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2 Author’s Notes: This is a Saint Tail story from Seira Mimori’s | |
3 perspective. I’ve been wanting to deal with her thoughts on things | |
4 for quite a while now. This isn’t the story I’d intended to write, | |
5 but I’m happy with it. ^-^ Now if I can ever write a story about | |
6 Seira & Meimi when they’re older, I’ll be happy. ^^;; | |
7 | |
8 | |
9 A Thief in the Night | |
10 by Amazoness Duo | |
11 amazonessduo@hotmail.com | |
12 | |
13 | |
14 It’s been such a long night. I should be sleeping right now, but I | |
15 can’t. So here I am, Lord. Your loyal servant, Seira. I know I should | |
16 be in bed. I have classes tomorrow and I promised Sister Abbess that | |
17 I would help her sweep the grounds. But for some reason, I can’t | |
18 sleep tonight. Whenever I close my eyes, I see her. I can’t put her | |
19 out of my mind long enough to fade into a blissful sleep. It’s like | |
20 her image has been burned into my eyelids. I toss and turn, seeing | |
21 her smile. I hug my pillow tightly, wishing it were her there with me | |
22 to qualm my waking nightmares. But I know she’s far away, having | |
23 entirely different thoughts before passing into a deep slumber. | |
24 | |
25 And it’s a well deserved sleep. She has done your will, my Lord. | |
26 She’s granted another person your protection by helping them as the | |
27 mysterious thief, Saint Tail. So she can sleep the sleep of the just. | |
28 Yet I only find myself caught in my blankets like a net, her voice | |
29 whispering in my ear with every breeze that brushes past my window. | |
30 I’m the one who convinced her to be Saint Tail. I send the hopes and | |
31 prayers of those who have been wronged unto her. And because she | |
32 trusts me, because she’s my friend, she will do anything she can to | |
33 fulfil those wishes. All I can do is wait here for her, praying to | |
34 you that she will be safe, wishing I could be there with her. But | |
35 that is her role. As I have my own. | |
36 | |
37 So I am praying to you tonight, the moon sailing high above as I do, | |
38 alone in the church. I pray not to get rid of the feelings inside of | |
39 me, because I can’t imagine living without the love I feel for Meimi. | |
40 I pray instead to help quell my chaotic thoughts, to soothe the | |
41 stormy sea inside of me. So that I can try to find some tranquility | |
42 in this endless night. | |
43 | |
44 The rest of the nuns are already asleep. They don’t come here this | |
45 late at night. But I’m here almost every night. I feel safer here. I | |
46 don’t have to be so alone in my thoughts here because of you. Other | |
47 girls my age are listening to music idols or wanting to get into the | |
48 latest trend. I spend most of my free time at the church, whether | |
49 thinking or praying, speaking to you or listening to those whose | |
50 hearts are heavy. Most of the students already call me Sister Seira | |
51 even though I’m not officially a nun yet. That will have to wait | |
52 until after high school. But I’m glad that they trust me as one | |
53 already. I guess they see me around the church enough to believe I | |
54 am. | |
55 | |
56 It’s so quiet here at night. So peaceful. I may not be a thief, but | |
57 I do love the night as much as Meimi. Enveloped in inky darkness, | |
58 it’s not the cacophony of confusion that daylight brings. I feel so | |
59 out of place, nothing like the other girls. They don’t see me as one | |
60 of them. I might as well already be a nun in their minds, one of the | |
61 many who teach at the school. I don’t understand what they’re talking | |
62 about half the time. I can only smile and nod and pretend I have some | |
63 vague idea of what’s going on. During the day, there are so many | |
64 distractions, so many confusing things. At night, I can finally try | |
65 to unravel the knots in my heart. I can sit here and think, trying to | |
66 make sense of my confused soul. | |
67 | |
68 Meimi. She is what confuses me the most. Yet she is the one truth I | |
69 can hold onto. She’s who I understand better than anyone. She’s | |
70 energetic and emotional and altogether too flighty. But that’s part | |
71 of her charm. She gets so confused about herself sometimes. I think I | |
72 understand her better than she does herself. But that’s just because | |
73 she hasn’t taken the time to try to find out what she’s like. She’s | |
74 always busy with other things, her thoughts elsewhere. My thoughts | |
75 are always inexorably drawn to her. I want to know everything about | |
76 her. I want to immerse myself in all that is her. So when she likes | |
