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1 Prism Hearts | |
2 Chapter 3 | |
3 Radical Dreamers | |
4 by Amazoness Duo | |
5 amazonessduo@hotmail.com | |
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7 | |
8 A bundle of clothes got tossed at Kairi shortly after she entered | |
9 the dressing room of the band of part time entertainers and full time | |
10 thieves, the Radical Dreamers. She stumbled back as the rather large | |
11 dress threw her off balance. She held it out, watching it unfurl | |
12 before her. The dress was made of enough cloth to make six of the | |
13 outfits Kairi was wearing. She looked at it with a bit of | |
14 trepidation. “I’m supposed to wear this?” | |
15 | |
16 “Of course! You’re playing the princess. You have to look regal and | |
17 courtly,” Yuffie explained, opening a chest to get a few more props. | |
18 | |
19 Glancing back at the dress skeptically, Kairi shook her head. “Isn’t | |
20 it a little... big?” | |
21 | |
22 Yuffie looked back over her shoulder. “No. You’re just not used to | |
23 wearing anything like that. You get used to it. If you’re gonna be | |
24 playing a princess, you have to look the part. Trust me. I’ve had to | |
25 play the princess now and then myself.” It looked like her words | |
26 helped soothe some of Kairi’s concern, though truth be told, she | |
27 hated playing the part of the princess. She preferred the prince’s | |
28 outfit to that nightmarish gown any day. Sure, it looked pretty | |
29 enough, but Yuffie was used to actually being able to move her limbs. | |
30 She and Zidane had been set to flip for who was going to be the | |
31 princess in the day’s play if Kairi hadn’t shown up, so she was more | |
32 than a little grateful at the younger girl’s arrival. | |
33 | |
34 “But I don’t know any of my lines!” Kairi said nervously, watching | |
35 Yuffie pull out some prop swords. She suddenly realized the big | |
36 difference between playing pretend and doing a play. You didn’t have | |
37 to know what you were doing when you were playing pretend. She felt | |
38 nervous, butterflies swirling about in her stomach as she held onto | |
39 the large dress. | |
40 | |
41 “What lines? We’re doing ‘Sleeping Beauty’. You lie there for most | |
42 of the play. You’re lucky we’re not doing ‘I Want to be Your Canary’. | |
43 The princess in that has most of the best lines,” Yuffie explained, | |
44 taking a few experimental swipes with the blade. She’d give that one | |
45 to Locke. She preferred a shorter sword herself. Even if it wasn’t | |
46 her weapon of choice, it did have a nice stage presence. | |
47 | |
48 “Sleeping Beauty?” Kairi repeated, blinking. | |
49 | |
50 “Yep. Everyone needs a story that ends with a ‘and they lived | |
51 happily ever after’ now and then. Especially with how things have | |
52 been lately. Which is exactly why we aren’t doing ‘I Want to be Your | |
53 Canary’. The ending isn’t the happiest, if you know what I mean.” The | |
54 brunette ninja glanced back over her shoulder at the recently dubbed | |
55 Keyblade Mistress. “Why? You don’t like ‘Sleeping Beauty’?” | |
56 | |
57 Kairi shook her head quickly. “No, I love it! It’s one of my | |
58 favorites!” She could vaguely remember lying on her bed in her room, | |
59 resting on her stomach with her chin in her hands, the lights off and | |
60 a video playing. She could remember reciting the lines as the prince | |
61 said them, as he made his way to Sleeping Beauty. Could remember her | |
62 eyes tearing up, thinking ‘I want my happily ever after’. But that | |
63 couldn’t be real. Sleeping Beauty was Princess Aurora. And she had | |
64 met her at Hollow Bastion. She was one of the seven Princesses. So | |
65 she couldn’t be some movie she had seen. Kairi tried to dismiss the | |
66 thought. It wasn’t true. This was all real. That other place, that | |
67 home was only an illusion. It had to be. | |
68 | |
69 “You better get changed. We don’t have much time. The people are | |
70 probably already taking their seats.” Yuffie stood up, holding the | |
71 pile of swords and belts. “As long as you don’t open your eyes when | |
72 your supposed to be sleeping, you’ll do fine.” | |
73 | |
74 Kairi didn’t feel much better even with the ninja’s ‘helpful’ | |
75 advice. She turned to ask where to change, but Yuffie had already | |
76 left. ‘Just think of it as another part of finding Riku and Sora. The | |
77 sooner you get this over with, the sooner you can get back to finding | |
78 them.’ Sighing, she began to take off her clothes, setting them on | |
79 the chest Yuffie had retrieved some props from just a short time | |
80 before. Setting her skirt down, she looked back at the dress. Just | |
81 how was she supposed to get that thing on, anyway? It still looked | |
82 too big for her. | |
83 | |
84 Before Kairi could figure it out, the door swung open again. “Are | |
85 you coming or not?” | |
86 | |
87 Kairi dropped to her knees, covering herself as best she could, clad | |
88 only in her undergarments. Her cheeks burned as Yuffie simply blinked | |
89 at her for a moment. “Yuffie!” she cried. The ninja finally looked | |
90 away, busying herself with something she apparently saw on the roof. | |
91 She felt like she was going to die. This had never happened before on | |
92 her island. The boys were always polite enough to knock first. She | |
93 wanted to grab her clothes, get dressed, and leave. But she knew she | |
94 couldn’t do that. She still had a play to do. | |
95 | |
96 “You were supposed to follow me, Kairi,” Yuffie said, still staring | |
97 up at the roof. “But.. umm.. If you wanna change in here, that’s | |
98 fine.” She closed the door swiftly. | |
99 | |
100 Her head slumping in embarrassment, Kairi sighed. So that’s why | |
101 Yuffie had left. She was supposed to go with her. This probably | |
102 wasn’t the dressing room after all. But she was so worked up about | |
103 everything that she hadn’t been paying attention. Grabbing the dress, | |
104 she tried to get dressed as quickly as she could. When she was | |
105 finally finished, she felt a little awkward. It was a little too big | |
106 for her after all, but it didn’t seem too noticeable. But she still | |
107 wasn’t used to such an extravagant outfit. She turned, trying to get | |
108 used to the way it swished about her as she moved. | |
109 | |
110 “You look like a real princess, Kairi,” a voice said warmly from | |
111 somewhere behind her. | |
112 | |
113 The brunette whirled about, her eyes wide as she came face to face | |
114 with Riku. He was grinning, a hand on one hip. “Riku!” She was | |
115 breathless. It had been so long since she had seen him. Tears burnt | |
116 at her eyes. She had waited to see him again for so long. | |
117 | |
118 “But then, you really are a princess, so it shouldn’t be any big | |
119 surprise,” the silver haired boy reasoned. | |
120 | |
121 Kairi ran to him, nearly stumbling in the large dress. But she | |
122 didn’t care. She just wanted to be near him again. To know that she | |
123 wasn’t alone anymore. To know that he was really there. To hold on | |
124 and forget all about other worlds and what was real or not. She could | |
125 see him so close, smiling at her. Her arms tried desperately to hold | |
126 onto him, but she passed straight through, stumbling to her hands and | |
127 knees behind him. Her heart plummeted as she sat there, lacking the | |
128 strength to even get back up. She hit the floor angrily with her | |
129 fist, her vision blurring with tears. “Every time I see you...” she | |
130 began weakly, “you aren’t really there. Riku... Please don’t leave | |
131 me.” But there was no answer. He was gone, as suddenly as the wind. | |
132 She closed her eyes tightly, her small body shaking with bitter sobs. | |
133 He was always right there. But he was always a universe away. | |
134 | |
135 A knock at the door punched through Kairi’s shroud of depression. | |
136 “We’ve gotta hurry, princess! You’re on in less than a minute!” | |
137 Yuffie called out. | |
138 | |
139 Slowly getting to her feet, Kairi sniffled, her body still shaking | |
140 lightly. She wiped at her eyes with the sleeves of the gown. | |
141 “Coming!” she called out, hoping Yuffie didn’t hear the tremble in | |
142 her voice. Closing her eyes, she took a deep breath, trying to stifle | |
143 the tears that were still unshed. “I’ll find you Riku. Wherever you | |
144 are,” she whispered. Holding onto some semblance of being fine, Kairi | |
145 hurried out the door. | |
146 | |
147 Yuffie waited, leaning against the wall. She smiled when Kairi | |
148 exited. “See? You do make a good princess.” She stretched, the sword | |
149 in her belt hitting the wall. | |
150 | |
151 Kairi blinked in surprise, unable to keep from staring at the ninja | |
152 girl. “You’re the prince?” | |
153 | |
154 “Yep.” Yuffie turned around, holding onto the cuffs of the prince’s | |
155 jacket. “What do you think? We take turns with a lot of the parts. It | |
156 helps keep us all on our toes. Though I have to admit, I much prefer | |
157 being the prince to the princess. No offense. It’s just not my | |
158 style.” | |
159 | |
160 “I.. uhh.. it’s different,” Kairi said, smiling nervously. This | |
161 hadn’t been what she had expected. She thought maybe the catboy would | |
162 be the prince. His outfit looked regal enough. Or maybe the man with | |
163 the bandana. But she certainly hadn’t been expecting Yuffie. But with | |
164 how upside down things had been, she should have seen it coming. | |
165 “Curiouser and curiouser,” she said to no one in particular. When | |
166 Yuffie looked at her oddly, she just laughed. “Nothing. Let’s go.” | |
167 She held out her arm to Ninja Prince Yuffie, who obligingly took it | |
168 and led her off to the stage. | |
169 | |
170 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
171 | |
172 “So she has the Keyblade. I don’t see how that affects anything. The | |
173 other was unable to lock away the Heartless even with his Keyblade. I | |
174 doubt she will be any more successful,” an effeminate man said, | |
175 brushing his hair back over his shoulder. | |
176 | |
177 “It is a cycle. One we must break. There will always be those | |
178 searching for ways to stop the darkness. But it is an inevitable | |
179 cycle of loss and suffering. When will they learn to simply succumb | |
180 to it? One cannot triumph over darkness. One can only start the cycle | |
181 over again. But if darkness reigns, then the cycle can end. Only then | |
182 can their be piece,” an oddly tranquil voice added. | |
183 | |
184 “Because they refuse to see the futility of their efforts. Despite | |
185 what is taken from them, they continue to march onward, believing | |
186 that what they do is ‘right’. Perhaps if they truly understood what | |
187 they stand to lose, they would not be so willing. That boy, Riku, he | |
188 understood. He was willing to side with darkness to get back what he | |
189 had lost, the heart of that girl. Sometimes extreme measures must be | |
190 taken. Who is worthy of deeming what is ‘good’ and ‘evil’. Such a | |
191 fine line exists. It is merely how far you are willing to go. That | |
192 boy showed that he was willing to go further than his friend for the | |
193 girl. Even to the heart of darkness. Perhaps we can use that,” a | |
194 woman mused. | |
195 | |
196 “What can one little girl possibly hope to achieve? I’ll end her | |
197 little nightmare now and send her to a place of eternal nothingness, | |
198 a shrine she can spend eternity enjoying. Oh, I’ll be the most | |
199 wonderful court artisan she has ever seen, making for her a palace of | |
200 emptiness.” The man punctuated his statement with a maddening laugh. | |
201 | |
202 At last, a silver haired man spoke. “No. Not yet. She has further | |
203 she must go. She may yet prove her usefulness to us. Her importance | |
204 goes far past being one of the seven princesses. She is the final | |
205 piece to this puzzle. She is the key to it all.” | |
206 | |
207 “But, Sephiroth, don’t you think it much wiser to get rid of her | |
208 before she can cause any trouble?” the woman asked. | |
209 | |
210 “No. She is at the heart of all of this. She isn’t our enemy. She is | |
211 more important to our success than any of you know.” With that, | |
212 Sephiroth turned away from the others. He had business to attend to. | |
213 | |
214 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
215 | |
216 ‘Dear diary, | |
217 I’m starting to get worried. Tidus and Wakka found a hole today on | |
218 the island. Not just some deep hole in the ground or anything. An | |
219 endless hole. Like it leads to nowhere. Like someone took some | |
220 scissors and cut out that part of our island. Wakka dropped his beach | |
221 ball down in there and we all waited around for a sound of it hitting | |
222 anything at all, but nothing happened. It was like it was just gone. | |
223 It’s scary. I shudder just thinking about it, and I’m under a nice | |
