rlm@0: The story contains some sexual scenes so don't read it if you're rlm@0: underage. Right, like if you'd listen to me, but don't come to me rlm@0: when your psychiatrist tells you you're not quite normal! rlm@0: The story takes place after the senshi defeat Neherenia. So Hotaru rlm@0: reached her normal age again and lives with the Outers and ChibiUsa rlm@0: with Usagi and her family. Hotaru is about 14 and ChibiUsa a bit rlm@0: younger. rlm@0: Before we begin I would like to thank Naoko Takeuchi for creating rlm@0: the beautiful legend of Sailor Moon. rlm@0: These characters ain't mine, I'm just borrowing them for a while. rlm@0: rlm@0: This story is a continuation of the story "Hotaru's pain", but it rlm@0: makes sense on it's own too (but it makes more sense if you read rlm@0: Hotaru's pain first). rlm@0: rlm@0: Hotaru's pain part 2 rlm@0: Featuring Hotaru and ChibiUsa rlm@0: By The Ghost of 'lectricity rlm@0: rlm@0: rlm@0: Hotaru ate her lunch in silence as her classmates laughed and had rlm@0: fun around her. It seemed like nothing had changed from yesterday. rlm@0: Her classmates were still ignoring the silent and a bit weird rlm@0: black-haired girl in the back row. rlm@0: What was wrong? Everybody had seen how she healed the boy rlm@0: yesterday, everyone had stood in the circle around them as she put rlm@0: her hand on the boy's head and made the blood disappear. rlm@0: They weren't calling her a witch. Well, at least not more than rlm@0: once. But still she didn't know what they were thinking about her. rlm@0: She knew they were talking about her, but she did not know what rlm@0: they were saying. She saw a pair of eyes turning her way but as rlm@0: soon as her eyes wandered across the room to meet them the pair rlm@0: quickly turned away. rlm@0: It was still rlm@0: hard for Hotaru to say the word, even in her mind. At these thoughts Hotaru blushed. rlm@0: rlm@0: Hotaru was watching Mio wander around the class, as the blue rlm@0: haired girl was making sure she wouldn't let anyone out. Hotaru was rlm@0: feeling like she was trapped inside a circle. Inside a circle of rlm@0: people, turning their backs to her. Suddenly a shadow fell over rlm@0: her... rlm@0: "Hi!" rlm@0: "R- Ryu..." rlm@0: "May I sit down? Why are you so amazed? I said I'd have lunch with rlm@0: you." rlm@0: "I... I thought you forgot..." Hotaru replied silently. rlm@0: "How could I forget? You saved my life." rlm@0: Hotaru remained silent and was looking down. rlm@0: "What?! Aren't you proud of what you done?" Ryu asked surprised. rlm@0: "I... I don't know. Now everybody thinks I'm a witch." Hotaru rlm@0: said, looking at Mio now, who was still running around the rlm@0: class. rlm@0: "You think she's telling that to everyone?" Ryu asked, slightly rlm@0: grinning. rlm@0: "What else..." rlm@0: "Well, actually... I talked to her earlier. I told her not to call rlm@0: you that - what she called you yesterday... Now she's telling rlm@0: everyone that I'm in love with you! HaHaHa!" rlm@0: As Ryu was laughing loudly Hotaru just blushed. The fact that rlm@0: anyone - other than ChibiUsa - would like her *that* much seemed rlm@0: totally absurd to her. Obviously Ryu was thinking pretty much the rlm@0: same about it. rlm@0: "See Mio, I'm talking to Tomoe Hotaru and I'm not dead yet!" Ryu rlm@0: shouted across the classroom. rlm@0: "Well then why don't you two find a quiet place where you can do rlm@0: what you *really* want to do!" the blue-haired girl shouted back. rlm@0: "Are you getting jealous?" Ryu teased her. The whole class knew rlm@0: Ryu and Mio had a crush on each other since they first laid eyes on rlm@0: each other. As the two and the rest of the class were enjoying rlm@0: their quarrel Hotaru went through hell. She never liked to be in rlm@0: the center