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1 Later that evening, after Sakura returned home, the girl spent most of
2 her time inside her room. The entire time though, she laid down on her bed
3 staring up at the ceiling. Her sight was observing dead space with her
4 eyes watching nothing in particular. Somewhere deep within the back of her
5 mind, thoughts of herself and of Tomoyo were piling up: thoughts of love,
6 thoughts of confusion and thoughts of discovery. There were moments when
7 these thoughts would race through Sakura's mind and there were others when
8 they would be too much for her, causing her mind to run dormant. All of
9 the girl's questions had been answered except for one, and there was no way
10 for her to know how to answer it. As Sakura continued laying motionless on
11 her bed, her guardian, Kero, came out of the top desk drawer where he had
12 been sleeping for most of the day. He looked around and found the room to
13 be pitch black. The small guardian groaned as he flew up to turn on the
14 nearby lamp. "Sakura, did you forget to wake me up again? I'm so hungry."
15 Kero's attitude changed from crankiness to concern once he saw Sakura's
16 lifeless body on the bed. "Hey Sakura, are you okay?" Kero floated to his
17 friend's side to console her and try to help her out. "Hey is there
18 something the matter?"
19 > "Oh. Hey Kero," Sakura responded glancing at her friend. "I'm sorry I
20 forgot to wake you up".
21 > "Sakura, it appears to me that something's been bothering you since
22 yesterday. Is it alright if I ask what's wrong?"
23 > "Well...sure, but I don't think you'll understand."
24 > "Hey, I'm here to help, and I'll do my best to help you out in any way
25 that I can," Kero said in a calm, reassuring tone.
26 > "Okay. Well, basically it's about Tomoyo. Yesterday after school, she
27 gave me a letter that...well, she said that...her letter said..." It was
28 hard for Sakura to talk about something she hardly understood at all.
29 > "Take it slow and easy Sakura. You can go at your own pace."
30 > "Okay," Sakura responded. She sat quietly for a few seconds, then took
31 in a deep breath and spoke once again. "In her letter, Tomoyo told me
32 that...she has feelings of love for me." Sakura stayed quiet after that as
33 she anticipated criticism from Kero just for saying such a thing.
34 > "Keep going, I'm listening," Kero said, sounding a little impatient but
35 still williing to help Sakura out.
36 > Sakura was a little bit surprised to hear Kero say that, and it was then
37 she realized that he could understand her situation better than she could.
38 "Well, after I read Tomoyo's letter, I was unsure of what to say to her
39 that I just ran off."
40 > "What? Wait a second! Did you just say that you ran away from her?"
41 > "Y,yeah, but I..."
42 > "Sakura," Kero was upset at Sakura's description of her past misjudgment,
43 "when someone tells you their feelings like that, you don't just run away
44 from them and not come back to resolve the siutation! You're going to hurt
45 someone deep inside by doing that!"
46 > "I understand that now Kero," Sakura quickly responded. "But yeserday,
47 it was all so sudden and shocking to me that I had no idea what to do!"
48 > After Sakura's reaction of defense, Kero couldn't help but apologize for
49 his harsh outburst. "I'm sorry Sakura, I just wasn't sure how well you
50 understood the situation you're in."
51 > "No," Sakura said as she let feeling of guilt engulf her. "Don't
52 apologize Kero. I deserve to be yelled at for what I've done yesterday.
53 It's all my fault that I'm in this mess."
54 > "Don't say that. The fact that you want to resolve this problem the
55 right way shows that you're a caring person. So try not to take it out on
56 yourself. You'll get through this alright."
57 > The little girl felt comforted as her friend patted her head, and her
58 mouth formed a small smile, but it wasn't large enough to show that she was
59 truly happy. "Anyway," Sakura continued, "I thought about the letter again
60 today, and how Tomoyo described her feelings. As I was thinking, I began
61 to feel something within me surface. The more I thought, I began to
62 realize that I also had feelings of love. These feelings I have for Tomoyo
63 are real. I guess I kinda had these feelings all along, but after reading
64 Tomoyo's letter and understanding how she felt, I was able to discover them
65 for the first time. But, I don't even see how all of this is possible."
