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rlm@0: 	Her hands felt like the warm summer breeze on my cheeks.  "You can’t 
rlm@0: love me."  She said it like a rule; a law.  Somewhere, it had been written that I 
rlm@0: would not, could not feel this emotion that ran deep inside my veins alongside my 
rlm@0: blood.
rlm@0: 	"I do!"  I wanted to shout at her, but it came out as only a whisper.  I was 
rlm@0: so afraid, yet so contented just to be with her.  "I love you"...
rlm@0: 	"But you can’t!"  She was able to shout out me.  She pulled me closer to 
rlm@0: her face, her sweet breath like dark purple irises on my lips.  "You’re... you are 
rlm@0: everything I can not be.  You’re...so pure...so utterly pure."  She closed her eyes 
rlm@0: and bent her head, as if to avoid staring back into mine.  "I can never be what 
rlm@0: you deserve."
rlm@0: 	My heart felt like it would sink down in my chest or rise above it at any 
rlm@0: moment.  Couldn’t she see?  Couldn’t she open her eyes and her heart?  "I don’t 
rlm@0: know what I deserve"but you’re what I want.  You’re everything I could ever 
rlm@0: want and you’re what I need."  She was shaking, her hands were shaking on my 
rlm@0: cheeks.  The breeze was faltering.  "Hotaru-chan, please," I touched her chin 
rlm@0: gently.
rlm@0: 	She looked up at me once again, tears trickling down her pale cheeks in 
rlm@0: small rivers of diamond tears.  "Oh Chibi-Usa," her lips shook out the words.  
rlm@0: "How could you want me?"  I wiped the tears gently from her cheeks.  "I’m...the 
rlm@0: darkness"and you’re the light.  You are life and I am death."  She looked down 
rlm@0: at her knees again.  "How could you love me?"
rlm@0: 	"You’re wrong, Hotaru-chan!"  I could feel my heart rising higher, into my 
rlm@0: breasts and hands and feet, spreading inside of me.  "You may be death, but you 
rlm@0: are also rebirth.  You begin life, starting anew in a cycle that I have yet to 
rlm@0: understand."  I leaned close into her face, wanting to feel her iris breath again.  
rlm@0: "You are everything I could ever want, Hotaru-chan.  You are beauty in the 
rlm@0: darkness.  You are my light."  Her lips were so close to mine.  "How could I not 
rlm@0: want you?"
rlm@0: 	Her face flushed, pale cheeks that never seemed to tan turning a light 
rlm@0: crimson.  "Don’t say that, please don’t say that…"
rlm@0: 	And, suddenly, it didn’t seem to matter to her what she had shouted 
rlm@0: before.  When I leaned in just enough to feel her soft, full lips upon mine…well, 
rlm@0: that was the end of everything and the beginning of something completely new.  I 
rlm@0: could feel her hands at the base of my neck, tugging at the ends of my hair.  I 
rlm@0: couldn’t stop myself from touching her pale arms, letting my hands meander up 
rlm@0: to her shoulders and down her back.  She was so warm, so soft, like sheets of 
rlm@0: silk left out in the sun.  I felt her lips pull away slightly from mine, and I moved 
rlm@0: away a bit, just enough to end the kiss but still to feel her warmth.  She sighed 
rlm@0: heavily onto my cheek and rested her head on my shoulder.
rlm@0: 	"Chibi-Usa," she said, her voice barely above a whisper.  "We can’t be 
rlm@0: together like this."
rlm@0: 	"What do you mean?"  I nuzzled my head on top of hers, catching the 
rlm@0: scent of her hair.  Lilacs.  I smiled.
rlm@0: 	"We can’t be…be lovers."  She moved slightly, her voice slightly softer.  
rlm@0: "You’re to become Princess of Crystal Tokyo in the future.  You are going to 
rlm@0: inherit a crown.  You can’t…be with me…"
rlm@0: 	"Hotaru-chan."  I felt that warm, rose colored feeling rise in my chest once 
rlm@0: again.  Sparks could fly off of my fingertips.  Mountains would crumple at my very 
rlm@0: whim…or at hers.  I could do anything with this feeling.  I could do anything with 
rlm@0: her.  "I want you, I need you.  I love you.  All that I ask of you is that you give me 
rlm@0: a chance, you give us a chance."  She sobbed lightly into the curve of my neck.  
