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     1 Tomoyo's Magic

     2 by rphjas

     3 rphjas@yahoo.com

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     7 Dear Diary.. 

     8 

     9 It has been several months since I began living with her and Sonomi-

    10 sama. That fateful night..the night I discovered I was her special

    11 someone.. started a whole new chapter in my life. I was surprised by

    12 my family's reaction to our proposal that I live with her. Father was

    13 not upset ,but relieved that I would not be by myself

    14 anymore..especially with his long hours and Onii-chan's part-time

    15 jobs keeping them from home so much. Sonomi-sama was thrilled with

    16 the idea. She was very excited that her beloved Nadesico's daughter

    17 would be living in her large home. Likewise, all of the staff and

    18 bodyguards have been so warm and kind to me. Tomoyo and I share the

    19 same room and large bed. It seems like everyone has been supportive

    20 with the move all the way around. Even my usually gruff Onii-chan is

    21 pleased.. now that Syaoran is out of my heart. And of course, Tomoyo

    22 and I still keep my sorceress affairs secret..even though all of the

    23 Cards have been captured long ago. 

    24 

    25 Each day has been so wonderful and filled with great joy. We

    26 sometimes study together after classes in Penguin Park or cheer for

    27 each other as we participate in our different clubs. School days are

    28 spent like before the move, except I hold hands with her more. If

    29 there is nobody around though, playful mischievous Tomoyo encircles

    30 my waist with her tiny arms and kisses me with her soft lips. Even

    31 now, she still adores my looks of surprise and my blushing cheeks. 

    32 

    33 Tonight, I write in you after another session of love-making. In the

    34 moon light, Tomoyo's bare shoulder peeks above the sheets. She sleeps

    35 on her side facing mine, and the bed looks gigantic with only her in

    36 it. Her hands are together..fingers clasped as if in prayer. From the

    37 open window, a gentle breeze moves her long black hair. Her face

    38 wears a smile now..a smile I can always see. It is no longer forced.

    39 Her grief and sadness forever gone, she has thrown all of her masks

    40 away. With each breath, a strand of her hair floats skyward. Her

    41 mouth soundlessly utters my name. I know because she now wears that

    42 special smile..the one that is just for me. Her fingers automatically

    43 seek me..drawn to the warmth of my vacated portion of the mattress. A

    44 troubled look crosses her face, and I quickly summon Mirror to kindly

    45 take my place. Mirror copies my image and quickly gets into the bed.

    46 Tomoyo's questing fingers find her, and her special smile once again

    47 lights her face. 

    48 

    49 With relief, I return to my thoughts and writing..while Mirror holds

    50 Tomoyo close..stroking her hair..and holding her close. Snuggling,

    51 Tomoyo sleeps peacefully again. I should hurry this entry, though.

    52 Mirror can not fool her heart for long. I may be the sorceress, but

    53 Tomoyo has an even greater power. Tonight, I see it..a powerful

    54 aura..an aura that should consume her porcelain doll-like body. She

    55 loves me so completely and so intensely that I worry she will break

    56 one day. I feel a knot of fear in my belly.. a fear of the unknown

    57 future. What would I do if I woke up one morning..only to kiss cold

    58 lips..and discover her lifeless? 

    59 

    60 During nights of worry, I have been trying to create a magic of my

    61 own. Tomoyo has always been frail. So, I want to create a Card of

    62 Health and Healing..one I can use for her when she is ill. But so

    63 far, I have had no success. I have always relied on her, but I

    64 understand now that it would be unbearable for me to lose her. I

    65 crave her soft lips and her lavender eyes..the warmth of her

    66 body..and the bath her love prepares for me..that always cleanses my 

    67 heart.. 

    68 

    69 During my first days with her, I was always apologizing. I felt

    70 guilty for being so slow to perceive her love for me..and mine for

    71 her..for all of those lonely tear-filled nights she lived through. I

    72 cried from all of the scars I cut into her heart. But, with her usual

    73 tenderness, she would only kiss me and bid me to worry about that no

    74 more. All of those nights lived only in her past, and she looks now

    75 only to our future. Even with the Return Card, I could never undo

    76 those wounds. The paradox of Time prevents me. So, reluctantly, I

    77 complied with her wishes. 

    78 

    79 With my own voice, Mirror whispers across the room to me. Tomoyo

    80 frowns and stirs restlessly. With my quiet thanks, Mirror and I

    81 switch places. I kiss Tomoyo's upturned cheek and once more see her

    82 special smile. Her mystical aura of love envelops us both in its

    83 protective blanket..covering our unclothed bodies..soothing us into a

    84 deep and peaceful sleep...burning all my concerns away..