rlm@0: notes: well this is definatly weird for me to write. I always swore I would never ever write anything that involved rlm@0: Sakura and Syaoran as a couple but this was just a crazy idea I got while being bored in school. As for Meiling's rlm@0: character, I'd like some feedback about that. I've only seen her in the movie so I don't know much of her personality rlm@0: to know if she's out of character or not. But I did the best I can. As for ages, let's just say that they are in high school. rlm@0: ^^ Send all feedback to meikosama@hotmail.com, onegai. rlm@0: rlm@0: Tomoyo's moving on? rlm@0: By Chibi Nuriko rlm@0: "Tomoyo-chan?" Sakura asked her friends name to see if she was asleep or not.. When she felt Tomoyo shifting in rlm@0: the bed she knew her friend was still awake. "I'm sorry for coming here so suddenly tonight. It's just I had no where rlm@0: else to go, and your the only one I can turn to." rlm@0: "Daijoubu, Sakura-chan," Tomoyo said, her voice seeming loud to her as she held her best friend in her arms. "I'm rlm@0: glad you feel like you can still come to me like this." rlm@0: "I told you Tomoyo, I'll always love you as my best friend, and I'll always need you. I just dont feel the same as you. rlm@0: Gomen ne." rlm@0: "I know, and I couldn't ever ask for more than your understanding of my feelings. I'm glad your still my best friend." rlm@0: Tomoyo said as she enjoyed the feel of having Sakura in her arms. When she had told Sakura of her true feelings she rlm@0: expected that they would grow apart. That Sakura would hate her. Much to her suprise, and Sakura's, they two grew rlm@0: even closer. Just not in the way Tomoyo had always dreamed of. rlm@0: At first it was hard on Tomoyo knowing Sakura would never return her feelings. But when she thought of nights like rlm@0: the one she was having now, everything seemed okay. She still had Sakura, and was very important to Sakura. After rlm@0: a few months the pain went away and she learned how to enjoy what she and Sakura had. rlm@0: "So you want to tell me what happened with him?" Tomoyo asked still unsure of why Sakura showed up at her rlm@0: house crying and how she ended up in her arms. rlm@0: "He got mad at me. I don't why or what happened even. He was just so cold to me. He..he said he hated me," Sakura rlm@0: stopped as tears once again claimed her eyes. Tomoyo held on to her tightly as she ran her fingers through Sakura's rlm@0: hair trying to calm her. rlm@0: "I'm sure he didn't mean it. Syaoran isn't the type to do that. He's probably just stressed about something and I'm rlm@0: sure he regrets the whole thing now," Tomoyo assured her friend. She saw Sakura look up at her in the dim lit room rlm@0: and wiped the tears from her eyes. "It'll be okay. I promise you. I know how much he loves you. Almost as much as rlm@0: I do," Tomoyo stopped to laugh for a second. Never had she imagined being able to talk about her feelings so openly rlm@0: to Sakura. rlm@0: "Arigatou Tomoyo-chan. I don't see how I could ever live without your support," Sakura said as she snuggled closer rlm@0: to Tomoyo. "I know I don't make it easier on you, but you really should get over me." Sakura told her friend. rlm@0: "Maybe one day. But as for now I don't think there could ever be anyone that can live up to you. I know you and Li- rlm@0: kun will be together forever so I'll have to get over you eventually. But I don't see any need to force myself to get rlm@0: over you." Tomoyo was content with being like this. Sakura was still by her side. She learned to give up the false rlm@0: hope that one day Sakura would change her mind, but she still enjoyed these nights. Minus the fact that Sakura was rlm@0: usually hurt whenever she needed Tomoyo so much. rlm@0: After a few minutes of silence Tomoyo noticed that Sakura had finally fallen asleep. 'Things could definatly be rlm@0: much worse for me,' Tomoyo thought before falling to sleep herself. rlm@0: ______________ rlm@0: The next morning Tomoyo woke up when she heard a soft knock on her door. She realized Sakura was still in her rlm@0: arms, and not wanting to wake her she silently told the maid to come in her room. "You have a visitor Tomoyo-san," rlm@0: she informed her. "It's that boy Li-kun." rlm@0: As Tomoyo knew he would, Syaoran was there to apoligize to Sakura and make up for the other night. He came into rlm@0: the room and Tomoyo still had Sakura in her arms. She finally got out of bed and left Syaoran with his girlfriend. rlm@0: "She's all yours now. Just don't make her cry anymore," Tomoyo told him as she left her room. rlm@0: Sakura finally woke up when she felt cold fingertips on her cheeks. She smiled when she saw him, then pulled away rlm@0: from him as she remembered the previous night. Syaoran looked away from Sakura with shame in his eyes. rlm@0: "Gomen nasai Sakura. I never meant to hurt you or make you cry. Forgive me please?" He sounded so desperate rlm@0: Sakura thought. She knew he truely regretted it but she didn't want to just go running back to him. "I love you," he rlm@0: said breaking the silence. "I won't hurt you anymore. I'm just not good at this sort of thing." rlm@0: Sakura smiled knowing just how true that was. "I love you too," she said as he took her in his arms. After a few rlm@0: minutes of silence Syaoran started laughing as he remembered who was downstairs waiting to talk to Tomoyo. rlm@0: "What's so funny?" Sakura questioned. rlm@0: Through his laughter Syaoran managed to tell Sakura that he found someone who wanted to date Tomoyo and that rlm@0: they were downstairs talking now. Sakura's eyes lit up at the possibility of her best friend finding a new love. One rlm@0: that could give her what Sakura couldn't. rlm@0: "Are you serious? Who?" Sakura began to pound her boyfriend with questions. rlm@0: "Heh, well lets just say it's someone you know. She.." rlm@0: "She?" Sakura intterupted him. rlm@0: "Yes, she. She's someone you know. She's not shy at all. She's pretty smart and always goes after what she wants. I rlm@0: don't know how or why, but now she claims to have fallen for Tomoyo." Syaoran finished glad that Tomoyo might rlm@0: finally have a reason to stop pining away for his girlfriend. rlm@0: _____________ rlm@0: "You know I'm not shy like my cousin, and I'm not blind like Sakura." Meiling said moving towards Tomoyo. She rlm@0: wasn't sure of what she was doing exactly but she had a plan. "I know your in love with her. Heck, I'm still in love rlm@0: with him. But both of us know we have to move on. Please, love me instead of her. Give me a chance. I really like rlm@0: you Tomoyo," Meiling said as she stopped in front of Tomoyo. rlm@0: Tomoyo stood in shock not believing what her friend was saying. "You like me?" Tomoyo asked not knowing what rlm@0: else to say. She loved Sakura, and only Sakura. rlm@0: "Hai, suki desu." Meiling said as she sat down on the couch. rlm@0: "I.. I don't know what to tell you. I love Sakura still. I've never thought of you like that. You are beautiful but why rlm@0: would you want to be with me when I'm in love with her? And your in love with him?" Tomoyo was down right rlm@0: confused. She couldn't believe this was happening. rlm@0: "I just want a chance. I know if you gave me a chance, we could learn to love each other." Meiling said seriously. Of rlm@0: course she wasn't just going to stop being in love with Syaoran, but if all worked out right, everone would be happy rlm@0: in the end. rlm@0: Tomoyo on the other hand remembered what Sakura told her the night before. That Sakura said she should really get rlm@0: over her. 'Whatever makes Sakura happy makes me happy,' Tomoyo thought. "I'll do it," she said to Meiling. "You rlm@0: know I'm not in love with you. And I know your not in love with me. But it would be good for us to get over them. rlm@0: And it would be nice if I did end up falling for you." rlm@0: "And it would be great to have you love me, because I know I'll fall for you easily." Meiling said moving closer to rlm@0: Tomoyo. rlm@0: "There is just one condition," Tomoyo told her. rlm@0: "What's that?" rlm@0: "Your have to promise me you won't hurt me like your cousin hurts Sakura." rlm@0: "I'll never hurt you," Meiling said moving her face just so it was inches from Tomoyo's. "I do like you a lot. I know rlm@0: I've been kind of cold to you and Sakura, but I really do care about the two of you. Especially you. Your so amazing. rlm@0: I just never realized it before." rlm@0: Tomoyo blushed at the compliment. 'This may not be too bad after all,' she thought. Noticing that no one was rlm@0: around, and just how close they were to each other Tomoyo leaned forward slightly so that their lips just barely rlm@0: brushed against the others. Meiling didn't pull away and Tomoyo deepened the kiss. rlm@0: 'Eww, she kissed me," Meiling thought. 'I didn't think I'd actually have to kiss her.' Meiling already convinced her rlm@0: cousin she was falling for Tomoyo, and now she finally convinced Tomoyo. She knew if things didn't work out as rlm@0: she had planned she'd be in big trouble, but she had to risk it. rlm@0: "I've never actually dated anyone before." rlm@0: "Thank you for giving this a chance Tomoyo. I know you probably think I'm immature and selfish, but there's a lot rlm@0: you don't know about me." rlm@0: "I'm willing to learn about it all. I'm glad we're doing this too." rlm@0: "So what do you want to do on our first day as a couple?" Meiling asked wrapping her arm around Tomoyo. rlm@0: Tomoyo leaned into her warm embrace. The first thing she thought was how it was so different from Sakura's arms. rlm@0: Then she realized she couldn't go on comparing Meiling to Sakura or she'd never get over her. rlm@0: "Let's go see what Sakura and Syaoran are doing in my room. I've think they've had plenty of time to make up with rlm@0: each other by now." rlm@0: "Make out you mean?" Meiling teased. She stood up bringing Tomoyo with her and took Tomoyo's hand into her rlm@0: hand. "This is definatly going to take some time to get used to. But I think your well worth the effort." Meiling said rlm@0: to Tomoyo just before they started heading up the stairs. rlm@0: _______________ rlm@0: When Tomoyo and Meiling entered the room where Syaoran and Sakura were everyone's mouth dropped. Sakura rlm@0: and Syaoran's because Meiling was clinging to Tomoyo's arm protectivly, and Meiling and Tomoyo's because of rlm@0: seeing Sakura and Syaoran kissing so passionatly. rlm@0: Sakura and Syaoran immediatly broke apart blushing deeply. "So you actually told her?" Syaoran asked his cousin. rlm@0: "Hai, I'm just glad everything worked out well." Meiling said as she looked lovingly at Tomoyo. 'I don't know how rlm@0: long I can keep this up,' she thought. rlm@0: "Ne Meiling, can I talk to you for a minute in the hall?" Sakura asked as she stepped off of Tomoyo's bed. The two rlm@0: girls stepped outside of the room and Sakura shut the door behing them. "Alright, I know you. Your straight. What rlm@0: are you doing dating my best friend?" Sakura wasted no time. She knew this couldn't be happening. rlm@0: "Why shouldn't I?" Meiling knew this would be the perfect oppertunity to put her plan in motion. She was going to rlm@0: get Sakura and Tomoyo together if it killed her. Then the fact that Syaoran would be single afterwards was a rlm@0: definate perk of the whole idea. rlm@0: "Do you even care about her?" rlm@0: "Why do you care?" Meiling said agitating Sakura. She didn't mean to sound like a bitch but it was the only way this rlm@0: would work. rlm@0: "Answer me, onegai. Do you really care about her? I just don't want her to get hurt." rlm@0: "I won't hurt her. I'm just lucky you never realized how much you love her." Meiling stopped there not wanting to rlm@0: push the subject. She turned and walked back into Tomoyo's room. After a few minutes Sakura finally recovered out rlm@0: in the hall and came back into the room as well. 'What did she mean by that?' was her last calm thought as she saw rlm@0: Meiling look at her then kiss her friend. rlm@0: 'She's kissing Tomoyo. Why does this bother me? Is it because I've never seen two girls kiss? No, that bitch is rlm@0: kissing my best friend. I want to scream at her. To tell her to leave MY Tomoyo alone. Matte, what am I thinking? rlm@0: She's not mine. I just don't want to lose her. I need her to much. What's going on? Hoe.' Sakura had no idea what rlm@0: was going on in her mind. She had Syaoran to love. She was in love with him, wasn't she? rlm@0: "Gomen ne minna. I have to go and uh.. go home and do some school work. I'll talk to you later." Sakura said rlm@0: suddenly walking out of Tomoyo's room. When she was out of eyesight she ran out of the house to make sure she rlm@0: was alone. Tomoyo tried running after her friend but Meiling took hold of her hand and stopped her. rlm@0: "Daijoubu Tomoyo. She's fine," Meiling hoped if Sakura had time alone she would think of what just happened and rlm@0: hopefully come to terms with her real feelings for Tomoyo. 'Onegai kami-sama. Let this work out.' Meiling said rlm@0: under her breath. "Come on, let's go out somewhere." rlm@0: "Okay," Tomoyo agreed trying to get her mind off of Sakura. She didn't know what, but something was definatly rlm@0: wrong with Sakura. rlm@0: _____________ rlm@0: Once Sakura was alone she just kept walking around trying to figure some things out. She had no reason to be rlm@0: against Meiling dating Tomoyo but it bothered her deeply. She knew if she asked Tomoyo to not see Meiling she rlm@0: wouldn't see her anymore. Then Sakura knew she would feel bad. Almost as if she was using Tomoyo. rlm@0: She never realized how much she needed Tomoyo. Tomoyo was always there whenever she needed her. Now what rlm@0: if Tomoyo wasn't around anymore? What if Tomoyo didn't need her anymore? rlm@0: "I'm being selfish. I just want Tomoyo to love me even though I don't love her. But why?" Sakura said to no one. rlm@0: "Maybe I should just talk to her. But then what if I blew this for her? She finally found someone to make her happy rlm@0: when I can't." rlm@0: "Sakura-chan?" A familiar voice scared her out of her thoughts. "Daijoubu desu ka?" the voice asked when Sakura rlm@0: didn't answer him. rlm@0: "Yukito-san," Sakura turned around to face her friend. "Gomen ne, you scared me." rlm@0: "Why are you talking to yourself Sakura? And why are you crying?" Yukito asked her, the concern evident in his rlm@0: voice. rlm@0: "I'm crying?" Sakura asked as she lifted her hand to her face and felt the wet tears on her cheeks. "I...I didn't know I rlm@0: was. I don't know what's going on at all anymore." rlm@0: "Something you want to talk about?" Yukito asked her as he sat down on a nearby bench. rlm@0: Sakura sat down next to him and began to tell him what happened earlier. "..And now I don't know what to do." she rlm@0: finished her story. Yukito was definatly shocked. He knew Meiling was right, she was in love with Tomoyo and just rlm@0: hasn't realized it yet. rlm@0: "So you realize how much you need her to be around for you?" rlm@0: "She's the only one I can turn to. She always makes me smile no matter how bad things are. But if she's with Meiling rlm@0: all the time who will I turn to?" Sakura asked. rlm@0: "I understand where your coming from," Yukito said as he remembered a situation similar to this he was once in. A rlm@0: situation that made him realize his true feelings for this girls older brother. "Why do you feel selfish for needing rlm@0: her?" rlm@0: "Because if I tell her how much I do, she'll never stop loving me. She should move on since I love Syaoran but in a rlm@0: way I don't want her to I just can't seem to make her happy.. Hoe, I'm so confused." rlm@0: "You are confused, but not about what you think. You just have one simple thing backwards. It'll be very easy for rlm@0: you to make her happy once you figure that out." Yukito said as he stood up. "Well I gotta go meet your brother so rlm@0: I'll see you later Sakura-chan." rlm@0: "Backwards?" Sakura said to him as he started to walk away. rlm@0: Yukito just shook his head and smiled. Over his shoulder he just told her it was something she had to figure out on rlm@0: her own. 'Backwards?' she thought to herself. 'What's backwards? He was of no help at all.' rlm@0: Sakura sat on the bench still and let her mind drift back to the previous night. Her fight with Syaoran and how she rlm@0: came straight to Tomoyo. How Tomoyo let her cry in her arms and held her all night so she'd feel better. Who was rlm@0: going to make her feel better if Tomoyo was always with Meiling. Who was going to make her happy? rlm@0: Now she thought of her talk with Meiling and how Meiling told her she was lucky she didn't realize her true feelings rlm@0: for her friend. How much it hurt to see someone kissing Tomoyo. As if someone were taking the air out of the room rlm@0: so she couldn't breathe. 'My Tomoyo' she thought to herself. rlm@0: 'Now if I only knew what Meiling and Yukito are thinking. My true feelings for Tomoyo. And having something rlm@0: backwards?' Sakura didn't bother to stop thinking about the whole situation as she walked home. Finally as she rlm@0: reached her house she figured out what the two of them meant. 'Do they mean I have my true feelings backwards? rlm@0: But how are they backwards?' rlm@0: Sakura took a break from her thoughts as she greeted her father and walked up to her room. As soon as she layed rlm@0: down in her bed she let all her thoughts come back to her. 'Now how are my feelings backwards? I love Tomoyo and rlm@0: I'm in love with Syaoran. Tomoyo's my best friend and she's always been there for me. I've come to depend on her rlm@0: so much. If I didn't have her who would I go to when Syaoran gets mad at me? He does that a lot lately.' Sakura rlm@0: frowned as she looked at her nightstand that had a picture of her and her boyfriend. rlm@0: 'He gets mad at me and whenever I'm upset I go to her. She's always there for me because she loves me. More than rlm@0: anyone or anything else she loves me. And all this time I've never realized how amazing she is.' rlm@0: ___________ rlm@0: "I can't do this Meiling. Gomen." Tomoyo said as she stood next to her new girlfriend. "I can't love anyone but rlm@0: Sakura or pretend to. I don't even want to try to love anyone else. I like being your friend but I can't be more with rlm@0: you." rlm@0: 'Perfect,' Meiling thought trying not to smile. "Oh," is all she said as she bowed her head so Tomoyo couldn't see her rlm@0: face. "I'm sorry I asked you then." rlm@0: "Daijoubu Meiling. Besides, your a really good kisser." Tomoyo told her friend getting a laugh from her. "I hate to rlm@0: do this but I gotta go see Sakura." rlm@0: Tell her I say hi will ya?" Meiling gave Tomoyo a farewell hug and Tomoyo took off towards Sakura's house. So far rlm@0: Meiling thought things were going perfect. She had her chance to make her impression on Sakura and no one got rlm@0: hurt in the process. Tomoyo was still happy and now it was in Sakura's hands. All she had to do was figure out who rlm@0: she loved. rlm@0: As Tomoyo reached Sakura's house she noticed Syaoran was arriving there at the same time. "What are you doing rlm@0: here?" he asked her as they stopped in front of the house. rlm@0: "I was coming to make sure Sakura was okay." Tomoyo told him as she walked up to the door and went to knock on rlm@0: it. rlm@0: "Well I'm here so you don't have to worry. She doesn't need you so you might as well go home." rlm@0: "But.." rlm@0: "It's fine. Just go home, I'll take care of her." Syaoran told her. Tomoyo was deeply hurt but didn't say anything. She rlm@0: turned around and started walking towards her home. Syaoran knew he was being mean but he couldn't risk losing rlm@0: his girlfriend to her. He knew, just like everyone else, just how much Sakura loved Tomoyo. In fact thats why he got rlm@0: so upset and fought with Sakura. Because his girlfriend would rather be with Tomoyo than him. He didn't mean to rlm@0: show Sakura it upset him but sometimes she could tell he was mad about something. And she always ran to rlm@0: Tomoyo. rlm@0: Once Sakura opened the door she didn't know if she should be relieved to see her boyfriend or not. Syaoran could rlm@0: tell she had been crying and immediatly took her in his arms. "Don't worry, I'm here for you Sakura." rlm@0: Sakura wrapped her arms around him and let him hold onto her. It felt so good to be in his arms. She always felt rlm@0: protected when he held her. It was different from when Tomoyo did. Tomoyo's arms were loving, and soft. When rlm@0: Tomoyo held her all her troubles seemed to go away. Sakura closed her eyes and pictured Tomoyo holding her and rlm@0: just thinking of it she felt better. She had almost forgotten her boyfriend was even there. rlm@0: "You feel better now?" Syaoran asked as he felt Sakura relax in his arms after a few moments. rlm@0: "Yes, I do thank you." she said as she came back to reality. rlm@0: "I saw Tomoyo on the way here too," Syaoran told her. "She was worried about you as well but I told her that you rlm@0: wouldn't need her since I'm here so she went home." He felt Sakura tense in his arms and knew he just made a fatal rlm@0: mistake. rlm@0: "You told her I don't need her?" rlm@0: "Un." was all that would come out of his mouth. rlm@0: "I always need her. I always will. I can't live without her. I have to go see her. I'm sorry Syaoran." rlm@0: He bowed his head as she pulled away from him. He lost, he knew there was no hope of holding on to her any rlm@0: longer. "Tell her how much you love her for me will you?" Sakura hugged him tightly and smiled. rlm@0: "I'm really sorry. I just figured it all out. What everyone's been trying to tell