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1 This took me an afternoon while waiting for everyone to set up my brother’s
2 birthday. ^-^ It was either this or a Chuck E. Cheese romance story (my little
3 brother’s turning 7, so that’s where we’re going ;_;) and I’m more morbid than
4 that. ^-^;; I think the scariest thing is that I do have a plot centered around a
5 Chuck E. Cheese. O_o Good thing I don’t have characters worked out yet. ^-^
6 Oh well. This is my second Sasami & Misao story and it wasn’t as happy as I
7 would have liked, but I’m glad I got the chance to. ^-^ They make such a cute
8 couple. ^=^ Hopefully I can again soon. ^-^ If you like this or have any
9 suggestions for a future story I could do about them, please e-mail me. ^-^
10 Thanks so much for reading. *hugs* Oh, and I know that I’m reusing a the title
11 from a CCS fic I wrote, but the friend I got the title from didn’t like it so I’m
12 hoping this one will fit better. ^^;; Then again, third time’s a charm, so you
13 never know.
15 Heather
18 Love Lies Bleeding
20 By Amazoness Duo
21 amazonessduo@hotmail.com
23 Emptiness. The cold, infinite emptiness in her heart was all that made
24 up Misao’s world for the moments it took to listen to the answering machine.
25 Her mother was going to be late again and she wasn’t supposed to wait up. Her
26 cram school had called about her extended absences. And the doctors wanted to
27 run more tests. Possibly even another operation.
28 Whenever the world was at it’s darkest, something happened to make
29 matters worse. She had had an awful day at school, that sea of people that hardly
30 knew her and hardly cared rushing past, catching her in their wake. Her body
31 ached horribly, a reminder of how sick she had been feeling all day. No one had
32 seen her when she had collapsed from the pain in the hallway. When she had
33 passed into unconsciousness, an awful dream about an evil blonde girl fighting
34 Sasami in a cute magical girl outfit played out for her. It wouldn’t have been so
35 horrible if she hadn’t been the blonde girl in the dream. She never wanted to
36 fight Sasami, to ever cause any trouble to her best and only friend.
37 The horrible pains had been scaring her more and more lately. She
38 could barely see past the pain at times as it consumed her. It was becoming
39 clearer and clearer to her that she was going to die. She was getting sicker.
40 Which meant more operations. And her mother would have to work even harder
41 and later to pay for it all. She barely saw her mother as it was and the poor
42 woman was already overworked. She didn’t want to make things worse. Holding
43 herself, the pale girl shivered at the thought of another operation. The hospital
44 frightened her. If anything, it just made things hurt even worse than they already
45 did and made her mom worry about whether or not she’d pull through. The look
46 on her mother’s face when she was talking to the doctor the last time chilled her
47 soul. Her mother never did tell her what he had said, but she feared the worst.
48 Everything was cold. Everything was lonely. Everything hurt her.
49 Misao brushed away pained tears from her aquamarine eyes. It hadn’t occurred
50 to her at first that she had been crying. She contemplated the crystalline droplet
51 as more streamed down her cheeks. Her lips quivered as a sob escaped her. She
52 hugged herself tightly against the harshness of the world. If only she were with
53 Sasami, then maybe... No, she couldn’t depend on Sasami all of the time. She
54 was already a burden on her mother. Was she a burden to Sasami as well? The
55 other girl offered her unconditional friendship when she needed it the most,
56 helping her and spending time with her when everyone else was usually content
57 to ignore her and let her die in a corner somewhere. There was no doubt in her
58 mind that she would have died a long time ago had it not been for Sasami. But
59 now the thought that she was just burdening the blue haired girl with her own
60 insecurities and loneliness hurt her deeply. Why did Sasami waste her time with
61 her? Did she feel sorry for her? No one else thought she was worth the time of
62 day.
63 Biting pain shot through Misao, her breathing becoming ragged as she
64 clutched at her chest. Staggering forward, more tears fell from her. The entire
65 house held a lonely silence, the only sound her own labored breaths. “Please,
66 make it go away...” she begged. The pain in her body was almost as strong as
67 the pain in her heart. Why did it always have to be this way? Why was she so
68 weak? “Mama... Don’t take me back.. to the hospital... I’ll be just fine, I
69 promise...” Whimpering at the pain that burned through her senses along with
70 the hopelessness surrounding her, Misao struggled to get to her room. The world
71 tilted on it’s side halfway up the stairs, making it ever more difficult to think.
