My Eyes on You

 by Rich "Li"

 

 

 

 Author's Prelude to a Fanfictional Quest:  Konnichiwa fanfic reader!  Well, 'tis me again!  This time it's a songfic that will implement the song "Eyes on Me" written by Nobuo Uematsu (I believe) and performed by Faye Wong.  For the uneducated, this song appeared in Final Fantasy VIII (I know it's rather old...).  BTW, this is my first songfic, so you might as well bare with me if it isn't up to par with the other ones out there.   So, anyway, the fanfic will be a Tomoyo-Sakura 'fic.  If you're offended by love between girls (or Shoujo-ai, if you prefer), I suggest you stay away and bother someone else and/or hug a tree.  WORTHWHILE comments are welcome at ultima@inreach.com.  So, enjoy the story!

 

 Legal Disclaimer:  Card Captor Sakura and the song "Eyes on Me" are owned by their respective owners.  I'm just borrowing them.  I promise to return them unharmed.  So, don't do anything that will result in my demise...

 

 Story Note:  The story will be told in Tomoyo's perspective throughout. The song lyrics will be in Italics.  It will mostly consist of thought and recollection of Tomoyo thoughts about her unrequited love.  Let's just see how it will go, shall we?

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 ~Whenever sang my songs

 One the stage, on my own

 Whenever said my words

 Wishing they would be heard...~

 

 	

 	I keep replaying the scene over and over in my mind; the scene in which I told Sakura-chan how much I loved her.  Yet, no matter how I said it, it always came out ways she couldn't comprehend.  Yes, she has told me that she "loved me", but it was always in matters and friendship and companionship. 

 	 I wish she would have heard it.  I wish she would've have heard the true messages within my actions and words.  It would be so different now; My life wouldn't be as futile and as sullen as it is now...

 

 

 ~I saw you smiling at  me

 Was it real or just my fantasy

 You'd always be there in the corner

 of this tiny little bar...~

 

 

 

 	No matter how oblivious she is to my feelings for her are, I will always try my best to make her happy.  Ever since our paths crossed, I've believe that I was fated by the gods to make her as glorious and happy as she can be.  I felt like I was her guardian angel.  And no matter my internal pain, I smiled at her, although feigned.  I couldn't worry her about me.  I was just there to give support, and endure years of her kindness, beauty, friendship, and flippant attitude.  This is why I would try to be the first person in class; I couldn't wait to see her next to me after saying, "Ohayoo Gozaimasu Sakura-chan" and dream about her the rest of the day...

 

 

 

 ~My last night here with you

 Some old songs, just once more

 My last night here with you?

 Maybe yes, maybe no...~

 

 

 

 	I don't know what to do now.  I'm so befuddled with my life right now.  I'm even thinking about leaving Japan for good.  My unrequited love for Sakura is just tearing me up inside.  Maybe I should start a new life somewhere, but I don't think I can start a new life without Sakura-chan's presence before me.  She is my "lifeblood".  Without her, moving somewhere wouldn't make much of a difference.  I would just miss her ever more, furthering the regression of my already-damaged soul.  Gods, What should I do?  Maybe I should see her-and talk to her...

 	I asked my mother if the bodyguards could drive me to Sakura-chan's house.  She gladly accepted my plea, and then began to devulge more about her experiences with Nadeshiko on how she would visit her as much as she can.  My mother must've really loved her, because I too I'm feeling the same towards Sakura-chan as my mother was with Nadeshiko.  

             I called Sakura-chan and heard her answer the phone.  She has a such a wonderful and beautiful voice.  I felt my heart pound intensely as I spoke to her.  I told her I was going there because I needed to talk to her about something.  She asked if I was okay because It seemed my voice wasn't the usually tone Sakura-chan was used to hearing. I just gave her my usual feigned emotional stability over the phone. I told her I would be going there later.  I said I needed to talk to her.  She accepted my wish.  She said she would wait outside her house for me.  I then bombarded her with more of my usual gratification to her before I hung up. 	

 	I arrived at the front her house.  As I exited the car, I saw her; her beautiful emerald eyes gazing at me with such tenderness.  I approached her, only to nearly stumble.  Fortunately, Sakura-chan caught me before I hit the ground.  I felt so embarrassed, but being held by her made me even redder as my heart continued to beat harder and harder...

 

 

 

 ~Darling, so there you are 

 With that look on your face

 As if you're never hurt

 As if you're never down...~

 

 

 

 	Sakura-chan led me through the door.  The house was virtually empty, except for Kero-chan; he sitting on the kitchen table relishing a slice of strawberry cake on the kitchen table.  I greeted him, while he answered with a muffled "hello".  I giggled.  It was nice to laugh a little, considering the tension I was feeling.  As I turned away, Sakura-chan told a hold my hand and led me to her room.  I gazed at our clasped hands.  Oh how I wish I could experience this everyday of my life.

         	Sakura-chan and I both sat on her bed.  We stayed rather silent for a while, until Sakura-chan seemed to notice something was bothering me.  She looked straight at me with a look of great concern.

 	

 	"Tomoyo-chan, are you okay?  You seem really bothered by something," she said.	

 	"Ano...it's nothing..." I said, blantly lying to myself-as I always did around Sakura-chan.

 

 	"...You can't lie to me Tomoyo-chan.  I know there is something bothering you.  I can see it...in you eyes.  Please, let me help you Tomoyo-chan.  What is wrong?"

 

 	I turned away from her gaze.  "It's just that..."  Why is saying 'I love you' so hard?  I'm acting like a complete baka right now...

