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     1.4 +Dear Sakura
     1.5 +by Amazoness Duo and G.P.
     1.6 +amazonessduo@hotmail.com
     1.7 +pearsong1954@yahoo.com
     1.8 +
     1.9 +Dear Sakura-chan,
    1.10 +	How are you? I didn’t want to wait for our phone call this week so
    1.11 +I tried to get back to you as quickly as I could. Though I’ll
    1.12 +probably hear from you on the phone before I can get a reply anyway.
    1.13 +But that’s all right because I’m just happy to write you. I like 
    1.14 +knowing that as soon as I send this off it will be on its way to
    1.15 +Sakura-chan’s door, that the letter I wrote will end up in her hands
    1.16 +before too long. So I always have plenty of motivation to write you
    1.17 +back. I’m writing this in my office at work while I’m waiting for a 
    1.18 +phone call. I hope I can finish it all in one sitting. I have a
    1.19 +picture of you in my office. You’re only eleven or twelve in the
    1.20 +picture, but you have the cutest smile on your face. So I see you
    1.21 +smiling with me at work while I try to finish Hanako-chan. Meishi-
    1.22 +chan, a coworker, joked that you were my girlfriend because she has a
    1.23 +picture of her fiancee on 
    1.24 +her desk and because of how much I talk about you. We laughed for a
    1.25 +bit about that. She’s getting married next month so we want to finish
    1.26 +the project in time for her honeymoon. Hanako-chan still has a bit to
    1.27 +go before she’s finished, so that means she’ll need extra hard work
    1.28 +for the next few weeks. But I’m really happy with how she’s coming
    1.29 +along. I finally decided on long violet hair for the doll so that
    1.30 +little girls can style it however they want. I hope she gets the love
    1.31 +of many young girls. I want them to have lots of fun with her, just
    1.32 +like I had lots of fun dressing and videotaping Sakura-chan. If I can
    1.33 +get even a portion of that fun into the doll, then I know it will be
    1.34 +perfect.
    1.35 +	Oh, Sakura-chan, I’m sorry things have been so hectic for you
    1.36 +lately. I know how that can be what with all of the deadlines we’ve
    1.37 +been having lately. It almost reminds me of when we were studying for
    1.38 +the high school entrance exams. But I really enjoyed spending all
    1.39 +that time studying with you. My camera tripod got a lot of use that
    1.40 +year when we’d sit in your room and go over everything. I was so
    1.41 +proud of you when it was all over. So sometimes hectic can be a very
    1.42 +happy thing. I hope that your hectic life is like that or that thing
    1.43 +slow down for you soon. Don’t work yourself too hard or poor Sakura-
    1.44 +chan 
    1.45 +won’t be able to show off all of the wonderful energy she has
    1.46 +inside. It really does sound like you’ve been busy lately, so don’t
    1.47 +worry about getting back to me or calling if you need the rest. So
    1.48 +make sure that you get plenty of rest. That way you can still be the
    1.49 +pretty, genki woman that I last saw. 
    1.50 +	I’m so sorry for your mathematics teacher friend. That sounds so
    1.51 +awful. To lose touch with your special someone like that after all
    1.52 +that time has to be heart wrenching. I feel so sorry for her. I can
    1.53 +see why she’s still hurt about it. When love grips onto your heart,
    1.54 +it’s impossible to ever completely get rid of it’s tugging. Mother
    1.55 +still thinks about Nadeshiko-san every day, so I guess she went
    1.56 +through something similar to your friend. I wish that people didn’t
    1.57 +have to go through things that painful, especially such sweet people
    1.58 +as mother and your friend. I was really worried that we would drift
    1.59 +after you married Li-kun as well. I thought that now that you have a
    1.60 +new family and a loving husband and a life of your own that I
    1.61 +wouldn’t be as necessary anymore. Now that Sakura-chan’s in Hong
    1.62 +Kong, I’m not as much a part of her life anymore. Even with all of my
    1.63 +videotapes and pictures of you, it wouldn’t be enough for me if we
    1.64 +lost touch. The only thing that makes it enough to bear is the
    1.65 +thought that you’re happy out there. So I know you’ll be all right
    1.66 +with or without me. And I know everything will work out. So even if
    1.67 +you’re so far away, I’m happy. 
    1.68 +	Sakura-chan, I promise I will always be here for you as long as you
    1.69 +need me. And I will always remember you. Nothing could ever take the
    1.70 +beautiful memories of you from my heart. I promise. So please don’t
    1.71 +feel sad. It makes me feel awful to know that Sakura-chan is sad. I
    1.72 +promise that I’ll stay as long as you need me. I’ll always think of
    1.73 +you as my very best friend. I can’t get Sakura-chan out of my mind
    1.74 +for even a minute, so I don’t think I could ever forget my sweet
    1.75 +Cardmistress. 
    1.76 +	You must make a wonderful P.E. teacher. I’ll need to watch you some
    1.77 +day when you’re teaching one of your classes. You should teach them
    1.78 +all a little something about cheerleading someday, too. They could
    1.79 +use a few lessons from the best cheerleader in Tomoeda. And it would
    1.80 +be so kawaii with Sakura-chan giving lessons these days. But I’m sure
    1.81 +that all of those girls are very lucky to have you as their teacher.
    1.82 +Some must feel the same way about you that Rika-chan felt towards
    1.83 +Terrada-sensei. It would be easy to enjoy learning from Sakura-
    1.84 +sensei! I’m sure you make them all very eager for class. I would have
    1.85 +loved to have you as my P.E. teacher when I was younger. And with
    1.86 +your loving heart, you’ll be able to reach out to the girls and draw
    1.87 +the best out of them.
    1.88 +Thank you very much for the book, Sakura-chan. It’s very pretty and
    1.89 +I’ve already gone through it twice. Its must be gorgeous to see it
    1.90 +all up close in Hong Kong. The photography was really nice throughout
    1.91 +the whole book. The Engrish can be a little tricky at times, but it’s
    1.92 +still nice to go through. Flower has wonderful choices in gifts.
    1.93 +Thank you 
    1.94 +again for sending it. I think I like videotaping people dancing a
    1.95 +little more than dancing myself because I love how cute Sakura-chan
    1.96 +looks while she’s dancing. The look on her face is just adorable and
    1.97 +the way she moves is very dreamlike. Dancing can be fun, too, but I’d
    1.98 +much rather videotape it. The prom was fun, but I spent most of it
    1.99 +videotaping Sakura-chan and Li-kun dancing. 
   1.100 +	The tea set you bought sounds very pretty. And with you working on
   1.101 +your tea making, I’m certain that it will be wonderful to have tea
   1.102 +with Sakura-chan. I’m glad that it reminds you of me. But you really
   1.103 +shouldn’t leave it just for me. I’m sure Li-kun and Ieran-sama and
   1.104 +the others would enjoy it very much if you used it for them. But I
   1.105 +would 
   1.106 +love to have tea with you and the tea set when I come to visit.
   1.107 +After I finish Hanako-chan should be perfect. I’ll have to ask mother
   1.108 +about it, but I don’t see why not. Mother should know of some good
   1.109 +hotels in Hong Kong because of all of her business trips, so I’ll
   1.110 +need to start looking for information so I can come out and visit
   1.111 +Sakura-chan. Maybe I could bring my camcorder with us while we went
   1.112 +shopping and I could make sure to get lots of souvenirs of my trip to
   1.113 +visit you. And here I thought that I would have to wait for Sakura-
   1.114 +chan to have a baby to have an excuse to come see her. 
   1.115 +	I’m very glad that you like the videotapes. I’ll make sure that I
   1.116 +keep making more. If you ever have any requests, please just ask. We
   1.117 +have a very well trained chef and she says that she would be more
   1.118 +than happy to help me learn how to make whatever dishes I need to for
   1.119 +my videos. I finished the cake with strawberries tape last night so
   1.120 +I’ll be sure to add that to the package I send. I can even make
   1.121 +copies of some of my old tapes if you would ever like to see your
   1.122 +adventures for the past eight years. I’m so very glad that you think
   1.123 +I look pretty in the cooking tapes. Thank you very much for saying
   1.124 +so. That means 
   1.125 +so much to me coming from you. And I’m glad you think I’m a lot like
   1.126 +your mother. With all that my mother has said about Nadeshiko-san, I
   1.127 +take that as one of the highest compliments I could receive. Mother
   1.128 +said that you and I must have been switched at birth because I seem
   1.129 +to take more after Nadeshiko-san than her. I’ll send a photo along
   1.130 +with the letter, but it will probably be about a year old or so. I
   1.131 +haven’t had many pictures taken recently. But I’ll be happy to know
   1.132 +that I’ll be by Sakura-chan’s bedside, watching over her. 
   1.133 +	Oh, I need to get going. It looks like I have to get back to work
   1.134 +now that I know when the meeting is. And I can’t finish this right
   1.135 +after work because I’m giving my mother’s secretary’s daughter
   1.136 +singing lessons. But that shouldn’t be more than an hour or two, so
   1.137 +I’ll finish this tonight and send everything to you as soon as I can. 
   1.138 +
   1.139 +	Hello again, Sakura-chan! I’m writing this in the limousine, so I
   1.140 +apologize if my writing looks messy. Megumi-chan has a very beautiful
   1.141 +voice. I’m very glad that she decided to take singing lessons. I
   1.142 +think the only thing she’s lacking is someone or something to sing
   1.143 +for. Once she finds that, she’ll be alluring to listen to. She’s only
   1.144 +a little 
   1.145 +older than I was when I started singing, so it’s interesting
   1.146 +watching her as she works on her singing. Megumi-chan is very earnest
   1.147 +about learning to sing. I wonder if there’s a special someone out
   1.148 +there that she’s learning for. We have lessons on Mondays,
   1.149 +Wednesdays, and Fridays, and every other Saturday.
   1.150 +	I’m glad that your dream is slowly starting to reveal itself to
   1.151 +you. I knew with time it would begin to unfold. It sounds like it’s
   1.152 +still too vague for you to understand now, but I think that soon
   1.153 +enough it will begin to make sense. I hope it means you'll be coming
   1.154 +back to Japan sometime soon. And the person on the Tokyo Tower could
   1.155 +be Sakura-chan’s daughter. I could be wrong, not being a magical girl
   1.156 +and all, but I think that would all be a very nice way for the dream
   1.157 +to turn out. 
   1.158 +	I was pretty sure that it was Sakura-chan dressed in cute boy’s
   1.159 +clothes. You’ve been so worried about me with not having a koibito
   1.160 +and you’ve heard me talking about my special someone for a very long
   1.161 +time. So you already saw yourself close to the situation. And what
   1.162 +better way to see things end happily for your best friend than as
   1.163 +Sakura-chan the boy? Then you get a perfect glimpse of things because
   1.164 +you’re right in the middle of it all. So I thought that it was you.