224 heavy blanket right now. Weird, huh? I usually hate blankets because | |
225 they’re too stuffy. But it’s been so cold and windy and rainy outside | |
226 that mom brought them out again. | |
227 | |
228 The only good thing I can see from all of this is that cold and | |
229 rainy is perfect snuggling weather. So I need to head over to | |
230 Quisty’s house soon. Maybe we can snuggle up under her covers and | |
231 just forget that there’s any scary hole or that Kairi’s missing or | |
232 that the weathers getting worse. That’s easy to do in Quisty’s arms | |
233 anyway. It feels so warm and safe when I’m with her, like I know | |
234 everything’s all right. Even her worrying doesn’t seem to matter. It | |
235 just makes me wanna try harder to take away all her worries. It’s | |
236 almost like a game. To try to make her smile when something’s on her | |
237 mind. | |
238 | |
239 I didn’t realize how good a study Quisty really was. She can quote | |
240 me before I even say anything, like she knows what I’m gonna say | |
241 before I say it. I thought it was so cool when she did that! It lets | |
242 me know that she’s paying more attention to me than to those silly | |
243 books of hers. She said it’s because she knows me really well, so she | |
244 knows what I’m thinking a lot of the time. It’s nice to know someone | |
245 does because sometimes I don’t even know what I’m thinking about. | |
246 There are so many things to think about! It’s hard to sort them all | |
247 out sometimes. | |
248 | |
249 Oh, on a really sad note, I think they’re gonna cancel the Destiny | |
250 Islands Festival! Please say it isn’t so! I always love the festival. | |
251 And Quisty and I were gonna dance under the stars, too! I had the | |
252 dress I was gonna wear all picked out and everything. But the adults | |
253 are all saying that the weather’s bad and that too much has been | |
254 going on lately so we shouldn’t have one. But that’s exactly why we | |
255 should have one! To cheer everyone up! That way everyone can have | |
256 something to enjoy, to let them relax. Well, if they adults aren’t | |
257 gonna throw the Island Festival, then maybe we can throw one | |
258 ourselves. Yeah, I’m sure Tidus and Wakka would help. If I can drag | |
259 them from that underwater ballgame they made up. And maybe Quisty | |
260 will help, too. We can make our own little festival! We’ll still | |
261 dance under the stars, Quisty! It’s my promise to you! Booyaka! | |
262 | |
263 Love, | |
264 Selphie Tilmitt’ | |
265 | |
266 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
267 | |
268 Surprisingly, Kairi found herself able to quote nearly all of her | |
269 lines, seeing the scenes unfold before her as she did. Even the | |
270 Radical Dreamers seemed impressed, not having expected much from | |
271 their stand in. She was a little shocked, but overall proud of | |
272 herself, glad to actually contribute to the play rather than just | |
273 being another prop. And so she was slightly disappointed when it | |
274 finally came time for her to fall into her endless sleep. But even | |
275 lying there, she could follow along with the rest of the play, her | |
276 mind supplying the lines even as the other performers were saying | |
277 them. Kid actually did a good job of getting rid of her accent when | |
278 she was performing, giving Kairi trouble following exactly who was | |
279 saying what at times. Nonetheless, the play had overall been a fun | |
280 experience so far. She almost wished she could go along with the | |
281 Radical Dreamers. The thought of performing with them, travelling to | |
282 all sorts of different worlds, seeing so many new things, it was all | |
283 very appealing to her. But she couldn’t let that tempt her. She had | |
284 to find Riku and Sora. Then she would tell them all about her short | |
285 stint on stage. | |
286 | |
287 Despite feeling rather good natured about things, Kairi found | |
288 herself getting more and more nervous as the play began to near its | |
289 end. She knew far too well what happened at the end of Sleeping | |
290 Beauty. This would be her first kiss, even if it was just a stage | |
291 kiss. And the thought of it being with Yuffie had her worried. She | |
292 still didn’t even know who she wanted her first kiss to be with, Riku | |
