rlm@0: How come who's asking?The stream, running full force, was a rlm@0: beautiful blue color. Not deep blue or light blue, but a sort of rlm@0: mixture of the two. Just a beautiful blue color. They had never rlm@0: seen such a color before. rlm@0: The two lovers, both petite women, looked up from the stream rlm@0: and into each others eyes. One had light pink colored hair, and rlm@0: the other had dark blue...almost a black. They were both not rlm@0: wearing anything, as is customary in the fourth dimension. The rlm@0: lover's bodies shone in the light, but they did not look over the rlm@0: other's form. They just continued to look at each other, before rlm@0: looking back into the stream. rlm@0: "It's so beautiful, Hotaru." The pink haired one said, rlm@0: still looking at the stream. "I wish I could stay here with you rlm@0: forever." rlm@0: "Why can't you?" The dark haired one said. "We both need rlm@0: each other, Chibi-chan. We do. So just stay here with me." rlm@0: "I can't. I just...can't." Replied the pink haired girl. rlm@0: "Look at our stream, Chibi. Watch it flow. This is our rlm@0: love. Don't deny it! It's our love, flowing, just as it always rlm@0: will. We have always been a part of each other, and always will rlm@0: be." rlm@0: "Our water WILL run dry, Hotaru. It will run dry." rlm@0: rlm@0: rlm@0: Water Runs Dry rlm@0: A Sailor Moon Sekkushiaru Roman rlm@0: By: PsychoKittenSenshi611 rlm@0: Eeh-mail: katprincess82@hotmail.com rlm@0: This is a Sekkushiaru Roman, so you all know what is rlm@0: expected of you. You must be 18 to read this (sorry folks, I don't make rlm@0: the rules...unfortunately!) otherwise...well...we all know the consequences. rlm@0: This story contains love and love alone. rlm@0: Ok enough of that crap. Read on loves! *MuAH!* rlm@0: rlm@0: We don't even talk anymore rlm@0: And we don't even know what we argue about rlm@0: Don't even say I love you no more rlm@0: Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed rlm@0: Some people work things out rlm@0: And some just don't know how to change rlm@0: Let's don't wait till the water runs dry rlm@0: We might watch our whole lives pass us by rlm@0: Let's don't wait till the water runs dry rlm@0: We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives rlm@0: Don't do it baby rlm@0: Now they can see the tears in our eyes rlm@0: But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts rlm@0: Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide rlm@0: Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart rlm@0: Why do we hurt each other rlm@0: Why do we push love away rlm@0: Let's don't wait till the water runs dry rlm@0: We might watch our whole lives pass us by rlm@0: Let's don't wait till the water runs dry rlm@0: We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives rlm@0: Don't do it baby rlm@0: --Boyz II Men rlm@0: rlm@0: Haruka sat next to Hotaru's bed, almost crying herself. She rlm@0: understood her friend's pain almost perfectly. She had just gotten over rlm@0: some troubles with Michiru, and the nagging pain was still at the back rlm@0: of her mind. rlm@0: Something inside of her told her Hotaru needed to be alone. She rlm@0: stood up, trying to force out some kind of comforting words, but none rlm@0: came. All she could manage was a comforting smile, and a hand on rlm@0: Hotaru's shoulder. rlm@0: Hotaru nodded to Haruka, then placed her head in her hands once rlm@0: again. She knew this was it. She knew it was finally over. rlm@0: ChibiUSA was gone. Gone forever. She had called Hotaru up to rlm@0: tell her it was over, and Hotaru didn't even hear one tone of sadness in rlm@0: her lover's voice. Chibi had just told her she couldn't do it rlm@0: anymore...she couldn't keep living like this. rlm@0: Living like what? Hotaru asked herself. Living on different rlm@0: continents, only seeing each other on holidays? She could understand rlm@0: that. But...but...it was all so RIGHT, how could it just end like that? rlm@0: Two words and her entire life came crashing down. ChibiUSA was the love rlm@0: of her life, and she could feel the love they shared even though they rlm@0: were miles apart. She had decided to take the year study in the United rlm@0: States at Stanford. An irreplaceable opportunity, she had said. rlm@0: Chibi was never one to pass up opportunities like this. rlm@0: She had practically begged Hotaru to join her, but Hotaru had rlm@0: declined. Her own dreams were being fulfilled here in Japan, and she rlm@0: hadn't wanted to pass up her own opportunity to become a doctor. She rlm@0: did it half out of the pain she was suffering from the loss, but the rlm@0: other half of her knew it was right. She had thought that the rlm@0: separation would be just a test of their love, and everything would turn rlm@0: out right in a year just one year. That's all. Just one year. Then rlm@0: they'd be together again and everything would be just as it was before, rlm@0: and they would get married. Just like they had planned. rlm@0: But it was all over. The year was almost up, and ChibiUSA had rlm@0: called Hotaru like she had done every month. But it was no longer the rlm@0: happy and excited and somewhat depressed Chibi. It was a cold and rlm@0: foreign Chibi. She just told Hotaru she would stay another year, and rlm@0: that she was ending their engagement. She had just said that she rlm@0: couldn't go on anymore. rlm@0: Hotaru burst into tears at the thought. rlm@0: rlm@0: * * * rlm@0: rlm@0: Five thousand miles away, ChibiUSA sat in front of the phone, rlm@0: wondering what she had just done. Hotaru had cried, she realized, and rlm@0: her eyes went wide with sadness at the thought. What was she doing? rlm@0: She should be back home with her one true love sleeping in her arms. rlm@0: She should be in her bed, in her embrace, and in her life again. What rlm@0: was she doing in this University in California, anyway? Studying to rlm@0: become something she didn't even want. She wanted to be a wife to rlm@0: Hotaru, and that was it. rlm@0: How could she, now that she had called it off? She couldn't rlm@0: possibly call Hotaru right back and just say "oops I'm sorry about that! rlm@0: I was just kidding!" What was that supposed to be? Stupid dreams. Why rlm@0: did she listen to them? That was what her father did, and he had almost rlm@0: ruined his relationship with her mother. But, luckily, her father had rlm@0: caught himself. How the hell was she supposed to catch herself? Every rlm@0: time she thought about Hotaru the dreams would creep into her head and rlm@0: horrify her...seeing the black haired girl die at her feet. She couldn't rlm@0: possibly risk her life. She couldn't be that selfish. rlm@0: Hotaru was sitting on her bed now, probably crying. Chibi could rlm@0: picture it perfectly. Hotaru's small body, curled up in a tiny ball, rlm@0: holding a battered piece of Klean-x, her blue-black hair falling limp in rlm@0: front of her deep blue eyes. rlm@0: "Oh God...what have I done?!" Chibi hunched over the phone, tears rlm@0: pouring out of her and sobs wracking her small body like never before. rlm@0: * * * rlm@0: The stream was beginning to trickle, no longer running with rlm@0: the same strength. The dark haired girl gripped the other, pain rlm@0: in her eyes. "ChibiUSA, please, no!" She called out. "It rlm@0: can't...it just CAN'T!" rlm@0: "It must, Hotaru. It just has to happen." rlm@0: rlm@0: * * * rlm@0: rlm@0: "Haruka-papa! Come back here!" Hotaru laughed, trying to grab rlm@0: the anniversary present from Haruka's eager hands. Michiru just rlm@0: laughed, placing another plate on the table for the party. She watched rlm@0: as her God-daughter ran after her lover, and smiled slightly. Haruka rlm@0: wasn't supposed to open any of the presents for their anniversary, but rlm@0: she had already gotten to a couple. Matching rings with two stones cut rlm@0: to resemble the two planets they represented, necklaces with "H&M rlm@0: Forever" on both, a couple paintings, and assorted nick-knacks to place rlm@0: around their new house. Michiru smiled at that thought. Their own rlm@0: house. She couldn't wait. rlm@0: Haruka slowed down, breathless, still cradling the small silver- rlm@0: wrapped package. She breathed heavily, hunching over and placing her rlm@0: left hand on her knee, holding the package with her right. She smiled a rlm@0: tired smile, and looked up at Hotaru. rlm@0: "Give...it...back..." Hotaru said between gasps for air. rlm@0: "Come on...let me just open it now!" Haruka gasped. She looked up rlm@0: suddenly to see Michiru standing there, a hand on her aqua-colored rlm@0: dress. Her hair tumbled down in front of her eyes, and her lips wore a rlm@0: smile. She lifted up a small hand and held it out in front of her, rlm@0: motioning to the package. rlm@0: "Haruka..." She softly pleaded, and Haruka obeyed her silent rlm@0: question. Handing over the package with a scowl, she stood up straight. rlm@0: "Thank you, Haruka." Michiru said quietly, and walked over to her rlm@0: lover. She wrapped an arm around Haruka's waist and kissed her rlm@0: fiercely, forgetting about Hotaru completely. rlm@0: "You two!" Hotaru knew when to turn around. She turned on her rlm@0: heels and walked outside, leaving the two alone. She knew that if she rlm@0: and Chibi were kissing... rlm@0: She suddenly stopped the thought. She and Chibi were no...longer... rlm@0: Hotaru sat down on the bench in the garden, placing her head in rlm@0: her hands. Not again. She didn't want to have to go through this every rlm@0: day of her life. She didn't want to have to keep telling herself OVER rlm@0: and OVER that it was done. rlm@0: She looked up at the noise of a car approaching. She wondered who rlm@0: it could be. Guests were not arriving for another hour or so. Setsuna rlm@0: was out shopping for some goodies...hopefully bringing something back for rlm@0: her. So who could it be? rlm@0: She looked down at her feet again, and ran her hands through her rlm@0: wavy tendrils of hair. She was stressed, high strung, wound up like a rlm@0: spring. She didn't WANT to be, but knew she was. She needed to see rlm@0: ChibiUSA again, just once, to know it was really over. She needed to rlm@0: see her again and talk to her and touch her pink hair and look into her rlm@0: red eyes, just ONE MORE TIME. Just one. rlm@0: A car door opened and slammed shut. She didn't even look up. She rlm@0: didn't really want to. She just ran her hands through her hair again, rlm@0: and closed her eyes tight to try to remember every single detail about rlm@0: her only love's face. rlm@0: rlm@0: * * * rlm@0: rlm@0: ChibiUSA got out of the car, all the while her eyes on the timid rlm@0: figure sitting on a bench. She knew who it was. rlm@0: She forced her eyes away to look up at the house. It was rlm@0: gorgeous, really. She hadn't expected it to be so big. The entire rlm@0: house was a beige color, and the garden was big and gorgeous. Flowers rlm@0: reached up to her thighs, but were all trimmed and well taken care of. rlm@0: The bench that her former lover was sitting on was lined by a small rlm@0: pathway that entwined in the flowers, half hiding her in the beautiful rlm@0: growth. It seemed fitting that a beautiful flower should be surrounded rlm@0: by beautiful flowers. rlm@0: No, her inner voice shouted at her. You ended that relationship, rlm@0: and you have to accept responsibility. rlm@0: Apologize! Another voice screamed at her. Apologize and rlm@0: everything will be fine again she'll take you back because you love each rlm@0: other and... rlm@0: But what if she doesn't love you anymore? What if she's found rlm@0: someone else? rlm@0: Chibi almost cried out with the unbearable thought. What if she rlm@0: HAS found someone else? Someone who loves her more and cares for her rlm@0: more and kisses her and holds her...no one can touch her. ChibiUSA knew rlm@0: she would have to do it soon, have to explain herself and apologize rlm@0: before the day was up. She couldn't let the horrible pain go on another rlm@0: second. rlm@0: She walked briskly into the garden, trying to dodge plants as best rlm@0: she could. She couldn't find a good enough path, so she began to rlm@0: carefully weave her way through the growth. She tried, in vain, to rlm@0: brush off some of the petals and pollen that stuck to her dark jean rlm@0: shorts as she did so. rlm@0: She found herself a few feet away from the bench, with Hotaru's rlm@0: head still down. Hotaru looked stressed, pained...not loved. She hoped, rlm@0: with a selfish thought, that she hadn't been loved lately. At least, rlm@0: not the way ChibiUSA