rlm@0: Hello everyone! I'm lanis01 and this is my first attempt to writing a Sekkushiaru Roman. For those of you 
rlm@0: who don’t know what this is it’s a romance story that contains a lot of adult themes. This is for mature 
rlm@0: readers only. If you caught with this and you are underage I hope your parents teach you a lesson! I am not 
rlm@0: responsible for minors that happen to read this story because they are not my responsibility they are the 
rlm@0: parents and this story is on a site that says who can read this and who can't. I don't own any of the 
rlm@0: characters in this, Toei, Naoko Takeuchi and other people who I don't know of yet do. This story line 
rlm@0: however is my idea and I hope you readers enjoy my story! 
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rlm@0: Hotaru's secret
rlm@0: By: Lanis01
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rlm@0:        "Ten to three, ten more minutes closer to freedom." Hotaru sighed happily. It was the last day 
rlm@0: of school and Hotaru couldn't wait to get home. School was never her favorite thing. Even though 
rlm@0: she had a normal life like the rest of the sailor soldiers, her life could never be anything like 
rlm@0: normal. The attacks she used to have when she had first met the other soldiers had come back. 
rlm@0: She thought it was always because she was torn between the two forces trapped inside her body, 
rlm@0: but now there was no reason for her attacks. 'I'm just a freak like always' she thought to herself. 
rlm@0: At least that’s what the kids at school told her. She had no friends at her school; she really didn't 
rlm@0: want to be friends with people like them. She thought things would be different after she had 
rlm@0: become sailor saturn but nothing had changed. 'No, that’s not all true, one this has changed' she 
rlm@0: thought again. She opened her wallet and saw the picture she had inside it. It made her smile, 
rlm@0: which was something most people never saw. It wasn't an old picture, but the date the picture was 
rlm@0: taken seemed like it had been years ago. But no matter how old it was, its value to her heart 
rlm@0: would never change. She stared at the picture and thought back to when it was taken. It had been 
rlm@0: the happiest day of her life, one she would never forget. Suddenly her mind shot back to reality as 
rlm@0: the last bell rang and the students around her got up to leave. Hotaru put the picture away and 
rlm@0: stood up. No sooner has she stood up when a hand grabbed her shoulder and forced her back in 
rlm@0: her seat. Hotaru looked up scared to a girl who was known for causing a lot of fights in her 
rlm@0: school. She was a head taller then Hotaru but was very beautiful, at least that’s what most guys 
rlm@0: thought. She had blond curly hair that ended to her shoulders and dark green eyes. "Where do you 
rlm@0: think your going freak?" the girl asked tightening her hold on Hotaru's shoulder. "Wh…What do 
rlm@0: you want Kerri?" Hotaru whispered. "Shut up! I saw you looking at my boyfriend slut. Stay away 
rlm@0: from him or I'll cripple your worthless ass!" Kerri yelled. She turned her head to see if the two of 
rlm@0: them were alone and when she saw that they were she backhanded Hotaru across the face. Hotaru 
rlm@0: fell out of her chair and took her school bag with her, knocking out the things she had in it. 
rlm@0: "Understand?" Kerri said in a low voice. Hotaru was on her hands and knees and only nodded to 
rlm@0: the question. "Good. See you next year freak." Kerri said as she walked out of the empty 
rlm@0: classroom. Hotaru was starting to cry softly to herself as she picked up the things that had fallen 
rlm@0: out of her bag. 'The more things change, the more the remain the same…'
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rlm@0:            'At least its over know, I don't have to go back for a long time.' Hotaru though to herself on 
rlm@0: her way home. Her cheek was red and so were her eyes. 'I just hope I get home in one piece, and 
rlm@0: once I do I'm running upstairs to my room and locking the door!' Hotaru thought again kicking a 
rlm@0: rock in front of her. 'But I know that won't change anything, I just hope my days get better.' As 
rlm@0: Hotaru was walking she heard a stick break behind her but before she could turn around someone 
rlm@0: covered her eyes with their hands from behind her. Hotaru gasped, scared that it might have been 
rlm@0: Kerri again. "Guess who!" a small voice said behind her. Hotaru sighed, as she knew who it was 
rlm@0: and smiled. "Is it a cute girl with short pink hair done up in a odd style?" Hotaru asked, blushing 
rlm@0: when she heard herself talk. "No, just little old me." Chibiusa said uncovering her eyes and 
rlm@0: stepping in front of Hotaru. "Hotaru are you ok? Your face is red and so are your eyes? Is 
rlm@0: everything alright?" Chibiusa asked with concern in her voice for her dear friend. Hotaru covered 
rlm@0: her cheek and said, "I'm fine, I always am aren't I?" That was all Chibiusa need to hear. "You 
rlm@0: can't lie to me Miss Hotaru Tomoe, I'm your best friend and I know when you're hiding 
rlm@0: something." Chibiusa said acting as if she knew Hotaru like a book, which she almost did. And 
rlm@0: almost was just how Hotaru wanted it. Hotaru only smiled, "I'm fine really Chibiusa, you don't 
rlm@0: need to worry about me." Chibiusa gave Hotaru a serious look and said back, "What kind of a 
rlm@0: friend would I be if I didn't worry?" Hotaru sighed and asked, "Would you walk me home please 
rlm@0: Chibiusa? I mean if you're not busy." Chibiusa smiled and took Hotaru's hand. "Of course I will. 
rlm@0: Is it ok with you if I stay alittle while? Usagi is cooking again today and I'm scared to go home." 
rlm@0: Hotaru giggled and nodded. "I would love to have you over." The two girls smiled to one another 
rlm@0: and made there way to Hotaru's house. 