of attention. Ryu and Mio made her a part of the show rlm@0: they were putting up. rlm@0: "Jealous of her? No, the poor scared girl wouldn't dare to do rlm@0: anything." rlm@0: "So, what's the problem then?" rlm@0: "You! If you're so nice to her she'll think you like her!" rlm@0: Then someone cut in: "Yeah, and we all know whom he *really* rlm@0: likes!" The two just blushed, which doesn't happen often and rlm@0: simultaneously shouted back to the other boy: "Shut up!" rlm@0: rlm@0: *** rlm@0: rlm@0: "I'll get it!" Hotaru chimed cheerfully as the doorbell rang. rlm@0: Just before she opened the door she looked at Haruka and Michiru, rlm@0: who were sitting on the couch. rlm@0: "Can't you two ever stop? Haruka-papa, take your hand out of rlm@0: Michiru-mama's blouse!" As Hotaru turned to open the door she said rlm@0: over her shoulder: "And from under her skirt too!" rlm@0: rlm@0: rlm@0: It was an unusual view: this time it seemed like Hotaru was the rlm@0: more cheerful one and ChibiUsa had a somewhat sad look in her eyes. rlm@0: But she didn't want Hotaru to notice. rlm@0: "So, how was it in school?" ChibiUsa asked Hotaru as they entered rlm@0: her room, trying to disband the heavy thoughts that lingered in her rlm@0: mind. rlm@0: "I think I met new friends." Hotaru said with a big smile on her rlm@0: face. rlm@0: "You think?" rlm@0: "Well, I don't have that much experience in making friends, rlm@0: ChibiUsa-chan." rlm@0: "That's great then." ChibiUsa said. rlm@0: "What is with you ChibiUsa-chan? You're strange." Hotaru inquired rlm@0: concerned. rlm@0: ChibiUsa looked her best friend square in the eyes. rlm@0: "I got a letter today.... It was from my mother... from the rlm@0: future..." ChibiUsa saw something break in her best friend's eyes. rlm@0: "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..." rlm@0: "I'll have to go home soon..." rlm@0: To Hotaru it seemed like the world stopped turning and this moment rlm@0: of pain would last for an eternity. rlm@0: rlm@0: rlm@0: "Haruka-papa? Michiru-mama? Can I come in?" Hotaru asked as she rlm@0: knocked on the door of the pair's bedroom. rlm@0: "Of course, come in." rlm@0: "What is it, angel? Why aren't you asleep yet?" Michiru asked the rlm@0: figure who sat down on their bed in the darkness. rlm@0: Not answering the question Hotaru asked immediately: "How do you rlm@0: know you love somebody?" rlm@0: "Uhm... Errr... I... I... Haruka, would you like to answer that?" rlm@0: "Me? Hmmm... Errr... When you like to be around that someone. rlm@0: Michiru, would you care to continue?" Haruka picked up the game rlm@0: Michiru began. rlm@0: "When you like to hug someone!" Michiru said as she hugged Haruka. rlm@0: "When you like to kiss someone!" Haruka kissed Michiru. rlm@0: "When someone is more than just a friend to you." rlm@0: As Haruka and Michiru began kissing passionately Hotaru figured rlm@0: they wouldn't be of any more use to her. rlm@0: rlm@0: rlm@0: Hotaru was walking down the hall toward her own room when she rlm@0: bumped into Setsuna. rlm@0: "Oh, sorry Setsuna-mama." Hotaru apologised. rlm@0: "Hotaru-chan, wait. I have to talk to you." Setsuna said as put rlm@0: her hand on Hotaru's shoulder to stop her. rlm@0: "Why, what is it?" Hotaru replied. rlm@0: "...let's sit down." rlm@0: "Here? On the floor?" Hotaru asked but Setsuna already began rlm@0: speaking. rlm@0: "In a few years ChibiUsa will be born." Setsuna took a long rlm@0: breath. "You know she didn't know you when she came to our time, rlm@0: right?" Setsuna knew she was about to break the girl's heart. "I rlm@0: know it's hard but... you will have to..." rlm@0: "No, no, no! You can't demand that!" Hotaru screamed with tears rlm@0: building up in her eyes as she ran toward her room. rlm@0: Setsuna let out a sigh in the