would love her. Not like that. Hotaru's arms were rlm@0: on either side of her head, and Chibi could sense that she was deep in rlm@0: thought. What was she thinking? She couldn't tell. She didn't know if rlm@0: she wanted to be able to tell. rlm@0: "Hotaru." She whispered, slightly quivering on the 'u'. Hotaru rlm@0: whipped her head upwards at the sound, and her eyes took Chibi in. rlm@0: rlm@0: * * * rlm@0: rlm@0: Her hair had grown slightly, and she seemed to be a little taller. rlm@0: Her dark jean shorts looked really good with the pink T-shirt, and her rlm@0: little pink flip-flops were just right for the warm summer weather. Her rlm@0: eyes were still the beautiful shade of red, and her lips were the same rlm@0: color. rlm@0: An overwhelming heat seeped through Hotaru's blood as her gaze rlm@0: focused on her once-lover's lips. Oh God, she thought. I must be rlm@0: imagining her. That's it...I'm just imagining. She's not really here, rlm@0: she didn't come to the party, she is still back at her college. rlm@0: "Hotaru?" Chibi said again, this time questioning her. rlm@0: Hotaru cleared her throat, trying to prepare herself for the pain rlm@0: that was about to come. "Hello, ChibiUSA. Nice to see you." Her voice rlm@0: came out remarkably controlled, the pain masked by the cold tone. Her rlm@0: eyes and heart hardened, like ice. She didn't want to feel the pain rlm@0: anymore. She returned to her darkened self, inside herself and rlm@0: retreating back away. rlm@0: ChibiUSA looked shocked. She had never seen Hotaru so cold rlm@0: before...Hotaru was always the voice of calm among the two, the reason in rlm@0: their chaos. But never, ever, had ChibiUSA seem her so cold. rlm@0: "I didn't think you would come back here so soon." Hotaru said, rlm@0: trying to mask the uncomfortable silence. Her eyes narrowed into small rlm@0: slits, and her lips thinned out. She realized just how ANGRY she was at rlm@0: Chibi, and clenched her fists at the thought. How DARE she come back rlm@0: here, how dare she just stand there and act like everything is fine. rlm@0: She must have a lot of guts coming back here... rlm@0: "Of course, Hotaru! It's Michiru's and Haruka's anniversary...and rlm@0: besides, it's summer vacation. I wouldn't miss seeing all the Senshi rlm@0: back in one place for anything!" She put on a silly grin, showing her rlm@0: perfectly straight white teeth. Hotaru almost joined in with a smile of rlm@0: her own, but she caught herself. rlm@0: Hotaru stood up with the pure awkwardness of it all, and placed rlm@0: her hand on her hip. "Well I must be going now. Setsuna-mama is at the rlm@0: mall, and I have to go meet her. See you later." Hotaru walked briskly rlm@0: away, and Chibi stood still as she walked by. Her eyes swept over rlm@0: Hotaru's curves longingly, and she let out a sigh. Hotaru caught it, rlm@0: but didn't say anything at all. She didn't want to say anything. rlm@0: Hotaru was almost to her car when Chibi finally got control of rlm@0: herself. "Taru-chan!" She called, and ran toward her. Hotaru didn't rlm@0: move, her hand extended with keys in hand to unlock the car door. rlm@0: "Wait, Taru-chan!" She complied, and soon enough ChibiUSA had caught up rlm@0: with her. She was a little out of breath, and Hotaru waited in a rlm@0: patient silence. Chibi finally got control over herself, and stood up rlm@0: straight. "I'll go with you." rlm@0: "That's fine. You stay here. I'm sure everyone will want to see rlm@0: you." Hotaru put the keys in the lock and turned them. rlm@0: "I...I'd like to go with you. You know, catch up?" She let out a rlm@0: nervous smile. rlm@0: Hotaru couldn't resist. She just couldn't. "You don't need to rlm@0: catch up with someone you pushed away," she snapped. rlm@0: Chibi was silent for a moment, and watched as Hotaru put her purse rlm@0: in the car. Hotaru was walking around the side of the car when she rlm@0: caught herself in the daze again. "Hotaru..." She walked after her, and rlm@0: grabbed her arm gently. "I...I didn't want to push you away. It's just..." rlm@0: "Just what, Chibi-chan?" She said curtly, tears forming at the rlm@0: base of her eyes. "Just someone else? You found someone better in rlm@0: America, didn't you?" The tears fell like tiny stars to the ground. rlm@0: "NO!" ChibiUSA said, her own tears forming. "I've only ever rlm@0: loved you. I still love you! I always will! I just have these dreams rlm@0: and you're...you're..." rlm@0: Hotaru threw open her door and climbed in. She quickly put the rlm@0: keys in the ignition and turned them, starting the car. ChibiUSA ran rlm@0: around to the other side and climbed in quickly, surprising Hotaru. She rlm@0: took her eyes from the steering wheel and looked at Chibi, shocked. rlm@0: "Dreams, Chibi-chan? DREAMS? That's why you dumped me?" rlm@0: "Remember my father, when he had those problems with dreams?" rlm@0: "I remember you telling me about it, yes." rlm@0: "The same kind of dreams, Taru-chan. The same kinds of dreams. rlm@0: It scares me! I couldn't possibly risk letting them come true!" rlm@0: Hotaru put the car in reverse and drove away from the house, a rlm@0: little confused. "I don't understand, Chibi-chan. I just don't." rlm@0: "I love you, Taru-chan. If that means sparing your life and rlm@0: getting rid of my happiness, then I'll do it!" rlm@0: "What about MY happiness?" Hotaru shouted. "I love you more than rlm@0: anything! Without you I feel like I don't have a reason for living!" rlm@0: "I don't want it to be MY fault that you die!" ChibiUSA shouted rlm@0: back, tears streaming down her cheeks. The mall loomed up ahead, and rlm@0: she wiped the tears away. "I couldn't stand the thought of putting you rlm@0: in danger. I...I still can't." rlm@0: Hotaru pulled into the mall's parking lot, trying to keep her rlm@0: emotions under control. "Is the danger you felt gone now?" She rlm@0: whispered. rlm@0: "No." Their gazes met at the sound of the word. Hotaru swallowed rlm@0: hard. rlm@0: "Then...then why did you come here?" rlm@0: "Because I had to see you. I had to know that you were alright." rlm@0: ChibiUSA closed her eyes and sighed. She had finally gotten it all out, rlm@0: thank God. Now Hotaru would know, and she could feel at least somewhat rlm@0: at peace. rlm@0: Hotaru swallowed hard again, trying to hold back the feelings of rlm@0: love and fear and overwhelming emotion that were beginning to overtake rlm@0: her. "I guess I understand. But we can't be together if it's too rlm@0: dangerous, can we?" rlm@0: "I guess not." ChibiUSA sighed. "But I still love you, Hotaru. rlm@0: I always will." rlm@0: "I...I love you too, ChibiUSA." rlm@0: rlm@0: * * * rlm@0: rlm@0: "Oh Hotaru!" The pink-haired girl flung herself into her rlm@0: lover's arms. "I want to be with you so much!" rlm@0: "Why can't you?! I don't understand!" The dark-haired girl rlm@0: said. "We love each other..." The stream was beginning to run rlm@0: again, and she smiled. "It's too obvious that we do. Our stream rlm@0: is still running!" rlm@0: "It will always run." The pink-haired girl smiled, but the rlm@0: smile quickly turned back into a worried frown. "But we can't rlm@0: always be together, Hotaru." rlm@0: "I don't understand!" The other girl shouted once again. rlm@0: "Those who do not understand love will always get in the rlm@0: way. It's too dangerous. Our stream will continue to always run, rlm@0: believe me. I won't let it run dry." rlm@0: "It will run dry, Chibi-chan. All things must. You said it rlm@0: yourself. If you don't want it to run dry, love me! Just love rlm@0: me!" The dark-haired girl dropped to her knees. rlm@0: "I will always love you, Hotaru." The pink-haired girl rlm@0: said, and dropped to her knees in front of the other. "I will rlm@0: always love you. rlm@0: rlm@0: ToOh BeEh CoNtInUeD rlm@0: rlm@0: * * * rlm@0: rlm@0: Hey loves! I've wanted to do a story like this for a long time. rlm@0: Stay tuned for part two! Thanks as always to the Amazoness Duo, those rlm@0: wonderful gals! ? rlm@0: And, of course, to my wonderful and supportive friends, Alea, rlm@0: Jessica, Analicia...hope all of you are doing alright in Cali! rlm@0: And to my new buds, especially Jayne. Thanks for the support and rlm@0: your willingness! I love yah! rlm@0: AND, FINALLY, to all my fans. You are the ones I keep doing this rlm@0: for! Thanks so much. rlm@0: <3 PsychoKittenSenshi611 rlm@0: Gabrielle rlm@0: