Growing up

 A Sailor Moon Sekkushiaru Roman-meaning...it's a Hentai story that 

 MEANS something.

 Rating-H, for Hentai

 By:  Psychokittensenshi611-email, katprincess82@hotmial.com

 

 	It's alright to tell me

 	What you think about me

 	I won't try to argue

 	Or hold it against you

 	I know that you're leaving

 	You must have your reasons

 	The season is calling

 	Your pictures are falling

 	Down

 	The steps that I retrace

 	The sad look on your face

 	The timing instructor

 	Did you hear he fucked her

 	A day late a buck short

 	I'm writing the report

 	I'm losing and failing

 	When I move I'm flailing

 	Now

 	And it's happened once again

 	I'll turn to a friend

 	Someone that understands

 	And sees to the master plan

 	But everybody's gone

 	And I've been here for too long

 	To make it on my own

 	Well I guess this is growing up

 	Well I guess this is growing up

 	Well maybe I'll see you

 	At a movie, sneak preview

 	You'll show up and walk by

 	On the arm of that guy

 	And I'll smile and you'll wave

 	We'll pretend it's ok

 	The charade it won't last

 	When he's gone I won't come back

 	And it'll happen once again

 	You'll turn to a friend

 	Someone that understands

 	And sees to the master plan

 	But everybody's gone

 	And you've been there for too long

 	To face this on your own

 	Well I guess this is growing up

 	Well I guess this is growing up

 	Well I guess this is growing up

 	Well I guess this is growing up

 	Well I guess this is growing up

 	- Blink 182

 

 	ChibiUSA woke up in Hotaru's arms.  Her best friend and 

 lover...her one and only.  She smiled, and watched her lover sleep.  

 The light breathing made only tiny sounds, and she loved watching.  

 ChibiUSA remembered, when they were just friends.  She remembered 

 the way she felt when Hotaru would comfort her in her arms, and how 

 the motion was one of only friendly love.

 	But that was quite different now.  When she was in Hotaru's 

 arms, they were usually in the midst of making love...or at least, 

 about to make love.  She smiled in remembrance of the night before.  

 Hotaru was so beautiful...so amazing.  She really loved her...and 

 wanted to tell the world.

 	But she couldn't.  They were only fifteen...not old enough to 

 even marry.  ChibiUSA also wanted to go to the United States 

 first...she had always wanted to visit there.  And now, with it being 

 summer, she had the chance.  And she wanted Hotaru to go with her.

 	Would she go?  She hoped so.  With her all of small pink 

 heart, ChibiUSA hoped that Hotaru would go with her to America.  It 

 would be the best vacation she would ever have...but only if Hotaru 

 would come with her.

 

 	Hotaru woke up to ChibiUSA watching her.  "Hi Chibi-chan."  

 She said softly, and stretched out.  She looked around the room, 

 and realized it was night.  "You woke me up when I could sleep?"

 	"I'm sorry, Taru-chan."  ChibiUSA smiled.  "You look so 

 beautiful when you sleep."

 	"Mm...thank you.  You look so beautiful when you're naked."  

 Chibi blushed.  Hotaru rolled over on top of her lover and kissed 

 her.  "If it's still night...then we still have time..."

 	"Of course."  ChibiUSA kissed Hotaru back.  She wrapped her 

 arms around Hotaru's waist, holding her closer.  Hotaru held 

 Chibi's face in-between her two hands, kissing her lover fiercely.

 	"Chibi-chan..."  She whispered breathlessly.  "I love you."

 	"I love you to, Taru-chan."  They kissed again, and Hotaru 

 descended on her lover with a fierce need.  She kissed down Chibi's 

 neck, and reached her breasts quickly.  Sneaking a look at Chibi 

 first, she kissed one of those small breasts and licked the pink 

 rosebud nipple that matched her hair.  While Hotaru was doing this, 

 one of her tiny hands snaked down Chibi's stomach to the junction 

 of her thighs.  With one quick movement, she was at the sweet 

 entrance to Chibi's most secret cave.  She massaged around it 

 gently, and brushed her fingertips around the lips.  "Hotaru!"  

 ChibiUSA yelled out.  She arched her hips and back upwards, 

 offering herself to Hotaru.

 	Hotaru would not decline this offer.

 	She gently slid one of her fingers inside of ChibiUSA, 

 keeping in mind how sensitive this area was.  She did this just as 

 she began to suck Chibi's breast, and ChibiUSA yelled out.  She 

 slid her fingers in and out of ChibiUSA, feeling Chibi's legs wrap 

 around her own.  Chibi's hips were bucking, and her movements 

 increased.  Hotaru switched to the other breast, repeating the 

 process and delighting in her lover's moans.  Chibi realized, with 

 a slight nagging in the back of her mind, that she was not doing 

 anything to please Hotaru.

 	She slid down farther, just so that she could get at Hotaru's 

 breasts.  And that is what she did.  Taking her arms from Hotaru's 

 waist, she reached them up to caress her breasts.  She rubbed her 

 palms over the nipples, feeling them respond to her touch.  Hotaru 

 let out a delicious shudder.  ChibiUSA pulled Hotaru closer, and 

 licked one of the rosebuds that came toward her mouth.  Hotaru 

 moaned, thrusting her fingers inside ChibiUSA harder, even adding a 

 second one.  Chibi had to suppress a moan, and sucked Hotaru's 

 breasts gently.  She slid her hands along her lover's back, pulling 

 her ever closer and into her mouth.  Hotaru let out another deep 

 moan, looking up at the ceiling.  Delicious feelings were rushing 

 through the both of them, and she loved every moment of it.

 	All of a sudden, ChibiUSA let out a screech.  She bucked 

 uncontrollably, and threw her head back herself.  She had herself 

 propped up on her elbows, and her hips were thrusting onto Hotaru's 

 small hand with more force than she knew she had.  Sweatbeads 

 glistened in the moonlight streaming in from the open window, and 

 Hotaru gasped at the lovely figure before her.	ChibiUSA collapsed 

 back on the bed, breathing hard.  "HOTARU..."  She sighed.  She 

 reached for her lover, and her hands came in contact with two 

 thighs.  "Come here, Hotaru..."  She said softly, reaching for her 

 lover.  She complied, and Hotaru crawled next to her.  Chibi had an 

 idea.  "No, Hotaru, I want you on top of me."

 	"What?"  Hotaru didn't understand.

 	"I have a surprise for you.  Just come here..."  Chibi pulled 

 Hotaru onto her, and shifted her position.  "Just kneel down..."  

 Hotaru complied once again, perplexed.  But when ChibiUSA slid down 

 so that her head was in-between Hotaru's legs, she knew what was 

 going to happen.

 	She let out an anxious "oh..." and waited.  Chibi let her small 

 tongue snake out, reveling in Hotaru's deep intake of breath.  She 

 licked her tongue across her lover's entrance slowly, not daring to 

 move too fast.  Hotaru moaned, and squeezed her eyes shut tight.  

 Chibi stuck her tongue inside of her, and Hotaru let out a very 

 loud moan.  "Oh Chibi!"  She shouted out, not caring about anyone 

 hearing her.  She wanted to tell the world about her and ChibiUSA, 

 but would wait until they were BOTH ready for that.  At this 

 thought, she felt her lover's hands slide up her thighs 

 slowly...turning her on with anticipation.  Chibi's right hand stayed 

 on her thigh, but her left hand snaked upwards towards her flat 

 tummy.  She kneaded her stomach slowly and gently, reveling in the 

 feel of tensed muscles.  Hotaru was beautiful...so perfect and 

 muscular and...she sighed, and moved her tongue quickly.  "CHIBI!"  

 Hotaru cried out, eyes full of love and mischief.  She loved it 

 when ChibiUSA did this to her...it was her most favorite thing in the 

 world.  And when Chibi did it to her, it was worth the wait.

 	Hotaru knelt above Chibi now, her hands balling up the pillow 

 behind her lover's head with lust.  The energy was building up 

 inside of her, and she felt like she could scream out in delicious 

 agony.  Her hips bucked, her eyes squeezed shut, her cries 

 increased, and her muscles tensed.

