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     1.4 +The Biggest Choice of My life
     1.5 +By The Blue Esper
     1.6 +
     1.7 +Authors note:  I just wrote this story as a spur of the moment and it is 
     1.8 +also my first story, sned all falmes compliments, etc to 
     1.9 +blue_sonnet@animefan.co.uk
    1.10 +
    1.11 +	There she is, just standing there, radiating in a beauty.  Her soft, 
    1.12 +pink hair flowing in the wind as she gently runs down the hill to try and 
    1.13 +catch her hat.  This scene before me reminds me of when we met, only 
    1.14 +things are very different now, though.  I gently place my hand in my 
    1.15 +pocket for reassurance as to what I was about to do, feeling the velvet-
    1.16 +covered box within my fingers I breathe gently. Slowly standing up, I 
    1.17 +leave the basket and picnic mat we placed and run off to catch the hat 
    1.18 +she just can't reach.  Gently reaching, our hands make contact with each 
    1.19 +other instead of the summer hat; we both just give a little giggle at 
    1.20 +this motion, we both being what we are now, my beautiful princess and I.  
    1.21 +Again a reach for the hat and pass it to my friend, wait no lover is more 
    1.22 +appropriate.  I gently reach for her hat again and pull it from its hold 
    1.23 +in the breeze.  Brining it down to her face and slowly placing it on her 
    1.24 +head, waiting for her to lift her face and allow me to gaze at her beauty.  
    1.25 +"Odango-chan" I gently gasp as she does as I wish, just gazing into each 
    1.26 +others eyes, I wonder, How did I ever receive such beautiful girl, no 
    1.27 +woman.  We take each other's hand and slowly walk back up the hill to our 
    1.28 +picnic spot, we were no longer just 'good-friends' and I was going to do 
    1.29 +something that would affect us both.  Gently guiding her down into her 
    1.30 +seating spot, I place myself next to her.  I take her hand, just gazing 
    1.31 +into her beautiful eyes; I gently reach into the pocket, which contained 
    1.32 +the velvet box.  Brining it out and moving it to her face, I try to speak, 
    1.33 +but my voice just wouldn't follow.  I try again and it doesn't follow 
    1.34 +suite, she doesn't deserve someone this nervous, I think as I let go of 
    1.35 +her hand and turn away. "What's wrong?"  She says, in a gentle voice 
    1.36 +almost killing me, I turn back around and try to speak to her, but can't.  
    1.37 +Maybe everyone who takes this step is nervous, I don't really know, I 
    1.38 +never really had someone to go to in my time of need, except to woman 
    1.39 +before me, yet I wasn't able to turn to her about this.  I stand up and 
    1.40 +say the only thing I could, "I'm sorry, but I don't deserve someone as 
    1.41 +good as you", I feel my stomach turn as I spoke, I run away from her, how 
    1.42 +could I do this to her?  I turn back to look at her once more, only to 
    1.43 +see what I had done to her, why was I doing this?
    1.44 +
    1.45 +	Darkness, that's all I was good for, staring at my ceiling in my 
    1.46 +bedroom.  I remember back then, no one expecting Chibi-Usa would choose 
    1.47 +me over Helios, she had two lovers dearly wanting to be with her for all 
    1.48 +eternity and she chose me, now I have just destroyed all that we had.  
    1.49 +Now that I think, maybe she should have chosen Helios, he was a prince 
    1.50 +and would never be this nervous. I fear what people will say, even worse, 
    1.51 +how they will treat me now.  I hear a gentle sound on the door to my room, 
    1.52 +not wanting to see anyone I just turn over.  But maybe I should have 
    1.53 +locked my door, as Haruka-papa walks into the room, followed by Michiru-
    1.54 +mama and Setsuna, who really scares me, is Setsuna though.  I have always 
    1.55 +known Setsuna thought of Chibi-Usa as a daughter as she was a part of 
    1.56 +Mamoru and Setsuna loved Endymion before, but new it was never possible, 
    1.57 +so maybe she'll understand what I am going through.  "What is the matter 
    1.58 +Hime-chan?"  Oh like you don't know, I think as I'm asked a question I 
    1.59 +cannot answer.  I just lie there, motionless, looking away from the three 
    1.60 +who entered my room.  Suddenly there is more weight applied to the 
    1.61 +opposite side of the bed, I don't want to look, yet I want to know whom 
    1.62 +it is?  "Hotaru, please tell us what happened between you and Small Lady" 
    1.63 +She speaks gently, rubbing my shoulder.  I quickly motion for her to move 
    1.64 +her hand by pushing it from me, she wanted to know why, but I couldn't 
    1.65 +tell her, because I desired the same answer.  The weight lifted from my 
    1.66 +bed and all I heard afterwards was my door open and close again.  What 
    1.67 +have I done with my life?  Have I ruined everything I had?
