2: settled. So I’ll go and help her. I think she’ll be happy to get a rlm@2: little piece of home in her new life. It will help her to move on rlm@2: with her life.” Tilting her head to the side thoughtfully, she rlm@2: glanced around for anything she may be missing. rlm@2: Her lithe hands taking her daughter’s shoulders, Sonomi turned the rlm@2: younger woman to face her. “But what about you, Tomoyo-chan? Maybe rlm@2: Sakura-chan does need this. But I really don’t think you do. It’s not rlm@2: wise for you to go back for more pain. Darling, don’t you think she’s rlm@2: hurt you enough? Do you need to see her with him now? For the past rlm@2: few years I’ve seen you suffer in silence as you watched them rlm@2: together. I don’t want you going off so she can blindly break my rlm@2: little girl’s heart again.” She frowned, brushing away some of rlm@2: Tomoyo’s lavender hair from her stormy blue eyes. Her heart was rlm@2: tearing itself in two. She knew first hand how painful it was to rlm@2: watch one’s true love marry another. And there had been nothing she rlm@2: could do about it. And now she was equally helpless to stop the pain rlm@2: in her daughter. Through the weak smile Tomoyo was keeping up, she rlm@2: could see the shimmer of tears in her daughter’s eyes and the deep rlm@2: pain behind it. “Oh, Tomoyo-chan...” Pulling the smaller woman rlm@2: closer, the businesswoman held onto her tightly, stroking her back rlm@2: the way she had when she was little. rlm@2: Tomoyo closed her eyes as her mother held onto her, letting the rlm@2: comforting embrace relax her. “Please don’t worry about me, Okaa- rlm@2: sama. I’ll be fine. I really will be happy to see Sakura-chan again. rlm@2: I’ve missed her so much lately. Hearing her on the phone and writing rlm@2: her isn’t enough. I need to see her. To be with her. Even if it’s for rlm@2: the last time,” her musical voice whispered softly, barely rlm@2: restraining the emotion underneath. She hugged her mother back, her rlm@2: eyes still shut. This whole visit had brought up so many mixed rlm@2: emotions in her. She dearly wanted to see her precious Sakura again, rlm@2: but the prospect of interrupting her new life with her husband was rlm@2: painful. She knew that Syaoran was probably taking good care of rlm@2: Sakura and providing her with things she never could. And in turn, he rlm@2: was rewarded with something Sakura could never give her. Her sweet, rlm@2: innocent love. And what a reward at that. But if he could make her rlm@2: happy, then he more than deserved it. But going in and seeing her rlm@2: beloved with her husband was a painful thought indeed. And after rlm@2: Sakura got settled, there really wouldn’t be much of a need for her rlm@2: anymore. Syaoran had already replaced her at Sakura’s side as the rlm@2: most important person in her life. He would love and support her the rlm@2: way she always had. She would go to him with her problems. And Sakura rlm@2: could forget about her. So in that sense, this trip was extremely rlm@2: bittersweet for the young heiress. This truly could be the last time rlm@2: she ever saw Sakura. But she had to. For Sakura’s sake. As well as rlm@2: her own. If this was her last chance to spend time with Sakura, she rlm@2: would have to treasure the moments for eternity. rlm@2: When Tomoyo finally stepped away from her mother, she smiled rlm@2: softly, composed once again. “I’ll be fine, Okaa-sama. I’ll give rlm@2: Sakura-chan your love.” rlm@2: Sonomi seemed to consider that for a moment. Did she really want rlm@2: Sakura even hearing from her after the hell she had been forcing her rlm@2: daughter through? Not that there was any use arguing the point with rlm@2: Tomoyo. The younger Daidouji already had enough to worry about rlm@2: without her mother’s anger at Sakura. Sighing, she crossed her arms. rlm@2: “But promise that you’ll call me while you’re up there. Everyday. I rlm@2: want to know how things are going.” rlm@2: Tomoyo giggled softly and nodded. “Hai, Okaa-sama. I’ll be sure to rlm@2: call you. Please have fun on your vacation, too.” A melodious beeping rlm@2: interrupted the two from Tomoyo’s watch. Pink and cute with intricate rlm@2: and colorful designs on it, it was most obviously a product of rlm@2: Daidouji Toys. “I’m going to be late if I don’t hurry.” She glanced rlm@2: back at her mother after picking up her small bag with the camcorder rlm@2: in it. Two darkly clad bodyguards picked up her two other suitcases. rlm@2: “Everything will be fine. Please don’t worry. You’ve been so busy rlm@2: with work that you really need to relax