rlm@0: "Please, Hotaru-chan…the future isn’t unchangeable.  Just me coming to the 
rlm@0: past all these times has changed it."
rlm@0: 	"But…"
rlm@0: 	"Hush, Hotaru-chan."  I cradled her head close to mine.  I smiled slightly.  
rlm@0: "Normally, I’m the one crying to you."  We both chuckled a bit.  "Hotaru-chan, I 
rlm@0: just want you to…to let me love you.  Just for awhile."
rlm@0: 	"But don’t you see?  Can’t you see that if I let you then – "
rlm@0: 	"Then what?"
rlm@0: 	She paused, moving away from me and wiping her tears.  "Chibi-
rlm@0: Usa…this can’t work."
rlm@0: 	"No, what would happen?"
rlm@0: 	"Don’t you see, it can’t work, because – "
rlm@0: 	"No, don’t ignore me."  I pulled her closer once again.  "What would 
rlm@0: happen if you and I became a couple?"
rlm@0: 	She was quiet, just staring back into my eyes and quivering a bit in my 
rlm@0: arms.  She didn’t even seem to breathe.  Her lovely, thin frame rest so close to 
rlm@0: mine on the floor of her dimly lit room.  Pale hands and feet seemed even paler 
rlm@0: in comparison to her dark clothes.  My little black angel.  "I can’t tell you…not 
rlm@0: now…"
rlm@0: 	"What is it, Hotaru-chan?"  I pulled her onto my knees.  "I’ve told you a 
rlm@0: secret I’ve kept from you for awhile now.  Why can’t you tell me?"
rlm@0: 	She swallowed audibly.  "I’ve loved you for as long as I can remember.  
rlm@0: Since I first met you, Chibi-Usa.  And if we are together, and I let myself love 
rlm@0: you…it’ll just be like everyone else.  I don’t want you to leave…to go away like 
rlm@0: everyone I’ve loved…"
rlm@0: 	"I could never go away from you."  I couldn’t feel anything for a minute.  It 
rlm@0: was like my heart stopped beating in my chest.  My veins continued only to pump 
rlm@0: the crimson feeling of love I felt for her.  And then, whenever my heart decided to 
rlm@0: start up again, I was kissing her.  It was with a kind of fierceness that she kissed 
rlm@0: me back.  Her small caresses and fierce kisses and explorations made me weak 
rlm@0: in my knees.
rlm@0: 	The silver and golden rays of sunlight drifted into Hotaru’s room.  I just lay 
rlm@0: there for awhile, surrounded by her sweet scent and wrapped in her arms.  The 
rlm@0: shadows of tree leaves left dark spots across her blanket and bare midriff.  I 
rlm@0: couldn’t help but stare at her.  God, she was beautiful.  Lying there like that.  Her 
rlm@0: hair a bit messed up, strands sprawled out behind her head on her pillow.  Her 
rlm@0: eyes were closed, but I knew them with just a memory.  Dark purple, almost 
rlm@0: black, deep as any ocean but clear as a sunny sky.  How could one human being 
rlm@0: be so perfect, so utterly beautiful in every way?  How could someone like her 
rlm@0: love someone like me?
rlm@0: 	I kissed her shoulders, just for the feeling of her silken skin on my lips.  
rlm@0: There was nothing more I wanted in the world than to be there with her, lying in 
rlm@0: her comfortable bed, bathed in the strong light of the sun or the pale, comforting 
rlm@0: light of the moon.  There was no other place that could soothe me like this.  Her 
rlm@0: arms were my only shelter, her lips my only release.
rlm@0: 	She stirred a bit, her muscles moving slightly underneath my lips and 
rlm@0: hands.  I rested my head by her breast, loving the sound of her heart beating 
rlm@0: beneath my ears.  Her breathing relaxed me…deep and smooth and soft all at 
rlm@0: once.  I closed my eyes, just loving the feel of her beside me, underneath me, all 
rlm@0: around me.