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rlm@0:      "Please, make yourself at home. Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama won't be home till late 
rlm@0: because I think they were going to try and go out on a date. And Setsuna-mama has been really 
rlm@0: busy lately so I don’t even think she'll come home." Hotaru said taking her shoes off. "You sure 
rlm@0: they won't mind?" Chibiusa asked setting her bags down. "I'm sure, why would they mind?" 
rlm@0: Hotaru asked walking into the kitchen. "Would you like something to drink?" Hotaru asked. "No 
rlm@0: that’s ok, do you mind if I put my bags in your room?" Chibiusa asked back. "No go ahead, I 
rlm@0: have to check on dinner so I'll be up in a minute." Hotaru said. Chibiusa took her bags and ran 
rlm@0: upstairs. She went to the end of the hallway and opened the door to Hotaru's room. As soon as the 
rlm@0: door opened up she caught the scent of Jasmine in the room. Hotaru had two dark emerald green 
rlm@0: candles lit. Hotaru's room was always dark if not for the lamps and few scented candles she had. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa always loved being in Hotaru's room, it was so, romantic. But it was also dark, like 
rlm@0: Hotaru was sometimes. That thought made Chibiusa frown, she knew that recently Hotaru had 
rlm@0: been acting sadder and sadder but would always try and hide it when she was around. Chibiusa 
rlm@0: sat down on Hotaru's bed and let she let herself fall back. Hotaru had a feather bed and it was 
rlm@0: always very comfortable, like a cloud. She turned and noticed something, a large black leather 
rlm@0: book on Hotaru's desk. It had a purple ribbon in the middle. Chibiusa knew she shouldn't have 
rlm@0: looked in it but she couldn’t stop her curiosity. She opened the book and read what was inside. 
rlm@0: 'Oh my god this is Hotaru's diary! Oh my…no wonder she's been so sad!' Chibiusa thought to 
rlm@0: herself. Hotaru had never told her about her attacks coming back or that nothing in her social life 
rlm@0: had changed. What made Chibiusa really upset was the line she read at the end; 'I was born a 
rlm@0: freak, and I'll die a freak.' Chibiusa heard footsteps coming up to the room and quickly put the 
rlm@0: book back. Hotaru walked in her room and noticed the look on Chibiusa's face. "What's wrong?" 
rlm@0: she asked seeing that Chibiusa was upset. "Why didn't you tell me?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru 
rlm@0: looked at Chibiusa for a moment then noticed her dairy was behind her. "What are you talking 
rlm@0: about?" Hotaru asked, although she had a good idea what Chibiusa was talking about. "I'm 
rlm@0: talking about your attacks coming back! And that you've been getting beat up at school! I take it 
rlm@0: that it happened again." Chibiusa said in an angry tone, pointing to Hotaru's still sore cheek. 
rlm@0: Hotaru was shocked that she knew all that and felt tears building up in her eyes. 'Oh my god, she 
rlm@0: read it! She must know what I wrote about her then!' "Chibiusa…I'm sorry I…" Hotaru couldn't 
rlm@0: think of words to say, she thought Chibiusa would hate her forever now that she knew Hotaru's 
rlm@0: secret. "And I wish you wouldn't think like that, it's wrong Hotaru! You know it is." Rini said, 
rlm@0: talking about how Hotaru thought she was a freak. Hotaru couldn't believe what Chibiusa had 
rlm@0: said and started to breakdown. "I know its wrong, I'm so sorry!" Hotaru cried thinking she was 
rlm@0: talking about her secret. Tears were sliding down her face and finally Hotaru ran out of her room. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa didn't know why Hotaru had acted so serious over what she said. But she didn't read all 
rlm@0: of Hotaru's diary, at least not the part about her. Chibiusa ran after Hotaru and found her crying in 
rlm@0: her parent's bedroom. "Hotaru? I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry. I had no idea you take it 
rlm@0: that seriously." Chibiusa said behind Hotaru. "I knew you would be angry with me, I know 
rlm@0: thinking such things are wrong and I know you must hate me for what I wrote about you. Its just 
rlm@0: that you…" Hotaru couldn't finish her sentence. Chibiusa moved in front of her and knelled down 
rlm@0: next to her. "What did you write about me?" she asked. Hotaru looked up to her in shock 'Oh my 
rlm@0: god she doesn't know?!' Hotaru though. Hotaru was even more scared now. Her secret had not 
rlm@0: been found out by the one person that it had to do with, but now her mistake would force that 
rlm@0: secret out. "Hotaru? What did you write about me?" Rini asked again. Hotaru couldn't bring 
rlm@0: herself to say it. "Please Chibiusa, I don't want to talk about it. It was nothing. I just need to get 
rlm@0: some rest." Hotaru said as she tried to leave. Chibiusa grabbed her arm and stopped her. "Please 
rlm@0: Hotaru, if something is bothering you I want to know what it is. I'm your best friend aren't I?  
rlm@0: Please let me help you!" Chibiusa said now getting frustrated with her. "Chibiusa please!" Hotaru 
rlm@0: yelled. Chibiusa let her arm go and backed off in shock. She had not expected to hear Hotaru yell 
rlm@0: at her. Hotaru began to cry again when she realized she had yell at her best friend for only trying 
rlm@0: to help her. "Please, I just want to get some rest now. I don't want to talk about it anymore." 
rlm@0: Hotaru said softly, trying to act calmer. Chibiusa just nodded, afraid to say anymore. "I'm sorry, 
rlm@0: I'll get my bag and go back home, I didn't mean to upset you." Chibiusa said, leaving before 
rlm@0: Hotaru could say anything else. She ran back to Hotaru's room and grabbed her bag, unknowingly 
rlm@0: knocking Hotaru's dairy in an open pocket in her bag. She took the bag in her arm and left. She 
rlm@0: was about to leave when Hotaru stopped her. "Chibiusa, I'm sorry for raising my voice. You were 
rlm@0: right; I did get into another fight in school today. My days only seem to get harder as they go by. 
