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1 Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me. They are the property of their respective owners (CLAMP...etc.).
2 The song is by Lonestar and the lyrics belong to the songwriters. PLEASE do not post my fan fics without my
3 permission!
4
5 Songfic: Smile
6 by samuraiheart
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8 Notes: This is from Tomoyo's point of view. The song lyrics are in italics
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12 I still remember the night we met
13 You said you loved my smile
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15 I've known Sakura for so long. I can't imagine what my world would be like without her. Somehow I always imagined we'd be
16 together forever. I love her very much and I hope she understands that. I've told her a thousand times in the way I look at her,
17 the things I say to her, the things I do for her and the way I smile. She's always loved my smile.
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19 But your love for me was like a summer breeze
20 Oh it lasted for a while
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22 We went through so much together as she fought to save the world from disaster. I was always there by her side - cheering her
23 on. I cherish every moment I've spent in her presence. It's a shame that videotape can't always capture it all, but I remember. I
24 could never forget - the thrill of being near Sakura just for a few moments is enough to last a lifetime. It is enough for me just to
25 have those memories. At least I can keep telling myself that. I know a part of her will always love me even if she never says it.
26 We are best friends and we can never lose that special bond. It's hard for me to admit that it will never grow into more than
27 that.
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29 I could hold on a little tighter I know
30 But when you love someone
31 You gotta let em go
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33 I know she loves Shaolan and I don't want to stand in her way. I want her to be happy more than anything else and I know
34 they belong together. Sakura promises me that we will never lose touch and I believe her. I would follow her to the ends of the
35 earth to make sure of it. I will always be the one she can come to when she needs a friend. Her friendship means so much to
36 me that I can push aside my broken heart so she won't see the tears.
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38 So I'm gonna smile
39 Cause I wanna make you happy
40 Laugh so you can't see me cry
41 I'm gonna let you go in style
42 And even if it kills me
43 I'm gonna smile
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45 I smile when I see them together. I can't help it. Making Sakura happy matters more to me than any ache in my own soul. I can
46 shed my tears alone in the darkness, but I can never let Sakura see. Mine are tears of emptiness and loneliness, but not
47 sadness. I am happy for Sakura and I smile so that she will know this. I want nothing more than to make Sakura happy and I
48 don't think could live with myself if I was ever responsible for a single tear on her beautiful cheek. I know that if I told her how
49 much I loved her she would have to make a horrible choice and I'm not sure I could live with her decision. It's better this way.
50 I can hold it inside and she can go on with her life.
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52 Kiss me once for the good times baby
53 Kiss me twice for goodbye
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55 I stand before her now not sure what to do. I must say goodbye and let go of all my hopes and dreams. It's just another day to
56 her. We will see each other tomorrow at school she reminds me as I struggle with the word goodbye. My voice cracks and
57 shakes a little. Yes. I know I say, but my thoughts echo with the words it will never be the same. I blink back tears and hope
58 she doesn't notice. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I know I have to do it for her. Everything I do is for her.
59 As she turns away a sudden impulse hits me and I shout "SAKURA!" She turns around and looks at me puzzled. I run to her
60 and throw my arms around her hugging her tightly. She returns the hug as I whisper in her ear "thanks for everything" Sakura
61 pauses for a moment as our eyes meet. I try to hide my sadness, but I see my reflection in her sparkling eyes. For a moment I
62 wonder if she understands as she kisses me softly on the cheek. "Goodbye Tomoyo... I'll see you in school." Two hands part
63 and mine remains outstretched reaching for something I can never have.
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65 You can't help how you don't feel
66 And it doesn't matter why
67 Give me a chance to bow out gracefully
68 Cause that's how I want you to remember me
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70 I watch her walk away and let out a deep breath I didn't realize I was holding in. This is for the best, I remind myself. We will
71 always be friends and I will always be hers even if she can't be mine.
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73 I'm gonna smile
74 Cause I wanna make you happy
75 Laugh so you can't see me cry
76 I'm gonna let you go in style
77 And Even if it kills me
78 I'm gonna smile
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80 At the end of the street she turns around. At first I am embarrassed that I am still standing there, but my patience earns me a
81 precious gift as Sakura smiles brightly and waves at me before turning around and rushing home. I smile and return the wave.
82 The image will stay with me always as an unspoken acceptance of my hidden promise to her. I will always love you, but you
83 must find your own love. Go and be happy Sakura. You deserve it more than anyone else in this world. More than me.
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85 I'm gonna smile
86 So you can find the courage
87 Laugh so you won't see me hurting
88 I'm gonna let you go in style
89 And even if it kills me
90 I'm gonna smile
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92 Please ignore the tears on my cheeks because I am smiling.