   1.165 +I’m sure you looked remarkably handsome. Hai, proposing must be a
   1.166 +very difficult thing to do. It took Li-kun three weeks after buying
   1.167 +your wedding ring to finally ask you to marry him and that was after
   1.168 +quite a bit of convincing, so it must be very tough. I think the most
   1.169 +frightening part of it all must be the thought of rejection. Whenever
   1.170 +you bare your feelings to the world, you have a chance of getting
   1.171 +hurt and rejected. Holding out your love to your special someone is a
   1.172 +very dangerous thing. What if they don’t feel the same way about you
   1.173 +or if it hurts them to hear it or if it changes things? So I can
   1.174 +understand why he was so worried and why cute boy Sakura-chan must
   1.175 +have been worried in the dream. But if my one True Love proposed to
   1.176 +me, I wouldn’t hesitate for a second. And if I had to sacrifice
   1.177 +myself for my love, as you said it, Sakura-chan, I would gladly do
   1.178 +that, too. Sometimes it’s just safer to keep your love close to your
   1.179 +heart, protecting it from the pain that rejection or the hurt could
   1.180 +cause. So it’s very brave for Li-kun and you in the dream to propose.
   1.181 +You really are a wonderful best friend, Sakura-chan, and you have
   1.182 +never failed me. You’ve always saved me when I needed it with the
   1.183 +Cards and have been so sweet to me over the years. I’ll always keep
   1.184 +my love close to my heart, where I know it will be safe. I’ll always
   1.185 +love my special someone. And please don’t worry. I don’t mind if my
   1.186 +true love is with me or not. It would make me happy, but that’s not
   1.187 +half as important to me as whether or not they are happy. And they
   1.188 +seem to be, so I’m perfectly content. 
   1.189 +	You have such a warm, loving heart that it’s always so sad for me
   1.190 +to read about you in pain. I’m so sorry about the fight and that you
   1.191 +almost got into another. I can see you sitting up sweetly, waiting
   1.192 +for your love to come through the door. I don’t see how anyone could
   1.193 +leave you waiting. You and Li-kun have been dating for years, but
   1.194 +life as a 
   1.195 +married couple is different. It must be the difficulties you’re both
   1.196 +experiencing as you’re adjusting to it that’s causing the trouble.
   1.197 +I’m sure that Li-kun knows that you care about him and love him very
   1.198 +much. He just has a lot of trouble expressing his emotions sometimes,
   1.199 +Sakura-chan. I’m glad you had Touya-san to talk to about it. He’s
   1.200 +right, those 
   1.201 +types of jobs often require a lot of socialization like that. If you
   1.202 +ever need to talk like that again, you can call me at any time. I’m
   1.203 +always here for you, Sakura-chan. It sounds like Li-kun is very
   1.204 +protective of you. That’s a wonderful quality for your husband to
   1.205 +have 
   1.206 +because I know he’ll keep you safe. I know that he’ll protect you,
   1.207 +no matter what happens. 
   1.208 +	Sakura-chan, I’m very glad that you’re concerned about me, but I
   1.209 +don’t ever want you to be sad for me. That just makes me sadder. I
   1.210 +want to know that my Sakura-chan is happy. I’m sorry that I can’t
   1.211 +tell you who my special person is. I want to. I would love to. But I
   1.212 +can’t. I think you should probably stop looking, Sakura-chan. I think
   1.213 +it could only make things more difficult if you found out and I would
   1.214 +hate myself for ever causing you anything to worry about. Please,
   1.215 +Sakura-chan... You’re my best friend. I don’t think you should look
   1.216 +any closer. Just know that I’m happy as long as my special person is
   1.217 +happy. 
   1.218 +I’m sorry for my writing getting worse. We’re going over some tough
   1.219 +road. But please, Sakura-chan, don’t worry about it. It really
   1.220 +doesn’t matter who I love anymore. I don’t think I’m ever going to
   1.221 +tell them now. It’s just not worth causing the trouble it would take
   1.222 +to tell them. I'm happy with the way things are. I really am. It
   1.223 +doesn't matter who they are because my love won’t change. But I think
   1.224 +that it would be a bad idea to pursue it, Sakura-chan. You don’t want
   1.225 +to know who it is. Please...
   1.226 +	It’s not Touya-san. He’s a wonderful person and he really does look
   1.227 +out for you. I think he and Yukito-san are a wonderful couple. They
   1.228 +look so happy together. I think he knows who I love. We’ve talked
   1.229 +several times and it sounds like he does. But even for all of his
   1.230 +great qualities, they only serve to remind me of my beloved. And I
   1.231 +always blushed when I watched him at soccer practice because he
   1.232 +reminded me of you, Sakura-chan. You both have the same ears. It's
   1.233 +very cute. Hai, it’s much better if I keep my love silent. Close to
   1.234 +my heart, it can do no harm. It doesn’t matter if I have a wedding.
   1.235 +They’re beautiful events, but I’m content being Daidouji Tomoyo as
   1.236 +long as my love is out there with the one they truly love. Even if I
   1.237 +have to keep my love locked away for all eternity, it will always be
   1.238 +all right. You can’t force someone to love you. All you can do is
   1.239 +love them. So doesn’t it make sense to let them love who they shall,
   1.240 +always holding on to that warm feeling the thought of them causes in
   1.241 +your heart? You’re right, I’ll be all right. I always have been. I’ll
   1.242 +be just fine, Sakura-chan. Trust me. 
   1.243 +	I’m sorry to end this so abruptly, but I really must go. Mother
   1.244 +needs me to help with something. Sakura-chan, I’ll always treasure
   1.245 +the time I got to spend with you. You were the best friend I could
   1.246 +possibly have. Thank you for that. I hope everything is well in China
   1.247 +and that this letter gets to you safely.