77 something, I’ll try to find out all I can about it. Whether it’s a | |
78 band or a movie star or some type of stuffed animal, I’ll spend my | |
79 free time digging up all the information I can on it. Maybe it’s my | |
80 way of being closer to her. I want to understand her heart and soul. | |
81 Everything that makes her who she is. | |
82 | |
83 Meimi’s escapades as Saint Tail was another way I could be closer to | |
84 her. She has always been so amazing. Athletic, talented, smart. I | |
85 used to clap until my hands ached when she would show me magic tricks | |
86 as a child. The magician and the nun. What an odd pair we must have | |
87 made as children. What an odd pair we must still make. But I wouldn’t | |
88 have it any other way. So I thank you for that, for letting me find | |
89 Meimi. I’ve spent so long watching her, fascinated by what I saw. It | |
90 was only a matter of time before I found a way to put her talents to | |
91 use. | |
92 | |
93 Everyone suffers. You learn that in the church. But suffering is | |
94 part of life. All the same, I want to end that suffering. But there | |
95 wasn’t anything I could do on my own. People would come to me with | |
96 their problems and all I could do was listen and pray for them. Until | |
97 I finally found out how they could truly receive God’s protection. It | |
98 didn’t take long to talk Meimi into it. I know all the right buttons | |
99 to push with her, so I knew she’d do it before I even asked. I know I | |
100 probably shouldn’t have, but I believe some things are justified in | |
101 helping people. Even some deceit and trickery. Otherwise I wouldn’t | |
102 have teamed up with a magician and thief to grant people your | |
103 protection. Sometimes you have to do what you can to help people, | |
104 even if it is a little underhanded. | |
105 | |
106 But I would be lying if I said those were my only reasons for | |
107 recruiting her as Saint Tail. I wanted something to share with her, | |
108 something that was ours and ours alone. A little secret we could | |
109 share, times we could sneak away together like lovers to whisper | |
110 about things no one else would ever hear. So in a way, this is my | |
111 love life. Standing in a church at midnight as I await my love to | |
112 come rushing in to pray with me and then run off to steal something | |
113 back from someone. Though I’m sure she doesn’t see it that way. I | |
114 blush faintly at all these thoughts rushing through my head, seeing | |
115 her once again vividly in my mind. | |
116 | |
117 Saint Tail is our little secret. The one thing that we can share | |
118 away from the rest of the world. Something we can do together, just | |
119 the two of us. It makes me feel closer to her. It lets me have | |
120 something of her that no one else can have. But I don’t know how much | |
121 longer that can last. Her game of cat and mouse with Asuka Jr. | |
122 concerns me. If he finds out who she is, our little secret will be | |
123 out in the open. Our time together in the middle of the night will | |
124 end. I’ll no longer be blessed with her midnight visits. And I don’t | |
125 want to lose all of that. It’s too important to me. But it’s getting | |
126 more dangerous. I keep warning her about letting him find out, but | |
127 she keeps wavering. I think she loves the chase. Having him run after | |
128 her, spending all of his time and effort on her. But he doesn’t care | |
129 for her. He only cares about Saint Tail. He’s chasing Saint Tail, | |
130 scorning Meimi. I love Meimi, not some mystery girl that I don’t | |
131 know. Tuxedo or school uniform, I love her just the same. But I can’t | |
132 tell her that. I can’t let her know that my heart beats for her. I | |
133 can only warn her about letting him find out. And I know Meimi well | |
134 enough to know that the whole game of cat and mouse wouldn’t be fun | |
135 for her if there was no danger of him finding out who she is. So all | |
136 I can do is watch and worry. And pray. | |
137 | |
138 But pray for what? That she could somehow love me? That she won’t | |
139 let Asuka Jr. find out for my sake? Or for the sake of all she’s | |
140 helping as Saint Tail? I don’t know. So I don’t know if those prayers | |
141 are reaching you. Just... Please keep her safe, no matter what path | |
142 she chooses. I couldn’t live with myself if she got hurt as Saint | |
143 Tail. That would be entirely my fault because I’m the one who | |
144 convinced her to be Saint Tail in the first place. | |
145 | |
146 Saint Tail and Meimi are almost two different people. I don’t think | |
147 Meimi realizes it, but I can see. She changes when she puts on that | |
148 costume. She’s braver, more sure of herself as Saint Tail. She’s more | |