293 or Sora. But it didn’t look like she’d have to worry about that for | |
294 much longer. She almost wanted to rush off the stage, but she lay | |
295 there paralyzed, almost as if she really was under some spell. | |
296 | |
297 Yuffie did make a good prince, at the very least. So if she let | |
298 herself pretend this really was Sleeping Beauty, that she really was | |
299 the princess, then it wasn’t too bad. It was only when she remembered | |
300 that she was Kairi that she got all nervous about it. She was nearly | |
301 counting down the lines as it neared the play’s climax. Locke was | |
302 playing Maleficent, which helped the stand in actress disassociate it | |
303 with the Maleficent who had used her along with the other seven | |
304 princesses to open the final keyhole. If just the thought of the | |
305 sorceress didn’t make her want to shudder, the thought of Locke | |
306 playing her would almost be funny. | |
307 | |
308 And then it was time. Her hands held on her chest squeezed | |
309 themselves tighter. She could hear Yuffie’s final exclamation as her | |
310 ‘prince’ got ready for their kiss. She could feel the butterflies | |
311 returning with a vengeance, tickling the inside of her stomach as she | |
312 lay there, eyes shut tightly. What should she do? She couldn’t ruin | |
313 the whole play, right? And it was just a stage kiss. But.. but... | |
314 | |
315 The ninja’s lips pressed warmly against her own delicate lips, both | |
316 soft and firm at the same time. The young princess blushed furiously | |
317 as she felt herself get pulled into a sitting position, Yuffie’s arms | |
318 around her. The crowd burst into applause. When Yuffie finally pulled | |
319 away, Kairi could only sit and stare, stunned. Wow... Kissing wasn’t | |
320 such a bad thing after all. She was already having thoughts of trying | |
321 it again with Sora or Riku when she finally found them. She blushed | |
322 when she looked up at Yuffie, the other girl looking down at her with | |
323 all the princely concern in the world. She really was a good actress. | |
324 Kairi had almost forgotten that it was just a play. She smiled up at | |
325 the ninja, trying her best to look love struck by her prince. | |
326 | |
327 The rest of the play was a blur for Kairi, her mind on other things. | |
328 There wasn’t much to say during the play’s closing segments anyway, | |
329 so it didn’t matter too much that she was daydreaming throughout it. | |
330 She finally found herself backstage, though this time she remembered | |
331 to get to the dressing room before changing. | |
332 | |
333 Her kitten was still waiting for her, having wandered about | |
334 backstage for a while. It seemed to know the layout rather well. “I | |
335 guess you have a good sense of direction, don’t you, kitty?” Kairi | |
336 laid the dress down, glad to be back in her own clothes again. | |
337 Kneeling down, she scratched behind the kitten’s ears. “I really | |
338 need to come up with a name for you. Hmm... Boco sounds better for | |
339 Chocobos. And Mog for Moogles. What are good cat names? You don’t | |
340 look like a Duchess. But you do have a lot of energy. And you are | |
341 kinda bouncy. So how about Tigger?” The kitten lowered its head. It | |
342 didn’t seem to like the idea. “Shadow? But that’s not really a girl | |
343 cat’s name.” Her face lit up. “Jessie! I’ll name you Jessie.” The | |
344 kitten seemed a little surprised by the name, but didn’t otherwise | |
345 complain. “Good.” Kairi hugged the kitten. “Jessie it is.” | |
346 | |
347 “You did a good job there,” Kid said, reverting back to her accent | |
348 now that she was out of costume. “Didn’t really think you had it in | |
349 you. If you ever need a place to stay, we’d be glad to have ya.” | |
350 | |
351 “Really?” Kairi grinned. “Thanks! It was a lot of fun. I’d love to | |
352 again sometime. If I didn’t have something really important to do | |
353 right now, I’d love to go.” It would be great to have Riku and Sora | |
354 in the audience, to run into the crowd after the play and see what | |
355 they thought. | |
356 | |
357 Kid shrugged. “Hey, I understand. Sometimes there’s just somethin’ | |
358 you’ve gotta do. Ya can’t let anythin’ stop ya. You’ve gotta be | |
359 single minded about that sorta thing if you’re ever gonna get what | |