   1.248 +
   1.249 +
   1.250 +All my love,
   1.251 +Daidouji Tomoyo
   1.252 +
   1.253 +
   1.254 +
   1.255 +
   1.256 +Dear Tomoyo-chan,
   1.257 +
   1.258 +I was so excited to read in your letter that you will be able to
   1.259 +come to Hong Kong soon to visit. Did you ask your Mother yet? When do
   1.260 +you think Haneko-chan will be done? She sounds very lovely, by the
   1.261 +way. I am planning on taking her to school, so that my students can
   1.262 +see the beautiful work my best friend does in far away Japan. When I
   1.263 +read that you were looking for a hotel, I went to Ieran-sama, to beg
   1.264 +her to let you stay here. The house is quite large, and there are
   1.265 +several guest rooms. I was afraid she would say no, but when I told
   1.266 +her she actually smiled and said it would be an honor to have you
   1.267 +stay. I asked her if I could prepare your room, and she said yes.
   1.268 +It's a beautiful room overlooking the garden, and I am already fixing
   1.269 +it up special just for Tomoyo-chan. There is a lovely red and gold
   1.270 +brocade Chinese rug in the room, which Ieran-sama says is very
   1.271 +ancient. I have been dusting and cleaning, thinking about you while I
   1.272 +work. After reading that you might come soon, I can barely sleep at
   1.273 +night. Waiting for you makes every day seem so long. 
   1.274 +
   1.275 +I am so very happy that you have a picture of me on your desk at
   1.276 +work. One reason I was always smiling was that you were so close to
   1.277 +me. I always felt good when you were around, sort of peaceful and
   1.278 +content. Everything just seemed so right when we were together.
   1.279 +Please tell Meishi-san that your girlfriend in the picture sends
   1.280 +congratulations on the upcoming wedding. I hope and pray she will be
   1.281 +very happy. I hope Haneko-chan is finished in time. So Meishi-san is
   1.282 +another reason for the doll to be finished quickly, and then you can
   1.283 +come to visit. Oh, but I do not mean to rush you or anything like
   1.284 +that. I am sure you are under great pressure as it is, so I hope
   1.285 +everything goes well. Designing a doll sounds like a lot of work, but
   1.286 +I'm sure it will be delightful when it is finished. I think you made
   1.287 +a good choice with the hair, and am certain little girls will have a
   1.288 +wonderful time playing with it. I know that I loved brushing and
   1.289 +braiding your beautiful lavender hair when we were young. It's kind
   1.290 +of funny, but I dreamt of this not too long ago. We were back in the
   1.291 +5th grade, and you were sleeping over at my house. We were both in
   1.292 +our nightclothes in my room, and I was brushing your hair with long,
   1.293 +careful strokes. Only the little nightlight was on, but your hair
   1.294 +glistened in the soft, pale glow of the moon. You were silent, and
   1.295 +sitting away from me, so I couldn't see your face. The only sound was
   1.296 +the soft swish of the brush. Then I made two long braids, and tied
   1.297 +them together with pink ribbons. When I finished, you started to turn
   1.298 +around, and my heart beat faster. I felt such an intense love for you
   1.299 +that it woke me up. And sitting in bed, with Sayoran-chan asleep next
   1.300 +to me, I missed you so much. My heart ached for you to be with me so
   1.301 +I could hold my Tomoyo-chan close again.
   1.302 +
   1.303 +  I talked with my sensei friend yesterday and told her about
   1.304 +missing you so much. She smiled, and said she looked forward to
   1.305 +meeting you. She said no matter what we do or where we are, our
   1.306 +special person follows us like a gentle little ghost haunting our
   1.307 +hearts. She quoted from a poem in English, and translated it for me.
   1.308 +It was:
   1.309 +
   1.310 +"Parting is all we know of Heaven,
   1.311 +And all we need of Hell."
   1.312 +
   1.313 +She said that is how she always feels about her special person being
   1.314 +gone. She said that person is still with her, and that there is no
   1.315 +pain greater or sweeter. I feel very sad for her, and for your
   1.316 +Mother, and for my Father. I guess it's something you can never get
   1.317 +over.
   1.318 +
   1.319 +I'm glad you liked the book on local flowers. We can go and see some
   1.320 +of the gardens and wildflowers on the islands when you come. I told
   1.321 +Flower you liked the book, and she was very pleased. When I said her
   1.322 +you were coming to visit, she said she wanted to dance with you. I
   1.323 +think that would be a very sweet to see. Oh, and the tea set is for
   1.324 +you, a "Welcome Back to Hong Kong" present, I guess. Sorry it's not a
   1.325 +surprise, but I was so excited I couldn't keep it secret. It is in
   1.326 +the room now on a little mahogany table, waiting for you. And thank
   1.327 +you for the videotapes. The strawberry cake was a bit of a problem.
   1.328 +It was so good there was none left over for Kero-chan, and he was
   1.329 +quite put out about that. I had to promise to make one just for him.
   1.330 +Tomoyo-chan, you looked so beautiful in that video. I loved the
   1.331 +costume you wore, and the apron with little strawberry designs was so
   1.332 +kawaii. And thank you also for the lovely picture. I bought a little
   1.333 +silver frame so now I can see your smile every night. It really makes
   1.334 +me feel so much better to have you there, and to know that maybe you
   1.335 +are thinking sweet thoughts about me from far away.
   1.336 +
   1.337 +I liked your ideas about cheerleading at the school. Cheerleading is
   1.338 +not as popular in Hong Kong as back home, though it is catching on.
