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rlm@2 1 Summer Breeze
rlm@2 2 Psychokittensenshi611
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rlm@2 4 Her hands felt like the warm summer breeze on my cheeks. "You can’t
rlm@2 5 love me." She said it like a rule; a law. Somewhere, it had been written that I
rlm@2 6 would not, could not feel this emotion that ran deep inside my veins alongside my
rlm@2 7 blood.
rlm@2 8 "I do!" I wanted to shout at her, but it came out as only a whisper. I was
rlm@2 9 so afraid, yet so contented just to be with her. "I love you"...
rlm@2 10 "But you can’t!" She was able to shout out me. She pulled me closer to
rlm@2 11 her face, her sweet breath like dark purple irises on my lips. "You’re... you are
rlm@2 12 everything I can not be. You’re...so pure...so utterly pure." She closed her eyes
rlm@2 13 and bent her head, as if to avoid staring back into mine. "I can never be what
rlm@2 14 you deserve."
rlm@2 15 My heart felt like it would sink down in my chest or rise above it at any
rlm@2 16 moment. Couldn’t she see? Couldn’t she open her eyes and her heart? "I don’t
rlm@2 17 know what I deserve"but you’re what I want. You’re everything I could ever
rlm@2 18 want and you’re what I need." She was shaking, her hands were shaking on my
rlm@2 19 cheeks. The breeze was faltering. "Hotaru-chan, please," I touched her chin
rlm@2 20 gently.
rlm@2 21 She looked up at me once again, tears trickling down her pale cheeks in
rlm@2 22 small rivers of diamond tears. "Oh Chibi-Usa," her lips shook out the words.
rlm@2 23 "How could you want me?" I wiped the tears gently from her cheeks. "I’m...the
rlm@2 24 darkness"and you’re the light. You are life and I am death." She looked down
rlm@2 25 at her knees again. "How could you love me?"
rlm@2 26 "You’re wrong, Hotaru-chan!" I could feel my heart rising higher, into my
rlm@2 27 breasts and hands and feet, spreading inside of me. "You may be death, but you
rlm@2 28 are also rebirth. You begin life, starting anew in a cycle that I have yet to
rlm@2 29 understand." I leaned close into her face, wanting to feel her iris breath again.
rlm@2 30 "You are everything I could ever want, Hotaru-chan. You are beauty in the
rlm@2 31 darkness. You are my light." Her lips were so close to mine. "How could I not
rlm@2 32 want you?"
rlm@2 33 Her face flushed, pale cheeks that never seemed to tan turning a light
rlm@2 34 crimson. "Don’t say that, please don’t say that…"
rlm@2 35 And, suddenly, it didn’t seem to matter to her what she had shouted
rlm@2 36 before. When I leaned in just enough to feel her soft, full lips upon mine…well,
rlm@2 37 that was the end of everything and the beginning of something completely new. I
rlm@2 38 could feel her hands at the base of my neck, tugging at the ends of my hair. I
rlm@2 39 couldn’t stop myself from touching her pale arms, letting my hands meander up
rlm@2 40 to her shoulders and down her back. She was so warm, so soft, like sheets of
rlm@2 41 silk left out in the sun. I felt her lips pull away slightly from mine, and I moved
rlm@2 42 away a bit, just enough to end the kiss but still to feel her warmth. She sighed
rlm@2 43 heavily onto my cheek and rested her head on my shoulder.
rlm@2 44 "Chibi-Usa," she said, her voice barely above a whisper. "We can’t be
rlm@2 45 together like this."
rlm@2 46 "What do you mean?" I nuzzled my head on top of hers, catching the
rlm@2 47 scent of her hair. Lilacs. I smiled.
rlm@2 48 "We can’t be…be lovers." She moved slightly, her voice slightly softer.
rlm@2 49 "You’re to become Princess of Crystal Tokyo in the future. You are going to
rlm@2 50 inherit a crown. You can’t…be with me…"
rlm@2 51 "Hotaru-chan." I felt that warm, rose colored feeling rise in my chest once
rlm@2 52 again. Sparks could fly off of my fingertips. Mountains would crumple at my very
rlm@2 53 whim…or at hers. I could do anything with this feeling. I could do anything with
rlm@2 54 her. "I want you, I need you. I love you. All that I ask of you is that you give me
rlm@2 55 a chance, you give us a chance." She sobbed lightly into the curve of my neck.