360 you’re lookin’ for.” | |
361 | |
362 “Trying to steal away my princess? Back off, Kid.” Yuffie laughed, | |
363 entering the room, clothed in her short green top, khaki shorts, | |
364 white stockings, and yellow scarf. | |
365 | |
366 “Ya can’t stop a master thief from getting what she’s got her eyes | |
367 set on,” Kid replied, grinning. | |
368 | |
369 Kairi blushed furiously at their comments. She usually didn’t mind | |
370 being the center of attention, but this was just a little strange for | |
371 her. She tried to ignore it, focusing on Jessie instead. The kitten | |
372 was once again struggling to get out of her arms, most likely to get | |
373 over to Yuffie. But she held on tightly, not wanting to have to pull | |
374 the kitten away again. Jessie began to meow again, still wrestling | |
375 with her. | |
376 | |
377 “Well, if you two are leavin’, I should probably be headin’ off | |
378 myself. I’ve got some things I need to take care of back home. | |
379 ‘Sides, the Radical Dreamers aren’t much if we’re missin’ two of our | |
380 mates. Kind of hard to put on a play with only three people,” Kid | |
381 said, her hands behind her head. | |
382 | |
383 “When this is all over, we’ll have to all meet up again somewhere. | |
384 We can’t have this be our last performance.” Yuffie smiled faintly. | |
385 | |
386 “I’m not callin’ it quits yet. When we’re all done, we’ll get back | |
387 together for a huge reunion performance. Everyone’ll wanna come to | |
388 that. We ain’t done yet,” Kid replied, grinning. | |
389 | |
390 “You got it!” Yuffie nodded eagerly. “Good luck out there, Kid.” | |
391 | |
392 “You, too, Yuffie. See ya around, princess.” The thief winked at | |
393 Kairi as she headed out the door, bringing another faint blush to her | |
394 cheeks. | |
395 | |
396 Yuffie sighed, leaning against the wall. “So where to next?” | |
397 | |
398 Kairi looked up suddenly, feeling a tinge of panic. “I thought you | |
399 knew. You were one of the heroes searching for the Keyblade, after | |
400 all. You do know, right?” she asked hopefully, eyeing Yuffie. | |
401 | |
402 “Of course I do,” Yuffie said nonchalantly. “I’m just trying to | |
403 decide which would be the best place. Besides, that was usually | |
404 Aerith’s place in things. She was the one who figured everything out. | |
405 But don’t worry about it. I’ll figure something out.” She smiled | |
406 reassuringly. Kairi didn’t seem to have complete faith in her. | |
407 | |
408 A scream from somewhere outside caught their attention. Both girls | |
409 turned. Something sounded like it was coming down the hallway. Fast. | |
410 Yuffie ran to the door, peering out. Her eyes went wide and she | |
411 slammed the door shut, locking it. | |
412 | |
413 “What is it?” Kairi asked, immediately regretting the question as | |
414 soon as it was out. Her heart pounded in her chest as something heavy | |
415 hit the door. She held the kitten closer, though she didn’t know if | |
416 it was to comfort Jessie or herself. | |
417 | |
418 “Heartless. And lots of them. There’s no way we can fight our way | |
419 through all of those.” Yuffie refused to let herself panic. She | |
420 wasn’t the panicking type. But there certainly didn’t seem to be any | |
421 other options. They were locked in there until the Heartless finally | |
422 broke in. She glanced around, but there weren’t any ways out. | |
423 Sighing, she pulled out some shurikens. She couldn’t stop them all, | |
424 but it didn’t mean she was going to give up. “Get behind me. I’ll | |
425 stop as many of them as I can. Run when you get the chance,” she | |
426 commanded. | |
427 | |
428 Kairi shook her head. No. It wasn’t going to end like that. There | |
429 was so much more she needed to do. She couldn't get caught by the | |
430 Heartless now. She had already lost her heart once. Back then it had | |
431 gone into Sora. Now it didn’t have anyplace to go. It would simply be | |
432 consumed. And then she would never find Sora and Riku. But there | |
433 didn’t seem to be anywhere for them to go. And the Heartless would be | |
434 in at any minute. | |
435 | |
436 ‘Just believe they aren’t there. They can’t hurt you if they aren’t | |
437 there. If you’re safe and sound back home, then the Heartless can’t | |
438 get to you,’ a voice whispered in her head. | |
439 | |
440 Kairi bit her lip. She didn’t ever want to go back there. Being | |
441 there was so confusing. It scared her, made her question just what | |
442 was real. And she couldn’t afford to falter in her beliefs. Not now. | |
443 But there was no other choice, was there? The pounding on the door | |
444 grew more insistent. Yuffie got into a fighting position. ‘She’s | |
445 going to sacrifice herself for you. And then they’re going to get you | |
446 anyway. Damn it! Make you your mind already!’ Kairi closed her eyes | |
447 tightly. No matter how much she didn’t want to do this, it was their | |
448 only chance. “I’m not here. I’m back home. In bed. The Heartless | |
449 aren’t here. I’m back home.” The pounding on the door stopped. | |
450 | |
451 When she opened her eyes again, they were gone. She was no longer | |
452 backstage. She was sitting on her bed again, surrounded by her dolls | |
453 and pictures. A doll of Yuffie was lying on her lap. Kairi sighed | |
454 shakily, holding onto the doll. What happened to everyone else when | |
455 she was here? Did she just disappear from where she was? Did | |
456 everything else still exist when she was here? Did she even want to | |
457 know? | |
458 | |
459 Getting off the bed, Kairi walked to the door, pausing before it. | |
460 Biting her lip, she slowly reached out for the doorknob, taking a | |
461 hold of it. Was the person still there? Would the door open? She had | |
462 to find out what was going on. This was all getting far too | |
463 confusing. She turned the doorknob slowly. Nothing. It was still | |
464 locked for her. Sighing, her hand fell away from the door. | |
465 | |
466 Walking around the slightly cluttered room, Kairi kept hugging the | |
467 Yuffie doll. It might not be much, but right now it was the only | |
468 company she had. And somehow she felt better holding onto her dolls. | |
469 They had always been such a comfort for her, these people she had | |
470 crafted out of fabric and wishes. She closed her eyes, forcing that | |
471 thought away. No, they were real. She hadn’t just made dolls of | |
472 people in her imagination. These were all real people somewhere far | |
473 away. They were all still out there, waiting for her. But she | |
474 couldn’t get back to them if she was stuck in her room. She had to | |
475 find a way out. | |
476 | |
477 She looked out the window, but it was too dark to see anything | |
478 outside. It had to be late, wherever she was. Resting her head | |
479 against the cool glass, the princess tried to collect herself. This | |
480 place had to be a dream. It couldn’t be real. But why did she keep | |
481 coming back here? And why was it so familiar. Her eyes closed as she | |
482 strained to remember. A birthday party. She could remember a birthday | |
483 party. A recent one. She remembered sitting at the front of the | |
484 table, the cake being placed out in front of her. She had just turned | |
485 fourteen. She’d gotten a cute sweater for it. And a few Disney DVDs | |
486 she had been wanting for the longest time. But who had been there? | |
487 She tried harder to remember, trying to see the rest of the table. | |
488 She had been there, of course. And... An older woman she could barely | |
489 make out. She was smiling so warmly, watching as she blew out the | |
490 candles, her hands clasped together as if in prayer. Her mother. It | |
491 had to be her mother. Her heart ached at the thought that she | |
492 couldn’t even remember her mother except for this small glimpse. What | |
493 kind of woman was she like? Did she make her mother proud? What kind | |
494 of relationship did they have? Judging from the smile, her mother had | |
495 been happy, at least during her birthday. | |
496 | |
497 Who else had been there? She could see a shadow sitting next to her, | |
498 watching her opening her presents. The shadow flickered in her mind | |
499 as she tried harder to remember who it had been. But no matter how | |
500 hard she tried, it refused to clarify. Giving up on the shadow for | |
501 the moment, she began to focus on who else had been there. Slowly, | |
502 she saw the rest of the table, expecting to see Riku and Sora sitting | |
503 there, watching her. But it wasn’t so. The table was empty. Her eyes | |
504 opened wide. “No one... No one was there?” she asked quietly. But her | |