   1.339 +Some of the girls I talked with were very enthusiastic and want to
   1.340 +start a club. I told them I would be happy to be their advisor. A
   1.341 +father of  one of the girls is a tailor, and offered to make the
   1.342 +uniforms for a good price, but said we need some sort of design. I
   1.343 +told the girls about the outfits you designed for me, and they got
   1.344 +very excited. I know you are busy with Haneko-chan, but would it be
   1.345 +possible when you are finished with the project to design an outfit
   1.346 +for the club? We would not need the design until late summer. Of
   1.347 +course, I know you are very busy with work, and do not want to impose
   1.348 +on you, so please tell me if it would at all be a bother. Of course,
   1.349 +we would pay you whatever you thought a fair price for the work. The
   1.350 +girls are already planning ways to raise money. They really are very
   1.351 +cute.
   1.352 +
   1.353 +One of the girls reminds me of you, Tomoyo-chan. She is very quiet
   1.354 +and sweet, and one of the best students in the 4th grade. She has
   1.355 +long hair that curls at the end, and is as pretty as can be. She is
   1.356 +not particularly athletic, so I have worked with her extra so she can
   1.357 +pass all of her tests. Sometimes she comes after school for practice,
   1.358 +so I stay and take a later bus. In return, she insists on helping me
   1.359 +with my Chinese, which is just like her. I noticed that she is always
   1.360 +looking very dreamily at one of the other 4th grade girls, but that
   1.361 +the other girl does not seem to notice. It is so kawaii to see her
   1.362 +all -hanyaan-
   1.363 +
   1.364 +Tomoyo-chan, please don't ever think that you are not an important
   1.365 +part of my life anymore, or not necessary, or that I would be all
   1.366 +right without you. It's really the very opposite, because I need you
   1.367 +more than ever. Or, maybe, I just never realized before how much my
   1.368 +best friend meant to me. I love Sayoran-chan so very much. But, I
   1.369 +can't really talk with him about many things. He is very busy, and
   1.370 +even when he is home he is such a private person. We are not together
   1.371 +as much as I would like, but then, I guess we never could be, since
   1.372 +there are not enough hours in the day. But for the first time since I
   1.373 +met you, I feel lonely. 
   1.374 +
   1.375 +When it started, I thought I was just homesick, and missed
   1.376 +everybody. And I do miss everyone, in a way. But not the way I miss
   1.377 +you. Not being with you hurts me. I don't want to make you sad, so
   1.378 +please don't worry. But Tomoyo-chan, not having you to talk with, to
   1.379 +see, and to hold is so much more painful than I ever thought. It's
   1.380 +like breathing. You don't think about the air until it's gone, and
   1.381 +then you are desperate. When I was with you, I felt that everything
   1.382 +was all right. I -knew- it was. Tomoyo-chan, I don't think I feel
   1.383 +that way anymore. I feel so apart from you, and sometimes I miss you
   1.384 +so much I just start to cry. I don't understand this at all. I am
   1.385 +with the man I love in a beautiful new place on my life's adventure.
   1.386 +But I feel so sad. I feel just like sensei, like my special person is
   1.387 +far away. And I don't want to tell you this, because it makes me so
   1.388 +ashamed, but when you told me that Oniichan was not your special
   1.389 +person, part of me was happy. I hate myself for feeling that way, and
   1.390 +am so, so sorry. But I had to tell you, because I do not want to keep
   1.391 +any secrets. Part of me was happy that you are not with your special
   1.392 +person. I -hate- that part of me. I do so want you to be happy, and
   1.393 +would do anything I could for you. So why do I feel this way? I
   1.394 +should be happy if you could be with your special someone. It's so
   1.395 +sad you are not, and that your love must be kept deep within your
   1.396 +heart. But if you were with someone else, I would feel farther away
   1.397 +from you than ever. It's almost as if you -were- my special person,
   1.398 +which of course must be ridiculous. But it's just how I feel, no
   1.399 +matter how many times I tell myself I don't. Gomenesai, Tomoyo-chan. 
   1.400 +
   1.401 +Last night something strange happened. It was the dream again, the
   1.402 +one in Tokyo. It was so windy that I could barely stand. I was
   1.403 +straining to see the figure on Tokyo Tower. The figure on the tower
   1.404 +was still vague, and I do not know who it was. The wind howled, and
   1.405 +almost knocked me off the roof of the building we were on. In fact,
   1.406 +just then a real wind woke me up, and I was surprised to find I was
   1.407 +not in my bed at all. I had wandered in my sleep, and awoke on the
   1.408 +edge of a steep cliff overlooking the ocean. I was facing east,
   1.409 +toward Japan, and the moon was setting over the water. I was scared,
   1.410 +and then very embarrassed, being in my nightgown outdoors.
   1.411 +Fortunately nobody was around so I was able to sneak back home. On
   1.412 +the way back I ran into Kero-chan, who noticed I was gone and came to
   1.413 +look for me. I told him about the dream, and he seemed quite
   1.414 +concerned. He said I should tie a string around my finger when I
   1.415 +sleep and attach it to a little bell or something so I don’t wander
   1.416 +in my sleep anymore. But that seemed silly, and I would probably just
   1.417 +get all tangled up. Fortunately, Sayoran-chan slept through the whole
   1.418 +thing. 
   1.419 +
   1.420 +I have been visiting with the Cards a lot lately. I had a long
   1.421 +conversation with Light-sama and Dark-sama Sunday night. Tomoyo-chan,
   1.422 +they are so sweet together. I never knew. They are a beautiful
   1.423 +couple, and even though they are so different, they are very much in
   1.424 +love. Dark-sama is more quiet and shy, but very tender and gentle.
