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     1.4 + The story contains some sexual scenes so don't read it if you're 
     1.5 +underage. Right, like if you'd listen to me, but don't come to me 
     1.6 +when your psychiatrist tells you you're not quite normal!
     1.7 + The story takes place after the senshi defeat Neherenia. So Hotaru 
     1.8 +reached her normal age again and lives with the Outers and ChibiUsa 
     1.9 +with Usagi and her family. Hotaru is about 14 and ChibiUsa a bit 
    1.10 +younger.
    1.11 + Before we begin I would like to thank Naoko Takeuchi for creating 
    1.12 +the beautiful legend of Sailor Moon.
    1.13 + These characters ain't mine, I'm just borrowing them for a while.
    1.14 +
    1.15 + This story is a continuation of the story "Hotaru's pain", but it 
    1.16 +makes sense on it's own too (but it makes more sense if you read 
    1.17 +Hotaru's pain first).
    1.18 +
    1.19 +  Hotaru's pain part 2
    1.20 +   Featuring Hotaru and ChibiUsa
    1.21 +    By The Ghost of 'lectricity
    1.22 +
    1.23 +
    1.24 + Hotaru ate her lunch in silence as her classmates laughed and had 
    1.25 +fun around her. It seemed like nothing had changed from yesterday. 
    1.26 +Her classmates were still ignoring the silent and a bit weird 
    1.27 +black-haired girl in the back row.
    1.28 + What was wrong? Everybody had seen how she healed the boy 
    1.29 +yesterday, everyone had stood in the circle around them as she put 
    1.30 +her hand on the boy's head and made the blood disappear.
    1.31 + They weren't calling her a witch. Well, at least not more than 
    1.32 +once. But still she didn't know what they were thinking about her. 
    1.33 +She knew they were talking about her, but she did not know what 
    1.34 +they were saying. She saw a pair of eyes turning her way but as 
    1.35 +soon as her eyes wandered across the room to meet them the pair 
    1.36 +quickly turned away.
    1.37 + <Okay, let's see now... Mio thinks I'm a... a witch > It was still 
    1.38 +hard for Hotaru to say the word, even in her mind. <She stated that 
    1.39 +pretty clearly. How about the others? Mio's been walking around the 
    1.40 +class talking to everybody all day. Why does she want to make 
    1.41 +everyone hate me?. Why is she so mean to me? ...just because I'm 
    1.42 +better in history?... What about Ryu?. 'Twas almost funny how he 
    1.43 +thanked me in the morning... so respectful and official... but he 
    1.44 +said he'd have lunch with me > At these thoughts Hotaru blushed.
    1.45 +<He's not even in the room now... he was talking to Mio a while 
    1.46 +ago... maybe she persuaded him not to eat with me... maybe he just 
    1.47 +forgot... >
    1.48 + Hotaru was watching Mio wander around the class, as the blue 
    1.49 +haired girl was making sure she wouldn't let anyone out. Hotaru was 
    1.50 +feeling like she was trapped inside a circle. Inside a circle of 
    1.51 +people, turning their backs to her. Suddenly a shadow fell over 
    1.52 +her...
    1.53 + "Hi!"
    1.54 + "R- Ryu..."
    1.55 + "May I sit down? Why are you so amazed? I said I'd have lunch with 
    1.56 +you."
    1.57 + "I... I thought you forgot..." Hotaru replied silently.
    1.58 + "How could I forget? You saved my life."
    1.59 + Hotaru remained silent and was looking down.
    1.60 + "What?! Aren't you proud of what you done?" Ryu asked surprised.
    1.61 + "I... I don't know. Now everybody thinks I'm a witch." Hotaru 
    1.62 +said, looking at Mio now, who was still running around the 
    1.63 +class.
    1.64 + "You think she's telling that to everyone?" Ryu asked, slightly 
    1.65 +grinning.
    1.66 + "What else..."
    1.67 + "Well, actually... I talked to her earlier. I told her not to call 
    1.68 +you that - what she called you yesterday... Now she's telling 
    1.69 +everyone that I'm in love with you! HaHaHa!"
    1.70 + As Ryu was laughing loudly Hotaru just blushed. The fact that 
    1.71 +anyone - other than ChibiUsa - would like her *that* much seemed 
    1.72 +totally absurd to her. Obviously Ryu was thinking pretty much the 
    1.73 +same about it.
    1.74 + "See Mio, I'm talking to Tomoe Hotaru and I'm not dead yet!" Ryu 
    1.75 +shouted across the classroom.
