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1 Title: Seal Cards
2 Subtitle: Epitomes of Love
3 Author: Matthias Engel aka MysticMew
4 Feedback: Solarsenshi@gmx.de
5 Status: Alpha
6 Fandom: Card Captor Sakura (manga)
7 Rating: PG-13 (with some scenes bordering on R)
8 Category: Romance, Action/Adventure
9 Pairing: Sakura/Tomoyo
10 Timeline: Sequel to "Happy Years"
11 Summary: There are two more cards Clow created. Our couple must learn
12 that even great mages are not prone to mistakes.
13 Sub-Summary: When a vacation goes a little different than planned, can
14 Sakura control herself from loving Tomoyo "too much"?
15 Distribution: MSD (www.catstrio.de), Shoujo Ai.com (www.shoujoai.com),
16 ff.net (www.fanfiction.net), Mediaminer (www.mediaminer.org), Moonlit
17 Nights (http://jrem.net/moonlit/tsFics.html) others may follow. If you
18 like this fic for your story, please tell me, I'm not likely to put
19 stones in your way, but I like to know where it goes.
20 Legal Disclaimer: This story features two females romantically
21 involved with a few (hinted) mature notions. If that is illegal where
22 you are or entirely not your thing, turn around and leave now.
23 Disclaimer: Card Captor Sakura belongs to CLAMP and assorted
24 companies, I claim no right on the characters and original storyline.
25 Story Disclaimer: Seal Cards: Epitomes of Love(c)2003 by Matthias
26 Engel
28 ******************************
30 Foreword
32 And it's time for the last one. This one will be done in two parts.
33 That has more something with style than necessity though. This is the
34 first part and this one will have a few more mature themes, the
35 delicate stuff will be handled in special, additional file though.
37 ******************************
39 Seal Cards: Epitomes of Love
40 Based on the works of CLAMP
41 Story Concept by Matthias Engel
43 ******************************
45 <July of 1997 (Sakura>
46 There was a lasting silence in the small room. The curtains were
47 closed and only the soft glow of daylight shining through their veil
48 illuminated the table in front of me. But I could see perfectly well.
49 I wouldn't even need to see the eight cards spread in front of me.
50 This was a much more complex method of card reading than the simple
51 one Kero hat shown me all the years back. Yet, judged by the situation
52 at hand, this was rather appropriate.
53 I stared intently at the two middle rows and the top card. Once
54 again the same. Just like every time I attempted to see what the cards
55 could tell me. I had tried this countless times in the past but the
56 big picture would just not change, nor would it completely make sense
57 to me. There was just one thing that was for sure. The premonition,
58 beyond doubt, was about Her.
59 I squeezed my eyes shut. I thought I had conquered those
60 memories but after telling Tomoyo three months ago, I couldn't help
61 but recall some of the horrible scenes that had driven me straight
62 from that future into this one. Kuso, I hated myself for making Tomoyo
63 worry so much. The accusations had cut right through my heart. I knew
64 on some level they were mostly frustration but...
65 *Don't you trust me?*
66 That one had hurt. Of course I did trust her. She was the cause
67 of why I had come back here, she was why Time had even let me, she was
68 the sole reason that I was able to settle back into a remotely normal
69 life - as normal as life can be for one of the most powerful people on
70 Earth. I had long since given up on the notion that I was the most
71 powerful person. Maybe being the strongest mage was true. However, in
72 my old time I had met enough other groups of magic users to which my
73 power seemed to be a trifle... And none of them had stood a chance
74 against Pandora.
75 Amazingly enough, after the talk with Tomoyo the tension within
76 us had pretty much been turned upside down and nowadays we were almost
77 inseparable. I feared that closeness a little since that had been one
78 of the things that had troubled me back then. It still did. I would
79 feel embarrassed but my mind was too old to be ashamed of the
80 thoughts. And I wouldn't think twice about letting Tomoyo know just
81 how much I loved her if not for the simple fact that we were both only
82 fourteen. I had never quite imagined this would become a major problem
83 of the transition but it seemed I had miscalculated. Lately my
84 feelings for the lavender-haired girl had blossomed more and more into
85 something greater and more passionate. My adult mind and teenager body
86 were having a hard time coming to terms how to react to this.
87 Kami, I am a little pervert!
88 Okay, maybe it wasn't this bad but I was wondering what the hell
89 was wrong with me. This had begun about a year ago, slowly at first
90 but then more steadily. At first I thought it was just my teenage body
91 beginning to mature but at times the love, and the desire spreading
92 from that love, became so strong I was barely able to keep my hands
93 off of Tomoyo when we were snuggling or something. I had to put some
94 distances between us, yet I had chosen the wrong method as it seemed.
95 The resulting frustration from both sides nearly drove a wedge between
96 us. That was dealt with and resolved now, the feelings between us
97 though had only been intensified and I was silently already preparing
98 a last will, because if I should really lose control and Sonomi-kaasan
99 found out...
100 I chuckled ruefully. I WAS overreacting, not to mention
101 distracting myself from the reading and its expected and depressing
102 outcome. Compared to that, my little physical problems were rather
103 insignificant. Sighing audibly, I slowly turned around the last card.
104 Woody was the association, the first card. Woody stood for many
105 things, for which one was nature itself, or Life if you want. In
106 short, I assumed, it meant Earth itself would face a crisis soon. At
107 least that made the most sense from what I expected to come. So
108 basically, it was a call from Earth for help.
109 Then came Mirror, Time and Illusion. They were the cause of the
110 current situation. From experience I knew that Mirror and Illusion
111 often were substitutes for other unknown elements the cards couldn't
112 represent, or at least couldn't represent with the cards available.
113 Together with Time at the center it would normally not make much
114 sense. However, I knew that Mirror and Illusion most likely pointed at
115 the two other Forbidden Clow Cards, those that were responsible for
116 Pandora's release in my time. I hadn't known that then but I knew now
117 after talking to Time - as little as she did reveal -, Kerberos and
118 Yue. And the more I learned about this, the more my belief grew that
119 Clow was just as imperfect as any other human being and not nearly as
120 foreseeing as Eriol said his prior incarnation had been.
121 The Light, the Dark and Erase in the next row, presenting the
122 solution. Alright, the solution was not so more like a pointer, a
123 guide, a way of what had to be done to assure an outcome in the mage's
124 favor. The solution could point at powers, people, a lot of things. It
125 could also be a gamble, since the solution could also turn into an aid
126 for the problem. The combination was a little weird for my taste.
127 While I could see Light and Dark together, I couldn't really place
128 Erase. Erase could be another substitute or it could mean something
129 completely different. I had some vague theories but that is all they
130 were. Vague.
131 Which leaves the last card. The location, the Where.
132 Shadow.
133 As expected. Once again, the location was clouded into shadows,
134 unrevealing darkness. I had desperately hoped that for once I would
135 get a clue where to look for the Seal Cards but once again no hint was
136 given to me. The thing was I could feel the distant presence of a card
137 but by their sheer magnitude I suppose they were probably very far
138 away.
139 Picking up the cards, I returned them to the book and stretched.
140 This was getting me nowhere and tomorrow we would all make a small
141 trip. I had agreed to the idea readily, seeing this as a chance to
142 make up it up to Tomoyo for our little fight and just relax for
143 awhile. Summer break had just started and the weather was ideal. A
144 part of me wished that we could go alone but I didn't really mind the
145 rest of the family coming along. This was going to be fun and maybe I
146 could forget about the cards, the uncertain future and dark memories
147 for awhile.
149 ******************************
151 (Tomoyo)
152 Whistling a happy tune, I made my way to the front of the Kinomoto
153 residence. It had been a nice day and the evening sun was still warm
154 and pleasant. Perfect weather for a vacation. Adjusting the bag over
155 my shoulder I made a note to myself not to pack so many things the
156 next time. Of course I had reminded myself the last time to do so and
157 look where it had gotten me
158 Not that the little problem was of any significance to the more
159 important things in life at the moment. Sakura and I had finally come
160 around and while I was pretty sure that she hadn't told me everything,
161 I was simply too happy right now to care. I had overreacted after all
162 and chided myself enough about it already. I knew deep down that
163 questioning Sakura's trust had hurt my girlfriend and I wished
164 desperately I could take it back somehow. Being confronted with how
165 much Sakura depended on me when she revealed some of her secrets to me
166 had made me feel so ashamed of myself. Sakura was quick to scatter
167 those worries though. And since we both felt too guilty about the
168 whole matter for different reasons we came to the agreement that this
169 would simply just not happen again.
170 And the make up was definitely exquisite. I never thought you
171 could be so close to a person. I had also thought I was already much
172 more attached to a person than normal, even back then in Elementary
173 School, at an age there that was rather strange. Especially since the
174 relationship part hadn't come for another two years. However, seeing
175 us now, aside from school we barely spent a minute alone anymore. The
176 strength of our feelings was rather overwhelming even by me. Not that
177 Sakura wasn't worth every last ounce of attention but it was as if our
178 guilt over the whole accident had undergone the drastic change from
179 "turning fire into water".
180 My thoughts were interrupted as I looked up, coming to a stop a
181 few feet from the front door. Touya stood there with a grin. "I
182 suppose saying "Welcome" as if you are a guest, just doesn't do it
183 anymore, hmm?" It was remarkable how much the two of them had in
184 common. While physically not all that similar, Sakura and her older
185 brother had a lot of hidden character traits that often made them more
186 alike than they'd ever admit being.
187 He moved forward, taking the bag not even waiting or actually
188 expecting a request. After all this time I was still a little
189 surprised - pleasantly so - as how easy Touya had accepted me.
190 Compared to Syaoran that is. Knowing me prior probably had helped
191 things a little and even with most of his sight gone - Sakura said it
192 was returning very slowly - he had always been rather perceptive.
193 Something I admired about him in a way.
194 "Arigato," I said, following him into the house and slipping out
195 of my shoes. Okaasan had made it pretty much clear to Sakura that she
196 was to treat our home as hers and while it had never been said this
197 way from the Kinomotos before, the offer was obvious in small things
198 like this or the way the treatment had gradually changed from that of
199 a normal guest to that of a permanent houseguest or resident even.
200 Sakura's home had also become my home and it didn't really matter
201 anymore where we were or who would stay with whom. Either way, IF we
202 were together, we were at home.
203 Touya shrugged, putting the bag down next to the staircase.
204 "It's okay. I'll bring it up later. The monster has been in her room
205 for awhile again, maybe you can get her to come down and eat
206 something."
207 I wasn't sure whether to give into the humor or the sigh. On one
208 hand it saddened me to hear that Sakura obviously was still troubled
209 by her worries. I couldn't fault her, knowing what I did learn so far.
210 Sakura had such a good heart and she wanted to protect everyone,
211 especially the people she loved and feeling so helpless had to be
212 hard. I never really realized how hard it had to be until I learned
213 the truth of the events of her timeline. Still, I wished she wouldn't
214 think that she had to take all the responsibility upon herself, almost
215 as if she was desperately trying to do it all alone. That is why I
216 insisted so much on the vacation when the idea was brought up one
217 evening we had all sat together in this very house. The idea for a
218 little boat trip was spontaneous but once everyone had gotten into it,
219 the plans were quickly made. Hopefully this could get Sakura's mind
220 set on something different at least for a little while.
221 I finally managed a small giggle. I found it funny that Touya
222 still called her "monster", even more so than when my girlfriend was
223 younger. I supposed that it had become more of an affective nickname
224 than the gentle teasing it had once been.
225 Already a few steps up the stairs I stopped and turned slightly
226 to look back at Touya. "Doesn't it bother you at all?" I had meant to
227 ask the question for awhile now. Sakura had come clean about her time
228 travel by now. While both her brother and father had suspected
229 something already, Sakura had felt obligated to talk to them about
230 this after realizing how much concern it had caused me and how much it
231 had to have an impact on her family. The whole thing was taken
232 relatively well, she had let out a few things she told me exclusively,
233 but other then that most of what I learned was revealed to the rest of
234 the family.
235 Touya looked at me thoughtful for a moment. "Not really. It's a
236 little weird sometimes. And I admit I feel helpless knowing all that
237 has happened already or will happen or... well, you get the point." I
238 smiled wryly, knowing full well the confusion talking about this
239 caused me sometimes. "I am just amazed that YOU are taking all this so
240 well. Doesn't it bother you in the slightest, I mean... She's not
241 exactly the girl you fell in love with anymore. I believe it is much
242 harder for you, as her girlfriend, than it is for me, as a brother."
243 I didn't really need to think about my answer. Staring directly
244 into Touya's eyes - well, as much as you can from a higher vantage
245 point -, I said softly but with a firm voice nonetheless, "I wouldn't
246 be that - her girlfriend - if Sakura-chan hadn't done what she did.
247 She is still Sakura, all the little details are still there. You can
248 see it too, I know that. When you truly love someone, you love
249 everything about that person. The positive as much as the negative.
250 Tell me, Touya-oniisan, would you turn down Yukito-san if the same
251 would have happened to him."
252 The dark-haired, young man stared back stunned for a moment,
253 then his eyes softened and he shook his head slowly. "No. Never."
254 I smiled fondly. "Good. Then we understand each other." I turned
255 back to resume my ascent. "We'll be down for dinner in a few minutes."
256 I swear I heard him mumbling something along the lines of "if you were
257 able to separate long enough to walk down the stairs", smiled to
258 myself and proceeded to Sakura's room.
260 ******************************
262 (Sakura)
263 As I leaned back after putting the cards back into the book, I
264 realized how stiff I had become. This happened a lot. Often I tried to
265 figure out a reading for hours not even realizing the passage of time.
266 It was a good thing I still did physical activities frequently to keep
267 my body in shape. It would be a little early to suffer from back
268 problems...
269 My eyes had drifted close for a moment and now they only
270 fluttered open for a short moment before the movements of skilled
271 hands rubbing my shoulders made me sigh blissfully - though I hadn't
272 made up my mind if it was involuntary or not yet. I had to be pretty
273 absorbed to not even notice Tomoyo coming up or slipping into the
274 room. Usually I could tell from far away already when she was present.
275 Not to mention that I tried not to show her just how much I took the
276 whole thing to heart... and often failing miserable at that task.
277 "Do you have to torture yourself. Even a day before vacation?"
278 Tomoyo asked softly, her voice barely a whisper and close to my ear. I
279 suppressed the shudder wanting to run down my spine at her closeness
280 and the feelings her warm breath tickling my skin invoked. I wished
281 nothing more than to...
282 What was wrong with me?
283 Fighting down the primal urges of my - entirely too young - body
284 I focused on her question, with some effort. "You know I must. If I
285 don't find a way to prevent the seal from breaking than..." I trailed
286 off, not wishing to speak further in fear of calling back the haunting
287 images of a future long since past. A future that might become reality
288 again if I didn't...
289 "I know you will find a way. You always do. But that you still
290 have a few years, right? Don't push yourself so hard."
291 I let go of another content smile as the hands moved from my
292 shoulders to my neck and further down my back with patient precision.
293 Tomoyo could really give one hell of a massage. "How can you be so
294 calm about this. I told you what happened. I stood no chance against
295 that... thing. I..." I turned around albeit my body's vehement
296 protests, fixing a startled Tomoyo with an intense gaze. "She killed
297 you, right in front of my eyes. I... I won't..." I could feel tears
298 stinging in my eyes and was a little bit surprised at the emotional
299 surge that had triggered such a strong response. I usually was much
300 calmer nowadays but Tomoyo managed with her mere presence alone to
301 create that overwhelming urge to love, to protect, to cherish and
302 always hold onto this incredible gift. I couldn't maintain my shields
303 around her for long. "I will never let this happen again," I finished,
304 trying to make my voice sound firm but it was more a croaked whisper.
305 "Never..."
306 Before I even knew what was happening we were kissing. And not
307 just the chaste kiss of children or young teenagers but laced with a
308 mixture of passion and need. My arms went around Tomoyo's waist on
309 instinct drawing her closer, basking in the heat of the contact. Not
310 just the physical but also the spiritual one. Our kisses had become
311 that much bolder lately and they weren't always initiated by me.
312 Tomoyo proved very quickly that this important aspect of life was as
313 much one of the skills she was so good with, just like all the others.
314 And so I found myself relenting briefly as the kiss began to involve
315 tongues rather quickly, that sweet scent, so distinctive Tomoyo,
316 filling my mouth, literally drinking up all the troubles, concerns and
317 fears of only a few moments ago.
318 Finally Tomoyo drew away but only a few inches. I am sure my
319 face was flushed since hers definitely was. A part of me was
320 disappointed at the lack of contact and wanted to reengage right away,
321 taking this to places I steadfastly refused to even let myself think
322 about. The beautiful lavender-haired girl had her fingers tangled in
323 some strands of my hair falling in disarray over my face. "I know,
324 Sakura-chan. I know you will always be there to protect me. I told you
325 that a long time ago and my belief has not changed. You have taken all
326 those risks and changed your future already. Your beautiful heart will
327 find a solution when the time is right. Please, don't burn yourself
328 out. That won't get us anywhere and brings you only more pain. I hate
329 to see you suffer."
330 I stared in amazement at this magnificent creature. What in all
331 the world had I done to earn such trust, such loyalty, such love from
332 this gentle and kind girl. When I was young and unknowing of her
333 feelings I had often felt a little embarrassed. But never scared. I
334 knew some people who experienced our interaction wondered why I wasn't
335 scared of Tomoyo's devotion. Yet, I could never be scared of such a
336 wondrous thing. Now, I was simply amazed and every time she looked at
337 me like this, so completely without doubt, utter faith in her gaze
338 that I would never let her come to harm, I knew that I wasn't worth
339 it. But yet, it always created a confidence in me so strong that I
340 felt like being able to strike down any foe ever trying to harm this
341 otherworldly creature that I could dare call my girlfriend.
342 "I don't deserve you," I whispered, one hand softly stroking the
343 pale skin of her cheek. I had never felt like this before. Not with
344 Syaoran, never with him. That realization had come gradually but by
345 now I was certain that while a part of me would always love him, my
346 statement that the love for him and Tomoyo was an equal one had long
347 since expired. The magnitude of love I felt for Tomoyo know had
348 definitely exceeded what I ever had felt for the Chinese boy. "But I
349 love you more than anyone or anything else in this world," I said,
350 making sure she understood completely what I was implying.
351 Tomoyo's smile was radiant, her blue eyes sparkling as if the
352 sun was reflecting on the clear surface of a lake. I leaned forward
353 again, touching my lips to hers, leaving my gaze glued on those
354 brilliant orbs. Sensual at first I felt that inner fire once again
355 igniting with renewed intensity and for several seconds I completely
356 lost myself in the feelings, tongues meeting in a slow dance,
357 passionate but not forceful. So much unlike Syaoran's kisses. This
358 was... softer, slower and at the same much more intense.
359 "Hey, monster! Get down here, dinner is ready!"