   1.425 +Light-sama is funny sometimes, though she is always very dignified. I
   1.426 +talked with them about many things, and felt so much better
   1.427 +afterwards. I told them you are coming to visit, and they both looked
   1.428 +very pleased and wish to meet you. Tomoyo-chan, I also asked them
   1.429 +about you, and your special someone. Dark-sama almost seemed to
   1.430 +blush, and Light-sama laughed in her Lady-like way. They said I
   1.431 +should trust more in my special power, and then everything will be
   1.432 +all right.  
   1.433 +
   1.434 +Gomenesai, Tomoyo-chan. I will stop asking about who your special
   1.435 +person is. I had no right to try and find out. I would never, ever
   1.436 +want to hurt you. Even though a part of me would miss you so very
   1.437 +much, I do wish you could be with your beloved. I know you are happy
   1.438 +for him, and I do hope that makes you happy, too. I have never known
   1.439 +anybody quite like you, Tomoyo-chan. You are kind, gentle, loving,
   1.440 +and caring. You were always the smartest person I ever knew. Even
   1.441 +though Naoko-chan read more books, you were smart about -everything-,
   1.442 +like sewing and people and tea. And you are so beautiful. Seeing you
   1.443 +in those videos sometimes takes my breath away. I read in a magazine
   1.444 +once that angels are celestial visitors who come to Earth. They bring
   1.445 +love and peace to all the fortunate people they touch. It's funny,
   1.446 +because when I read this, I thought of you. I thought, maybe Tomoyo-
   1.447 +chan is an angel, because she is not like anyone else. She is so
   1.448 +special. So, I believe that someday, somehow, you will be with your
   1.449 +special person. Everything -cannot- be all right if you are alone. If
   1.450 +I could have one wish, it would be that you and your love would be
   1.451 +together, forever.
   1.452 +
   1.453 +
   1.454 +Love,
   1.455 +
   1.456 +
   1.457 +Sakura
   1.458 +
   1.459 +
   1.460 +PS- Kero chan says thank you for the strawberry cake recipe, but
   1.461 +please make the recipes bigger next time. He made me write this.
   1.462 +
   1.463 +PPS- Syaoran-chan says hello.  
   1.464 +
   1.465 +PPSS- I have enclosed some more pictures for you. One is of the
   1.466 +school from the front, and one is of the gym where I teach. Fanren
   1.467 +took the picture of me baking the strawberry cake. It looks a bit
   1.468 +messy, but the cake really did turn out well. 
   1.469 +
   1.470 +  
   1.471 +
   1.472 +Dear Sakura-chan,
   1.473 +	I’m sorry that it’s taken me so long to reply to your 
   1.474 +wonderful letter. I always love hearing from you and writing to you 
   1.475 +makes me very happy. But the past week and a half have been very 
   1.476 +hectic. Hanako-chan is just about finished. It took a lot of work, 
   1.477 +but I’m very happy with her. I think she’s a doll that young girls 
   1.478 +will be able to love dearly. It’s my gift to all of the poor little
   1.479 +girls out there who don’t have their own Sakura-chan to dress in cute 
   1.480 +costumes and play with. We had a lot of meetings lately so that we 
   1.481 +could solve all of the problems with Hanako-chan so that she would 
   1.482 +come out smoothly. I have one of the prototypes for her on my 
   1.483 +desk right now. I’m going to send her to you along with this letter. 
   1.484 +I really hope that you like her. I know that she’ll be happy to be 
   1.485 +with Sakura-chan. 
   1.486 +	Meishi-san had her wedding early, so I went to that several 
   1.487 +days ago. It was a beautiful ceremony. She and her husband are 
   1.488 +very much in love. I’m very happy for them to be spending the rest 
   1.489 +of their lives together. They had an enormous cake that Kero-chan 
   1.490 +would have loved to see. I would get the recipe, but it looked too 
   1.491 +big for me to bake. The wedding reminded me of Sakura-chan’s, so 
   1.492 +I thought of you throughout the ceremony. I think Meishi-san and 
   1.493 +her husband are already planning on children. She’ll make an 
   1.494 +excellent mother. The smile on her face looked so joyous. It was 
   1.495 +the same as yours at your wedding. It must be such a wonderful 
   1.496 +feeling to know that you will forever be with your true love. I’m 
   1.497 +very happy for the both of you. Meishi-san asked me when I was 
   1.498 +going to ask my girlfriend in the photo to marry me. She’s always 
   1.499 +joking about those sorts of things. I told her I would as soon as I 
   1.500 +knew she would say yes. We laughed a bit and went back to the 
   1.501 +party. Meishi-san left for her honeymoon that night, so she’s still 
   1.502 +gone right now. After all of the hard work on Hanako-chan, she 
   1.503 +deserves the rest with her beloved.
   1.504 +	I’ve been practicing longer with Megumi-chan after work. 
   1.505 +She really has a lovely voice. And she certainly has the 
   1.506 +determination to be a very good singer. All she needs is a little 
   1.507 +patience and it will come perfectly to her. I brought up her singing 
   1.508 +in a competition a short time ago, but she seemed a little nervous. 
   1.509 +She asked me about the awards I’d won, but I told her that that was 
   1.510 +never what mattered to me when singing. Singing lets you express 
   1.511 +the feelings in your soul. It lets you serenade your one, true love, 
   1.512 +even if they can’t hear you. Singing is a way to say what you cannot 
   1.513 +with simple words. Megumi-chan seemed a little surprised by that, 
   1.514 +so I asked her why she wanted me to teach her to sing. She 
   1.515 +couldn’t answer right away so I told her to think about the answer 
   1.516 +until our next lesson. When our next lesson finally arrived, she came 
   1.517 +out to meet me in front of her house. She smiled a very sweet smile 
   1.518 +and told me that she wanted to sing because she always loved to 
   1.519 +and that she wanted to sing like an angel for her special someone. 