    1.76 + "Well then why don't you two find a quiet place where you can do 
    1.77 +what you *really* want to do!" the blue-haired girl shouted back.
    1.78 + "Are you getting jealous?" Ryu teased her. The whole class knew 
    1.79 +Ryu and Mio had a crush on each other since they first laid eyes on 
    1.80 +each other. As the two and the rest of the class were enjoying 
    1.81 +their quarrel Hotaru went through hell. She never liked to be in 
    1.82 +the center of attention. Ryu and Mio made her a part of the show 
    1.83 +they were putting up.
    1.84 + "Jealous of her? No, the poor scared girl wouldn't dare to do 
    1.85 +anything."
    1.86 + "So, what's the problem then?"
    1.87 + "You! If you're so nice to her she'll think you like her!"
    1.88 + Then someone cut in: "Yeah, and we all know whom he *really* 
    1.89 +likes!" The two just blushed, which doesn't happen often and 
    1.90 +simultaneously shouted back to the other boy: "Shut up!"
    1.91 +
    1.92 +***
    1.93 +
    1.94 + "I'll get it!" Hotaru chimed cheerfully as the doorbell rang. 
    1.95 +Just before she opened the door she looked at Haruka and Michiru, 
    1.96 +who were sitting on the couch.
    1.97 + "Can't you two ever stop? Haruka-papa, take your hand out of 
    1.98 +Michiru-mama's blouse!" As Hotaru turned to open the door she said 
    1.99 +over her shoulder: "And from under her skirt too!"
   1.100 +
   1.101 +
   1.102 + It was an unusual view: this time it seemed like Hotaru was the 
   1.103 +more cheerful one and ChibiUsa had a somewhat sad look in her eyes. 
   1.104 +But she didn't want Hotaru to notice.
   1.105 + "So, how was it in school?" ChibiUsa asked Hotaru as they entered 
   1.106 +her room, trying to disband the heavy thoughts that lingered in her 
   1.107 +mind.
   1.108 + "I think I met new friends." Hotaru said with a big smile on her 
   1.109 +face.
   1.110 + "You think?"
   1.111 + "Well, I don't have that much experience in making friends, 
   1.112 +ChibiUsa-chan."
   1.113 + "That's great then." ChibiUsa said.
   1.114 + "What is with you ChibiUsa-chan? You're strange." Hotaru inquired 
   1.115 +concerned.
   1.116 + ChibiUsa looked her best friend square in the eyes.
   1.117 + "I got a letter today.... It was from my mother... from the 
   1.118 +future..." ChibiUsa saw something break in her best friend's eyes.
   1.119 + "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..."
   1.120 + "I'll have to go home soon..."
   1.121 + To Hotaru it seemed like the world stopped turning and this moment 
   1.122 +of pain would last for an eternity.
   1.123 +
   1.124 +
   1.125 + "Haruka-papa? Michiru-mama? Can I come in?" Hotaru asked as she 
   1.126 +knocked on the door of the pair's bedroom.
   1.127 + "Of course, come in."
   1.128 + "What is it, angel? Why aren't you asleep yet?" Michiru asked the 
   1.129 +figure who sat down on their bed in the darkness.
   1.130 + Not answering the question Hotaru asked immediately: "How do you 
   1.131 +know you love somebody?" 
   1.132 + "Uhm... Errr... I... I... Haruka, would you like to answer that?"
   1.133 + "Me? Hmmm... Errr... When you like to be around that someone. 
   1.134 +Michiru, would you care to continue?" Haruka picked up the game 
   1.135 +Michiru began.
   1.136 + "When you like to hug someone!" Michiru said as she hugged Haruka.
   1.137 + "When you like to kiss someone!" Haruka kissed Michiru.
   1.138 + "When someone is more than just a friend to you."
   1.139 + As Haruka and Michiru began kissing passionately Hotaru figured 
   1.140 +they wouldn't be of any more use to her.
   1.141 + <More than just a friend...>
   1.142 +
   1.143 + Hotaru was walking down the hall toward her own room when she 
   1.144 +bumped into Setsuna.
   1.145 + "Oh, sorry Setsuna-mama." Hotaru apologised.
   1.146 + "Hotaru-chan, wait. I have to talk to you." Setsuna said as put 
   1.147 +her hand on Hotaru's shoulder to stop her.
   1.148 + "Why, what is it?" Hotaru replied.
   1.149 + "...let's sit down."
   1.150 + "Here? On the floor?" Hotaru asked but Setsuna already began 
   1.151 +speaking.
