The Biggest Choice of My life

 By The Blue Esper

 

 Authors note:  I just wrote this story as a spur of the moment and it is 

 also my first story, sned all falmes compliments, etc to 

 blue_sonnet@animefan.co.uk

 

 	There she is, just standing there, radiating in a beauty.  Her soft, 

 pink hair flowing in the wind as she gently runs down the hill to try and 

 catch her hat.  This scene before me reminds me of when we met, only 

 things are very different now, though.  I gently place my hand in my 

 pocket for reassurance as to what I was about to do, feeling the velvet-

 covered box within my fingers I breathe gently. Slowly standing up, I 

 leave the basket and picnic mat we placed and run off to catch the hat 

 she just can't reach.  Gently reaching, our hands make contact with each 

 other instead of the summer hat; we both just give a little giggle at 

 this motion, we both being what we are now, my beautiful princess and I.  

 Again a reach for the hat and pass it to my friend, wait no lover is more 

 appropriate.  I gently reach for her hat again and pull it from its hold 

 in the breeze.  Brining it down to her face and slowly placing it on her 

 head, waiting for her to lift her face and allow me to gaze at her beauty.  

 "Odango-chan" I gently gasp as she does as I wish, just gazing into each 

 others eyes, I wonder, How did I ever receive such beautiful girl, no 

 woman.  We take each other's hand and slowly walk back up the hill to our 

 picnic spot, we were no longer just 'good-friends' and I was going to do 

 something that would affect us both.  Gently guiding her down into her 

 seating spot, I place myself next to her.  I take her hand, just gazing 

 into her beautiful eyes; I gently reach into the pocket, which contained 

 the velvet box.  Brining it out and moving it to her face, I try to speak, 

 but my voice just wouldn't follow.  I try again and it doesn't follow 

 suite, she doesn't deserve someone this nervous, I think as I let go of 

 her hand and turn away. "What's wrong?"  She says, in a gentle voice 

 almost killing me, I turn back around and try to speak to her, but can't.  

 Maybe everyone who takes this step is nervous, I don't really know, I 

 never really had someone to go to in my time of need, except to woman 

 before me, yet I wasn't able to turn to her about this.  I stand up and 

 say the only thing I could, "I'm sorry, but I don't deserve someone as 

 good as you", I feel my stomach turn as I spoke, I run away from her, how 

 could I do this to her?  I turn back to look at her once more, only to 

 see what I had done to her, why was I doing this?

 

 	Darkness, that's all I was good for, staring at my ceiling in my 

 bedroom.  I remember back then, no one expecting Chibi-Usa would choose 

 me over Helios, she had two lovers dearly wanting to be with her for all 

 eternity and she chose me, now I have just destroyed all that we had.  

 Now that I think, maybe she should have chosen Helios, he was a prince 

 and would never be this nervous. I fear what people will say, even worse, 

 how they will treat me now.  I hear a gentle sound on the door to my room, 

 not wanting to see anyone I just turn over.  But maybe I should have 

 locked my door, as Haruka-papa walks into the room, followed by Michiru-

 mama and Setsuna, who really scares me, is Setsuna though.  I have always 

 known Setsuna thought of Chibi-Usa as a daughter as she was a part of 

 Mamoru and Setsuna loved Endymion before, but new it was never possible, 

 so maybe she'll understand what I am going through.  "What is the matter 

 Hime-chan?"  Oh like you don't know, I think as I'm asked a question I 

 cannot answer.  I just lie there, motionless, looking away from the three 

 who entered my room.  Suddenly there is more weight applied to the 

 opposite side of the bed, I don't want to look, yet I want to know whom 

 it is?  "Hotaru, please tell us what happened between you and Small Lady" 

 She speaks gently, rubbing my shoulder.  I quickly motion for her to move 

 her hand by pushing it from me, she wanted to know why, but I couldn't 

 tell her, because I desired the same answer.  The weight lifted from my 

 bed and all I heard afterwards was my door open and close again.  What 

 have I done with my life?  Have I ruined everything I had?