   1.520 +I’m very proud of her. I think before long, her angelic voice will 
   1.521 +reach out to whoever it is she’s singing for.
   1.522 +	I’ve spoken with my mother and I have my flight information ready.
   1.523 +I should be leaving for Hong Kong late next week. Please tell me if
   1.524 +that’s a bother at all. I can always book a different flight. Now
   1.525 +that Hanako-chan is done with her design phase, mother said it would
   1.526 +be perfectly all right for me to take a break and go visit Sakura-
   1.527 +chan. She tried to convince me to go with her on a trip to the
   1.528 +mountains instead, but I had to refuse. I know she has the best of
   1.529 +intentions, but I would like to see Sakura-chan again in her new
   1.530 +married life. Mother sends her love, even if she can’t deliver it
   1.531 +herself. Are you sure that it’s all right if I stay at the Li house?
   1.532 +There are several hotels around there that I could check into. Though
   1.533 +if Sakura-chan has gone through all the trouble, I would most
   1.534 +graciously accept your hospitality. Thank you for going through so
   1.535 +much trouble just for me, Sakura-chan. The room sounds lovely and it
   1.536 +will be very nice to look out on the same garden that Sakura-chan
   1.537 +wanders through. I’m sorry that your days seem longer because of
   1.538 +this. I’ll have to come out there very soon so that you won’t have to
   1.539 +worry anymore. And I would absolutely 
   1.540 +love to have tea with you and the wonderful tea set while I’m there. 
   1.541 +Please tell Flower that if she would love to dance, I would be most 
   1.542 +pleased to. It has been a very long time since I’ve last danced. 
   1.543 +	Sakura-chan sure has been dreaming a lot lately. I’m always 
   1.544 +very happy to hear about your dreams. There’s always a very sweet 
   1.545 +quality about them. Maybe it’s the air in Hong Kong that’s giving 
   1.546 +you so many of them. Or your new life. But they seem very nice. I 
   1.547 +remember you braiding my hair like that. I was very happy to have 
   1.548 +you doing that for me. It’s completely different having Sakura-chan 
   1.549 +do your hair. Not at all like fixing my hair myself. Your hands were 
   1.550 +so gentle and warm. You were so careful with your brush strokes. I 
   1.551 +wish I had caught that on videotape, but I’m pleased to hold the 
   1.552 +memory in my heart for as long as I can. I’m really glad that 
   1.553 +Sakura-chan remembered it. You were so sweet that night. We 
   1.554 +stayed up late talking about all kinds of things. And I was so happy 
   1.555 +when you agreed to fix my hair. Thank you so much for that, 
   1.556 +Sakura-chan. You don’t have to worry about missing me anymore. 
   1.557 +I’ll be in Hong Kong soon enough and we can spend some time 
   1.558 +together like we used to. Of course, I don’t want to interfere with 
   1.559 +your new life, so I’ll be very careful about that. But 
   1.560 +there’s no reason to be lonely, Sakura-chan. You have many people 
   1.561 +who love you very much. And you don’t have to miss me. You’re 
   1.562 +always in my thoughts and you always have my love. I’m very sorry 
   1.563 +that you’ve been feeling so lonely lately. I’ll be happy to try and 
   1.564 +cheer Sakura-chan up while I visit. I’m very happy that you always 
   1.565 +felt good when I was around. I always wanted Sakura-chan to be 
   1.566 +happy, so it was a spectacular award to see you smile. I wanted to 
   1.567 +make you as happy as I could, so that Sakura-chan wouldn’t have 
   1.568 +to worry. But now that’s Li-kun’s job, so I should be glad that it’s 
   1.569 +in good hands.
   1.570 +	It is so horrible that people like your sensei friend and my 
   1.571 +mother and your father all have to go through so much pain. It must 
   1.572 +hurt unbearably to lose your special someone. But your sensei 
   1.573 +friend is right. Even if you are far apart or separated, they will 
   1.574 +forever dwell in your heart, the impressions of their soul always 
   1.575 +bringing back the sweetest of memories and the deepest of regrets. 
   1.576 +But I think as long as you know you have that sliver of their soul, 
   1.577 +and that your love can encompass it with a warm glow, then you 
   1.578 +have nothing to fear. No matter how much it hurts, you will always 
   1.579 +carry slivers of their soul. 
   1.580 +	Your students sound eager and determined just like their 
   1.581 +sensei. It just seems like fate that Sakura-chan would help them get 
   1.582 +into cheerleading. I’m sure they will all be adorable. And with you 
   1.583 +helping them, it will turn out wonderfully. I stayed up a little
   1.584 +late a 
   1.585 +few nights this week and worked on the designs for the uniform. I’ll 
   1.586 +send it along with this letter. I hope that it works well enough. I 
   1.587 +think Sakura-chan’s students would look very kawaii in it. Please 
   1.588 +don’t worry about paying me. As long as Sakura-chan takes some 
   1.589 +pictures of her students practicing in the uniforms, I’ll be very 
   1.590 +pleased. Seeing some of your old costumes gave me inspiration for 
   1.591 +the design. I wanted to make sure that everyone who sees them will 
   1.592 +know that they’re Sakura-chan’s super cute cheerleaders! I think 
   1.593 +it’s fitting that the last costume I made for you was your wedding 
   1.594 +dress, but I’m very glad to be able to help with this. I’m very 
   1.595 +excited about their efforts. 	