rlm@0: Now I just want to rest for awhile. I appreciate that you want to help me, but there are 
rlm@0: something's that a friend just can't help someone with. I'm really sorry I yelled at you." Hotaru 
rlm@0: said bowing her head. Chibiusa only nodded and put on a fake smile. "It's ok, I know you had a 
rlm@0: hard day. I'll leave you alone now." Chibiusa said quickly. She left just as fast, not waiting to say 
rlm@0: goodbye to Hotaru. Hotaru wanted to stop her before a sharp pain hit her chest and made her 
rlm@0: collapse. She was having another one of her attacks. She grabbed her chest, struggling to breathe. 
rlm@0: This attack was the worst one she had ever had. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru tried to yell out, but it came 
rlm@0: only in a whisper. Hotaru was scared now and thought for sure that she was going to die, the pain 
rlm@0: she was in was so great that for a moment she wanted to die if it meant ending this pain. Tears 
rlm@0: were building up in Hotaru's eyes and suddenly everything went black. 'I'm dead' was Hotaru's 
rlm@0: last thought; not something you want to take with you into the darkness. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:        Colors. Dark and cold colors. It felt like being in a tomb almost. But there was a breeze? 
rlm@0: Tombs don't have a breeze, do they? That’s what Hotaru asked herself when she opened her eyes. 
rlm@0: Her vision was blurred and she couldn't tell where she was or if she was alone. She tried to talk 
rlm@0: but couldn't. 'I'm dead…' Hotaru though to herself again. Suddenly she felt something warm take 
rlm@0: her hand. She closed her eyes and opened them again to clear her vision. What she saw would 
rlm@0: have made her cry. She wasn't dead at all, she was in her room laying on top of her bed with what 
rlm@0: Hotaru thought for sure could only have been an angel. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru whispered after she 
rlm@0: licked her dry and cracked lips. How long had she been out? When she spoke the name of the 
rlm@0: person sitting next to her bed the grip on her hand tighten. "Shh Hotaru, don't try and talk. You've 
rlm@0: been unconsciousness for three days now. The doctors thought you were in a coma and you 
rlm@0: would never wake up. But I told them they were wrong, I made them go away and told the others 
rlm@0: I would stay with you until you woke up." Chibiusa had tears in her red eyes and after Hotaru's 
rlm@0: vision cleared more she could see Chibiusa's cheeks were tear stained. 'She stayed her with me? 
rlm@0: All that time, for me?' Hotaru though that maybe she really did die, why would anyone want to 
rlm@0: stay with her when everyone else thought she was with death. Chibiusa brushed some hair off 
rlm@0: Hotaru's face and said, "Are you hungry Hotaru? Can I get you anything?" Hotaru only shook her 
rlm@0: head. She was tired but she didn't have the strength to eat or to even sleep. Plus if what Chibiusa 
rlm@0: said was true, which she knew it was when she saw a plate with food half eaten on her desk and a 
rlm@0: blanket on Chibiusa's lap, then Hotaru wouldn't burden her any further. Chibiusa smiled at Hotaru 
rlm@0: and said, "Don't worry about it, I'll get something right now." Chibiusa got up and pulled the 
rlm@0: blanket that was covering Hotaru up more and she tucked some of the blanket under Hotaru's feet. 
rlm@0: "Promise me you'll be awake when I come back ok?" Hotaru would have cried right there if she 
rlm@0: hadn't been struggling to hold back her tears. Hotaru nodded. "Thank you Tara-chan, I'll be back 
rlm@0: really soon." Chibiusa said. She walked out of Hotaru's room and closed the door behind her, 
rlm@0: forgetting what she had just called Hotaru. Hotaru stared at the door in shock, she wondered if 
rlm@0: that had been all a dream. 'If that was just another of my dying dreams, I pray I die with this 
rlm@0: dream so I may never leave it.'
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rlm@0:      Night had come; Hotaru had just fallen asleep. Chibiusa had made sure that Hotaru didn't get 
rlm@0: out of bed with out her knowing. She wouldn't let anyone else in the room beside her and told the 
rlm@0: others, "I just need to be alone with her." Chibiusa sat back in an old rocking chair that Hotaru 
rlm@0: had. She remembered her telling Chibiusa that it was her mother's. She closed her eyes and 
rlm@0: smiled. 'Thank God you woke up Tara-chan. Thank you God so much.' Chibiusa took a book 
rlm@0: from her backpack and opened it to a bookmarked page. She smiled joyfully and read the same 
rlm@0: pages she had been reading for those three days she stayed with Hotaru:
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rlm@0: June 25, 1999
rlm@0: The day I opened my eyes
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rlm@0: Dear diary,
rlm@0:      God knows how many lives I've ruined, God knows how many lives I'll lived, but for the first 
rlm@0: time in all those lives, my eyes have opened. All this time I kept fooling myself thinking this was 
rlm@0: wrong or that I was wrong myself. I have given this a lot of thought and I'm sure with all my 
rlm@0: heart that this is anything but wrong. I kissed someone for the first time in my life. Not a kiss on 
rlm@0: the cheek but a real kiss on the lips. Oh it was the sweetest feeling I could ever feel. I can't think 
rlm@0: of words to describe it but pure serenity would be the only thing that comes close to it. I know 
rlm@0: that I love this person, I have loved this person for a long time. No, I take that back, love is to 
rlm@0: small a word to describe how I feel about this person. To think I never saw it makes wonder how 
rlm@0: I can see anything. But now I worry about what this person will think. Will they feel the same? I 
rlm@0: think they won't. No, not for me. I am the last person to be blessed by something wonderful as 
rlm@0: true love. They could not love me because I am different. Even more now then before. I fear if I 
rlm@0: ever tell them about my true feelings that they will laugh or even worse, abandon me and think 
rlm@0: me a freak when they are the only soul on this planet that might just think I am normal. Its funny, 
rlm@0: writing that right now, I don't believe I am or ever well be normal. I was born with this curse and 
