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     1.4 +Summer Breeze
     1.5 +Psychokittensenshi611
     1.6 +
     1.7 +	Her hands felt like the warm summer breeze on my cheeks.  "You can’t 
     1.8 +love me."  She said it like a rule; a law.  Somewhere, it had been written that I 
     1.9 +would not, could not feel this emotion that ran deep inside my veins alongside my 
    1.10 +blood.
    1.11 +	"I do!"  I wanted to shout at her, but it came out as only a whisper.  I was 
    1.12 +so afraid, yet so contented just to be with her.  "I love you"...
    1.13 +	"But you can’t!"  She was able to shout out me.  She pulled me closer to 
    1.14 +her face, her sweet breath like dark purple irises on my lips.  "You’re... you are 
    1.15 +everything I can not be.  You’re...so pure...so utterly pure."  She closed her eyes 
    1.16 +and bent her head, as if to avoid staring back into mine.  "I can never be what 
    1.17 +you deserve."
    1.18 +	My heart felt like it would sink down in my chest or rise above it at any 
    1.19 +moment.  Couldn’t she see?  Couldn’t she open her eyes and her heart?  "I don’t 
    1.20 +know what I deserve"but you’re what I want.  You’re everything I could ever 
    1.21 +want and you’re what I need."  She was shaking, her hands were shaking on my 
    1.22 +cheeks.  The breeze was faltering.  "Hotaru-chan, please," I touched her chin 
    1.23 +gently.
    1.24 +	She looked up at me once again, tears trickling down her pale cheeks in 
    1.25 +small rivers of diamond tears.  "Oh Chibi-Usa," her lips shook out the words.  
    1.26 +"How could you want me?"  I wiped the tears gently from her cheeks.  "I’m...the 
    1.27 +darkness"and you’re the light.  You are life and I am death."  She looked down 
    1.28 +at her knees again.  "How could you love me?"
    1.29 +	"You’re wrong, Hotaru-chan!"  I could feel my heart rising higher, into my 
    1.30 +breasts and hands and feet, spreading inside of me.  "You may be death, but you 
    1.31 +are also rebirth.  You begin life, starting anew in a cycle that I have yet to 
    1.32 +understand."  I leaned close into her face, wanting to feel her iris breath again.  
    1.33 +"You are everything I could ever want, Hotaru-chan.  You are beauty in the 
    1.34 +darkness.  You are my light."  Her lips were so close to mine.  "How could I not 
    1.35 +want you?"
    1.36 +	Her face flushed, pale cheeks that never seemed to tan turning a light 
    1.37 +crimson.  "Don’t say that, please don’t say that…"
    1.38 +	And, suddenly, it didn’t seem to matter to her what she had shouted 
    1.39 +before.  When I leaned in just enough to feel her soft, full lips upon mine…well, 
    1.40 +that was the end of everything and the beginning of something completely new.  I 
    1.41 +could feel her hands at the base of my neck, tugging at the ends of my hair.  I 
    1.42 +couldn’t stop myself from touching her pale arms, letting my hands meander up 
    1.43 +to her shoulders and down her back.  She was so warm, so soft, like sheets of 
    1.44 +silk left out in the sun.  I felt her lips pull away slightly from mine, and I moved 
    1.45 +away a bit, just enough to end the kiss but still to feel her warmth.  She sighed 
    1.46 +heavily onto my cheek and rested her head on my shoulder.
    1.47 +	"Chibi-Usa," she said, her voice barely above a whisper.  "We can’t be 
    1.48 +together like this."
    1.49 +	"What do you mean?"  I nuzzled my head on top of hers, catching the 
    1.50 +scent of her hair.  Lilacs.  I smiled.
    1.51 +	"We can’t be…be lovers."  She moved slightly, her voice slightly softer.  
    1.52 +"You’re to become Princess of Crystal Tokyo in the future.  You are going to 
    1.53 +inherit a crown.  You can’t…be with me…"
    1.54 +	"Hotaru-chan."  I felt that warm, rose colored feeling rise in my chest once 
    1.55 +again.  Sparks could fly off of my fingertips.  Mountains would crumple at my very 
    1.56 +whim…or at hers.  I could do anything with this feeling.  I could do anything with 
    1.57 +her.  "I want you, I need you.  I love you.  All that I ask of you is that you give me 
    1.58 +a chance, you give us a chance."  She sobbed lightly into the curve of my neck.  