on this vacation. And how can rlm@2: I enjoy my time with Sakura-chan if I know Okaa-sama’s busy worrying rlm@2: about me?” rlm@2: The older woman couldn’t help but smile. Just like Nadeshiko. Her rlm@2: daughter had always been such a sweet girl, much like her cousin. But rlm@2: that concern for her loved ones came from Sonomi herself, even if rlm@2: Tomoyo managed to be more subtle about it. “Let’s hurry. The rlm@2: limousine’s waiting.” rlm@2: Taking one last look at her room, Tomoyo tried to spot anything rlm@2: that she might be missing. She was usually very good at organizing rlm@2: things, but she couldn’t shake the feeling that she was missing rlm@2: something. Her eyes finally settled on the half-finished costume she rlm@2: had once been working on for Sakura. Folding it over her arm, she rlm@2: hurriedly followed her mother out the door. rlm@2: rlm@2: Stormy blue eyes watched with a mild curiosity as the lighter blue rlm@2: skies slowly filtered past outside the window. It wouldn’t take too rlm@2: long before she was in Hong Kong. But Tomoyo hadn’t fully sorted out rlm@2: her feelings on the situation. Which was very difficult for her. She rlm@2: knew how she should feel about the whole thing. She should be happy rlm@2: for Sakura, that she was with the one she loved and that she was rlm@2: happily on the road to her new life. But it hurt her terribly that rlm@2: their roads had veered from one another’s. Her heart longed for rlm@2: Sakura. Her determined spirit, her genki attitude, her sweet smile. rlm@2: Everything about her. So it was with some delight that she had gotten rlm@2: the chance to fly out to see her so soon. And without the pretext of rlm@2: Sakura being with child as well. But how did she fit into Sakura’s rlm@2: new life? As nothing more than a relic from the past, sadly. And this rlm@2: trip was just making her realize that cold fact more and more. The rlm@2: trip was not much more than an attempt to curb Sakura’s homesickness rlm@2: so that she could move on with her new life. Seeing Sakura would be rlm@2: both the most pleasant part of the trip and the most painful. Part of rlm@2: her had wanted to accept her mother’s offer to go on vacation with rlm@2: her at a cabin in the mountains. But she needed to see Sakura again. rlm@2: To see that she had done the right thing in getting her beloved with rlm@2: another. Of that she was fairly certain, but she wanted to see Sakura rlm@2: happy with her special person. Seeing that making Sakura happy would rlm@2: make it all worth it. The she could go back to Japan and Sakura could rlm@2: forget all about her. But her final memories of Sakura, the knowledge rlm@2: that Sakura was finally happy would carry her through it. rlm@2: Tomoyo needed to see Sakura if for no other reason than to be with rlm@2: her true love just once more. She needed to see the girl that she had rlm@2: fallen in love with all those years ago. Sakura always filled her rlm@2: heart with such warmth just being near her. That had been missing rlm@2: from her life for too long now. Her heart soared at the thought of rlm@2: seeing her dear Sakura again, of being able to experience those rlm@2: wonderful sensations without the aid of videotape or her own rlm@2: memories. To feel the sheer and utter warmth she had for this girl at rlm@2: its strongest, the way she always was when she was in Sakura’s rlm@2: presence. rlm@2: “Don’t you make me happy... Don’t you have a good time...” Tomoyo rlm@2: sung softly as she watched the clouds outside. One big fluffy one rlm@2: looked just like Kero-chan. And in another wispier one, she could see rlm@2: Sakura on her old staff. Smiling softly, she took a small bite of her rlm@2: meal. It was nice, but she wasn’t very hungry. rlm@2: “Can I get you anything, ma’am?” the waitress asked pleasantly. rlm@2: Tomoyo just smiled in response and shook her head politely. rlm@2: After months and months of struggling, Tomoyo had finally managed rlm@2: to watch the videotape of the wedding ceremony all the way through. rlm@2: She had left right near the end, unable to stay and watch the entire rlm@2: event. That fact weighed heavily upon her. She had wanted to stay for rlm@2: Sakura, but watching her love get married off and taken away from her rlm@2: for good was too much for her to bear. And that had been the last she rlm@2: had seen of Sakura. They had left for their honeymoon after that and rlm@2: then to Hong Kong. She was truly grateful that Sakura had sent her rlm@2: the bouquet from her wedding. She had felt devastated for not being rlm@2: there near the end, but