rlm@0: I'll die with it, then take it with me to my next life. So I decided not to tell this person I love them, 
rlm@0: nor that I stole a kiss from them in their sleep. I suppose they may never know how I feel, even 
rlm@0: though I scream the words "I love you" from my heart; they will never hear them. Just like I will 
rlm@0: never hear those words back from their lips. Their sweet lips.  I would give anything to kiss their 
rlm@0: lips again, to have them hold me in their arms at night and in day. To look into their eyes and 
rlm@0: know that they really love me in all the ways a human can be loved. If it were possible for me 
rlm@0: then I would sell my soul to have them forever. But just like I said before, this person, this sweet 
rlm@0: and special person would never love a mistake like me. They are far too good for me to have. For 
rlm@0: me to call my own. But I hope and pray, beyond hope and prayers can go, that this person might 
rlm@0: someday say the words I may never live to hear, "I love you Hotaru." It has grown late now, I 
rlm@0: should go and sleep but that would only bring my days closer to me, and so far for the last four 
rlm@0: weeks my days have given me only sadness and more reasons to hold that knife to my wrist. If 
rlm@0: not for this person, I would have died along ago. And this person, this person who God himself 
rlm@0: must have sent to be with me is someone who I hope I never lose, someone how has become the 
rlm@0: only ray of light in my dark world. And that someone is Chibiusa…
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:       Chibiusa blushed the whole time she read that special part in Hotaru's dairy. She never had a 
rlm@0: clue that Hotaru felt like this about her. When she thought about it, they had been spending more 
rlm@0: time with each other recently, and it was normally just the two of them. Hotaru was very dear to 
rlm@0: Chibiusa; she was her first real friend sense she came back to the past. Chibiusa smiled 
rlm@0: remembering the day they first met. Her hat had been flown away in the park. And even though 
rlm@0: Hotaru didn't know Chibiusa at the time she went after her hat and saved it from a creek. She 
rlm@0: wasn't even suppose to be running because she was so weak but she still did it. 'Maybe she 
rlm@0: already knew?' Chibiusa though, holding the diary close to her like she would hold a teddy bear. 
rlm@0: 'Do I feel the same?' she thought again. She turned to Hotaru who was still sleeping soundly in 
rlm@0: bed. She was the only person Chibiusa knew that didn't look peaceful when they slept. Hotaru 
rlm@0: didn't look like she was in pain, just sad. Chibiusa put the book down on the desk and moved to 
rlm@0: the side of the bed. She lit one of Hotaru's lamps and stood by the foot of the bed. Chibiusa 
rlm@0: smiled to Hotaru, her face looked beautiful in the small amount of light the lamp gave out. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa bent over and moved some of Hotaru's hair away from her face but didn't get back up. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa was staring at Hotaru's face. There was something different about, something she had 
rlm@0: never noticed before. Hotaru's face looked so pretty, even though she couldn't see her eyes. "You 
rlm@0: are important to me…" Chibiusa whispered. She felt her heart beginning to beat faster as she 
rlm@0: licked her lips and took a deep breath. Chibiusa bent over alittle more and very gently gave 
rlm@0: Hotaru a kiss. Just like Hotaru had stole a kiss from her, Chibiusa had just stole a kiss from 
rlm@0: Hotaru, and Chibiusa blushed greatly after it. But, she did have a rather big smile on her face.
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:       Hotaru woke up early the morning after to the scent of pancakes. Hotaru sat up in bed and 
rlm@0: looked around. Chibiusa was still asleep in her mother's rocking chair. Hotaru blushed alittle and 
rlm@0: thought how sweet Chibiusa was to stay with her all these nights. Hotaru pushed the heavy 
rlm@0: blankets away and was surprised to see that she was still in her school uniform. 'Eww. I need to 
rlm@0: change. No I need a shower first!' Hotaru though. They she smelled pancakes. 'After I eat.' She 
rlm@0: tried to stand up but found that it was kind of hard. Chibiusa heard Hotaru getting up and jumped 
rlm@0: out of her chair. "Hotaru! You shouldn't be moving around like that! You might hurt yourself!" 
rlm@0: Chibiusa said taking Hotaru's arm and helping her stand when she was about to fall. Hotaru only 
rlm@0: blushed. "Chibiusa, I'm fine really I am. I need to move around or I'll be stuck in that bed. And I 
rlm@0: think I need to change these cloths." Hotaru said calmly, trying to fool her pink hair friend. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa didn't buy it. "Hold on, you can't just get up and walk away after being asleep for three 
rlm@0: days straight. Please let me take care of you for now." Chibiusa pleaded. Hotaru didn't want to 
rlm@0: agree with her but she was feeling alittle too weak to argue. "Alright…" Hotaru said sitting back 
rlm@0: in bed. “Good!” Chibiusa said happily. “Now I tell you what, you can go ahead and take a shower 
rlm@0: if you want, and then after that I’ll serve you breakfast in bed. Does that sound good?” Chibiusa 
rlm@0: asked. Hotaru giggled and nodded. “Your doing too much Chibiusa, you don’t have to be 
rlm@0: worrying yourself over me like this.” As soon as Hotaru had finished her sentence Chibiusa 
rlm@0: pressed her finger against Hotaru’s lips. “Shh, you almost died if I had not gone back to talk more 
rlm@0: to you, I was scared I would lose you Hotaru, so expect me to worry more about you for awhile. 
rlm@0: You’re a precious person to me and I’m going to take care of you until I know your better.” 
rlm@0: Chibiusa said looking into Hotaru’s eyes the whole time she was talking. ‘She has such lovely 
rlm@0: eyes’ Chibiusa thought to herself. Hotaru was shocked by Chibiusa and nodded to what she had 
rlm@0: said, blushing badly. “Alright then, so you going to take your shower or do you want your food 
rlm@0: now?” Chibiusa asked smiling happily knowing Hotaru was going to let her take care of her. 
rlm@0: Hotaru was still blushing and thought, ‘Thank God I have you…’
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:      Hotaru walked out of the bathroom carrying her cloths with her. She had finished taking her 
rlm@0: shower and felt a lot better now. She dressed herself in a black nightgown, even though it was 
rlm@0: still early in the day but Chibiusa wanted her to dress comfortable. It was nice knowing she had a 
rlm@0: friend that cared so much for her, but Hotaru never really felt worthy of Chibiusa's friendship. 
rlm@0: She was nothing like Chibiusa or any of her friends. She laughed alittle to herself when she 
rlm@0: thought to herself that she was nothing like anyone! But if Chibiusa could hear her thoughts she 
rlm@0: would scold Hotaru for thinking such foolish things. Chibiusa always said that out of all her 
rlm@0: friends Hotaru meant the most to her because she was her first true friend. And she always said 
rlm@0: that Hotaru was her special friend. Hotaru blushed remembering the first day Chibiusa said that to 
rlm@0: her. It was when Chibiusa went to see her father, after Sailor Moon had saved Hotaru from the 
rlm@0: silence. She was only a baby, but she clearly remembered Chibiusa holding her in her arms and 
rlm@0: whispering, "Sweet Hotaru, I know you may not be able to understand me, but I couldn't leave 
rlm@0: without saying good bye to you my special friend." Hotaru blushed more and quickly pulled 
rlm@0: herself together before she entered her room. She knew Chibiusa was in there and she didn't want 
rlm@0: to explain why she was blushing. She opened the door and dropped the cloths she was holding to 
rlm@0: the floor in surprise. Her room, dark as always, had every lamp she ever collected lit up. The 
rlm@0: room had a beautiful glow to it and for a second Hotaru didn't know if she was in the right room 
rlm@0: or not. She had never lit all of them before. She could smell something sweet in the air as well. 
rlm@0: "Jasmine," Chibiusa's voice said behind Hotaru. Hotaru turned around and saw Chibiusa was 
rlm@0: dressed in a nurse's dress. Hotaru couldn't help but notice that it looked little too tight on her from 
rlm@0: the waist up. "What's this?" Hotaru asked. "Just something to make you alittle more comfortable. 
rlm@0: Come on lay down. I changed the sheets on your bed too because I knew you wouldn't want to 
rlm@0: sleep in a sweaty bed." Chibiusa said with her finger in the air pointing up like she knew what she 
rlm@0: was talking about. Hotaru only sweat drop. She walked in and sat down on her bed, Chibiusa had 
rlm@0: put on the dark purple silk sheets Hotaru had. Chibiusa grabbed Hotaru's legs and lifted them up 
rlm@0: to the bed before Hotaru could stop her. " Haruka and Michiru are out now, I told them I could 
rlm@0: take care of you by myself and they agreed so it's just you and me." Chibiusa said. Hotaru 
rlm@0: blushed and said, "Chibiusa this is all so very thoughtful of you but it's all too much. You 
rlm@0: shouldn't have done all this for me. It must have took you all day." Chibiusa giggled and said, 
rlm@0: "Hotaru I want to take care of you, making you relax is one of the ways I take care of people. Plus 
rlm@0: I know you've had a hard couple of weeks and I haven't been a good friend by not being there for 
rlm@0: you so this is the least I can do." Hotaru blushed more and shook her head. "You’re a wonderful 
rlm@0: friend Chibiusa, more then I should have, thank you so much for all that you've done. It really 
rlm@0: means a lot to me." Chibiusa bowed. "Your very welcome Tara-chan. And don't say such foolish 
rlm@0: things about yourself." 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:      Hotaru lay peacefully in bed after she had finished eating the dinner Chibiusa had brought her.  
rlm@0: She remembered what Usagi told her about Minako and Chibiusa dressing up like nurses and 
rlm@0: taking care of her. It made Hotaru laugh, even more when Usagi told her to watch out for that rice 
rlm@0: gruel they would bring her. Just then Chibiusa walked in to Hotaru's room. She smiled to Hotaru 
rlm@0: and asked, "Anything I can get you?" Hotaru giggled and said, "No Chibiusa I'm quiet fine. 
rlm@0: You've already taken such great care of me I can't thank you enough." Chibiusa only nodded and 
rlm@0: asked in serious tone, "Hotaru, may I talk to you about something?" Hotaru could tell the change 
rlm@0: in her friend's tone and said, "Of course Chibiusa, what is it?" Chibiusa walked to the bed and sat 
rlm@0: next to Hotaru. "I know now. I know what you think about me." Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa 
rlm@0: when she heard her say that and a feeling of fear ran down Hotaru's spine. "What…what do you 
rlm@0: mean?" Hotaru asked. Chibiusa took Hotaru's hand and said, "You know what I mean, I know 
rlm@0: what you feel for me, that you're in love with me." Chibiusa's voice was heavy with emotion and 
rlm@0: Hotaru was scared now that Chibiusa would hate her for knowing what she really thought about 
rlm@0: her friend. "Chibiusa…I…I know its wrong to think such things but…I can't help it." Hotaru had 
rlm@0: tears in her eyes and jumped out of her bed and gave Chibiusa a hard look. "I won't lie about it 
rlm@0: anymore, yes I do love you Chibiusa! I've loved you for a long time because you’re a special 
rlm@0: person to me and you mean so much to me that I can't imagine a life with out you." Hotaru yelled, 
rlm@0: tears running down her face. She was very scared about what Chibiusa would say about this but 
rlm@0: she knew she had to say it. It was the right thing to say. "You make my days worth living, you've 
rlm@0: always been there for me when even God himself abandoned me. When everyone thought I was 
rlm@0: just a cold-hearted killer you were the only one that would stand beside me and protect me, even 
rlm@0: when I turned on all of you, you still wouldn't give up on me. You saved my life; you saved my 
rlm@0: soul from the darkness that would have swallowed me whole. You’re the light in my life, how 
rlm@0: could I not fall in love with you?" Hotaru said before she fell to her knees crying. "I love you and 
rlm@0: I know you must think I'm a freak now more then ever." Hotaru was breaking down and Chibiusa 
rlm@0: went right to her and made Hotaru face her. The two girls looked into each other's eyes for while, 
rlm@0: one seeing sadness and begging for forgiveness, the other seeing only concern and what someone 
rlm@0: would have mistaken for love. "Chibiusa, I…" Hotaru never had the chance to finish her 
rlm@0: sentence. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru toward her and pressed her lips against hers. Hotaru's eyes grew 
rlm@0: big with surprise and shock; Chibiusa's eyes however were closed. Hotaru didn't know what to 
rlm@0: do, she wasn't even breathing. Chibiusa put her arms around Hotaru's neck and Hotaru closed her 
rlm@0: eyes, putting her arms around Chibiusa waist. The two girls relaxed and kissed each other for 
rlm@0: what seemed to them like hours. Finally, Chibiusa broke the kiss. Both girls' cheeks were red. 