   1.152 + "In a few years ChibiUsa will be born." Setsuna took a long 
   1.153 +breath. "You know she didn't know you when she came to our time, 
   1.154 +right?" Setsuna knew she was about to break the girl's heart. "I 
   1.155 +know it's hard but... you will have to..."
   1.156 + "No, no, no! You can't demand that!" Hotaru screamed with tears 
   1.157 +building up in her eyes as she ran toward her room.
   1.158 + Setsuna let out a sigh in the dark corridor. She was sure she 
   1.159 +wouldn't get any sleep tonight, just like the last six weeks. There 
   1.160 +must be another way. And so another sleepless night would go by.
   1.161 +
   1.162 + Hotaru was again crying herself to sleep this night. In a few days 
   1.163 +ChibiUsa would go away and she would lose the sun that made her 
   1.164 +dark world brighter. The fact that maybe she would't even be 
   1.165 +allowed to see her friend for the next one thousand years only made 
   1.166 +her tears flow faster down her cheeks. Without ChibiUsa her own 
   1.167 +life seemed meaningless to her. What was she really feeling for 
   1.168 +ChibiUsa? Was she just a friend... or was she... more...? Her 
   1.169 +feelings for the small pink bunny were much stronger than for any 
   1.170 +other of her friends. Even stronger than for Haruka-papa, Michiru-
   1.171 +mama and Setsuna-mama. Is it... love? But she's a girl! In school 
   1.172 +they say girls should love boys! But Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama 
   1.173 +love each other, and they are girls...
   1.174 + "Oh, ChibiUsa-chan..." a whisper echoed silently in the dark room.
   1.175 + Why does it hurt so much...? Love...
   1.176 +
   1.177 +
   1.178 + It was an ordinary Saturday morning the next day at the Outers' 
   1.179 +mansion. Michiru was making breakfast, Haruka was reading her 
   1.180 +sports magazine and glancing every now and then over to Michiru. 
   1.181 +Michiru would then bend over, on purpose of course, so Haruka could 
   1.182 +admire her long legs and firm butt. Setsuna was rambling something 
   1.183 +about the "damn primitive clocks" like she always did when she was 
   1.184 +waken by the alarm clock. Hotaru was silently eating her breakfast, 
   1.185 +just like always, but the three young women knew Hotaru was 
   1.186 +restless inside.
   1.187 + Haruka stood up, wanting to comfort Hotaru. She always felt so 
   1.188 +guilty for trying to kill the fragile little girl so many times. 
   1.189 +She had a very feminine and motherly side - the side only Hotaru 
   1.190 +and Michiru knew. Just as she wanted to say something to Hotaru - 
   1.191 +what, she did not know yet - the telephone rang. Saved by the bell, 
   1.192 +Haruka picked up her saviour.
   1.193 + "Hello?... Hi Usagi-chan... Yes, she's here... Wait a minute. 
   1.194 +Hotaru-chan! It's for you. It's Usagi. ... Take the phone in the 
   1.195 +living room, we don't want to disturb you."
   1.196 +
   1.197 + Hotaru sat down on the couch and picked up the phone.
   1.198 + "Hello?"
   1.199 + "Hello Hotaru-chan, it's me, Usagi."
   1.200 + "Hello."
   1.201 + "So you heard the news..."
   1.202 + "Yes..."
   1.203 + "I need to know something Hotaru-chan. What do you feel for 
   1.204 +ChibiUsa-chan?"
   1.205 + Hotaru was hit in her weak spot.
   1.206 + "I... She's my best friend."
   1.207 + "Do you... ... Do you love her?"
   1.208 + "I... I... I don't know. ...yes..." The last word was just a 
   1.209 +whisper, as if Hotaru didn't want Usagi to hear it. Or maybe she 
   1.210 +didn't want herself to hear it, knowing it would only bring her a 
   1.211 +lot of pain once it's said.
   1.212 + "You have to tell her that!"
   1.213 + "No! I can't! She... I... She won't understand."
   1.214 + "Hotaru-chan... You know she will. She a smart girl." Hotaru could 
   1.215 +hear the shaking in Usagi's voice. Usagi would miss ChibiUsa just 
   1.216 +as much as Hotaru will.
   1.217 + "But she'll be gone in a few days anyway. It doesn't matter 
   1.218 +anymore..." A tear - a silent witness of Hotaru's pain - ran down 
   1.219 +her cheek.
   1.220 + "You're wrong, it does matter! If you don't tell her, you'll never 
   1.221 +know what she feels."