360 I blinked my eyes, realizing only now that somehow Tomoyo had
361 found her way into my lap and my hands were resting on her buttocks,
362 Tomoyo's arms were around my neck, clinging tightly as if afraid to
363 fall apart if she should let go. I blinked again, slowly drawing away
364 and tentatively altering my grip from my girlfriend's behind to hold
365 her around the waist again. I didn't want to let go but there was that
366 slight spark of embarrassment that I had let myself go so far. But I
367 didn't really feel all that bad about it, after all Tomoyo seemed
368 quite content where she was.
369 "Wow..." I whispered, my breath a little shallow from the
370 exchange. I could feel some sweat on my forehead and was rather aware
371 that both of our body temperatures had definitely risen to a
372 noticeable degree. "That was..." I wanted to say "too close" but
373 honestly, I had to agree with Tomoyo's definition.
374 "Intense. Amazingly intense..." Tomoyo responded, equally
375 breathless and I was fascinated at how much that sparkle in her eyes
376 had even more increased but now it was more like... I wasn't sure I
377 actually wanted to know the answer to that because I wasn't sure right
378 now if I could control the following consequences.
379 "We should... uh, get downstairs... Dinner, you know...?" I
380 tried lamely, my mind not yet fully restored from one of the most
381 passionate moments between us yet. Tomoyo just nodded, also a little
382 out of it.
383 It was only with a lot of effort and after another few minutes
384 of regaining some composure that we managed to follow my brothers
385 request. Touya was giving me the most annoying smirk all evening.
387 ******************************
389 <About two days later (Tomoyo)>
390 There was one thing that was for sure about life with Sakura. It never
391 was boring. I had known this right away when I met her. I knew that I
392 just had to put an effort into at least befriending the genki brunette
393 or my life would be so much duller. This experience had only grown
394 when Sakura came back for me and devoted her attention almost solely
395 upon me. The things we did on a regular basis when going out, other
396 couples probably never even encounter half the excitement and the
397 wonders Sakura managed to produce.
398 I had noticed that Sakura liked to use the cards rather often
399 for those special occasion but also other everyday life stuff. For
400 example creating a nice atmosphere with Glow or Flower, lightening
401 candles with Firery or often just flying around with Fly. Sakura had
402 developed a close bond with her cards, that much was for sure. "Don't
403 they mind doing all those things for you?" I asked, turning my head
404 towards Sakura. The question was more a rhetorical one with just a
405 touch of curiosity I could guess the answer already.
406 Sakura laughed lightly and I could feel just the tiny bits of a
407 ripple around us that felt like... giggling. "Don't worry about that.
408 The cards actually want to get out and play whenever I let them. While
409 they don't mind being in the book, they like to do things outside,
410 interact with the world, you know." Sakura gazed at me adoringly and I
411 felt my cheeks flush, a reaction the lovely girl had managed to bring
412 forth more and more in the last days. The passionate scene from the
413 evening two days ago was still present in my mind and this hasn't been
414 the only occasion. "And they like you, too, so they like to do things
415 that make you happy." The blush deepened and I melted into the
416 following kiss that was much to brief and chaste for my taste...
417 Blinking I tried to clear my foggy mind, snuggling closer to
418 Sakura who had one arm around my waist so that we wouldn't be
419 separated, not that any of us minded the contact. The water around us
420 was cool but not freezing. I believed this to be an added side effect
421 of Watery other than providing an air bubble to breath and right now
422 the movement as well. We already had been swimming quite some while
423 but right now we were content to enjoy each other's presence and let
424 Watery do the stirring, so to say.
425 The ocean down here was a captivating sight. Especially this
426 way, without diving gear or other such limitations. Only our bodies
427 and normal senses experiencing what no ordinary human would usually be
428 able to do. Not for that long and surely enough not as deep as we were
429 already. This definitely had been one of Sakura's best ideas involving
430 the cards up to now. We had left the world above the surface already
431 far behind, exploring the wondrous depths of the ocean.
432 I hadn't expected something like that - Sakura always managed to
433 surprise me with those things - when we set out yesterday morning for
434 the beach and then a trip with our family yacht. Okaasan had actually
435 been glad to have a use for it after all that time. In all my life we
436 had only gotten to make use of it once and I had been almost too
437 little to remember it then. Now, the yacht served as the perfect tool
438 for some nice, relaxing days. Okaasan had been excited to participate
439 in the family vacation and readily provided the boat even though it
440 visibly got to her to spend so much time in close company to Sakura's
441 father. They managed to behave most of the trip but a few hours ago
442 the tension had escalated and everyone had retreated hastily to other
443 parts of the yacht to evade the coming war zone. Yukito and Touya had
444 went below deck and Sakura came up that we should probably go even
445 deeper with a twinkle in her eyes. I had had barely enough time to
446 prepare myself - thankfully we already had been in our bathing suits
447 for the purpose of sun bathing - before Sakura grabbed me and jumped
448 into the calm ocean, activating Watery in the process.
449 The feeling was extraordinary. The ocean was calm on this clear
450 summer day and the flow was gentle, encompassing the two of us.
451 Somehow Watery had managed to make it so that we could breathe
452 underwater but still feel the water and move freely. Therefore we were
453 treated by the embrace of the wet element, washing over our skin. It
454 didn't even sting in the eyes!
455 Right now we were resting from swimming so much, gently floating
456 through the vast ocean, letting Watery push us forward. And once again
457 we found ourselves in one of those moments. The place was a little
458 odd, I admit, but as usual neither of us cared very much and while we
459 weren't even kissing, just the contact was enough to hold us captured
460 in the moment. I could feel Sakura's hand lightly stroking my bare
461 skin and shivered. Not from the cold of the water but from the sudden
462 heat coursing through my body, making my skin tingle.
463 Oh, I wasn't stupid. I was pretty much aware of the sexual
464 tension. There was just no other way to describe it. Both of us were
465 rather mature for our physical age and that was even more true in
466 Sakura's case. It had taken me some time to figure out that the whole
467 Pandora issue hadn't been all that had my girlfriend bothered lately.
468 I hadn't been totally sure at first but the level of passion in our
469 kisses, the lingering touches, the closeness. The encounter the
470 evening before our departure wasn't the only one and they had become
471 even more heated. No, by now I was pretty sure that Sakura had
472 definitely trouble suppressing urges she surely felt entirely to
473 improper for our physical age.
474 How did I feel about this? I honestly wasn't sure. I would lie
475 if I said that the rising passion between us didn't scare me a little.
476 Just a little. I hadn't thought in this direction at all until a few
477 months ago but now I found myself wishing at times that Sakura would
478 just go ahead and... See, that's what I meant. Where I could
479 understand and tolerate that Sakura's older mind might harbor such
480 thoughts, I know that for me they were rather... early. Not
481 impossible, but early in their appearance. And entirely too strong to
482 be natural.
483 At the same time the feelings were exhilarating and I felt
484 myself craving the attention, the sensations of drowning in Sakura's
485 love and passion, wishing nothing more than to just let go and feel.
486 This was frightening in itself but more like a thrill, a good,
487 exciting thrill I had entirely no idea how to deal with. I just knew
488 if Sakura as much as asked I would jump at the chance and that scared
489 me again, just a little.
490 Out of the corner of my eye I spotted something and was
491 partially grateful for the interruption of the moment. Because as much
492 as a big part of me wouldn't object I think the setting would be more
493 than a little awkward. Not too mention, we'd probably traumatize poor
494 Watery!
495 "Hey, there's a cave down there!"
496 Sakura blinked, a look of disappoint crossing her features that
497 almost made me giggle. I suppressed that reaction though and pointed
498 down. We were rather close to the bottom I think. The water was
499 getting murkier here. Less light was reaching us from the surface and
500 it was a little hard to make out the cave's entrance. Sakura and I
501 looked at each other, confirming our mutual curiosity and made our way
502 into the cave.
504 ******************************
506 (Sakura)
507 Emerging from the water we were both surprised and amazed to find a
508 cave that huge. Sure, there probably were enough on the ocean floor
509 but when did you ever get the chance to see them. Not that any of us
510 was paying much attention to our surroundings. Watery went back into
511 card form and then to subspace for the moment with nothing more than a
512 thought. My eyes were pretty much glued to Tomoyo and there was a
513 conflict inside of me whether to praise or curse myself for my
514 impromptu idea. Kuso, Tomoyo was sexy in that dark blue bikini,
515 drenched by the ocean water and therefore highlighting the young
516 girl's curves pretty well.
517 This was ridiculous. Something was definitely going on here. I
518 mean something other than my dirty adult mind and developing teenage
519 body. As much as I did love Tomoyo this was getting out of hand and I
520 was pretty sure that my control was only a few percent from
521 evaporating into thin air. I mean, I had actually kicked Touya for
522 flirting with Tomoyo. He did that sometimes and I know very well that
523 it was never more than teasing. And still I had actually hit him, he
524 had been throwing wary glances my way the whole trip. And the poor boy
525 from when we arrived at the beach who dared to... wanted to ask Tomoyo
526 out or something. I swear he must have run straight to his mommy after
527 the menacing look I had given him - thankfully that had been all. My
528 emotions couldn't suddenly be so out of control. Not naturally...
529 "Sakura?"
530 Gah!
531 Tomoyo was standing right in front of me, blue eyes focused on
532 me in a wordless, yet demanding expression. I was being drawn into the
533 liquid pools, drowned in a sea of happiness and love. I might have
534 jumped at the touch, her hand on my cheek, caressing slightly in a
535 circular pattern. "What are you afraid of?"
536 Crap, she always knew me so well, that hadn't changed in the
537 most aspects of my life even after traveling back in time. With the
538 exception of the Pandora happenings and my growing desires she had
539 always managed to read me like a book. It seemed the latter was about
540 to experience the same fate.
541 "Tomo-chan... I..." I breathed, my voice taking on a husky tone,
542 feeling her other coming around me, one hand settling on my back. A
543 surge of immediate desire rushed through me and my mouth couldn't
544 decide whether to be dry or the complete opposite. I couldn't finish
545 the sentence but looking into her eyes, I knew it wasn't necessary.
546 "You don't have to be afraid for my sake, Sakura-chan." I gasped
547 when she dipped her head slightly to the side and moved forward to run
548 her lips over the skin on my neck. My arms tightened around her,
549 almost crushing her lithe form against mine even if that small voice
550 that was calling me names was still there. It was fading fast.
551 "I... I don't want to hurt you... This is not how..."
552 Tomoyo looked up again and before I could even guess her
553 intentions her lips were upon mine. The kiss was sending hot waves of
554 tiny flames through my whole body. Her lips were crushed against mine
555 and I leaned into the passionate, desperate contact without even
556 thinking. The last bit of rational thought was more or less leaving me
557 right now.
558 Coming up for air after almost a full minute, I realized that
559 our hands had become much bolder. Tomoyo's hands were just resting
560 under the hem of my bikini top and mine were already all the way
561 there. The desire created between us had reached the force of a
562 tornado. I could see the desperation and need reflected in Tomoyo's
563 eyes.
564 "Do you really want to fight this?" Tomoyo asked in her usual
565 soft, lightly musical voice but still somehow managing to let it sound
566 seductive. "We can't fight this any longer, you know that."
567 Can't fight...? A jolting sensation of recognition passed
568 through me and for just a single moment I managed to tear myself away
569 from the powerful thrall both of us were under. No, not so much a
570 thrall as the rise of emotions to its maximum. Right here, right now,
571 around us...
572 Love was here.
573 Love, one of the Seal Cards. Time had told me that the reason I
574 felt its presence nearing was because the original seal was more or
575 less encompassing the whole planet, both elemental powers overlapping
576 each other. It had been a steady stream, unyielding and without a
577 flaw. Until Clow tempered with those ancient archtypes and bound
578 powers where he should have not. After realizing his mistake and that
579 he couldn't control the elemental powers, he had placed the cards
580 inside the original seal, reestablishing the power but not the flow.
581 The flow had been destroyed, its flawlessness lost. To make the flaw
582 as tiny as possible the cards were moving around in the seal in a more
583 or less stable orbit. It was no surprise to realize that this had
584 given Pandora her opportunity. Clow's actions to fix his mistake had
585 not been enough after all.
586 The realization came at a rather bad moment though and most of
587 my thoughts on the matter were just like a background image. I was
588 aware of it, I was aware of the enormous presence so similar to Time
589 back then, yet I couldn't do anything about it. I didn't have the
590 willpower anymore to call upon some counter spell. I simply didn't
591 want to stop!
592 And with a groan of resignation I brought my hands up around
593 Tomoyo's neck, drawing her in. My breath was creating tiny goose bumps
594 against her skin, my voice long since having lost the battle to hold
595 pack the passion and longing. "I love you so much, Tomo-chan. Even if
596 this is not entirely our doing, I want to make you happy. Do you trust
597 me enough with this?" I said the last bit with the utmost seriousness
598 I could still muster in this situation, yet I was unsure if I could
599 take a negative answer anymore.
600 "I told you already," Tomoyo whispered back, her voice mirroring
601 my own open desire. "I will always be safe with Sakura-chan. I have
602 faith that Sakura-chan will always save me and keep me safe."
603 Proceeding to kiss me again, I simply let go, my body almost sighing
604 in relief, welcoming whatever shall come.
606 ******************************
608 (Tomoyo)
609 Slowly, with the speed of a turtle climbing a hill my senses returned
610 to awareness, my spirit floating back down from that place somewhere
611 far above the heavens where it had climbed to... some time... ago. I
612 really had NO idea how much time had passed, how long we had been in
613 the cave or lying on the cold ground warmed by a small friction of
614 magic - but I really didn't care where it came from right now.
615 The tremors had finally subsided and my body lay in total peace,
616 every muscle relaxed and surely not able to obey any command in the
617 near future. And I felt GOOD. Kami, did I feel good. I had really been
618 a little... unsure when I gave in to my desires. Yet, seeing Sakura
619 suffer even more, trying to hold herself back, inhabitations had been
620 thrown out of the window. Very, very far away. And it wasn't like I
621 had not wanted. We loved each other after all, so it couldn't be a bad
622 thing, just... a little early maybe. It wasn't like we were still ten
623 or something. That would have been rather illogical.
624 Feeling Sakura move slightly from her position spooned up behind
625 me, I shifted slightly and craned my neck to look behind me. Her face
626 was producing a stronger result than the Glow card could... even
627 though I was sure the expression was mirrored on my own. I smiled
628 widely, feeling giddy and in a state of utter bliss. I've never felt
629 so much in the right place like now. I was sure that was what I was
630 meant to be, where I belonged to be. Right here, in Sakura's arms,
631 enveloped in a warm blanket of love. Body, mind and soul.
632 I could see the hint of regret and shame in Sakura's eyes though
633 and was quick to dispel these feelings. With some effort I managed to
634 command my body to turn around in the tight embrace. Brushing some of
635 the brown hair that had fallen into Sakura's face out of the way, I
636 leaned in to place a soft, lingering kiss on her lips, gazing
637 adoringly into green eyes. Sakura smiled faintly. "You keep giving the
638 most special gifts in the most special ways. You are such an amazing
639 person."
640 Sakura's smiled turned into a more genuine one. "That wasn't all
641 my doing. Don't you feel different somehow?"
642 I was puzzled at her question. "What do you mean? Of course I
643 feel different!" I said lightly teasing.
644 Sakura laughed heartedly and the sound was such a lovely thing
645 to my ears. "No, no, I mean. About the desire between us. Just until a
646 few minutes ago..." She let the sentence linger and I suddenly
647 realized what she meant. The whirlwind of feelings had ceased to be
648 more gradual, more normal. I had first though this was only and effect
649 of the afterglow but there was a little more to it. I didn't know how
650 I could tell the difference, I just did. So when Sakura said this
651 wasn't completely her doing then did that mean...
652 I blinked almost audibly and was already in the process of
653 sitting up despite the protests of my body before Sakura pulled me
654 down again gently but persistent. "Yes, I am sure its one of the Seal
655 Cards. I told you about them, right?" I nodded, wondering why we were
656 still lying here. Not that I WANTED to move, mind you. "It must be
657 Love. But its moving very slowly. We can easily catch up, don't rush
658 now. I, personally, feel like being defiant and not rush after it the
659 way it played with us." Sakura chuckled and run one hand through my
660 open hair, drawing out a sigh from me in the process. I had went to
661 tie it into a ponytail in the last months but was seriously
662 considering to leave it open again in order to experience the
663 wonderful sensations my girlfriend's fingers in my hair produced more
664 often. Hmm, girlfriend didn't seem right anymore. Lover? Mate? It had
665 felt a lot like mating on a level and I couldn't quite believe that
666 this all had been the card's doing.
667 "You mean Love made us do all this?" I asked curiously, showing
668 my disbelief at the possibility.
669 Sakura shook her head slightly, drawing me closer until my head
670 rested contently under her chin, almost nestled comfortingly in her
671 small chest. I let go of another sigh and could practically feel
672 Sakura's smile in response. "No, the way I understand it is that Love
673 cannot produce false feelings. It can only take what is there and
674 amplify them. The stronger the feelings the more they are amplified.
675 And Love doesn't do something on its own since the card is embedded in
676 the seal. It is a natural side effect. Clow played with something you
677 can't just simply control. The magic he bound into a card was so
678 strong that, even ineffective, it puts out incredible power."
679 I listened carefully and would have nodded, had I not been so
680 comfortable right now. Instead I said in a lightly teasing voice, "So
681 you DID want me THIS way..." I grinned to myself, feeling Sakura shift
682 a little... not uncomfortably but surely enough embarrassed. Even if
683 her mind was older she was still such an innocent creature at times.
684 "It's okay. You didn't hurt me and it was the most wonderful gift
685 other than your heart that you could ever have given me."
686 Sakura's arms tightened around me even more. "I love you. I
687 really do. More than anything. That wasn't just because of Love. I
688 promise you, I will always love you, forever."
689 I lifted my head slightly, meeting her downward gaze of
690 unrestrained, unconditional love with one of my own. "I love you, too.
691 More than I could ever put into words."
693 ******************************
695 (Sakura)
696 You'd expect after the whole mess I'd feel guilty. You'd expect I
697 would want to harm myself for ever letting my urges get the better of
698 me. You know what? I really didn't care anymore. The experience was
699 just so... glorious. And Tomoyo didn't regret it either. You could see
700 it in her body language or every other part of her. She could probably
701 be lightening a Christmas tree right now and I surely wasn't very far
702 behind.
703 I wasn't sure whether or not to give Love a piece of my mind
704 when we caught up with it though. On the one hand I knew that
705 logically seen the card had pretty much no control over its effect.
706 Yet, the timing was rather... inappropriate. I still couldn't believe
707 we did THAT down THERE. I mean, sure, I love to treat Tomoyo to
708 special things in special places. The cards really like to be useful
709 and they really like to make Tomoyo happy too, both of us actually.
710 However, this was rather shooting over the top. As I said, now I
711 didn't regret it anymore. It was done with and I was not about to
712 destroy this eternal memory of a first time with thoughts of
713 self-blame and guilt when my... lover looks like I couldn't have
714 possibly made her happier today.
