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1 We’d like to thank Boco the Chokobo, because without his help, this story | |
2 would never have been finished, especially not in time for ChibiUsa’s | |
3 birthday. ^-^ | |
4 | |
5 Farewell | |
6 By the Amazoness Quartet | |
7 | |
8 | |
9 ChibiUsa sighed anxiously. It was a beautiful day outside, but that | |
10 was far from her mind. A certain dark haired girl was the focus of it, but | |
11 that wasn't anything new. She was waiting for Hotaru to finish getting | |
12 dressed so they could leave for Hotaru's father's beach house where they'd | |
13 spend the next few days together. Alone this time. ChibiUsa couldn't help | |
14 but smile at the idea of being alone with Hotaru. She'd already had a | |
15 birthday party earlier today with the others and now she'd be able to enjoy | |
16 the rest of it with the one person she wished to share everything with. | |
17 | |
18 A wailing noise snapped her out of her thoughts. It took her a | |
19 moment to realize it was the sound of a child crying. Knowing that both of | |
20 their twin daughters that had come back from the future were somewhere | |
21 in the house, it had to be something wrong for one of them. Heading down | |
22 the stairs quickly, she tried to pinpoint where the sobbing was coming from. | |
23 Selene looked up teary eyed at ChibiUsa. The future princess kneeled down | |
24 worriedly next to the younger girl. “Selene, what’s wrong? Are you okay?” | |
25 Selene just wiped at her eyes tearfully, taking a shuddering breath before | |
26 looking up at her the woman that would one day be her mother. | |
27 “ChibiUsa-mama, do you | |
28 really love Hotaru-mama?” she asked in almost a hushed whisper. | |
29 ChibiUsa was taken aback. Why did the little girl ask that? Was there any | |
30 question? Brushing a hand through her pink hair, she just blinked a few | |
31 times. “Of course | |
32 I do. She’s everything to me.” | |
33 Selene sniffled, wiping her eyes shakily with the back of her hand. | |
34 “Re…Really?” | |
35 The pink haired girl nodded quickly to dispel the younger girl’s fears, | |
36 wiping a | |
37 tear from her cheek. She smiled gently at Selene. “Really. She’s everything | |
38 to me. I love | |
39 your Hotaru-mama with all my heart.” This seemed to appease the younger | |
40 girl, drawing | |
41 forth a small smile from her. ChibiUsa smiled softly, but something still | |
42 concerned her. | |
43 Something felt wrong… “Why did you ask?” | |
44 The dark haired odangoed girl rubbed at her eyes with small fists before | |
45 looking | |
46 up at ChibiUsa again. “An angel told me. She was really pretty, with pink | |
47 hair kinda like | |
48 yours, but it was past her shoulders. She was all shimmery and had a white | |
49 dress on that | |
50 was really long and pretty, too. She said that it wasn’t enough.” | |
51 “That what wasn’t enough?” ChibiUsa asked encouragingly, wanting to know | |
52 what had gotten the younger girl so upset. | |
53 “That you didn’t love her enough…” Selene said quietly, looking down. | |
54 ChibiUsa shook her head emphatically. “No, that’s absurd. I love Hotaru | |
55 more | |
56 than anything. How could I not love her enough?” she demanded, her heart | |
57 starting to | |
58 ache from the very idea. | |
59 “I.. I don’t know…” Selene barely got out, on the verge of tears. | |
60 ChibiUsa closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. It was nothing, just a | |
61 figment of | |
62 Selene’s imagination. Sure it was kind of odd, but that was just not even | |
63 worth worrying | |
64 about. Of course she loved Hotaru enough. She slowly smiled again, hugging | |
65 the smaller | |
66 girl. “It’s going to be alright, Selene. Whatever it was, it was wrong. I | |
67 love Hotaru with | |
68 all my heart.” ChibiUsa’s words reassured both herself and Selene. Smiling a | |
69 little | |
70 brighter, ChibiUsa tilted her head to the side. “Want to get some ice cream? | |
71 We can | |
72 forget all about this.” | |
73 Selene jumped up and down excitedly. “Hai!! Thanks, ChibiUsa-mama! You’re | |
74 the best!” She hugged ChibiUsa tightly, already starting to forget her odd | |
75 vision. | |
76 | |
77 They were finally alone. That was the first thought that ran through | |
78 ChibiUsa’s | |
79 head as she walked hand in hand with Hotaru to the beach house. In the | |
80 distance, the two | |
81 could hear Haruka’s car driving off. She’d be there to pick them up in a few | |
82 days. In the | |
83 meantime, that left the lovers alone with each other at the beach house. No | |
84 children, no | |
85 schoolwork, no responsibility. Juts the wonderful feeling of being together. | |
86 They had | |
87 come out here to be alone, a birthday present Hotaru had given her so they | |
88 could spend | |
89 the next few days together without a care in the world. ChibiUsa smiled | |
90 brightly at the | |
91 dark haired girl, squeezing her hand slightly. The pale girl’s hand | |
92 squeezed back as | |
93 Hotaru turned to her with a smile. | |
94 As they stood in front of the doors, ChibiUsa felt an almost overwhelming | |
95 sense | |
96 of fear and regret overtake her. As if her whole life would change by | |
97 walking through | |
98 those doors. She leaned against Hotaru, holding her arm tightly. | |
99 “ChibiUsa-chan?” Hotaru looked at her worriedly. Her usually cheerful | |
100 complexion was now deathly pale. Hotaru’s arm started to ache from the death | |
101 grip | |
102 ChibiUsa had on it. The raven haired girl started to panic, barely holding | |
103 herself in check | |
104 for ChibiUsa’s sake. This was so unlike the vibrant future princess. What | |
105 could be so | |
106 horribly wrong? | |
107 Taking a deep, soothing breath, ChibiUsa smiled calmly at Hotaru, | |
108 suppressing | |
109 the wave of emotions that had passed over her. “Its nothing. I just haven’t | |
110 been getting | |
111 much sleep lately because of the twins. And Kousagi’s been keeping me up | |
112 whenever | |
113 I’m at my house, so that’s it.” She giggled at the skeptical look Hotaru | |
114 threw her. | |
115 “Really, its nothing. You worry too much, Hota-chan. Let’s just enjoy | |
116 ourselves. You and | |
117 me.” | |
118 Beautiful crimson eyes gazed brightly at her as the future princess’s arm | |
119 went | |
120 around Hotaru’s waist. Hotaru felt herself relaxing in ChibiUsa’s grasp. If | |
121 ChibiUsa was | |
122 okay, then there really wasn’t anything for her to be worrying about. The | |
123 nervousness | |
124 slowly started to ebb away, replaced by a warm feeling her heart as her | |
125 violet eyes befell | |
126 the pink haired goddess before her. Hotaru smiled softly. “Hai, its your | |
127 birthday, so if | |
128 that’s what you want to do, I’m all for it.” Leaning forward, her lips | |
129 lightly brushed | |
130 ChibiUsa’s. “Happy birthday, Odango-chan.” | |
131 “I can’t think of a better way to spend my birthday,” ChibiUsa said, | |
132 grinning. | |
133 | |
134 ChibiUsa rolled over for what had to be the eighth time that night. | |
135 No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get to sleep. And that usually | |
136 wasn't a problem for her whenever she had Hotaru right beside her. Their | |
137 clothes lay scattered on the floor, their bodies entangled under the sheets. | |
138 ChibiUsa held the frail girl close, the feel of her bare skin reminding her | |
139 of the passionate moment they'd shared not long ago. The raven haired girl, | |
140 who had enough trouble sleeping normally, was fast asleep next to her. She | |
141 was tired after what they'd done, but she couldn't get to sleep. Closing her | |
142 eyes just made matters worse. She sighed, her hands covering her face in | |
143 frustration. Why was it bothering her? She knew she loved Hotaru, that's | |
144 all that mattered. So why couldn't she get to sleep? All day, Hotaru had | |
145 been | |
146 pretending nothing was wrong, trying to hide her worry while ChibiUsa had | |
147 been dancing around the subject and trying to reassure Hotaru that | |
148 everything was alright. Neither had been able to enjoy themselves because | |
149 of how she was acting. Sitting up in bed, the pink haired girl slowly | |
150 disentangled herself from her sleeping lover. She knew she wouldn’t be | |
151 getting any sleep tonight. | |
152 Her thoughts in a jumble, ChibiUsa slipped off the bed, her toes | |
153 moving against the soft feel of the carpet. Tilting her head to the side, | |
154 ChibiUsa gazed at the raven haired girl alone in the bed for a what felt | |
155 like | |
156 an eternity. Her fingers gingerly followed the contours of Hotaru’s | |
157 beautiful | |
158 face, brushing past her soft lips, warm cheeks, and finally through | |
159 midnight black hair. She leaned down, brushing some of Hotaru’s dark hair | |
160 back. Her lips gently pressed against Hotaru’s as her fingers stroked down | |
161 to the pale girl’s neck. Something wet rolled down ChibiUsa’s cheek down | |
162 to Hotaru’s, startling the pink haired girl. Slowly pulling away, a hand | |
163 went | |
164 to her face. Another tear rolled down her cheek. “I’m crying? Why am I | |
165 crying?” she asked herself in a daze. The pink haired girl balled up her | |
166 fists | |
167 in frustration, shutting her eyes tightly as a wave of sadness swept through | |
168 her body. An icy pit formed in her stomach as more tears started falling. | |
169 ‘I’m supposed to be happy. I’ve got everything I could ever want. I have | |
170 you, Hota-chan. I love you.” A sob punctuated her declaration of love, her | |
171 hand wiping at the still forming tears in her crimson eyes. | |
172 Looking down at Hotaru, ChibiUsa’s fingers lightly brushed her | |
173 cheek again. Part of her wanted to wake the sleeping angel, to try to tell | |
174 her | |
175 the jumble of emotions going through her. But she couldn’t bring herself to | |
176 wake the raven haired girl up. Each time she’d try, she stopped herself just | |
177 before she could. What would Hotaru think? She wouldn’t think… ChibiUsa | |
178 pulled her hand away from Hotaru’s pale skin as if burned. Selene’s words | |
179 burst into her mind. ‘That you didn’t love her enough…’ She shook her head | |
180 violently, her hands going through her pink hair as a lonely wail escaped | |
181 her lips. “That | |
182 can’t be it. It can’t be….” She desperately wanted to shake Hotaru awake, to | |
183 tell her just | |
184 how much she loved her, to here Hotaru tell her she knows, that she’s always | |
185 known. But | |
186 ChibiUsa still couldn’t bring herself to disturb the raven haired girl’s | |
187 peaceful slumber. | |
188 So often, Hotaru would look tormented in her sleep. This would just ruin one | |
189 of the few | |
190 restful slumbers that Hotaru’s had. “I’m being selfish, Hota-chan. I’ll be | |
191 okay. I can | |
192 handle this.” | |
193 With that, the future princess headed out the door of their bedroom, | |
194 padding | |
195 across the plush carpet. At first she didn’t know where she was going, but | |
196 she quickly | |
197 realized the path she was taking. The Mirror. Of course! How could she have | |
198 been so | |
199 blind? Michiru had lent ChibiUsa her hand mirror for their trip to the beach | |
200 house, telling | |
201 her the talisman would keep them safe. The mirror could show the truth, no | |
202 matter how | |
203 hidden it may be. She could easily look into that to see how deep her | |
204 feelings for Hotaru | |
205 ran. After proving them to her satisfaction, she could be off to bed and | |
206 cuddling with her | |
207 firefly. She grinned happily as she made her way to the mirror, lying unused | |
208 on a table in | |
209 the living room. ChibiUsa felt almost dizzy as she picked up the mirror. It | |
210 was cold to the | |
211 touch. Something in the back of her mind told her to put it down, that how | |
212 dare she | |
213 question their love. Afterall, it didn’t matter that Hotaru’s hair wasn’t | |
214 pink. She wet her | |
215 parched lips nervously, the icy pit in her stomach returning a hundred fold. | |
216 Holding the | |
217 mirror up, she gazed into it. Rather than a direct reflection, the image in | |
218 the mirror was of | |
219 her as a princess. The truth. Taking a deep breath, ignoring the warnings in | |
220 the back of | |
221 her head, ChibiUsa concentrated on the mirror. “Show me the depths of my | |
222 love.” | |
223 | |
224 She ran, ignoring the sharp pain of rocks scraping against the skin of her | |
225 bare | |
226 feet, ignoring everything as she tried to get further and further away. Her | |
227 hair, let down | |
228 from its normal odango style for the night, trailed behind her past her | |
229 shoulders. Tears | |
230 blinded her, blurring her vision, but she didn’t care. Nothing mattered | |
231 anymore. Nothing. | |
232 Her frantic thoughts swirled about in her mind like a whirlwind, jumbled | |
233 beyond | |
234 coherency other than the deep pain she felt in her heart. | |
235 As she ran along the rocky cliff face, barely even realizing where she was. | |
236 She | |
237 wiped at her eyes desperately, stinging tears dripping wetly down her | |
238 cheeks. ‘Why?! | |
239 Why?’ she thought, over and over again, begging for an answer, any answer to | |
240 the pain | |
241 she felt. Her heart ached deeply, as if she’d been cut open by The Senshi of | |
242 Death and | |
243 Rebirth herself. Was that how she truly felt? Was that what was to happen? | |
244 She didn’t | |
245 return Hotaru’s feelings with half the blaze, half the sheer strength that | |
246 Hotaru had in her | |
247 love for her. ChibiUsa shuddered, feeling cold inside. As if she’d been | |
248 drowning in a | |
249 freezing river for so long and had only now opened her eyes. What could she | |
250 say to | |
251 Hotaru? Anything she could say would only hurt her, ChibiUsa was sure. She | |
252 hugged | |
253 herself tightly, her small body wracked by sobs as she continued her aimless | |
254 running, her | |
255 only thoughts to escape the horror of her thoughts. | |
256 So intent was she upon her fleeing that she never noticed where she was | |
257 running. The rocky ledge started to give way beneath her bare feet, a | |
258 breathless scream | |
259 trapped forever in her lips as she fell. The princess barely felt the | |
260 impact, everything | |
261 starting to fade out as she hit the shore below. She lay there, tears still | |
262 running down her | |
263 cheeks, not even realizing she was taking her dying breath. “Taru…” | |
264 | |
265 “ChibiUsa-chan!! ChibiUsa-chan, where are you?! Please, please come back to | |
266 me, ChibiUsa-chan….” Hotaru slumped to her knees in defeat, her dark skirt | |
267 getting | |
268 sullied by the wet sand on the beach. Last night, ChibiUsa had seemed so | |
269 upset about | |
270 something. She’d gone out to look for the pink haired future princess in the | |
271 dark, but she | |
272 was nowhere to be found. Hotaru had hoped that she’d gone back to the beach | |
273 house, but | |
274 no such luck. She had finally cried herself to sleep when she had gotten | |
275 back to their | |
276 empty bed. Waking up, she had the false hope that she’d be in ChibiUsa’s | |
277 arms and that | |
278 everything would be alright again. Now she had to wonder if things would | |
279 ever be alright | |
280 from then on. | |
281 Her black tights and dark clothes barely kept back the biting cold wind | |
282 that blew | |
283 past her. Icy knives raked her face as she stumbled forward, wiping at her | |
284 eyes with her | |
285 long sleeve. “ChibiUsa-chan…” She wanted to give up, to go back inside the | |
286 warm house | |
287 and cry herself back to sleep. She hadn’t slept much the night before, so | |
288 why not? What | |
289 could she hope to find out here? Something inside her pushed her on, | |
290 spurring her | |
291 forward. Standing up again, the raven haired girl weakly made her way along | |
292 the beach. | |
293 She nearly lost her footing in the wet sand, but kept going after steadying | |
294 herself. She | |
295 trudged on and on, the lapping of the waves and the whistling of the wind | |
296 the only sounds | |
297 around her. | |
298 About to collapse from exhaustion, the raven haired girl’s attention was | |
299 caught | |
300 by something up ahead. Something pink. She squinted, trying to make out what | |
301 it could | |
302 be, praying that it was the girl she sought. She’d soon come to regret that | |
303 as her prayers | |
304 were answered. As she ran to the other girl, she quickly noticed that | |
305 ChibiUsa wasn’t | |
306 moving. Her pink hair was moving back and forth as the wind played with it. | |
307 Her | |
308 normally immaculate white nightgown was stained with the brown of the wet | |
309 sand and | |
310 streaks of crimson. Her body was lying in a heap, looking like a rag doll | |
311 that had been | |
312 thrown aside. | |
313 Hotaru ran as fast as she could, her heart catching in her chest. In her | |
314 haste, her | |
315 foot caught on a rock, forcing her to tumble to the ground. She got up and | |
316 pushed on, | |
317 despite the intense pain in her twisted ankle. It couldn’t rival the pain in | |
318 her heart. | |
319 “ChibiUsa-chan!!!” she cried out, almost expecting the pink haired girl to | |
320 sit up. Hot | |
321 tears poured down her cheeks as she fell to her knees besides the prone | |
322 future princess. | |
323 “ChibiUsa-chan, get up. Please, get up,” the dark haired girl sobbed as her | |
324 arms went | |
325 around the cold body of her one true love. She held ChibiUsa close, a tear | |
326 falling onto | |
327 ChibiUsa’s cheek. The pink haired girl’s face looked almost the same as it | |
328 had the night | |
329 before. Her large crimson eyes were glassy and looking up at Hotaru, her | |
330 normally | |
331 vibrant cheeks now pale. Hotaru clutched onto ChibiUsa in her grief. She | |
332 felt as if her | |
333 heart had been torn from her chest. As if a piece of her, the most important | |
334 piece, had | |
335 been taken from her. “ChibiUsa-chan… Don’t leave me alone… I’m scared to be | |
336 alone.. | |
337 I need you with me, ChibiUsa-chan… I need you…” she barely managed to get | |
338 out | |
339 through heart wrenching sobs. The painful realization that her lover was now | |
340 dead kept | |
341 trying to impose itself on her mind, but she clung to the hope that she’d be | |
342 okay, that she | |
343 would get up in her arms, returning the embrace. | |
344 Hotaru stayed that way for a long time, ignoring everything around her as | |
345 she | |
346 held the dead princess tightly against her. “Its like she’s asleep… She’s so | |
347 pretty when | |
348 she’s asleep… Its like you’re taking a nap, ChibiUsa-chan. You sleep well, | |
349 and I’ll be | |
350 here when you wake up… I’ll always be here when you awake. Because…” The | |
351 dark | |
352 haired girl looked intently at the lost love in her arms, tears still | |
353 streaming down her | |
354 cheeks. “I love you.” | |
355 | |
356 A few hours later, a blue sports car stopped in front of the beach house. | |
357 A woman with sandy blonde hair stepped out of the car, holding her jacket | |
358 tightly | |
359 around her as the sea breeze came in. Smiling to herself, she reached back | |
360 in | |
361 the car and pulled out the last of ChibiUsa’s birthday presents, lovingly | |
362 wrapped | |
363 in a deep violet wrapping paper with black lace ribbons. Hotaru had | |
364 forgotten the | |
365 present she had been going to give ChibiUsa in her haste and Haruka hadn't | |
366 found it in the back of her car until she was well back to the city. She'd | |
367 decided to | |
368 stop by the next day and return it to her daughter to give to the ChibiUsa. | |
369 Cinching her jacket around her, the tall woman made her way to the door of | |
370 the | |
371 beach house and knocked on the door. “Hime-chan! Its me, Haruka-papa,” she | |
372 said after a few moments. There was no answer. Haruka frowned and tried the | |
373 door. She began to worry as the unlocked door opened. What could have | |
374 happened to the two girls? She commanded herself to stop worrying. They were | |
375 probably at the beach and left the door open for when they’d come back in. | |
376 Something out of the corner of her eye caught her attention. She | |
377 instantly recognized it as Michiru’s mirror. It was lying on the floor near | |
378 one of the | |
379 tables in the living room as if someone had thrown in aside in a hurry. | |
380 Haruka’s | |
381 heart started beating faster as she quickly searched the beach house. Her | |
382 surrogate daughter and the future princess were nowhere to be found. Rather | |
383 than waste time panicking, the blonde woman rushed out of the house, intent | |
384 on | |
385 finding the two girls. Trudging out towards the beach, she couldn’t help but | |
386 shiver | |
387 as the biting wind increased. It was too cold to be swimming. They couldn’t | |
388 be | |
389 out here for that. Then why… Haruka shook her head. She wouldn’t allow | |
390 herself | |
391 to assume the worst yet. First things first. She had to find them. | |
392 After what felt like hours of walking, but must have been considerably | |
393 less, Haruka thought she heard a faint voice being carried by the wind. A | |
394 voice | |
395 filled with utter despair and hopelessness. A voice that had lost any of the | |
396 joy | |
397 and wonder life had to offer. At first, she thought it was only the wind, | |
398 but the soft | |
399 voice continued. Haruka finally caught sight of a girl dressed entirely in | |
400 black, her | |
401 rave hair being whipped around by the wind as she clutched onto something | |
402 protectively. The blonde woman ran to her surrogate daughter, determined to | |
403 make sure everything was okay. He stopped dead in her tracks when she saw | |
404 the lifeless form of a once happy pink haired girl in Hotaru’s arms. “My | |
405 God….” | |
406 She gasped. | |
407 Hotaru didn’t even look up, not noticing her Haruka-papa’s arrival. “So | |
408 pretty when you sleep like this. And I’ll watch over you forever, my | |
409 sleeping | |
410 beauty….” Hotaru’s fingers gently brushed over ChibiUsa’s cold lips as she | |
411 continued rambling semi-coherently. “Forever.” | |
412 | |
413 | |
414 "It's so cold..." . | |
415 Ever since what had happened, Hotaru kept a nearly steady monologue. | |
416 The silence meant she was alone again.. always alone.. forever.. And she | |
417 didn't | |
418 want to be left alone. Not now, not ever. Everything that had happened.. | |
419 it | |
420 was like a whole new person. "It's not me. Silly. I'm watching myself.. | |
421 like | |
422 on a screen..." | |
423 All around her, the room seemed bare, stripped of everything. Her | |
424 normally dark room was even darker without the beautiful shining lamps to | |
425 soften | |
426 it. "But the lamps were too dangerous, ne, Michiru-mama? You wouldn't want | |
427 me | |
428 to break one and use the glass to slit my wrists. You want me to suffer.." | |
429 The dark-haired girl, long out of tears, looked over everything she had | |
430 left. The bed was bare, so she couldn't strangle herself with the sheets. | |
431 Her | |
432 beautiful lamps had been replaced by three solemn candles. She only had her | |
433 books.. her only escape for so many years before was her only option now. | |
434 Or.. | |
435 That seemed a lifetime ago to the grief-stricken girl. "Oh, back then, | |
436 no-one cared if I lived or I died.. Kaori-baka would've been GLAD to see me | |
437 go. | |
438 And.. if I'd died then... she wouldn't..." Closing her eyes tight and | |
439 trying | |
440 to remove the image from her mind, she thought over her options. Ever since | |
441 her parents set up this suicide watch, after that first night alone, she'd | |
442 had | |
443 no privacy, not even a chance to mourn in peace. She'd just been almost | |
444 locked | |
445 in her room, from how they treated her outside it, and even then one of them | |
446 would check on her every few minutes, even if she was asleep. | |
447 All she had left were her books.. | |
448 "They say history repeats.. I know.. I watched it.. over and over.. An | |
449 endless loop. I was alone then.. I'm alone now.. oh, ChibiUsa-chan.. why | |
450 couldn't I have died instead?" | |
451 The desk was gone. The shelves, the table, the chairs - all taken out. | |
452 All that was left were her books and her bed.. and the candles. Near a | |
453 corner, | |
454 the remains of her diary sat. She'd tried to communicate that way, writing | |
455 everything using the stub of a pencil Setsuna-mama had finally agreed to | |
456 give | |
457 her. After the first hundred pages or so, she'd realized she wasn't making | |
458 any | |
459 sense at all, and questioned the point of it. But, then again, what were | |
460 all | |
461 of her diaries for? All the secrets, every little thing, kept in meticulous | |
462 detail... "No-one could understand. I couldn't let them understnd. They'd | |
