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+We Meet Again (Shoujo-Ai Archive Fanfiction)We Meet Again
+a Card Captor Sakura fanfiction by Kamui Ikari
+Hi!!! I'm back with a new story of CCS. I remembered that I promised
+time ago I would make a story called "We meet again", but I forgot it.
+Then I did "You and me, together forever", "Mañana" then finally I did
+this story. This story will closure that period that I started with
+"She won't cry for you", "Don't lose Hope" and "Tomoyo's Farewell
+Letter", these ones are about Tomoyo's destiny after the ugly ending of
+CCS, especially "She won't cry for you" where Tomoyo's destiny is
+facing at her fifteen years old her own death. Really, I never thought
+why I made these stories. It was a moment a depression, but I finally
+decided not make these type of stories nevermore. Because I realized
+that I was giving the reason to the Sakura x Syaoran fans. Why?. Maybe
+in my opinion, for them this topic is closed, but for me not. They have
+their happy ending, then why I would make more stories only to give
+them the reason? Honestly, I would accept the official ending, but I
+don't and never. Why?. In my opinion, the ending was very forced,
+Sakura started to see Syaoran as a friend but in the last volume of
+manga, she fell in love with him so fast, and ended with him in the
+end. For me it's ugly, but for the S+S fans it's okay, they ended
+together and that's all. But for me that relationship is not
+convincing, Sakura fell in love with him so fast. That kind of "fast
+relationship" is not convincing for me. Another point that I don't like
+it, is that Tomoyo was the only character that ended alone in the end,
+all ended with someone in the end less her. Well, enough of thoughts
+but I need to get out of my chest.
+Some points:
+-The story takes places after the end oof CCS.
+-It seems for the title that is a S+S sstory, but I'm sorry. It's a yuri
+fic, of course you must know what is yuri but I will explain: is a term
+designed for love between girls, women, etc. So if you don't like these
+type of stories please leave, if you like please go on.
+I hope you liked it and I will see you at the end of story.
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+How did it start? It started when I was ten years old, I remember that
+I was waiting on my seat when I met her. She gave me an eraser and said
+that she was glad to give me that. We became best friends and we did
+many things together, but all that changed. She found the Clow Book and
+opened it, then she became the Card Captor. I made costumes for her,
+recorded her on video, anything that she needed I was willing to give
+her.
+He came too. A Chinese boy that was her rival first, later her friend
+and finally her number one person.
+It's true that I said I'd him give a try, I was hoping that she will be
+happy with him, I was hoping to stay with her until the day that I
+would tell her my true feelings.
+She choose him as her number one person, she and him gave the names to
+the bears. He left to Hong Kong and she promised to wait for him. I
+remember when she left to find him and tell her feelings.
+I was smiling, then I knew that my true feelings would be sealed
+forever and went to my house. I think that my mother entered in my
+room, she found me in bed. She looked at me with an understanding look
+on her face, she embraced me and didn't say anything.
+I remembered that I cried so much.
+She was naive as I was. I was naive because I was hoping that she would
+choose me as her number one person. But she didn't. She is my number
+one person but I wasn't for her. I was in love with her, but she ended
+with him. After he left, things seemed to return to normal. We did the
+same things that we did together before, but she usually said that she
+couldn't wait to see him again. She thanked me for being her best
+friend.
+I smiled at her, but inside me I knew that was the end for my chances
+of telling her my feelings. After five years he returned to Japan, I
+saw their meeting and she said that they will be together forever.
+Once again I smiled but my heart broke again.
+Then all changed, we started a new period on college. A new group of
+students came to our classroom. She was very popular in class, they
+became her friends and I was happy. Chiharu, Rika, Yamazaki and Naoko
+weren't with us. They parted from us, looking for their own path.
+When the classes were over, she waited for him, he came for her and
+they leave as usually they did. They greeted me as always they did.
+Then I walked to my home alone as I always did.
+Life was showing my destiny, a destiny that suited me, alone.
+During that time she didn't call me at my house like the times she did
+before, the calls were distant. In school, I was wishing to do
+something for her. I asked her if she needed something many times. Her
+response was the same:
+"No, I don't. Thank you."
+I asked her if she wanted to talk with me, but she said that she
+didn't.
+I knew when I wasn't needed.
+I didn't press her to have a talk with me or need something. I just let
+her go.
+I saw many times how she went to her new friends to ask something, need
+something and how they agreed. She was happy with them. She and him
+went with them to their dates. She was happy with him.
