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1 The story contains some sexual scenes so don't read it if you're2 underage. Right, like if you'd listen to me, but don't come to me3 when your psychiatrist tells you you're not quite normal!4 The story takes place after the senshi defeat Neherenia. So Hotaru5 reached her normal age again and lives with the Outers and ChibiUsa6 with Usagi and her family. Hotaru is about 14 and ChibiUsa a bit7 younger.8 Before we begin I would like to thank Naoko Takeuchi for creating9 the beautiful legend of Sailor Moon.10 These characters ain't mine, I'm just borrowing them for a while.12 This story is a continuation of the story "Hotaru's pain", but it13 makes sense on it's own too (but it makes more sense if you read14 Hotaru's pain first).16 Hotaru's pain part 217 Featuring Hotaru and ChibiUsa18 By The Ghost of 'lectricity21 Hotaru ate her lunch in silence as her classmates laughed and had22 fun around her. It seemed like nothing had changed from yesterday.23 Her classmates were still ignoring the silent and a bit weird24 black-haired girl in the back row.25 What was wrong? Everybody had seen how she healed the boy26 yesterday, everyone had stood in the circle around them as she put27 her hand on the boy's head and made the blood disappear.28 They weren't calling her a witch. Well, at least not more than29 once. But still she didn't know what they were thinking about her.30 She knew they were talking about her, but she did not know what31 they were saying. She saw a pair of eyes turning her way but as32 soon as her eyes wandered across the room to meet them the pair33 quickly turned away.34 <Okay, let's see now... Mio thinks I'm a... a witch > It was still35 hard for Hotaru to say the word, even in her mind. <She stated that36 pretty clearly. How about the others? Mio's been walking around the37 class talking to everybody all day. Why does she want to make38 everyone hate me?. Why is she so mean to me? ...just because I'm39 better in history?... What about Ryu?. 'Twas almost funny how he40 thanked me in the morning... so respectful and official... but he41 said he'd have lunch with me > At these thoughts Hotaru blushed.42 <He's not even in the room now... he was talking to Mio a while43 ago... maybe she persuaded him not to eat with me... maybe he just44 forgot... >45 Hotaru was watching Mio wander around the class, as the blue46 haired girl was making sure she wouldn't let anyone out. Hotaru was47 feeling like she was trapped inside a circle. Inside a circle of48 people, turning their backs to her. Suddenly a shadow fell over49 her...50 "Hi!"51 "R- Ryu..."52 "May I sit down? Why are you so amazed? I said I'd have lunch with53 you."54 "I... I thought you forgot..." Hotaru replied silently.55 "How could I forget? You saved my life."56 Hotaru remained silent and was looking down.57 "What?! Aren't you proud of what you done?" Ryu asked surprised.58 "I... I don't know. Now everybody thinks I'm a witch." Hotaru59 said, looking at Mio now, who was still running around the60 class.61 "You think she's telling that to everyone?" Ryu asked, slightly62 grinning.63 "What else..."64 "Well, actually... I talked to her earlier. I told her not to call65 you that - what she called you yesterday... Now she's telling66 everyone that I'm in love with you! HaHaHa!"67 As Ryu was laughing loudly Hotaru just blushed. The fact that68 anyone - other than ChibiUsa - would like her *that* much seemed69 totally absurd to her. Obviously Ryu was thinking pretty much the70 same about it.71 "See Mio, I'm talking to Tomoe Hotaru and I'm not dead yet!" Ryu72 shouted across the classroom.73 "Well then why don't you two find a quiet place where you can do74 what you *really* want to do!" the blue-haired girl shouted back.75 "Are you getting jealous?" Ryu teased her. The whole class knew76 Ryu and Mio had a crush on each other since they first laid eyes on77 each other. As the two and the rest of the class were enjoying78 their quarrel Hotaru went through hell. She never liked to be in79 the center of attention. Ryu and Mio made her a part of the show80 they were putting up.81 "Jealous of her? No, the poor scared girl wouldn't dare to do82 anything."83 "So, what's the problem then?"84 "You! If you're so nice to her she'll think you like her!"85 Then someone cut in: "Yeah, and we all know whom he *really*86 likes!" The two just blushed, which doesn't happen often and87 simultaneously shouted back to the other boy: "Shut up!"89 ***91 "I'll get it!" Hotaru