715 Anyway, after resting a few minutes longer, we finally returned
716 to the surface. The recovery was only one reason why I wanted to stay
717 down there for awhile. No, and the other was NOT to enjoy the feel of
718 Tomoyo's naked form against mine... Kami, I must be blushing madly at
719 this thought, I could tell from Tomoyo's almost smug look - Tomoyo and
720 smug! No, that had not been the reason... although it was an added
721 bonus. Staying still for a short while would allow Love to pass on a
722 little further and therefore lessening the chance of a fallback into
723 emotional overload.
724 I was very glad I decided on that because I REALLY didn't want
725 to know what happened up here on - and mostly likely in - the yacht a
726 few minutes ago while we had our own encounter below the surface. We
727 might have just stood there for another minute or so before either of
728 us could override the shock to our system at the scene playing in
729 front of us. I glanced at Tomoyo with a totally bewildered look and
730 saw my girlfriend - I would stick with that for now, the other term
731 sounded TOO mature for our physical age - equally flabbergasted.
732 "Didn't you say Love only amplifies what is already there?" she asked.
733 I turned pack to the couple at the helm of the yacht, engaged in
734 a - pretty intense - lip lock, blissfully unaware of having an
735 audience... and probably just as unaware of what they were doing in
736 the first place. I shrugged at Tomoyo's question, rather perplexed
737 myself. "I honestly have no idea. It's not like even Clow himself
738 understood what exactly he created there." Grinning slightly I put my
739 hands on my hips and cleared my throat loud enough for the two adults
740 to hear.
741 There was a very short silence and it seemed as if the world
742 itself just stopped breathing for a timeliness moment, awaiting the
743 inevitable apocalypse. Then, as if someone dropped a sledgehammer
744 between them the two parental figures of our group literally jumped
745 several feet apart. Otousan looked rather baffled... well, stupefied
746 actually and I could see from the look on Sonomi-kaasan's face that
747 was just about turning from speechless consternation into smoldering
748 rage that he would probably not survive the following moments if I
749 didn't intervene.
750 "Save it!" I shouted, drawing their attention immediately and
751 succeeding in flustering both of them speech- and motionless again.
752 Right now I regretted not explaining to them about the Seal Cards as I
753 had done for Tomoyo but I really didn't want to waste anymore time. I
754 could sense Love was actually picking up speed... which was strange
755 since the paths of the cards were supposed to be stable. "We don't
756 have time for this now. There is a card here I need to catch and its
757 moving away right now. So if any of you would be kind enough to get us
758 moving." Granted, I would normally never take such a... commanding
759 tone with my father or Tomoyo's mother. But I knew where this was
760 leading when I didn't intervene and I really had no time for this. I
761 could feel in every fiber of my being that this was my chance, my only
762 chance to change something about the future I had experienced.
763 Just that moment Kero-chan choose to make his appearance, coming
764 from below deck and looking rather agitated. "What's going on?" He
765 looked around at the scene, arching a tiny eyebrow at the still rather
766 shell-shocked-looking adults and then turned to me. "Sakura? I felt
767 the presence of a card. Is that...?"
768 I nodded at his unfinished question, already trying to track
769 Love. That was funny, I cold feel something else too. Was that the
770 other one? If yes, that would be more coincidence when I believed in.
771 Isolating Love for now I felt it rapidly moving westwards.
772 "Quick, Otousan, turn the boat around, its picking up speed for
773 some reason!" I yelled running to the back of the yacht, staring out
774 over the ocean intently. I could see something moving in the distance.
775 It was to tiny to really make out and for someone without magic
776 probably impossible to see at all.
777 Otousan meanwhile had snapped out of his shocked state long
778 enough to take over the controls and pull the boat around, pushing the
779 engine to top speed. "Tomoyo, get Yukito, I'd rather like everyone
780 together and who knows if I might need Yue. Love isn't actually
781 dangerous - I think - but I'd rather be safe." Tomoyo nodded and took
782 off. I was pretty sure Yue must have sensed what was going on too and
783 was probably already on his way. Hopefully he was because I could more
784 or less guess what Love did to him and Touya, considering what it did
785 to the rest of us. I really hoped Tomoyo wouldn't catch them in an
786 embarrassing situation.
787 "I better take care of this before we all go crazy trying to go
788 near that thing," I said more to myself, only realizing Kero was next
789 to me at his squeak when he obviously figured out what exactly I was
790 implying. Well, that couldn't be helped now.
791 Taking the key from its resting place I invoked its ancient
792 powers and drew Time from subspace. Better to fight Fire with Fire, or
793 something like that. "Time!" I called out. "Encase us in a bubble of
794 your power!" There was a bright flash of crimson-purple energy and the
795 sensitive eye could see the dim, almost completely transparent field
796 of temporal energy enveloping the yacht. I heard Otousan gasp and
797 realized suddenly that he actually could see all this. Of course he
798 could, I told myself, since he has part of Clow's magic now.
799 "Don't worry, just stay on course." I reached out once again,
800 confirming my earlier observation. "See the small object in the
801 distance?" Otousan nodded. "Follow it!"
802 If I could have it any other way I really wouldn't want to
803 endanger everyone. But seeing as if I might never be able to come so
804 close again, I had hardly a choice left. Besides, the Seal Cards were
805 not really... active. Therefore I hoped it wouldn't be all that
806 dangerous.
808 ******************************
810 (Tomoyo)
811 I found them alright. And I found them just as expected in their cabin
812 doing... err, the same that we did... Not that I would tell them that.
813 Of course I had had the decency to knock or wanted to... until the
814 cabin door was flung open and I was almost flattened by an agitated
815 Yue. Thinking back on it I should really not be surprised but the
816 sudden change from the powerful yet sweet experience below the surface
817 and the serious situation above was rather sudden and I was a little
818 nervous, I admit. I knew this was important for Sakura - heck, it was
819 important for all of us in the long run. I didn't think I've seen
820 Sakura so... confident before. She usually was not the type to give
821 commands like that. That was a fact that was easily reflected onto her
822 cards who she treated more as friends than as tools.
823 I hadn't even realized I complied with her order without a
824 question before I was halfway below the deck. That was an amazing
825 discovery in itself because I found out just then that there was
826 something else to Sakura I was sure neither of us had seen so far. The
827 attributes of a natural leader. Not some great military genius or
828 whatever you want to call the equivalent for a mage. No, years of
829 training had given her an air of confidence that often leaked through
830 in many aspects of every day life but really developed in a serious
831 situation like this one. Making new discoveries about Sakura has
832 always been one of my favorite things, especially since I knew so much
833 about her already, seeing new things was rare and often served to add
834 another special flair to her magnificent personality.