   1.596 +	Thank you very much for helping out the girl that reminds 
   1.597 +you of me. I would have been so thrilled to have Sakura-sensei’s 
   1.598 +help back in P.E. so I’m certain that she is in good hands. She’s 
   1.599 +very lucky to have a teacher like you. It sounds like the girl who 
   1.600 +manages to capture her attention reminds me of someone else. 
   1.601 +That’s so sweet to hear. I hope that she can improve with Sakura-
   1.602 +sensei’s help and that hopefully the other girl will notice the way 
   1.603 +she looks at her. 
   1.604 +	Sakura-chan, please know that I’ll always be here for as 
   1.605 +long as you need me. If you ever need someone to talk to or if Li-
   1.606 +kun’s just not around or for any reason, you can always talk to me. 
   1.607 +I don’t want you to ever have to feel lonely. I’m sure that as time 
   1.608 +goes by, Sakura-chan won’t feel so lonely anymore as she gets new 
   1.609 +friends and grows closer to her new family. Please don’t cry over 
   1.610 +me. It makes me sad knowing that my best friend is sad across the 
   1.611 +sea. Sakura-chan, I always wanted to comfort you as best I could, 
   1.612 +to make sure that you knew that everything would be all right. But 
   1.613 +that was never my doing. Things are all right because I believe in 
   1.614 +you. And they’ll continue to be. Just believe in yourself. I’ll
   1.615 +always 
   1.616 +be your friend, but you don’t need me to know that things will 
   1.617 +work out. Everything will always work out for you. I know it will. 
   1.618 +Please don’t be sad. We’ve been best friends for a very long time. 
   1.619 +And you’ll always remain my best friend. You shouldn’t feel like 
   1.620 +sensei when your special person is right next to you. Maybe you 
   1.621 +need to spend some more time with Li-kun to get your mind off of 
   1.622 +your worries. Someone needs to cheer you up and if I can’t, then 
   1.623 +someone else will have to. Sakura-chan, please don’t feel bad about 
   1.624 +being happy that Touya-san isn’t my special person. If you’re glad 
   1.625 +for that, then I think that’s a good thing. If it worries you about
   1.626 +me 
   1.627 +being more distant if I did get with my special person, then there’s 
   1.628 +nothing to concern yourself with. I’m happy as long as they are, so 
   1.629 +I’m quite content on my own. With Sakura-chan’s friendship and 
   1.630 +okaa-sama’s support, I know I won’t be alone. You’re the most 
   1.631 +important person in my life, Sakura-chan, so you don’t have to 
   1.632 +worry about me putting anyone above you. If I were your special 
   1.633 +person, then I would want very much for you to smile and laugh 
   1.634 +again. I would be a very lucky person if I were your special 
   1.635 +someone. Just like Li-kun. 
   1.636 +	I never knew that Sakura-chan was a sleep walker. It must 
   1.637 +have been very cute to see you walking around with your eyes 
   1.638 +closed out there. I’m sure Li-kin would worry if he found out, but I 
   1.639 +don’t think you would be any danger from that. It’s probably part 
   1.640 +of your dream. I’m definitely starting to think that it’s pointing to 
   1.641 +Japan, but I don’t understand why. Maybe there still is some 
   1.642 +unfinished business with the Cards. My camcorder would be so 
   1.643 +happy to go back to videotaping Sakura-chan’s adventures! Even if 
   1.644 +it was only for a short time. But the dream is slowly unfolding to 
   1.645 +you. I’m sure soon enough it will be clear. 
   1.646 +	I really wish I could tell you who my special someone is, but 
   1.647 +I think that it would be much better if I didn’t say their name. But 
   1.648 +I’m very lucky to warrant Sakura-chan’s concern. That’s extremely 
   1.649 +sweet of you to worry about me like that, Sakura-chan. You make 
   1.650 +such a perfect best friend. But don’t let it worry you, because that 
   1.651 +will only make me sad. I need to know that you’re smiling for me. 
   1.652 +And you don’t ever have to feel lonely over my special someone. 
   1.653 +Nothing could take you from my thoughts. You’ve burned your 
   1.654 +cute image into my mind forever. Thank you so much for all of the 
   1.655 +kind words, Sakura-chan. Hearing you say all that was very 
   1.656 +flattering. I’m makes me very happy to know that you think about 
   1.657 +me that way. And it does make me happy when my special someone 
   1.658 +is happy, so you don’t have to worry about me. If I were an angel, I 
   1.659 +would want to be Sakura-chan’s guardian angel, to watch over her 
   1.660 +forever and to take care of her. I heard a sad story some time ago 
   1.661 +about how angels cannot fall in love with humans because their love 
   1.662 +could never be. But what a beautiful love it is. As long as the angel 
   1.663 +can feel that love for the human they gave their heart to, does it 
   1.664 +really matter that they can’t be together? Even if the red string of 
   1.665 +fate isn’t wrapped around your finger, it doesn’t mean that you 
   1.666 +can’t love with all your heart. You may not get their love in return, 
   1.667 +but you get back so much just being able to have experienced them 
   1.668 +in your life. So I have no regrets. I wouldn’t take away a single day 
   1.669 +that I got to spend in the presence of my beloved. And my love will 
   1.670 +flourish in memories and dreams. Everything can still be all right if 
   1.671 +I’m alone. Because I am blessed to have been able to touch my 
   1.672 +special person’s life in some small way. Thank you so much for 
   1.673 +everything, Sakura-chan. I love you very much. You are my sweet, 
   1.674 +genki best friend. 
   1.675 +
   1.676 +I’ll see you soon,
   1.677 +Daidouji Tomoyo 
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