rlm@0: Tomoyo's Magic
rlm@0: by rphjas
rlm@0: rphjas@yahoo.com
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rlm@0: Dear Diary.. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: It has been several months since I began living with her and Sonomi-
rlm@0: sama. That fateful night..the night I discovered I was her special
rlm@0: someone.. started a whole new chapter in my life. I was surprised by
rlm@0: my family's reaction to our proposal that I live with her. Father was
rlm@0: not upset ,but relieved that I would not be by myself
rlm@0: anymore..especially with his long hours and Onii-chan's part-time
rlm@0: jobs keeping them from home so much. Sonomi-sama was thrilled with
rlm@0: the idea. She was very excited that her beloved Nadesico's daughter
rlm@0: would be living in her large home. Likewise, all of the staff and
rlm@0: bodyguards have been so warm and kind to me. Tomoyo and I share the
rlm@0: same room and large bed. It seems like everyone has been supportive
rlm@0: with the move all the way around. Even my usually gruff Onii-chan is
rlm@0: pleased.. now that Syaoran is out of my heart. And of course, Tomoyo
rlm@0: and I still keep my sorceress affairs secret..even though all of the
rlm@0: Cards have been captured long ago. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: Each day has been so wonderful and filled with great joy. We
rlm@0: sometimes study together after classes in Penguin Park or cheer for
rlm@0: each other as we participate in our different clubs. School days are
rlm@0: spent like before the move, except I hold hands with her more. If
rlm@0: there is nobody around though, playful mischievous Tomoyo encircles
rlm@0: my waist with her tiny arms and kisses me with her soft lips. Even
rlm@0: now, she still adores my looks of surprise and my blushing cheeks. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: Tonight, I write in you after another session of love-making. In the
rlm@0: moon light, Tomoyo's bare shoulder peeks above the sheets. She sleeps
rlm@0: on her side facing mine, and the bed looks gigantic with only her in
rlm@0: it. Her hands are together..fingers clasped as if in prayer. From the
rlm@0: open window, a gentle breeze moves her long black hair. Her face
rlm@0: wears a smile now..a smile I can always see. It is no longer forced.
rlm@0: Her grief and sadness forever gone, she has thrown all of her masks
rlm@0: away. With each breath, a strand of her hair floats skyward. Her
rlm@0: mouth soundlessly utters my name. I know because she now wears that
rlm@0: special smile..the one that is just for me. Her fingers automatically
rlm@0: seek me..drawn to the warmth of my vacated portion of the mattress. A
rlm@0: troubled look crosses her face, and I quickly summon Mirror to kindly
rlm@0: take my place. Mirror copies my image and quickly gets into the bed.
rlm@0: Tomoyo's questing fingers find her, and her special smile once again
rlm@0: lights her face. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: With relief, I return to my thoughts and writing..while Mirror holds
rlm@0: Tomoyo close..stroking her hair..and holding her close. Snuggling,
rlm@0: Tomoyo sleeps peacefully again. I should hurry this entry, though.
rlm@0: Mirror can not fool her heart for long. I may be the sorceress, but
rlm@0: Tomoyo has an even greater power. Tonight, I see it..a powerful
rlm@0: aura..an aura that should consume her porcelain doll-like body. She
rlm@0: loves me so completely and so intensely that I worry she will break
rlm@0: one day. I feel a knot of fear in my belly.. a fear of the unknown
rlm@0: future. What would I do if I woke up one morning..only to kiss cold
rlm@0: lips..and discover her lifeless? 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: During nights of worry, I have been trying to create a magic of my
rlm@0: own. Tomoyo has always been frail. So, I want to create a Card of
rlm@0: Health and Healing..one I can use for her when she is ill. But so
rlm@0: far, I have had no success. I have always relied on her, but I
rlm@0: understand now that it would be unbearable for me to lose her. I
rlm@0: crave her soft lips and her lavender eyes..the warmth of her
rlm@0: body..and the bath her love prepares for me..that always cleanses my 
rlm@0: heart.. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: During my first days with her, I was always apologizing. I felt
rlm@0: guilty for being so slow to perceive her love for me..and mine for
rlm@0: her..for all of those lonely tear-filled nights she lived through. I
rlm@0: cried from all of the scars I cut into her heart. But, with her usual
rlm@0: tenderness, she would only kiss me and bid me to worry about that no
rlm@0: more. All of those nights lived only in her past, and she looks now
rlm@0: only to our future. Even with the Return Card, I could never undo
rlm@0: those wounds. The paradox of Time prevents me. So, reluctantly, I
rlm@0: complied with her wishes. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: With my own voice, Mirror whispers across the room to me. Tomoyo
rlm@0: frowns and stirs restlessly. With my quiet thanks, Mirror and I
rlm@0: switch places. I kiss Tomoyo's upturned cheek and once more see her
rlm@0: special smile. Her mystical aura of love envelops us both in its
rlm@0: protective blanket..covering our unclothed bodies..soothing us into a
rlm@0: deep and peaceful sleep...burning all my concerns away..