dark corridor. She was sure she rlm@0: wouldn't get any sleep tonight, just like the last six weeks. There rlm@0: must be another way. And so another sleepless night would go by. rlm@0: rlm@0: Hotaru was again crying herself to sleep this night. In a few days rlm@0: ChibiUsa would go away and she would lose the sun that made her rlm@0: dark world brighter. The fact that maybe she would't even be rlm@0: allowed to see her friend for the next one thousand years only made rlm@0: her tears flow faster down her cheeks. Without ChibiUsa her own rlm@0: life seemed meaningless to her. What was she really feeling for rlm@0: ChibiUsa? Was she just a friend... or was she... more...? Her rlm@0: feelings for the small pink bunny were much stronger than for any rlm@0: other of her friends. Even stronger than for Haruka-papa, Michiru- rlm@0: mama and Setsuna-mama. Is it... love? But she's a girl! In school rlm@0: they say girls should love boys! But Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama rlm@0: love each other, and they are girls... rlm@0: "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..." a whisper echoed silently in the dark room. rlm@0: Why does it hurt so much...? Love... rlm@0: rlm@0: rlm@0: It was an ordinary Saturday morning the next day at the Outers' rlm@0: mansion. Michiru was making breakfast, Haruka was reading her rlm@0: sports magazine and glancing every now and then over to Michiru. rlm@0: Michiru would then bend over, on purpose of course, so Haruka could rlm@0: admire her long legs and firm butt. Setsuna was rambling something rlm@0: about the "damn primitive clocks" like she always did when she was rlm@0: waken by the alarm clock. Hotaru was silently eating her breakfast, rlm@0: just like always, but the three young women knew Hotaru was rlm@0: restless inside. rlm@0: Haruka stood up, wanting to comfort Hotaru. She always felt so rlm@0: guilty for trying to kill the fragile little girl so many times. rlm@0: She had a very feminine and motherly side - the side only Hotaru rlm@0: and Michiru knew. Just as she wanted to say something to Hotaru - rlm@0: what, she did not know yet - the telephone rang. Saved by the bell, rlm@0: Haruka picked up her saviour. rlm@0: "Hello?... Hi Usagi-chan... Yes, she's here... Wait a minute. rlm@0: Hotaru-chan! It's for you. It's Usagi. ... Take the phone in the rlm@0: living room, we don't want to disturb you." rlm@0: rlm@0: Hotaru sat down on the couch and picked up the phone. rlm@0: "Hello?" rlm@0: "Hello Hotaru-chan, it's me, Usagi." rlm@0: "Hello." rlm@0: "So you heard the news..." rlm@0: "Yes..." rlm@0: "I need to know something Hotaru-chan. What do you feel for rlm@0: ChibiUsa-chan?" rlm@0: Hotaru was hit in her weak spot. rlm@0: "I... She's my best friend." rlm@0: "Do you... ... Do you love her?" rlm@0: "I... I... I don't know. ...yes..." The last word was just a rlm@0: whisper, as if Hotaru didn't want Usagi to hear it. Or maybe she rlm@0: didn't want herself to hear it, knowing it would only bring her a rlm@0: lot of pain once it's said. rlm@0: "You have to tell her that!" rlm@0: "No! I can't! She... I... She won't understand." rlm@0: "Hotaru-chan... You know she will. She a smart girl." Hotaru could rlm@0: hear the shaking in Usagi's voice. Usagi would miss ChibiUsa just rlm@0: as much as Hotaru will. rlm@0: "But she'll be gone in a few days anyway. It doesn't matter rlm@0: anymore..." A tear - a silent witness of Hotaru's pain - ran down rlm@0: her cheek. rlm@0: "You're wrong, it does matter! If you don't tell her, you'll never rlm@0: know what she feels." rlm@0: "But- , but-" She couldn't say anything beyond that. Her sobs rlm@0: choked away the fake excuses. rlm@0: "I'll- I'll send her over, okay?" Even Usagi started to sob now. rlm@0: "O- o-kay." rlm@0: "Hotaru-chan, I'm