 	Then...

 	Time stopped.

 	It just stopped.  She knew what was going to come next, the 

 delicious release of love and lust 

 and...

 	Here it comes...

 	"OoOoOoOHhHhHhH!!"  She exclaimed.  Her moan was low and 

 deep, surprising both her and her lover.  Chibi's movements slowed 

 and then stopped, and Hotaru collapsed above her.

 	Minutes or maybe hours went by, she couldn't tell.  All she 

 knew was that she was incredibly happy...and that she loved Chibi 

 will all of her heart.  She finally got off of her now squished 

 love, and flopped down beside her on the bed.  "Are you alright, 

 Taru?"  A small voice emerged from that long throat of hers.

 	"I'm...wonderful."  She pulled her close and kissed her.  

 "You're amazing, my Chibi."

 	"I love you, Hotaru."

 	"I love you too, Chibi."

 	And they drifted off into a peaceful sleep.

 

 *   *   *

 

 	"AMERICA?!  YOU WANT TO GO TO AMERICA?!"  Hotaru threw up her 

 arms toward the blue summer sky.

 	"Yes, Taru-chan, I do."  ChibiUSA was shocked by this 

 reaction in her lover.  She knew that Hotaru didn't like Americans 

 that much...after being assaulted by one of the exchange students.  

 But she didn't think she would object so strongly to this offer...

 	"Well you can just go by yourself.  I wouldn't DREAM of going 

 there."  Hotaru stormed off.  ChibiUSA ran after her, dodging 

 crowds, strollers, and couples eating ice cream together in the 

 park.

 	"Taru!  Wait!"  She ran after her, and finally caught up.  

 She rested a hand on her lover's shoulder, forcing her to stop 

 walking.  After taking a few deep breaths, ChibiUSA was ready to 

 begin.  "Hotaru...please listen."

 	"I'm listening."  Hotaru didn't want to be this way with 

 ChibiUSA, but she was angry.  Why AMERICA of all places?  That 

 country and it's inhabitants scared Hotaru more than anything else 

 in the world.

 	"I wanted to go with you there...for a vacation.  Just the two 

 of us.  And, when we came back, I wanted to tell...tell 

 everyone...about us."  Chibi's face went red.  Hotaru gasped.

 	"You did?"

 	"Yes, Taru-chan."

 	"Oh!"  Hotaru gasped again.  She was so happy...so incredibly 

 happy she could cry.  Finally...everyone would know about the two of 

 them, and no one could come between the love they shared.

 	"Will you go with me then, Taru-chan?"  ChibiUSA pulled her 

 best friend and lover close.  "Please?"

 	Hotaru looked away, deciding.  "Alright, Chibi.  I'll go with 

 you.  But...I'm really scared to go..."

 	"Don't worry.  I'll be with you."  She laughed, and soon 

 Hotaru joined in nervously.  She hoped Chibi was right...and that 

 nothing would go wrong.

 

 *   *   *

 

 	"You mean you didn't tell anyone we were going together?"  

 Hotaru was outraged.  "But you said you wanted me to come...and now 

 you won't tell a soul that we're going together?!"  Hotaru picked 

 up her purse from Chibi's bed.  "I can't believe you lied to all of 

 them Chibi!"

 	"I didn't want them to know about us..."

 	Hotaru could have grabbed her.  She really could have. 

 "CHIBI!  You're telling me that you didn't even tell them we're 

 going to America together...and that you're just going to come out 

 easily when we come back?  Oh, but you wouldn't dream of even 

 hinting at it before.  Let's just surprise everyone.  I don't 

 understand you, ChibiUSA!"

 	"Taru-chan, it's not easy to spring this news on them.  I 

 don't want them to know I'm gay!"  Chibi had spit the words out, 

 not thinking.  Now she regretted them, and wished she hadn't spoken 

 at all.

 	"Gay?!  Is that it?!  GAY?!  Oh, so it doesn't matter that 

 we're in love at all.  That doesn't mean anything to you.  If I was 

 a man, would it be easier to tell everyone about us?!"  She got up 

 so that she was eye level with ChibiUSA.

 	"Well...yeah, it would be easier if you were a man."  Chibi 

 agreed.  She did a mental head slap afterwards, wishing yet again 

 that she had shut up.

 	"Oh, grow up Chibi-chan.  Grow up.  I'm tired of hiding, I'm 

 tired of waiting for you.  I'm tired of sitting around, wasting my 

 time with you because you're afraid.  We're in LOVE, ChibiUSA.  

 Does that mean nothing?  We're in LOVE.  And still, you don't tell 

 anyone.  Not even Diana.  But now, you want me to go somewhere I 

 REALLY don't want to go with the promise that you'll tell everyone 

 later.  If it's so hard for you to tell your friends that we're 

 just going on a trip together, how hard will it be to admit we're 

 in love?"  Chibi didn't have an answer to that.  She stepped around 

 her bed and looked out her window, her back away from her lover.  

 "Chibi-chan, I love you.  But I refuse to sit around and listen to 

 promises that will only be broken."  Chibi heard her walk to the 

 door.  "Call me when you grow up."

 	The door slammed just as Chibi's first tear fell.

 

 *   *   *

 

 	Diana hopped onto her friend's bed, purring.  ChibiUSA had 

 not moved from that bed for days, she would just sit there and cry.  

 Diana knew about the fight she had with Hotaru, but didn't know it 

 had been that serious...

 	Diana nudged her friend with her small furry head.  She 

 purred louder out of concern, and laid against her.  What was wrong 

 with her?  She had never seen Chibi like this, ever.

 	Hotaru and Chibi had been best friends for over three years 

 now.  They spent the night with each other almost every night, they 

 would stay up into the wee hours of the morning discussing things 

 that the little cat was foreign to.  She knew that Chibi and Hotaru 

 were closer than they let on in public...they talked about love and 

 said they loved each other a lot.  The little cat would be 

 underneath her friend's bed, and then she would hear it.

 	"I love you, Chibi-chan."

 	"I love you too, Taru-chan."

 	On and on that would go, and she would hear moans and sighs 

 and noises she couldn't place.  She hadn't known what to make of 

 it, and her innocent cat ears didn't know what it was.  She had 

 thought, though, that they could possibly be...

 	No, she shook her head.  Not the two of them, they're just 

 best friends.

 	Something nagged at her little kitty brain, but she pushed it 

 aside.  They couldn't be IN love...with each other...could they?

 	She hopped off of Chibi's bed and ran out of the house.  She 

 would have to ask her mother, Luna.

 

 *   *   *

 

 	Hotaru sat on her bed, crying her eyes out.  Should she have 

 been so hard on her ChibiUSA?  She didn't even know if she could 

 call her that anymore...her Chibi.  Was that gone forever now?  She 

 didn't know.  She balled up the sheets on her bed in her 

 frustration as the tears tumbled down, salty beads that would hang 

 on her chin before dropping onto her already tear-stained pillow.

 	"Hotaru!"  She heard a voice calling her.  She recognized it 

 almost immediately, and wiped her tears away.

 	"Yes Luna?"

 	"May I come in?"  Hotaru got up to answer her door, and the 

 little black cat walked inside.  She watched her friend as Hotaru 

 sat down once again upon the bed, and walked up next to her on it.

 	"Hotaru...is something wrong?"  Luna asked gently.

 	"No, I'm fine."  Hotaru lied.  She didn't want to tell 

 everyone why she was crying...not if Chibi wasn't ready.  She 

 realized, with a pang to her heart, that she didn't want to hurt 

 Chibi.  No, she didn't.

 	"Taru-chan, something IS wrong with you.  Chibi hasn't gone 

 out of her room for days now, and you seem to be crying all of the 

 time.  Now, I realize you had a fight, but I didn't know it was 

 this serious.  And, Diana seems to suspect..."  She stopped herself 

 before she carried on.  She didn't want to address the issue just 

 yet.  Also, what if they WEREN'T lovers?  That would be a horrible 

 embarrassment...