 

 	Three days have passed, and I finally have the courage to leave my 

 room, gently walking down the steps, awaiting another joke from Haruka-

 papa.  But I reached the bottom of the steps and all I heard was silence, 

 maybe they didn't care about me anymore?  No that is silly, as just as I 

 made a step into the living room Setsuna-mama made a grab for me, holding 

 me tight in her grasp.  "Hime-chan, we need to talk" she says to me, 

 causing me to feel gut wrenched, wishing I never left my room, "Don't 

 worry, I felt we should be alone for this and so I asked Haruka and 

 Michiru to leave for the moment".  She gently guides me into the kitchen, 

 as it was more quite there.  Just sitting down, I wait for the inevitable 

 question Setsuna is going to ask me.  "So, how is your homework, keeping 

 up in class lately?"  Her question confuses me, but from the nervousness 

 I had, all I can do is giggle.  I look at Setsuna-mama, gently smile down 

 at me; I know she is the senshi of time and knows what has happened, so I 

 know she is only trying to help.  "I haven't been to school for a while" 

 I reply to her 'question', I really want to tell someone, but I can't, it 

 was like, when I tried to...  "Why's that?  What kept you from going to 

 school?"  She asks me.  Suddenly I feel a full urge of strength suddenly 

 build up within me at what I realised.  "It's because, I tried to tell 

 Odango-chan something, but couldn't and I felt, I felt...I've got to go!" 

 I then knew what I had to do; I slowly stand up and run to the front door, 

 looking back at Setsuna, seeing a smile on her face, showing me that I am 

 doing the right thing.  I leave the house bound for my next destination, 

 a place where everything is almost eternal.

 

 	"Taru-chan?" I see the pink haired girl before me, tears welling up 

 in her eyes, at this moment I believe nothing can stand in my way of what 

 I am to do, for both of us.  I slowly walk up to her, the whole world 

 seeming to get warmer as every step I make puts me closer to her.  

 Stopping just a few feet away from her, I see her more clearly, her 

 beautiful face now stained with the tears I gave her, her appearance, 

 once exquisite and perfect, now a wreck and a mess.  I lower my face in 

 shame, "Chibi-Usa, I apologise for what I have done to you, you mean 

 everything to me, I didn't want to hurt you, I...I" I lift my face to see 

 hers, a confused look on her face, "I love you" I say, her face now 

 lightening at my words, seeing her reaction, I want to be by her side 

 even more now.  Without consciously acting I suddenly start racing to 

 reach her, she doing the same in kind, and within a moment we finally 

 reach other and embrace.  'I'm sorry' is all I can say to her.  After a 

 while of gazing at each other, Chibi-Usa asks me 'the question' I was 

 dreading anyone to ask me, "What happened?"  I slowly take her hand into 

 mine and gaze into her eyes again, "I was going to ask you something, but 

 I couldn't and I misinterpreted my feelings" I look away from her because 

 of what I had said, finally admitting what I had kept trapped inside.  

 "Well, what were you going to ask?"  Her voice, cheerful and fluent, 

 showing that must have forgiven me, I am so lucky to have her.  Looking 

 at her, the gleam in her face, I knew the perfect time had came up again, 

 reaching in my pocket for the box I had never removed, I take it and out 

 hold it to her, my mouth dry and a feeling of nervousness all over me, I 

 open my mouth, "Chibi-Usa, I love you so much and after everything we 

 have been through, I have only one thing to say."  I open the lid of the 

 box to expose the silver ring, with gently golden crescent moons dancing 

 all over it and an amethyst stone in the top, to show that I feel perfect 

 when she is all around me.  "Will you marry me?"  I stand there just 

 looking at her, looking at her turn her face from me.  "Taru-chan, I love 

 you to, but..." Than was probably the worst hit I had ever received in my 

 life, the 'but' she gave me spiralled around my head, maybe she didn't 

 love me as much as I wished.  "I wanted to propose to you, YES I WILL 

 MARRY YOU" My world was rocked from side to side at her words, a HUGE 

 weight lifted from my chest, allowing me to breath again.  I gently take 

 the ring from its box, to place it on her finger, but she quickly removes 

 her hand from my hold.  "Wait" she says to me, as she also takes out a 

 box, opening it to reveal a gold ring, with a joint crescent moon and the 

 symbol of Saturn entwined.  "Will you marry me?" all I can do is laugh at 

 this moment, she DID feel the same way about me, I answer the only way I 

 can, "YES", we both gently exchange our rings, and hug each other softly 

 and passionately.  "This will be a shock to everyone, wont it, my Odago-

 chan" I say, putting an emphasis on 'my'.  "No, more crazy things have 

 happened, it's not like people won't have expected it anyway" she says 

 gazing into my eyes, I gently place my hand on top of hers, allowing out 

 rings to be seen side by side.  "Well, I don't care what anyone says, as 

 long as I'm with you".