505 birthday parties on the Destiny Islands were always so much fun! | |
506 Everyone came and there were presents and cake and games and... It | |
507 didn’t make sense. Surely she had friends to invite, games to play. | |
508 She was pretty and popular and everyone liked her. So why the hell | |
509 would she spend her birthday alone except for her mother and some | |
510 shadow of a person she couldn’t remember? | |
511 | |
512 Her eyes teared up, memories of endless loneliness filling her, | |
513 sapping at her heart. The hopelessness and despair felt like | |
514 crystalline shards buried within her heart. “But mama, no one will | |
515 come. No one likes me. Why would anyone want to come to my party?” | |
516 she heard herself saying. Opening her eyes, she saw another room | |
517 outside of the window, her mother’s room. There she was, crying on | |
518 her mother’s lap. Hateful, lost, bitter tears. And her mother looked | |
519 heartbroken as she tried to wipe away her hot tears. | |
520 | |
521 Kairi backed away from the window as if it was something alive and | |
522 dangerous, staring. “It’s not like that. It isn’t like that at all,” | |
523 she said desperately, her voice barely above a whisper. “I do have | |
524 friends. I’m not all alone.” | |
525 | |
526 “Then where are they now, Kairi? You made up all of your friends. | |
527 Except for mom. She’s your best friend. She’s your only friend. How | |
528 could you just leave her by killing yourself?” | |
529 | |
530 Looking up, Kairi could see the shadow of someone on the other side | |
531 of the door. The voice was back, whoever it was that happened to be | |
532 behind it. “I didn’t,” she argued, her voice shaky. Her wrists were | |
533 burning again, fire tearing them apart. But she refused to look at | |
534 them. Maybe if she ignored it, it would go away. | |
535 | |
536 The voice on the other side of the door laughed. “That’s your answer | |
537 for everything, isn’t it, Kairi? To ignore it, to pretend. Whenever | |
538 you can’t handle something, you just run away. It’s too much for poor | |
539 Kairi to handle, so she’ll just run as far as she can and never look | |
540 back. That’s why you can’t open the door. Because you can’t face | |
541 reality. You couldn’t handle life so you just turned your back on it. | |
542 You embraced your fantasies, ignoring everything that might hurt you. | |
543 Isn’t that the way it’s always been?” | |
544 | |
545 “Leave me alone!!!” Kairi screamed, her whole body trembling. Tears | |
546 stung her eyes, turning her vision into a liquid nightmare. She could | |
547 feel her tears dripping down her chin, falling to the floor below. | |
548 She couldn’t stop from crying, the voice finally getting to her. | |
549 | |
550 “I told you that you couldn’t handle it, Kairi. I don’t think you’re | |
551 ready to open the door yet. Why don’t you run away back to your | |
552 fantasies. They’re safe and cozy, aren’t they? Oh, wait. No, reality | |
553 is beginning to intrude on them, isn’t it? The heartlessness of the | |
554 real world is starting to take its toll, to intrude on your little | |
555 wonderland. Go ahead and run away to your dreams, Kairi. Because | |
556 pretty soon, there will be nowhere left to run. And you’ll have to | |
557 open the door. Because when the Heartless consume all of your | |
558 fantasies, real life will be the only place left to turn.” | |
559 | |
560 Kairi slumped to her knees, sobbing painfully, hugging herself. She | |
561 didn’t always run away. She was trying to find Riku and Sora. She | |
562 would never give up on them. She wouldn’t run away, no matter how | |
563 tough things got. But her voice escaped her, having disappeared in | |
564 her haze of tears. She wanted to prove the voice wrong, that she | |
565 would never give up. But her tattered heart couldn’t help but wonder | |
566 if the voice was right. | |
567 | |
568 Lost in a storm of tears, Kairi didn’t see the room grow distant. It | |
569 stretched further and further into the background until it had faded | |
570 away altogether. Lost in a typhoon of dark thoughts, the princess | |
571 didn’t feel herself slowly drifting away to somewhere else. Anywhere | |
572 else. Just as long as she was far away from that room. | |
573 | |
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