   1.222 + "But- , but-" She couldn't say anything beyond that. Her sobs 
   1.223 +choked away the fake excuses.
   1.224 + "I'll- I'll send her over, okay?" Even Usagi started to sob now.
   1.225 + "O- o-kay."
   1.226 + "Hotaru-chan, I'm gonna put down the phone now, OK?"
   1.227 + "Usagi-chan, tell me... that it's gonna be alright..."
   1.228 + "Everything is gonna be okay... I promise..."
   1.229 + "Thank you..."
   1.230 +
   1.231 + Except for Hotaru the house was empty when ChibiUsa came over. 
   1.232 +Haruka, Michiru and Setsuna said they had some business to attend 
   1.233 +to. Although they had the house for themselves Hotaru led ChibiUsa 
   1.234 +to her room. Hotaru needed the shelter of her room to say what she 
   1.235 +intended to. For the last hour she was grinding the words in her 
   1.236 +mind but she still had no clue of what to say. She sat down on her 
   1.237 +bed and ChibiUsa sat down beside her. They were sitting in silence 
   1.238 +and tension for a minute, Hotaru was still thinking of what to say. 
   1.239 +Suddenly ChibiUsa hugged Hotaru around her waist.
   1.240 + "Oh, Hotaru-chan..." Within ChibiUsa's embrace Hotaru's mind 
   1.241 +finally found the peace it was longing for. ChibiUsa put her head 
   1.242 +on Hotaru's chest and closed her eyes and Hotaru put her arms 
   1.243 +around ChibiUsa's back and closed her eyes also. After a while 
   1.244 +ChibiUsa began:
   1.245 + "You know why I like to hug you?"
   1.246 + "You... You like to hug me?" Hotaru said in amazement, thinking of 
   1.247 +what Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama told her yesterday night.
   1.248 + "I like to hug you because you're not as tall as the other girls."
   1.249 + "What?"
   1.250 + "You know, if I hug them my head reaches only their tummy. And 
   1.251 +except for Usagi, all of them have really strong muscles there - 
   1.252 +they are not soft. If you look up from there you only see two big 
   1.253 +balloons hanging over your head. I get really scared if I hug Mako-
   1.254 +chan." Then she paused for a moment. She remained serious when she 
   1.255 +continued to speak: "But if I hug you my head lands straight on two 
   1.256 +soft pillows - with two chocolates on it, just like in a hotel 
   1.257 +room. Sometimes the chocolates are soft and I want to eat them, but 
   1.258 +sometimes they are really hard and I want to hold them in my hands 
   1.259 +so they would get softer. And if I look up from here I can see your 
   1.260 +beautiful face and your beautiful eyes looking down at me." Their 
   1.261 +eyes met but Hotaru turned her head away.
   1.262 + "ChibiUsa-chan, I have to tell you something..." Hotaru took a 
   1.263 +deep breath. "ChibiUsa, you have been my first true friend. You 
   1.264 +made me laugh when no one was there to care for me. You were the 
   1.265 +light that made me hang on to my life when I was almost dead. You 
   1.266 +mean everything to me... I... I love you ChibiUsa..." Hotaru's eyes 
   1.267 +were closed as she whispered the last words. Her head wasn't facing 
   1.268 +ChibiUsa. Moments seemed like hours, seconds like eternity. Then, 
   1.269 +she heard a soft whisper.
   1.270 + "I love you too, Hotaru." Hotaru felt a pair of soft lips press 
   1.271 +against her skin, sending shivers down her body.
   1.272 + "...oh, ChibiUsa..." ChibiUsa was kissing Hotaru all over her face 
   1.273 +- on her cheeks, on her nose, on her forehead - until finally 
   1.274 +Hotaru felt the soft lips touch her own. Hotaru opened her mouth 
   1.275 +lightly and her tongue carefully touched ChibiUsa's lips and tasted 
   1.276 +their sweetness.
   1.277 + ChibiUsa pushed Hotaru's body softly so Hotaru fell backwards on 
   1.278 +her bed and ChibiUsa right on top of her. "...oh, ChibiUsa... I 
   1.279 +dreamed of this..." ChibiUsa was sitting on top of Hotaru, her 
   1.280 +hands placed on Hotaru's belly. Hotaru felt the two hands move 
   1.281 +upward, slowly reaching her ribs and the base of her breasts, 
   1.282 +stopping there. Hotaru opened her eyes and found ChibiUsa's 
   1.283 +questioning face.