gonna put down the phone now, OK?" rlm@0: "Usagi-chan, tell me... that it's gonna be alright..." rlm@0: "Everything is gonna be okay... I promise..." rlm@0: "Thank you..." rlm@0: rlm@0: Except for Hotaru the house was empty when ChibiUsa came over. rlm@0: Haruka, Michiru and Setsuna said they had some business to attend rlm@0: to. Although they had the house for themselves Hotaru led ChibiUsa rlm@0: to her room. Hotaru needed the shelter of her room to say what she rlm@0: intended to. For the last hour she was grinding the words in her rlm@0: mind but she still had no clue of what to say. She sat down on her rlm@0: bed and ChibiUsa sat down beside her. They were sitting in silence rlm@0: and tension for a minute, Hotaru was still thinking of what to say. rlm@0: Suddenly ChibiUsa hugged Hotaru around her waist. rlm@0: "Oh, Hotaru-chan..." Within ChibiUsa's embrace Hotaru's mind rlm@0: finally found the peace it was longing for. ChibiUsa put her head rlm@0: on Hotaru's chest and closed her eyes and Hotaru put her arms rlm@0: around ChibiUsa's back and closed her eyes also. After a while rlm@0: ChibiUsa began: rlm@0: "You know why I like to hug you?" rlm@0: "You... You like to hug me?" Hotaru said in amazement, thinking of rlm@0: what Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama told her yesterday night. rlm@0: "I like to hug you because you're not as tall as the other girls." rlm@0: "What?" rlm@0: "You know, if I hug them my head reaches only their tummy. And rlm@0: except for Usagi, all of them have really strong muscles there - rlm@0: they are not soft. If you look up from there you only see two big rlm@0: balloons hanging over your head. I get really scared if I hug Mako- rlm@0: chan." Then she paused for a moment. She remained serious when she rlm@0: continued to speak: "But if I hug you my head lands straight on two rlm@0: soft pillows - with two chocolates on it, just like in a hotel rlm@0: room. Sometimes the chocolates are soft and I want to eat them, but rlm@0: sometimes they are really hard and I want to hold them in my hands rlm@0: so they would get softer. And if I look up from here I can see your rlm@0: beautiful face and your beautiful eyes looking down at me." Their rlm@0: eyes met but Hotaru turned her head away. rlm@0: "ChibiUsa-chan, I have to tell you something..." Hotaru took a rlm@0: deep breath. "ChibiUsa, you have been my first true friend. You rlm@0: made me laugh when no one was there to care for me. You were the rlm@0: light that made me hang on to my life when I was almost dead. You rlm@0: mean everything to me... I... I love you ChibiUsa..." Hotaru's eyes rlm@0: were closed as she whispered the last words. Her head wasn't facing rlm@0: ChibiUsa. Moments seemed like hours, seconds like eternity. Then, rlm@0: she heard a soft whisper. rlm@0: "I love you too, Hotaru." Hotaru felt a pair of soft lips press rlm@0: against her skin, sending shivers down her body. rlm@0: "...oh, ChibiUsa..." ChibiUsa was kissing Hotaru all over her face rlm@0: - on her cheeks, on her nose, on her forehead - until finally rlm@0: Hotaru felt the soft lips touch her own. Hotaru opened her mouth rlm@0: lightly and her tongue carefully touched ChibiUsa's lips and tasted rlm@0: their sweetness. rlm@0: ChibiUsa pushed Hotaru's body softly so Hotaru fell backwards on rlm@0: her bed and ChibiUsa right on top of her. "...oh, ChibiUsa... I rlm@0: dreamed of this..." ChibiUsa was sitting on top of Hotaru, her rlm@0: hands placed on Hotaru's belly. Hotaru felt the two hands move rlm@0: upward, slowly reaching her ribs and the base of her breasts, rlm@0: stopping there. Hotaru opened her eyes and found ChibiUsa's rlm@0: questioning face. rlm@0: "Go on... please..." Hotaru whispered. She felt the two soft hands rlm@0: finally reaching