it made her feel better to have the pretty rlm@2: flowers that symbolized Sakura’s new union. Now it was right next to rlm@2: her mother’s bouquet from Nadeshiko’s wedding. It really made her rlm@2: wonder if maybe it was Fate at work. Her mother obviously loved rlm@2: Nadeshiko with the same passion that she held for Sakura, yet she was rlm@2: denied that love. Just as she was denied the chance to be with rlm@2: Sakura. Even though they both went about their love in very different rlm@2: ways. But it was all right. Her mother might not understand exactly, rlm@2: but it really was more important that Sakura be happy than with her. rlm@2: That your loved one was happy, even if you weren’t together, truly rlm@2: was the most vital thing. rlm@2: That fact had been what she had tried to explain many times to rlm@2: Sakura. But what she hadn’t told Sakura was that even if she was rlm@2: pleased for her special someone to be happy with someone else, there rlm@2: was also a lot of hurt inside. Yes, she was happy for Sakura. That rlm@2: was the truth. It was also true that she cried herself to sleep at rlm@2: night, lonely and sad that she would never be able to let her rlm@2: feelings for Sakura out of the cage of her heart. But sometimes rlm@2: Sakura only needed the half truth. Especially when the whole truth rlm@2: would hurt her. And Tomoyo had been very careful in all the time that rlm@2: she had known Sakura to not hurt her. Even if it meant being creative rlm@2: about the truth at times and not always showing her true feelings. rlm@2: A mixture of pain and warmth, longing and loneliness filled the rlm@2: young businesswoman’s heart. Her own heart used to be so open to her. rlm@2: She had understood it implicitly. But now it was so confused by all rlm@2: the conflicting thoughts and emotions that she didn’t know if she rlm@2: could fit some of the conflicting emotions together. Which meant she rlm@2: had to be even more careful while in Hong Kong. She needed to be rlm@2: happy for Sakura. She couldn’t let Sakura see that she was hurting or rlm@2: it might ruin things. At the very least, it would make Sakura sad and rlm@2: she couldn’t have that. rlm@2: Tomoyo smiled gently as she closed her eyes, envisioning the cute rlm@2: brunette. “I love you, Sakura-chan. Let’s enjoy this trip. There will rlm@2: be time for tears later.” rlm@2: rlm@2: Sakura sighed as she stared blankly at the magazine on her lap. Her rlm@2: mind was refusing to concentrate on anything. Tomoyo’s flight was rlm@2: overdue and she was starting to get worried. She had gotten to the rlm@2: airport early in her enthusiasm to see her sweet friend again. A yawn rlm@2: escaped her lips which she tried to cover quickly. Sleep hadn’t been rlm@2: very generous in coming for the past few nights. And the closer it rlm@2: got to Tomoyo’s arrival, the more difficult it became for her to get rlm@2: any rest. Last night had seemed like an eternity. Sleep had eluded rlm@2: her for hours. She spent most of it in the room she had prepared for rlm@2: Tomoyo, tidying things up one last time. When she had finally fallen rlm@2: asleep, she had found herself passed out at the desk in that room. rlm@2: Embarrassed and still a little sleepy, she had slipped back into bed rlm@2: with her husband, but sleep once again taunted her. All sorts of rlm@2: memories kept coming to her when she was about to nod off. The dress rlm@2: Tomoyo had made her for one of the school dances had come to mind. rlm@2: Then the lavender haired girl had asked her to the dance when she rlm@2: found out that Syaoran couldn’t be there to take her. That had been a rlm@2: lot of fun, even if it had seemed a little awkward at the time. When rlm@2: Tomoyo had practiced with her for her auditions in Drama Club, which rlm@2: had been the dark haired angel’s idea in the first place, had also rlm@2: drifted into her head. When Tomoyo had shown her the videotape of her rlm@2: flying on her magic staff and had found out that she was a magical rlm@2: girl played over and over again in her mind. rlm@2: Oddly enough, the one memory that stuck out the most was when rlm@2: Tomoyo had been explaining the custom of making a teddy bear for the rlm@2: person you like and them naming it after you. When Sakura had asked rlm@2: the beautiful heiress about why she wasn't going to make one, Tomoyo rlm@2: had smiled at her and explained that she would be happy as long as rlm@2: her special person was. At the time, she had seen it as nothing more rlm@2: than Tomoyo’s usual eccentricity, but for some reason it was rlm@2: bothering her now. Why couldn’t Tomoyo make it for her special rlm@2: someone? That wasn’t fair that she’d have to be alone like that, not rlm@2: even being able to take part in such a cute little tradition. But rlm@2: before she could make any sense of the whole thing, she had hurried rlm@2: off to the airport. rlm@2: The plane was still late. Sakura bit her lip anxiously. Her stomach rlm@2: was starting to feel sick from all of the anxiety of waiting. She rlm@2: kept seeing her pale friend in her mind’s eye, and it just made her rlm@2: impatience grow. She missed Tomoyo terribly. They had been best rlm@2: friends for years and years now and suddenly she was without her in a rlm@2: new country. She was happy to be with her new husband, but the rlm@2: loneliness she felt being away from Tomoyo continued to grow while rlm@2: she was gone. And that confused her. Now that she was starting her rlm@2: new life with Syaoran, she had expected that to diminish as time went rlm@2: by. But it had only grown worse. So Tomoyo’s visit came as quite a rlm@2: relief. It thrilled her to know that her friend would soon be with rlm@2: her again. There was so much to do! So much to say! Her heart pounded rlm@2: in her chest in excitement. She couldn’t wait to see the beautiful rlm@2: woman again, to laugh with her and know that she was there by her rlm@2: side. She hadn’t been this excited since the honeymoon. rlm@2: Sakura paused for a moment, setting the magazine aside. Tomoyo had rlm@2: been her best friend for what felt like a lifetime. They had only rlm@2: been apart for several months. And she was married to her loving rlm@2: husband and living her wonderful new life. Sure, it was great to be rlm@2: able to spend time with Tomoyo again, but was that really anywhere on rlm@2: par with a honeymoon with the man she had vowed to spend the rest of rlm@2: her life with? Oh, it didn’t matter. She missed her friend so dearly rlm@2: that it would be great to see her again. Why did it matter if she was rlm@2: so exited to see her or not? Tomoyo was very important to her. More rlm@2: than she’d ever realized before. But now that she was gone, Sakura rlm@2: missed her daily. The dark haired woman’s nigh constant comforting rlm@2: presence and warm words were no longer there except in the presence rlm@2: of phone calls and letters. And that just wasn’t the same thing. She rlm@2: needed the pale woman there with her so that she could feel whole rlm@2: again. She knew Tomoyo believed in her, but sometimes she had trouble rlm@2: believing in herself. And sometimes it was so hard adjusting to her rlm@2: new life. But Tomoyo had always helped her through everything. rlm@2: Somehow she knew that it would all be better if her incredibly rlm@2: perceptive friend was there to help her. rlm@2: Standing up excitedly, Sakura watched an airplane taxiing up. Was rlm@2: that hers? Could that be...? It was!! Sakura clasped her hands rlm@2: together happily as she watched it move slowly forward. It moved rlm@2: achingly slow in her mind. ‘If only this wasn't for just a visit’. rlm@2: That thought saddened her for a moment, but it quickly passed as her rlm@2: excitement built to a crescendo. All of the waiting had built up to rlm@2: this moment. All of that time apart would be over. At least for now. rlm@2: Tomoyo would have to leave again soon enough. That thought alone left rlm@2: a pain in her heart. Just like what Tomoyo had said about knowing rlm@2: they couldn’t be together forever. The same was true now. They’d only rlm@2: be here for a short visit. But that wasn’t for a while yet. And they rlm@2: would see each other again in the meantime. Her heart nearly stopped rlm@2: as she saw a pale figure walk out of the plane. Long, lavender hair rlm@2: was done up in elegant braids, draped past her shoulders, sharply rlm@2: contrasting her pale skin. Her short blue and aquamarine dress was rlm@2: simple but beautiful. Tomoyo was stunningly beautiful, even more so rlm@2: than Sakura had last remembered her. How her special someone could rlm@2: ignore her, Sakura could not even begin to comprehend. Joy bubbled up rlm@2: in her heart at the very sight of her best friend. It was a far cry rlm@2: from their first meeting in class eight years prior. “Tomoyo-chan !! rlm@2: Tomoyo-chan!” rlm@2: Tomoyo turned to find the source of the voice. Her smile brightened rlm@2: immeasurably as she spotted the brunette running towards her. “Sakura- rlm@2: chan!” She stepped to the side, trying to get away from the rest of rlm@2: the passengers and to her eager friend. “Sakura-chan, I’m so...” The rlm@2: breath