   1.284 + "Go on... please..." Hotaru whispered. She felt the two soft hands 
   1.285 +finally reaching the end of their journey as they softly squeezed 
   1.286 +the tender flesh of her breasts through the fabric of Hotaru's 
   1.287 +shirt. Hotaru sighed when ChibiUsa began kneading her breasts. 
   1.288 +ChibiUsa saw Hotaru's nipples push against the fabric and she took 
   1.289 +one between her fingers. Hotaru felt the little fingers squeezing 
   1.290 +her nipple and sighed once more, the sensations driving her crazy. 
   1.291 +She couldn't bear it any more. She reached to her waist and pulled 
   1.292 +off her shirt, revealing her aroused breasts.
   1.293 + "... my chocolates..." Before Hotaru could realize what ChibiUsa 
   1.294 +was doing she felt something warm encompass her nipple. ChibiUsa 
   1.295 +was kissing it! Hotaru never felt this kind of pleasure before. The 
   1.296 +warmth of ChibiUsa's mouth, ChibiUsa's tongue flicking over the 
   1.297 +nipple. Hotaru was panting heavily.
   1.298 + Hotaru was on the brink of the greatest orgasm she ever had. Her 
   1.299 +hand travelled down her belly toward ChibiUsa's pussy that was 
   1.300 +placed on Hotaru's lap. ChibiUsa jerked when she felt something on 
   1.301 +her pussy, but Hotaru squeezed her hand gently past ChibiUsa and 
   1.302 +cupped her own sex. As her fingers were teasing and pleasuring her 
   1.303 +own pussy through the skin-tight pants she felt the warmth of 
   1.304 +ChibiUsa's sex against her wrist. ChibiUsa was licking and sucking 
   1.305 +on Hotaru's nipples and rubbing her crotch against Hotaru's wrist. 
   1.306 +Then Hotaru's body froze up and in the same moment her scream of 
   1.307 +pleasure filled the air of the room.
   1.308 +
   1.309 +   ***
   1.310 +
   1.311 + Eleven young people gathered in the park a few days later. But the 
   1.312 +group was not a happy one, the heavy thought of farewell hung in 
   1.313 +the air. It was a sad ceremony - ChibiUsa was saying goodbye to all 
   1.314 +her friends. Usagi was trying very hard not to cry by holding on to 
   1.315 +Mamoru as hard as she could. Their goodbye present was a box of all 
   1.316 +the photos of her they had. Amy bought her a book. Makoto baked 
   1.317 +cookies for her. Rei gave her a special lucky charm. Minako 
   1.318 +presented her with a big poster of Sailor V. 
   1.319 + The only one left to say goodbye to was Hotaru. She hugged 
   1.320 +ChibiUsa gently and they kissed. They didn't bother about what the 
   1.321 +others would think and they whispered into each others ears a soft 
   1.322 +but definite "I love you."
   1.323 + "ChibiUsa, my present is a poem. I've written it for you." Hotaru 
   1.324 +promised herself not to cry, not to make it even harder for 
   1.325 +ChibUsa. But as soon as she saw ChibiUsa's eyes fill up with tears 
   1.326 +when she gave her the envelope, she knew she wouldn't be strong 
   1.327 +enough.
   1.328 + "You've written a poem for me? No one ever wrote a poem for me..."
   1.329 + "But don't read it now. After you get home..."
   1.330 + "I have something for you too, Hotaru." ChibiUsa said, reaching 
   1.331 +into her pocket and giving the dark beauty a picture. It was a 
   1.332 +picture of ChibiUsa and Hotaru holding hands, smiling brightly into 
   1.333 +the camera. It had a precious carved frame and in the corner of the 
   1.334 +picture were the words "I love you, Hotaru" written.
   1.335 + They hugged again and let the tears of their loss flow in silence.
   1.336 +
   1.337 +	***
   1.338 +
   1.339 +I'm lonely when I close my eyes.
   1.340 +
   1.341 +Say, Haruka-papa, Michiru-mama, Setsuna-mama? Hold my hand tonight. 
   1.342 +Stay with me all night long. I want to have happy dreams. Dreams 
   1.343 +the color of rainbows. Dreams where the people precious to me are 
   1.344 +smiling with joy. 
   1.345 +
   1.346 +Dreams that won't disappear when I open my eyes.
   1.347 +
   1.348 +
   1.349 +End of Part 2
   1.350 +
   1.351 +The Ghost of 'lectricity
   1.352 +Peter.dobaj@guest.arnes.si
   1.353 +
   1.354 +The last few lines are from the poem Dreams.
   1.355 +