the end of their journey as they softly squeezed rlm@0: the tender flesh of her breasts through the fabric of Hotaru's rlm@0: shirt. Hotaru sighed when ChibiUsa began kneading her breasts. rlm@0: ChibiUsa saw Hotaru's nipples push against the fabric and she took rlm@0: one between her fingers. Hotaru felt the little fingers squeezing rlm@0: her nipple and sighed once more, the sensations driving her crazy. rlm@0: She couldn't bear it any more. She reached to her waist and pulled rlm@0: off her shirt, revealing her aroused breasts. rlm@0: "... my chocolates..." Before Hotaru could realize what ChibiUsa rlm@0: was doing she felt something warm encompass her nipple. ChibiUsa rlm@0: was kissing it! Hotaru never felt this kind of pleasure before. The rlm@0: warmth of ChibiUsa's mouth, ChibiUsa's tongue flicking over the rlm@0: nipple. Hotaru was panting heavily. rlm@0: Hotaru was on the brink of the greatest orgasm she ever had. Her rlm@0: hand travelled down her belly toward ChibiUsa's pussy that was rlm@0: placed on Hotaru's lap. ChibiUsa jerked when she felt something on rlm@0: her pussy, but Hotaru squeezed her hand gently past ChibiUsa and rlm@0: cupped her own sex. As her fingers were teasing and pleasuring her rlm@0: own pussy through the skin-tight pants she felt the warmth of rlm@0: ChibiUsa's sex against her wrist. ChibiUsa was licking and sucking rlm@0: on Hotaru's nipples and rubbing her crotch against Hotaru's wrist. rlm@0: Then Hotaru's body froze up and in the same moment her scream of rlm@0: pleasure filled the air of the room. rlm@0: rlm@0: *** rlm@0: rlm@0: Eleven young people gathered in the park a few days later. But the rlm@0: group was not a happy one, the heavy thought of farewell hung in rlm@0: the air. It was a sad ceremony - ChibiUsa was saying goodbye to all rlm@0: her friends. Usagi was trying very hard not to cry by holding on to rlm@0: Mamoru as hard as she could. Their goodbye present was a box of all rlm@0: the photos of her they had. Amy bought her a book. Makoto baked rlm@0: cookies for her. Rei gave her a special lucky charm. Minako rlm@0: presented her with a big poster of Sailor V. rlm@0: The only one left to say goodbye to was Hotaru. She hugged rlm@0: ChibiUsa gently and they kissed. They didn't bother about what the rlm@0: others would think and they whispered into each others ears a soft rlm@0: but definite "I love you." rlm@0: "ChibiUsa, my present is a poem. I've written it for you." Hotaru rlm@0: promised herself not to cry, not to make it even harder for rlm@0: ChibUsa. But as soon as she saw ChibiUsa's eyes fill up with tears rlm@0: when she gave her the envelope, she knew she wouldn't be strong rlm@0: enough. rlm@0: "You've written a poem for me? No one ever wrote a poem for me..." rlm@0: "But don't read it now. After you get home..." rlm@0: "I have something for you too, Hotaru." ChibiUsa said, reaching rlm@0: into her pocket and giving the dark beauty a picture. It was a rlm@0: picture of ChibiUsa and Hotaru holding hands, smiling brightly into rlm@0: the camera. It had a precious carved frame and in the corner of the rlm@0: picture were the words "I love you, Hotaru" written. rlm@0: They hugged again and let the tears of their loss flow in silence. rlm@0: rlm@0: *** rlm@0: rlm@0: I'm lonely when I close my eyes. rlm@0: rlm@0: Say, Haruka-papa, Michiru-mama, Setsuna-mama? Hold my hand tonight. rlm@0: Stay with me all night long. I want to have happy dreams. Dreams rlm@0: the color of rainbows. Dreams where the people precious to me are rlm@0: smiling with joy. rlm@0: rlm@0: Dreams that won't disappear when I open my eyes. rlm@0: rlm@0: rlm@0: End of Part 2 rlm@0: rlm@0: The Ghost of 'lectricity rlm@0: Peter.dobaj@guest.arnes.si rlm@0: rlm@0: The last few lines are from the poem Dreams. rlm@0: