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4 The Jealousy Card:
6 By Stirling Twilight and Amazoness Duo
7 stirling_9@hotmail.com
8 amazonessduo@hotmail.com
10 Sakura took a deep breath of fresh air as she started
11 rollerblading down the street. It was a beautiful day, and the sun
12 was shining brightly. A soft breeze gently blew over her as she
13 made her way to school. She blushed lightly at the thought of
14 Yukito waiting where he usually did before school. Sighing, she
15 felt a pang of sadness at the thought of who he was waiting for.
16 She slowed down, finally coming to a stop, as her brother rode by
17 on his bike. As long as he was happy, right? Tomoyo had once
18 told her that what really mattered was that the one you loved was
19 happy, even if they weren’t with you.
20 Waiting a few moments to make sure her brother and Yukito
21 were well on their way, Sakura started rollerblading again, a little
22 slower this time. She was glad Yukito had found love, but would
23 she ever find it herself? She had thought she loved the older boy,
24 but after her talk with him, she wasn't so sure anymore. He had
25 told her that her feelings for him were like the ones she had for her
26 father. Oddly enough, besides short bouts of sadness over him, she
27 seemed to be doing pretty well. Maybe she was just being mature
28 about it. But could there be something else to it? Could it be that
29 maybe she was falling for someone else? Thinking for a moment,
30 Sakura tried to figure who such a person could possibly be, but
31 ended up dismissing the idea. She was happy for Yukito, Sakura
32 decided, and that was all.
33 Her spirits noticeably higher, Sakura flashed a smile at the dark-
34 haired girl waiting for her at the front gate of their school. "Hi,
35 Tomoyo-chan!" she said, skidding to a stop in front of her best
36 friend.
37 "Ohayo gozaimasu, Sakura-chan," Tomoyo said happily. "How
38 did you sleep last night?"
39 "Pretty well. I had a strange dream, but I can't remember it
40 now. You were in it. And Li-kun. And I was worried about you
41 for some reason," Sakura trailed off, trying to remember more of
42 her dream.
43 "I'm very glad I was in your dreams, Sakura-chan, but don't be
44 worried about me," Tomoyo said thoughtfully. "It was just a
45 dream. And, in any case, worrying about it won't do any good. You
46 should try to relax."
47 "You're right," Sakura agreed. "I wish I could remember the rest
48 of it, though. I feel like I’ve forgotten an important warning about
49 something. Like it was a premonition." She pulled off her
50 rollerblades along with the rest of her protective gear. Standing
51 back up, she walked side by side with Tomoyo towards their
52 classroom.
53 "If your dream was a warning about something, I'm certain that
54 you will eventually figure it out," Tomoyo said with a reassuring
55 smile.
56 Sakura found herself smiling back. 'I always do feel better after
57 talking to Tomoyo,' she thought to herself. "Thank you, Tomoyo-
58 chan."
59 "Whenever you want to talk, Sakura-chan, I’m always here for
60 you. I love talking to you, and if it helps you, I'm happy." Tomoyo
61 took her seat next to Sakura's and started pulling out what she
62 would need for class from her backpack.
63 Sitting down in her desk, Sakura grinned to herself. She felt a
64 lot better about things now. She wasn't worrying about her dream
65 or her sadness over Yukito for the moment. Looking through the
66 window, she watched the late students getting to school. She
67 closed her eyes, basking in the warm sunlight as she waited for
68 class to begin. This day could be a good one after all.
70 "How does this look?" Tomoyo asked tentatively as she handed
71 Sakura a sheet of paper from her notebook. Sakura carefully took
72 the paper, finishing up another bite of her lunch at the same time.
73 She sweatdropped when she saw the sketch of herself in a costume.
74 There were several different views to show the whole costume,
75 including the large bow in back. "What do you think?"
76 "It's... nice," Sakura said, not quite knowing what else to say.
77 "I think it would look really cute on you, Sakura-chan."
78 Tomoyo grew starry eyed as she blushed at she thought of Sakura
79 in the finished costume. "Do you think it could use more lace?"
80 "No, no, I think it's fine the way it is," Sakura said hastily. Her
81 troubles with wild Clow Cards had ended when she became the
82 Card Mistress, and now with things settling down after Eriol, there
83 really wasn't much of a need for her to go out as a Card Captor
84 anymore. But Tomoyo still made plenty of costumes for her,
85 getting Sakura to come over to her house and try them on so the
86 dark-haired girl could at least videotape her in them. She was
87 happy to humor the dark haired girl, even if it was a bit strange
88 wearing all the different costumes. Tomoyo seemed to love
89 videotaping her in them so much that it was the least she could do
90 for all the help and friendship the dark haired girl had given her.
91 "Every time I finish a new costume, when I look at it, I get the
92 feeling that something isn't right. It doesn't seem really finished.
93 But when I finally see you wearing it, Sakura-chan, it's like the last
94 piece of a puzzle has fallen into place. You complete them."
95 You complete me, Tomoyo wanted to add.
96 Sakura blushed as Tomoyo smiled gently at her. For a second, it
97 felt like she and Tomoyo were the only ones there. The feeling
98 slowly faded and Sakura noticed all her classmates busily chatting
99 through lunch. She wasn't sure if she was relieved or saddened that
100 the moment had ended so quickly.
101 "I'll start working on this one when I get home," Tomoyo
102 finished. Her head tilted to the side, a worried look spreading over
103 her face. "Sakura-chan, are you alright?"
104 "Hai… I'm fine," Sakura said, laughing nervously. For some
105 reason, she felt awkward all of a sudden. Glancing around a bit
106 while she ate some more of her lunch, she noticed Syaoran walking
107 by, on his own as he often was. "Li-kun! Why don't you have lunch
108 with us?" she asked happily. Syaoran paused for a moment before
109 accepting, sitting beside the two girls.
110 "I really hope we don't have much homework tonight," Sakura
111 said conversationally. "It's my night to make dinner."
112 "I hope so, too. If you need to pick up ingredients or anything, I
113 could come with you before you go home," Tomoyo offered
114 helpfully.
115 Sakura smiled at her. "Thanks, Tomoyo-chan. I don't think I
116 need anything, though." She placed a hand on her chin, trying to
117 make sure.
118 "Sakura..." Syaoran interrupted.
119 "Hoe?" Sakura turned to Syaoran who was now staring straight
120 ahead. Tomoyo turned to look at him as well, putting aside the
121 sketches.
122 "There's something I want to tell you," Syaoran said slowly. He
123 was really nervous, even though he'd probably never admit it to
124 himself.
125 "What is it?" Sakura asked curiously. Tomoyo smiled at him,
126 knowing what it was that he wanted to say. She nodded slightly, as
127 if urging him to go on.
128 "I... I..."
129 "Syaoran-kun, are you feeling okay?" Sakura asked worriedly.
130 "It's about Sakura-chan, right, Li-kun?" Tomoyo suggested
131 gently, trying to help him along.
132 Syaoran nodded emphatically. Sakura looked more and more
133 interested as she waited to hear what he had to say.
134 Syaoran rounded on Tomoyo and asked her pointedly,
135 “Can you go?” He wanted to be alone with Sakura if he was going
136 to tell her.
137 The dark haired girl smiled and nodded. Picking up her
138 notebook, she walked over to a nearby tree. She felt almost as
139 nervous inside as the Chinese boy. This was it. He would finally
140 tell Sakura, wouldn’t he? Maybe it was about time she did as
141 well…
142 Syaoran watched her go before turning back, to meet the green
143 eyes that were watching him in confusion. He gathered his breath
144 and in one long exhale managed to force out, "I... I... I like you!"
145 Sakura blinked in confusion several times. "You what?"
146 Syaoran stood up, made an obvious effort to composes himself,
147 lost the battle and made a hasty retreat back towards the classroom.
148 He nearly bumped into Naoko in his hurry.
149 "What did he mean?" Sakura asked aloud. She just couldn't
150 figure out what on earth Syaoran was trying to do, telling her that
151 he liked her and then running away.
152 Tomoyo leaned towards her, having returned unnoticed.
153 "I think Li-kun was trying to say that he loves you," Tomoyo
154 explained in a soft whisper.
155 Sakura's face turned a deep shade of crimson as realization hit.
156 She opened her mouth and tried to speak, but nothing came out.
157 After a few false starts she finally got out, "But... but... how?"
158 Tomoyo smiled brightly at her friend. "That's not hard, Sakura-
159 chan. It's easy to fall in love with you. It's telling you that’s the
160 hard part." Standing up as the bell rang for the end of lunch,
161 Tomoyo offered Sakura her hand. Sakura, still in shock, let the
162 other girl help her stand. She tried to walk, but stumbled a bit.
163 Tomoyo arms went gently around her waist, steadying the
164 brunette. Smiling gently, she helped her back towards the
165 classroom, not letting her own inner turmoil show.
167 It was a bit colder after school, but the weather was still
168 pleasant. A gentle breeze meandered past the two girls on their
169 way home. Sakura was still having trouble coming to grips with
170 what had happened earlier with Syaoran. She was so worried, she
171 wasn't really aware of where they were going. Tomoyo was
172 silently leading her home, trying to give her best friend time to
173 think. Though it was still early in the evening, Sakura felt
174 tired, exhausted. She just wanted to lie down so that she wouldn't
175 have to think about anything. Questions kept racing through her
176 mind. How could he? Was he serious?
177 What should she do now?
178 Sakura, walking slowly, noticed all of a sudden that Tomoyo
179 wasn't at her side anymore. She turned around and saw the other
180 girl standing there, her long, dark hair
181 fluttering behind her. Sakura looked at her with surprise. Her
182 friend seemed deep in thought.
183 "Tomoyo-chan?"
184 Tomoyo looked at her, but didn't answer right away. Sakura
185 felt a pang of nervousness. It was such an unusual attitude in her
186 friend...
187 "Sakura-chan," Tomoyo said at last, startling Sakura a little, "do
188 you remember when I said that I loved you?"
189 That was an easy one, Sakura thought. Tomoyo had told her
190 that many, many times. "Un!" she nodded.
191 "You looked happy, Sakura-chan, and you said that you loved
192 me too. And I said: 'But Sakura-chan doesn't mean the same thing
193 as me.' Do you remember?"
194 Again, Sakura nodded.
195 "After that, I told you that I'd explain everything later. Isn't that
196 right?"
197 Sakura's eyes lit up with remembrance. "Oh yes, I remember! I
198 wondered so much about that, I couldn't figure what in the world
199 you were talking about."
200 Tomoyo smiled gently. "Well, I think I will tell you now,
201 Sakura-chan," she said. "Truth is, I'm a little nervous about this. I
202 don't know if the time is right, I'm not sure you will understand."
203 She paused for a moment, and then added softly, "But I'm going to
204 give it a try anyway."
205 Sakura looked at Tomoyo intently. She felt very excited all of a
206 sudden. The dark-haired girl sounded so serious it was a bit scary,
207 but an overwhelming curiosity gnawed at her. After all, she
208 thought, this was Tomoyo. Whatever she had to say, it couldn't be
209 anything bad, could it?
210 "What is it? Please, Tomoyo-chan, tell me!" Sakura begged, her
211 face bright with eagerness.
212 Tomoyo took a deep breath and slowly released it. She gazed
213 deeply into Sakura's beautiful green eyes. "Sakura-chan, we've
214 been very close for a long time now, and I want you to know that
215 you've always been the most important thing in the world to me."
216 Sakura smiled happily at her. "You are a very important friend
217 to me too, Tomoyo-chan." She let out a sigh. She was glad it
218 hadn’t been anything big. She’d had enough surprises for one day.
219 Tomoyo sweatdropped and decided to try a different approach.
220 "Whatever I do, wherever I go, I'm always thinking about you,
221 Sakura-chan. It's like..." she was having trouble finding the right
222 words. "You make me think of an angel, Sakura-chan. You are like
223 a heavenly angel sent down to this earthly realm to fill the lives of
224 humans with light. I feel like I would never be able to repay you
225 for the joy you've brought into mine. That's the way I feel, in my
226 heart, when I think about you."
227 Sakura felt a rosy blush spread all over her cheeks. She
228 lowered her gaze, forced out a shaky little laugh and rubbed the
229 back of her head. "I... I... Oh, Tomoyo-chan, it's nothing like that! I
230 mean, I'm not an angel. I'm not heavenly or anything. I'm just..."
231 Sakura paused briefly, as if gathering her thoughts, then looked
232 back up and smiled at her friend, a genuine smile this time. "You
233 say the nicest things, Tomoyo-chan. I feel all warm and mushy
234 inside when you say that kind of thing, even though I'm not the
235 way you say. Thank you so much! You're my best friend in the
236 whole wide world, and I'm really, really glad that you're happy
237 when I'm around."
238 Tomoyo sighed softly. This was sooo much harder than she
239 thought it would be. Part of her just wanted to stop, put on her
240 trademark happy smile and tell Sakura that they were late and that
241 they should be hurrying. She knew Sakura would then dismiss
242 everything Tomoyo had just said as "some more of Tomoyo's
243 weird stuff", and things
244 between them would return to normal. It would be so easy, she
245 thought, backing off and leaving love confessions for another day.
246 But she couldn't do that, not this time.
247 Not when she had already come this far.
248 "Sakura-chan," she started again, trying to find stronger words
249 to express the feelings in her heart, "I'm always happiest when
250 we’re spending time together. And whenever I'm unhappy, all I
251 have to do is think about you to feel better. When I see you
252 wearing one of the dresses I make for you, my heart feels like it's
253 going to pound out of my chest in joy. Being with you, doing
254 things with you is my idea of heaven. You mean so much to me. I
255 can't bear the thought of not being able to see you. I want to be
256 with you, always, forever."
257 Sakura blushed again, redder this time. Tomoyo was always
258 saying strange things around her, and she knew she should be used
259 to it by now, but this... this was like all of them rolled into one. She
260 wasn't sure what to say, or if she should just wait for her friend to
261 continue.
262 Tomoyo was blushing a little, too. She had said so much, and
263 yet, she could tell, just by looking at Sakura, that she still hadn't
264 gotten her point across. "I know you were surprised, today, when
265 you found out about Li-kun's love for you, but I understand his
266 feelings all too well. Since the day I met you, you have been like
267 the sun in my life, outshining everything else. Sakura-chan, cards
268 aren't the only magic you have at your command. I've been under
269 your spell for a long time."
270 Sakura didn't realize she'd been holding her breath until her
271 lungs started to ache for air. She was blushing as red as a peony
272 now, and she was starting to find it difficult to stand still. She felt
273 weak in the knees from the nervousness building up inside her.
274 "Sakura-chan, daisuki desu wa," Tomoyo declared with earnest
275 feeling, and then, before her innocent cousin could once again
276 misunderstand those three simple words,
277 she continued, "And I don't mean just as a friend. I love you so
278 much more than that. Sakura-chan, I'm in love. I'm in love with
279 you, I love you. Do you understand what I'm
280 trying to say?" Tomoyo took Sakura's hands in her own and gazed
281 again into those dazzling emerald green eyes. "I love you," she
282 repeated softly, her own stormy blue eyes trying to convey every
283 bit of the feelings inside of her.
284 "To... To... Tomoyo-chan..." Sakura barely managed to get out.
285 Her heart was thudding a mad tempo in her chest, and she was sure
286 her eyes looked like saucers. The shock of Syaoran's confession
287 felt like nothing compared to what she was feeling at this moment.
288 She had thought that, after Syaoran, nothing in the world could
289 surprise her anymore. Oh god, had she been wrong! She knew that
290 she had to say something, she could tell the other girl was waiting
291 for her to say something, but her mind had gone completely blank.
292 First Syaoran and now Tomoyo? It was too much for her. She felt
293 like her whole world had been turned upside down.
294 "Tomoyo-chan,” she stammered, “I... I... I'll talk to you later,"
295 Sakura finished, a little lamely. Turning around too quickly, she
296 almost stumbled. Tomoyo's hand on her shoulder barely helped her
297 regain her balance in time.
298 Waving to Sakura while the brown-haired girl hurried off,
299 Tomoyo called, "Bye, Sakura-chan! Sleep well!"
300 Glancing over her shoulder, Sakura caught a glimpse of
301 Tomoyo's smiling face. She managed a faint smile of her own and
302 waved back weakly before turning back around.
303 Her mind felt sluggish as she tried to sort things out.
304 What was she supposed to do? Nothing in her life seemed to
305 make sense anymore. Breaking into a fast sprint after turning a
306 corner, Sakura ran all the way back home, totally unaware of the
307 fading glow that followed her.
309 “Oh, so the monster’s home,” Touya said conversationally as
310 her heard Sakura come
311 in through the front door. He put down the job ads he’d been
312 reading, ready to see his
313 sister’s angry face. He was shocked to see her disappearing up the
314 stairs. “Sakura?” The
315 small glimpse of her hadn’t offered much of an explanation as to
316 why she hadn’t argued
317 with him, but she had looked rather distraught. Worse than he’d
318 seen her in a long, long
319 time. The house was silent again, except for the rustling of the
320 newspaper on his lap.
321 “Well, she’s heading into high school now. She’s probably just
322 getting overemotional about
323 something,” he told himself, not quite believing it. Telling himself
324 not to worry, he went
325 back to looking for another job, but he kept glancing up towards
326 her room, wondering
327 what was really wrong.
331 "Kero-chan?"
332 "Hmm?"
333 Sakura shifted her arms on the open window ledge trying to get
334 comfortable. She could see the moon behind the leaves and the
335 Jade Plate swam for a moment in the wetness that suddenly
336 appeared in her eyes.
337 "Kero-chan...."
338 Kero-chan clicked his tongue and glided to her side.
339 "Sakura" he chided, "You haven’t finished a sentence yet
340 tonight. What's happened?"
341 She sighed and pressed her eyes against her pajama sleeve.
342 "Kero-chan, I had a dream last night."
343 "Ah", the Seal Beast breathed in pleasure. Sakura's dreams
344 always carried a great deal of portent. He drifted to where he
345 could look at her. "What did you dream?"
346 "I dreamt that Tomoyo-chan and Li-kun were in danger, and it
347 was because of me." She paused, breathing hard, and then the dam
348 broke. "I was so upset, and all through the dream I kept talking
349 and nothing was coming out of my mouth. I wanted to tell them
350 today at school, but I didn't know how, and I thought that maybe I
351 would find a way, but every time I tried the time was wrong, and
352 then Li-kun wanted to talk to me alone, and then Tomoyo-chan
353 said..."
354 "Clow Card!" Kero-chan yelled spinning towards the open
355 window. "Hurry!"
356 “Card?” she stammered in surprise. Obviously this was the day
357 for it, and how very like her dream it all seemed… her talking and
358 no one was hearing her. With a sigh she gathered a few things and
359 climbed out onto the tree. It occurred to her as she descended that
360 she should call Li and Tomoyo, but she also felt that being alone
361 would be nice too. At least with a Card to capture she wasn't just
362 sitting and thinking. How long had it been since she’d been out
363 Card Capting anyway?
364 Once out of sight of her house Sakura drew out the Key and
365 joined Kero-chan in the air. He flew purposefully, as if he knew
366 where he was going. Sakura saw, in her mind's eye, the many
367 videos Tomoyo had taken of the Seal Beast. Smiling at the
368 thought she was suddenly very sorry she didn't call the dark hair
369 girl. Tomoyo would forgive her, there was no question, but at the
370 same time Sakura also knew that no matter what her mood,
371 Tomoyo would never exclude Sakura from something that would
372 give her pleasure. Before she realized what was happening the
373 phone was in her hand, and the redial pressed. But what to tell
374 her? Sakura had no idea where they were going.
375 "Look!" Kero-chan cried, stabbing a paw downwards. Sakura,
376 phone to her head, looked down, and saw Li running in the same
377 direction they were flying in, his glowing Lasin Board held before
378 him.
379 "Sakura-chan?"
380 Momentarily disoriented Sakura realized the voice was
381 Tomoyo's and the source was the phone. "Tomoyo-chan!" she
382 yelled over the wind, "We're near the clock tower, after a Card...."
383 "I'm on my way," and she was gone.
384 Sakura tucked the phone back into her pocket and drew closer to
385 Kero-chan. "What should we do?" she mused aloud.
386 Kero-chan turned towards her, smiling broadly, "Card Capture
387 Sakura..."
388 And he was gone.
389 Sakura suddenly found herself standing in a room. The Key was
390 in her hand. The room, a sort of box, had no door, no windows
391 and the walls were a sickly green. Across from her Li stood,
392 looking equally as surprised and Kero-chan was nowhere to be
393 seen.
394 "Li-kun?" she began, but no sound reached her ears. He too
395 opened his mouth, but she heard nothing. Stepping back she
396 pulled out the Sword Card, exchanged the Key for the Sword and
397 swiped at the nearest wall. It had no effect. Li also began trying
398 attacks on the room, with the same effect. She moved closer to
399 him, her hand reaching for him, and just as she touched his arm her
400 hand went threw his as if he were a ghost. Alarmed she drew
401 back...he didn't seem to be aware of her. He suddenly turned and
402 appeared to be smiling at someone behind her. Sakura looked back
403 and saw Tomoyo, video camera in hand, looking at Li with a look
404 that sent a chill through Sakura. Rushing to her side Sakura was
405 almost weak with relief. She called Tomoyo's name, heard
406 nothing, and stopped short. Slowly she extended a hand… it
407 passed threw Tomoyo without any resistance. Tomoyo and Li
408 crossed the small room, intent it seemed, only on each other.
409 Sakura drew back in confusion as the two came together in a
410 passionate kiss.
411 Nothing more than shock made Sakura sit down heavily. Sword
412 slipped silently from her fingers. What did this mean? What was
413 happening? Her mind reeled at the sight. Closing her eyes for a
414 moment, hoping it was a dream, she opened them again. In the
415 center of the room stood Tomoyo and Yukito, kissing.
416 "This is a dream," she screamed soundlessly, desperately,
417 "Tomoyo-chan loves me and only me, she told me so! Only me!
418 None of this is real!"
419 Raising her head once more she found herself confronted by Li,
420 sword in hand, and Tomoyo clinging to his side. Li was looking at
421 her with unhidden hatred. He raised the sword, and Sakura had
422 just enough time to exchange the Sword for Shield as he swung at
423 her. The sword rebounded, sending a shock through his arm. He
424 staggered back, disbelief evident on his face.
425 "Why?!" Sakura screamed mentally, her mouth forming the
426 word. Drawing herself up to her knees she studied Li. He was
427 panting, and still looked angry, but he didn't continue to fight.
428 Could it be that he knew he was fighting a Card? That had to be
429 the answer. They were trapped within an uncaptured Card, and she
430 had to figure out what the Card was.
431 Suddenly the pieces were fitting. She was seeing something
432 that would make her… what? Angry? Jealous? They must be
433 experiencing something similar. Li would see…
434 Sakura sucked in her breath. Li would see Sakura and Tomoyo!
435 No wonder he turned on her! But no, why fight Sakura, unless
436 Sakura looked like Tomoyo to him. That would explain his
437 surprised look at being rebuffed by Shield. Sakura acted quickly,
438 bringing out Mirror, "Show me what Li-kun is seeing" she
439 commanded. In the disc Mirror held Sakura saw exactly what she
440 expected. In the place where she knelt on the floor cowered
441 Tomoyo; a Sakura, assumably Tomoyo, was being crushed to Li’s
442 side by his arm around her waist, and she looking horrified, weakly
443 fighting to reach the figure on the floor.
444 She locked eyes with Mirror and felt the color drain from
445 her face, "Show me what Tomoyo-chan sees," she mouthed. A
446 chill went through her at the thought of what she was about to see.
447 The first thing she saw was herself. She was smiling
448 happily, seemingly without a care in the world. Two arms were
449 around her waist, holding her tight. They belonged to Syaoran,
450 who was uncharacteristically grinning. Lying on the floor in shreds
451 was one of Tomoyo’s costumes for Sakura. Sakura instantly
452 remembered it as the design Tomoyo had shown her earlier that
453 day. Syaoran pulled up an ofuda, chanting briefly before throwing
454 it on the tattered costume. Sakura’s counterpart in the Mirror just
455 laughed as the costume burned, snuggling closer to Syaoran. She
456 stopped watching when the images kissed.
457 Tears ran down Tomoyo’s pale cheeks as she looked on
458 helplessly. A steel band crushed Sakura heart at the sight and she
459 lashed out at Mirror, blinded by tears of rage and sorrow. "No!"
460 she screamed over and over, "It's not like that." She rose to her
461 feet, picked up Sword and continued to rampage about the little
462 green room. Li and Tomoyo ignored her and again embraced as if
463 nothing had happened. Sakura stopped at the sight, and a sob
464 escaped her.
465 "Tomoyo-chan…"
466 As if she had heard her name the ghost Tomoyo turned her head
467 and smiled at Sakura, Li too smiled at her, but then the couple
468 locked eyes again and kissed. Sakura decided that this had gone
469 on long enough. She pulled out Darkness. If they couldn't see
470 each other the spell just might be broken.
471 "Surround Li-kun, Tomoyo-chan and myself in a darkness that
472 we cannot see through."
473 Instantly the room was gone and she stood alone in a vast night.
474 Hesitantly she tested to see if the Card was still working.
475 "Tomoyo-chan?" she said, and heard nothing. It was still
476 working. Obviously she had to name this Card to overpower it,
477 like she had had to do with Mirror. Drawing herself upright she
478 closed her eyes and yelled with all her might, "Jealousy!" and the
479 sound broke on her deafened ears like a storm. Suddenly the green
480 room broke like glass into a million tiny pieces. Before she could
481 do anything they gathered to her right, and were gone. She quickly
482 recalled Darkness and found herself on the street below the clock
483 tower facing both Li and Tomoyo, who were looking around
484 dazed. Li seemed to come back to himself first and turned to
485 Sakura with a look of raw hatred. Sakura, shocked, took a step
486 back in alarm. Li looked from her to Tomoyo, and Sakura
487 instantly knew she had to act, and quickly.
488 Sakura was fast, but Li was faster.
489 Li drew out an ofuda and threw it at Sakura even as she invoked
490 Shield. The glowing paper landed on her arm and she couldn't
491 move. Li grabbed Tomoyo roughly by the arm and began dragging
492 her away.
493 Tomoyo looked back at Sakura, who was struggling against the
494 spell. "Sakura-chan!" she yelled helplessly. “Sakura-chan!”
495 "Tomoyo-chan!" Sakura screamed back in anger and frustration.
496 "TOMOYO-CHAN!"
498 Syaoran landed on a rooftop far away from the immobilized
499 Sakura. He shoved Tomoyo from him when they landed. She tried
500 to keep her balance but fell to her hands and knees. “You…” he
501 growled. “You’re what’s keeping me from her. You’re what’s
502 standing in my way. She and I are supposed to be together, but
503 you keep getting in the way.”
504 “No… That’s not it. I just want Sakura-chan to be happy.”
505 Tomoyo looked up at the angry gaze he directed at her and shrank
506 back. “I love her. I just hope she would be happy with me.” She
507 knew it was the wrong thing to say to the enraged boy even before
508 she uttered it, but it was the truth.
509 “How could she ever be happy with you?” Syaoran sneered.
510 “You just get in her way. She’s only your friend because she pities
511 you.”
512 Tomoyo shook her head. “No, she’s my best friend. We care
513 about each other. We’ll always be friends…” Her mind raced.
514 Nothing seemed certain to her anymore. The horrible images of
515 Sakura and Syaoran came flooding back to her mind, threatening
516 to overwhelm her. Syaoran’s hand grabbed her arm, hauling her
517 back to her feet. The dark haired girl winced at the sudden
518 explosion of pain the cruel movement brought. She flinched as he
519 clutched her arm tightly.
520 “I want you to leave her alone. To leave us alone. Do you
521 understand?” Syaoran hissed angrily. He dragged the limp girl
522 against his chest, shaking her hard. Tomoyo, her dark hair flying
523 wildly about her, closed her eyes tightly. This only brought back
524 earlier images. “No,” she said, trying to make him understand, “I
525 won’t leave unless Sakura tells me too. She means everything to
526 me. I love her!” Looking at him defiantly, she tried desperately to
527 bring up happier images of Sakura, ones she treasured and kept
528 dear to her heart.
529 Angrily, Syaoran shoved the dark haired girl backwards.
530 Tomoyo gasped as she fell, landing hard on her side. “Don’t you
531 dare stand in my way. She will be mine!” he howled.
532 Keeping her eyes clamped shut, Tomoyo desperately ran
533 memories over and over in her mind. When she first met Sakura,
534 when Sakura had come to her house for the first time, when Sakura
535 had first worn one of the costumes she made, the first time she’d
536 videotaped Sakura with her camcorder. She waited quietly for what
537 Syaoran would say next, but nothing came. Cautiously, she opened
538 her eyes and looked around. “Sakura-chan!” she yelled, catching a
539 glimpse of the brown haired girl. Forcing herself to her feet, she
540 couldn’t help but smile as she ran to her friend. She stopped dead
541 in her tracks, her eyes growing wide, when she saw Syaoran
542 standing behind her.
543 Tomoyo’s spirits sank as the two kissed. Somewhere, in
544 the back of her mind she could hear someone scream, “NO!” She
545 shut her eyes, wishing the vision would disappear, but it remained
546 when she looked again. She took a few slow steps towards them,
547 her heart aching with each step. “Sakura-chan…. I’m… I’m happy
548 for you,” she said quietly. Sakura looked directly at her, giving her
549 an icy stare that chilled Tomoyo to the bone. “Sakura-chan?” she
550 asked weakly, “Why?”
551 Sakura didn’t find her worthy of her notice as she bestowed
552 all her attention on Syaoran. The two shared a deep kiss, ignoring
553 the forlorn Tomoyo, as if she had simply ceased to exist.
554 Dropping to her already scratched knees, Tomoyo’s small
555 body was wracked with sobs. “Sakura-chan….”, she whimpered,
556 clutching her stomach. She couldn’t bear it. Why was this
557 happening? Glancing back up, Tomoyo saw things had changed.
558 Sakura was wearing a wedding dress and Syaoran a tuxedo. A stab
559 of pain shot through Tomoyo’s heart. Sakura had promised her
560 that she could make her wedding dress when they day finally
561 came, but that wasn’t anything she’d make for Sakura. Looking
562 through her tear blurred vision, she could see her camcorder
563 smashed on the floor near them, the film pulled out. Blinking back
564 her tears, Tomoyo could see things had shifted once again. Sakura
565 now held a baby. Sakura and Syaoran’s baby.
566 Unable to stand watching anymore, Tomoyo struggled to
567 her feet. She stumbled away from the scene, half delirious from
568 the power of the Card and her visions. “You don’t need me
569 anymore, do you, Sakura-chan?” she asked the thin air. Again,
570 from somewhere, came the same scream of “No!” Had she
571 dreamed it? Tomoyo felt numb all over. Nothing seemed to
572 matter anymore. The person that mattered most didn’t care about
573 her at all. And she’d lost to Syaoran. She felt… jealous of him.
574 She wished she could be the one to make Sakura that happy. She
575 just prayed Sakura would always be happy as she stepped up on
576 the ledge of the rooftop. “You don’t need me anymore, Sakura-
577 chan. You don’t even want me as a friend. But you’re happy.”
578 She smiled sadly, blinded by her tears. “I’m glad. I’m glad that
579 Sakura-chan is happy. Please stay that way, Sakura-chan. I love
580 you. Forever. Maybe I can be your guardian angel,” she added
581 hopefully. With that, Tomoyo stepped off the ledge into
582 nothingness. She kept her eyes shut tight as the ground raced to
583 meet her.
585 Syaoran watched, shocked by the sudden turn of events.
586 He’d intended to make his point clear with Tomoyo, that she never
587 get in his way with Sakura, but she had turned suddenly and started
588 looking off at something only she could see. After talking to
589 herself, the dark haired girl had thrown herself off the rooftop. The
590 screams of the Seal Beast had surprised him, but Syaoran couldn’t
591 locate the magical animal no matter where he looked. He blinked
592 several times, still confused, and unsure about what had just
593 happened. “At least she won’t get in my way anymore,” he said to
594 no one in particular.
596 The world seemed to slow as a small dark haired girl
597 plummeted through the air. Further and further she went, the brief
598 amount of time slowing to a near stop for the girl as everything
599 seemed to move in slow motion. “Sakura-chan...” she whispered,
600 one last time, her eyes shut tight. Her heart felt as if it had been
601 ripped out of her chest. Her whole world, her whole reason to live,
602 had been crushed in the matter of minutes. She was looking
603 forward to an end to her pain, to the end of her torment, to
604 oblivion. And Sakura, her dear Sakura, would be happy.
605 A sudden impact shocked Tomoya back from her thoughts
606 and her fall was suddenly interrupted as two arms wrapped around
607 her tightly, fumbling desperately to hold on to her, gripping her
608 like a pair of steel bars. “Tomoyo-chan!” a voice cried in terror,
609 over and over in a hysterical pitch. Her mind wondered what was
610 happening, as the wind on her face gave her the impression of
611 climbing upwards. The voice, close to her ear and frantically
612 calling her name, was Sakura’s. Tomoyo could feel her friend’s
613 breathing coming in a labored pant as they raced skyward.
614 Opening her eyes slowly, Tomoyo blinked several times in
615 confusion. Wasn’t she supposed to be dead by now? She took a
616 second to glance around, and found herself in the arms of the Card
617 Mistress, whose wings were working hard to finish the arc of
618 Saukar’s dive. Seconds later Saukar touched down on a rooftop,
619 deposited Tomoyo on her feet and dropped to her hands and knees
620 beside the dark haired girl.
621 Maybe she was dead, Tomoyo thought. Maybe this was
622 heaven. “Sakura-chan? Why? Why did you save me, Sakura-
623 chan?” Tomoyo asked, her mind reeling. “I did this for you.
624 You’re happy. That’s all I wanted. You didn’t need me anymore.”
625 “No, Tomoyo-chan.” Sakura heaved herself into a kneeling
626 position, her hands clutching for the small girl. She embraced her
627 friend, crushing her to her chest, “I always need you,” she sobbed,
628 “You’re my best friend. You mean so much to me. I don’t know
629 what I’d do if you were gone.” She blinked back the stinging tears
630 in her eyes as she looked up at the dark haired girl. Her body felt
631 cold all over from the recent shock.
632 “But, Sakura-chan, you… I would only get in the way.
633 You aren’t even happy as friends anymore. You have what you
634 want. I hope you and Li-kun are very happy.” Tomoyo mustered a
635 pained smile before turning away.
636 Sakura bolted to her feet and seizing her friend, shook her
637 hard. “No! Tomoyo-chan, listen to me, it’s the Clow Card. The
638 Jealousy Card it’s still affecting you! We’re best friends, nothing
639 will ever change that. I know you want me to be happy, but losing
640 you would definitely not make me happy. And I want you to be
641 happy, too.” The Card Mistress sighed, looking deeply into
642 Tomoyo’s stormy blue eyes. “Tomoyo-chan, you have to fight this.
643 Please? For me?”
644 Tomoyo held her head, confusion flooding her mind.
645 Glancing towards the roof’s edge, to Sakura and back, she
646 shuddered, unsure of herself. Finally giving out a small cry,
647 Tomoyo threw herself into Sakura’s arms. “Oh, Sakura-chan, I’m
648 so sorry….” The dark haired girl sobbed. “I just… I thought you
649 hated me… that you didn’t need me anymore… and that you were
650 happy with, with… him…” Her sobs overwhelmed her and she
651 feel silent, leaning heavily against Sakura.
652 “Tomoyo-chan, it’s going to be okay,” Sakura said
653 soothingly, hugging the limp girl close to her. Tomoyo’s hot tears
654 rolled onto her shoulder, soaking into the cloth of her pajamas.
655 “It’s just the Card. I could never hate you, Tomoyo-chan. You
656 know that. You’re my very important person.” For a second,
657 Sakura wondered where she had heard that before, but she quickly
658 shrugged it off, not having time to worry about it. “Please,
659 Tomoyo-chan, don’t cry. It’s alright now.”
660 The dark haired girl took another shuddering breath before
661 standing up on her own. “Thank you, Sakura-chan.” A small,
662 genuine smile formed on her soft lips. “I always knew you would
663 come save me if anything happened.”
664 Sakura smiled back, relief filling her soul. “Of course I
665 would, Tomoyo-chan. I’m not about to let you get hurt by
666 something like this. Or anything, for that matter. I don’t want to
667 see you hurt, Tomoyo-chan.”
668 Before the Card Mistress could think to ask Tomoyo if she
669 was ready to go home, a sword slashed the air between both girls.
670 Tomoyo gasped and Sakura jumped back, her staff in hand. She
671 got ready to get a Card out just in case. Between them stood
672 Syaoran, hatred and jealousy flaring in his eyes. “Li-kun!? Fight it,
673 Li-kun! It’s just the Jealousy Card affecting you.”
674 “Fight what?” Syaoran spat angrily. “I saw the two of you.
675 She’s trying to steal you from me. She’s trying to get in the way.
676 To come between us!” Raising the sword, he swiped at a stunned
677 Tomoyo.
678 Sakura lunged forward, her eyes wide with fear of what he
679 might do. Her staff barely blocked his sword inches from the dark
680 haired girl. “Li-kun, don’t do this!” she pleaded as Tomoyo sank to
681 her knees.
682 He leapt backwards, landing in a fighting stance. He held
683 the sword straight up in front of him, his eyes falling closed as he
684 began to chant. Energy surrounded the blade.
685 Sakura barely had time to throw herself in the way of
686 Tomoyo when she realized what he was doing. “Shield!” she
687 yelled desperately as his attack came flying towards them. The
688 burst of lightening dissipated against Shield, leaving the two girls
689 unhurt. Sakura glanced at Tomoyo, assuring herself that her friend
690 was unharmed when another attack hit…and another and another.
691 “Li-kun! Leave her alone!” she screamed, “Don’t hurt her!!”
692 Sakura wondered how his rage could be so focused on the dark
693 haired girl behind her. “She’s never been anything but kind to
694 you!”
695 Syaoran narrowed his eyes as he began chanting again.
696 Sweeping the sword down, a burst of wind struck against Shield.
697 “How could you know?” he demanded. “She blinds you with her
698 hero worship, but she keeps coming between us. She’s why you
699 don’t returned my feelings.”
700 ‘That’s what this is all about isn’t it?’ Sakura asked herself
701 as she braced herself for his next attack. ‘They both… They’re
702 both in love with me.” Then the realization struck her with the
703 force of an express train. It was Sakura herself that had created the
704 problem, literally! As Card Mistress her feelings and desire were
705 made manifest in the form of Cards. Somehow she had created the
706 Jealousy Card without even thinking about it. That’s how Jealousy
707 got to them both so easily, and so strongly! ‘This is all my fault.’
708 “Stop this!” the Card Mistress yelled.
709 Turning to face him as she rose, Sakura pulled out Windy
710 and sent it spilling before her. “Bind Li-kun!” she yelled, bringing
711 the Key down on the Card. The resulting rush of air quickly
712 surrounded the startled boy, pinning his limbs tight against his
713 body. Sakura didn’t hesitate as she twirled the Key over head
714 again, Windy almost drowning out her command “…Sakura
715 Card!” The Card Mistress brought the Wand down on the softly
716 glowing green dot within the rushing wind. The Jealously Card
717 lifted out of Windy and floated to her waiting hand.
718 For a moment, the only sound that could be heard was the
719 wind rustling past them. Sakura recalled Windy and turned to face
720 Syaoran, hoping the danger was now over. Utter silence claimed
721 the rooftop for a moment. Then the clatter of Syaoran’s sword
722 against the roof broke the silence. His mind started to clear from
723 the haze of jealousy the Card had managed to place over him.
724 “Sakura” he stammered, his faced blossoming to a brilliant
725 crimson, “... I… I don’t know how I… I don’t know what to say…
726 I’m… I’m sorry.” He lowered his head.
727 Sakura let Shield fade away, but remained standing
728 protectively in front of Tomoyo. “I’m not the one you intended to
729 kill,” she said quietly. A second silence descended, this one
730 fraught with embarrassment. Sakura looked at her friends and
731 came to a decision.
732 “Fine,” she said, almost to herself. She was tired of
733 fighting. Tomoyo and Syaoran looked back at her quizzically,
734 wondering what she meant. “Fine. You both want to know who I
735 love, don’t you? Stop this, then. I care too much about both of
736 you to watch either of you get hurt. The Jealousy Card was using
737 both of you. And it’s because of me, because of your feelings for
738 me! It’s still getting to you both because of me. So I want to put
739 an end to this.” Sakura took a deep breath before continuing. “I
740 will make my decision tonight. I’ll tell you both tomorrow the one
741 who I love.”
742 Syaoran looked up at her, his face still scarlet, “Tomorrow
743 you’ll….”
744 Sakura nodded, cutting him off. “Hai. Tomorrow I’ll tell
745 you both which one I’m in love with.”
746 Bending down, Syaoran retrieved his sword from where it
747 had landed. Without a word he turned and leapt into the darkness.
748 As soon as he left, Sakura collapsed to her hands and
749 knees. The battle, the Card, and her own nervousness about what
750 had happened earlier that day had finally taken their toll. She
751 glanced over when she felt a gentle hand on her shoulder. She saw
752 Tomoyo’s concerned face looking back down at her. Before the
753 dark haired girl could say anything, Sakura threw her arms around
754 her friend with a tearful howl. “Tomoyo-chan! Oh God, I almost
755 lost you so many times tonight. You had me so worried. I’m so
756 sorry you got dragged into all this. If I hadn’t called you, none of
757 this would have happened.” She gently rocked back and forth,
758 cradling the dark haired girl against her.
759 Tomoyo sighed softly. She liked having the other girl so
760 protective of her, but she hated seeing Sakura so worried about
761 things. “Sakura-chan, I’m fine. It’s all over now.”
762 Sakura scrubbed her face with a free hand, trying to dry the
763 tears that continued to threaten. She untangled her arms from her
764 friend’s neck. Using her wand to help her weary body stand
765 upright, Sakura looked out at the dark night sky. “No. Not yet. I
766 still have to find out who I…” She blushed at the thought. In her
767 mind she could see the boy who had been her rival, but had turned
768 out to be her greatest help with the Clow Cards. She could also see
769 her best friend, the girl that had always been there for her. She let
770 her head drop sadly. She had no idea how she’d make a decision
771 by the next morning.
772 “Sakura-chan,” Tomoyo said softly, her voice barely above
773 a whisper. Sakura looked so fragile standing there. “Sakura-chan,
774 please don’t worry too much about tomorrow. Just make the
775 decision that will make you happy.”
776 Sakura turned back to her skeptically. “And I won’t have to
777 go rescuing you from jumping off buildings if it’s Li-kun?”
778 Tomoyo shook her head. “You said we’ll always be
779 friends, remember? That’s all I need. It’s what makes me happy.”
780 Smiling a little, Sakura felt her spirits lifting. “Thanks,
781 Tomoyo-chan. We will always be friends,” she reconfirmed, “It
782 makes me happy too.”
783 “No matter who you choose tomorrow, I’ll always be there
784 for you, Sakura-chan. And I’ll always love you.”
785 Sakura felt her cheeks burn as she blushed. She was still
786 nervous about the idea that her best friend could be in love with
787 her. But, putting that aside she invoked Fly, unfolded her wings
788 and turned towards Tomoyo. “Are you ready to go home?”
789 “Hai, Sakura-chan.” Tomoyo smiled.
790 “I’m so tired, but I doubt I’ll be getting any sleep tonight.”
791 Sakura sighed and lifted off into the sky.
793 Once Sakura had left Tomoyo on the terrace outside her
794 bedroom the Card Captor rose and allowed herself to drift. Kero-
795 chan was still missing, but she had more on her mind than the Seal
796 Beast, who was more than capable of taking care of himself. With
797 a soulful sigh she glanced down at the town, with its the clock
798 tower silhouetted against the moon. The clock proclaimed the
799 hour to be 1 AM. Morning already, Sakura realized with a sigh.
800 With a thought the Sakura Cards in her pocket floated into
801 the air, forming a circle around her. She felt their presence, their
802 love for her, and she drew comfort from it. It was a warm feeling.
803 Like when she had her arms around Tomoyo-chan.
804 She paused mentally.
805 No, not like it. It was different. It lacked a sort of
806 excitement. There was more to the feeling of comfort she had
807 when she had hugged her friend. Sakura’s mind raced away,
808 trying to put into words the feeling that was suddenly so very
809 important. But try as she might she could not find an expression
810 for that feeling.
811 With a thought her wings vanished and she began to fall.
812 “Float!” she cried over the wind, and didn’t wait for the
813 Card to answer her command before she turned in the circle of
814 Cards, looking for the one she wanted.
815 “Illusion!” she yelled, as the wand came down on the Card
816 named. “Show me my heart’s desire.”
817 Even as she said it she knew she was cheating, but her
818 mind, exhausted from the earlier battle, and everything else, was
819 becoming desperate. She could fly around all night waiting for the
820 lightening bolt that was Tomoyo-chan to strike her…
821 Sakura sat down hard, in midair, as the air left her body.
822 She drew a deep breath, her eyes fighting to focus. She sat stunned
823 for a long moment, trying to mentally collect herself. Before her
824 Illusion was beginning to take form, but she no longer cared to
825 wait for the outcome. Recalling the Cards she resumed her wings
826 and flew as quickly as possible back the way she came.
828 Tomoyo stood right where Sakura had left her. Her hands
829 were pressed to her chest, and her eyes, watching the sky. At first
830 Sakura was unsure that her friend had seen her return, but as she
831 alighted Tomoyo turned her face towards the Card Mistress. She
832 bore a look of serene peace that lifted some massive, unknown,
833 weight off of Sakura’s shoulders. Neither one spoke. Sakura felt
834 her wings fade and the weight of the charm around her neck.
835 Silently she walked to her friend, who stood unmoving and
836 watchful. When they where within inches of each other Sakura
837 stopped, and stood swaying for a moment. Slowly she sank to her
838 knees and slipped her arms around Tomoyo’s small waist.
839 Tomoyo’s head fell back as she awaited the words that would
840 transform her life. Sakura, her head pressed against her friend’s
841 hip, allowed her mind to express the feelings it couldn’t before.
842 “It’s you,” she whispered.
843 Tomoyo’s eyes rolled closed, tears spilling onto her cheeks.
844 “It’s you,” Sakura repeated, no longer surprised. “It will
845 always be you, it has always s been you.”
846 Tomoyo’s fingers unlaced themselves and found a new
847 home in Sakura’s hair. At the contact Sakura looked up at her
848 newly discovered lover. “Why didn’t you tell me?” she wondered
849 aloud.
850 Tomoyo lowered her head to face her friend. She smiled
851 through her tears, “You needed to learn for yourself,” was the
852 whispered reply.
853 “Are you sorry it took me so long to realize?”
854 A sad smile played on the dark haired girl’s lips, her voice
855 was a mere sigh, “I was willing to wait a lifetime for you…
856 Sakura.”
858 Kero-chan stood in the air before Li. They had both seen
859 everything that happened, and now Kero-chan was ready to defend
860 the lovers if the need arose. Li watched them for several long
861 minutes before he tore his eyes away to look at the Seal Beast.
862 “I’ve lost,” he whispered, “… everything. The Cards, the
863 girl I love… everything.”
864 Kero-chan’s tail whipped menacingly, “And what are you
865 going to do?”
866 Li frowned. “Do you think I would attack them?” he
867 asked, in a sort of shocked anger.
868 Kero-chan allowed his silence to speak for him. Li turned
869 his back on the scene and disappeared into the night.
872 The day dawned crystal clear and Sakura was out early. It
873 was her morning to clean the classroom, and she knew Tomoyo-
874 chan would be waiting for her.
875 It had been a week since they had come together as a
876 couple. ‘One week, six hours and 15 minutes,’ Sakura thought as
877 she pushed herself harder, racing the clock for extra seconds in the
878 company of her friend. More than friend, she corrected herself
879 with a smile. As she rollerbladed, she relived, for the thousandth
880 time, the feeling of Tomoyo’s hands on her as the dark haired girl
881 helped her to rise from her position of worship at her friend’s
882 waist. Felt, again, as Tomoyo’s hands gathered her own, and then
883 drew her into the dark bedroom. Sakura had wanted, so much, and
884 had slept, so long! She blushed, even now, thinking of it. Not a
885 good opening for a lifetime together, she mused, but Tomoyo
886 didn’t seem to mind.
887 As she came within sight of the school Sakura could make
888 out the form of Tomoyo waiting for her near the gate. She raised
889 her hand and waved wildly, the joy in her heart becoming one
890 thought, one word…
891 “Tomoyo-chan!”