chimed cheerfully as the doorbell rang.92 Just before she opened the door she looked at Haruka and Michiru,93 who were sitting on the couch.94 "Can't you two ever stop? Haruka-papa, take your hand out of95 Michiru-mama's blouse!" As Hotaru turned to open the door she said96 over her shoulder: "And from under her skirt too!"99 It was an unusual view: this time it seemed like Hotaru was the100 more cheerful one and ChibiUsa had a somewhat sad look in her eyes.101 But she didn't want Hotaru to notice.102 "So, how was it in school?" ChibiUsa asked Hotaru as they entered103 her room, trying to disband the heavy thoughts that lingered in her104 mind.105 "I think I met new friends." Hotaru said with a big smile on her106 face.107 "You think?"108 "Well, I don't have that much experience in making friends,109 ChibiUsa-chan."110 "That's great then." ChibiUsa said.111 "What is with you ChibiUsa-chan? You're strange." Hotaru inquired112 concerned.113 ChibiUsa looked her best friend square in the eyes.114 "I got a letter today.... It was from my mother... from the115 future..." ChibiUsa saw something break in her best friend's eyes.116 "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..."117 "I'll have to go home soon..."118 To Hotaru it seemed like the world stopped turning and this moment119 of pain would last for an eternity.122 "Haruka-papa? Michiru-mama? Can I come in?" Hotaru asked as she123 knocked on the door of the pair's bedroom.124 "Of course, come in."125 "What is it, angel? Why aren't you asleep yet?" Michiru asked the126 figure who sat down on their bed in the darkness.127 Not answering the question Hotaru asked immediately: "How do you128 know you love somebody?"129 "Uhm... Errr... I... I... Haruka, would you like to answer that?"130 "Me? Hmmm... Errr... When you like to be around that someone.131 Michiru, would you care to continue?" Haruka picked up the game132 Michiru began.133 "When you like to hug someone!" Michiru said as she hugged Haruka.134 "When you like to kiss someone!" Haruka kissed Michiru.135 "When someone is more than just a friend to you."136 As Haruka and Michiru began kissing passionately Hotaru figured137 they wouldn't be of any more use to her.138 <More than just a friend...>140 Hotaru was walking down the hall toward her own room when she141 bumped into Setsuna.142 "Oh, sorry Setsuna-mama." Hotaru apologised.143 "Hotaru-chan, wait. I have to talk to you." Setsuna said as put144 her hand on Hotaru's shoulder to stop her.145 "Why, what is it?" Hotaru replied.146 "...let's sit down."147 "Here? On the floor?" Hotaru asked but Setsuna already began148 speaking.149 "In a few years ChibiUsa will be born." Setsuna took a long150 breath. "You know she didn't know you when she came to our time,151 right?" Setsuna knew she was about to break the girl's heart. "I152 know it's hard but... you will have to..."153 "No, no, no! You can't demand that!" Hotaru screamed with tears154 building up in her eyes as she ran toward her room.155 Setsuna let out a sigh in the dark corridor. She was sure she156 wouldn't get any sleep tonight, just like the last six weeks. There157 must be another way. And so another sleepless night would go by.159 Hotaru was again crying herself to sleep this night. In a few days160 ChibiUsa would go away and she would lose the sun that made her161 dark world brighter. The fact that maybe she would't even be162 allowed to see her friend for the next one thousand years only made163 her tears flow faster down her cheeks. Without ChibiUsa her own164 life seemed meaningless to her. What was she really feeling for165 ChibiUsa? Was she just a friend... or was she... more...? Her166 feelings for the small pink bunny were much stronger than for any167 other of her friends. Even stronger than for Haruka-papa, Michiru-168 mama and Setsuna-mama. Is it... love? But she's a girl! In school169 they say girls should love boys! But Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama170 love each other, and they are girls...171 "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..." a whisper echoed silently in the dark room.172 Why does it hurt so much...? Love...175 It was an ordinary Saturday morning the next day at the Outers'176 mansion. Michiru was making breakfast, Haruka was reading her177 sports magazine and glancing every now and then over to Michiru.178 Michiru would then bend over, on purpose of course, so Haruka could179 admire her long legs and firm butt. Setsuna was rambling something180 about the "damn primitive