72 She needed to lie down. She needed to make it all go away. Her next step missed
73 the stairs by a few inches, her disoriented body failing to compensate as the
74 world dropped out under her. The pain became more intense as she fell back
75 down the stairs. She barely got out a short yelp before she hit the floor near the
76 foot of the stairs.
77 Time stood still. It had no meaning to Misao. Her world was ablaze in
78 pain and fear. “Mama...” she choked out, her chest aching as her breathing
79 labored on. Weakly raising her hand shakily, she was shocked to see it covered
80 in her own blood. Another silent sob escaped her bruised lips. She could see the
81 door from where she was lying, her shoes all alone. Her mother wouldn’t be
82 back for hours. Her heart shattered as she came to the painful realization that she
83 was going to die all by herself. There was no one to comfort her, no one to ease
84 her pain.
85 ‘Sasami!!’ her feverish mind shot out in desperation. ‘I need to tell her.
86 I need her to know or she’ll be mad. She’s the only one who cares. She’ll be
87 mad at me if I don’t tell her why I’m gone.’ She grasped onto that one thought
88 as her body began to go numb in a number of places, not dulling the sharp pain
89 inside in the least. She barely managed to get a hold of the phone, pulling it
90 close as she pushed the speed dial for her only friend. The seconds ticked on like
91 hours, defeat threatening her as death’s door drew ever nearer. As she was about
92 to give up, to quit like she always did, a cheerful voice answered.
93 “Moshi moshi.”
94 “Sa.. sa..mi...” Misao got out painfully. Her heart caught in her chest
95 for a moment. The fear that she wouldn’t be able to tell Sasami before she was
96 taken away gripped her. “..sami...” she whispered again into the receiver, her
97 hand shaking.
98 Sasami froze. Something was dreadfully wrong. “Misao-chan? Misao,
99 is that you? What’s wrong? You sound strange.”
100 Misao released a muffled sob, pulling the phone closer. “..it hurts...
101 sami.. hurts so much… I’m sorry.. so sorry... I just… I want.. it to stop...” she
102 barely managed to get out.
103 “Misao? Misao, you’re not making sense. What’s going on? Misao-
104 chan, you have to tell me what’s going on,” Sasami urged. She was growing
105 frantic. Misao sounded awful and she could barely make out what she was
106 saying. What could have happened to her?
107 “..won’t go away... Always hurts... gomen nasai... Sasami.. I.. I.. love
108 you..” Misao’s sob was more prominent this time. Her grip on the phone
109 weakened. She didn’t want to go. Sasami meant so much to her. But she was her
110 only reason to stay anymore and it didn’t look like it was her choice.
111 “Misao-chan? What? I... Are you at home?” Sasami clutched the phone
112 to her ear painfully, not wanting to miss anything. There was no response after a
113 long silence, only ragged breathing. “Misao! Misao-chan!!” she screamed into
114 the phone.
115 Was someone calling her name? “Mama..? Gomen, mama.. You won’t
116 have... to work so hard.. anymore, mama..” Tears welled up as her eyes closed,
117 falling off of long lashes. Misao could barely hear Sasami anymore, the phone
118 slipping from weak fingers. The tears streamed down her cheeks, mixing with
119 the blood dripping down her chin. She shivered in the cold, empty house. Alone.
120 Always alone.
122 Sasami thanked all that was Holy when she found the door to Misao’s
123 house open. Her initial reaction started to dissipate when she realized what that
124 could mean. Anyone could have gotten in. Someone might have hurt Misao. She
125 sounded in pain on the phone. What if... Sasami pushed off the thought as she
126 walked inside. There was no time for speculation. She need to find out what
127 happened.
128 What she saw froze her in her tracks. Misao was lying not far from the
129 door at the foot of the stairs, the phone next to her with a bloody handprint.
130 Misao herself wasn’t moving, blood seeping through her ripped white school
131 blouse. “Misao-chan!!” Sasami gasped. Rushing to the raven haired girl’s side,
132 her heart pounded in her chest. Her worst fear made her legs go numb
133 underneath her as she sat down hard next to her best friend. She couldn’t be
134 dead. That wasn’t fair. She needed Misao. Her hands searched desperately for a
135 heartbeat, for any sign that there was still life in that weak, battered body. Misao
136 made a weak noise as she moved under Sasami’s questing fingers. Stopping the
137 search for a heartbeat, Sasami sat in silence for a brief moment. “Misao? Can
138 you hear me?! Misao-chan, I’m here. I’m right here. Don’t close your eyes. You
139 have to stay with me. I won’t let you go,” she said urgently.
140 Misao’s eyes blinked open slowly. She could vaguely make out a shape
141 next to her, blue blurs next to what she thought was the face. She wasn’t dead
142 yet? When would her suffering be over? “Sa..sami?” she asked weakly. “You..
143 came?”
144 Sasami wiped at her eyes with the backs of her hands as she nodded
145 hurriedly. “I had to. Of course I came. You’re my best friend, Misao-chan. I
146 can’t leave you alone.” Misao was about to close her arms, but Sasami protested
147 adamantly . “No, you can’t! Stay with me, Misao-chan. Stay here with me. I’ll
148 get help for you. You’ll be just fine.” Sasami grabbed the blood stained phone
149 off the floor and quickly dialed up the paramedics.
150 “No, please don’t, Sasami..” Misao whimpered as she tried to roll over.
151 “No more doctors.. I don’t.. I don’t want anymore doctors...”
152 Sasami’s insides were turned inside out at the pain in Misao’s voice.
153 She knew that Misao had been a very sick girl for very long, but Misao had
154 never told her about any doctor’s visits or anything about being so afraid of
155 them. She gathered Misao in her arms when she was finally done with the call.
156 “Oh, Misao-chan. Everything will be just fine. I promise. We’ll go get ice cream
157 after all this. Or we’ll go to the park. No, you don’t like the park. We’ll do...
158 We’ll do whatever you want to do. I promise.” Sasami’s voice break as tears
159 began welling up in her eyes. She held her broken friend tighter.
160 By now Misao was far to numb, the pain already having been plunged
161 through indescribable in comparison to the pain that shot up from Sasami’s
162 arms. Besides, it felt so warm, so safe, so soothing. She wouldn’t give up her
163 spot in them even if the pain was unbearable. “Thank you... Sasami-chan..” Her
164 body shook as she coughed painfully, small flecks of blood getting on Sasami.
165 “I just... I want it to go away... I want it to stop hurting... I want it.. all to stop
166 hurting..” Shaking her head weakly, more tears fell down her deathly pale
167 cheeks. “I can’t make you.. promise that, Sasami.. because... I don’t want to be
168 here..” Her voice was full of pain and sorrow, her small body shaking from the
169 raw emotion inside.
170 Sasami shook her head violently. “No, don’t say that, Misao-chan.
171 Don’t leave me alone. Please, stay here with me. Please stay, Misao-chan.
172 There’s still plenty of reasons to stay. I promise we’ll see them all together.”
173 “You’re.. you’re the only reason to stay, Sasami..” Misao whispered
174 softly, trying to look up at the blue haired girl through her hazy vision.
175 “Everything else... hurts too much.. I don’t want.. to hurt anymore..”
176 Aquamarine eyes met pink ones, displaying all of the loneliness and unshed
177 tears in the dimming orbs.
178 “But.. me?” Sasami shook her head. How could she be the only thing
179 worth sticking around for? She didn’t care. As long as Misao did, what did it
180 matter? How she was, was trivial. “Misao-chan, I don’t want you to hurt either.
181 If I’m you’re only reason, then please stay for me. I don’t want to be alone. I
182 need you.” She brushed some of Misao’s matted hair away from her eyes,
183 meeting them with her own teary eyes. “I love you, Misao-chan. Don’t make me
184 go on without you. You still have to sing for me. You have to help me when I’m
185 lonely. You have to... It doesn’t matter what you have to do as long as you stay
186 with me, Misao.” She pulled Misao closer, on the verge of tears at the battle
187 between life and death her friend was facing.