835 As I said, I literally bumped into Yue, Touya following looking
836 a little as if he just woke up - which might be true. I shot him a
837 knowing smirk - to which the older Kinomoto sibling just shrugged and
838 grumbled something - before I turned back to Yue. "You better go up.
839 Sakura wanted you there just in case. I get it, you are quite aware
840 what just passed us?" The faint blush tingling on his cheeks was
841 answer enough for me.
842 Yue nodded and was already up the stairs before I could make any
843 more comments. I glanced back at Tomoyo and raised an eyebrow at his
844 questioning stare. Oops, he isn't suspecting anything, is he? The
845 young man didn't elaborate on the look, just grinned and then shrugged
846 his shoulders. "Let's go up as well. I must admit I am curious. I have
847 heard about all this from Sakura and you but I've never really had the
848 opportunity to see it."
849 Emerging outside a short while later I spotted Sakura standing
850 in the middle of the spacious deck, her star wand transformed into a
851 size I had never seen before. It was reaching a bit over her head and
852 was planted firmly into the ground below. Sakura had her eyes closed,
853 seemingly in deep concentration. Kerberos - transformed into his real
854 form - and Yue stood a couple of feet behind her and seemed a bit
855 unsure about their actual purpose.
856 "What's that?" Touya asked next to me and pointed ahead of the
857 yacht speeding westwards towards the small group of little isles in
858 the distance. Funny, I hadn't noticed them before. There were several
859 things I took note of that I know I definitely shouldn't. First of all
860 their was a very faint glimmer around the ship. Like a force field of
861 some kind. I had felt the emotional increase fade when I went under
862 deck and was pretty sure now that whatever Sakura did was responsible
863 for it. But I didn't think I should be able to see the magic at all.
864 Yet I did and I also saw the sparkling sphere in the distance,
865 coming closer very quickly. The orange-golden orb seemed to radiate
866 purest light to my eyes.
867 "Um... That's Love, I think. I hope the shield is going to hold
868 its effects off." I said, not sure why I revealed my knowledge of
869 actually seeing all this. I guess I was subtly seeking confirmation
870 that I wasn't going crazy. Sakura had told me that Touya's second
871 sight was gradually returning so he should be able to pick up those
872 things.
873 "Yeah, it's heading straight for that isle. I have the feeling
874 that is no... wait a second... You can see all this?"
875 I shrugged helplessly.
876 There was no time for further research on the subject though.
877 Sakura's father had finally managed to catch up with what was
878 apparently the card. Suddenly the boat jerked, the engine almost
879 coming to a complete spot. I flashed Touya a grateful smile for the
880 steadying hand but my attention was quickly drawn back to the glowing
881 sphere. Love was hanging in the air looking for all it was worth like
882 a tiny star in the middle of the day. I was a little surprised at the
883 sudden stop in movement but either the card realized that she couldn't
884 escape - not that the term was accurate in the first place - or she
885 sort of knew what was going to happen. Kero-chan told Sakura once and
886 she told me in return that all the Clow Cards were automatically drawn
887 to the new Master or Mistress. There was a connection between the one
888 that was chosen to become their wielder and the cards themselves. I
889 had no idea if this was the case with Love but I believed it to be
890 very likely.
891 I could see the sprite-form of the card - another thing I wasn't
892 sure whether I was supposed to do this or no - and Love looked a
893 little confused and uncertain. There was something else there though.
894 I didn't know how I could tell. It wasn't my observations skills that
895 much I was sure of. However, somehow I just KNEW that Love was
896 tremendously lonely.
897 Glancing at Sakura I waited to see what she would do or if she
898 detected the same thing I just did. The Card Mistress had applied a
899 lot of unorthodox methods capturing some of the Clow Cards, often
900 rather trying to make the cards trust her and let themselves be
901 captured rather than to engage into a heated battle. Therefore I
902 wasn't really surprised seeing Sakura's tense and concentrated
903 demeanor suddenly change. For a moment confusion crossed her features
904 before she relaxed, her eyes softening and her grip around the staff
905 not so firm anymore.
906 Kerberos and Yue were about to move forward when without even a
907 command Fly's wings materialized on Sakura's back. My girlfriend
908 looked back with a reassuring smile that halted the two guardians even
909 though one could tell they weren't really fond off the idea.
910 The winged girl was about to ascend, then stopped and turned a
911 look in my direction. Her eyes finding mine. Quite frankly I had no
912 idea what exactly happened but when Sakura held out a hand towards me
913 I stepped forward and took it in my own without a word. There was not
914 even the thought of hesitation or surprise when I felt something wash
915 over and through my body. Identical wings to the ones Sakura was
916 sporting burst into existence but my movements were almost
917 trance-like. Only one thing was for sure that I trusted Sakura,
918 complete and unconditional trust. The level of communication at this
919 moment was higher than anything before and somehow we just knew what
920 we had to do.
921 To the casual observers though - even the magical-apt ones - the
922 moment we were on a level with the spectral figure of Love, we
923 literally vanished from sight.
925 TBC (soon)
927 Author's Notes
929 Yes, I know I am evil.
930 I said it would be two parts and I actually planned this out a little
931 differently. The second part was supposed to take place some time
932 later. Love was supposed to be captured already... I just realized
933 that for what I wanted to do I had to do it in a shorter period of
934 time and the ending was just such a nice point to end the first part.
935 Don't worry though. I suppose I'll be out with the next part very
936 soon. Maybe even before Christmas (don't hold me to that).
937 I hope I managed to describe the emotions in here in the way I wanted
938 them to be represented. This installment started a little slow on the
939 writing side but began to pick up pace and intensity fast.
940 I admit the moment I chose to reveal about what the Seal Cards are was
941 rather... odd. Forgive me please, Maia decided to let this story run
942 wild halfway through, I actually planned on... say, two more scenes
943 from the start of the trip... I really think it's awkward and maybe I
944 actually add those later on. Please tell me if it seems too out of
945 place and I change that.
946 Anyway, things are slowly picking up on the suspense end. The last
947 part will probably actually have some action and wrap things up for
948 that little pre-series.
949 I am not sure if I’ll write the actual lemon scene or not. I planned
950 to but am not so certain right now.
952 I hope you enjoyed yourselves again. If you did, then leave me a note
953 (mail, review whatever).
955 Ja ne, yours
957 Matthias