clocks" like she always did when she was181 waken by the alarm clock. Hotaru was silently eating her breakfast,182 just like always, but the three young women knew Hotaru was183 restless inside.184 Haruka stood up, wanting to comfort Hotaru. She always felt so185 guilty for trying to kill the fragile little girl so many times.186 She had a very feminine and motherly side - the side only Hotaru187 and Michiru knew. Just as she wanted to say something to Hotaru -188 what, she did not know yet - the telephone rang. Saved by the bell,189 Haruka picked up her saviour.190 "Hello?... Hi Usagi-chan... Yes, she's here... Wait a minute.191 Hotaru-chan! It's for you. It's Usagi. ... Take the phone in the192 living room, we don't want to disturb you."194 Hotaru sat down on the couch and picked up the phone.195 "Hello?"196 "Hello Hotaru-chan, it's me, Usagi."197 "Hello."198 "So you heard the news..."199 "Yes..."200 "I need to know something Hotaru-chan. What do you feel for201 ChibiUsa-chan?"202 Hotaru was hit in her weak spot.203 "I... She's my best friend."204 "Do you... ... Do you love her?"205 "I... I... I don't know. ...yes..." The last word was just a206 whisper, as if Hotaru didn't want Usagi to hear it. Or maybe she207 didn't want herself to hear it, knowing it would only bring her a208 lot of pain once it's said.209 "You have to tell her that!"210 "No! I can't! She... I... She won't understand."211 "Hotaru-chan... You know she will. She a smart girl." Hotaru could212 hear the shaking in Usagi's voice. Usagi would miss ChibiUsa just213 as much as Hotaru will.214 "But she'll be gone in a few days anyway. It doesn't matter215 anymore..." A tear - a silent witness of Hotaru's pain - ran down216 her cheek.217 "You're wrong, it does matter! If you don't tell her, you'll never218 know what she feels."219 "But- , but-" She couldn't say anything beyond that. Her sobs220 choked away the fake excuses.221 "I'll- I'll send her over, okay?" Even Usagi started to sob now.222 "O- o-kay."223 "Hotaru-chan, I'm gonna put down the phone now, OK?"224 "Usagi-chan, tell me... that it's gonna be alright..."225 "Everything is gonna be okay... I promise..."226 "Thank you..."228 Except for Hotaru the house was empty when ChibiUsa came over.229 Haruka, Michiru and Setsuna said they had some business to attend230 to. Although they had the house for themselves Hotaru led ChibiUsa231 to her room. Hotaru needed the shelter of her room to say what she232 intended to. For the last hour she was grinding the words in her233 mind but she still had no clue of what to say. She sat down on her234 bed and ChibiUsa sat down beside her. They were sitting in silence235 and tension for a minute, Hotaru was still thinking of what to say.236 Suddenly ChibiUsa hugged Hotaru around her waist.237 "Oh, Hotaru-chan..." Within ChibiUsa's embrace Hotaru's mind238 finally found the peace it was longing for. ChibiUsa put her head239 on Hotaru's chest and closed her eyes and Hotaru put her arms240 around ChibiUsa's back and closed her eyes also. After a while241 ChibiUsa began:242 "You know why I like to hug you?"243 "You... You like to hug me?" Hotaru said in amazement, thinking of244 what Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama told her yesterday night.245 "I like to hug you because you're not as tall as the other girls."246 "What?"247 "You know, if I hug them my head reaches only their tummy. And248 except for Usagi, all of them have really strong muscles there -249 they are not soft. If you look up from there you only see two big250 balloons hanging over your head. I get really scared if I hug Mako-251 chan." Then she paused for a moment. She remained serious when she252 continued to speak: "But if I hug you my head lands straight on two253 soft pillows - with two chocolates on it, just like in a hotel254 room. Sometimes the chocolates are soft and I want to eat them, but255 sometimes they are really hard and I want to hold them in my hands256 so they would get softer. And if I look up from here I can see your257 beautiful face and your beautiful eyes looking down at me." Their258 eyes met but Hotaru turned her head away.259 "ChibiUsa-chan, I have to tell you something..." Hotaru took a260 deep breath. "ChibiUsa, you have been my first true friend. You261 made me laugh when no one was there to care for me. You were the262 light that made me hang on to my life when I was almost dead. You263 mean everything to me... I... I love you ChibiUsa..." Hotaru's eyes264 were closed as she whispered the last words. Her head wasn't facing265 ChibiUsa. Moments seemed like hours, seconds like eternity. Then,266 she heard a soft whisper.267 "I love you too, Hotaru." Hotaru felt a pair of soft lips press268 against her skin, sending shivers down her body.269 "...oh, ChibiUsa..." ChibiUsa was kissing Hotaru all over her face270 - on her cheeks, on her nose, on her forehead - until finally271 Hotaru felt the soft lips touch her own. Hotaru opened her mouth272 lightly and her tongue carefully touched ChibiUsa's lips and tasted273 their sweetness.274 ChibiUsa pushed Hotaru's body softly so Hotaru fell backwards on275 her bed and ChibiUsa right on top of her. "...oh, ChibiUsa... I276 dreamed of this..." ChibiUsa was sitting on top of Hotaru, her277 hands placed on Hotaru's belly. Hotaru felt the two hands move278 upward, slowly reaching her ribs and the base of her breasts,279 stopping there. Hotaru opened her eyes and found ChibiUsa's280 questioning face.281 "Go on... please..." Hotaru whispered. She felt the two soft hands282 finally reaching the end of their journey as they softly squeezed283 the tender flesh of her breasts through the fabric of Hotaru's284 shirt. Hotaru sighed when ChibiUsa began kneading her breasts.285 ChibiUsa saw Hotaru's nipples push against the fabric and she took286 one between her fingers. Hotaru felt the little fingers squeezing287 her nipple and sighed once more, the sensations driving her crazy.288 She couldn't bear it any more. She reached to her waist and pulled289 off her shirt, revealing her aroused breasts.290 "... my chocolates..." Before Hotaru could realize what ChibiUsa291 was doing she felt something warm encompass her nipple. ChibiUsa292 was kissing it! Hotaru never felt this kind of pleasure before. The293 warmth of ChibiUsa's mouth, ChibiUsa's tongue flicking over the294 nipple. Hotaru was panting heavily.295 Hotaru was on the brink of the greatest orgasm she ever had. Her296 hand travelled down her belly toward ChibiUsa's pussy that was297 placed on Hotaru's lap. ChibiUsa jerked when she felt something on298 her pussy, but Hotaru squeezed her hand gently past ChibiUsa and299 cupped her own sex. As her fingers were teasing and pleasuring her300 own pussy through the skin-tight pants she felt the warmth of301 ChibiUsa's sex against her wrist. ChibiUsa was licking and sucking302 on Hotaru's nipples and rubbing her crotch against Hotaru's wrist.303 Then Hotaru's body froze up and in the same moment her scream of304 pleasure filled the air of the room.306 ***308 Eleven young people gathered in the park a few days later. But the309 group was not a happy one, the heavy thought of farewell hung in310 the air. It was a sad ceremony - ChibiUsa was saying goodbye to all311 her friends. Usagi was trying very hard not to cry by holding on to312 Mamoru as hard as she could. Their goodbye present was a box of all313 the photos of her they had. Amy bought her a book. Makoto baked314 cookies for her. Rei gave her a special lucky charm. Minako315 presented her with a big poster of Sailor V.316 The only one left to say goodbye to was Hotaru. She hugged317 ChibiUsa gently and they kissed. They didn't bother about what the318 others would think and they whispered into each others ears a soft319 but definite "I love you."320 "ChibiUsa, my present is a poem. I've written it for you." Hotaru321 promised herself not to cry, not to make it even harder for322 ChibUsa. But as soon as she saw ChibiUsa's eyes fill up with tears323 when she gave her the envelope, she knew she wouldn't be strong324 enough.325 "You've written a poem for me? No one ever wrote a poem for me..."326 "But don't read it now. After you get home..."327 "I have something for you too, Hotaru." ChibiUsa said, reaching328 into her pocket and giving the dark beauty a picture. It was a329 picture of ChibiUsa and Hotaru holding hands, smiling brightly into330 the camera. It had a precious carved frame and in the corner of the331 picture were the words "I love you, Hotaru" written.332 They hugged again and let the tears of their loss flow in silence.334 ***336 I'm lonely when I close my eyes.338 Say, Haruka-papa, Michiru-mama, Setsuna-mama? Hold my hand tonight.339 Stay with me all night long. I want to have happy dreams. Dreams340 the color of rainbows. Dreams where the people precious to me are341 smiling with joy.343 Dreams that won't disappear when I open my eyes.346 End of Part 2348 The Ghost of 'lectricity349 Peter.dobaj@guest.arnes.si351 The last few lines are from the poem Dreams.