rlm@0: "When you collapsed at your door after I left I was so scared that I couldn't get you to open your 
rlm@0: eyes, I prayed to God that you weren't going to die. I would have done anything to make you 
rlm@0: open your eyes again. I would have traded my life for yours. And then finally after help came, I 
rlm@0: thought to myself what would have happened if you had died right there and then. I would have 
rlm@0: been lost without you. The thought of losing you twice, no, three times was too much for me. I 
rlm@0: swear I was so scared I wouldn't leave your room. I stayed by your bedside holding your hand 
rlm@0: hoping and waiting for you to open your eyes again. All the while, I read more of your diary, and 
rlm@0: I realized I had felt the same about you all the time. And when I thought I was going to lose you, I 
rlm@0: made myself promise that when you woke up I wasn't going to lie to myself anymore. I wouldn't 
rlm@0: want to leave your side and most importantly, I wanted to let you know I left the same way about 
rlm@0: you." Chibiusa and Hotaru were both crying after Chibiusa's speech. Hotaru was crying the worst 
rlm@0: and hid her face in Chibiusa's chest. "Say it again please?" she asked. Chibiusa held Hotaru 
rlm@0: tightly, as if she was going to fade away and whispered, "I love you Hotaru." Hotaru stayed in 
rlm@0: Chibiusa's arms crying for an hour, thinking of how impossible it all seemed. How wrong it 
rlm@0: would seem that anyone would love a monster like her. But Chibiusa never let her go and Hotaru 
rlm@0: knew inside her heart that she would never let her go, just like she would never let Chibiusa go.      
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:      Hours had past, maybe more? Hotaru didn't care. Both her and Chibiusa were lying in her bed, 
rlm@0: Hotaru still in Chibiusa's arms. Her face was tear stained but she wasn't crying anymore. "What 
rlm@0: are you thinking Hotaru?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru's back was toward Chibiusa and she couldn't 
rlm@0: see her face but Chibiusa knew she was not all right. Hotaru sighed and said, "I…I just still can't 
rlm@0: get over it I guess. I prayed so hard that someday someone would treat me like a normal person, 
rlm@0: and then I met you. Then I wished to fall in love with someone who would really love me back, 
rlm@0: not just say it, but mean it in every way it can be meant. Like the person's heart would say I love 
rlm@0: you, not their mouth. Then I began to realize just how important you were to me, and how much 
rlm@0: you truly me to me." Hotaru turned around and faced Chibiusa; the first thing she noticed where 
rlm@0: how Chibiusa's eyes glowed in the light the lamps around them gave out. 'Beautiful.' Hotaru 
rlm@0: thought to herself. "Hotaru, why didn't you tell me this sooner? Why were you afraid to tell me?" 
rlm@0: Chibiusa asked. Hotaru laughed alittle to the question and said, "What would you have thought if 
rlm@0: one day I came up to you and said 'Chibiusa I'm in love with you'? Besides, I was so sure you 
rlm@0: wouldn't feel the same way. I mean, I'm your best friend, at least I think I am still, and plus I'm a 
rlm@0: girl, I was worried what you would think about that, not to mention what everyone else would 
rlm@0: think. I didn't want to but you in that kind of situation. And what could you love in a freak like 
rlm@0: me?" Chibiusa placed her hand on Hotaru's cheek and put her forehead to Hotaru's. "Don't say 
rlm@0: such foolish things Hotaru. Your not a freak, never have been and never will be." Chibiusa said. 
rlm@0: She kissed Hotaru's forehead and continued, "I'll admit I can understand why you didn't tell me. 
rlm@0: But I'm glad I found out. You’re a special person to me Hotaru; you were my first real friend 
rlm@0: when I came to this time. You saved my hat when you didn't even know me, and you knew you 
rlm@0: shouldn't had been running. I can always trust you just like you can always trust me. So trust me 
rlm@0: when I say I do not care what Usagi or anyone else would say about you and me. One of the 
rlm@0: things my mother taught me was that love is love, love is unbiased and there is no wrong way to 
rlm@0: love someone, and I love you Hotaru. You’re the reason why I came back to this time again." 
rlm@0: Hotaru was hiding her face from Chibiusa's and could feel her eyes watering. "But…I'm crazy." 
rlm@0: Hotaru whispered, not wanting Chibiusa to hear. Chibiusa lifted Hotaru's face back up to hers and 
rlm@0: whispered back, "Your not crazy Tara-chan. Actually, from what I see right now, your beautiful." 