149 dedicated and focussed in a way, too. Which helps her to do what she | |
150 needs to, even if she does still play with Asuka Jr. chasing her. I | |
151 had no idea that would happen when I asked her to be Saint Tail. It | |
152 never crossed my mind that she would be almost a completely different | |
153 person as a mysterious thief. And yet, I love them both. Because they | |
154 are two sides of my dear Meimi. They’re both her in their own way. I | |
155 wish I could bring this up with Meimi, but I decided a long time ago | |
156 that I wouldn’t tell her how I feel. And she wouldn’t believe me if I | |
157 told her she acted like a different person as Saint Tail. She | |
158 probably doesn’t see it. If anything, it’s Saint Tail that likes | |
159 Asuka Jr. Meimi doesn’t get along with him at all. But I can’t | |
160 explain that to her. So she thinks that she might like him as well. | |
161 And it obviously confuses her horribly. It hurts that there’s nothing | |
162 I can do to help her. | |
163 | |
164 All I can do is be Meimi’s friend. All I can do is watch on while | |
165 she falls in love and drifts from me. All I can do is pray for her to | |
166 be happy in her life. I’ve always known we couldn’t be together. | |
167 We’re both girls. She doesn’t like me that way. My role is with the | |
168 church. I’ve known all of these things from the moment I fell in love | |
169 with her. So it was never about getting her love for myself. It’s | |
170 always been about simply loving her, getting closer to her and | |
171 finding out everything I can about this beautiful girl who wandered | |
172 into my life. I will one day become a nun, devoted to you. I will | |
173 never love another other than her. She will always be in my heart, | |
174 even though my path does not let me be with her. But that’s all | |
175 right. It hurts, sometimes. But this is how things are supposed to | |
176 be. I try to remind myself of that when I find myself crying, longing | |
177 to be held in her arms. That will always remain a dream, but one I | |
178 will cherish as I live my life for you. I will always love Meimi. My | |
179 calling to the church doesn’t change that. | |
180 | |
181 A noise behind me scatters my thoughts to the wind. It’s her. I can | |
182 tell without even looking. She may be a silent thief, but I know all | |
183 of her tricks. And I know this church better than my own room, so | |
184 it’s easy enough to tell when someone enters. Especially her. I guess | |
185 certain habits never go away. She’s still trying to sneak up on me. I | |
186 don’t turn, still kneeling in prayer. What’s she doing here tonight, | |
187 I wonder? I didn’t call her about any missions for Saint Tail. She’s | |
188 never mistaken the day before. Maybe there’s something she wants to | |
189 talk about. My heart nearly seizes up with apprehension at that | |
190 thought. Whatever she would want to talk about this late would | |
191 probably be very important. I’ve always been her confidante, and I’ll | |
192 always continue to be so. But whatever is important enough to have | |
193 her come here in the middle of the night worries me. Is it about her | |
194 feelings for Asuka Jr.? Did something happen at home? Does she want | |
195 to quit being Saint Tail? | |
196 | |
197 Now I stand up. I can’t keep my anxiety from rising up within me. I | |
198 turn around, my long, white dress flowing about me. I never did | |
199 bother changing out of my nun’s clothes. There she is, radiantly | |
200 beautiful as ever. For some reason, she has come to me as Saint Tail. | |
201 My concern escalates. Did she go do something as Saint Tail on her | |
202 own tonight? Did something bad happen? Did someone find out who she | |
203 was? “Meimi, are you all right?” I ask worriedly, my hands clasped | |
204 together. She doesn’t answer me. Her eyes are cast in shadows, making | |
205 it impossible for me to tell what lay inside of them or whether she’s | |
206 been crying. | |
207 | |
208 She starts to advance on me, her short pink skirt swishing about as | |
209 she does, the only noise in the empty church. I take a half-step back | |
210 unconsciously. She keeps coming forward. “Meimi?” I ask, more | |
211 nervously this time. No reply. Just the repeated swish-swish of her | |
212 skirt and the light clack of her heels on the floor. I take another | |
213 step back. And another. I smile weakly. “It’s good to see you, Meimi- | |
214 chan. I was just thinking about you. I hope that you’re okay.” Still | |
215 no answer. There’s something almost predatory in the way she’s | |
216 walking. I swallow, taking another few steps back. Something hits me | |