+When Valentine's Day came I made chocolates for her. I was hoping that
+at least she would receive them. When I gave it to her, she thanked me
+but she returned them to me. She said that I would give them to a boy,
+because all girls do that, giving chocolates to a boy. I said that I
+didn't have a boy and I would like to give them to her. But she said
+that she wouldn't receive them, she said that when we're children it
+was normal, but that now it was different. Because a girl that did that
+it wasn't "normal".
+My heart broke again.
+She gave them to me and left. He was waiting for her and had a box of
+them for her, they embraced and kissed. Once again I smiled.
+I left the place and when the class was over I went to my house. I left
+them on the desk and I collapsed on my bed crying. The next day I
+looked for her and said that I was sorry but I wanted to give it to her
+because she was my best friend. She said that Valentine's Day is a day
+for the ones who were in love, not friends. She asked if I saw someone
+of the girls doing that. I said to her no, she said that I was the only
+one who did that and her friends said to her that I wasn't normal. Then
+she said that became a rumor through college. I asked her if she
+believed it. Her response was simple:
+"Yes."
+I asked to her what she saw on me that could be considered "not
+normal". She said that I was obsessed with her. I was in love with her,
+I was worried about her, I wanted her to be happy, is that called
+obsession?
+It seems that for others is, but not for me.
+For me it's to be in love with her.
+She said that her friends said that I'm different, I asked her what
+they said.
+"They said that you're... a lesbian."
+Once again, I asked her if she believed it.
+"I don't want to believe that you..."
+"That I'm?" I asked her serious.
+"No, I don't want to believe..."
+Maybe a talk could help it...
+I extended my hand but she said:
+"Please... don't touch me, please don't look at me, you... scare me"
+she said to me with tears in her eyes.
+Then I smiled to her and said:
+"You believe them, don't you? Please be honest" I said smiling.
+"At first no, but now it seems that yes" she said with tears.
+Before saying something, she said:
+"Please go, please go, please go... please" she said crying.
+I smiled with tears and then I left her alone but I said something:
+"I just want you to be happy , that's all"
+She didn't say anything and I left.
+The following week was harder.
+When I entered in the class, nobody greeted me. I heard them saying
+that I was a freak, a lesbian, a error of nature. Nobody wanted to
+speak me, to ask me something, and needing something... nothing from
+me.
+She didn't talk to me, when I was looking for her she avoided her gaze,
+she changed her seat. She went far from me. When the class was over, I
+just went to my house. My mother was taking care of my little brother,
+Kenji. He born when I was 13 years old. She saw me and left him and
+came to me.
+She embraced me again and said:
+"Just let it out, let it out"
+Once again I cried.
+After that I went to my room and locked it, I went to my bookshelf, I
+chose one of her videos. I put it on. It was one of her battles
+against a Clow Card. I looked to my camera, I haven't used it for many
+years, always I found something about her that I wanted to record.
+Anything about her, I wanted to record.
+After that I looked to my sewing tools, I remember how much time I
+spent making the costumes for her. I was happy to make costumes for
+her, just saw her with my designs made me so happy. I did many things
+for her. Time ago I heard that if someone did something they will get a
+reward.
+Maybe what's happening to me is my reward for all I did.
+Then I went to my bed and I thought about making a decision about my
+life. At the next day I talked with my mother about the decision. She
+was surprised but she said if that was I really wanted she would accept
+it.
+"Thank you, mother," I said with tears.
+After that my mother helped me with arranging things, after a few days
+I made a bear for my brother. Then I knew that there was one thing left
+to do.
+I dialed her number.
+"Hello, Kinomoto house."
+"Hi, Fujitaka-san. Is Sakura there?"
+"No, she went a date with her boyfriend. Do you need something?" he
+asked.
+"Yes. Please could you tell her "Farewell" for me?" I asked.
+"Yes, but did something happen?" he asked worried.
+"No, but could you tell her "I won't interfere with your life anymore,
+just be happy. It's the only thing I most desire," for me please?"
+"Yes," he said uncertainly.
+"Thanks for everything, Fujitaka-san. Send my regards to Touya-san and
+Yukito-san" I said and hung up the phone.
+After that I went to see my brother, he was sleeping with the bear that
+I made. I smiled and kissed him on the forehead.
+I left his room and picked my things. My mother was waiting for me.
+"It's almost time."
+"Yes."
+We picked a car and went to the airport.
+"Will you write me?"
+"Of course, I will be back someday. Don't worry about me, but I need to
+do this. Take care of Kenji-kun, please," I said to her.
+"I will wait for that day" she said crying.
+"Me too," I said crying.
+We embraced tightly, then I picked my things and took my flight.
+A flight which will make me leave Japan and her.
+**********
+I traveled the entire world, it was easy because of the family's
+fortune. My mother settled things about my studies and I didn't have to
+worry about that. The trip was the last chance to start a new life
+without her. The trip was about healing my broken heart.
+I never imagined how the outside world was. I went to many countries in
+Europe, North America, South America. I learned many things from these
+places.
+My mother sent me photos of Kenji and her. My brother was growing up
+and he was cute. He asked about me many times, when I would return to
+Japan. I would like to tell him the real reason of my departure but I
+didn't want make him sad. My mother also asked me about my return, that
+she missed me so much. I missed them so much, I knew that I would
+return someday but I wasn't ready. I send them the things that I got in
+the countries that I stayed, photos, gifts, anything of these places.
+I traveled the world for almost six years but as the time passed, I
+felt empty...
+I missed her so much.
+During that time, I tried to break the bond to her, but I failed. I
+looked for someone special but I didn't find anyone.
+Once again, life was showing my destiny, alone.
+Before heading to Japan I stayed for a time in Argentina. I met
+someone, an old woman who tells the future. She said that I was wrong
+about the reward. That the real reward will come from someone
+unexpected. After that I left Argentina and went back to Japan.
+**********
+During the flight back, I read the letters my mother sent me, I was
+surprised to see a letter from Eriol-san. We wrote some letters before
+but curiously the letters were distant, sometimes I didn't receive
+anything from him. I read the letter, he wrote that he finally began
+with his life after choosing not to be a magician anymore. He was
+studying to become a lawyer, that Nakuru-san was in couple with a man,
+that Spinel was working on a TV program for kids. He wanted to know how
+was everything in Tomoeda, but I wasn't in Tomoeda for almost six
+years. After that he said that he was married with Kaho Mizuki-sensei
+and she was waiting a child from him. He was excited and couldn't wait
+to see his child. He asked if I got someone special. I would like to
+say to him that I didn't.
+In this six years I realized that I can't love anyone but her...
+Soon I noticed I was in Japan. I left the airport and went directly to
+my house.
+After a time I reached my house and I pressed the doorbell.
+"Who is it?" asked the voice through the receiver.
+"It's me, Sonomi's daughter, Tomoyo Daidouji" I said happily.
+The door opened and I entered. I waited for my mother to come out of
+the house.
+She did, she was crying with joy.
+"You came, as you promised." she said crying.
+"Yes, I'm back. I never forgot the promises I made. I waited for this
+day, mother," I said crying.
+We embraced crying.
+"Why you didn't tell me that you were returning? I would have gone to
+the airport to pick you up," she said worried.
+"I wanted to give you a surprise mom," I simply said.
+"It's so good that you're here now, I just thought that you would never
+return..." she said crying again.
+"I promised you that I would return to Japan, remember? I'm here" I
+said.
+After that we entered the house, I saw Kenji with a beautiful girl of
+his same age.
+"Tomoyo nee-san!!!"
+"Hi, Kenji onii-chan!!!" I said happily.
+He embraced me crying..
+"I missed you so much, nee-san" he said crying.
+"I missed you, too. You're a strong boy, onii-chan. And cute" I said
+smiling.
+He blushed.
+"Will you leave again?" he asked.
+"No, I won't. I will stay with you, onii-chan. I will never leave you
+alone, and mother too" I said.
+My mother was smiling.
+I was glad to stay here with my mother, my brother, with the people
+that loved me...
+If only she could understand my true feelings...
+"You brought me something?" he asked happily.
+"Of course! I have many things for you, onii-chan. Who is this
+beautiful girl?" I asked politely.
+"I'm Hinako, I'm pleased to meet you, Daidouji-san"
+"Just call me Tomoyo. You're really cute Hinako-chan."
+"Thanks, Tomoyo-san" she said blushing and bowed before me.
+I talked with them about the things that I did these six years. While I
+was talking with them I noticed that Kenji-kun and Hinako-san were
+holding hands, I smiled at the sight of that.
+They were talking about many things and my mother and me left them
+alone. We entered in the kitchen and the maid prepared two cups of tea
+for us. We went to my room for a talk.
+"Kenji onii-chan and Hinako-san are going out, mom?" I asked to her.
+"Yes, it seems for me, they didn't accept yet. But I saw the love
+between them. I'm glad that he found someone special like her" she
+said.
+"He will pass the Daidouji's name to his future sons and daughters. But
+I'm not glad for this, I'm glad because he will not suffer as we
+suffered all these years. If someday he's going to suffer, his pain
+will be different from ours, he was born fated to follow a different
+path that us" I said with a smile.
+"It's true, his path is different than ours" my mother said sadly.
+"Do you still love her, mother? Do you still love Nadeshiko-san?" I
+asked her.
+"Yes, even I tried to break the bond to her, I didn't. It was my first
+love, but it was unrequited. I continued with my life after she get
+married, I found your father and married him. I loved your father, but
+it wasn't the same that I still feel for Nadeshiko, she is still in my
+heart," my mother said.
+I nodded at her.
+"And you? Do you still love Sakura?" she asked me.
+"Yes, it's my first love too. I thought that the trip would make me
+forget about her, but I still love her. It seems that we can't break
+that destiny. I believe that we can't control love, love controls us.
+The first love is special but is more special when it's your first love
+and your true love." I said sadly.
+"You thought about marriage, Tomoyo?" she asked.
+"Yes, I thought about that. But I decided that I will not marry.
+Because I can't love anyone but her. Even I tried to letting go of her
+but I failed, she is like a seed that is strongly implanted on my
+heart. What would happen if I have a child, a daughter? She would fell
+in love with her daughter, and then the same would repeat again. I
+don't want that child suffer. I want to end this cycle that began with
+you mother. It started with you, it will end with me." I said.
+"You're strong, Tomoyo" she said.
+"We're strong mom, you and me. We're strong because realizing that
+you're in love with a person of your same sex and accepting it made us
+strong, being rejected made us strong. Your unrequited love and mine
+made us strong. Life made us strong for standing up when we fell. If my
+destiny is to be alone, I will accept it then" I said.
+She embraced me.
+"Ah, I have some news of your friends," she said.
+"From whom?" I said.
+"From Chiharu-san, Yamazaki-san, Naoko-san and Rika-san" she said.
+"Really?!" I said happily
+My mother told me about their destiny. Yamazaki and Chiharu got married
+and waiting a child. Naoko got a boyfriend. And Rika got married with
+Terada-sensei. I knew that Rika and Terada were going out. She told me
+before heading her own path, I was surprised but I whished her luck.
+After that, when it was almost midnight, I decided to take a walk. My
+mother sent the bodyguards with me. After a time, I told them to leave
+and I will call them when I was ready to leave. I walked to the King
+Penguin Park, it seemed that nothing changed in these almost six years
+of absence.
+I sat in one of the swings and looked to the stars, they were shining
+and so was the moon. Then I heard something...
+"Last night, I dreamt that you returned to Tomoeda" said a voice.
+I froze at the sound of that.
+"We meet again" said the voice again.
+I had no doubt, it was her voice.
+I turned around to see her, and I found her. I saw something different,
+she was different. She was smiling sadly, and a tear ran through her
+cheek. Her hair was still short but a little longer, her eyes were so
+different... they could tell a lot of emotions, but it seemed that they
+showed... pain.
+I saw her sitting in another swing then I turned my head.
+"You traveled the entire world, didn't you?" she asked.
+"How did you know?" I asked surprised.
+"Because I did a lot of researching. I did anything to find where you
+were" she said quietly.
+Before saying something, she said:
+"I broke with him" she said darkly.
+I was shocked to hear that, I believed that she and him would be
+together forever. She chose him as her number one person, it couldn't
+be.
+"Why did you break with him?" I asked surprised.
+"Because, in the end we didn't match. In the beginning all was right,
+but as the time passed, we started to have fights. He was jealous of
+any person that approached me. I tried to make him have trust in
+others, but I failed. As we were growing we'd changed, he was different
+as I was. After a some time, we decided to break the relationship and
+he returned to Hong Kong." she said.
+"But you loved him..." I said.
+"Yes, I did. But not now. I learned one thing: a relationship, any
+relationship must be built between the parts. I believed that I fell in
+love with him, but I realized that only I had a crush on him. I waited
+five years for him, but I never thought if I really loved him. I didn't
+want to lose him because what Eriol told me, I didn't have any idea
+that he loved me. I saw him as friend and didn't want to lose him, then
+I realized that I was in love with him, but I never thought if they
+were my real feelings. How could I be so blind? I was blind of love but
+I never thought that we changed during these five years of waiting.
+With the fights I started to wonder if I really loved him or didn't. In
+the end I realized that I wasn't in love with him" she said.
+"I see..."
+"I broke with my friends too..." she said.
+"What?" I said.
+"Yes, I broke because I didn't want to be popular. Because I didn't
+want to follow their advice anymore, because of that advice... I almost
+lost you." she said.
+"I don't care about what will happen to me. Only seeing you happy it's
+enough for me" I said.
+"I know that..." she said as she stood up and came to me.
+I looked at her, she was crying softly and smiling at me. I extended my
+hand but I stopped.
+"What's happened?" she said quietly.
+"It's just... you said that you didn't want me touch you, remember?" I
+said sadly.
+She took hold of my hand and laid it in her cheek.
+"I want you to touch me, to see me... I was so stupid saying that, I
+almost destroyed our friendship. You were there when I needed
+something, even you were there when I said that I didn't need
+something. You were always worried for me. I'd changed in these almost
+six years. I never hated you, just I couldn't understand that you were
+in love with me..." she said.
+"How do you know that I'm in love with you, couldn't it be another
+girl?" I asked her.
+"You said that you wanted your special person happy, didn't you? I
+realized that I'm that person, for what you said and what father said
+to me when you left Japan" she said.
+"Are you angry with me for loving you?" I asked her.
+"No..." she said and made me stand up.
+She embraced me, I tried not to embrace her but I failed. My arms went
+around her and we embraced tightly. She rested her head in my shoulder.
+"Welcome back, Tomoyo-chan" she said crying softly.
+"Thanks, Sakura-chan" I said crying.
+*******
+I will never forget that day... when we met again.
+After that day, we did many things together as before. It was a restart
+of our friendship, she was fine with me, even knowing that I still
+loved her. One day she called asking me if I could go to her house. I
+agreed and I went to her house, she was waiting for me. She said that
+wanted me to go out with her. In other words, she wanted a date with
+me. I was surprised, but she erased my doubts kissing me.
+From the day we met again until the day that she kissed me four years
+passed. And two more years of going out.
+Without knowing it, we built a loving relationship between us.
+******
+I was looking to the stars in the sky when I felt her arms around my
+waist.
+"What are you thinking Tomoyo-chan?" she said.
+"Remembering what happened between us all these years, from the first
+day than I met you, eighteen years ago" I said still looking at the
+stars.
+She turned my head and I was looking at her.
+"I never meant to hurt you, but I did. But I promise you that I will
+never hurt you again. I don't know if I will be able to heal the pain I
+caused you" she said sadly.
+"We have to live with pain, every person has a type of pain, and pain
+will be present in every person of this world. Things would be
+different if pain doesn't exist, but it does exist. But if two people
+meet each other, they could be able to heal the pain they have." I
+said.
+I caressed her hair, it was smooth.
+"I love you Tomoyo-chan. You're my true number one person" she said.
+"I love you too, Sakura-chan. You are always my number one person. I
+don't mind my pain, because in the end I have you, and we will be able
+to heal our pain" I said.
+"It's true" she said.
+We kissed each other and went to sleep.
+******
+I wake up and I look to her, she is sleeping nicely. Then I remember
+what the old woman told me before, that the real reward will come from
+someone unexpected. I never thought that Sakura-chan falling in love
+with me would be the real reward for all I did. I just thought that I
+would be alone for the rest of my life. But it seems that is not.
+"I love you, Sakura-chan" I whisper.
+"I know. I really love you too, Tomoyo-chan" she says opening her eyes.
+"Are you awake?" I ask smiling to her.
+"I was awake, I was only imitating that I was sleeping." she says
+smiling.
+I smile to her.
+"Tomoyo-chan, I want to know one thing: Will you stay with me forever?"
+she asks me.
+"Of course I will. You are my reason to live, I promise I will make you
+happy" I say to her.
+"You know what? One thing will make me happy" she says.
+"What thing?" I ask.
+"You marrying me, someday" she says blushing.
+I open my eyes and I feel tears coming down my cheeks.
+"Are you serious?" I say crying.
+"Yes, I'm serious. But you don't have to give me an answer right now,
+but until that day come; promise me that you will stay with me" she
+says taking my head between her soft hands.
+"I promise, I promise" I say still crying.
+We kiss each other and leave the bed, we look to the stars.
+We embrace tightly knowing that there is a path in front of us that
+will lead us to the happiness.
+"We will be together forever" she says happily.
+"I know..." I say.
+"I know we will be together forever..." I say before kissing her.
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