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[svn r4] got moon images from NASA!
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date Sun, 14 Mar 2010 07:01:51 -0400
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1 There was no feeling of joy in the dark haired girl's senses afterwards.
2 Tomoyo spent the entire evening inside her room and refused human contact
3 from anyone else in the house. She laid down on top of her bed with her
4 head embedded in her pillow. She began to weep as her sobs were muffled by
5 the thick cushion. There was no way for her to understand why Sakura
6 rejected her without any clear motive. Tomoyo couldn't stop thinking about
7 why things went wrong for her. She lifted her head up and glanced across
8 the room at the camcorder. She had recorded many images with it and had
9 captured many memories, but the subject of a vast majority of those
10 memories was Sakura. Whether it was getting footage of the capture of a
11 Clow Card, or taking shots while walking through the park, Tomoyo would
12 always playback anything that had her best friend in it. The thought of
13 Sakura use to shine a beacon of joy within Tomoyo's heart, but tonight,
14 sadness was the only feeling that rested in her heart. Tomoyo didn't think
15 she would ever watch any of her videos again, or even use the camcorder
16 again. The dark haired girl placed her head on her pillow and cried as
17 heartache overtook her senses.
18 >
19 > The whole situation was still confusing for Sakura. After spending
20 almost an entire day's time thinking about it, Sakura decided to do some
21 rollerblading to clear her head. But gliding down the sidewalk in the
22 early afternoon didn't make any difference. 'What did she mean by it?'
23 Sakura thought to herself. 'And why did she do it? I still don't
24 understand.' Sakura fully understood Tomoyo's intention for writing the
25 letter, what she didn't understand was how it could be natural for Tomoyo
26 to feel that way. 'Was she just joking about it? Hmm...no, that's
27 probably not it. She wouldn't have done anything like that to me. But how
28 could she say all that and mean it?' As Sakura continued skating, her
29 thoughts went to what was actually said in Tomoyo's letter. Sakura
30 recalled the feelings of emotion that the letter tried to convey. She
31 didn't think much of it at first, but the more she thought about it, the
32 more she related it to all of the moments she was with Tomoyo. She thought
33 about all of the times that Tomoyo looked up to her and gave her support
34 when she was a card captor. She thought about the times when the two of
35 them would just hand out together. The one thing that Sakura rememberd the
36 most about Tomoyo was the way she looked at her. Tomoyo's eyes were always
37 full of cheerfulness and affection, and now that Sakura had read the
38 letter, she understood why Tomoyo always had that look of affection. The
39 brown haired girl's thoughts began to effect how fast she was moving on her
40 rollerblades. Her speed decreased until she came to a stop at a street
41 corner. As Sakura stood motionless, she thought about how much Tomoyo
42 cared for her, about how much her heart went out to Sakura. Then her mind
43 went back to how she treated Tomoyo the other day, the way she abandoned
44 her best friend without telling her how she felt. She was beginning to get
45 mad at herself for reacting that way and she was starting to imagine how
46 Tomoyo was feeling about all of this. Sakura was afraid of committing the
47 crime she hoped never to commit, breaking the feelings of her best friend.
48 Tomoyo's bright smile was something that the brown haired girl loved to see
49 and it got to her that she might not see it again. But as guilt was making
50 its way into the girl, another feeling came in that was even stronger. The
51 feelings that Sakurta had for Tomoyo were tremendous. Sakura had always
52 felt that she wanted to help out her friend if she felt sad or worried.
53 Her desire to help was greater than it had ever been, even while she knew
54 that she was the cause of the problem. It was now she realized that she
55 cared about her friend so much, that she loved her. This new discovery
56 shocked Sakura as well as added to her confusion. It was hard for her to
57 think that she could feel that strongly toward another girl. There was
58 nothing that seemed logical in the situation that Sakura was in. The brown
59 haired girl was lost in the thoughts of her mind until she heard something
60 approach. As she looked forward to see what brought her back to reality,
61 she saw that a black car was coming down the street. It didn't take Sakura
62 long to recognize the vehicle. "That's Tomoyo's car," she said. As the
63 car passed her, Sakura was able to get a good look inside. Sakura noticed
64 the driver and Tomoyo's bodyguards and, for a brief instant, saw that
65 Tomoyo was riding along with them. But it was the expression on Tomoyo's
66 face that got Sakura's attention. The dark haired girl had her head hung
67 low with a lok of utter depression. It was obvious to Sakura how her
68 friend felt as the car drove by. Sakura watched until the vehicle was out
69 of sight. The girl became concerned over what she had seen. But even as
70 she felt sorry for her best friend, she cringed after seeing the results of
71 her actions firsthand.