    1.68 +
    1.69 +	Three days have passed, and I finally have the courage to leave my 
    1.70 +room, gently walking down the steps, awaiting another joke from Haruka-
    1.71 +papa.  But I reached the bottom of the steps and all I heard was silence, 
    1.72 +maybe they didn't care about me anymore?  No that is silly, as just as I 
    1.73 +made a step into the living room Setsuna-mama made a grab for me, holding 
    1.74 +me tight in her grasp.  "Hime-chan, we need to talk" she says to me, 
    1.75 +causing me to feel gut wrenched, wishing I never left my room, "Don't 
    1.76 +worry, I felt we should be alone for this and so I asked Haruka and 
    1.77 +Michiru to leave for the moment".  She gently guides me into the kitchen, 
    1.78 +as it was more quite there.  Just sitting down, I wait for the inevitable 
    1.79 +question Setsuna is going to ask me.  "So, how is your homework, keeping 
    1.80 +up in class lately?"  Her question confuses me, but from the nervousness 
    1.81 +I had, all I can do is giggle.  I look at Setsuna-mama, gently smile down 
    1.82 +at me; I know she is the senshi of time and knows what has happened, so I 
    1.83 +know she is only trying to help.  "I haven't been to school for a while" 
    1.84 +I reply to her 'question', I really want to tell someone, but I can't, it 
    1.85 +was like, when I tried to...  "Why's that?  What kept you from going to 
    1.86 +school?"  She asks me.  Suddenly I feel a full urge of strength suddenly 
    1.87 +build up within me at what I realised.  "It's because, I tried to tell 
    1.88 +Odango-chan something, but couldn't and I felt, I felt...I've got to go!" 
    1.89 +I then knew what I had to do; I slowly stand up and run to the front door, 
    1.90 +looking back at Setsuna, seeing a smile on her face, showing me that I am 
    1.91 +doing the right thing.  I leave the house bound for my next destination, 
    1.92 +a place where everything is almost eternal.
    1.93 +
    1.94 +	"Taru-chan?" I see the pink haired girl before me, tears welling up 
    1.95 +in her eyes, at this moment I believe nothing can stand in my way of what 
    1.96 +I am to do, for both of us.  I slowly walk up to her, the whole world 
    1.97 +seeming to get warmer as every step I make puts me closer to her.  
    1.98 +Stopping just a few feet away from her, I see her more clearly, her 
    1.99 +beautiful face now stained with the tears I gave her, her appearance, 
   1.100 +once exquisite and perfect, now a wreck and a mess.  I lower my face in 
   1.101 +shame, "Chibi-Usa, I apologise for what I have done to you, you mean 
   1.102 +everything to me, I didn't want to hurt you, I...I" I lift my face to see 
   1.103 +hers, a confused look on her face, "I love you" I say, her face now 
   1.104 +lightening at my words, seeing her reaction, I want to be by her side 
   1.105 +even more now.  Without consciously acting I suddenly start racing to 
   1.106 +reach her, she doing the same in kind, and within a moment we finally 
   1.107 +reach other and embrace.  'I'm sorry' is all I can say to her.  After a 
   1.108 +while of gazing at each other, Chibi-Usa asks me 'the question' I was 
   1.109 +dreading anyone to ask me, "What happened?"  I slowly take her hand into 
   1.110 +mine and gaze into her eyes again, "I was going to ask you something, but 
   1.111 +I couldn't and I misinterpreted my feelings" I look away from her because 
   1.112 +of what I had said, finally admitting what I had kept trapped inside.  
   1.113 +"Well, what were you going to ask?"  Her voice, cheerful and fluent, 
   1.114 +showing that must have forgiven me, I am so lucky to have her.  Looking 
   1.115 +at her, the gleam in her face, I knew the perfect time had came up again, 
   1.116 +reaching in my pocket for the box I had never removed, I take it and out 
   1.117 +hold it to her, my mouth dry and a feeling of nervousness all over me, I 
   1.118 +open my mouth, "Chibi-Usa, I love you so much and after everything we 
   1.119 +have been through, I have only one thing to say."  I open the lid of the 
   1.120 +box to expose the silver ring, with gently golden crescent moons dancing 
   1.121 +all over it and an amethyst stone in the top, to show that I feel perfect 
   1.122 +when she is all around me.  "Will you marry me?"  I stand there just 
   1.123 +looking at her, looking at her turn her face from me.  "Taru-chan, I love 
   1.124 +you to, but..." Than was probably the worst hit I had ever received in my 
   1.125 +life, the 'but' she gave me spiralled around my head, maybe she didn't 
   1.126 +love me as much as I wished.  "I wanted to propose to you, YES I WILL 
   1.127 +MARRY YOU" My world was rocked from side to side at her words, a HUGE 
   1.128 +weight lifted from my chest, allowing me to breath again.  I gently take 
   1.129 +the ring from its box, to place it on her finger, but she quickly removes 
   1.130 +her hand from my hold.  "Wait" she says to me, as she also takes out a 
   1.131 +box, opening it to reveal a gold ring, with a joint crescent moon and the 
   1.132 +symbol of Saturn entwined.  "Will you marry me?" all I can do is laugh at 
   1.133 +this moment, she DID feel the same way about me, I answer the only way I 
   1.134 +can, "YES", we both gently exchange our rings, and hug each other softly 
   1.135 +and passionately.  "This will be a shock to everyone, wont it, my Odago-
   1.136 +chan" I say, putting an emphasis on 'my'.  "No, more crazy things have 
   1.137 +happened, it's not like people won't have expected it anyway" she says 
   1.138 +gazing into my eyes, I gently place my hand on top of hers, allowing out 
   1.139 +rings to be seen side by side.  "Well, I don't care what anyone says, as 
   1.140 +long as I'm with you".