rlm@0: Chibiusa smiled a loving smile to Hotaru and gave her a soft and gentle kiss. Hotaru felt her body 
rlm@0: stiffen to the kiss but it didn't stop her from kissing back. Their kissed lasted for what seemed like 
rlm@0: forever to them. Chibiusa broke the kiss from Hotaru's soft lips and started kissing her cheeks and 
rlm@0: her forehead, everywhere on Hotaru's face. Hotaru started kissing Chibiusa neck and made her 
rlm@0: way down. She stopped at Chibiusa's transformation brooch and gave it a soft kiss; to her it felt 
rlm@0: like kissing Chibiusa's heart. Chibiusa put her hands on Hotaru's cheeks and brought her face to 
rlm@0: hers. "I love you Hotaru." she whispered. Hotaru blushed deeply and whispered back, "I love you 
rlm@0: too Chibiusa." Chibiusa smiled slyly and whispered again in Hotaru's ear, "Then, may I show you 
rlm@0: just how much I love you?" Hotaru's face and her body got hot with those words and all she could 
rlm@0: do was nod. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:      Hotaru laid on her back under the black silk sheets of her queen size bed. She was wearing a 
rlm@0: simple rose red nightgown with a black lace trim on the shoulders and at the skirt. Her cheeks had 
rlm@0: a red glow to them as Chibiusa pulled some of the sheets away and went into the bed. She was 
rlm@0: wearing a soft pink nightgown made out of silk. She pulled the covers back up and embraced the 
rlm@0: other girl. Hotaru's cheeks had brightened as she wrapped her arms around Chibiusa slim waist. 
rlm@0: She was trembling slightly to being so close to the person who she had secretly had been 
rlm@0: fantasizing about for so long. She looked into Chibiusa's ruby eyes and became lost within them. 
rlm@0: "Are you sure you're ok with this Tara-chan? You don't have to force yourself." Chibiusa said in a 
rlm@0: gently whisper. Hotaru pulled herself closer to Chibiusa and said weakly, "No, I've been 
rlm@0: dreaming about this for so long. I never thought it was possible but now that it has truly happened 
rlm@0: I want to be as close to you as possible." Hotaru put her hand on the back of Chibiusa's head and 
rlm@0: gave her a passionate kiss. To her it was like kissing a divine angel. Chibiusa's lips were soft like 
rlm@0: rose petals and just as sweet. To Chibiusa, kissing Hotaru was like kissing a star; it was nothing 
rlm@0: short of amazing. Their tongue's danced in their mouths and their fingers locked together, never 
rlm@0: wanting to part, just like them. Chibiusa turned Hotaru over so she was on top oh her. Their kiss 
rlm@0: deepened not only in length but also in feeling. Hotaru began moaning softly as Chibiusa began 
rlm@0: giving her quick butterfly kisses to Hotaru's sweet neck. Hotaru moaned louder, making Chibiusa 
rlm@0: more excited and said almost in a plea, "Chibiusa, I love you." Chibiusa blushed and responded 
rlm@0: with more kisses to Hotaru's neck and a whisper, "I love you too Hotaru." Chibiusa pulled the 
rlm@0: shoulders of Hotaru's nightgown down and pulled the soft garment off, exposing Hotaru's soft 
rlm@0: pale skin. Hotaru wasn't wearing anything underneath the nightgown and felt her naked body turn 
rlm@0: red with embarrassment. "You really are a goddess aren’t you," Chibiusa said, winking to Hotaru. 
rlm@0: Hotaru blushed more and pulled Chibiusa up to her, kissing her deeply and untying the garment 
rlm@0: in the back that Chibiusa was wearing. When she pulled it off, she found that she wasn't the only 
rlm@0: one that didn't wear anything underneath their nightgown. Hotaru laid underneath Chibiusa and 
rlm@0: smiled to her. Chibiusa smiled back and started to kiss Hotaru's chest. Chibiusa heard Hotaru 
rlm@0: moan softly as she started to kiss Hotaru's breast. She could feel Hotaru's hand moving up and 
rlm@0: down her back. Chibiusa took one of Hotaru's breasts in her mouth and sucked gently on it, 
rlm@0: playing with the other one with her hand. Hotaru arched her back up slightly, putting her leg 
rlm@0: between Chibiusa's as she started running her hands threw Chibiusa soft hair. She undid the 
rlm@0: odango's, letting Chibiusa's hair fall free down the length of her back. Chibiusa could feel 
rlm@0: Hotaru's leg between hers and started to move her hips along the length of Hotaru's soft silky leg. 
rlm@0: She let Hotaru's breast go and started to kiss her tummy. Hotaru giggled slightly to the feeling as 
rlm@0: she started to kiss the top of Chibiusa head, taking in the scent of roses in her hair. Chibiusa 
rlm@0: smiled and brought her face down lower. She spread Hotaru's legs apart and gave Hotaru a sly 
rlm@0: smile. Hotaru didn’t know what Chibiusa was going to do until it was too late. Chibiusa bent her 
rlm@0: head down and gently licked Hotaru's untouched flower. Hotaru let out a yell to the feeling of 
rlm@0: Chibiusa wet tongue giving her pleasure that she never knew of. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru moaned as 
rlm@0: she placed her hands on Chibiusa head, almost pushing her head closer. Chibiusa responded to 
rlm@0: Hotaru's moans by taking all of Hotaru in her mouth, licking and kissing her. Hotaru started to 
rlm@0: move her hips in the rhythm of Chibiusa tongue, keeping her eyes closed and moaning louder and 
rlm@0: louder. Chibiusa was enjoying hearing Hotaru moan and say her name repeatedly. She pulled 
rlm@0: Hotaru's lips apart slightly and pushed a finger inside of her. Hotaru gave a loud yell as she 
rlm@0: started to feel something inside of here building up. "Chibiusa…don't stop." Hotaru panted. "I 
rlm@0: won't, trust me." Chibiusa said as she pushed another finger inside of the lavender haired girl. 