217 from behind, making me gasp out loud. I close my eyes, taking a deep | |
218 breath to try and calm myself. It’s only the altar. I must be pretty | |
219 worked up if I could have stumbled into it. And over Meimi at that. | |
220 But she’s always been the one to get me all worked up, even if she | |
221 doesn’t know it. | |
222 | |
223 I open my eyes again, watching her stepping purposely towards me. | |
224 Her beautiful auburn ponytail swishes in time with her skirt, her | |
225 coattails shifting behind her as she walks ever closer. She’s simply | |
226 stunning. No wonder Asuka Jr. is so obsessed with finding out who | |
227 this beautiful Seraph is. So many boys have already been smitten with | |
228 her. Even her best friend, a girl dedicated to the church has fallen | |
229 in love with her. How could I help myself from doing just that? She’s | |
230 stolen a lot of hearts. She truly is a thief. But she can keep mine | |
231 forever. I don’t need it back. I’d rather she had it anyway. | |
232 | |
233 So captivated by her beauty am I that I barely realize how close | |
234 she’s getting until she’s practically upon me. I move again, but my | |
235 escape is blocked by the altar. I rest my hands on it, holding on | |
236 tightly until my knuckles go white. I smile again shakily. “Was there | |
237 something you wanted, Meimi?” My voice is shaking. Even I can hear | |
238 it. It’s never been this bad when I’ve been around her before. I’ll | |
239 feel warm and dizzy inside, but this has me completely lost. I don’t | |
240 know what to say or do. I feel trapped. She can feel it, can’t she? | |
241 The love I have for her must be excruciatingly obvious this close. | |
242 Why else would I be so weak and nervous being near her? | |
243 | |
244 Meimi is silent, standing before me. Strong, intent, focussed. | |
245 Everything that I can’t muster at the moment. A gloved hand reaches | |
246 up slowly. Her fingertips brush my burning cheeks, sending an | |
247 electric tingle through my skin. My cheeks darken considerably even | |
248 as I try to fight back my blush. “Meimi-chan, maybe we should go | |
249 outside. It’s awfully hot in here tonight,” I say, trying to sound | |
250 casual. I don’t look at her as I do. I can’t. I’d melt if I look into | |
251 her eyes, I just know it. I move to the left, trying to escape being | |
252 in such close proximity to this girl. She’s taking over all of my | |
253 senses. But before I can get away from her, Her arm blocks my path. I | |
254 turn only to find her other arm blocking the other way, boxing me in. | |
255 Her arms on the altar to either side of me, I find myself trapped | |
256 facing her. My heart beats deafeningly inside of me. She must be able | |
257 to hear it in the quiet of the night. I command it to be still, but | |
258 it’s not mine to control. It’s in her hands, after all. I can only | |
259 stand there, pressed tightly against the altar, looking down. Why is | |
260 she doing this? Why is she working her magic on me in such a way? | |
261 Even she can’t be naïve enough to not notice how this is affecting | |
262 me. Yet even then, I pray she won’t ask me about it. I didn’t want | |
263 her to find out. I didn’t want her to know I love her. She could | |
264 never love me anyway, so there’s no reason. Yet now I find myself | |
265 almost hoping that she knows. That she’s discovered my deepest, | |
266 darkest secret. That she can finally drag it out into the light. | |
267 | |
268 “Seira,” she whispers in my ear. Whether it’s her intention or not, | |
269 it sure sounds seductive to me. I shudder imperceptibly (I hope) at | |
270 the sound of her voice echoing throughout me. Her gloved fingers take | |
271 my chin, tilting my head up. I blush darkly but do nothing to stop | |
272 her. My head moves up docilely until I’m looking at her once more. | |
273 Even now, I can’t see her eyes. The shadows and her bangs keep them a | |
274 mystery to me. I feel that if I could get through that to see them, | |
275 that everything would make sense. I’d be able to understand what | |
276 Meimi was doing, what she was thinking. But they’re still hidden from | |
277 me. And her hand is cupping my chin. And her face is moving closer, | |
278 inching nearer. My eyes widen in a mixture of horror and yearning. I | |
279 want to stop her. But I can’t. I just can’t bring myself to stop her. | |
280 Not when I’ve dreamt of this for years. | |
281 | |
282 Her lips brush mine, warm and soft and incredibly delectable. That | |
283 delicate touch hardly seems enough, a small glimpse of heaven that | |
284 leaves me longing for more. Meimi doesn’t keep me waiting long. Her | |