188 Misao blinked weakly, still trying to make out Sasami. “You... love
189 me?” she asked tentatively. Her hand reached up slowly, brushing Sasami’s
190 warm cheek. Her own hand was so cold. “Sasa.. mi-chan... I.. love you, too..”
191 The coldness inside seemed to melt away, the pain becoming more bearable as
192 Sasami held her close. “I.. love you..” she repeated with as much strength as she
193 could muster.
194 Smiling softly, tears starting to trickle down her face, Sasami nodded.
195 “Thanks, Misao-chan. Those are the nicest words I could ever hear.” Placing a
196 hand on Misao’s cheek, she leaned forward, kissing the raven haired girl as
197 gently as she could despite the pounding in her heart that ached for more. The
198 soft lips were still bloody, giving the kiss a coppery taste. “Misao-chan...”
199 Sasami wiped at her eyes, trying to control her emotions but finding it
200 impossible. “Now you have to stay. You have to stay with me. Because I love
201 you. And I won’t leave you alone.”
202 “Sasami...” Misao whispered weakly, managing a faint smile. “Thanks,
203 Sasami... I don’t want to be alone..” She closed her eyes tiredly, feeling so warm
204 and peaceful in Sasami’s arms. The pain didn’t even seem to be there, in her
205 body or in her heart. The blue haired girl’s voice sounded so distant as she lay
206 against her. Was it becoming more insistent? She couldn’t tell as everything
207 started to slow down. She was so tired. It would be nice to get some rest. Some
208 rest in the arms of the girl she loved. Everything started to get brighter as her
209 spirits rose. She was finally happy. “I.. love you... sami..”
211 “Owww...” Misao tried to roll over in bed as pain stabbed her...
212 everywhere. Her whole body hurt. She felt like she’d just gotten back from
213 being beat up by her entire class. Except Sasami. Sasami would never do that.
214 She tried to sit up in bed but found it nearly impossible. She weakly slumped
215 back down onto her pillow. Her heart skipped a beat when she saw the IV in her
216 arm. Not the doctor. Anywhere but there. They always wound up hurting her.
217 The chill of fear building inside of her was immediately quelled by a sweet
218 voice near her bedside.
219 “Misao-chan! You’re awake,” Sasami exclaimed joyously, rubbing the
220 sleep from her eyes as she slipped out of the chair she’d been sitting in and
221 reached the raven haired girl. All of the worry that had been turning her stomach
222 in knots for the past few hours finally loosened its grip on her. Seeing Misao
223 awake reassured her that everything would be alright.
224 “Sasami-chan?” Confusion swirled around in Misao’s still drugged
225 mind. She wanted to pull out the IV, but somehow she doubted Sasami would let
226 her go through with it. But just seeing the blue haired girl there was enough to
227 soothe her frayed soul.
228 “Shh... Try not to move too much. You’re supposed to get some rest.
229 Your mother was really worried about you. The doctors spent a long time
230 making you better. But she’ll be glad to know you’re all right now.” Reaching
231 down, Sasami took Misao’s hand in her own. It was cold to the touch. A smile
232 graced her face when Misao’s hand weakly held on. “It’s going to be alright
233 now, Misao-chan.”
234 Misao’s eyes slid closed as everything slowly started coming back to
235 her. All of the fear and pain from her memories seemed almost as potent even
236 then through her sleepy mind. Tears welled up in her aquamarine eyes. Sasami’s
237 warm fingers reached out, brushing them away from her soft, pale skin.
238 “Sasami-chan...”
239 “I promise. I promise it will all be better. I’ll make sure it is because I
240 won’t leave your side.” Sasami smiled brightly, even through the tears that
241 started to build up in her own eyes. It had been quite a scare earlier, but now she
242 was just glad she had the chance to fix things. She bent down over the other girl,
243 giving her a soft, lingering kiss. “I love you, Misao-chan.”
244 Misao blushed fiercely but couldn’t do much else, her mind nearly
245 freezing. The whole thing seemed worth it, if only for that. She would go
246 through that pain over and over again if it meant she could be with Sasami. Her
247 mind clouded over, but now with a much warm and fuzzier feeling than the pain.
248 She couldn’t help but believe Sasami that things would be better. How could
249 they not be with her? “I love you, too, Sasami-chan.”