rlm@0: Hotaru arched her back as much as she could and finally it hit her. Her first orgasm left like a 
rlm@0: shock of electricity running threw her body, stealing her strength but giving her unimaginable 
rlm@0: pleasure. "Oh my God, you must be an angel cause I think you just took me to heaven." Hotaru 
rlm@0: said as she took deep breaths. Chibiusa giggled and said, "I guess I was good." Hotaru sat up and 
rlm@0: nodded. "Now I want to return the favor." Hotaru said as she pulled Chibiusa into her arms, 
rlm@0: kissing her passionately. Chibiusa was caught off guard by the kiss but soon came over that. 
rlm@0: Hotaru moved behind Chibiusa and started kissing her shoulder blade and neck while her hands 
rlm@0: wondered all over Chibiusa body. Chibiusa moaned softly in Hotaru's ear and whispered, "Be 
rlm@0: gentle." Hotaru kissed the back of Chibiusa ear and said, "With you, always princess." Hotaru's 
rlm@0: hands grabbed Chibiusa breast and started to play with them, gently as Chibiusa had requested. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa gave a small moan and took Hotaru's cheek in her hand and turned her head to kiss her. 
rlm@0: As they kissed Hotaru's hands started to work magic into Chibiusa as they started to glow in a 
rlm@0: soft purple light. She took Chibiusa nipples between her fingers and gave a slight twist. Chibiusa 
rlm@0: started to moan louder, saying Hotaru's name with each breath as Hotaru continued to pleasure 
rlm@0: her. Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa and said, "Now like I said before, I'll return the favor you 
rlm@0: gave me." She spread Chibiusa's legs apart, exposing the girl's wet and untouched flower. Hotaru 
rlm@0: lifted Chibiusa's pussy to her mouth and took her all in. Chibiusa let a short scream out when she 
rlm@0: left Hotaru's tongue washing over her sensitive area and then let another one out when she felt it 
rlm@0: go in her. "Oh Hotaru, oh my God don't stop, please don't stop." Chibi begged as she pushed 
rlm@0: Hotaru's head closer to her. Hotaru pushed her tongue in as deep as she could, enjoying the little 
rlm@0: Chibiusa pie she was having. Finally, Chibiusa couldn't take anymore of the pleasure Hotaru was 
rlm@0: giving her and gave one last finally yell before her body stiffened and her heart forgot to beat. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa collapsed on the bed panting for air. Hotaru put her fingers inside of Chibiusa and took a 
rlm@0: taste of the pink haired girl. She didn't know just how to describe it other then sweet and kinda of 
rlm@0: bitter. All and all, her Chibiusa pie was good. 
rlm@0: 
rlm@0:       Chibiusa finally started to breathe normally again and noticed Hotaru was gone. She looked 
rlm@0: around the room but there was no sight of her. Suddenly the lights in the room went off and a 
rlm@0: cold chill entered the room. Chibiusa was still naked and started shivering. "Hotaru? Where are 
rlm@0: you?" Suddenly out of no where Hotaru appeared, but as Sailor Saturn. "Hotaru?" Chibiusa 
rlm@0: asked. "I am Sailor Saturn, the soldier born to darkness and death. I was born alone, and meant to 
rlm@0: die alone for I am the forbidden soldier who should never have been. But now I live for a new 
rlm@0: reason now. Not to snuff out a worlds dying light, nor to walk the path of ruin and silence, but to 
rlm@0: serve and protect the princess of the future Crystal Tokyo, Small Lady Chibiusa. And I promise to 
rlm@0: serve, honor, protect, and love her for all the days of my life, and the rest of all eternity." Sailor 
rlm@0: Saturn said bowing on one knee to Chibiusa. Chibiusa could feel tears in her eyes and jumped off 
rlm@0: the bed and took Saturn in her arms. "Oh Hotaru I love you so much!" Saturn put her arms around 
rlm@0: Chibiusa and said, "And I love you my princess, more then the word love cane even describe." 
rlm@0: With that the two girls shared a deep a loving kiss that they would always remember for the rest 
rlm@0: of their lives and even after that. Saturn quickly took Chibiusa in her arms and lifted her up, 
rlm@0: carrying her back into the bed. She laid her down and got on top of her.  She kissed her gently on 
rlm@0: the lips and put her arms around Chibiusa. Chibiusa did the same and Saturn's fuku began to 
rlm@0: disappear, leaving behind only purple ribbons around Hotaru's naked figure. The ribbons seemed 
rlm@0: to go around Chibiusa as well, binding the two together. Hotaru pushed herself on Chibiusa and 
rlm@0: moaned when her sex was rubbed up against Chibiusa. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru into a deeper kiss 
rlm@0: as the two started to rub up against each other. They turned around and switched places with each 
rlm@0: other, but always would the ribbons keep them together, just like their newfound love would keep 
rlm@0: their hearts and their souls together forever. Hotaru began to move her hips faster and harder, 
rlm@0: making both her and Chibiusa pant harder and harder, each one saying the others name over and 
rlm@0: over again until they both stopped when an explosion hit both of them at the same time. The two 
rlm@0: lovers came together, each one screaming "I love you," each one holding on to the other tightly 
rlm@0: hoping nothing would pull them apart. Hotaru fell on top of Chibiusa exhausted and tired. 
rlm@0: Chibiusa panted hard and was very tired herself. Without saying a word, the couple fell asleep in 
rlm@0: each other's arms, the ribbons around them still holding them together. But when they would 
rlm@0: wake, it would be their hearts that would hold the two together for the rest of their lives.
rlm@0: 
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rlm@0: 
rlm@0: The end.              
rlm@0: 
rlm@0: Well that’s all! I hope you enjoyed my story. Again this is my first attempt to writing a 
rlm@0: Sekkushiaru Roman. I welcome any comments or feedback and you can e-mail me at 
rlm@0: saturn_archangel@hotbot.com. I hope you enjoyed my story. ^_^