 

 	Sakura-chan then placed her hand on my cheek and moved my head to face her.  I felt a deluge of redness rush to my complexion as she touched me.  "Please, whatever you have to say, say it while we gaze into each others eyes," Sakura-chan said.  The way she said it, almost gave me this feeling; a feeling that that tells me that I'm not the only one in love...

 

 

 ~Shall I be the one for you

 Who pinches you softly but sure

 If frown is shown then

 I will know that you are no dreamer...~

 

 

 

 	I gazed at her pleaded eyes and finally conjured the courage to tell her how much I love her.  I've never felt so nervous in my life.  I took a hold of Sakura-chan's hand and challenged fate...

 

 	"Sakura-chan...what I want to tell you is that...you're very special to me and...  What I really want to tell you is that I...love you.  I-love-you Sakura-chan."  Tears began to flow from my eyes.  I couldn't hold back any longer.  "I hope you understand...please understand Sakura-chan.  I don't want this to end my friendship with you...  I just had to tell you this...please forgive me."  I buried my face on my hands, frightened to face rejection...

 

 	"Please don't cry Tomoyo-chan.  I'm still here.  You don't have to be afraid.  I will always be by your side.  It's okay..."  Sakura-chan embraced me tightly and pressed her body against mine.  I, too, wrapped my arms around her.  She then rested her head on my shoulder.  I heard her whisper-barely audible-but the message was so clear to me...

 

 

 ~So let me come to you

 Close as I wanted to be

 Close enough for me

 To feel your heart beating fast...~

 

 

 

 	Sakura-chan continued to hold onto me, while she whispered to me words I've dreamed for so long to hear.

 

 	"I could feel your heart Tomoyo-chan.  It's beating so fast.  But, try and feel my heart Tomoyo-chan.  It's beating as fast as yours.  You know why? I, too, have a confession to make.  I've been waiting so long for this oppurtunity.  Now it's my chance to tell you...  I love you too Tomoyo-chan..."

 

 	I broke the embrace, staring wide-eyed at Sakura-chan.  I couldn't believe what I was hearing.  Sakura-chan...was...in love with me?  A plethora of emotions enveloped me.  However, the only emotions I felt were only feelings of joy and finally happiness...

 

 

 

 ~And stay there as I whisper

 How I loved you peaceful eyes on me

 Did you ever know

 That I had mine on you...~

 

 

 	"Sakura-chan?  Do you really...love me?"  I asked to be completely sure I heard her correctly.

 

 	"Yes.  Yes, I love you with all my heart Tomoyo-chan.  It just took me so long to realize that you are the one for me.  Only you..."

 

 	"Sakura-chan...I love you with all my heart too.  Ever since I've met you, I couldn't keep my eyes off you in both keen friendship and passionate love.  I just couldn't tell you...because I was afraid."

 

 	"I understand Tomoyo-chan.  It's okay.  I was afraid too.  That's why I never told you sooner.  But when you declared your love for me, I finally had a chance to tell you.  I'm so glad you told me.  If you haven't, I don't know if I would've told you.  Please forgive me Tomoyo-chan.  I'm sorry I've caused you so much pain."

 

 	"I'm not angry at you Sakura-chan.  I can never be angry with you.  This whole ordeal has given a lot of grief and pain, even to the point of me planning to leave Japan.  But, I knew in the end, my Sakura-chan would come through for me." 

 

 	"Tomoyo-chan...I promise I will never cause you any pain.  I swear this on my life.  I vow to protect you forever-and love you forever..."

 

 	We leaned closer to each other and caressed each others cheeks.  We leaned even closer, gazing each other with such intensity-such passion.  

 

 

 

 ~Darling, so share with me

 Your love if you have enough

 Your tears if you're holding back

 Or pain if that's what it is...~

 

 

 

 	Our lips brushed together, and finally connected.  The dark cloud over my soul has lifted; My scars have healed; My life is worth living again; I feel whole again.  All of this has been done with a simple, but passionate kiss from my beloved.

 	We broke the kiss then held each other snuggly.  We both wept tears of joy declaring our love for each other repeatedly.  We finally were happy, and it couldn't be any better than being in Sakura-chan's loving arms.  We continued to hold each other throughout under the romance of the beautiful moonlit night.

 

 

 

 ~How can I let you know

 I'm more than the dress and the voice

 Just reach me out then

 you will know that you're not dreaming.~

 

 

 	We both awoke bathed in the sunlight.  We found each other, and realized we both haven't been dreaming.  The dreams we've had come to a conclusion.  We finally start a new fate together basking in the realm of reality.  We will cherish our love everyday forever, and always remember that fateful day in which we gazed into each other's passionate eyes and said "I love you".

 

 

 -Owari 

 

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 Author's Epilogue to a Fanfictional Quest:  Gomen nasai, but in my previous story "Dreaming of Sakura", I promised a longer and better 'fic.  Yet again, I failed.  This story didn't pan out so well for me, but I wanted to finish it since I went far into it.  I'm writing these stories half-asleep.  But with Summer VA-CA, I should get a few more stories into my "to-do" list.  I just hope you enjoy what I have on the table write now.  Once I get my studies out of the way, I can finally focus on creative writing...and watching more and more anime /\_/\. Anyway, thanks for reading and see you again someday!  Let me just catch up some sleep and I'll be fine...  

 

 UP NEXT:  More CCS: Sakura/Tomoyo fics and possibly a Koutetsu Tenshi Kurumi fic (Steel Angel Kurumi) coming up in the future.