66 > "What do you mean by that?" Kero asked.
67 > "It, it just doesn't sound right. I don't understand how any of this can
68 be normal. Tomoyo and I are both girls and we both share a desire of love
69 for each other, but when I think about it, it just sounds weird. I never
70 even knew that I could fall in love with another girl. Being in this
71 situation scares me a lot. That's the reason why I ran away from Tomoyo."
72 Sakura's tone of voice showed that she was starting to act hysterical. "I
73 don't even understand how the love between two girls can be real! This is
74 something that's been on my mind for an entire day and I feel like I'm
75 going crazy! It sounds unnatural and uncommon! Kero, I love Tomoyo, but
76 can this really be called love?"
77 > After hearing everything that his friend had to say, Kero thought long
78 and hard to come up with a solution for Sakura's perplexing problem. He
79 delivered his reply once he believed he found the right choice of words.
80 "I can understand that at your age, you would find all of this to be really
81 confusing. Okay Sakura, I think I know of a way to explain this. Now you
82 know that your father loves you, right?"
83 > "Well, yeah." Sakura was very curious as to what Kero would say in order
84 to help her out.
85 > "And your father also loves your brother, even though they're both the
86 same gender. As you know, that type of love is not considered romantic."
87 > "Right."
88 > "Now, keep in mind the relationship between your father and your brother
89 as I continue. The love that your parents shared with each other was the
90 romantic type of love. The love between yourself and Tomoyo is also
91 romantic. If you think about it, there are different types of
92 relationships between the two genders. Many of them, even the one you have
93 with Tomoyo, are considered by a lot of people to be real love. I hope you
94 no longer think of your situation being strange, because I certainly don't
95 see a problem with it."
96 > Sakura listened to every word that was told to her, and it took a while
97 for her to understand. She kept the relationship of her father and her
98 brother in her mind the whole time. At one point, she came across the fact
99 that since they were family, they cared about each other and it didn't
100 mater that they were both male. As soon as Sakura realized this, she
101 compared it to her relationship with Tomoyo. Her realization was that even
102 though they were both girls, her emotions of love mattered the most between
103 them. Sakura discovered that gender was not an important factor when the
104 feelings between two people were true. Soon, a smile came across Sakura's
105 face. It finally made perfect sense to her. "I...I understand. I actually
106 understand it now. Incredible. But, the whole thing sounds so simple now
107 that I've had it explained to me. I can't believe that I was just worrying
108 over nothing the whole time."
109 > "It's okay Sakura. A lot of people have problems with this sort of
110 thing, but you've found the answer to this situation. I think you should
111 be proud with yourself."
112 > "Yeah. I am proud, and I'm happy about it too. I didn't really think
113 I'd be able to...oh! I still haven't said a thing to Tomoyo since
114 yesterday. She's probably so heart broken, or mad that she doesn't want to
115 speak to me. Now what am I suppose to do?"
116 > "Well first of all, I think you should call Tomoyo on the phone."
117 > "Huh?"
118 > "Sure. Arrange to meet with her sometime tomorrow so you can fully
119 discuss your feelings with her."
120 > "Do...you think she will agree to do so?"
121 > "If you ask in an appropriate manner, she will forgive you."
122 > "Should I call her right now?"
123 > "Uh...not yet. There's something more important that you need to take
124 care of first."
125 > "What? Something more important?"
126 > "Yeah. I still haven't been feed in a while. Could you please do that
127 first?"
128 > "Oh! Hm. You bet Kero. Wait right here."
129 > "Thanks Sakura," Kero said as he watched his friend leave the room in a
130 joyful mood. "Sakura and Tomoyo huh? Well, who would have guessed? Then
131 again love and life hardly turn out the way we expect it to. I think those
132 two girls are going to be just fine together."
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