me. I'm in love with her. I have to go." rlm@0: Sakura said as she ran out her front door after her friend leaving Syaoran standing in her living room. rlm@0: After what seemed like hours of endless running she got to Tomoyo's house and as soon as she was let in she ran rlm@0: stright to Tomoyo's room. She didn't bother to knock as she ran into Tomoyo's room and stopped dead in her tracks rlm@0: when she saw Tomoyo sitting on the floor crying. rlm@0: Slowly she walked over to her friend who didn't seem to notice her until Sakura sat down beside her. "I never meant rlm@0: to hurt you Tomoyo. I'll always need you, and now I need you more than ever." rlm@0: Tomoyo stopped herself from crying. She always found it weird how Sakura just popped into her room without her rlm@0: noticing. "I don't understand what your talking about Sakura." rlm@0: "I'm talking about what's been going on today. How in the course of one day my entire life has completly changed. I rlm@0: realized when I saw you with Meiling how much I need you. I thought I was just jealous because you wouldn't be rlm@0: around as much if you were with her. Then I talked to Yukito and after a lot of thought and I realized I was scared." rlm@0: "Why were you scared?" rlm@0: "Well Meiling likes you and your her girlfriend now and I thought I was going to lose you, and not have the chance rlm@0: to love you." rlm@0: "I told Meiling a while ago that this wouldn't work, because I could never love anyone but you." rlm@0: "And I realized just how in love with you I am thanks to her and Yukito." Sakura said as she placed a hand on top of rlm@0: Tomoyo's. "I love you Tomoyo, with all my heart. I realized that you love me more than anyone ever has before, and rlm@0: I wasn't really in love with Syaoran. I was meant to be with you, I just hope it's not to late." rlm@0: Tomoyo's eyes filled with tears as she realized what Sakura was saying to her. Her dream had finally come true, rlm@0: Sakura was in love with her. "I love you Sakura." rlm@0: "I love you Tomoyo," Sakura leaned forward and kissed Tomoyo softly. "I'll never hurt you again. I promise you rlm@0: that." Sakura kissed Tomoyo again as she took Tomoyo into her arms and the two stayed in that position for the rest rlm@0: of the night content knowing they finally found their true love. rlm@0: ___________ rlm@0: When Syaoran told Meiling about Sakura finally realizing her true feelings for Tomoyo and how she ran off Meiling rlm@0: felt proud. She wanted to tell her cousin about her plan but knew he would never forgive her if she did. "It wasn't so rlm@0: bad you know." rlm@0: "Huh?" Syaoran asked looking at his cousin. rlm@0: "Dating Tomoyo wasn't to bad. I'm kinda upset it didn't work out." rlm@0: "You always told me they would end up together and not to go out with Sakura." rlm@0: "I knew they loved each other yes, but I didn't know they'd actually get together. I just told you not to date her rlm@0: because I wanted you to date me." rlm@0: "So what do I do now that she left me? I knew it would happen sooner or later so I'm not too upset, but it really rlm@0: sucks." rlm@0: "You can always date me." Meiling added clinging to his arm. rlm@0: "Aren't we a little old for that now? It was fine when we were kids but I think we're a little to old for that." rlm@0: "Who says? We were supposed to get married when we were little. Then you came here from Hong Kong and threw rlm@0: it all off. So if we can get married why can't we date?" rlm@0: "Yare yare. Whatever you want Meiling." Syaoran said falling onto the couch. He was much to tired and confused to rlm@0: care. Meiling sat down next to him and grabbed his arm again. Meiling was definatly proud of herself for what she rlm@0: did. It was one hell of a day for all four of them and she despratly wanted to tell someone of her great plan and how rlm@0: well it worked out. "Some things are best left unsaid." Meiling thought aloud. rlm@0: "Nani?" Syaoran looked at her confused. rlm@0: "Nan demo nai!"Meiling said with a nervous laugh. She hadn't meant to say that out loud. "Well I'm going to bed. rlm@0: See you tommorow Syaoran." Meiling stood up and kissed her cousin on the forhead and took off. rlm@0: "Some things never change no matter how much you want them to I guess." Syaoran thought before going to his rlm@0: own bed for the night. rlm@0: -end rlm@0: