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1 Learning to Fly Chapter Five | |
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3 The Amazoness Duo | |
4 and | |
5 G.P. | |
6 amazonessduo@hotmail.com | |
7 pearsong1954@yahoo.com | |
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10 "Just go with him, Meiling. He's the heir. We need someone to keep | |
11 an eye on him so he doesn't do something completely stupid while he's | |
12 in Japan. You're the only one he trusts."Walking down the crowded | |
13 street, gazing at the merchandise for sale on all sides, Meiling's | |
14 amber eyes narrowed. "Why the hell should I? If he wants to go across | |
15 the sea to screw his girlfriend, that's his business. I don't see how | |
16 that has anything to do with me." | |
17 | |
18 A moment of silence came from Fanren. Syaoran's older sister was | |
19 trying to approach the subject as diplomatically as possible. | |
20 Unfortunately, Meiling was not always a logical being. It didn't help | |
21 that the subject of Syaoran was rapidly becoming a minefield for her. | |
22 Fanren couldn't remember the last time she'd pissed someone off | |
23 simply by kissing them. In fact, her results were generally quite the | |
24 opposite. She would have to give Syaoran some pointers. Her little | |
25 brother must be doing something wrong. "Because he's about to become | |
26 the head of the Li Clan and he's not always... as tactful as he could | |
27 be."Meiling snorted. "That's for sure.""Anyway," Fanren continued, | |
28 "Syaoran is a stubborn young man and if he's off in Japan visiting | |
29 his girlfriend, he might do something stupid. Like if Sakura | |
30 convinces him to stay in Japan so they can live together there. | |
31 Mother doesn't mind if he marries the Cardmistress, but Syaoran is | |
32 the next heir and we need him back home in Hong Kong to lead the | |
33 family."Shrugging, Meiling feigned interest in some caged birds in | |
34 the marketplace, brushing a pigtail over her shoulder. "Then send | |
35 someone else to play your watchdog. I've spent enough time keeping an | |
36 eye on him."An exasperated sigh escaped Fanren. "But you're the only | |
37 one he'll listen to. If Sakura manages to convince him to stay, do | |
38 you really think he'd listen to me? Or Shiefa? Maybe mother, but | |
39 she's far too busy to go with him to Japan. But he listens to you, | |
40 Meiling. He trusts you. You're the only one outside of mother who can | |
41 actually make him do anything. You can make sure he comes back home | |
42 when his little trip is over." | |
43 | |
44 Fists clenched as Meiling stood up, her back to Fanren. "We all make | |
45 our choices. And we all have to live with him. I can't make up | |
46 Syaoran's mind for him. He'll make his choices whether or not I'm | |
47 there."Fanren was quiet for a long moment as she watched her younger | |
48 cousin. Was Meiling crying? She couldn't quite tell. "Meiling..." Her | |
49 hand rested lightly on Meiling's shoulder, but the raven haired girl | |
50 quickly pulled away."Syaoran's already made his choices. You give me | |
51 way too much credit. In the end, he's already made his choices. We | |
52 just need to wait and see what they are. I can't change them. I spent | |
53 way too much of my life hoping I could." Syaoran's one time fiancee | |
54 straighted as she began to walk again. "I'll go with him if it will | |
55 make your mother feel better. But Syaoran's not as weak as you think | |
56 he is. In the end, he'll decide his own destiny." "Thanks, Meiling. | |
57 I'm sorry that..."Meiling cut her off, shaking her head. "Don't be. | |
58 We all make choices. Maybe I made the wrong ones. But we all have to | |
59 live with them." A few steps pulled her away from Fanren. "I'm going | |
60 to pack for the trip. Tell Syaoran I'll see him then." And with that, | |
61 the raven haired girl left. | |
62 | |
63 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
64 | |
65 Naked and confused, Sakura decided to fix the only one of her two | |
66 problems she currently had any control over. Slipping out of bed, the | |
67 brunette padded over to her closet and hurriedly got dressed. Her | |
68 head still ached, but the tea Tomoyo had sent with Kero had helped. | |
69 The earthquake between her ears had settled into a dull throb. | |
70 Finding this an acceptable if annoying state to start the day in, | |
71 Sakura exited her room. After all, there were potentially much more | |
72 important afteraffects of the last night than a hangover. | |
73 Dressed in yet another beautiful dress, hair in pigtails, and in | |
74 the middle of constructing a delicious smelling breakfast, Tomoyo | |
75 seemed like the perfect wife. Is that what Sakura's father had woken | |
76 up to for so many years? Was this what it felt like for him every | |
77 morning, breath catching at the gorgeous sight before him? Mind | |
78 rolling through those questions, Sakura stood in the doorway to the | |
79 kitchen, her own breath catching as she watched her fair skinned | |
80 roommate move gracefully about the kitchen. If she'd been a boy, | |
81 would she have had any reservations at all of being with Tomoyo? | |
82 Would there be anything stopping her from sweeping Tomoyo up in her | |
83 strong, boyish arms and holding her forever? | |
84 "Good morning, Sakura," Tomoyo greeted brightly without looking up | |
85 from her current task of pouring batter onto a pan. "How did you | |
86 sleep?" | |
87 As usual, being able to tell what had happened the night before | |
88 from Tomoyo's behavior was impossibe. The dark haired girl betrayed | |
89 no clue of exactly what may have happened between them the night | |
90 before. Puzzling this over, the Cardmistress dropped into a chair and | |
91 watched her friend putting the finishing touches on breakfast. Had | |
92 they slept together? The feeling of Tomoyo's lips pressing against | |
93 her own brought a dark blush to her cheeks. Whatever had happened, | |
94 that memory was still vividly clear. Brief images and feelings of | |
95 hands sliding underneath clothing flittered through Sakura's mind, | |
96 but they fled when she tried to grasp at them. | |
97 It seemed like the only thing Sakura really knew at this point was | |
98 that Tomoyo was a very different kisser than Syaoran. Much softer, | |
99 much more receptive. Fists balled up and pressed against her thighs | |
100 through her shorts in frustration and emarrassment. Why was the last | |
101 night such a blur? Why wasn't Tomoyo saying anything? If Tomoyo had | |
102 been naked in the kitchen, then that would've been a big enough clue | |
103 that Sakura could appreciate. Sakura sat in silence for a long | |
104 moment, listening to her friend sing softly as she prodded herself to | |
105 ask Tomoyo what had happened. What if they had? What would happen | |
106 after that? Infinity seemed to stretch out in front of the | |
107 Cardmistress, boggling her mind. Pressing her knuckles into her | |
108 thighs painfully, Sakura forced herself to speak. Unfortunately, her | |
109 mind still wasn't responding entirely. She was still hesitant to ask. | |
110 "Tomoyo, did... Umm... Last night, after.... Well, did you... I mean, | |
111 we... Tomoyo, if I were a boy, I'd marry you," Sakura finished | |
112 dumbly, her cheeks reddened. It wasn't exactly what she'd meant to | |
113 say, but she'd wanted to say it anyway. "Would you?" Tomoyo countered | |
114 softly, travelling to the table with their plates. "If you were a | |
115 boy, lets say that Syaoran was a girl. Or he could still be a boy. | |
116 Touya doesn't seem to mind that about Yukito. Then you two would | |
117 still have ended up together because I would have noticed how much he | |
118 or she liked you and helped you two end up together." "But you'd make | |
119 a perfect girlfriend. If I were a boy, I'd notice that and we'd..." | |
120 Sakura put her hands together, motioning, "be a couple. Or something | |
121 like that." She looked down embarrassedly at the smile that brought | |
122 to Tomoyo's lips. Those soft lips... Sakura tried to force the | |
123 thought out of her head. "You're so sweet, Sakura. But I don't think | |
124 you didn't notice me because you're a girl. When I was younger, I | |
125 thought that was it, but I think it's more than that now. I've been | |
126 your best friend since we were ten years old. I've been in love with | |
127 you from the moment I saw you, and it's gotten stronger for me ever | |
128 since. But to you, I've always been your best friend. That's how you | |
129 see me. It's hard for you to see me as anything else. If you were a | |
130 boy, we still would have been best friends. And you'd still think of | |
131 me as that while other girls got your attention. Even if you think I | |
132 would make a perfect girlfriend and even if you were a boy, I think | |
133 you wouldn't see me as a possible lover because you'd still see me as | |
134 your best friend. I love filling that role for you, but it would make | |
135 it hard for you to see me as anything more than that." "But... But | |
136 what if I could see through that? What if I could push past that and | |
137 see that you could be more than my best friend?" Sakura argued. | |
138 Tomoyo made sense, but Sakura didn't want to give up yet. It didn't | |
139 seem fair that she could totally miss Tomoyo even if she were a boy. | |
140 A smile spread over Tomoyo's pink lips. "Then it wouldn't matter if | |
141 you were a boy or a girl." Blushing, Sakura's chestnut hair hid her | |
142 face as she looked down, studying her hands intently. Were her | |
143 feelings for Tomoyo really so unaffected by what body she had? If | |
144 that was the case, what did she feel? Because she thought she'd want | |
145 to be with Tomoyo if she were a boy. Did that mean she'd want to be | |
146 with her now, as a girl? | |
147 Looking up suddenly, an intense fire lit Sakura's eyes. | |
148 Determination had finally overtaken her. She didn't want to squirm | |
149 away from this again. Tomoyo was too important to her to just leave | |
150 everything to the winds. "Did we sleep together?" Though the thought | |
151 thoroughly embarrassed her, she wasn't afraid of it. The thought of | |
152 sleeping with Tomoyo wasn't at all disturbing, which Sakura found a | |
153 bit odd. It had been embarrassing the first time she'd slept with | |
154 Syaoran as well. Despite the fact that she had previously slept with | |
155 a boy, the thought of sleeping with a girl really didn't bother | |
156 Sakura. She was much more concerned with what exactly it meant if she | |
157 had. "Do you want us to have slept together?" Tomoyo asked, tilting | |
158 her head to the side. One pigtail slid past her shoulder as her | |
159 lavender eyes held onto Sakura's emerald gaze. She'd been curious | |
160 about whether or not Sakura would ask about the night before. Sakura | |
161 was curious, but she didn't always push things to their conclusion | |
162 when she was embarrassed about them. She was surprised to see Sakura | |
163 trying so hard to rationalize the events of the night before. If she | |
164 weren't so intimately involved, it would be easier for her to help | |
165 Sakura get things into perpective. But maybe Sakura wouldn't need her | |
166 for this after all. It thrilled Tomoyo to see Sakura so determined | |
167 about figuring things out. When Sakura was determined, nothing could | |
168 stop her. Though she understood Sakura's feelings better than anyone, | |
169 she couldn't untangle the web in Sakura's heart. Only Sakura could do | |
170 that. Tomoyo's question hung in the air, stopping Sakura cold. Her | |
171 own question had been about fishing for facts. It was a simple yes or | |
172 no. But Tomoyo's question complicated things exponentially. The | |
173 brunette's feelings didn't factor into whether or not they had slept | |
174 together so she hadn't really thought about it. That seemed like a | |
175 minor problem anyway. But the way Tomoyo spoke made her feelings | |
176 sound like the single most important aspect of if they did or not. | |
177 "I..." Sakura began. | |
178 'Rrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiinnnnnnngggg....' the phone trilled. Watching | |
179 Sakura for a long second, the dark haired girl slipped gently from | |
180 the table to answer the phone. Sakura sat in confused silence until | |
181 Tomoyo returned. "It's Syaoran. He said he'll be arriving in Tomoeda | |
182 late tonight," Tomoyo explained, holding the phone out to | |
183 Sakura. "Hoe..." Sakura's head fell to the table with a thump loud | |
184 enough to make Tomoyo wonder if she should get the first aid kit. | |
185 Sakura sighed despite the pain. Great. As if things weren't | |
186 complicated enough. Now she'd have her boyfriend and her best friend | |
187 that she may or may not have slept with all in the same place. | |
188 Sometimes she wasn't so sure that Clow was done testing | |
189 her.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
190 | |
191 Bags passed round and round, a carousel of black, of handles and | |
192 wheels, of bags backed to the brim with necessary and worthless | |
193 supplies for countless trips. Lifeless ponies, endlessly cirlcling in | |
194 the hopes that someone would eventually take an interest and bring | |
195 them home. Tired eyes from wary travellers dully watched the cycle as | |
196 if in a trance. Now and then someone would yank one of the bags away | |
197 and a new one would slide down the chute to replace it. People's eyes | |
198 would briefly light up in hope that their bag had arrived, but they | |
199 quickly became disenchanted. Hefting her bags up, Meiling pulled | |
200 ahead of her cousin and one-time fiancee as he struggled to find a | |
201 proper way to balance the weight of his own supplies. Ignoring his | |
202 efforts to carry something for her, Meiling impatiently began making | |
203 her way through the airport, Syaoran hurrying to keep up with her. "I | |
204 don't know why you brought so much stuff. Sakura will probably have | |
205 everything you need at her place." A moment of silence followed | |
206 Meiling as Syaoran took a moment to interpret this. Feelings were not | |
207 his strong point. And the feelings of overemotional girls had the | |
208 same affect on him as a complex mathematical formula he couldn't hope | |
209 to follow. On the one hand, at least Meiling was talking to him | |
210 again. This was a relief in and of itself because she had been | |
211 avoiding him since he had kissed her at the party some time before. | |
212 But he still wasn't entirely sure how she felt about things. And this | |
213 concerned him. Because if he had learned anything over the years, it | |
214 was that Meiling could be frightfully scary when she was angry. His | |
215 cousin must have gotten that from his mother's side of the family. | |
216 How Meiling felt about being back in Japan with him, about to meet | |
217 Sakura again, was a mystery to him. For the most part, Meiling seemed | |
218 to be her normal self. Stubborn, irrational, and incredibly vocal | |
219 about things. He decided that she must be fine and that he'd leave it | |
220 at that. Trying to delve into Meiling's emotional state otherwise | |
221 would be about as frustrating and problematic as figuring out | |
222 Sakura's. He had enough of a headache from the plane ride that he | |
223 figured it would be best to avoid aggravating it if at all possible. | |
224 If Meiling's sudden mood swings had any predictible pattern, it was | |
225 so complex that Syaoran was certain only mathematical theoreticians | |
226 could understand it. | |
227 "Sakura doesn't have everything I need. If I'm staying a while, I | |
228 need to make sure I have everything with me," Syaoran replied matter- | |
229 of-factly. | |
230 "Like what? You want a manlier shampoo than whatever she uses? | |
231 You'd be fine just borrowing her stuff." Arching an eyebrow, Meiling | |
232 glanced over at her stoic cousin. "You probably didn't even need to | |
233 bring clothes. She wears boyish enough outfits half the time that you | |
234 could just borrow some of those." Smiling inwardly, she added, "You'd | |
235 get used to the panties before too long." The flustered look that | |
236 crossed Syaoran's face was worth it. He failed to respond and she | |
237 continued forward. | |
238 "Syaoran! Meiling-chan!" a familiar voice called out. | |
239 Pulling to a halt, Syaoran began to scan the crowd for the voice's | |
240 source. His amber eyes finally settled on his brightly smiling | |
241 girlfriend and her seemingly everpresent friend. For a moment, the | |
242 concern drained from Syaoran. Everything was fine now that he was | |
243 with Sakura again. He was far away from family politics and back with | |
244 the girl he loved. | |
245 Sighing inwardly, Meiling readjusted her bags and continued in step | |
246 with Syaoran to their welcoming party. It wasn't that she didn't like | |
247 Sakura as a person. Someone as compassionate and goofy as Sakura was | |
248 hard to hate. But Sakura as Syaoran's girlfriend was a different | |
249 story. Meiling tried to adopt a resigned disposition to the whole | |
250 thing. After all, she'd lost Syaoran to Sakura when they were only | |
251 eleven. Logically, it made sense to just drop it. Unfortunately, | |
252 Meiling was not a logical person. She hated knowing that Sakura was | |
253 with Syaoran in the way she had wanted to be ever since she was a | |
254 child. Since she wasn't the type to spend a lot of time lying about | |
255 polite niceities, she simply waited alongside Syaoran rather than say | |
256 something she might regret if she were going to be staying with | |
257 Sakura for their stay in Japan. | |
258 Before Syaoran could think of what to say to his girlfriend now | |
259 that he was finally face to face with her once again, the brunette | |
260 practically pounced on him. Her arms wrapped tightly around him, | |
261 pulling him close. Holding onto her boyfriend warmly, Syaoran was | |
262 surprised at how strong Sakura had become over the years. She had | |
263 always been athletic, but it showed even more now. It took him a | |
264 moment to disengage himself enough to return the hug. Holding Sakura | |
265 felt nice. She was like an anchor to the way things were supposed to | |
266 be. Safe and warm. "It's good to see you again, Sakura," he said at | |
267 last. He felt like he should say more, but he was too stunned to be | |
268 with the Cardmistress once more to think clearly. Memories from a | |
269 lifetime ago exploded through his mind, of magic and school and | |
270 romance. | |
271 Moving to pick up one of the bags Syaoran had set down, Tomoyo | |
272 smiled and motioned for them to follow. "My mother let me take the | |
273 limo to pick you up. It'll be much easier to get you home that way." | |
274 The pale girl looked small and fragile holding the bag in front of | |
275 her, prompting Sakura to quickly take it from her, falling in step | |
276 alongside the heiress. Turning to face Syaoran, Sakura smiled | |
277 sheepishly. "I would have picked you up myself, but I don't think | |
278 we'd all fit on my bicycle." | |
279 For a moment, Sakura almost came out of focus in Syaoran's mind. | |
280 This goofy, energetic Japanese girl seemed so normal at first glance. | |
281 And yet she was the most powerful magic user on the planet. The | |
282 dissonance was astounding. Sakura had the power to rebuild the world | |
283 in her image, and yet she got from place to place on a plain bicycle. | |
284 It was hard to imagine that she was the correct successor to the | |
285 great Clow Reed. Syaoran was head of the powerful Li Clan and yet he | |
286 had been passed up for such a simple girl. He slowly managed to place | |
287 Sakura's twin identities of ordinary girl and extraordinary magician | |
288 back together. It could be a bit jarring at times. He hoped Clow | |
289 found the irony amusing. His eyes narrowed as he changed his mind. | |
290 Clow seemed to find everything immensely amusing. | |
291 Women dressed smartly in black opened the doors to the limo as the | |
292 group approached. One took the bags and began to place them in back. | |
293 Climbing into the vehicle, Tomoyo moved to one side to give Sakura | |
294 and Syaoran room together in the middle. Sitting quietly for a long | |
295 moment, Syaoran stared straight ahead. He wasn't a little boy | |
296 anymore, so why was he feeling so nervous? He hated feeling shy and | |
297 nervous about things. Hadn't he gotten over that by now? Wrestling | |
298 his nervous mind back under control, he reached out and took Sakura's | |
299 hand. A small gesture, but he was happy for the victory. He didn't | |
300 want to let his nervousness control him. Sakura squeezed his hand and | |
301 smiled at him. Her offered a small, shy smile in return. It | |
302 disappeared as she rested her head on his shoulder for the car ride. | |
303 Good. Things hadn't changed after all. Everything was just fine. He | |
304 wrapped an arm around the athletic girl and let his chaotic mind come | |
305 to a rest. Gazing out the window, Meiling wished she had fought with | |
306 Fanren more strenuously about coming to Japan. Who was she kidding? | |
307 She wasn't strong enough to handle this. She still loved Syaoran. How | |
308 was she supposed to sit and watch him love someone else? She should | |
309 have stayed home, far away from this pain. Closing her amber eyes, | |
310 she tried to pretend that the warm, wet drops sliding down her cheeks | |
311 were the cleansing rain. | |
312 | |
313 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
314 | |
315 As Tomoyo led the way up to the appartment they shared, Sakura | |
316 helped Syaoran carry the bags. Meiling refused to let anyone help her | |
317 with her own, instead following closely behind the heiress. In many | |
318 ways, it was worse when Sakura was so kind and helpful to her. That | |
319 always robbed Meiling of a target for her anger, leaving all those | |
320 terrible feelings with nowhere to escape. They boiled away inside, | |
321 eating her alive. She felt sick to her stomach as Sakura's bubbly | |
322 voice mingled with Syaoran's behind her about all the things they | |
323 could do. God, did they really have to spend so long in Tomoeda? Her | |
324 mind idly wondered if she could get on a plane back to Hong Kong | |
325 first thing in the morning. It might even be worth looking weak and | |
326 shameful in front of Fanren just to get away from the pain that | |
327 surrounded her in Japan. | |
328 Entering the cutely decorated appartment, the Chinese cousins were | |
329 suitably impressed. Sonomi had made sure that the two girls were well | |
330 taken care of. Their eyes wandered over the appartment as they | |
331 entered, exhanging their shoes with the assortment of slippers by the | |
332 door. The surroundings were an interesting mix of Sakura's taste in | |
333 cute stuffed animals and decorations along with Tomoyo's more | |
334 eccentric tastes in clothing and design and electronics. Suffice it | |
335 to say, milky pink seemed the predominant color in the appartment. | |
336 "Hey, it's the brat! How ya doin'?" | |
337 Wincing at the thickly accented voice, Syaoran was unsurprised to | |
338 find that he hadn't missed the Seal Beast in the slightest. "Better | |
339 than you, I'd suppose. Syaoran's been growing over the past few | |
340 years. You're still bite sized, as always," Meiling remarked. Old | |
341 habits died hard. Kero had always supported Sakura and she had always | |
342 supported Syaoran, quite exuberantly so. The Chinese girl and the | |
343 Guardian of the Cards bickered like children over their chosen | |
344 champions. The fact that Kero had never liked Syaoran didn't really | |
345 help, either. | |
346 Kero's mind went abuzz with Meiling's coment. They certainly | |
347 sounded like fighting words and he was more than up for the | |
348 challenge. Lifting up into the air, he smirked as a slurry of | |
349 remarks, each more stinging than the last, began to take shape. | |
350 Meiling shouldn't have opened the floodgate. She would regret | |
351 challanging him, the great and all powerful Seal Beast. He would | |
352 destroy her in this exchange. His mouth moved to launch his opening | |
353 salvo. "MMmmmhmmhhmmghhhh..." he mumbled around Sakura's | |
354 hand. Laughing nervously, Sakura dragged Kero back towards her room. | |
355 "Go ahead and have a seat. Make yourselves comfortable," she offered. | |
356 Pushing her door open, she tossed Syaoran's bags on her bed and | |
357 pushed Kero in. "Not tonight, Kero-chan," Sakura pleaded. Before Kero | |
358 could answer, the door shut quickly behind him. The Seal Beast | |
359 harumphed indignantly. | |
360 Clapping her hands together in completion, Sakura smiled at the | |
361 small group already sitting on her couch. At least that was out of | |
362 the way. If Syaoran and Meiling were staying with them, the last | |
363 thing she needed was Kero and Meiling arguing the whole time. At | |
364 least Tomoyo had handled things swiftly. The dark haired girl always | |
365 made a great hostess. Tomoyo already had Meiling and Syaoran well | |
366 taken care of and entertained. Syaoran's eyes were glued to the | |
367 screen. Curiosity nagged at Sakura as she approached the couch. What | |
368 were they watching? The sound hit her before she could see the | |
369 screen. That sounded suspiciously like her own voice. Plopping down | |
370 on the couch next to Syaoran, she was rewarded with images of herself | |
371 streaming on the television. "Tomoyo-chan..." she whimpered | |
372 embarrassedly. | |
373 Tomoyo merely smiled sweetly at her and went back to watching the | |
374 video she'd made of Sakura. "I compiled this earlier today. Since you | |
375 haven't seen Sakura in so long, I thought you'd want to see what | |
376 types of things she's been up to," Tomoyo explained. A nod came as | |
377 the only reply from Syaoran as images of Sakura riding her bike and | |
378 wearing costumes and running track all played for them. The brunette | |
379 had gotten exceptionally fast since Syaoran had last seen her. She | |
380 moved like a blur across the screen. For all the magic she had, her | |
381 running was purely Sakura, her determination burning within her as | |
382 she threw herself forward like a shot. | |
383 Sighing to herself, Meiling busied herself with being bored. Bored | |
384 was better than lonely and bitter and hateful. Resting her chin in | |
385 her hands, she wondered what the big deal was with watching Sakura do | |
386 anything. | |
387 The screen switched to Sakura wearing a fairy costume in an | |
388 elevator. She shifted back and forth on her feet as she waited for | |
389 her stop. The camera swept over Sakura's body, highlighting all the | |
390 beautiful curves and lines that composed the Cardmistress. "Sakura- | |
391 chan has a great figure doesn't she, Li-kun?" Tomoyo asked playfully. | |
392 Sakura blushed hotly, followed shortly thereafter by Syaoran as he | |
393 mumbled an affirmative. Sakura was gorgeous. Her body had developed | |
394 nicely over the years. Her athletic frame was sleek and strong. Her | |
395 small breasts curved gently under her dress. Her hair was somewhat | |
396 longer than it had been as a child, hanging lower and framing her | |
397 beautiful face with it's shining emerald eyes. | |
398 Tomoyo sighed dreamily as she watched the part of Sakura she would | |
399 always have. Her images would always be hers, even if Sakura couldn't | |
400 be. They were only a small fraction of Sakura, but they were pieces | |
401 that were hers and hers alone. It was okay if Syaoran had the real | |
402 Sakura. She would always have those glittering shards of her one and | |
403 only. So she collected as many as she could. Disc after disc of | |
404 Sakura. Every single moment she could capture went on those discs. So | |
405 even after Sakura was gone and married, even when everything had | |
406 changed, she would still have those moments forever cast in video. | |
407 "Tomoyo-chan... Do you really need to show all this?" Sakura asked | |
408 hesitantly. She was still blushing in embarrassment. Her blush grew | |
409 deeper when she saw how intently Syaoran was watching the screen. | |
410 "Hoe..." "Of course! You're the prettiest thing we could be watching. | |
411 And there's so much to see. It's been a busy year. I need to make | |
412 sure I catalogue all the important things in your life. Speaking of | |
413 which..." The darked haired girl fished around in her bag, pulling | |
414 out her camcorder. "Now that Li-kun is here, I should be catching all | |
415 of the exciting moments the two of you have. Just pretend I'm not | |
416 even here." The pale girl grinned as she got the two of them in the | |
417 picture. "I don't have many images of Sakura-chan's passionate | |
418 romance. I don't think I even have any good scenes of you two | |
419 kissing." | |
420 The couple lit up red as the heiress filmed them. Tomoyo always had | |
421 been quirky, but she seemed even more so than she had been as a | |
422 child. Syaoran had once told Sakura that Tomoyo would videotape them | |
423 sleeping together if she had the chance. Sakura had been unable to | |
424 argue against that. It wouldn't surprise her at all. There didn't | |
425 seem to be anything that the dark haired girl didn't like recording | |
426 about her. And sometimes Tomoyo seemed more excited about Sakura's | |
427 relationship than Sakura was. "We were... umm... gonna talk. So... | |
428 We'll see you later." Syaoran knew his excuse was lame, but it was | |
429 the best he could do. Despite the fact that Sakura was obviously | |
430 embarrassed, he knew from experience that Sakura would never send | |
431 Tomoyo away from videotaping them. The heiress had videotaped most of | |
432 their date the last time he was in Japan. He had been halfway through | |
433 unbuttoning Sakura's shirt when he realized Tomoyo was still there | |
434 videotaping them. He had been shocked that Sakura hadn't sent Tomoyo | |
435 away after that, merely blushing and waiting. Sakura might not mind | |
436 for whatever reason, but Syaoran wasn't about to make out with Sakura | |
437 on videotape. So it looked like it was up to him to get Sakura and | |
438 leave so they could get some time to themselves. He wished Sakura | |
439 would want more privacy for the two of them, but she never seemed to | |
440 mind the Daidouji girl's presence. | |
441 "We were?" Sakura asked, blinking, turning to Syaoran. A | |
442 disappointed look crossed her face. She was glad Syaoran was here, | |
443 but she didn't want to leave yet. Tomoyo could be a bit embarrassing, | |
444 but in a sweet way. It made her feel more important. She was happy to | |
445 have Tomoyo there, even when she was with Syaoran. It made her feel | |
446 stronger and more confident, like she could handle anything. She was | |
447 shy about everything going on video, but if Tomoyo really wanted to | |
448 catch it all, she didn't mind. In a way, it made it something she and | |
449 Tomoyo could share. She couldn't really talk to Syaoran about | |
450 everything, but she could with Tomoyo. And when Tomoyo was an eye in | |
451 Sakura's life, videotaping it, it was like they shared the | |
452 experience. She could talk to Tomoyo about any of it and Tomoyo would | |
453 understand it all. | |
454 "Yes," Syaoran nodded, leading Sakura to the door. "Have a nice | |
455 night." He bowed quickly. "Don't wait up for us." He hoped they'd | |
456 listen and he could come home with Sakura to a quiet appartment that | |
457 they could be semi-alone in. But he knew Tomoyo would be there, | |
458 waiting for them as always. Sighing, he slid his slippers off. His | |
459 eyes caught on Meiling, who was making a concentrated effort not to | |
460 look his way. For a moment, he balked about leaving the house and | |
461 leaving her alone. Guilt crept up from the pit of his stomach. Gazing | |
462 over, he wished she would look up so he could meet her eyes, to show | |
463 her he was sorry about this, but she refused to look in his | |
464 direction. It was too late now. Sakura already had her shoes and was | |
465 unlocking the door. Syaoran looked apologetically at Meiling, but she | |
466 never saw it. The door closed behind them, leaving the room in | |
467 silence. The television turned off a moment later. "You knew they'd | |
468 leave if you started videotaping them getting frisky," Meiling | |
469 stated, finally turning to look at the heiress who was heading to the | |
470 small kitchen seperated from the living room by a half-wall. | |
471 Nodding thoughtfully, Tomoyo stood on her tiptoes, pulling down | |
472 some wine glasses. "I knew it was a distinct possibility." Turning in | |
473 place, she wandered to the back of the kitchen. Resting her arms on | |
474 the back of the couch, Meiling watched the heiress hurrying about the | |
475 kitchen. "Thanks," she said simply. Life was miserable enough without | |
476 having to sit next to the lovestruck couple. Being close enough to | |
477 get elbowed by the one you love while he makes out with another | |
478 wouldn't have done any favors for her state of mind. | |
479 Reentering the room, Tomoyo offered her a soft smile. Her graceful | |
480 form moved swiftly to the table, setting down the two wine glasses | |
481 and the bottle of wine she had retrieved from the kitchen. "My mother | |
482 left this for me. I think she was hoping it would help facilitate | |
483 some romantic moments with Sakura," she explained, filling up the two | |
484 glasses. | |
485 A bitter smile crossed Meiling's face. "Instead it gets to wash | |
486 away the lonely night while she's galavanting around with her | |
487 boyfriend. Not exactly the same thing." Reaching out, she took a long | |
488 gulp of the wine. It burned as it went down, but she didn't care. Her | |
489 eyes watered, but she blinked away the tears quickly. "How do you | |
490 deal with it? You love her, don't you? So how can you just sit there | |
491 and smile while she loves someone else?" "Of course I love her." | |
492 Tomoyo sat next to Meiling, sipping at her wine. "But if she loves | |
493 someone else, then what else can I do? I want her to be happy. If | |
494 Sakura would be happier with someone else, then that's what I want | |
495 for her. I want to see her happy and loved and cared for. I want to | |
496 be able to watch Sakura's wonderful life as it unfolds her | |
497 her." Meiling shook her head. "You hide behind that damn camcorder | |
498 too much. You figure as long as you're behind the camera, you're not | |
499 here. You're not a part of Sakura's life, so you can try to | |
500 orchestrate it so the girl you love will have a happy ending. Then | |
501 your movie will be perfect. You can just watch it all end happily and | |
502 not actually have to be part of it. But you aren't the director. This | |
503 isn't a movie. You -are- here. You are part of her life. You do love | |
504 her. And she's running off playing grab ass with my goddamn fiancee." | |
505 Slumping back against the couch, the raven haired woman pulled her | |
506 legs up like a sullen child. | |
507 Gazing at the large television that filled the front of the room, | |
508 Tomoyo sat in silence for a moment. "It's simpler that way, isn't it? | |
509 Sakura is my best friend. I love her. I want things to work out for | |
510 her. If I can make her life turn out happily, then that makes me | |
511 happy. I can watch my videos and I'll see her smile and it lights up | |
512 my heart. Because I know she'll be fine. I know her story will have | |
513 turned out perfectly. I can be her guardian angel. I can be a helping | |
514 hand. I can try to be the director to make sure that her life is | |
515 happy. She'll be happy the way my mother never was. Sakura deserves | |
516 her own fairytale and I want to watch it happen. I want to make it | |
517 happen," Tomoyo answered wistfully. Looking into her drink, she took | |
518 another sip. "But what's wrong with you being the one to make her | |
519 happy? You think Syaoran can make her happier, right? But what's | |
520 wrong if you can't make her as happy as he can? You'd try your | |
521 hardest to make her happy. And I know you'd do a good job. Then not | |
522 only would she be happy, but so would you." Meiling sighed. "Maybe | |
523 Sakura can make Syaoran happier than I could. But I love him, damn | |
524 it. And I know I'd do everything I could to make him happy. So maybe | |
525 I wouldn't be as good. But not as good does not mean not good enough. | |
526 I wouldn't just give up because he has a thing for Japanese tomboys." | |
527 Amber eyes followed the slender heiress in the dimly lit living room. | |
528 She could tell that Tomoyo was hesitant, as if she were unsure of | |
529 herself. This was an awkward sight for Meiling. Tomoyo had always | |
530 seemed so calm and controlled, no matter what the situation. She only | |
531 ever seemed out of sorts if Sakura was in danger. | |
532 Taking a longer drink of her wine, Tomoyo paused before answering. | |
533 "I want Sakura to be happy. And I would love to make her happy if I | |
534 could. But I've given up my chance with her. I gave it up years ago. | |
535 I was the one who tried to get Syaoran to tell her how he felt. I | |
536 tried to convince Sakura that she loved him. I was the one who pushed | |
537 them together. So I forfeited my chance with her a long time ago. I | |
538 can't interfere now. They're happy together. I can't threaten that." | |
539 "You were a little girl when you did that! You can't blame yourself | |
540 for something stupid you did years ago. Things have changed. Sakura | |
541 knows you love her now. She wouldn't have understood that back then." | |
542 Meiling waved her hands emphatically nearly spilling her half empty | |
543 drink. "Just because you played a hand in them getting together | |
544 doesn't mean you owe it to them to stay out of it. Life is not a | |
545 movie. It doesn't work out perfectly. You can't just sit back and | |
546 watch things play out for them. You need to live your own life." | |
547 Tomoyo laughed softly. "Sakura's life is much more interesting to | |
548 me. I'd rather just watch how it works out. But yes, I do need to | |
549 live my own life, too. And I do. My life is just very centered around | |
550 Sakura." | |
551 Sighing, Meiling finished off her glass, staring forward and | |
552 hugging her legs with one arm. "I never really did get why everyone's | |
553 so obsessed with her. I'm just as athletic. I'm outgoing, too. I'm | |
554 sure as hell prettier. And I'm a better singer," she finished | |
555 counting down. "So why always her? Why does everyone like her instead | |
556 of me?" | |
557 "Sometimes we're too close to things to see them clearly. Maybe | |
558 Syaoran was always too close to you to tell what he had right in | |
559 front of him." Tomoyo said gently, rubbing Meiling's shoulder. | |
560 Amber eyes suddenly looked up, locking Tomoyo's stormy blue orbs in | |
561 place. "And what about you?" Her voice had lost it's earlier | |
562 conviction. The Chinese martial artist sounded weak and desolate. | |
563 Sipping at her wine, Tomoyo swallowed slowly, tasting the tart | |
564 grapes washing over her tastebuds. For a long moment, she was unsure | |
565 of how to reply. Meiling's eyes shined wetly at her in the dim room. | |
566 "I fell in love with Sakura the first day I met her. And those | |
567 feelings have grown everyday since. It's hard for me to see anyone | |
568 else like that because my heart has belonged to her for so long," | |
569 Tomoyo explained. Meiling nodded weakly, fat, hot tears rolling | |
570 slowly down her cheeks. The room disappeared in front of her, | |
571 replaced with a wet blur. "Yeah... I've loved Syaoran since I was a | |
572 little girl... I always..." She sniffled before continuing. | |
573 "...always just wanted to be with him... I just... just wanted to be | |
574 good enough...." Her chest heaved as she tried in vain to catch her | |
575 breath. She angrily held her legs tighter, angry at herself for being | |
576 so weak, for breaking down so completely. She bit the inside of her | |
577 cheek to keep her lips from trembling, the blood warm and coppery in | |
578 her mouth. | |
579 Tomoyo's soft arms wrapped around the shuddering girl, holding | |
580 Meiling close as she began to cry softly. Her nimble hands ran up and | |
581 down the raven haired girl's back comfortingly. They were the | |
582 casualties of love, those who were left on the wayside in the | |
583 process, forgotten and alone. It seemed a terrible price to pay. | |
584 Whereas Tomoyo had always been ready to sacrifice herself for | |
585 Sakura's happiness and love with another, Meiling had never consented | |
586 to that. Life had made that decision for her. Now both of their loves | |
587 were in the arms of each other while they sat in a dark appartment | |
588 drinking wine and reminiscing about their lost loves. | |
589 Shaking lightly as sobs tried to break free of her chest, Meiling's | |
590 chin rested on Tomoyo's shoulder. Her warm, wet tears slid down her | |
591 cheeks, soaking through the dress to Tomoyo's pale skin underneath. | |
592 "Sakura's an idiot for not being able to see what she could have had | |
593 in you," Meiling whispered softly, her voice weighed down by tears. | |
594 The arms that encircled Meiling were warm and sympathetic, cradling | |
595 her close. They held a pained understanding of the wounds in | |
596 Meiling's heart and just how deep they went. The heiress was soft and | |
597 comfortable, her gentle caresses soothing the Chinese girl's weary | |
598 spirits. Tomoyo understood her in ways that no one else could. They | |
599 were the same, after all. Always loving, but never loved. Always | |
600 supporting, but left with nothing to lean on when they were in need. | |
601 Maybe Meiling couldn't just wait to be loved. Maybe she had to find | |
602 it. | |
603 Hands resting on Tomoyo's shoulder to support herself, Meiling | |
604 slowly managed to sit up to look back at Tomoyo. Tear streaked amber | |
605 eyes pleaded with their stormy blue counterparts. Tomoyo's gaze | |
606 remained fixed on Meiling, compassionate and understanding and... | |
607 unsure. That was enough for Meiling. Leaning forward, her trembling | |
608 lips brushed Tomoyo's inexpertly, her fingers holding Tomoyo's | |
609 slender shoulders sharply as if she were afraid the heiress would | |
610 disappear if she let go. She'd never kissed a girl before. It felt | |
611 strange, but exhilerating. Freeing. All this time she had chased | |
612 after Syaoran and he had resisted. Tomoyo's petal soft lips felt | |
613 receptive, accepting of the quick, hesitant kisses she placed on | |
614 them. She grew more adventurous, her pain and loneliness eased by the | |
615 understanding inside of the heiress, the flames eating away inside of | |
616 her cooled by Tomoyo's gentle presence. Her kisses met Tomoyo's lips | |
617 for longer and longer, loving the way they gave against hers, how | |
618 they melded to her own lips. Her hands pulled the lavender haired | |
619 girl closer desperately, their dark hair mingling as the kisses | |
620 continued. | |
621 Meiling kissed her more hungrily as Tomoyo's fingers continued to | |
622 caress up and down her strong back. The Chinese girl's body was so | |
623 similar to Sakura's. So strong and lean and athletic. The way | |
624 Meiling's muscles felt under her hands reminded her of Sakura's. Even | |
625 Meiling's small breasts felt similar to Sakura's when they would hug. | |
626 If she couldn't have Sakura, then wasn't this the next best thing? | |
627 Tomoyo's mind wavered at the thought. It was so very tempting. She | |
628 wouldn't have to worry about ruining Sakura's relationship. And | |
629 Meiling felt so insistent. She felt a connection to the other girl | |
630 that could only be born of the flames of their shared suffering. | |
631 Meiling's tongue was playing inside of her mouth. It took Tomoyo a | |
632 moment to realize that her own tongue was responding. Her fingers | |
633 played through Meiling's silky pigtails, feeling herself held tightly | |
634 to Meiling's body. Meiling's tongue playing across her own, their | |
635 bodies pressed together, Tomoyo understood just how far the raven | |
636 haired girl was willing to go. Meiling never did like to do anything | |
637 halfway. But would that be so bad? To forget about Sakura for one | |
638 night... To lose herself in Meiling... Meiling obviously wanted that. | |
639 And she wanted to give that to her. But.... | |
640 But she still loved Sakura. And Meiling still loved Syaoran. Tomoyo | |
641 slowly pulled away, Meiling's breath hot against her lips. | |
642 "Meiling..." the heiress whispered softly. | |
643 It felt as if Meiling had awoken from a trance as Tomoyo put an end | |
644 to the moment. Shame crashed down across Meiling. Here she was in | |
645 Sakura's appartment, making out with the girl's best friend. Her | |
646 weakness had been so open, so obvious. She had succumbed to it, right | |
647 in front of Tomoyo. She'd been so desperate for companionship, for | |
648 understanding, that she had been willing, no, eager, to kiss another | |
649 girl. No, even more than that. She would have gladly given her body | |
650 to Tomoyo, she knew. Her face burned and her anger with herself | |
651 returned. What the hell was wrong with her? Just how weak was she? | |
652 Sliding off the couch, Meiling bowed slightly as she excused | |
653 herself. "I need to get to sleep," she said curtly and turned to | |
654 leave. Her bags were in Tomoyo's room, she remembered with a pang. | |
655 She hoped she could fall asleep before she had to face the other girl | |
656 again. "Meiling, please..." Tomoyo pleaded. But if the Chinese girl | |
657 heard her, she made no sign, simply retreating to the back room. | |
658 Sighing heavily, the heiress hugged a pillow and curled up on the | |
659 couch. Couldn't she help anyone? | |
660 | |
661 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
662 | |
663 Sakura slipped quietly out of bed, careful not to awaken Syaoran's | |
664 sleeping form. Her pajama pants lay somewhere on the floor, a | |
665 testament to the time the two lovers had spent fooling around | |
666 earleir. It had felt so nice, but it had brought too many thoughts | |
667 unbidden to Sakura's mind, so she had stopped it short. It had indeed | |
668 felt wonderful, but so had her time with Tomoyo. What she could | |
669 remember of it, at any rate. As Syaoran's hands had traced patterns | |
670 over her bare skin, memories of Tomoyo's hands traveling similar | |
671 paths had grown stronger. Now she couldn't even sleep. | |
672 Leaving her pants somewhere in the darkness after a moment's | |
673 fruitless search, Sakura padded silently out to the living room. She | |
674 needed to clear her head. Why was an intimate moment with her | |
675 boyfriend competing with memories of being drunk and in the arms of | |
676 her best friend? Why was her heart so torn? She liked being with | |
677 Syaoran. But those half-remembered moments with Tomoyo refused to | |
678 leave her alone. | |
679 "You couldn't sleep either?" a soft voice asked through the | |
680 darkness. Tomoyo smiled at her startled friend. The heiress took a | |
681 moment to appreciate the gorgeous pair of legs she could see in | |
682 Sakura's current state of undress. "Would you like some tea? I made | |
683 it just a little while ago, so it should still be warm." | |
684 Taking a moment to regain her composure, Saura took a seat next to | |
685 her pale wraith of a friend. "Thanks, Tomoyo." Accepting the cup, her | |
686 thoughts continued their jumbled rounds through her head. Hot tea | |
687 washed away her sleepiness, leaving her thoughts crisp and clear in | |
688 the night. The tea cup nearly burned her hands, but she held it | |
689 tightly. The pain was real and present, not some memory of the past. | |
690 Tomoyo's love for her had been no secret for years now, but | |
691 Sakura's complex feelings for the heiress had always been explained | |
692 away as mere friendship. She had been intimate with Syaoran on | |
693 several occasions. He was her boyfriend, so that made perfect sense. | |
694 But now, she had also been intimate with her best friend. And had | |
695 loved it. Was it simply the alcohal mixed with her incredibly close | |
696 friendship to Tomoyo? Or was there more to it than that? Did she | |
697 honestly like being with Tomoyo in that way? Touya had told her of | |
698 plenty of stupid things he had seen people do while drunk. Where her | |
699 actions just another stupid, alcohal induced event? Another long sip | |
700 of the hot liquid helped burn away her reluctance like sunlight | |
701 through the morning fog. She was left with a strong sense of | |
702 determination where the confusion had been moments before. A need to | |
703 know, to understand if it had just been a mistake or not. Like Tomoyo | |
704 had said, did she want them to have slept together? | |
705 "What are you doing up?" Sakura asked at last. | |
706 Tomoyo's hands moved methodically through the darkness, dancing in | |
707 the shadows. The fact that she was sewing had, up till now, entirely | |
708 escaped Sakura. " I let Meiling use my room, so I've been out here | |
709 all night. I thought I'd get some sewing done while I was at it. I | |
710 was in the kitchen when you and Syaoran came in, but you seemed..." | |
711 she paused, searching for the right words, "like you would rather not | |
712 be disturbed, so I let you go back to your room without any | |
713 interruptions." A blush played across Sakura's cheeks. They had been | |
714 somewhat... frisky when they had gotten home. She'd thought no one | |
715 was awake when they'd entered the appartment. Her blush disappeared, | |
716 replaced with a frown. Tomoyo's tone was perfectly cheerful, but | |
717 Sakura had learned over the years that just because Tomoyo sounded | |
718 fine didn't always mean that the dark haired girl was. "You shouldn't | |
719 be up so late. Between classes, studying and working for your mother, | |
720 you need your sleep, Tomoyo. You're so..." The brunette trailed off. | |
721 Watching the pale girl in the darkness, she wanted to say frail, | |
722 fragile. Tomoyo was a delicate China doll and sometimes Sakura was | |
723 frightened that the slightest thing would shatter her best friend. "I | |
724 worry about you," she said instead. | |
725 A warm smile met Sakura's emerald eyes as Tomoyo placed a slender | |
726 hand atop Sakura's. Sakura's hand turned under Tomoyo's to take it | |
727 and hold it, to keep it safe and protected in her own. "I'm glad you | |
728 would worry about me. I'm happy you'd care so much. But I'll be fine, | |
729 Sakura." It always made her ecstatic to know she could be so | |
730 important to Sakura, but she didn't want to concern the other girl | |
731 too much. Her mother had spent too many sleepless nights worrying | |
732 about her, especially whenever she would get sick, and she didn't | |
733 want to do the same to Sakura. She would be fine no matter what | |
734 happened. She just wanted Sakura and her mother to be happy. Worrying | |
735 about her all the time wouldn't help that. | |
736 Once again, Sakura was reminded of how what Tomoyo said and how she | |
737 felt were not always one and the same. Reaching out tentatively, the | |
738 Cardmistress's fingertips began to stroke Tomoyo's soft, dark hair. | |
739 It felt so nice and silken against her fingers, sliding under her | |
740 touch. Tomoyo rested her head on Sakura's shoulder in response, her | |
741 long, lavender hair cascading down Sakura's back. The brunette's | |
742 breath caught for a moment, but her fingers continued stroking her | |
743 friend's long, curly hair. Tomoyo felt so soft and warm against her | |
744 side. It was as if Tomoyo was melting into her. Soft curves met | |
745 Sakura's own, the two merging into one. | |
746 Tomoyo breathed softly, her lavender eyes slipping shut. The night | |
747 had been a long, confusing one. She was glad to be with Sakura now, | |
748 away from the loneliness and confusion that had played out earlier. | |
749 Even if her love was an unrequited one, she was still happiest when | |
750 she was close to the girl she loved. She could lie there with | |
751 Sakura's fingers gently stroking her hair forever. Something that | |
752 felt like Sakura's nose pressed against her hair and her lips curved | |
753 in a soft smile. Sakura's warm breath tickled her through her hair. | |
754 Snuggling closer against Sakura's side, Tomoyo wished the night | |
755 wouldn't end. When the morning light spilt through the windows, this | |
756 dream would be forgotten without so much as a video to remember it | |
757 by. Syaoran would wake up and Sakura would remember that she loved | |
758 him and this would be nothing more than a moment that had slipped | |
759 away like a grain of sand. Why was it that the moments she loved most | |
760 with Sakura were always the ones she couldn't videotape? Fate was | |
761 cruel. Now if only... | |
762 Tomoyo's thoughts were quickly forgotten. A soft squeak escaped her | |
763 lips, a brief intake of air and a gasp of surpirse from her musical | |
764 voice. Sakura's strong, free hand had slid up over her stomach, | |
765 cupping one of the heiress's breasts through her nightgown. Sakura's | |
766 lips replaced her nose in Tomoyo's hair, kissing her head softly. | |
767 Confusion spun a web through the dark haired girl's mind, slowing her | |
768 thoughts down to a crawl. She usually understood Sakura better than | |
769 anyone, so the Mistress of the Cards' current behavior took her | |
770 completely by surprise. She was torn between her instincts to protect | |
771 Sakura's relationship with Syaoran and her own need for Sakura. Her | |
772 usual calm, collected nature in shambles, Tomoyo remained silent for | |
773 the moment, squirming slightly under her friend's questing hands. | |
774 Force of will pushed Sakura's embarrassment far away from her mind. | |
775 Tomoyo felt so wonderfu, so perfect, both against her and under her | |
776 fingertips. She squeezed Tomoyo's breast experimentally, marvelling | |
777 at how soft Tomoyo felt and how the skin melded to her palm. She | |
778 delighted in the gasp it ellicited from Tomoyo. Tomoyo's excited | |
779 gasps were so different from Syaoran's restrained groans. She loved | |
780 the way it sounded, how it let her know how much Tomoyo enjoyed what | |
781 she was doing to her. Sometimes so was so unsure of whether or not | |
782 she was doing the right thing with Syaoran. It was great to know how | |
783 Tomoyo felt about her ministrations. Her hand left Tomoyo's somewhat | |
784 larger chest and travelled back to the heiress's bare legs. Tomoyo | |
785 spread her legs invitingly making room for Sakura's hand. It caressed | |
786 up and down Tomoyo's right thigh, feeling the warmth under pale, | |
787 silky skin. | |
788 It hadn't been the alcohal, Sakura decided. Her heart sang at the | |
789 way Tomoyo shuddered when she suckled on her earlobe. She felt so... | |
790 alive. Like her body crackled with electricity. Tomoyo always made | |
791 her happy and being with her like this was no different. It was still | |
792 Tomoyo, but so much closer. So much warmer. So much more... hers. Her | |
793 kisses along Tomoyo's jawline caught the other girl's attention and | |
794 her best friend's lips quickly met her own. They were warm and wet | |
795 and delicious. They licked and kissed at her own passionately and | |
796 Sakura could do nothing but give into them. | |
797 | |
798 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ | |
799 | |
800 Yawning sleepily, Syaoran wandered through his girlfriend's | |
801 apparment half awake. It had been strange to wake up in a place that | |
802 was so... cute. He'd been disoriented to wake up to such a heavy dose | |
803 of pink around the appartment. He hoped Sakura could refrain from | |
804 decking out their home like that when they got married. He couldn't | |
805 imagine waking up to milky pink every morning. | |
806 The shower was going, but he couldn't figure out who it was. | |
807 Probably Sakura, since she hadn't been in bed when he'd woken up. He | |
808 considered going in to join her. It had been a long day the day | |
809 before and the flight had been exhausting. And a shower with Sakura | |
810 would certainly wake him up this morning. A small smile crossed his | |
811 lips as he made up his mind. It was nice not to be a country away | |
812 from Sakura for the moment. He certainly couldn't be with her like | |
813 that from and ocean away. | |
814 The bathroom door opened quietly under Syaoran's hand. Beautiful | |
815 humming came from the shower, a syren's song drawing him ever closer. | |
816 His amber eyes went to the shower as he filled up the doorway. | |
817 "Sakura..." His voice trailed off as Tomoyo turned to look at him. | |
818 Her pale body was wet and entirely naked. His mind vaguely made note | |
819 that her breasts were a bit larger than Sakura's. Her body was soft | |
820 and curvy and slender, not like Sakura's athlete's body. Stormy blue | |
821 eyes met his and the humming stopped immediately. "I.. uhh..." | |
822 Syaoran stammered, his face going a deep shade of crimson. | |
823 Oddly enough, Tomoyo seemed hardly embarrassed, simply covering | |
824 herself with her hands and offering a sympathetic smile. "Sakura's | |
825 not here," she explained helpfully. "She was in the living room when | |
826 I came in here." For a moment, she wondered if Syaoran had understood | |
827 her. He finally nodded and gave her a mumbled thanks. Wondering idly | |
828 what Syaoran would have done if it had been Sakura in the shower, | |
829 Tomoyo resumed her humming. | |
830 Slamming the door quickly, Syaoran took a long moment to compose | |
831 himself. It took a while for the blood to drain from his face. Tomoyo | |
832 was certainly beautiful... He shook his head quickly to force the | |
833 idea out of his mind. Daidouji was the last person he wanted to be | |
834 thinking about. She'd always been that crazy friend of Sakura's. | |
835 Though she had always been helpful to him. If it hadn't been for her, | |
836 he never would have told Sakura how he felt about her. | |
837 Deciding it was best to pretend that hadn't happened, Syaoran | |
838 continued his search for Sakura. He made his way to the living room, | |
839 but Sakura was curiously missing. In her place sat Meiling, sitting | |
840 on the couch in front of the large television Tomoyo seemed so fond | |
841 of watching her videos on. "Meiling, have you seen Sakura?" he asked. | |
842 The murderous look Meiling gave him chilled his blood. He wondered if | |
843 perhaps he had said the wrong thing. | |
844 "She's in the kitchen. I think she's making breakfast or something. | |
845 I would've made something, but I don't know my way around the | |
846 kitchen." Her gaze went back to the television. Nothing was on, but | |
847 she seemed to be content to focus on it. Her thoughts were busy | |
848 elsewhere anyway. She was still ashamed of her actions the night | |
849 before. Crossing one leg on top of the other, she rested back on the | |
850 couch, trying to appear perfectly content. The affect on Syaoran was | |
851 more that he was afraid to bother her again. That worked just as well. | |
852 Entering the kitchen, Syaoran finally found his girlfriend. She, | |
853 too, was humming to herself. Her apron hugged her body cutely. Flour | |
854 and batter left her looking like she walked through a small cooking | |
855 warzone, but the smell coming from the oven was delicious. Sakura | |
856 could be flighty, but when she put her mind to something, she could | |
857 do an incredible job. "Good morning, Syaoran," Sakura said happily, | |
858 kissing his cheek as he entered the kitchen. She went back to | |
859 whisking something in a bowl, keeping an eye on a timer near the | |
860 oven. | |
861 Deciding that dark haired girls were merely crazy this early in the | |
862 morning, Syaoran was glad to see that Sakura was her usual energetic | |
863 self. It was good to be away from all the Li Clan business and back | |
864 with the girl he loved. He wrapped his arms around her from behind, | |
865 holding her body close to his. Kissing the back of her neck under her | |
866 short hair, he was glad to feel her snuggling back against him. | |
867 Sakura was happy. The confusion that had seemed to consume her life | |
868 lately had, for now, abated. She knew how she felt now. She loved | |
869 Syaoran. She loved Tomoyo. The night before had helped her to | |
870 understand that. She had stayed up with Tomoyo late into the night. | |
871 They had held each other and talked until they had finally fallen | |
872 asleep in each others arms. Syaoran and Tomoyo both made her happy. | |
873 Her feelings were no longer such a mystery to her, making even her | |
874 own actions indecipherable. At some time, it would be necessary for | |
875 her to figure out what to do about this revelation. But for now, she | |
876 was simply happy. And very, very much in love. |