 	"We just had a really bad fight, that's all."  Hotaru played 

 with her now torn up Kleenex.

 	"Don't lie to me, Hotaru.  I recognize the look in your eyes.  

 I want to know what's going on, before the both of you get any more 

 depressed."  Luna's voice was stern, and she wished she didn't have 

 to be this way.  But she wasn't going to let ChibiUSA and Hotaru 

 cry for the rest of the summer.

 	Hotaru began to sob again.  "Chibi...Chibi didn't want anyone 

 to know yet.  I can't...I won't...break my promise to her."

 	"Then I'll just have to ask Chibi."  Luna walked out of the 

 room, leaving Hotaru alone once again.

 

 *   *   *

 

 	"Luna!  I told you, nothing's wrong with me.  I just had a 

 fight with my best friend and it upsets me.  Now please, leave me 

 alone!"  Chibi yelled at her friend.  Luna grew angry at this, and 

 wished she weren't just a little cat.  It would be more helpful if 

 she could just grab ChibiUSA and shake her until she talked.  But 

 that wouldn't work right now, would it?

 	Luna walked on all fours until she was right in front of 

 Serena's future daughter.  She knew that this was her princess, and 

 she should be treated with respect.  But that thought was far away 

 from her now.  "Chibi-chan, listen to me.  Hotaru is sitting in her 

 room, crying as well.  She told me she couldn't tell me what was 

 going on because she promised you she wouldn't.  Now, either you 

 tell me, or you lose her forever."

 	Chibi gulped.  Is this what Hotaru meant?  Growing up?  She 

 didn't know.  If it was, growing up sucked.  But she did know that 

 she loved Hotaru, and that they both needed each other more than 

 ever.  "Alright, Luna.  I'll tell you."  She swallowed hard again.  

 "But you have to promise not to tell anyone else.  I'm...I'm not sure 

 if I'm ready for anyone to know yet..."

 	"Alright, ChibiUSA.  I promise."  Luna nodded her little head 

 and sat down, waiting to hear her friend's tale.

 	"Well, it all started in May.  I was spending the night at 

 her house, like I usually did on the weekends.  And...and I began to 

 feel strangely about her that day.  I didn't know why...but I did.  

 And, in the morning, I accidentally rolled over on her.  I woke up 

 and I was on top of her, and I tried to pull away, and we ended up 

 all tangled up on the floor.  It was really embarrassing...but it was 

 something more."  She sighed and looked away from Luna.

 	"Go on..."

 	"That...that day, we both realized that we...loved each other, 

 and not just as friends."

 	Luna almost gasped.  She had suspected it...along with Diana, 

 after seeing the way the two looked at each other.  But she hadn't 

 KNOWN it.

 	"Luna, I love her.  I'm in love with her.  But I didn't know 

 how to tell anyone...I was scared.  I still am.  But I'm not as 

 scared of the world finding out, I'm scared of losing her.  Oh 

 Luna, please, help me!"  ChibiUSA began to cry again.  She hunched 

 over, still maintaining her sitting position on her bed, but was 

 crying into her hands and knees.  Luna watched, trying to offer 

 some comfort...but didn't know how to.

 	"Chibi-chan...I can't just help you with this.  You really hurt 

 her.  If you want her back, you have to tell everyone yourself.  Go 

 to Usagi and Mamoru, tell them.  Tell the Senshi, tell everyone.  

 Then and only then will Hotaru come back to you."  Luna got up and 

 hopped off the bed.  "And you shouldn't be so afraid to tell 

 everyone.  We love you, ChibiUSA, and we wouldn't say or do 

 anything to hurt you or the person you love.  Whoever that may be."  

 Luna walked silently out of the room.

 

 *   *   *

 

 	ChibiUSA stood in front of the airline gate, waiting for 

 boarding to start.  She had her ticket with her and was ready to 

 head off to America...but the thought that Hotaru wouldn't be joining 

 her foreshadowed the exciting journey.  She almost began to cry, 

 but stopped herself.