463 see | |
464 and they wouldn't understand.. the only person who could ever understand is | |
465 dead. Saturn! Where are you now? If you're truly the Messiah, reigning | |
466 over | |
467 Death and Rebirth, then tell me why!" | |
468 But, then, an idea came.. and in her broken mind, with its broken soul, | |
469 living a lifeless shell in a grey world without even the comfort of trust, | |
470 it | |
471 made perfect sense. | |
472 No-one would understand. So why let them try? | |
473 She stood, shakily, blinking and wiping her bloodshot eyes. It would | |
474 still be a few minutes at least, until someone checked on her. Praying it | |
475 would be long enough, she set to work, seperating her books from her diaries | |
476 and journals, her secrets.. Making a pile, she begin to organize it all, | |
477 bit | |
478 by bit, working slowly and carefully. It was almost time. | |
479 Her work was interrupted by a knock at her door. "Hime-chan? Is | |
480 everything okay?" It was Haruka-papa, come to make sure she hadn't died. | |
481 Not responding, she waited for the blonde woman to open the door and | |
482 check. "Hime-chan?" The door slowly creaked open, and Haruka stuck her | |
483 head | |
484 inside. "I know it's hard for you, Hime-chan. But we have to be sure." | |
485 When | |
486 Hotaru didn't even bother to look up, Haruka just sighed and shut the door | |
487 again. | |
488 Alone once more, the girl set her plan into motion. Tearing pages out, | |
489 shredding some, pulling some into strips, leaving some notebooks whole, she | |
490 prepared. All of her work, everything she had left, everything she was.. it | |
491 was all here. And with a touch of the candle.. | |
492 It took a minute or so to catch. Hotaru blew on the small fire, | |
493 letting it grow at its own pace. She knew that the smoke alarm's batteries | |
494 had | |
495 been dead for weeks, and since everyone was asleep or downstairs, there'd be | |
496 no-one to stop her. Page by page, she fed the fire.. whole years of her | |
497 life, | |
498 burning away. "It's warm, ChibiUsa-chan.. can you feel it? It's not like | |
499 everything else.. This is how it has to be, now. If I can't die.. I'll | |
500 make | |
501 it so I was never around in the first place. Without these for people to | |
502 remember me by, I'll just fade away. No-one cares but you, ChibiUsa-chan.. | |
503 no-one.... They want me to live on, forget the past. Find someone to | |
504 console | |
505 me and love me. Be happy. I've never been happy, ChibiUsa-chan. I can't | |
506 ever | |
507 remember being happy. Not without you..." | |
508 The flickering flames glittered, reflected in her sad, tired eyes.. so | |
509 tired, so old.. dead. | |
510 The fire spread to the floor, spread through the room. By now, it was | |
511 quite obvious that the room was ablaze, if not the whole house. And Haruka, | |
512 just now noticing the smell, was quick to run up and check on her | |
513 dark-haired | |
514 princess. Sirens could be heard, off in the distance.. a neighbor saw the | |
515 flame, the firefighters would arrive soon. | |
516 Haruka arrived just in time to pull the firefly from the heart of the | |
517 fire before anything more than her hair and clothes were singed. The girl | |
518 was | |
519 unconscious, passed out from the lack of sleep and the fumes of the books' | |
520 bindings as they caught. | |
521 | |
522 Two figures watched from the shadows. | |
523 Children. | |
524 It almost seemed they were part of the background.. a piece that | |
525 doesn't quite fit, that everyone overlooks.. | |
526 One spoke. Her voice quiet, almost detached. | |
527 "Shisa?" | |
528 "Yes, Selene?" | |
529 "Do you think we went too far? I mean.." | |
530 They watched, as their mother was revived by her Haruka-papa. As she | |
531 was doomed to ever live, lifeless. | |
532 "Yes, Selene." | |
533 "Oh.. look, Shisa! I can see through us. We're fading.... Shisa?" | |
534 "Yes, Selene?" | |
535 "I am the wind.. look! Whoosh!" | |
536 A gust of wind came, as the window was broken in by a firefighter. | |
537 The two figures seemed to dissipate, with the smoke.. | |
538 |