rlm@2 56 "Please, Hotaru-chan…the future isn’t unchangeable. Just me coming to the
rlm@2 57 past all these times has changed it."
rlm@2 58 "But…"
rlm@2 59 "Hush, Hotaru-chan." I cradled her head close to mine. I smiled slightly.
rlm@2 60 "Normally, I’m the one crying to you." We both chuckled a bit. "Hotaru-chan, I
rlm@2 61 just want you to…to let me love you. Just for awhile."
rlm@2 62 "But don’t you see? Can’t you see that if I let you then – "
rlm@2 63 "Then what?"
rlm@2 64 She paused, moving away from me and wiping her tears. "Chibi-
rlm@2 65 Usa…this can’t work."
rlm@2 66 "No, what would happen?"
rlm@2 67 "Don’t you see, it can’t work, because – "
rlm@2 68 "No, don’t ignore me." I pulled her closer once again. "What would
rlm@2 69 happen if you and I became a couple?"
rlm@2 70 She was quiet, just staring back into my eyes and quivering a bit in my
rlm@2 71 arms. She didn’t even seem to breathe. Her lovely, thin frame rest so close to
rlm@2 72 mine on the floor of her dimly lit room. Pale hands and feet seemed even paler
rlm@2 73 in comparison to her dark clothes. My little black angel. "I can’t tell you…not
rlm@2 74 now…"
rlm@2 75 "What is it, Hotaru-chan?" I pulled her onto my knees. "I’ve told you a
rlm@2 76 secret I’ve kept from you for awhile now. Why can’t you tell me?"
rlm@2 77 She swallowed audibly. "I’ve loved you for as long as I can remember.
rlm@2 78 Since I first met you, Chibi-Usa. And if we are together, and I let myself love
rlm@2 79 you…it’ll just be like everyone else. I don’t want you to leave…to go away like
rlm@2 80 everyone I’ve loved…"
rlm@2 81 "I could never go away from you." I couldn’t feel anything for a minute. It
rlm@2 82 was like my heart stopped beating in my chest. My veins continued only to pump
rlm@2 83 the crimson feeling of love I felt for her. And then, whenever my heart decided to
rlm@2 84 start up again, I was kissing her. It was with a kind of fierceness that she kissed
rlm@2 85 me back. Her small caresses and fierce kisses and explorations made me weak
rlm@2 86 in my knees.
rlm@2 87 The silver and golden rays of sunlight drifted into Hotaru’s room. I just lay
rlm@2 88 there for awhile, surrounded by her sweet scent and wrapped in her arms. The
rlm@2 89 shadows of tree leaves left dark spots across her blanket and bare midriff. I
rlm@2 90 couldn’t help but stare at her. God, she was beautiful. Lying there like that. Her
rlm@2 91 hair a bit messed up, strands sprawled out behind her head on her pillow. Her
rlm@2 92 eyes were closed, but I knew them with just a memory. Dark purple, almost
rlm@2 93 black, deep as any ocean but clear as a sunny sky. How could one human being
rlm@2 94 be so perfect, so utterly beautiful in every way? How could someone like her
rlm@2 95 love someone like me?
rlm@2 96 I kissed her shoulders, just for the feeling of her silken skin on my lips.
rlm@2 97 There was nothing more I wanted in the world than to be there with her, lying in
rlm@2 98 her comfortable bed, bathed in the strong light of the sun or the pale, comforting
rlm@2 99 light of the moon. There was no other place that could soothe me like this. Her
rlm@2 100 arms were my only shelter, her lips my only release.
rlm@2 101 She stirred a bit, her muscles moving slightly underneath my lips and
rlm@2 102 hands. I rested my head by her breast, loving the sound of her heart beating
rlm@2 103 beneath my ears. Her breathing relaxed me…deep and smooth and soft all at
rlm@2 104 once. I closed my eyes, just loving the feel of her beside me, underneath me, all
rlm@2 105 around me.