was knocked out of her as Sakura leapt into an embrace. The rlm@2: athletic girl pulled her close, hugging her with all the energy she rlm@2: could muster. Tomoyo felt her own heart surge at being so near Sakura rlm@2: again. She had been right. Being near her did fill her heart near rlm@2: bursting as the love inside struggled to be released. “It’s so good rlm@2: to see you, Sakura-chan,” Tomoyo said sweetly when Sakura finally rlm@2: released her grasp ever so slightly. Her eyes lingered on Sakura’s rlm@2: shining emeralds. Sakura had grown into quite a pretty young woman. rlm@2: She was still Tomoyo’s image of perfection. The bags under Sakura’s rlm@2: eyes concerned her, but she knew that the Cardmistress hadn’t been rlm@2: sleeping much because of her impending visit. rlm@2: “I’m so happy to see you, too, Tomoyo-chan! I was starting to worry rlm@2: that you had been swept up on your way to see me. I couldn’t wait for rlm@2: you to get here.” Giving Tomoyo another tight hug, Sakura finally let rlm@2: go. “I still can’t believe you’re here.” It had felt like an eternity rlm@2: since she had last seen Tomoyo, but now that the dark haired girl was rlm@2: here, it felt like it had only been the day before that they had last rlm@2: seen each other. This trip was going to be wonderful. She could just rlm@2: feel it. rlm@2: Tomoyo giggled softly and shook her head. “Nothing could keep me rlm@2: from my Sakura-chan. I had to get here. I’m very sorry to keep you rlm@2: waiting.” She hefted the camcorder case up, adjusting the strap. “I rlm@2: wanted to come out and record you again but they won’t let me until I rlm@2: have it checked with security. It would have been the perfect first rlm@2: shot for my ‘Sakura-chan and the Dream Vacation’ videotape!” rlm@2: Now it was Sakura’s turn to laugh. “We’ll have to get you some rlm@2: better shots than that. And I’m just glad to see you. I’ve missed you rlm@2: so much, Tomoyo-chan. You don’t know how happy I am to have you here rlm@2: in Hong Kong. I’ve been waiting the longest time for your visit.” rlm@2: “I missed you, too, Sakura-chan. Nothing’s the same without your rlm@2: cute presence to make everything exciting.” Tomoyo couldn’t take her rlm@2: eyes off of Sakura. It was like she had been dying of thirst and had rlm@2: just found her oasis. She drank up Sakura hungrily, burning her rlm@2: precious image into her mind at that very moment as best she could. rlm@2: She felt like she had been kept in the dark, blind and deaf to the rlm@2: world and that she had just now been returned her senses. For now her rlm@2: worries were far away. They hardly seemed to matter in the face of rlm@2: the girl she loved. rlm@2: Sakura blushed softly at Tomoyo’s compliment, but smiled. “We rlm@2: better go get your bags. There’s so much I need to show you. And I rlm@2: can’t wait for you to see your room. I really think you’ll like it. rlm@2: I’ll help you unpack.” Taking Tomoyo’s hand, she couldn’t get rid of rlm@2: her smile. Not that she wanted to. She was too happy to have her rlm@2: friend back with her again. Things finally felt all right. rlm@2: Tomoyo was a little surprised by Sakura’s hand holding her own, but rlm@2: she didn’t complain. Squeezing Sakura’s hand gently, she nodded. “I’m rlm@2: sure it will be lovely. Anything that Sakura-chan spent so much time rlm@2: and effort into must be perfect. I’ll love being able to see it rlm@2: without the need of a picture this time.” rlm@2: “I really hope you think so when you see it. I think it’ll be very rlm@2: nice for you. I tried to think like Tomoyo-chan while I was fixing up rlm@2: the room. I’m afraid it’s not much like your old room, but I still rlm@2: think it looks nice. So I’m not sure how good a job I did as you.” rlm@2: Sakura looked outside and sweatdropped. Rain plastered the windows rlm@2: all around them, casting the girls in shifting shadows. “I hope you rlm@2: brought an umbrella. I was hoping things would at least clear up when rlm@2: you arrived.” rlm@2: Leading Sakura towards the baggage check out, Tomoyo’s worries felt rlm@2: like they had been left back in the airplane. Being with Sakura again rlm@2: really did feel wonderful. “Hai, I did. I tried to pack as best I rlm@2: could from what you told me. And I already know that I’ll love the rlm@2: room Sakura spent so much time putting together for me. I’m much rlm@2: happier than I could be with any hotel room I could have.” rlm@2: Sakura smiled happily and squeezed Tomoyo’s soft hand in return. rlm@2: “Good. We’ll need to hurry so that we don’t waste any of your time rlm@2: here!”