    1.59 +"Please, Hotaru-chan…the future isn’t unchangeable.  Just me coming to the 
    1.60 +past all these times has changed it."
    1.61 +	"But…"
    1.62 +	"Hush, Hotaru-chan."  I cradled her head close to mine.  I smiled slightly.  
    1.63 +"Normally, I’m the one crying to you."  We both chuckled a bit.  "Hotaru-chan, I 
    1.64 +just want you to…to let me love you.  Just for awhile."
    1.65 +	"But don’t you see?  Can’t you see that if I let you then – "
    1.66 +	"Then what?"
    1.67 +	She paused, moving away from me and wiping her tears.  "Chibi-
    1.68 +Usa…this can’t work."
    1.69 +	"No, what would happen?"
    1.70 +	"Don’t you see, it can’t work, because – "
    1.71 +	"No, don’t ignore me."  I pulled her closer once again.  "What would 
    1.72 +happen if you and I became a couple?"
    1.73 +	She was quiet, just staring back into my eyes and quivering a bit in my 
    1.74 +arms.  She didn’t even seem to breathe.  Her lovely, thin frame rest so close to 
    1.75 +mine on the floor of her dimly lit room.  Pale hands and feet seemed even paler 
    1.76 +in comparison to her dark clothes.  My little black angel.  "I can’t tell you…not 
    1.77 +now…"
    1.78 +	"What is it, Hotaru-chan?"  I pulled her onto my knees.  "I’ve told you a 
    1.79 +secret I’ve kept from you for awhile now.  Why can’t you tell me?"
    1.80 +	She swallowed audibly.  "I’ve loved you for as long as I can remember.  
    1.81 +Since I first met you, Chibi-Usa.  And if we are together, and I let myself love 
    1.82 +you…it’ll just be like everyone else.  I don’t want you to leave…to go away like 
    1.83 +everyone I’ve loved…"
    1.84 +	"I could never go away from you."  I couldn’t feel anything for a minute.  It 
    1.85 +was like my heart stopped beating in my chest.  My veins continued only to pump 
    1.86 +the crimson feeling of love I felt for her.  And then, whenever my heart decided to 
    1.87 +start up again, I was kissing her.  It was with a kind of fierceness that she kissed 
    1.88 +me back.  Her small caresses and fierce kisses and explorations made me weak 
    1.89 +in my knees.
    1.90 +	The silver and golden rays of sunlight drifted into Hotaru’s room.  I just lay 
    1.91 +there for awhile, surrounded by her sweet scent and wrapped in her arms.  The 
    1.92 +shadows of tree leaves left dark spots across her blanket and bare midriff.  I 
    1.93 +couldn’t help but stare at her.  God, she was beautiful.  Lying there like that.  Her 
    1.94 +hair a bit messed up, strands sprawled out behind her head on her pillow.  Her 
    1.95 +eyes were closed, but I knew them with just a memory.  Dark purple, almost 
    1.96 +black, deep as any ocean but clear as a sunny sky.  How could one human being 
    1.97 +be so perfect, so utterly beautiful in every way?  How could someone like her 
    1.98 +love someone like me?
    1.99 +	I kissed her shoulders, just for the feeling of her silken skin on my lips.  
   1.100 +There was nothing more I wanted in the world than to be there with her, lying in 
   1.101 +her comfortable bed, bathed in the strong light of the sun or the pale, comforting 
   1.102 +light of the moon.  There was no other place that could soothe me like this.  Her 
   1.103 +arms were my only shelter, her lips my only release.
   1.104 +	She stirred a bit, her muscles moving slightly underneath my lips and 
   1.105 +hands.  I rested my head by her breast, loving the sound of her heart beating 
   1.106 +beneath my ears.  Her breathing relaxed me…deep and smooth and soft all at 
   1.107 +once.  I closed my eyes, just loving the feel of her beside me, underneath me, all 
   1.108 +around me.