 	She had told everyone.  She told Usagi...she told Mamoru, and 

 they had listened with caring expressions.  They told her they 

 loved her, and that they supported her no matter what.  The same 

 with everyone else...Ami, Rei, Makoto, Minako, Setsuna, Michiru, 

 Haruka, Artimis, Diana...everyone.  They had all told her the same 

 thing...that they loved her and supported to.

 	But she didn't have the guts to tell Hotaru what she had 

 done.  She had hoped...briefly...that Hotaru would come running back to 

 her, all open arms and tears and happiness shining in her yes...if 

 she just told everyone.  That was what Hotaru wanted, right?  For 

 everyone to know about the two of them.  But obviously that wasn't 

 the only thing.  She hadn't seen Hotaru, or talked to her, or even 

 heard about her for three weeks now...three weeks after she confessed 

 her deepest secret.

 	"Rows 14 through 24 may now enter the plane."  A voice over 

 an intercom informed her.  She looked down at her ticket once more, 

 but she didn't need to.  Row 15, seat B.  Great...the middle.  She'd 

 be squished between two fat sweaty business men for sure.

 	The thought almost made her laugh.  She didn't know if she 

 could still laugh...if Hotaru wasn't there to laugh along with her.  

 ChibiUSA looked down at the floor as the line inched forward.  But, 

 some noise, or maybe it was the tugging at her heart, made her look 

 up.

 	She searched the airport's boarding area, and nothing seemed 

 to have changed since the last time she had looked.  But...she felt 

 something in her soul, telling her to keep looking.

 	Her heart swelled.  Tears of happiness came to her eyes.

 	"CHIBI!!!  WAIT FOR ME!!!"  Hotaru was running through the 

 crowds, a ticket and carry-on bag in hand.  She was crying tears of 

 happiness herself, and her arms were open.  Chibi could have run 

 into them.

 	"HOTARU!!!!"  She screamed back.  She didn't care about the 

 stares anymore.  She really didn't.

 	Hotaru ran into her lovers arms, and Chibi picked her up off 

 of the ground.  She spun her lover around, making the people around 

 her back up in fear of being hit.  When she did put Hotaru down, 

 both girls were smiling and laughing and crying.  "Oh Chibi...I love 

 you!"  Hotaru threw her arms around ChibiUSA's neck.

 	"I love you too, Hotaru."  Chibi kissed her then, right in 

 the airport.  No more panic, no more cares...all she knew was that 

 she loved Hotaru, and they were going to America together.

 	Who cares what the future will bring...all I know is that I 

 love you, Hotaru.

 	I guess this is growing up.

 

 *   *   *

 

 	WHEW!!  Damn!!  That took meeh a long ass time.  Ok...my poor 

 hands are so sore from typing!   oh well.  I hereby dedicate this 

 story to the Amazoness Duo (or Quartet...whatever) and their story, 

 "Aishiteru, ChibiUSA".  I used some pieces from that story...(a.k.a. 

 where Chibi confesses to Luna what happened with her and 

 Hotaru)...and I would like to thank them for the wonderful fics they 

 made of the two of them!  I hope I did it justice.

 	Oh...by the way, in order to have the entire song on one page, 

 I didn't do the entire legal thing.  So here I go...

 	Ok.  This is a Sekkushiaru Roman...one that I made up, but 

 these characters are not mine.  They are the products of Naoko 

 Takeuchi and company...so I didn't make them, I'm just living and 

 loving through them.

 	I hope you enjoyed!  Oh, and just so everyone knows...if it 

 seems like there's a continuing pattern in my fics...that's because 

 there IS!  I use songs as my inspiration, as well as people.  This 

 is one of the few fics that I didn't dedicate to my friends...I have 

 moved to another state and seriously miss them...but I do have a lot 

 of time on my hands.  So if you were wondering...yes, each story I 

 create will begin with pieces from a song.  I would like to thank 

 all of the wonderful Hentai and Sekkushiaru Roman writers out 

 there...you have all done your part to make the world of Sailor Moon 

 a little more wonderful.

 	Thank you all!

 

 	~Psychokittensenshi611~

 		eeh-mail...katprincess82@hotmail.com