285 lips return to mine, more insistent this time. My thoughts are | |
286 jumbled, an incoherent mess as she kisses me. I press back further, | |
287 but she only moves closer. Her body presses against me now, sending | |
288 more shocks through my body. I’m trapped between her and the altar, | |
289 her kisses growing more passionate as she does what she wants in | |
290 response to my own pliable kissing. It’s then that I realize I’m | |
291 kissing back. Nervously, sure, but I’m kissing back all the same. I | |
292 can’t stop myself. I don’t want to stop myself. Each kiss touches my | |
293 soul like a gentle caress. One of her arms snakes around my back, | |
294 pulling me tighter against her. I make a weak gasp but otherwise | |
295 offer up no struggle. What am I doing? I should be telling her to | |
296 stop. Or... Or.. It’s hard to think past the kisses. They’re so warm | |
297 and they surround my mind like a fuzzy blanket, wrapping it up nice | |
298 and tight. | |
299 | |
300 Why is she doing this to me? Can’t she see how weak she makes me? My | |
301 strength comes from the fact that I can never have her. Please don’t | |
302 take that away, Meimi-chan. My resolve would crumble. My plans for | |
303 the future would fall apart. I would be in freefall. And it’s all up | |
304 to you. All of my strength, whether I have it or whether it all | |
305 leaves me is entirely up to you. | |
306 | |
307 One of her hands caresses my cheek, the soft feel of her gloves | |
308 against my skin almost too much for me. But if I fall here, I know | |
309 that she’ll catch me, hold me tightly. But if I fall because of this, | |
310 who will save me? My entire life has been dedicated to repaying the | |
311 nuns who raised me by devoting myself to God. I knew I couldn’t be | |
312 with Meimi, so it wasn’t a problem. But if she could love me, then | |
313 what? What would I do? How could I possibly choose between her and my | |
314 path in life? I’m so confused again, even in the solace of the | |
315 church, in the night. My confusion has finally found me, no matter | |
316 how well I hid from it. | |
317 | |
318 I want to tell her, to say something, to just collapse from all of | |
319 this madness. But she has other ideas. Her tongue presses against my | |
320 lips. My cheeks burning, my own lips open, accepting her. I can feel | |
321 her tongue brushing past mine, a thrill shooting through me at the | |
322 feeling. I kiss back hesitantly, but find myself responding more and | |
323 more to her lead. ‘Wherever you take me, I’ll follow,’ I think, | |
324 though whether this is more a declaration or a realization, I haven’t | |
325 a clue. | |
326 | |
327 I don’t want this to ever end. I just want to be in her arms | |
328 forever, to feel this way for eternity. Is this what Heaven is like? | |
329 This delicious taste of ethereal joy? Part of me still tries to fight | |
330 it, telling me that I shouldn’t be doing this, that my path in life | |
331 forbids it. But I’m held captive by her lips, by the feel of her | |
332 against me. I gather all of my strength, what little is left, and | |
333 kiss my beautiful Saint Tail with everything I have. It leaves me | |
334 breathless, more confused than ever, but with a wonderful electric | |
335 feeling in my stomach. | |
336 | |
337 She steps away from me, her hands lingering on my sides for a moment | |
338 before finally pulling away. It’s only then that I realize my eyes | |
339 are closed. “Meimi-chan,” I whisper, blushing deeply. “I love you,” I | |
340 say, forcing it out before I get too scared to say it. I don’t care | |
341 how confusing it is anymore. I know that to be true. I know I love | |
342 her, no matter what trouble that causes. And I want her to know it, | |
343 too. I await her answer anxiously, but nothing comes. Is she still | |
344 playing mute? Or does she not know what to say? Is she as embarrassed | |
345 and unsure of everything as I am? I slowly open my eyes to see, but | |
346 she’s gone. I glance around frantically, but she is nowhere to be | |
347 seen. Disappeared like a magic trick, not even smoke left in her | |
348 wake. | |
349 | |
350 My shoulders slump, her spirits dropping. Gone. Like a thief in the | |
351 night. But what was she here to steal? I kneel, clasping my hands in | |
352 prayer once more. This is my solace. But even as I begin to pray, | |
353 thoughts of her linger with me. God is in everything. Maybe I don’t | |
354 have to differentiate between my love for Him and my love for Meimi. | |
355 Maybe... “I love you, Meimi-chan,” I whisper again with all the | |
356 strength of a prayer. I love you. Even if you aren’t there when I | |
357 open my eyes. |